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Does anyone still uses tumblr nowadays? Every year my pillars of support changes. I had to adapt to every single time. I wish to those who were once them all the best in life.

justletmediealready

Loving you, came natural. So easy like breathing. It was not hard. The hard part was, understanding. Understanding, that you dont love me.

Tell me, how do I stop breathing?

I’m still holding on to that reality where everything is perfect and when I was still with..

The Year Of 2020

Well entering the year of 2020, I was inlove. Madly INLOVE with someone I could trust and I was able to call that person my beloved. Genuinely, I was happy being with that person til we actually became toxic for one another. In a sense where I started to lose my trust, my sanity and myself because I was blindly inlove with him, so I tend to look pass that. I didn’t like how I depend on him for almost everything. It is like I am always seeking approvals, I needed the reassurance from him but sadly wasn’t given any. He claims that he is not a secretive person at all, but little did I know.. I was dumbfounded. Through all the pain tho I must say I don’t regret being with him cause being in a committed date has taught me that I can go miles for someone that I’m inlove with, showing how passionate I am and also experiencing what it is like to have a partner. So I wish you nothing but the best.

For all the friends that are I adore so much thank you for being there for me, showing me that I am so much more than a sad boy. Thank you for being my emotional support for the toughest year In my life. I love you guys dearly. Tho to those I fought with and still thinking that I want to move forward with in 2021.. I will definitely hit you up. But to those that I’ve 100% made up my mind that I want to cut ties, just be respectful of my decisions cause I can’t see myself being with you guys anymore.

So since it’s the 1st day of 2021, let’s talk about new year resolutions. REALISTICALLY this time round.

Putting myself first before pleasing others

Make memories with my love ones

Re-discover who I am

Graduate with diploma and have fun in NS

Be single til I’m ready to find someone new

Don’t be nice to others just because I feel like I need to

And I guess the list goes on. It’s 7:14am and I have not slept at since last year. Get it ? I’m one of those lame people with the “New Years” joke.

Happy New Year everyone :)

Smile through the pain.

When you’re here with me without leaving my sight, I would always complained to my friends that you’re not giving me time to move on from you. I tried every single way for me just to let you go.. and now that I have.. I want you back ? Like I want you to randomly appear in my dream or post IGstories or send me a random text, ANYTHING. I am so complicated.. I want you gone and I want you back. They said you never left.. but I feel like you’re gone completely.. I miss being annoyed by you.

Are you not allowing me to move on? Is there something you want to share? I don’t get what you’re trying to do. I am.. hurt. Could you please.. give me time.

Whatever it is, just know that I am still here. I am not going anywhere, I’m not hoping for anything. All I wish is for you to be safe and be happy. Whatever it is, you have to be okay with who you are. Deal with your own feelings, don’t break others if you’re not sure of your own. Some people aren’t strong to deal with it, some people they fall too fast and they can’t help it. We are all humans.. with feelings. Don’t treat life as a game okay ?