I want to start off by marking a trigger warning, so tw:self harm, mentions of abuse, suicide and bullying. Please please please scroll past this post if you don't want to see it.
Alright, now that we're past that, I want to ask for your help. I pondered a lot thinking if making this post is the right thing to do. But since you're reading this, you know the answer.
I struggled with a lot when I was younger. A dysfunctional family that eventually broke up, my mom's mental issues after being into an abusive relationship for so long, financial problems and being bullied. That and not being able to afford going to therapy lead me down a path of toxic behavior towards myself. Not knowing how to express my anger and not being able to hurt the people that hurt me, I hurt myself. I self harmed for two years and actually attempted suicide a couple of times.
I am in a much better state right now. I have been clean for four years. I have recovered from the other stuff I was dealing with, such as my eating disorder.
However, some things still affect me to this way. I still have to wear long sleeves in the summer. I can't go swimming. I can't go to the gym without wearing long sleeves. My past mistakes have been stopping me from living the life I want to live.
I've been writing my scars out of pictures so people don't worry for me. I've kept them hidden and only the closest people to me know about them.
I'm scared of walking around with my scars out in the open. Not because I am ashamed, but because it is not nice having people commenting on them, giving you looks and judging you. I tried, believe me, but I always cover myself up after an hour or two.
So I want to get a tattoo sleeve. I know the scars will still be kind of visible, but when I look at my body I want to be able to see who I am now. I want my body to reflect the person that I am, not the person that I was. Not saying that people who self harm are bad people. Not at all. However, I want to move on form that period of my life.
I know the artist and salon that I want to get tattooed at. I'm talking about Jory from the Outisder salon from Burton on Trent, uk.
So that's when you guys come into play because I can't afford it. A full day booking costs around 350£ if I remember correctly and I'm a full time student. I don't have that kind of money. But, I do have an Etsy shop.
I am offering tarot readings to raise money for a dream that I have had for years on end. So, please, if you have any money to spare and maybe some questions to ask the universe, I am at your service.
So far I have 15/350. Any contobuition would mean the world to me.
With that being said, stay magical
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