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death, it takes too long, and I can't wait

[wiltedhumanskin]

I don't want to care anymore

[wiltedhumanskin]

I've seen like 30k essays about ethel cain preacher's daughter. yall are annoying asf. that's why hayden used to hate you guys

[wiltedhumanskin]

every now and then i delete all socials and disappear. some say knowing nothing makes you happier. let's try again

[wiltedhumanskin]

sometimes i really think about having no social media that's about scrolling down on videos. but i just can't help it. it's addictive, but it consumes me. my fyp's are always so depressing and annoyingly exhausting

[wiltedhumanskin]

oddities are, nowadays, one of my most favorite interests again

[wiltedhumanskin]

wish, wish, wish

I NEED DETERMINATION AND OPPORTUNITIES

[wiltedhumanskin]

if you prayed it and it's still not working. manifest it, then.

[wiltedhumanskin]

i am an English teacher and i will get a full time job as an English teacher so i can earn a lot of money and be free

[wiltedhumanskin]

i know my relationship with my dad isn't the greatest but i still adore the times we're good.

i still wish i could have good work and earn a lot of money to move out and visit whenever i want, but it's definitely not happening soon. having a job is literally impossible under this fucking administration

[wiltedhumanskin]

sometimes i just argue with my dad because he's so victim coded and just call it a day

[tankhall]

i do not know how to speak anymore

[tankhall]

[wiltedhumanskin]

this is beautiful

[wiltedhumanskin]

sometimes i truly do not understand why my parents seem to think I'm not grateful for the things they've done for me. of course i am grateful, but do not think that me not giving or expressing affection after all they did when i was young means i am not grateful. if they cannot remember, well, i do. and of course that doesn't justify my lack of affection towards them, but i just simply can't do it.

i am not a victim from what i am aware of, but it's silly for them to think i am not grateful even when i decided to move with them after being separated for 5 years. don't get me wrong, i am truly grateful for how my dad financially supported me when i was in uni; it's just that i cannot be going 24/7 thanking them for that. that's not how people who are grateful act.

who i am grateful 24/7 is to God. he's the one that deserves all glory. not them. and that doesn't mean i am not grateful, became (i repeat myself once again) I AM GRATEFUL.

sometimes i believe they think i have left all behind. and yes, i have tried. but me not showing affection to them is not entirely my fault, isn't it? and sadly, that's how it is. i can work on it, sure, but do not expect i bend my knees to their feet. I won't do it whatsoever.

[wiltedhumanskin]

i love jesus so much... idk, it's just a kind of love that's different and unique.

[wiltedhumanskin]

we're living in a constant spiritual war... I'm so conscious about it that i can see it in people. it wants me to shut up, but I won't. this is happening to everybody. all of us.

[mothercain-deactivated20231124]

preacher’s daughter. the official artwork. out may 12th ♡

[wiltedhumanskin]

aaahh men! by doja cat is such a bop wtf...

[wiltedhumanskin]

literally that whole album is a whole vibe... i remember I'd go to work and listen to this whole album from first to last track on loop. i miss that