Hopelessly Devoted
peter parker x reader
3.5k words!
After 5 months in a relationship with flash, you start to get bored. Everyday feels the same with him , and everyday for those 5 months you close your eyes and wish it was peter. And everyday for those same 5 months peter has been biting his tongue, waiting for you to wake up and realize you deserve better, waiting for you to realize he can give you what you crave so deeply.
Fluff! some angst? I hope you enjoy!!
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Ive been dating flash for 5 months, its ok? I mean it feels normal, but basic normal not fun normal. Sure, he's rich, he throws good parties, he buys me nice things, but he's so boring. I don't feel the spark that you're supposed to feel, the same thing goes on every single day. He picks me up, we make out, we go to school, we leave, we make out, where is the joy? Where is the fun? Where is the walking in the park at 10 o'clock and talking about our deepest secrets, where's the sneaking in and trying to stop our giggling, The fights where he comes running in the rain crying and telling me how sorry he is.
I know its high expectations, but when you grow up with super lovey dovey parents that's all you see. You see the joy and the spark that they've kept for 30 years, and that's what I want. I want that every consuming love for another person, where no matter what they did you'd look at them like they hung the moon. That's what I want. Why don't I break up with him, you're wondering? Because it's the fear of what if this is it. What if this is all I deserve. I worry that no one will ever like me again and I'll die forever alone, so I wait. I wait to feel just a tiny spark between us. I wait to feel loved.
“You need to break up with him, Y/n” Mj complains.
“Its not that easy,” I open my locker putting away all my books away. A photo of me, Ned, mj, and peter hangs on the side.
“It actually is that easy,” She adds. “Just say, “hey jerk i hate you bye,” I roll my eyes fixing my hair in the mirror that hangs on my locker door.
“I don't know, maybe he’ll change” I shrug, closing my locker.
“You’ve said this for months, and he hasn't," She says standing up straight. “You deserve better, Y/n, I'm serious.”
“Thank you,” I smile, pulling her in for a hug, she stiffens and pats my back awkwardly.
“Ok-lets go to lunch,” She says, pulling away. I let her go and nod as we walk to the lunch room.
We get there and dash walks over sliding an arm around my shoulder. I try to hide my disappointed face as Mj walks over to Ned and Peter, and I'm just stuck over here.
“Hey babe, i think im gonna go sit with MJ, ok? I ask pulling his arm off of my shoulder.
“Why would you want to sit with those losers?” He asks with a snicker.
I frown and say, “because they're my friends..?”
“Yea whatever do what you want i dont care,” he rolls his eyes and pulls his attention away from me and to the group at his table.
I shake my head in annoyance and walk over to my group. Me and Peter have been friends the longest, since 4th grade to be precise.
It was the first day of school and he looked so nervous like he could puke right then and there. I smiled and skipped my way over to him in my purple skirt and light up skechers and told him I'd be his friend and that I wanted him to sit with me. After that we just stayed close to each other no matter what it was. Middle school was the same, he was my rock and I was his, then Ned entered the picture and our duo became a trio. Then Mj in high school and everything just felt completed. We didn't need anyone else, just this.
“Look who cares to join us!” Ned exclaims, throwing his hands in the air dramatically.
I smile and sit down next to Peter. He glances over with a smile. Recently he's been distant since i've started dating Flash, he doesn't reach out, and he doesn't talk to me as much. I've tried to talk to him about it and he says “It's nothing, I'm fine” every single time.
“I know I'm sorry, but I'm here now!” I say.
“About time you got away from that dick bag,” Mj says with her head in her hands.
“Why are you even dating him?” Ned asks
I try to give a reason, but nothing comes out.
“I don't know,” I mutter looking down at the table, I felt Peter's demeanor shift slightly, like he wanted to say something but kept it in.
“Whatever, let's talk about something different,” Mj says.
I smile at her gratefully and she nods in return.
“You guys wanna come over to mine tonight?” I ask hopefully, “can we have movie night again!”
“Yes! I'd love that!” Ned exclaims
“Sure, but I pick the movie,” Mj rebuttals
“What? No, I pick! You always pick!” Ned frowns
“I pick because you're gonna choose some nerd movie, like star wars,” She smirks
As their banter went on, I glanced over at Peter. His curly hair framing his face just right, his dark brown eyes are like an endless void that could suck you in if you stare for too long, but it wasn't just his looks, it was him as a whole. His silly and dorky personality, his dumb puns, and his amazing freakish smarts is what makes him so special.
“Hey-” I reach out and touch his shoulder as a spark sends a shock into my finger tip.
The spark caught his attention as for the first time, he's finally made full eye contact with me.
“Are you ok?” he asks, touching his shoulder.
I nod and shake off this weird feeling in my stomach. “I want to talk to you, just you. You've been acting weird and I want to know why,” I pause looking down at my hand. The spark feeling still strong in my body, “At mine tonight, you're going to tell me what's wrong,”
He sighs with a small smile, "There's nothing wrong, y/n,”
I shake my head unconvinced, "I've known you for god knows how long, i can tell when something's bothering you.”
“If you want to talk, we can talk,” He says looking back at the group.
The lunch bell rings and we all file to our designated classes. Time drags on and the clock ticks slower than usual as I wait for the end of the day to finally arrive. At last the final bell of the day rings as everyone pours out of their classes, wanting to leave just as much as I do.
“Hey there baby, let's go,” Flash says, wrapping an arm around my waist. As he does somewhere out of view from me is Peter watching with hawk-like eyes and a tense jaw
“Actully im walking home today, im hanging out with my friends,” I smile, sneaking myself away from his grasp.
He drops his arm and rolls his eyes, “Whatever,” he goes up to his group of friends and grabs one of the girls by her waist and whispers something in her ear while looking straight in my eyes. The girl giggles and follows him to his car, her blonde hair flowing behind her. I just stand there, watching like it's a sick joke and maybe he’ll turn around and say “Ha! I really got you, huh?” but instead he doesn't, he looks at me as he drives away with another girl in his car. A girl that wasn't me.
Before I can even think about being sad there, just in time. I turn towards him with tears filling my eyes. He doesn't say anything, he just pulls me into a hug, rubbing the back of my head so delicate like I could break into a million pieces.
“He doesn't deserve you, y/n” he mutters softly “You deserve so much better, someone who loves you for you,” He adds as he pulls away slowly. He looks at me, his eyes filled with sorrow like he's the one that's hurt. He wipes my tears away so softly and I feel my face getting hot. I quickly look away and whip away my remaining tears, trying to hide the blush forming on my face.
“Im sorry you had to see that, it's so embarrassing,” I chuckle softly
“You have nothing to be embarrassed about, you were hurt, it's ok to be upset.” He says looking at me, searching my face for any signs of breaking down. I nod and we walk over to Ned and Mj.
“God what a dick!” Ned says,
So I guess they saw.
“Its whatever, I don't wanna talk about it,” I say harsher than I attended.
The walk to my house was nice, we talked about nothing but everything at the same time. Ned and Peter talking about star wars while me and Mj walked behind them talking about how nerdy they were. And for a moment my mind forgets about what happened and just focuses on the people in front of me, and all the joy they bring me.
We reach my house and before the door even opens the faint sound of old 60s music plays throughout the house. I chuckle to myself before unlocking the door and letting everyone in.
‘My girl ‘ by The Temptations blasts out from the kitchen, at least I know my parents are home.
All of us follow the sound to the kitchen to see my parents with flour and icing all over their faces slowly dancing in the middle of the room, oblivious to the four teenagers standing right there. They look at each other like they're the only people in the world, I've never seen anyone so in love.
“Hey, im home” I shout over the loud music,
They break away from their lovesick spell and finally notice the four of us standing in the kitchen.
“Oh! Hello honey! And hello to you guys too!” My mother says pulling away from my father and pulling us all in for a hug.
“What were you guys making?” I ask as she pulls away
“We wanted to make cupcakes for you guys, but your mother threw flour at me,” My dad chuckles, washing off his icing covered hands in the sink.
“How are you kids doing? I feel like we haven't seen you three in a while,” He says. I look down to the floor, knowing all too well that's my fault.
“Life creates funny paths, dear,” My mother butts in. “Im just so glad to see you three again!” She exclaims with a large smile.
“We're gonna go to my room,” I say and my mom pulls me into a bear-like hug and leaves an icing filled kiss on my head.
We reach my room and I drop down on my bed. Mj moves over to my record player picking an album to start.
“Youre parents are so-” Ned stops trying to find the word,
“Love crazy?” I interrupt with a smile.
“Yeah,” he says sitting on the floor.
“I don't know, I think it's cute,” I look up at the ceiling longingly. “They just love each other so much after all these years, they were highschool sweethearts too.” I let out an airy laugh as i sit up facing everyone, “I guess they were lucky”
“So what are we watching?” Mj asks, sitting in the bean bag chair I have in the corner of my room.
“The proposal!" I exclaim
Ned groans and throws his head back into his pillow. I pick up a pillow and chuck it at his head with a giggle
“Stop complaining, it's a good movie!” i add
“So? Its a nasty romance film, we always watch rom coms” He complains, i roll my eyes playfully as he throws the pillow back
“Suck it up ned,” Mj shrugs as she turns it on.
“Im gonna go get some popcorn, does anyone want anything else?” I ask standing up from my bed.
“Ill take a coke,” Mj says
“Same!” Ned adds.
I nod and turn to peter waiting to hear what he wants,
“Ill come with you,” He says standing up and walking with me to the kitchen. It was cleaner then it was when we came home, I guess they cleaned it up and went to bed. I smile to myself at the thought of my parents bickering like kids to the point where they need to throw floors at each other.
“We need to talk,” Peter stops in front of me and my smile fades slowly. “You need to break up with flash.” he states like it's the easiest thing in the world.
“I can't peter-” i begin to say before he cuts me off
“Why? Give me a reason why,” He steps closer to me and my heart beat quickens slightly
“I-, it's just hard, ok?” I add
“How? He is awful to you and you just let him,” I see his face change from slight anger to sadness and concern. “I hate seeing you so upset, I hate seeing you change for someone who won't give you a second thought.”
His awkwardness that he once carried gets replaced by a new found confidence to finally say what's been bubbling in him for so long. “Why won't you realize? Why don't you see that you deserve so much better,” he takes another step closer, “You deserve someone who will listen to you about whatever, will take you on cheesy dates, and will watch all the rom com movies you want,” he pauses, “you deserve someone who will buy you flowers and someone who looks at you like you hung the moon,” He takes my chin in his hands making me look at him, “you deserve someone like me,” He mutters his cheeks turning a deep shade of pink.
My mouth drops open slightly as I feel my heart beat in my ears. “I- i cant Peter..” I say, not making eye contact with him.
“Why?” His eyes sadden into more of a begging look.
“Because what if-” I pause, feeling my eyes start to burn and my throat close up, “What if that's the best I'll ever get, what if he's the only one that'll ever like me like that again.” Hot tears flow down my face slowly making their way down to my kitchen floor.
Peter looks at me like he's the one who made me feel this way and wipes away my falling tears.
“Thats just not true,” He says, "Because i-” he pauses looking down at his shoes, “Because i love you, ive loved you since that one day in fourth grade where you promised to be my friend forever,” he chuckles slightly with red cheeks, “And it's been eating me alive seeing you with that dick everyday, when that should be me beside you,” he shakes his head with a small smile, “I love you y/n, ive always have.”
My hands begin to shake and my heart beat picks up its pace. I feel my whole body rise in heat and my tears start to slow. “I-” I try to speak but nothing comes out, so i do the best thing i can think of at that moment, I grab Peter by his collar and pull him into a deep kiss.
And for the first time in a long time, I felt the sparks. The prickly, scary, but comforting feeling. It takes over my whole body and it feels like me and him are the only people on earth at this very moment. He places his hands on my waist shyly, like he's making sure I'm comfortable before trying anything. He pushes me on the kitchen island, deepening the kiss.
“I knew it!” a voice calls out from the hallway, we quickly pull away from each other and act like nothing happened.
“I didn't think he'd actually do it,” Another voice says.
“H-how long were you guys there for..?” Peter asks, embarrassed.
“Oh we heard everything,” Ned says with a toothy grin, “I didn't think you'd actually go through with it” he adds
Peter buries his face in his hands with a groan.
“What do you mean go through with it?” I ask, still trying to gather myself from what happened
“When you started dating flash, peter would go on and on about how much better you deserved,” Mj says with a smirk “im glad he stopped being a little pussy and finally did something about it,”
“How am i gonna tell Flash.?” I ask with a grimace.
“Just tell him it's over and you want nothing to do with him, boom easy,” Mj says opening her coke
“Thanks MJ,” I say sarcastically as she chuckles to her self
An hour later everything calmed down, we all made it back to my room and finished the movie. Except this time I wasn't alone. Peter sat right next to me as I laid my head on his shoulder, a comfortable silence fell over all of us. One by one everyone went home, Mj, then Ned, and lastly Peter.
“I meant every word I said,” he mutters playing with his hands
I smile, feeling butterflies build up in my stomach, “I know, I'm sorry it took me so long to realize,” I sigh, “if I'm being honest, I've always felt that way about you too. I guess I just didn't know what it was…I was also worried that if it was what I thought it was, it would ruin our friendship. And I would rather die than lose you because of some dumb feelings, so I pushed them away.” I chuckle softly “Stupid right?”
“Yea pretty stupid,” Peter says playfully. The yellow street lamp being the only source of light, highlights his features so perfectly I could've guessed he was a painting. His brown curls slightly frizzy and messed up from laying down on my bed, his features relaxed making him so at peace, he's just so perfect.
I roll my eyes and playfully punch him on the shoulder. “Shut up,”
He takes a step closer to me and pushes a piece of hair behind my ear. “Ill see you tomorrow, ok?”
I smile and nod, “Ok, goodnight peter,”
“Goodnight y/n,” He says before pressing a kiss on my forehead and closing the front door behind him.
I stare at the door in a mixture of shock and happiness. I smile to myself as I look back on tonight, what he said, what he did. He truly is perfect, and I'm so stupid it took me so long to realize what was right in front of me.
The next morning I text flash im walking myself to school and he leaves me on read, classic. The air feels different, lighter almost, easier to breathe and easier to accept. The early dew sticks to the grass and the birds sing their morning songs as the rest of New York wakes up too.
School goes by as normal, the teacher talks, we listen, then the bell rings and repeat. That was until 4th period class change.
“Sup slut,” Flash says walking up to me. I turn around from my locker confused.
“What-” He cuts me off.
“Dont look so confused,” he snickers to himself, “I know how much of a whore you already are,” A crowd starts to form around us.
“I seriously don't know what you're talking about flash?” I say confused.
He scoffs and walks closer to me, “Ok, you want me to break it down for you, bitch?” The crowd of students got riled up, wanting to know what was happening. And in that crowd stands a familiar face, Peter Parker. He pushes his way to the front and knocks flash backwards
“What's your issue flash?” Peter asks with a tight jaw and fist clenched.
“My issue is that gold digging slut-” he was cut off by peters fist colliding straight to his jaw. The crowd, including me, gasped in shock. I mean Peter Parker, the cute nerdy boy who loves science and star wars punching flash in the face? You'd be shocked too.
“Dont talk about her like that again,” Peter states, his words hitting like venom out of his mouth.
Flash doesn't do anything, he just sits and holds his jaw like the little bitch he is.
“Got nothing to say now flash?” I say stepping in front of him, “Were over,” I say before kicking him in the nuts and grabbing Peter's hand, pulling him through the crowd out of the school.
“What are you doing?” Peter asks, trying to catch up with me, “Y/N Wait-” I cut him off and pull him into a kiss. It feels like fireworks are going off inside my body, like at this moment in time nothing matters, just me and him right now.
“O-oh uhm,” he blushes as he rubs the back of his neck,
“I love you peter parker,” I say with a large smile and blushy cheeks
“I love you too, y/n” he says with a smile as he pulls me in for another kiss.