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IT / THEY / 20 私は診断された境界性障害です。ストーカー的な執着的な考えについて書きに来ました。🌠

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hello , im aviras

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( i am one body, i am not one mind )

I have diagnosed bpd and am unmedicated , i come to vent out my intrusive and irrational thoughts on here.

THIS PAGE IS NSFW

DISCLAIMER: i do not act most things that i think, it doesn't include hurting anyone or doing anything truthfully harmful - these are just thoughts i have in my head and i'm here to find people who daydream / think the same way that i do.

i am obsessive , i am possessive — and compulsive .

(mainly here in manic episodes)

pls read more !! ⬇️

MORE : ⭐️⭐️⭐️

jpn / esp / eng

im 20

i love music and art, i love different kinda of aesthetics too, you'll see my reposts and understand more of how i picture my own energy.

i can be a bit cold and bitter, or straightforward. i promise I’m not usually mean, but we’re strangers on the internet.

triggering topics will be mentioned.

such as :

sh

ed / body checking

obsessive stalker - like thoughts

blood

disorganized thoughts

- please be aware that some of my posts contain unstable ramblings, if that can throw you into your own episodes pls avoid

#NORMME - kinda normal kinda relaxed “regular” thoughts

sorry to be vague i don’t really know how to describe my interests — you literally just have to see to understand <3

please don’t judge / hate , this area is my only outlet and i feel comfortable enough to share some of these thoughts.. don’t ruin that :}

dni if you’re < 17 — my page is not for you

PLEASE ASK ME ANYTHING :3

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⭐️?

#wwquestions = ask responses

feel free to dm, just don’t be weird.

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atty…… atty i’m still waiting for you… i know you miss meeeeee

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“I can’t be with someone who knows what they want..”

are you stupid? be honest.

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i just wonder why you don’t hurt the way that i do.. it makes me want to ruin your life

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false alarm, no loverboy era.. he’s a cunt

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I HATE INCONSISTENCY!!!! I HATE WHEN YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WANT!!! IM ALWAYS LEFT WAITING!!!! i know patience is key, but i hate that i feel so liked one moment — so i get involved and then its gone. i WILL kill you and myself like

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haven’t been here in a minute but this boy is actually driving me fucking insane so i’m back

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nothing bad happened, but this is exactly why i don’t get into relationships with anyone

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text me back or i'll kms.

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am i … entering my loverboy era…..

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i like finding someone new to stalk, the minute i think they might like me.. i’m hooked.

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i like that you like me.. i don’t like you but i like your obsession with me

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i want someone to worship me as their deity

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i don’t want to be trapped here anymore.

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there’s something about life that feels so terribly sad no matter how high i try to keep my mood, i always feel i’m missing something from it, a big piece of me is somewhere that i’ve always wanted to be and the rest of me lives in my current presence. somewhere in some universe , i am everything i have ever wanted to be.. everything i’ve done was right and i’ve never made any mistakes. obviously, that’s not how life works. but i can’t help but wonder that when i die, ill be reborn as everything i’ve ever dreamed of, i’ll have a purpose that isn’t the one i have now, one that i forced myself to believe was okay because my circumstances couldn’t give me what i’ve ever wanted. part of me thinks that eventually i will have the life i’ve always wanted, the other half never believes i’ll get anything. i am only a kid still, i don’t know anything about the world — i want to live so badly, i want to live. please let me love and explore the world like i want. please.

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i wish i could erase everything i’ve ever lived up until now and start fresh.

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I dont like him, i just like the idea of him...

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