Every now and again I come back to this blog. I am 31 now, which means I have had tumblr for well over 15 years. I have read the posts I wrote questioning my own future so I am going to answer my past self here.
You did end up moving overseas by yourself in the end. You lived in Canada for nearly 2 years and it was easily THE most magical decision you have ever made in your life.
Alex wasn't the one and he made you miserable because he was a miserable person (and potentially gay). He's actually had 3 different girlfriends since you broke up 3 years ago in 2023. The most recent looks about 26 despite how much grief he gave you about being too young. Leopards and their spots etc etc.
You're currently dating a boyfriend who actually makes you laugh so much you cry. I think deep down you knew that this was the kind of love that dances through time. He loves you innocently, purely and wholeheartedly.
The 30s are definitely better than the 20's, the main negatives though of this decade so far is that there is more grief. Some of your friends have lost a parent and a lot grandparents by now. Yours are alive, but they are getting very old now.
At 31, I can barely remember being 21. At 21, I used to think dating a 25 year old boy was so old at the time and I look at 25 year old men now and realise how young they are.
You've become a really great cook btw
Your diet gets better at 31, you barely eat fast food anymore. I do drink a lot of wine though....
Corporates are still trying to make me feel my deep purpose as a human being should be deeply intwined and in alignment with my private sector job. It's really really weird.
Your friends are still amazing and beautiful people
Can confirm, you still don't want children yet
You still have a love-hate relationship with Melbourne. There's too many people here now and it's getting quite big-city-overstimulating.
