tyyy @mytwinsung for tagging me !! 🤍 (granted like a week ago...)
last song: sun has set - beabadoobee (I WON THE FREAKING TICKETMASTER)
currently watching: never ending summer, it's this c-drama that i keep seeing everywhere but i haven't watched it yet but i'm planning to soon :p
current obsession: photography 👀 i just love when my feed looks clean and aesthetic like it just makes me happy inside, sooo i've been experimenting with different digis
currently reading: re-reading the percy jackson series 😛 (I CANT WAIT FOR SEASON 3 AND FOR THE EPIC THE MUSICAL MOVIE)
currently working on: riki's part of lens unfocused... I'LL GET IT OUT SOON I SWEAR I'VE JUST BEEN SO BUSY 😭😭
currently wearing: a thin tank top and jorts because it's so FREAKING HOT. house slippers too ig
last google search: the weather... 💀 donno why i keep searching that when i KNOW theres a freaking heatwave everyday 💔💔
fav flower: magnolias ^^ they’re so big and pretty and they smell good and they look so delicate andand (or lilies for the same reasons lol)
✿ tagging: @noirellee @veorise @whiskimsy (im too shy to tag 10 people...)
currently watching : love island usa (I’m sorry ts is genuinely all i breathe)
current obsession : love island, and cinnamon holy shit someone stop me from adding cinnamon to everything also true crime documentaries for some reason.
currently working on : social circles ( i swear I’m writing it I’m SORRY💔💔)
currently wearing : sleepwear because it is time to SLEEP.
last google search : i hate this but John Wayne Gacy because i was watching the Netflix documentary about him today
currently watching : i dont watch anything rn!! i just cant find good series, so i keep rewatching the big bang theory😭 over and over and over and over again
current obsession : i always have a lot... but lately ive been very fixated on mental illnesses and what causes them in the brain so ive been writing down them in my notebook. (bro even studies in summer break what a fucking loser)
currently reading : i just finished reading ward d by freida mcfadden like 5 minutes ago and im about to start the inmate!!
currently wearing : uh green socks with toasters on them, black pants and black oversized shirt that says 'ramen' even though ive never eaten ramen before
currently working on : my tyunning teacher x teacher fic!! its a fic im very excited for because its been ages since i wrote member x member stuff, even though im more confident in writing those + the male perspective😅 also need a little break from tumblr (so sorry) and a break from straight fics
last google search : paranoid schizophrenia
favorite flowers : genuinely idk im not a flower person😭
tyy for the tag @hoongsf :33 (also hiii new mootie :p)
last song: White Noise - holly humberstone
currently watching: nothing 😭😭😭 (exams hv been kicking my ass)
current obssession: writing (～￣▽￣)～
currently reading: Katabasis by RF Kuang, My Friends by Fredrick Backman (holyshit this one made me sob)
currently working on: new fic 👀👀👀
currently wearing: a jersey and shorts :p
last google search: toxic personality traits... 💀💀
fav flower: orange cosmos!
tags: @tobiotaesan (i already know you hehe) @cottonauroras @sunishake @i2sunric @noirellee @siyalogue ok yeah... idk who else to tag who hasn't been tagged already
lowk cant believe i got tagged in a game eee
@nefariouspanda134 this btch MY PRECIOUS NEWBORN, SHAKESPEARE tagged me 🫶
last song: raining in manila by lola amour (ingat po sa mga apektado ng bagyo, stay safe and pls dont leave ur pets behind!)
currently watching: ouran (LMAOSJIAHDJCN) and kumusta (i love cooking shows lol)
current obssession: lowkey tadc cus i just finished it (JAX💔) and park sungho
currently reading: the indio and the impaler by wincy aquino ong, finally started it 7 months after receiving lol (rizal is such a fckng menace lmao)
currently working on: jaehyun ouran yaoi and mayor leehan au
currently wearing: lotso pajama set...with a lotso bear on my side, a lotso plushie on my back, lying down on my bed with lotso bedsheets and a lotso lego figure on the desk beside me (pink bear from toy story)
last google search: my university student portal
fav flower: carnations...?
tags: absolutely no pressure! u can ignore me its fine 🫶 @wingzyyy (do this after ur exams, goodluck!!!) @cinnamorollhyuka (additional question for you or you can change the fave flower question, favorite marine species!) @ivehan (addtnl question for you! fave bnd ship) @kazukazukiiii (always on my tl but havent really interacted with 🫶) @starriniqhts (tagging u just bcus i miss u) thats all i have 😔😔
essence ➜ spending the afternoon baking with nct wish sounded like the sweetest date idea… here’s what baking with each member would really be like. 🍓🧁
genre ➜ fluff, humor, established relationship, headcanons
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Sion
For Sion… he genuinely has a sugar problem.
He begged you to bake with him. Like actually would not leave you alone until you finally said yes. The second the ingredients came out he started “sampling” everything.
A spoonful of cookie dough? Gone.
Chocolate chips? Gone.
Sprinkles? Gone.
You had to keep scolding him to stop eating everything because there wasn’t going to be anything left to bake.
Then halfway through decorating you realized half the tube of frosting was missing.
“…Sion.”
“Hm?”
“Where did the frosting go?”
He just looked at you with the straightest face.
“You didn’t make enough.”
Needless to say he got kicked out of the kitchen and sentenced to timeout while you finished the cupcakes by yourself.
Riku
When Riku called asking if you’d bake with him, you had to tell him no because you were drowning in work.
He accepted it…
For about thirty seconds.
The next thing you knew your phone started ringing again.
FaceTime — Riku.
The second you answered he immediately started doing the most dramatic aegyo you’ve ever witnessed.
“Pweaaaseee?”
“I miss you.”
“I’ll cry.”
“Pleaseeeee?”
You let out the deepest sigh imaginable before finally agreeing.
The problem wasn’t getting him into the kitchen.
The problem was getting him to actually help.
The entire time he just stood there laughing.
You’d crack an egg.
He’d laugh.
You’d spill flour.
He’d laugh harder.
You’d ask him to hand you the vanilla.
He’d somehow laugh even more.
“…Riku.”
“What?”
“WHAT IS SO FUNNY?”
“I don’t know!”
By the end of it he had contributed absolutely nothing except emotional support and uncontrollable giggling.
He got kicked out of the kitchen too.
Jaehee
Jaehee is such a cutie pie.
When he asked if you’d help him bake something, you immediately said yes.
The plan?
Bake cupcakes for Riku’s birthday.
He carefully measured every ingredient, let you lick the spoon after mixing the batter, and made sure every cupcake liner was perfectly straight.
The two of you spent the afternoon laughing while decorating each cupcake differently.
Little smiley faces.
Tiny flowers.
Cute hearts.
By the time you were done the kitchen was a mess, but the cupcakes looked adorable.
Riku ended up loving every single one.
Yushi
When you asked Yushi if he wanted to bake with you, he agreed…
But only on one condition.
“You make whatever dessert I want.”
“Deal.”
Big mistake.
He’s so judgmental.
He watches every move you make like he’s judging a baking competition.
“You mixed that too much.”
“You should’ve sifted the flour.”
“That oven temperature is questionable.”
“You call that symmetrical?”
“…Are you helping or criticizing me?”
“I’m helping.”
“No, you’re judging.”
“Same thing.”
His standards are unnecessarily high.
Ryo
Ryo is way too cute.
He asks questions about literally everything.
“Why do we use baking powder?”
“Why can’t we open the oven?”
“Why does butter have to be room temperature?”
“What happens if we add more chocolate chips?”
You answer every single question until somehow the conversation turns into watching random videos together.
One episode becomes two.
Two becomes three.
Then…
“…Do you smell something?”
You both slowly turned toward the kitchen.
The dessert was completely burnt.
Neither of you wanted to admit whose fault it was.
Sakuya
Sakuya didn’t want cookies.
Or cupcakes.
Or brownies.
He wanted bread.
The problem?
After realizing you made really good bread, he unofficially hired you as his personal baker.
Every other day your phone would light up.
“Can you make bread?”
“Sakuya…”
“Please?”
“…Fine.”
But he somehow became even pickier.
“The crust should be crispier.”
“I wanted it fluffier.”
“This one needs more butter.”
You stared at him.
“So… you’re telling me I have to make another loaf?”
Got invested with the series and HECK, I've been missing out on such an amazing masterpiece. Anyway! Here's an Nct Wish as AIB characters. My basis is purely on the vibe, skills, and what would be their strength if they were in the game(at least in my perspective). Any backstory of the characters is ignored. This may not be accurate, so please bear with me:')
Warning: There would be some spoilers ahead, so if you haven't watched the series and don't want to be spoiled, read at your own risk:).
Likes and re-blogs are appreciated<3
☆🃜🃚🃖🃁🂭🂺☆
𝕾𝖎𝖔𝖓 - 𝕸𝖎𝖗𝖆♥︎
Mira is known as the Queen of Hearts of this series. The way she handles the game, how she manipulates Arisu, I notice one thing—her eyes. It was innocent yet had a hidden motive. If Sion has a role in a drama, something like Mira would fit him. It was his gaze that could lure you, hypnotized you without you even noticing it. This is why I also gave him the hearts♥︎. He has this natural ability to attract people and somehow follow his orders. He would also definitely find a way to crack these heart games. Yet, like Mira, love might also be his weakness.
𝕽𝖎𝖐𝖚 - 𝕿𝖆𝖙𝖙𝖆♣︎
I actually have three options for Riku, lol. I gave him Arisu first, then Chishiya, ended up with Tatta. Tatta, he's a good guy. I cried so much when he died😭. He is always ready to help them, no matter what. He was scared to sacrifice himself but still ended up doing it for them. Which is what I noticed about Riku. He is such a caring member, and he always got everyone's back. And their smiles bro</3. Which is also the reason I gave him the club♣︎. Riku is someone you could naturally rely on.
𝖄𝖚𝖘𝖍𝖎 - 𝕬𝖓𝖓◆
Ok, I might sound biased here(since Ann was my favorite along with Kuina), but GIRL, Yushi would definitely fit as Ann. The aura, vibes, it was there. What I noticed about Ann was that she quietly did her moves. She was slick, precise, and careful. The way he secretly solved the Witch Hunt, I was amazed. This is something I believe would Yushi do if he's participating in some sort of mind games. He knows how to play chess, after all. With the card of diamond◆, he would definitely slay these puzzles and riddles.
𝕵𝖆𝖊𝖍𝖊𝖊 - 𝖀𝖘𝖆𝖌𝖎♠︎
Physical speaking, I immediately gave Usagi to Jaehee. The way Usagi played these games, I was amazed when I first saw her(I forgot the name of the game, but that was definitely wild). Unlike the others, Usagi is more on the physical strength side. It may be running or climbing. You can count on her. But despite this, she still has a soft spot. Jaehee was always seen as scary(lol). Like, ok, I get it. He's strong and tall, so I might actually get intimidated as well. Yet, in the end, he was just a softie. I gave him the spades♠︎ cause, I guess it's already obvious? He would slay those games swear.
𝕽𝖞𝖔 - 𝕬𝖗𝖎𝖘𝖚◆
Our Hirose Ryo as Arisu, yes. I mean, come on, Ryo may look like an innocent puppy, but you can not underestimate him. Especially with the mind games. Arisu has always been reliable when it comes to finding the hole and ways to crack the game. There is always a way—that's what he believes. He is more than just a main character. He cares for everyone. That is why he always uses this cracking the game strategy, no matter what type of game it is. Which is something that is about Ryo. I still can not forget how smart he was with the pudding move in order to blow all of the candles. Along with Yushi, Ryo would definitely nail these diamond◆ games.
𝕾𝖆𝖐𝖚𝖞𝖆 - 𝕶𝖆𝖗𝖚𝖇𝖊♣︎
I actually also considered giving him Rei, but i feel like Karube would fit him more. Their competitiveness, courage, and trust. It fits him. Karube is such a chill guy, always trusting and being there with Arisu(I miss the trio so much). He was also the one who kept encouraging the two throughout the games but still acknowledged their fear. And his competitiveness to win the game. Which I think would fit with the Sakuya. During their game content(the one where they have to play tug of war), this what I noticed about Sakuya when he leads. He acknowledges the strength of his teammates and encourages them with his competitiveness. This is also the reason why I gave him a club♣︎, he can be a natural leader if people would choose him to lead.
🩵—You finally went to your dream city, your final destination, you believed. But guess what? The universe has different plans for you. You met him—Yushi, the local boy who saved you from ending your life.
Genre: angst, slice of life, bonus fluff in the end:P
Warnings: su!cid4l character, mention of hospitals, there's a mentioned kiss and skinship at the bonus chapter
Pairing: Nct Wish Yushi x f!Reader
Now playing: WICHU by Nct Wish, Tears are falling by Nct Wish
Word count: 2.6k(including bonus chapter)
Likes and re-blogs are very appreciated<3
You run away from your hometown. Well, unintentionally. You were just cleaning your room that evening because of exhaustion from your university life. Workloads, people that you are forced to deal with, professors who seem to lose their sense of professionalism, courses that are eating you alive, and the question that keeps roaming on your head: What happened to me?
You used to be the best and most reliable person as everyone knows. Seems like nothing is forever, and life really is like a wheel. You may be at your best now, but someday, you will be on the ground again. You only have one wish for your 20th birthday: to start a new life, to begin again.
Looks like your prayers were heard by the heavens. A ticket was hiding between the pages of your journal. It was two, to be precise. You and your ex-boyfriend had a promise back then to travel to your dream country. Yet, it seems like you're traveling alone. You don't mind giving the other ticket to anyone. Besides, you only have one day 'til the day of your flight. So why not just take the risk, right?
Now, you're here, sitting by the bench you found in the park. Bubbles flying through the wind as the little kids blow them in the air. The smell of the sea refreshes your mind as you rest your whole body to the warmth of your seat. You made it. You made it here by yourself.
As you watch the sun set, the same feeling lingers within. What a beautiful way to end a chapter in a story full of storms and thunder. You stood up and searched for a coin inside your pocket before walking to the nearest vending machine. You choose orange, which is kinda strange. You hate orange drinks. You hate how it lures you by its sweet smell and ends up with a bitter taste.
As the darkness slowly eats the sky, stars start to flare in the sky. How odd, you thought. There's no moon tonight. But you continue to admire the stars in the sky while resting your arms by the rail. You slowly took a glance below the bridge.
You looked up again, chuckles. "Strange. Strange how you needed to be surrounded by the darkness first before people could notice you..." you mumbled, taking the last sip of your orange soda. "Why do you have to be so sweet when it's my last now?" you said in disappointment.
You look straight through the city, admiring it for the last time. How beautiful, you thought. You start to slowly rest your strength onto the rails, putting up your right foot first. Your hearing starts to slowly fade. You are all alone now. You believe no one will save you from this decision of yours. But why would you expect one? It's your decision anyway. No one will stop you, you believed.
Your vision starts to blur. Wind kissing your skin for the last time. It's not too cold this time. It was just right to embrace your fear and anger. It's finally the end. Its—
"MISS!!" You lost your balance as the voice echoed through your ear, breaking the barrier you have built the moment you set foot on the rails. For a moment, you got scared of dying. Your heart races again after a while you have known.
"Miss? Are you ok?" You were now in his embrace, both of you sitting on the cold concrete as the vehicles passed by. "A-are you ok? I'm calling the ambulance, " he says, in the most calming way.
You looked at him, speaking through the phone while keeping his grip on you. As if it was protecting you not from anything, but from your own urge. A tear falls through your cheek. He noticed. You don't know what to do but cry and let out the breath that has been tightly squeezing your chest.
You seem to not be able to control your emotions, as the water keeps on escaping from your eyes. To the point you can not breathe properly. "Miss? Wait let me—"
"Stay" you stop him from standing up, holding on his hand tightly. "Please".
"Please, give this to her," Yushi ordered the nurse as he gave them a piece of paper. The nurse accepted it politely as he gave them his last smile.
He slid his hands inside his pockets as he walked out from the hospital building and went home by the bus as if nothing had happened. No one from the house he is staying in questions him where he went or who he met.
He does not have an intention to tell them too, though. He does not have an intention to talk about it to anyone. All he wishes by now is for the girl to be safe. To be safe from the thoughts he never knew. To be safe from the storm that she has been through.
He knows the feeling of it. The feeling of ending everything. Yet, he never attempts to do it. Not for his sake, but for the people around him. He always wonders what could possibly happen if he actually did it? Would they blame him? Would they blame themselves? In the end, the world continues to spin.
"I'm heading out," Yushi shouted as he put on his last pair of shoes. "Oh? This early?" the middle-aged lady asked while mixing the bowl of her own homemade kimchi. "I thought it's your semester break?" she added, suspicion ringing through her words.
Yushi knew she would notice. He never woke up this early during sem-break, and he never wore something casual when going out this early. He usually just wear some worn-out shirt and an old short when jogging.
"I'm just visiting a friend, auntie," he reasoned out and decided to skip the rest of her questions. Yushi casually slid his earphones as he walked through the bus stop. On his way, he found a flower shop.
He wonders if this has been here or just noticed it by now. As the wind chime clings through the room, a mix smell of flowers welcomes him. It's been a while now, probably a decade, since he visited a flower shop.
"Oh, good morning there dear!" A woman welcomed him, holding a bucket of flowers. He couldn't tell what type they were. "Are you looking for something?" Yushi took out his earphones first. He actually does not know what to pick for her. Would it come out weird if she just gave them to her?
"Is it for your girlfriend, sir?" The question got Yushi off-guard as he shook his head. "It's for a friend, she's...recovering," he carefully noted, which made the woman light a light bulb above her head. "Well, you can give this to her." The woman put down the bucket she's holding as she went from the other side of the room.
There, she handed him a small bouquet of flowers—Daisies.
You slowly opened your eyes, just to be blinded by the sun rays. You thought you were actually in heaven there for a moment. The sight of the guy suddenly flashes in your head. You helped yourself to sit up. You glanced at the night table beside you, a note was slid beneath the vase.
You looked at your surroundings first, no one was there with you. You took the paper, unfold: Don't die.
Your brows knitted together as you read these two words inside your head. A soft chuckle escapes from your mouth. You were so sure that night, that's the last page of your life. And now, you're here, breathing. All of your senses were working fine.
You smiled as you read the note once again. You were about to stand up, but a knock interrupted you from doing so. There, the boy who saved you from yourself. Holding a bouquet of your favorite flowers.
He softly closed the door first before he noticed you were awake now. Yushi, who has now practically lost his skill of talking to people. He might be known as a quiet, nonchalant guy. But he still knows how to socialize and communicate. However, this one is different. He wants to hug you. He wants to sit there beside you. But he can't. He's a stranger. You are a stranger.
Rather, he walked to you slowly. Lowering his body for you to look down on him. "A-are you...ok?" The only words he could say. You can not stop yourself but shed a tear. You bit your lip as you nodded slowly. A shy smile plastered on Yushi's face as both of you giggled. As if you both knew each other for a long time now. As if both of you knew each other's secrets and the life that went through.
No, you two just accidentally met at the bridge in the middle of the night. Both were taking a different path in life, yet the universe made you two meet by the bridge.
The two walked through side by side. Quietly embracing the sunlight while you're holding the bouquet he gave you. "Thank you," you finally had the courage to speak. "It's nothing," Yushi nodded.
"What's with the flowers, by the way?" You tried to find ways to continue your conversation. You've never been like this. After the events that happened, you somehow stopped reaching out. And now, out of blue, the world spins differently. "Hmm, it's just...just flowers" Yushi shyly reasoned, sliding his behind his neck.
You smile softly as you admire the flowers. "They were my favorite," you noted. "Whenever I see them, it gives me a hope that good days will come eventually"
With that statement alone, it gave him relief. Yushi never believed someone wanting to die actually wants to die. They just need someone. someone who would listen to them. That alone is enough.
"I'm glad I met you...?" Yushi stopped while looking at her, head tilted slightly. Right, you two haven't formally introduced each other. You face him. "Y/N," you introduced.
"Yushi," he smiled back.
Yushi. You thought. Sounds exactly like him. You decided to reside for a while in the boarding house Yushi's living in. You are not yet sure when you will go back exactly. But for now, you decided to stay in the city that was supposed to be your last destination, which turns out to be the starting point of everything.
But this time, you are not alone. Yushi is with you. Facing the new beginning you been looking for.
BONUS CHAPTER:P
You finally decided to reside in the city and start a new life there. It's been a year now, and you just moved into your own apartment near the campus you are currently studying in.
After scrolling for a while, you put down your phone by the counter as you continue to cook the meat a little longer. "What is taking him so long?" You mumble under your breath as you flip the meat. Maybe it was too early to cook for lunch. It's literally ten in the morning. Or maybe you really just miss him so much.
As you turn off the stove, a doorbell rang outside your door. You quickly turn your head, almost breaking it, skipping through the door. As you opened it, the man you've been waiting for is now just by the door, holding a bouquet of flowers—daisies of course.
"You came!" You exclaimed as you welcomed him in a warm embrace, wrapping your arms around his neck. You felt his hug back, pulling you closer by the waist. "Did you just get home?" Yushi asked as he followed you inside while you put the flower by the coffee table in your living room.
"Nah, my professor canceled it this morning. I actually forgot to tell you since I got too excited, " you explained as you hop back to the kitchen, Yushi again following you from behind. As you were about to transfer the cooked meat on a plate, you felt his arms around your waist again, his chin resting on your shoulder.
"I miss you, baby," he whispered, giving you tickles as you giggled. You cut a small piece of your cooking. "Try it," you offer. He made a small space between you two before taking a bite. You were quite nervous about it. It's been a while now since you cooked for him. You know Yushi, he's a food critic. Although his major is not even related to cooking.
You watched him slowly chewing your food, eyes closed. "Is it... good?" You waited until a wide smile plastered on his face. Nodding while chewing on the food. "Hmm, it's the best," he complimented as you excitedly jumped from your place.
While you are preparing the food, Yushi is just admiring you. Watching your every move. He can not stop but smiles while looking at you. He can not help but feel emotional how much better you are now from the time you guys met.
You noticed. "Why are you staring at me like that?" You laughed a little as you placed the plates on the table. Yushi shrugged his shoulders, walking towards you. "I'm...just happy. That's all, " he reasoned as his arms found their place around your waist again.
"Hmm," you nodded. "Mom is planning to visit actually tomorrow," you informed while resting your hand on his shoulder, playing on the fabric of his white shirt. "Are you guys cool now?" He asked in concern, finding its way to meet your eyes.
You slowly nodded, sighing in relief. "She...actually wants to meet you" you finally met his eyes, who is now trying to avoid yours. You giggled at the sudden change in his confidence. "Why? Are you scared?" You teased, as he was trying to roam the room trying to find something more interesting.
Your parents know you have a partner now in life. You two just started dating in the last two months, and you never thought that you guys would actually work out. Actually, love has never been part of your priorities for a while. After your first break-up, it never had been. Not until you met him, you gave this thing another chance. Who would have thought it was one of your best decisions in life?
"Hey! It's not that they would eat you alive or something. They like you, Yushi. They also just want to see you, that's all. " You tried to calm him down, softly holding onto his arms. You met his eyes again, a different gaze from earlier.
You took a quick peck on his cheek, right by his scar, ears lit up red. "Don't worry, ok baby? I'll be here with you," you assured him. "Thank you, Y/N," you smiled at him softly, wrapping your arms around his neck. "I will always be thankful that I've met you"
"Me too"
Both of you do not know what's going on with the atmosphere at that moment. But both glanced at each other's lips, looking back again to the eyes. Yushi lowered his head as both of your lips met in twilight. It was just a quick kiss. That's what you thought when both of you looked at each other again, not when Yushi was trying to take another kiss on your lips, making you put your finger on his lips instead.
"Tokuno," you warned. "You know I don't like eating when my food is cold," you playfully argued as both of them laughed. Instead, he gave you a quick kiss on your forehead before sitting on the chair.
Just simply eating and chatting about each other's thoughts and days, this is already enough for the both of you. You become each other's safe place, a home where both can rest and just tell whatever you guys have inside your head. It was simple, yet it was fulfilling.
🩵—You finally went to your dream city, your final destination, you believed. But guess what? The universe has different plans for you. You met him—Yushi, the local boy who saved you from ending your life.
Genre: angst, slice of life, bonus fluff in the end:P
Warnings: su!cid4l character, mention of hospitals, there's a mentioned kiss and skinship at the bonus chapter
Pairing: Nct Wish Yushi x f!Reader
Now playing: WICHU by Nct Wish, Tears are falling by Nct Wish
Word count: 2.6k(including bonus chapter)
Likes and re-blogs are very appreciated<3
You run away from your hometown. Well, unintentionally. You were just cleaning your room that evening because of exhaustion from your university life. Workloads, people that you are forced to deal with, professors who seem to lose their sense of professionalism, courses that are eating you alive, and the question that keeps roaming on your head: What happened to me?
You used to be the best and most reliable person as everyone knows. Seems like nothing is forever, and life really is like a wheel. You may be at your best now, but someday, you will be on the ground again. You only have one wish for your 20th birthday: to start a new life, to begin again.
Looks like your prayers were heard by the heavens. A ticket was hiding between the pages of your journal. It was two, to be precise. You and your ex-boyfriend had a promise back then to travel to your dream country. Yet, it seems like you're traveling alone. You don't mind giving the other ticket to anyone. Besides, you only have one day 'til the day of your flight. So why not just take the risk, right?
Now, you're here, sitting by the bench you found in the park. Bubbles flying through the wind as the little kids blow them in the air. The smell of the sea refreshes your mind as you rest your whole body to the warmth of your seat. You made it. You made it here by yourself.
As you watch the sun set, the same feeling lingers within. What a beautiful way to end a chapter in a story full of storms and thunder. You stood up and searched for a coin inside your pocket before walking to the nearest vending machine. You choose orange, which is kinda strange. You hate orange drinks. You hate how it lures you by its sweet smell and ends up with a bitter taste.
As the darkness slowly eats the sky, stars start to flare in the sky. How odd, you thought. There's no moon tonight. But you continue to admire the stars in the sky while resting your arms by the rail. You slowly took a glance below the bridge.
You looked up again, chuckles. "Strange. Strange how you needed to be surrounded by the darkness first before people could notice you..." you mumbled, taking the last sip of your orange soda. "Why do you have to be so sweet when it's my last now?" you said in disappointment.
You look straight through the city, admiring it for the last time. How beautiful, you thought. You start to slowly rest your strength onto the rails, putting up your right foot first. Your hearing starts to slowly fade. You are all alone now. You believe no one will save you from this decision of yours. But why would you expect one? It's your decision anyway. No one will stop you, you believed.
Your vision starts to blur. Wind kissing your skin for the last time. It's not too cold this time. It was just right to embrace your fear and anger. It's finally the end. Its—
"MISS!!" You lost your balance as the voice echoed through your ear, breaking the barrier you have built the moment you set foot on the rails. For a moment, you got scared of dying. Your heart races again after a while you have known.
"Miss? Are you ok?" You were now in his embrace, both of you sitting on the cold concrete as the vehicles passed by. "A-are you ok? I'm calling the ambulance, " he says, in the most calming way.
You looked at him, speaking through the phone while keeping his grip on you. As if it was protecting you not from anything, but from your own urge. A tear falls through your cheek. He noticed. You don't know what to do but cry and let out the breath that has been tightly squeezing your chest.
You seem to not be able to control your emotions, as the water keeps on escaping from your eyes. To the point you can not breathe properly. "Miss? Wait let me—"
"Stay" you stop him from standing up, holding on his hand tightly. "Please".
"Please, give this to her," Yushi ordered the nurse as he gave them a piece of paper. The nurse accepted it politely as he gave them his last smile.
He slid his hands inside his pockets as he walked out from the hospital building and went home by the bus as if nothing had happened. No one from the house he is staying in questions him where he went or who he met.
He does not have an intention to tell them too, though. He does not have an intention to talk about it to anyone. All he wishes by now is for the girl to be safe. To be safe from the thoughts he never knew. To be safe from the storm that she has been through.
He knows the feeling of it. The feeling of ending everything. Yet, he never attempts to do it. Not for his sake, but for the people around him. He always wonders what could possibly happen if he actually did it? Would they blame him? Would they blame themselves? In the end, the world continues to spin.
"I'm heading out," Yushi shouted as he put on his last pair of shoes. "Oh? This early?" the middle-aged lady asked while mixing the bowl of her own homemade kimchi. "I thought it's your semester break?" she added, suspicion ringing through her words.
Yushi knew she would notice. He never woke up this early during sem-break, and he never wore something casual when going out this early. He usually just wear some worn-out shirt and an old short when jogging.
"I'm just visiting a friend, auntie," he reasoned out and decided to skip the rest of her questions. Yushi casually slid his earphones as he walked through the bus stop. On his way, he found a flower shop.
He wonders if this has been here or just noticed it by now. As the wind chime clings through the room, a mix smell of flowers welcomes him. It's been a while now, probably a decade, since he visited a flower shop.
"Oh, good morning there dear!" A woman welcomed him, holding a bucket of flowers. He couldn't tell what type they were. "Are you looking for something?" Yushi took out his earphones first. He actually does not know what to pick for her. Would it come out weird if she just gave them to her?
"Is it for your girlfriend, sir?" The question got Yushi off-guard as he shook his head. "It's for a friend, she's...recovering," he carefully noted, which made the woman light a light bulb above her head. "Well, you can give this to her." The woman put down the bucket she's holding as she went from the other side of the room.
There, she handed him a small bouquet of flowers—Daisies.
You slowly opened your eyes, just to be blinded by the sun rays. You thought you were actually in heaven there for a moment. The sight of the guy suddenly flashes in your head. You helped yourself to sit up. You glanced at the night table beside you, a note was slid beneath the vase.
You looked at your surroundings first, no one was there with you. You took the paper, unfold: Don't die.
Your brows knitted together as you read these two words inside your head. A soft chuckle escapes from your mouth. You were so sure that night, that's the last page of your life. And now, you're here, breathing. All of your senses were working fine.
You smiled as you read the note once again. You were about to stand up, but a knock interrupted you from doing so. There, the boy who saved you from yourself. Holding a bouquet of your favorite flowers.
He softly closed the door first before he noticed you were awake now. Yushi, who has now practically lost his skill of talking to people. He might be known as a quiet, nonchalant guy. But he still knows how to socialize and communicate. However, this one is different. He wants to hug you. He wants to sit there beside you. But he can't. He's a stranger. You are a stranger.
Rather, he walked to you slowly. Lowering his body for you to look down on him. "A-are you...ok?" The only words he could say. You can not stop yourself but shed a tear. You bit your lip as you nodded slowly. A shy smile plastered on Yushi's face as both of you giggled. As if you both knew each other for a long time now. As if both of you knew each other's secrets and the life that went through.
No, you two just accidentally met at the bridge in the middle of the night. Both were taking a different path in life, yet the universe made you two meet by the bridge.
The two walked through side by side. Quietly embracing the sunlight while you're holding the bouquet he gave you. "Thank you," you finally had the courage to speak. "It's nothing," Yushi nodded.
"What's with the flowers, by the way?" You tried to find ways to continue your conversation. You've never been like this. After the events that happened, you somehow stopped reaching out. And now, out of blue, the world spins differently. "Hmm, it's just...just flowers" Yushi shyly reasoned, sliding his behind his neck.
You smile softly as you admire the flowers. "They were my favorite," you noted. "Whenever I see them, it gives me a hope that good days will come eventually"
With that statement alone, it gave him relief. Yushi never believed someone wanting to die actually wants to die. They just need someone. someone who would listen to them. That alone is enough.
"I'm glad I met you...?" Yushi stopped while looking at her, head tilted slightly. Right, you two haven't formally introduced each other. You face him. "Y/N," you introduced.
"Yushi," he smiled back.
Yushi. You thought. Sounds exactly like him. You decided to reside for a while in the boarding house Yushi's living in. You are not yet sure when you will go back exactly. But for now, you decided to stay in the city that was supposed to be your last destination, which turns out to be the starting point of everything.
But this time, you are not alone. Yushi is with you. Facing the new beginning you been looking for.
BONUS CHAPTER:P
You finally decided to reside in the city and start a new life there. It's been a year now, and you just moved into your own apartment near the campus you are currently studying in.
After scrolling for a while, you put down your phone by the counter as you continue to cook the meat a little longer. "What is taking him so long?" You mumble under your breath as you flip the meat. Maybe it was too early to cook for lunch. It's literally ten in the morning. Or maybe you really just miss him so much.
As you turn off the stove, a doorbell rang outside your door. You quickly turn your head, almost breaking it, skipping through the door. As you opened it, the man you've been waiting for is now just by the door, holding a bouquet of flowers—daisies of course.
"You came!" You exclaimed as you welcomed him in a warm embrace, wrapping your arms around his neck. You felt his hug back, pulling you closer by the waist. "Did you just get home?" Yushi asked as he followed you inside while you put the flower by the coffee table in your living room.
"Nah, my professor canceled it this morning. I actually forgot to tell you since I got too excited, " you explained as you hop back to the kitchen, Yushi again following you from behind. As you were about to transfer the cooked meat on a plate, you felt his arms around your waist again, his chin resting on your shoulder.
"I miss you, baby," he whispered, giving you tickles as you giggled. You cut a small piece of your cooking. "Try it," you offer. He made a small space between you two before taking a bite. You were quite nervous about it. It's been a while now since you cooked for him. You know Yushi, he's a food critic. Although his major is not even related to cooking.
You watched him slowly chewing your food, eyes closed. "Is it... good?" You waited until a wide smile plastered on his face. Nodding while chewing on the food. "Hmm, it's the best," he complimented as you excitedly jumped from your place.
While you are preparing the food, Yushi is just admiring you. Watching your every move. He can not stop but smiles while looking at you. He can not help but feel emotional how much better you are now from the time you guys met.
You noticed. "Why are you staring at me like that?" You laughed a little as you placed the plates on the table. Yushi shrugged his shoulders, walking towards you. "I'm...just happy. That's all, " he reasoned as his arms found their place around your waist again.
"Hmm," you nodded. "Mom is planning to visit actually tomorrow," you informed while resting your hand on his shoulder, playing on the fabric of his white shirt. "Are you guys cool now?" He asked in concern, finding its way to meet your eyes.
You slowly nodded, sighing in relief. "She...actually wants to meet you" you finally met his eyes, who is now trying to avoid yours. You giggled at the sudden change in his confidence. "Why? Are you scared?" You teased, as he was trying to roam the room trying to find something more interesting.
Your parents know you have a partner now in life. You two just started dating in the last two months, and you never thought that you guys would actually work out. Actually, love has never been part of your priorities for a while. After your first break-up, it never had been. Not until you met him, you gave this thing another chance. Who would have thought it was one of your best decisions in life?
"Hey! It's not that they would eat you alive or something. They like you, Yushi. They also just want to see you, that's all. " You tried to calm him down, softly holding onto his arms. You met his eyes again, a different gaze from earlier.
You took a quick peck on his cheek, right by his scar, ears lit up red. "Don't worry, ok baby? I'll be here with you," you assured him. "Thank you, Y/N," you smiled at him softly, wrapping your arms around his neck. "I will always be thankful that I've met you"
"Me too"
Both of you do not know what's going on with the atmosphere at that moment. But both glanced at each other's lips, looking back again to the eyes. Yushi lowered his head as both of your lips met in twilight. It was just a quick kiss. That's what you thought when both of you looked at each other again, not when Yushi was trying to take another kiss on your lips, making you put your finger on his lips instead.
"Tokuno," you warned. "You know I don't like eating when my food is cold," you playfully argued as both of them laughed. Instead, he gave you a quick kiss on your forehead before sitting on the chair.
Just simply eating and chatting about each other's thoughts and days, this is already enough for the both of you. You become each other's safe place, a home where both can rest and just tell whatever you guys have inside your head. It was simple, yet it was fulfilling.
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