TW: Angst, Father issues, death, su!c!d3 hintings, and there are no typing quirks used in this. There is a quirk version on my page.
Vee sat in her room, listening to her father and uncle fight. Her mother had died a couple sweeps back when she was simply a grub. Her mothers death bothered her father so much that, due to her being an exact genetic clone of her mother, made him try and bring her mother back through her. But she simply just didn’t like anything her mother seemed to at her age. Such as sweets and corsets. She didn’t like those things and would rather have sour candy or off the shoulder shirts. Although she never exactly realized the mold he was attempting to fill her into until now, hearing her uncle call him out on it. She never knew her uncle as the mature type, but she guesses she misunderstood him. She knew that she freaked them out, hell, her uncle could barely look at her sometimes. She hung her head low into her knees, waiting for the argument to die down.
Soon enough it did, she heard the door slam. She shakily got up, and went to go check out the damage done. Once she was down she saw her father kinda just brooding in the corner. It really was a kind of pathetic sight, him just sitting there head tucked in his knees.. She isn't sure if that's exactly how to explain it with his horns preventing him from looking downwards. All that matters is he’s in the corner really. She looked at his pathetic figure, arms crossing. ‘’What are you doing?’’ She asked, her tone monotone as it usually was while talking to her father.
“i- uh,, well i-’’m thinking,, about,, things.. gosh i hope we didn’t disturb you too much, Vexium..” Her eye twitched in irritation as she heard that name. That was her mothers name, not hers. Well, it was hers but she didn’t want it to be. That wasn’t going to be her name until her stupid mom died.
‘’How many times do i have to tell you! I’m not mom. I’m me! And it’s obvious that no one will be able to convince you otherwise. You wont get her back! She’s dead, dad!’’ She shouted, trying to get him to actually listen to her for once.
He sighs, leaning his head against the wall.. Well as much as he could with his stupid horns. “Fuck…...” he curses for the first time she thinks EVER(god this man is a loser). He can barely stand to look her in the eyes, or even AT HER really. Before he can really say anything else Vee decides that he’s probably just gonna say some bullshit which just makes her more upset.
‘’It’s been what.. Sixteen years? I dont think you can get her back. And forcing this onto your daughter isn’t good! Think about me! Think about who i am and not who you want me to be for your stupid fantasy of having mom back!’’ She shouted ever so slightly louder, she loved her dad as much as she could. But fuck, dude. ‘’And trust me, dad. I want mom back too, i miss her every day, but i can't do this. I cant be mom for you, i can’t just replace her so you dont have to think about the fact she’s fucking dead!’’ She sobbed out, when did she start crying? She hated crying in front of people, but if this is what it takes for him to finally listen to her then it’s what she’s willing to do.
Strnin goes into full panic mode. He didn’t want this to happen but FUCK if it wasn’t completely his fault. All of this was directly caused by him. “wait—-- don’t cry!! well,, cry if you need too??” god he sucked at this “vee…… i- i know you aren’t her..” big wet tears roll down his stupid grey cheeks.. Vee can’t even tell why he’s *actually* crying right now. “But god damn it—--” is all Vee needed to hear before she went off again.
‘’But what, dad? But what?!’’ She walked closer to him, rage fueling her bones.
“You look JUST like her,,*but* you aren’t her……” he wants so badly to just get away from this confrontation, go away and hide in a tunnel somewhere. He’s already had this fight with Rainii, he doesn’t need MORE conflict… he *wants* to be left alone, but that's obviously not going to happen. He feels overwhelmed with everything that’s happening, that‘s happened. Everything he had to comfort himself was quickly falling apart around him.
‘’Just because i look like her doesnt give you the right to MAKE me her!’’ She was standing as in front of him as she could be. Her heart hurt, she didn’t want to hurt her father but she couldn’t stand him seeing her as someone she couldn’t physically be for him. She couldn’t be what he wanted, and she didn’t know how to make that go through his head. ‘’If i could trade my life for her to be alive and here with you, i fucking would. But would she aprove of you doing this? of you changing her and your child into being her so you could ignore the fact she died? I dont think she would! And you need to get out of your fucking head and realize that, hey im leaving in a sweep! You cant keep ignoring who i am, and when i leave,’’ She paused to take a shaky breath in, trying not to cry more than she already was. ‘’And when i leave, you wont have someone to pretend is mom. You wont have somone to keep you sane, and… in all fucking honesty I’m scared of what you’ll do to yourself when i do eventually leave, dad.’’ She failed miserably and was sniffling every chance she had.
Seeing Vee cry.. Hurt. knowing that he caused that was even worse. He just wanted to make everything better. He should have BEEN better. Rainii was right. Strnin let out a shaky breath, knowing he had to be strong. He was the adult here and he needed to man up. “Vee……i’m so sorry..” he wants to hug her. He wants to so bad.. But did *she* want a hug from him..? He felt awful that he didn’t actually know. Vexium had been pretty touch averse but.. Vee wasn’t Vex. “is.. god,, you shouldn’t need to worry about me like that” he gestures to let her into his arms, not pushing anything though.
She looked at him for a moment, her lip quivering. ‘’But I cant help worrying about you, especially after moms passing.’’ She said, letting him embrace her. She hugged him back, getting her teary-ness all over his shoulder. ‘’But please dad, you need to get over mom… it’s been 16 years man..’’ She giggled, half joking with him.
“You know,, this was something that i wouldn’t have been able to do with vex..” he says, hoping that maybe that helped SOMETHING, or was at least acceptable to say.
‘’That’s a start, i guess’’ She smiled, hugging him tighter before letting go.