I have diagnosed bpd and am unmedicated , i come to vent out my intrusive and irrational thoughts on here.
THIS PAGE IS NSFW
DISCLAIMER: i do not act most things that i think, it doesn't include hurting anyone or doing anything truthfully harmful - these are just thoughts i have in my head and i'm here to find people who daydream / think the same way that i do.
i am obsessive , i am possessive — a yandere .
(mainly here in manic episodes)
pls read more !! ⬇️
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jpn / esp / eng
im 20
i love music and art, i love different kinda of aesthetics too, you'll see my reposts and understand more of how i picture my own energy.
i can be a bit cold and bitter, or straightforward. i promise I’m not usually mean, but we’re strangers on the internet.
triggering topics will be mentioned.
such as :
sh
ed / body checking
obsessive stalker - like thoughts
blood
disorganized thoughts
- please be aware that some of my posts contain unstable ramblings, if that can throw you into your own episodes avoid #disorganizedthoughts
#NORMME - kinda normal kinda relaxed “regular” thoughts
sorry to be vague i don’t really know how to describe my interests — you literally just have to see to understand <3
please don’t judge / hate , this area is my only outlet and i feel comfortable enough to share some of these thoughts.. don’t ruin that :}
Exeggutor's heads think independently and don't appear interested in one another, so it makes a lot of noise as each head speaks its mind. They still appear to get along, though, for they never squabble amongst themselves. If all the heads want to go in a different direction, its body is unable to move. They are able to communicate telepathically as well and sometimes use it to come to a joint decision. It uses psychic powers to fight, and since all three heads are capable its power is tripled. If one of these heads grows too large, it falls off and groups together with others to become an Exeggcute. In the Pokémon the Series episode The March of the Exeggutor Squad, Exeggutor also has been seen in groups of its own kind, meaning that it is not a solitary Pokémon. Exeggutor has been referred to as "The Walking Tropical Rainforest" or "The Walking Jungle". It can be sluggish during cloudy days due to the lack of sunlight. Being the result of an evolution via Evolution stone, Exeggutor is rarely found in the wild, though they can be found in forests and jungles.
Girafarig is a cloven-hooved, quadrupedal giraffine Pokémon with a long neck. Girafarig lives in savannas and grasslands, where it feeds on the plant life.
Girafarig's tail possesses a head of its own. The tail's head has yellow eyes, a mouth full of sharp teeth, and a small brain. However, this head is incapable of independent thinking and relies on outside stimuli such as smell to guide its actions. If the tail smells something alluring, it will bite. The tail often mimics the head during feeding and is able to warn the Pokémon of danger if it is sleeping. The tail head can also unleash psychic powers.
Exeggcute is a Pokémon resembling a group of six light pink "eggs", usually seen arranged with five heads huddled around a sixth. Each shell has some cracks, and one member of the bundle usually has its yellow insides or brain exposed. More numerous cracks are a sign that it is close to evolution. Despite looking like eggs, Exeggcute is actually more closely related to plant seeds. It is believed to carry genes of plants and other species.
Exeggcute gather in swarms of six. The heads communicate with each other by using a form of telepathy that only they can understand. Should the number of Exeggcute be reduced to less than six, the remaining Exeggcute will attempt to replace it with a similarly sized Pokémon as seen in the Pikachu short Pikachu's Rescue Adventure. It needs six Exeggcute in order to stay balanced or else it becomes nervous and cowardly. Pidgeotto and Crabrawler are its natural predators, which it chases off with psychokinesis. Exeggcute inhabits jungles and forests. Exeggcute in the Alola region tend to be heavier than those from elsewhere. This is due to the shells being packed full.
Each head has its own working brain and distinct personality. Each head represents and expresses either sorrow, anger, or joy. Despite being separate, it has the innate ability to use all three of its brains to collect data, formulate, and then execute complex plans and strategies. However, on occasion, it may overthink, which causes it to become immobilized and unable to carry out any action whatsoever. Being separate individuals on the same body, the three heads will continue to bicker until they, or at least one of them, gets to eat. This satisfies the other two heads, quelling them and temporarily ending their infighting. The strongest of Dodrio's heads and the thickest neck will become the leader and gain primary control of the body. Another form of adaptation that it has acquired is the ability to have at least one head alert at all times. Extreme caution is advised when all three heads are facing separate directions. It is in this state that it is the most dangerous and going near it may result in a severe pecking.
Along with its three heads, it has three sets of hearts and lungs as well. This allows it to efficiently oxygenate and pump blood throughout its body, thus giving it increased endurance to run vast distances without rest. It is especially prone to race vigorously across grassy plains, even in arid seasons with little rainfall. As a result, despite being slower than Doduo, Dodrio can keep running for an even longer time. As mentioned in Pokémon Sleep, Dodrio is known to usually sleep standing up. Each of the three heads taking turns sleeping while one head stays awake. However, should Dodrio become very tired, even the head that remains awake may start to doze off.
When I knew that I love you, I'm scared.
When I knew that you are not mine I was terrible.
When I knew everthing was gone, I knew I was no longer on earth.
Ohh dear... I love you more than you knew, just trust me, just that what I need from you...