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[woshiren]

My love....shall stop here.... Eternity.... is still the love i'll show the world for him.... Im realli tired.... 一了白了 is the best solution I can seek.... Take Care my frens......

[woshiren]

While smokin by the kitchen window today by myself.... I cant help but to tink... If i were to jump dwn from there will I b able to str KO..? Will i regret while in d midair..? Shd I leave my las msg to ppl ard mi tru my hp..? Or shd i jus write it dwn on paper n leave it in my room... If i were to write it on my hp, if i were to go higher up to jump instead, will my hp end up bein taken away n eventualli ppl ard mi wont hav acess to it anymore..? Im realli tired.... I realli love him.... I realli wants to hav a future wif no one else but him... He gave me a total diff feel from all the other guys out there.... Everytin was still so sweet n lovely b4 he brk the news to mi tt night... Everytin was jus too sudden....

[woshiren]

A person hu worth ur tears wont mk u shed any for him… N…. Ive fking cried badly becuz of him more than twice dis wk…. Not even I fking begged him he giv in… First time in my life Ive ever begged someone so badly… M no longer the best gf he ever had….. Im jus a fking worthless n useless piece of shit! Gal u shd jus fking disappear from this fking world n stop giving ppl problem! Nth but a trouble maker...Srsly....FUCKED UP GAL U ARE

[woshiren]

Ive failed.... Ive failed to do wat i always believe in... Nv to go to bed while nt bein happi wif each other... no matter hw upset u r wif ur other half still at lease send a gdnight n gdmornin msg to each other... I din bid him gdnight las night n i din wish him gdmornin jus nw..... This is the start of an unsuccessful rs...? I hope not.......

[woshiren]

Verge of GivinUp

Sometimes.... Im realli on the verge of givin up... Wo shi zhen de hen lei le.... 做人为何要做到这么的累。。。 又何必呢。。。 为了是什么。。。 Realli felt lk jus disappear from everytin n restart my life elsewhere....By my own......

[woshiren]

One Sided Actions

Sometimes...he jus makes mi felt as doh im very fang jian n one sided in a way... More than often wen i wanna get close to him,or hug him or lovely dovey in a way, hr would gimmi the "eeek!" looks... M i jus so tao ren yan? Perhaps its time for mi to b less physical wif him since he dun seems to lk it at all... Its time to back off abit... his luv for mi arent lk the initial stage anymore... He dun craves for mi anymore.....

[woshiren]

My confidence lvl has dropped to the pit... I shd hav agree him durin our startin stage wen he ask mi go in del myself... Perhaps... Im jus nt gd enuff for him to forgo his past despite it makin mi upset... Perhaps im jus too ugli for him...No looks no figure no youth no anytin... He jus wanna kip those in his fb to show ppl hes nt bad afterall,lease he had a gd lookin ex.. Part of mi fearin tt he may jus start to get bored of mi n starts to xian qi mi n goes lookin for gd lookin xmm or hot babes... I nid back my 5yrs ago's confidence...

[woshiren]

XDD

Met up wif XDD to watch MarkLee's Fantastic Ghost Wedding at TM on the 21stNov night.. After movie went to nearby voideck to chill for awhile b4 goin back.. Talked quite a bit wif him while at the voideck..

N met up wif him again on the 23rd night for dinner n HungerGame at EHub.. Halfway tru the movie... I actually use hp n type n show him "Can hug ur arms?" Omg... Lk ps onli.. He laughed n say Na,Take Lo.. N yes.. I jus hugged his arms almost tru out the 2nd half of the movie.. After movie jiu go bk le dis time rd cuz both of us nxt day oso gt wrk n kip cabbing back lk exp oso..Haha.. Rite when both of our bus rching busstop he gimmi my 5sec b4 we both go up to our bus.. Haha.. Shyshy awkward but nice..

Since the day we realli started chatting we sorta chat from wake up till slp.. Like alot tin to tok hor? Nw tt i tink back, i duno wat we chatted oso..Tt can last for days..Haha..

N somehow...I tink... Yes... I gt bit fallen for him le.. However...Somehow... I tink... We will onli remain as fren... Duno y... Jus gt such feeling....

If u were to ask mi, if i wanna remain as fren wif him or go on nxt stage wif him.. Tink... Part of mi wanna go on nxt stage but part of mi doesnt dare to... Somehow feelin lk.... He will onli treat mi as someone whos, more than fren to him but less than BGR...

Maybe Im too old for him... Maybe ive too mani guy frens ard mi... Maybe Im onli suitable as his chat buddy... Maybe Im jus not his type......

[woshiren]

Depression?

I tink.... My Slight Depression is creeping bk... Lately out of no reason i'll suddenly cry.... As in, not totally no reason, but jus, tot of a little tins onli eyes would turn teary...... Alot been goin tru my mind lately.... I tink....I jus nid a platfom for mi to vent everytin out at times.....

[woshiren]

Bf B4 Work ;]

Came to fetch mi for brkfast again b4 our wrk.. Went to MeiLing market n makan.. He bot Fried Carrot Cake n BeeHoon n we share both tog.. Which, I enjoys eating in dis way more oso..Get to try more tin n wont eat till too full.. (Y) After eating he fetch mi to wrk b4 going to wrk himself.. Thx.. For not rejecting mi whenever I say smt =]

[woshiren]

Brkfast

Instead of waking up later for wrk on this not often de chance, he came over to fetch mi for brkfast n send mi to work b4 going for his wrk.. Given his character, he hardly pay for ppl anytin.. However he used his usual tone n say mi "siao" when I wanted to pay for my own meal.. Thank you , for being such a sweetie to mi =]

[woshiren]

Commintment?

After tt incident... I seems to attract to tins which doesn't nid mi to be committed......

However.... Im not longer young.... Will I regret this step nxt time..? Seriously......

[woshiren]

Lifes A Mess

Sometimes wen i tink.... Actualli my life is in a mess... I jus cant seems to tidy dis mess up...... Worst of all.... I cant share wif anyone wats goin on in my life...... Sometimes....i realli jus felt lk givin up......

[yanilavigne]

[woshiren]

Verge of Giving Up

Sometimes when Im on the verge of giving up I would tell myself "Fuck u! U cant be such a f.king weakling n look dwn on urself b4 others even hav the chance to!" N yeah...I jus told myself that.....,.

[woshiren]

Random Thots

Isit really worth for us to get so tired everyday for wrk jus to earn that pathetic amount of money? Getting so drained off from all the shits for my wrk, n going for parttime jobs during my rest days... Sometimes these thots jus came across my mind... But tink...Its actually alrdy sorta a habit for mi to be working my life away... Its been lidat since I starts parttimes during my lower sec life..

Even if u let mi found a rich husband,which eventually i dun hav to wrk n we still can lead a pretty well off life, tink i oso cannot tahan.. Jus not my style to live off someone else..Feels more at ease spending own hard earned money..

But....I still hav time when Im tired... Seriously niding a short getaway... Im getting too drained off alrdy......

[woshiren]

Totally Unexpected

So totally din expect tat my bochap attitude n unfriendly face will actually attracts someone's attention n interest. During my most tired point of life when Im wrking Night Life somemore=/ Recently den came to know abt this fact. I still tot I onli interests that server cum bartender(which I came to noe tru another colleague initially) which eventually he confess to mi too when we kena same post lahs.. Interesting findings......