hcartsandminds:
Optimism was something Mal had always struggled with. His father, paranoid and distrusting, was never a positive man. Everything that happened, good or bad, was some sort of conspiracy. That’s what he’d told his children, panicked about the smallest of things. He’d prepared for the worst above all else, and he’d taught Mal to do the same. It certainly came in handy, there was no denying that — it helped him stay alive in this new world, and he was naturally all for anything that kept him from being eaten — but it never did much for his anxiety. When things went good, Mal spent every moment waiting for them to go bad again. It was a feeling that seemed worse now that the world really had gone to hell, something that seemed impossible to escape. He was glad he’d found Gabe and Reese, but he couldn’t shake the fear of losing them permanently from his mind. It was sure to happen eventually, his father’s voice reminded him. This world wasn’t built to last, and neither were any of the people in it.
“I’ll hold you to that,” he promised with a laugh. It wasn’t so far fetched, not really; anything could be used as a weapon if you were desperate enough, and brain-eating undead creatures tended to make a man very desperate. The idea of finding a bar that hadn’t been drained dry was far less likely than Mal taking out a zombie with a screwdriver! “They’ll probably stay out of cities for a few more years, at least. Instinct and all that.” He sounded more certain than he felt. He didn’t know much about wildlife, not really; his father’s conspiracies rarely involved bears! “If we found it young enough, maybe. I think you can train anything if you raise it from a young enough age!” Circuses trained bears all the time, and he was pretty sure their group was full of people way smarter than circus people! “Really? I’ve heard I’m a little batty.” It was a common accusation, something to be expected considering his various conspiracy theories that he was never shy about sharing. The joke was on the people who’d spent years making fun of him now, of course. It was a shame they were probably all too undead to appreciate it. “Always looking on the bright side,” he smiled, shaking his head. “It doesn’t have to be compared to anything. Experiences don’t cancel each other out, right?” One bad thing happening didn’t make another bad thing sting less, after all. “How you are is important to me, too,” he returned with a small smile. Reese had always been important to him, and he figured she always would be. People didn’t stop mattering to you just because they stopped dating your friends. “I don’t know that talking about it will do much. The world’s… the way it is now. There’s no way around that, is there? How about you? If you want to talk, you know I’ll always listen.”
Reese had always been a friendly, outgoing and typically optimistic kind of person. She liked to think that her approach was part of the reason why Mal ended up trusting her in the end, because he didn’t seem to trust anyone. Conspiracy theories were one thing, Reese had heard plenty of them bandied around in her home when her uncles and brothers got into the same place and started drinking, but Mal had never seemed to her as if he was off his rocker. It was almost like a premonition, an expectation that the worst case scenario was on the horizon and all they were doing was biding time. It was something Reese consciously tried to ignore in her own mind, though she had never pushed Mal’s fears and concerns aside. When the apocalypse broke out, he was one of the first people she thought about. She had remained confident that he was safe because he had been planning for this for years, but seeing him again was still an insane relief, something that she was grateful for every single day.
It wasn’t as if she hadn’t missed Mal before that, because she had. Pretty much exclusively over the past year or so Reese had been missing Gabe and Mal, had wanted to reach out to them, but something had prevented her from doing so. If this was the universe’s way of pushing her to confront her fears, she could think of far less destructive ways to do it. “Do you think this will continue for that long?” Reese asked. Mal had more insight into it than she did, after all, despite her standing in the National Guard. “Surely we will get someone over to contain it before it reaches that stage.” Atlanta couldn’t be gone forever, surely. “Batty isn’t always a bad thing,” Reese replied with a fond smile, “and besides, batty predicted all this going down. I don’t know if I would’ve made it out without remembering some of the things you and Gabe told me.” She had always been a survivor, but that was to do with camping and eating the right berries, not fighting zombies. “Yeah, I guess that’s true,” Reese said, clearly not convinced, though she knew the logic was sound. “The world’s the way it is, but it’s easier to accept it by talking it out, right?” Perhaps that was hypocritical. Reese took a breath, deciding to steel herself. “Okay,” she said. “Everything’s pretty shit. A few years ago, I know I could’ve handled it, you know? But now … things are different.”














