learning how to be happy

feranda ; a trying millenial

[southfarthing]

happy merlin finale anniversary to all who mourn celebrate!

[walk-up-songs]

[one single bloodcurdling agonized scream] ok time to lock in

[wisekelp]

guys... i'm really scared we're getting used to the idea that an entire country and its people can be erased just because a larger country said so...

[theconcealedweapon]

[segamascott]

two million people starving to death because it's geopolitically convenient and we're all expected to go about our day normally like the casual cruelty on display for the past two years has been so insane to me like i'm not even trying to make a point it's just truly something i can't wrap my mind around

[wisekelp]

Hi just to let you know I read the text posts about you private life every time and I just want you to know I'm rooting for you with all my heart and hope you can get out of this shit situation with you mother soon❤

pretty sure I left this in my inbox so I could hold this close in bad times (and there are a few more lovely messages in my inbox so I'll let this one out to give a happy update!)

this was sent in the end of 2021. since then i've moved out, learnt what it was like to be able to have posters on walls, buy furniture. to leave my things lying around and not have them go missing. to not go hungry in a household that could well afford groceries. to not need to brace myself at the doorway each time. it's been so so much better than I could ever dream of, because I could not have fathomed how much my brain has changed after coming out of survival mode.

i just want to say thank you so so much to this kind anon, and everyone who's ever followed this blog. you made a girl - still make till today - feel like she wasn't alone. in a time when she really, really needed it.

i now have real! life! friends! and i'm safe to have whimsy and be silly and make mistakes. and i have friends so willing to share ideas and do fun projects that i hardly have time for being on here anymore. i just want to share to anyone who's still out there on this blog - it gets better. that glimmer was what i held onto through this blog. and i was to say it's all true. <3 yall

[wisekelp]

today my colleague said my ig stories have such useful information in them...just realised i've made my ig stories my new tumblr in the face of abstinence

[caedmonfaith]

[cassieno]

Crowley is a romantic. And they stole his love confession from him.

The confession we saw was rushed. I think Crowley could tell something was different. It was now or never. And that’s why he started to confess then. But

his original plan was to take Aziraphale to the Ritz. They would get into the Bently, yellow tulips on the backseat, like we can see. Because yellow is pretty, like the angel said before. And A Nightingale Sang In Berkeley Square would play, he had put it on queue, we heard it. And they would get to the Ritz, have a wonderful breakfast. He would give him the flowers, take him back home, give him a lift, like in the movies, and then he would confess. And they could kiss at the door before they went inside.

But instead his confession was rushed and desperate and not at all like what they show in the movies. It was painfully real and unmagical.

[wisekelp]

coming back just to wonder out loud if anyone else felt so lost from good omens season 2?????

[wisekelp]

i’m planning a trip to europe (yes!! me!!!) and a friend in london texted me last night just to say she’ll follow me ard anywhere :”)... it’s so nice to be surprised that people really do want to just spend time with you, while here i was packaging diff day schedules together for her to choose one she wouldn’t mind doing...

idk friends...just wanted to come by and say.. i’m doing real well

[gracieabramss-deactivated202305]

“moving on was always easy for me to do” she sang, you know, like a liar

[gracieabramss-deactivated202305]

haunted being like “i can’t move on, i refuse” and all too well being like “i can’t move on, i’ve tried” and hoax being like “i can’t move on, even as you’re twisting the knife in my back i love you” and last kiss being like “i can’t move on, i barely survive” and right where you left me being like “i can’t move on, i’m frozen to the place where you broke up with me” and death by a thousand cuts being like “i can’t move on, i see you everywhere” and breathe being like “i can’t move on, no one knows me like you” and the 1 being like “i can’t move on, i’m drowning in what ifs” and sad beautiful tragic being like “i can’t move on, it was cruel and beautiful and safe and terrifying” and clean being like “i can’t move on ten months later but i’m trying” and my tears ricochet being like “i can’t move on, you literally killed me” and bigger than the whole sky being like “i can’t move on, i’ll be trying to for the rest of my sorry life” and and and

[wikiipediabf]

percy not choosing immortality in the blood of olympus just for rick to be like "omgg he's forever 17 🥰" is so fucking funny to me

[daenerys-targaryen]

I cannnottt stop thinking about how like. this isn’t really what taylor signed up for. sure, she signed up to be an entertainer and a performer but like. she didn’t sign up for the rest of it. and sure one could say it comes with the territory but also, she started out around the same time portable internet and social media was being developed and taking off. being an entertainer and performer has drastically changed in the last 20 or some odd years due to social media. and it reminds me of the willow mv where she walks onto the stage with her ukulele and once the song is over, turns to walk off stage but finds it’s become essentially a glass cage. many thoughts many thoughts.

[afloweroutofstone]

[wisekelp]

just bought tickets to lany with my sister and enjoyed  a phone call. wow

[mytearsrricochet]

They’ve found the cause of Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. Babies who die of SIDS have a significantly lower level of an enzyme, the purpose of which is to rouse the baby from sleep if necessary (such as the baby stops breathing). This is extremely huge science and medicine news. There is a biological reason. It’s not random.

[mayfriend]

Previously, parents were told SIDS could be prevented if they took proper precautions: laying babies on their backs, not letting them overheat and keeping all toys and blankets out of the crib were a few of the most important preventative steps. So, when SIDS still occurred, parents were left with immense guilt, wondering if they could have prevented their baby’s death.

Dr. Carmel Harrington, the lead researcher for the study, was one of these parents. Her son unexpectedly and suddenly died as an infant 29 years ago. (...) Harrington explained what she was told about the cause of her child’s death. 

"Nobody could tell me. They just said it's a tragedy. But it was a tragedy that didn't sit well with my scientific brain.” 

Since then, she’s worked to find the cause of SIDS, both for herself and for the medical community as a whole. She went on to explain why this discovery is so important for parents whose babies suffered from SIDS. 

"These families can now live with the knowledge that this was not their fault," she said.

(...) As the cause is now known, researchers can turn their attention to a solution. In the next few years, those in the medical community who have studied SIDS will likely work on a screening test to identify babies who are at risk for SIDS and hopefully prevent it altogether.