Ibn Qalam

[journeytojannah]

listen, you're not weak for feeling the weight of everything that you are carrying. we're weak humans by nature and we're supposed to feel anyways. pull that prayer mat and pray 2 raka'at, and qur'an until it washes your soul clean

[journeytojannah]

You knock, He opens. You attend, He welcomes. You ask, He gives. You sin, He tests, You repent, He forgives. You sin again. He forgives again. you cry, He listens.

"so which of Allah's favours will you deny?" [55:13]

Indeed He's The Most Merciful

[writtenbymusa]

Everyone, including ourselves, harbor secrets in our hearts. Whether that be pain, hate, or joy, we all carry things.

We are alone in that feeling and the only One that knows is Allah. The Creator and Controller of everyones heart.

Do not fear and do not lose hope.

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One calamity goes and we are in a state of peace but then a new calamity comes and that too goes. As long as we are on this dunya, we are in a cycle of tests.

alhamdulliah

[writtenbymusa]

[bintethereal]

This sickness has prevented me from complete concentration in studying. It is to be known that the deprivation from ink and books and concentration is perhaps the sickness more than the sickness itself. Is there a state more abhorrent than to be deprived from the solace found in looking through the books of the salaf. Can a heart be at rest knowing there are books beside it with ilm that has not yet been conquered and yet the fever of the body prevents the mind from absorbing it?

One must take use of there time in good health. And ponder in there days of sickness. The solace of books has been snatched but to know the sweetness of the reward for the pain that is endurred whilst the body suffers - perhaps comes equal to it

[writtenbymusa]

A man asked the Messenger of Allah (ﷺ): "What quality of Islam is best?" He said: "To feed (the poor) and to say the Salam to whomever one knows and whomever one does not know."

- Sunan an-Nasa'i

[journeytojannah]

[writtenbymusa]

the heartless had hearts

I’ve never got mine back

so you can say i am heartless

my heart is not with me

it is in the clutches of your fist

treat it well and use it responsibly

remember it has a growing cancer

a cure that only you can conjure

while me, im only left with the memory of your smile

truly from all my blessings, that is the treasure

sorry for whatever hurt i may of given

now I must tear that chapter of my life up and leave it unwritten

for my life found purpose with you

and ended with you

as if the sun burnt out

and the moon left the earth

i am left without a thought

and lost in the deception of my heart

[bleedingmusk]

I don't usually like to share my personal experiences on social media but this thought is bugging me for quite few months now الله المستعان.

Mental health in Muslim community is been ignored and rejected so badly it's more like a taboo and you're tired of hearing that you get depression because of low Iman and what not.

Few years ago when I was much younger and quite naive I really didn't knew about anxiety, depression and mental disorders in depth I was not in denial but kinda never really experienced anything like that or anyone closer to me suffering from it. Until in 2019 I saw my ex brother (who left Islam) suffering from servere depression, he wouldn't eat, would just force himself to work, couldn't sleep in nights and there was something on his face which would shook me but as I didn't interacted with him so never bothered about it, infact I used to mock him (I know I was wrong) I used to make fun of his mental state because I believed that his depression is because he became atheist it could be true but Allaah knows best why he was depressed, one time my kitten died I was very upset I cried for days and didn't ate for days or turned on lights of my room, apart from praying I basically didn't do anything so he came into my room and said why you're crying over your kitten ain't your Allaah al Hayy ask Him to give back her life (he was mocking my Lord) I fumed with anger and couldn't say anything but crying more I wanted to run away at that moment, then he continued saying oh sorry Muslims don't go into depression right though at that moment I didn't really thought I was depressed in fact I was just upset and after some days overcame my grief Alhamdulillah. But I always mocked his mental health not realising mocking someone is not good even if he's kafir, Allaah would test you with similar situation some day. Fast forward into 2021 I was diagnosed with clinical depression after being in denial for at least 7 month, Alhamdulillah by the help of Allaah and right Islamic counsellor I battled my depression, healing journey wasn't easy at all I would always remember that how I used to mock my ex brother I would remind myself you see the way he couldn't sleep you were unable to sleep too, he couldn't eat you are not able to eat too, etc I repented to Allaah sincerely (May Allaah accept it from me Ameen) Alhamdulillah as I was still in the process of healing I had very low days I still remember one time my neighbour (she was also a Muwahidah) called me one time and asked me why I never join them and stay alone in my apartment, she taunted me and said you don't even have husband or kids you have no responsibility you must be living a happy life, you see I have husband and kids I have many responsibilities still I manage everything I've never been depressed I silently endured her words though they were cutting me into million pieces after she end the call she sent me a text image which reads as follow "A Muslim never gets depressed, try to read Quran, work on your Iman, help others around and something I forgot..." I was really offended but I was patient I didn't said a word but Allaah was witnessing my pain.

After 6 months I was going to move to a different place I visited her before leaving and she said stay over at her place for a day or two who knows when we'd meet again, as her kids loved me so much and I loved them too I didn't hesitated and I stayed for 3 days, By Allaah second day as I was working in her kitchen and kids were playing I hear screams, and cries I got panicked I ran and saw that sister was having a severe panic attack (being a therapist myself at this point) I tried to calm her down I asked her few things and she started to speak that how from past 2 months she's suffering from severe anxiety, she's very depressed but she doesn't know why she's depressed she was crying.. Wallaahi at that point my mind was blown up I couldn't stop but thinking about how she mocked my mental health few months back, that thought wouldn't leave my mind I somehow tried to control my emotions and helped her to feel relaxed.

Wallaahi brothers and sisters don't ever make anyone's fun, don't mock anyone or ridicule anyone's suffering by Allaah you never know when Allaah would test you with exact same thing. If you cannot be kind at least don't be rude, if you cannot understand at least don't misunderstand. Now I understood the depth of the hadith when Rasulullah صلى الله عليه وسلم said "Kindness is the mark of faith."

May Allaah protect us all and grant shifa to all those suffering mentally or physically Ameen.

[writtenbymusa]

may Allah grant us all righteous spouses

[writtenbymusa]

How can you lose hope on Allah, when His name is Al-Fattah?

It is tough and the earth feels tight, you feel trapped with no hope to help you. Questioning if anyone is listening or if anyone will help.

Allah is listening and He is a witness to everything! He will never abandon you and will forever help you, but you must not lose hope in Him.

[journeytojannah]

Be patient, you may be asking Allah for only a drop while he has a whole ocean prepared for you.

[journeytojannah]

Coming to terms with your own pain can be a bitter reality. It’s almost easier to not confront your problems and continue to live in denial. However, the only way to grow and become the best version of you is by dealing with your problems head on. We must face what hurt us before it completely destroys us.

[deenbot]

[writtenbymusa]

phenomenal ‏اللهم بارك

[writtenbymusa]

Have you lost hope in your Lord? Your nights became longer and darker, your heart empty, and your eyes teary.

Fear not! and Grieve not! It will get better, have hope in Allah and find pleasure and comfort in His remembrance. “Remember me, I will remember you…” 2:152

[journeytojannah]

Did you forget … Allāh ﷻ who has taken care of you till today, will He not manage your affairs in the future ? Don’t lose your tawakkul within in His beautiful plans for you. Yes things may not be going the way you anticipated but there’s beauty in the sabr.