(A)pathetic Junk(ie)

They named me Lillian. Just another punk smoking cigarettes while putting off washing her dirty hair, and counting the nights in a row she hasn't slept while playing connect the dots with the tracks, and spinning glass lollipops until the aliens come back. drugs make everything better; anorexia, mental illnesses, paranoia, nihilism, sex... sun ♏️ // moon ♋️ // rising ♓️

[winter--of--bones-blog]

Yo

I moved blogs. I thought someone gave this one to my ex, but turns out the ex that was stalking me was just incarcerated.

Not because of me, for real. Dumbass drove his car into a Sunny Mart.

My new blog is @junkie-fly

[wavybabii25]

Inadvertently I honestly hate how whenever i get high now aside from wanting to do my regular tweaky things ever since me and my BD fucked which was amazing i cant help but want to over and over like we never get time to ourselves but like im always wanting to sneak in the bathroom with him and if just for a few amazing strokes have him give it to me but im afraid if i tell him this he’d start to distance himself or worse reject me … ugh the struggle. And I honestly dont talk about sex this much but theres a reason we have a baby together lmao but until he gives me the signal he wants to be intimate again i guess ima just have to take care of myself whenever i can .😔😒

[winter--of--bones-blog]

girl me and my BD are in the same spot- we have been together for six years and im constantly in tears because the man smiling in a picture holding me close and surrounding me in his essence suddenly has no visual sign that i am ever even a part of a thought in his mind anymore.

i am outside crying and he knows yet he wont bridge the gap three feet and just hug me or fuck me fuck itd be so eady to stop me crying and all i want is him him him

[winter--of--bones-blog]

[dontgetwisewithme]

Cute girls being disgusting is what life is all about.

[winter--of--bones-blog]

well i have good news then

[maniacmads-deactivated20160901]

coming from a fucking heroin addict, alcohol culture is fucking disgusting. there’s channels on youtube dedicated to the art of drinking, as if it doesn’t kill thousands every year. you’re expected to drink at your 21st birthday party, as if there aren’t thousands of alcoholics wishing they’ve never done that.

fuck you for glamorizing alcohol. you tell us we glamorize heroin? you don’t see us doing heroin with our children at 18 because it’s a good time! we don’t bring heroin to house parties. you know why? because we understand that heroin is horrible and alcohol is just as fucking horrible.

[thatmanthekatman]

yup.

[addictbeauty332-deactivated2018]

Yes

[bubonickitten]

do you ever look at Successful™ people your age and feel like you’re just floating your way thru life like a very bewildered and directionless bumblebee

[winter--of--bones-blog]

"get clean" they all say

until youre clean then they realize it was YOU that was fucked up and the drugs actually werent causing this and they resent they creates a reality where theyre aware of it and wish they could go back to thinking drugs were the only thing wrong with u and they could still think ur just a poor weak minded dummy who forgot about DARE.

[winter--of--bones-blog]

goin to the methadone clinic at 5 a.m. because you didnt even sleep & decide to go all the way and wear ur "I dont wanna go to the betty ford clinic" shirt and skip the eyedrops

because fuck you, thats why. punk rock.

[jennyhoelzer-deactivated2016120]

[darkness-and-loneliness-deactiv]

It’s hard to sleep when your heart is in a war with your mind

[winter--of--bones-blog]

fuckkk

[blackandmildwithgod]

What is this chapter of your life called?

[tie-dyed-mushrooms]

Mental illness and drugs

[bepeu-deactivated20171202]

hey …… what the hell … n also what the fuck…

[winter--of--bones-blog]

i need a person right now

[miss-kasey-quinn]

I like it that people still believe that calling me a drug addict is a valid insult my nigga I am like 28 times more lit than u on the regs. no stress, here

[burnt-out-angel]

When normal people talk about doing shots and you don’t realize they mean alcohol

[winter--of--bones-blog]

when the plug 12 hours late

wtf breh

[quotes-shape-us]

You must learn her. You must know the reason why she is silent. You must trace her weakest spots. You must write to her. You must remind her that you are there. You must know how long it takes for her to give up. You must be there to hold her when she is about to. You must love her because many have tried and failed. And she wants to know that she is worthy to be loved, that she is worthy to be kept. And, this is how you keep her.

Junot Díaz, This Is How You Lose Her (via awelltraveledwoman)

I like this.

(via takeitsleeazyy)