I'm officially Winda Meilani Blal
August 27th 2017, I've married with my prince, my kind of guardian angel. No matter what had happened I found the reason why I live in this way, not with someone else, not there, not be someone that I was always dreaming of..
I had my "clicked" moment when my mind opened eagerly to something different, beyond what I had expected in fast phases. Time flies and I had forgotten of the plans. Yes he has blinded me.
He took me to different kinds of ideas, how we live based on the fortune.. just like what we're having now. What comforts us, what makes us happy, how to get it, without questioning why this is happening to us.
Then I realized, YOLO, I live only once! The money goes and returns, let's have enough money to fulfill our basic needs, don't buy things for money that you don't have, to impress people that you don't know. Problems come and go, don't waste your whole day thinking of them. Be open minded, the most important is, YOU ARE AN ADULT NOW and YOU ARE MARRIED!
Nothing lasts forever, up and down. Sometimes we have money, sometimes, we broke. Sometimes we can laugh, sometimes we can fight. Sometimes we can travel, sometimes we can stay at home. But one thing that mustn't change is not love, but "chemistry" between us.
I found my own peace with him, that's one of my idea why I married him. I know exactly how I was and how I lived before I knew him. It was a hurricane.. it's like I'm picking up my own puzzles, he's my clue.
Sometimes I wonder why did he pick me among those pretty chicks? I have nothing to returns his favors, I'm away from perfectness. Will he betray me after all?
I have no trust issue against him, nor something to doubt about him. I let go and let it flow as it is, I repent to God as I believe there would be a man could save me. What's in my head that what he has done, can't be done by someone else like nowadays, that's it.. Like I said, love is not our priority. We both are not perfect, maybe he found something that make him completely in piece, just like what I get, yeah, who knows.. The biggest mystery and misery of him? See.. he made himself always in my mind.
And one thing, I have no job to work as a wife, I'm free in his arms. It's actually away from the "protocols" but he doesn't mind. He teaches me to be responsible by his own way, and I like it. So he really knows how to treats my traits well. He simply said, I've ever been in that age before.. LOL..
Let's see what else I can explore next time about him, about us . As we know, tomorrow is always a mystery :)