listen up fives. a ten is speaking.

"When I looked at you, my life made sense. Even the bad things made sense. They were necessary to make you possible." — Jonathan Safran Foer people are enjoying my ninjary

[lucytara]

u know what’s wrong with tumblr now?? too many kids who weren’t here for glee. y'all have no idea. none of u understand the suffering we went through. the hell. the endless war. u come in here and u try to start The Discourse but u dont get that we already made these mistakes. we already had the discourse and its done now. its over. its all over and u should let it stay dead but u wont and that’s why we all hate u

[chucktaylorupset]

I was not here for the days of glee but please relay that fandom history

[lucytara]

its not history, its blood. i still see it all over this website. the vague posts. the deactivated urls. where do u think the word problematic became popular. where do u think the representational anger started. glee was the hungry gaping void that consumed us all. it said watch us and find yourself. there is someone for everyone. santana is a lesbian and kurt is gay and brittany is bisexual and quinn, god knows what quinn is, she’s straight but we have her say things like “you were singing to finn and only finn, right?” and artie is disabled. mercedes is black and our outlet for body positivity. we are all oppressed by something and we are different and we are outcasts and we are you. 

and we fell for it. we watched glee and we related to its characters and we fought its wars until it was too late. until it was nothing but a distorted picture of a parody of reality, a cracked mirror in which our souls were sucked and encased in glass. finn outed santana but it’s fine because he had good intentions. sam was supposed to be gay but we’re bringing blaine anderson in for that instead. the q in quinn is for queerbait. brittany was maybe raped but it was a one liner so who really knows. will schuester was a horrible fucking adult and should never have been allowed to care for children. finn, the white straight boy, did everything wrong but it was narratively presented as right. we turned on each other. klaine vs kum and finchel vs faberry. santana fought everyone so brittana stans fought everyone. character vs character, ship vs ship, blogger against blogger. we fucking hated each other. there was no glee fandom. there were character fandoms and ship fandoms and that is it and our mottos were all fuck glee.

we won every popularity contest, every online poll. we voted our fingers to the bone. we created art and wrote fanfic and made such excellent photo manips they were published in newspapers. we were prolific. we were consumers of the hell we created and we just kept producing more in a fucked up dystopian fandom chain of supply and demand. don’t get me started on the rpf. dianna wore a likes girls shirt on tour and made a statement an hour later revoking it. some people still say heya is real but it’s like a breath of the wind, a sound so bare i can’t quite make out the words. 

u asked for history. theres no history, only rage and pain and regret, the image of anonymous with a grey face and sunglasses telling u to kill urself because u thought artie was a dick for calling brittany stupid that one time. this website is a reflection of the hole glee left when it finished taking all it could from us, when the void could not consume anything more, and the posts on it now, the social justice “discourse” that is just giant piles of steaming, unsifted, unrefined shit is from those who refused to learn from us. the history is here and it followed us and we can never ever escape it.

[wishyouwould]

in honor of glee being officially o v e r (i did end up watching the series finale after having stopped watching cold turkey early in s5), here are a few of my favorite fandom memories:

--The Kiss and everyone losing their shit, the paley panel the next day

--promgate, nicole crowther trying to one-up me and getting publicly trashed by brad falchuk as a result, only to discover she never actually worked on the show (this was actually stressful at the time but hilarious in retrospect)

--fandom csi cracking the case of the erasing-blaine-anderson-from-new-directions stills from s3, ep 1

--the finn-hates-blaine memes that dominated in early s3

--”enjoy your midgame prom engagement marriage fatherhood” (it’s 2015 and “releasing yourself into the ether” jokes are still funny)

--the fact that fandom, in any way, was loud enough to force tptb into addressing the double standards with queer characters/couples-- even if nothing changed until too late in the game-- is actually remarkable and people should be proud of that, and i hope people learn that there is NOTHING wrong with calling media (or people in fandom!) out when it’s being shitty, and fuck anyone who stands in your way on that; i also think this fandom was a good gateway to people developing their own politics and social consciousness which is pretty cool too

anyway, i’ve been out of the fandom for a long time now but was just feeling a bit nostalgic. it used to be really, really fun, until eventually it wasn’t, but i still have some good feelings about the fandom... and it was fun to share spoilers when i could. i’d get asked so often “how do you know things?” and “who tells you this?”, and i will take my sources to my grave, but by the end i had at least ten different people who gave me information to share at large. so if any of them are reading, thanks for trusting me with that, and thanks for helping me fuck ryan murphy’s shit up from time to time. xx

[wishyouwould]

some more details on the flashback episode:

--kurt and rachel get the most focus of the kids; tina and artie split their scenes

--lots of will and teri and emma

--emma calls burt because she sees kurt reading a pamphlet on suicide (her suicide pamphlet says “pros/cons") 

--burt forces kurt to join something (though clearly he wants it to be a sport) 

--they show tina and artie's auditions for the glee club (kurt's kind of, shown from behind) 

--cameos from howard bamboo and matt rutherford 

--kurt and mercedes aren't sure they want finn in the glee club but they do come forward

--emma goes to figgins to try to get will more $$$ to stay and teach, and though he says he can't do that, he does give emma the competition video of will's 1993 win. will he does watch that and still decides to leave. sue gloats a little at him and he's walking the hallway and he hears them singing DSB and then walks in and from that they cut to the original video and they show the whole thing until the end. 

--at the lima bean, blaine is counseling a warbler who he assumes he's gay but he's totally not. 

that’s all i got, kids.

[wishyouwould]

condolences to those still watching glee

i haven’t seen any episodes in over a year, but i know someone @ paley tonight. no idea if other people have spoiled the flashback episode they screened or not, just thought i’d share what i’ve heard so far in case not:

--it is NOT an AU. it is just a prequel/overlapping with the pilot’s timeline.

--the episode ends with the original DSB performance from the pilot. there is talk of finn joining the club before then but that’s the only appearance.

--lots of kurt and his dad stuff, i haven’t heard specifics about this

--kurt is at the lima bean with mercedes at the same time as blaine is there with a warbler. they don’t meet. i guess blaine is counseling the (gay) warbler about coming out?

--they show background with will almost leaving

--background for the animosity between rachel and kurt/mercedes; she is “kind of a monster” (the source added “loved it” so i think it’s very old school season one)

sorry some of it is a bit vague, but there you go! not going to answer ask box questions on this because i don’t really care enough?

rip glee, you had two good seasons and turned to utter garbage afterwards. i will not miss you. cast, congrats on being free from the clutches of this shit show. darren, i will see u in hedwig. BYE

[wishyouwould]

BUFFY I BOUGHT AMY POEHLERS BOOK TODAY AND THOUGHT OF YOU

Ugh I need to read that like yesterday!!! (Couldbeeeeee I miss you!)

[wishyouwould]

HI so taylor swift's new album came out yesterday and there's a song called "I wish you would" and your url is SO close to this song so PLEASE I'M BEGGING, COULD YOU GIVE ME THIS URL? I HAVE A LOT OF SAVES URL, I CAN GIVE YOU 5 BUT PLEASE I'M BEGGING AND CRYING RIGHT NOW!! ly

sorry, nope!

i am actually a huge fan of hers and have had this url for several years, so the fact that she happened to write a song with it in the title is serendipitous. i don't update this blog anymore but keep it for posterity's/archival's sake.

(answering this publicly since i've gotten a few asks about giving up the url and maybe this will deter future requests)

[wishyouwould]

WISHY HI WELCOME BACK

hello thanks now i must be going!

i'm done answering questions, i think enough has been shared. bye!

[wishyouwould]

Is Santana painted as the bad guy throughout the episode? Or is it Rachel?

They both act pretty ridiculous toward Elliot and treat him like a Kurt replacement/pawn/object. He's really the only one framed as "good" in that conflict.

[wishyouwould]

Do Blamtina talk about their post graduation plans re: the idea of Tina going to NYC too?

No.

[wishyouwould]

What is the context for Jumpin Jumpin, why that song? What are they doing when they perform it?

Choir room performance.

[wishyouwould]

Hi, I just followed you because you're awesome for answering these questions. So is Dani's future absence going to be explained in this episode?

No.

[wishyouwould]

Is there any Kurt/Santana scene alone?

No, I think Kurt is only in group scenes.

[wishyouwould]

Do we get any Artie in this episode?

He has a few lines but nothing big. I think the only sophomores who have any lines at all are Unique and Kitty and that's just choir room filler.

[wishyouwould]

HI! Are we going to see Will and Emma doing "inappropiate" things ?? xD Thanks!

Yes.

[wishyouwould]

does blaine catch tina and sam before or after they sing DYFAM?

Before.

[wishyouwould]

Oops, I don't know why I answered that wrong-- it happens after.

[wishyouwould]

hi :) can you please tell us if there are any Artie/Kitty moments in this episode, please ? thank you

Not in dialogue, there's a mention of them having a bumper bowling date Blaine was invited to.

[wishyouwould]

How much screentime does Sam get? Is there any mention of Penny (esp. while he's making out with Tina?) Would you say this is a good episode for him?

There's a mention of Penny by Blaine. Sam gets a fair amount of screentime. Whether it's good or not is too subjective to really answer. Honestly there's nothing really revelatory about those scenes. It's really just comedy with Blaine/Tina/Sam with some schmoopiness thrown in.