Immune 🍸

18 - non recovering alcoholic ♱ ݁₊ .

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Wait he’s actually me wtf no joke

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Sitting on a made bed makes me feel home-ish . Even when I’m on the floor .

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I can’t be comfortable

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I need to leave because I don’t belong here

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I’m doing horribly. I really hope I get better before I die

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I hope someone will love me for me someday. Like romantically. I’m so thankful for all the love in my life but I really wish to be loved deeper. I feel stupid admitting that :(( I want to text my ex again but I know they don’t love me so it’s pointless. I wish they cared enough to reach out first. I feel like a fool .

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I’m losing my mind

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Not knowing where my fucking journal is is very scary and annoying I know I just need to look but omg stop moving my stuff please please. I need it please where the fuck is this stupid book

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Anyway she’s me

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I’m gunna give myself a heart attack n then be like awe man I had a heart attack . LAMMEEEE

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Can someone talk to me I’m high and scared and drunk and ugghhhhjbv

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I’m just retarded fr what do I do like actually

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I am nothing my soul is worth nothing. The only real value I might have would go to my stupid flesh but even then . It’s not worth much. I’m discounted meat . Ugh

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I am a phony

I don’t deserve the love I receive

I’m too afraid to let everyone know how spineless I really am.

If my self destructive behaviors end me, I really hope nobody feels sorry or at fault :((

Thank you to everyone who keeps me in mind .

I am not religious but when I’m at my lowest I pray and you are in my prayers .

It’s a habit I suppose, growing up religious n all..

I am begging and pleading and hoping to whoever might be out there, despite the fact I feel I am sure nobody is listening.

Despite the fact my prayers must fall onto nobody’s ears, I hope I might be manifesting some good into the world. Some good to all the kind souls who’ve not only done good to me, but good to anyone really. Kindness is underrated and a little goes a long way .

I still think about kind strangers from years ago. Your potential thoughtfulness might just encourage someone to stay one more day, I know it sounds corny but tons of strangers have helped me stick around just a little bit longer because of small acts of kindness..

I was very much ready to call it quits a year ago, at that point I hadn’t spoken to mostof my loved ones in so long and I was too scared to reach out , I wrote goodbye letters for weeks but the small acts of kindness + my close friends reaching out, despite everything really stopped me from doing something drastic.

I am so thankful I kept going. I still struggle so much but I am so grateful I’ve been able to make more lovely memories, the little things keep me going .

I have more too say but I’ll save it for a later date.

Thank you to everyone who’s kept me going. I’m so thankful to feel loved. I love so much.

I want to live .

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We sank

Im going away but ill be back soon

Blank

Without you

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I’m losing my mind cool

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Real talk I wanna receive videos of someone stroking