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I want to go back to the beach. Or to a spring. I just want to lay in the sun again listening to my daughter’s laughter.

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On another note, I also still plan to find a part-time remote job. And my plan is to start saving for a trip to Europe. If it takes me the next ten years to save, so be it. I will sit on a Mediterranean beach, tour castles, and stroll through a lavender field with my daughter someday.

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The trip to the beach was really wonderful. My daughter had such a great time. She spent an hour playing in the sand and building a sand castle with shells and seaweed on the beach. We managed to spend quite a lot of time at the pool as well. Now we plan on taking her to my SIL’s pool every week to help her feel more confident learning to swim. Now that she’s a bit older, I was able to actually lay down and get a decent base tan for the summer.

The food I made for the trip was also a hit, and it was a great way to to be able to just relax in the afternoons after the beach/pool and have lunch in our room before heading out again.

We found some good restaurants for dinner, and went to a few local shops. My daughter got a handmade flamingo doll which she adores.

None of us were really ready to come back home (though we all agreed we missed the cats).

Over the weekend we’ve basically taken our time “recovering” from the trip. I still have a little unpacking to do and some laundry. We food prepped yesterday and ate the rest of the goodies we got at the beach (homemade bread, cookies, etc.).

Being at the beach has further inspired me to want to get into shape, however. Once my in-laws come back from Texas and can stay with my daughter, I am taking the opportunity to go to my husband’s gym at least three times a week. I will start out slow, as I need to build up my strength, but eventually I want to graduate to doing laps in the pool (I get winded too easily right now to attempt that).

I’m also going to stick to a high protein, low fat and low carb diet to get rid of this excess fat that sticks to my torso. This doesn’t mean I’m going to deny myself quality food, or that I’m going to starve myself. To the contrary, I’ll actually be eating my weight in protein, eating things like fruit for my carbohydrates (instead of breads) and going easier on things like cheese and butter (which I have overindulged in over the past year), which I think are causing me to bloat more easily.

I’m not saying it’ll be easy, but it will most certainly be more practical and attainable than attempting something more extreme like keto.

I also plan to do a 1-2 day fast once a month.

I really think this is all doable. And now that I’m not bound to schoolwork, I can do this and still be present with my daughter.

I just really want to feel good in my body, for once. More than anything, I want to feel strong, especially so I can carry and play with my daughter without feeling like my back is going to give out (again), or wanting to pass out after 20 minutes of running around.

Wish my luck!

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For #WorldBeeDay 🐝 some late medieval specimens (ca.1440), from Tractatus de Herbis, a wonderful manuscript from northern Italy made to help apothecaries and physicians identify useful ingredients. More here: https://publicdomainreview.org/collection/tractatus-de-herbis-ca-1440 @britishlibrary

My husband and I are taking our daughter to the beach today for two nights. We did this last year and she had such a wonderful time. Not only did she enjoy playing in the sand, but she loved staying in a big hotel. She also loved the pool (the beach waves were a bit much for her). But most of all she loved having breakfast at the hotel restaurant. Now typically, my crunchy self would not be inclined to let her eat the food at an average hotel, but it isn’t as if we do this everyday. Restaurants in general are a special treat we all enjoy from time to time. I think what she liked most was the fact that the restaurant was right there in the hotel, and that she could see the pool from the window. Also, what child doesn’t love going up the elevator and running down the hallway?

She’s had me read Eloise to her a lot recently, so I am curious to see what her perspective is this year. I may try and order room service just once (perhaps for a special dessert) to give her an Eloise-like experience.

I have probably overpacked to a degree, but I am definitely a “type A” in that I like to be prepared for everything. I also made a chicken salad, pasta salad and burger patties (along with healthy chips, crackers, etc.) so we aren’t tempted to go to a convenience store for snacks or overspend at a restaurant for lunch.

I also let my daughter pick out a new bathing suit the other day. She chose a Bluey one. She is very much into all things Bluey, despite never watching the show, nor having any real interest in watching it. I have offered to let her watch it a couple of times and she says she’d rather watch one of her other favorites (like Little Bear). I honestly think she just enjoys leaving it up to her imagination, which I am very proud of!

Anyway, I hope she has just as much fun this time around as she did last time. I think she may actually have more fun because this year she doesn’t have eczema. I’m not exactly sure how we managed to get rid of it, but my belief is that I started giving her cod liver oil every night before bed. I told her pediatrician this and she looked at me oddly, but honestly, not 6 months into giving her cod liver oil and her eczema suddenly vanished. I hope and pray it stays that way.

But I digress (again)…

I am excited to get a nice base tan for the summer while we’re at the beach and pool. Although I almost hope we get half a day of rain, preferably in the evening (we did last year and watching the ocean from our hotel window while it poured down was so serene). And I am excited to take an evening walk along the beach too.

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when will my thesis defend me

School is officially over for me. I completed all of my assignments (miraculously), and I have been celebrating my birthday, graduation and Mother’s Day all week, and it will continue into next week! I’ve been very spoiled and have received many wonderful gifts and I am eternally grateful for it all.

I’m also just so relieved to be finished and to receive my long awaited degree. Now I just need to be sure to find a way to make good use of it. I don’t want to let my in-laws down by not finding some way to bring in a little income, so I will be looking for opportunities soon. But I’m also taking time this summer to focus on my daughter. I want to invest in a Waldorf curriculum, teach her to swim, sign her up for music lessons and all the rest.

As for myself, other than job search, I want to focus on making art again, read as many of my neglected books as possible, and get my body in shape.

It is a long list and maybe it all won’t go according to plan but that’s okay. I also want to find time to rest, and to enjoy making delicious food for my family, and repair my relationship with my husband.

More than anything I really want to feel like I’m living. Yes, laundry and dishes will still need doing, but as I get my body right again, I’m going to start dressing nicely for no reason other than it makes me feel good.

Tonight, after nap time we are going to go get some groceries from the ✨fancy✨ grocery store and make a nice spread for dinner. I am going to find a movie for us to watch and try to get to bed at a decent time.

Another one of my goals is to get up early everyday before my daughter wakes so that I can read my paper or scroll Pinterest with a coffee.

Once she’s up we will do what we usually do and read on the couch, and make breakfast.

I am also going to have a family meeting and try to designate certain days to certain household tasks, as I am hoping this will make things easier for everyone.

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