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let's go rattle the stars.

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welcome to writtenbyyjw's space.

find all the pieces of me here.

—here my blood flows flowed;

—here my bones lie lay;

—here my soul breathes rests.

my world is nothing but mine, so beware, traveler: all steps you take are steps into what is mine, but the wolves that caught your scent (and now walk the trail you did) from the forests of my mind are not my hounds to tend to, but your pups to keep.

never forget—it was not my voice that brought you to these woods, but yours.

i did not call you here.

ARCHIVING IN PROGRESS.

BEWARE OF FALLING DEBRIS—BLOG UNDER CONSTRUCTION.

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less dramatic version:

find my aus in my blood,

find my oneshots in my bones,

find my drabbles in my soul.

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i swear to god at this point my spotiwrapped's just gonna be vampire through and through

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green

a sunjay one-part au

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war of hearts

I can't help but be wrong in the dark

'cause I'm overcome in this war of hearts.

—Ruelle, War of Hearts

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possibly

i think that

possibly

maybe

i've fallen for you.

— Landon Pigg, Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop

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garden

a jungwon as greek demigod drabble

Poseidon did not mean things to end this way. There’s no way in all of Gaea’s waters that he’ll conform to his sister’s condition. He doesn’t know what it is yet, but with the glint in her eyes, he already knows this would be something he could never sit well with.

“Hey now, brother. I won. Fair and square.”

He just stared at Demeter, brows furrowed. The God of Horses made a mental note to insert Pegasus on his schedule for tomorrow (even if his divine schedule has been cemented for like, four centuries now) and give him a tongue-lashing (that he rightfully deserves, thank you very much) for making him complacent in the abilities of the horse that his son lent him for this race he and Demeter were betting on.

He was so, so sure he’d win.

“Fine. Fine. What in the seven seas do you want?”

“Heh—I get to name your new kid.”

He was so, so sure he could finally ask Demeter to give him that field in Seoul for his newborn’s birth blessing gift.

But how Demeter learned of his new son’s existence—the god of earthquakes can turn his sister’s lands upside down and she still would not tell him.

“What?”

“He’s gonna be known forever as ‘Jungwon, son of Poseidon.’ Has a nice ring to it, don’t you think so?”

“You—you’re naming, my son, you’re naming a son of the sea god ‘Garden’? Are you fucking with me, sister?”

“Absolutely not, dear brother. Now, now, I’d be waiting for a copy of his certificate of birth in my treehouse tomorrow, hmm? Be careful now, we don’t want word spreading that the great Poseidon’s no good on keeping his promises, do we?”

He’ll win the next race. He will, if he has to resort to not eating his favorite sushi for a whole month—so be it.

He just has to win the next race. He’ll avenge Jungwon soon enough.

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20221113 Weverse - JAKE

❤️

LOVES OF MY LIFE 😭😭😭🥹🥹🥹

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one of these days

a mingyu (x sunoo) [slight smut] drabble, mdni 🚫

canon compliant

It's a good thing, he thinks. It's good that they have the rest of the week off to themselves before continuing with the tour. He can actually go home, and take a long, long bath without worrying about anyone walking in on him while he's… on business.

It's a good thing, since it awfully seems like he'll have to take quite some time inside the bathroom tonight.

He scrolled through his playlist first to find something to put on repeat while he spends some very much needed personal time. Raising his arms, he pulled on his white tee by the nape to take it off, and immediately felt the soreness crawl through his body. This was an exhausting day, for so many reasons. He didn't even try that hard with the games today; still, his muscles felt like they were exerted more than usual, his mind more tired than it was supposed to be.

Facing the shower head, he focused on the temperature of the water on his face, silently praying that its coldness ebbs away the heat he's been feeling the whole day, ever since he watched him.

Ever since he's seen that body move like the silkiest fluid, to a choreography he did not know could be danced like that.

It took him by surprise—he took him by surprise.

When Seungkwan told him about this certain cute rookie who did their dance challenge, Mingyu could not be bothered one bit. 

If only he knew.

The cute rookie was not cute at all—that face could only mean one thing for him, and that was danger.

Sunoo—his nametag said. 

Between their busy schedules and attachments, this is the first time something—someone—has piqued Mingyu's interest in a long while. 

When he watched him dance, he reacted like any proud sunbae would of a junior who did amazingly. He did not, however, expect the thought of him, the image of him, to stay on his mind for the coming hours.

He even tried to sway his attention away from him towards another, but he knew it in himself—that was a colossal failure. Mingyu could not be any gladder the footages did not look like he was overreacting over Soobin, poor kid. To be the subject of his distractions, he could only apologize in his mind.

The sun was too bright to be ignored, and even after it has set for the day, he was all Mingyu's consciousness could think about.

Those fox eyes, those evident curves that his big shirt was unable to hide, that smile—

Mingyu thinks someday, one of these days, maybe he's gonna have that for himself.

Now that's a thought—one of these days.

Half-hard, he stared at himself in the mirror walls of his bathroom. He could only sigh under the water, finally moving his hand to grip his throbbing cock after about half an hour had been spent on edging and contemplation.

This is gonna be a long bath, indeed.

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home.

I don't need to build a house of stone,

'Cause wherever you are's where I call home.

— Bruno Major, Home

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20221213 Weverse - JUNGWON

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I LOVE HIM SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭

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Give me a minute.

a heejay drabble.

"Give me a minute."

I listened to you, because that was what we used to do—we listened to each other, Jongseong.

We listened to each other's good days, to each other's bad days.

You to my unfinished verses, my incomplete bridge; I, to your random spiels about how I'll never find a single ant near your honey jars, to your hidden ramyeon recipes when it's midnight and I'm already content with what three convenience store packs have to offer.

But your minute became two, three... days, four weeks, five months.

Six years I've waited till your minute is up.

Six years I've been waiting and now it's a little over a minute till the sun that rose through your skies have shown himself at the end of the aisle, a little over two minutes till he approaches you, and I, by your side, a little over three spans away from you.

You were a collector of stars, but why was I locked in one of your glass cases, too?

You were a collector of stars, and maybe that is why a mere stone like me, orbiting around you, would never have been enough for us two.

The star you collected looks beautiful, Jongseong.

Your Sunoo looks beautiful.

Give me a minute.

Maybe when I watch you seal the rest of your years with him, I'll say goodbye—

to our gossamer skies,

to cloudy, blue skies,

till I can say goodbye to everything I was willing to trade for you, and for your name, beside mine.

Maybe then I can say goodbye, maybe then I can forget you, till I am only what remains.

I'll give you one last minute, just one will do.

After that, I vow, in the name of the vows you spoke just now to your sun shining bright, I will learn.

I will learn to see me without you, till I am only what remains.

Six years I learned what being whole meant, and for the next six years, maybe I will have to relearn what whole means—now that I do not have you.

But for the next minute, still, I'd allow myself to be collected by you—

unknowingly, unapologetically—

give me a minute.

Still, you remain.

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Ranking the ENHYPEN Members from Most to Least Likely to Get Unhealthily Obsessed with Kim Sunoo

Before we begin, I must tell you all that I have posted this before on the other blue app already. Some agreed, some did not—but that's fine. We all have different ways of looking at things, and each and every perspective is valid.

I have to emphasize, though, that this list focuses on the member's potential to be unhealthily obsessed with Sunoo. Knowing everything about him might be the signs of obsession, but it doesn't already or necessarily mean it's unhealthy. I rely on you all to have a respectful discussion on this one come what may, because people on the other blue app took it upon themselves to feel offended because their fave did not top the list (as if that was a bad thing) and ended up cursing at others who does not think the same as them (which, in my opinion, is really immature).

Moreover (this starts to sound like an academic essay, I apologize), I must point out several more things about this list:

This is not a ship ranking. If this was, you better believe Jongseong would be on No. 1.

I do not claim to be right. This is a ranking made on things I know, I've seen, and I've noticed about the members. I have a different set of priorities (i.e. I think spending time with someone is much more appealing than knowing every single thing they do), so my ranking mostly relies on how I view unhealthy obsession.

For legal purposes: this is just for fun. Unclench and stop being serious. If this hurts your booboo, then stop reading, block my blog, and let's be on our merry ways.

Lastly, this post is open to be replicated, modified, and revised in any way, no need to ask for my permission. If the alternative is you sending me hateful messages to my inbox, then please, please make your own fucking list. Aye, thank you.

Now, we begin.

No. 1 : JUNGWON

Self-explanatory. Jungwon saw Sunoo on that gym and decided he’ll be friends with Sunoo-hyung or die trying. Eyes never leave Sunoo; Sunoo does something, Jungwon knows it (he isn’t ENHYPEN’s CCTV for nothing). The most fearless amongst the members when it comes to expressing affection toward Sunoo, icon of courage and bravery. Gives off intense tries-something-amazing-Sunoo-hyung-you-have-to-check-this-out energy; he lives for Sunoo's feedbacks. Probably has a long list of things he wanted to try doing with Sunoo (Read: The Many Times Jungwon asks Sunoo Out: A DJ OOJUNG Saga), plus elaborate plans on how to carry them out (Read: Amusement park date).

No. 2 : JAKE

I cannot defend this man; how many times has he proposed to Sunoo by now? Totally lost count. Would’ve topped this list if Jungwon wasn’t such a fucking menace, and if SunJake did not have that period where Jake does not know how to deal with the entirety of Sunoo post-debut. Worry not though, mans learned how to and found the answer in kneeling down to propose to Sunoo every chance he gets. Totally clingy when given the opportunity, but it has to be a very wide door of opportunity (if it isn’t, he breaks the wall down and makes it wide himself).

No. 3 : SUNGHOON

Another lost case. When Sunoo talked to him during that one I-Land moment I believe we all know about, Sunoo had him wrapped around his fingers forever. Problem is: dude doesn’t know how to go about it so he decides to mask this immense confusion and denial as playful remarks. And his hobby is watching Sunoo’s cute fancams—not sleeping, or watching dramas, or listening to music, I mean, how am I supposed to defend him after that? A bumbling mess in Kim Sunoo’s presence—not that we can really blame him. We’re all a bumbling mess for Kim Sunoo.

No. 4 : HEESEUNG

Hides his obsession pretty amazingly, but not perfectly. Boy slips from time to time and lets go of information he wouldn’t have known about Sunoo unless he was watching him like a fucking hawk (Read: [About Sunoo] He really wants to be an INFJ.). Plays it cool and pretends he isn’t the least bothered by Sunoo, but he is. HE IS—if all those OT7 lives he was caught fondly staring at Sunoo are enough indications. He’s much more clueless than Sunghoon on dealing with the idea of Sunoo, and we can’t blame him, too. Totally understandable. Lately though, he’s been getting braver re: MANIFESTO in the US. We love that for him. Also, it’s worth pointing out that he has that particular power of rendering Sunoo so shy, so props to our man. 

No. 5 : NI-KI

Ni-Ki is the perfect example of tiptoeing that line between smitten and obsessed. Kid is clearly enamored by his Sunoo-hyung and can perfectly express it without pretending he’s not bothered by it whatsoever, because he isn’t. Still, he’s just a kid trying to deal with the perfection that is Kim Sunoo, so he still ends up slipping from time to time, as can be seen by this specific clinginess he has reserved for Sunoo (Read: Sleepwalking to Sunoo's Bed). In the same way, I believe Sunoo has this specific adoration reserved only for Riki, so that's pretty cool of them. Ni-Ki knew how to push all of Sunoo's buttons and when Sunoo actually responded, he's got 0 bullets to fire his gun now. Addendum: Most challenges to this list have been directed at No. 5, citing how much Ni-Ki knows about Sunoo. That is valid, but I have to say it does not look like the makings of an unhealthy obsession for me. He does not push Sunoo to do certain things or act a certain way: if any, he seems like he really respects Sunoo's preferences, and that for me, is really, really healthy (and adorable).

No. 6 : JAY

Tricky. He's clearly smitten with Sunoo, but this is as casual as it can get for him. It's as casual as breathing for Jay, so he doesn't pay this much attention. Still, this does not erase the fact that he can be a total madman trying to please Sunoo every time he can: sees a nice restaurant? Must bring Sunoo here. Finds a good perfume? Must give Sunoo a try. He's like another version of Jungwon in this note, minus the assertion. Jay does not know how to assert anything with Sunoo, so he plays it as the Wanna Try This? game and just settles however Sunoo responds. If anything, it might be Sunoo who's obsessed with Jay, but we can't really conclude it this way because Sunoo is a really, really clever mind and if he wanted, he can act a certain way exactly how he intends to. Jay's obsession levels with Sunoo is more of a conscious decision rather than the aftermath of any specific event, hence why he is ranked at the bottom of this list.

Well, there we go. It'd be interesting to see everyone's take on this, no need to be so mean. How will you do this ranking, if you were to be asked?

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Poor attempt at crack, smuttish fluff; bastos ang bibig ng character(s) pero no actual bastos content except momol 😆

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additional tags: non-top🧡 enjoyers, DNI please; non-bot💚 enjoyers, DNI please

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It did not take long for Jazz to reach Sid's unit, but he's doing his best to drag out confessing to his boyfriend by distracting him.

He's not sure if it's working on Sid, though he's sure it's working on him.

Sid's kisses take him on another plane as usual, yet there's nothing usual with what he's feeling right now. He's glad they're not like those people he reads about—it would really, really suck if Sid can scent his emotions right now. 

That'd be embarrassing.

If they were like those alphas and omegas though, he's sure there'd be no need for talks. Knowing his boyfriend, one whiff and he'll know exactly what's driving Jazz nuts right now. 

If only.

Now, remembering the actual purpose of his visit, he breaks off their lips, and readies himself to do some actual talking.

"Babe, wait."

As if he poured ice cold water on him, Sid was suddenly wakened from his drunk-like state. "God, eto na."

Jazz let out a chuckle. Sid can be really, really cute sometimes. Most times, he just finds him hot. And pretty. 

Most times, he wonders how Sid will look like on top of him.

That'd be a sight.

"Okay, sige. I'm ready. If we're not breaking up, tungkol saan ito?"

"I have to tell you something. I don't know why I've been hiding it but—but here we are."

"Okay, wait lang. Before mo sabihin yan, I just want you to know that I love you. I really, really, super do, and I accept you for whatever, always. Okay?"

God. He just loves him a bit more, sometimes. If that was even possible.

"Okay. I love you. I love you."

"I love you, too."

Jazz took a long, deep breath first, squeezing Sid's hands clutched on his own.

"About your tweets."

"Oh, god."

Babe, ano ba 'to? Ready na 'ko magtalk eh, nadidistract—

"Stop it."

"I knew it. Hay, I'm sorry, baby, okay po, I'll delete the—"

"No! No—I mean stop that. You're being really funny right now and it's distracting me that you look like that and speaks like that, too. Ang pogi mo masyado."

"Hala s'ya. Nurse, malakas na tama nito."

"Oo, super lakas ng tama ko sa'yo."

"Gago. Ano ba kasi yung sasabihin mo? Nico and Shawn are surely waiting na, nakita mo naman pala yung tweets ko, eh. So what about them?"

Okay. This is it.

"I… I saw the deleted one."

He watched recognition pool into Sid's eyes, the blood quickly pooling on the peak of his cheeks. The younger—maybe out of shock, maybe embarrassment—buried his face on the crook of Jazz's shoulder, his favorite spot, according to him.

"Baby. Sorry. Promise, okay lang talaga if hindi ka pa ready, or kung anuman, I was just being whiny online. Promise, super, super okay lang. I can wait. If it'll ever come."

Hay, babe ko.

"Ako dapat yung magsorry eh. I knew you've been ready for so long, pero di ko mabigay sa'yo. I've been thinking about it."

"Jazz."

There. There it is. The tone.

Jazz has been waiting for this. It's weird that he finds Sid's about to get mad voice so fucking hot, and right this moment, too, where everything they have seems to be hanging on the balance, but Jazz still does.

He still finds it so, so hot he's glad there's a throw pillow on his lap right now.

"We agreed we'll never, ever do something we don't want to just because gusto ng isa, right? Fuck compromises, we are here for the comfort. I am here to make sure you feel and that you are safe and secure. Please do not push yourself to have sex with me just because I fucked up and whined on Twitter. Come on, baby. I do not want that. And wala akong memes para do'n."

That last one drove laughter out of Jazz, and he's thankful his boyfriend still has the knack to make this situation they're in a light one. He needs that.

"'De kasi, babe, hay, pano ba 'to—"

"It's okay. Take your time."

Sid was facing him now, his face a calm one. Kaso ang pogi, nakakapressure naman, shuta—

"I've been ready, too. Matagal na din."

"Oh."

"Yep."

"Oh?"

"Mmhh."

"Oh."

He waited for Sid to talk again, his hands itching to touch him for some comfort, but Jazz held himself back. He knows how Sid's pretty little head works, and it's best to let him take his time, just as Sid let him take his own.

"So ano palang inaantay natin? We could be fucking right now. You could be fucking me right now. Oh my gods, so tama ba 'ko? Di ko ba deserve masundot mo, ganon?"

Right this moment, only sobbing emojis can explain the way Jazz is feeling.

"Babe, no. Listen."

"Listening."

"I can't fuck you."

"Fuck, teka, ang hot nun, paulit, isa pa."

Sobbing emojis.

"I cannot fuck you, baby."

"Ay puta, di na hot. Masakit na. Why? May mali ba sa'kin? Di na ba ako hot? Di na ba ko sexy? Di na—"

"Hey—you are. You are all those things and more. Believe me, please."

"Eh bakit—wait. May mali ba sa'yo? Do we need to go to a doctor? Or have you been seeing one? It's fine, baby, we'll get through this toge—"

"No, IcannotfuckyoubecauseIwantyoutofuckmeinstead."

"Jazz. Say that again."

"...Ayoko?"

"Say that again, but slowly."

It was Jazz's turn to bury his face on Sid's chest, inhaling tiny bits of him to prevent himself from a potential panic attack. Sid seemingly senses this, because he felt his hand caressing his back slowly.

"Hey. You okay? Can you breathe right now?"

"Yes."

"Are you still comfortable with this conversation? We can take it up another day, just spend the rest of the day cuddling, gusto mo?"

"Hmm. I like the sound of that, but yes, I'm still comfortable with this conversation. Just… gimme a minute. Or five."

"You got it, love."

They stayed like that on the couch for ten minutes—cross legged in front of each other, with Jazz buried on Sid's WEAR ACTUAL LIFE shirt, the latter just showering Jazz's head with tiny kisses, his hand caressing the older's back.

"I… I cannot fuck you, because I want you to fuck me instead."

"Hmm. How long did you spend worrying over this?"

"A year?"

"Half of our entire relationship?"

"Yeah?"

"Oh, wow. bakit ka worried, though?

"Kasi… parehas tayong bottom? And I don't know, maybe the fact that you think I was a top and that—"

"Stop. Sa'n mo nakuhang bottom ako?"

"Context clues…? You keep saying sundutin ka… I don't know—I don't know any—"

"Babe, accountancy ka pa naman."

"Why is my degree course suddenly involved?"

"God, you're adorable."

Jazz had no business blushing right now, but he did. 

"Okay, sige, let's set the record straig—"

"You're being awfully cool about this. Makes me feel bad for worrying that much."

"Do you prefer I make a fuss?"

"Well, no—"

"Then let me continue."

"Okay. Okay."

Jazz just received a reassuring smile from his boyfriend, and if that didn't work, nothing else in the world will.

"Okay, so setting the record straight, you've been putting off having sex with me because you're a bottom while you think I thought you were a top, and that we're both bottoms. Confirm?"

"I confirm. But the way you're phrasing this is making me blush in shame."

"Humor me for longer, love."

He wasn't able to restrain rolling his eyes to which Sid laughed, but he gave him a nod at the end.

"First thing's first—switch ako, mahal. Sige, it's on me, I thought top ka, with that… aura and all—"

"I always get that."

"But you could've just told me that you weren't. Or we could've just had sex and let me discover you were. I can't believe you've been worrying your pretty head over this. Not that I'm invalidating your worries, okay."

"Acknowledged."

Sid was hugging him now—he knows Jazz would not want to face him yet, feeling how heavy of a thought the latter had to let go of just now. 

"May second thing ba? Sabi mo kasi kanina, first thing muna."

Sid laughed again before responding, his hug a tight relief to Jazz's soul.

"Meron. I'm actually a top, pero past relationships always assumed me to be a bot."

"Wait—kala ko virgin ka pa? Like… me?"

"Oo nga, sex is not the only way to find out, though. Power plays… whatever play…"

"Damn, you're kinky."

"Stooooop—gago. Anyways, I find that if it's someone I love, I don't really mind the positions."

"But I love you. And I mind the positions."

"That's you, and there's nothing wrong with that, the same way this is me, and I know nothing's wrong with that either."

"I love you."

"I love you, too."

"So… where does this take us?"

"Well, I sure hope this takes us to bed. Dami nating not-so-revelations tapos virgin pa din pagtatapusan natin? Parang maiinis na 'ko."

"..."

"Hoy, joke lang ha. Baka mamaya two years mo isipin yan."

"Grabe ka naman sa'kin. Eh di sorry."

"Luko."

They spent the next hours cuddling, as promised, while watching the latest episode of Spy X Family, it being oddly reminiscent of their recent talk—with Loid going as far as disguising himself to rehearse with his friend.

Even after cooking them both a simple dinner, Jazz volunteered to wash the dishes. While doing so, Sid was just clinging to him so casually, making sure not to restrict his boyfriend's movements on the sink.

"Hmm, I feel like may gusto kang sabihin. Out with it."

"Ang pogi mo."

"Luh. Wag mo ko pakiligin, baka mabasag 'tong glasses."

Putting his head on Jazz's shoulder, on his tallest tiptoes, Sid did his his best to speak on his boyfriend's ear, as gently as possible, as clearly as possible. 

"Sundutin kita tonight?"

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filo/english ✨

notes = appreciated ✨

poor attempt at crack, smuttish fluff; bastos ang bibig ng character(s) pero no actual bastos content except momol 😆

TW/CW: implications/mentions of sex, making out, momol, innuendos, profanities

additional tags: non-top🧡 enjoyers, DNI please; non-bot💚 enjoyers, DNI please

not your jam? scroll. for your sanity and mine both.

lastly, sana maenjoy natin 🫰😆

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special album thanks to: —z. na lagi akong hinahayinan ng brainrots para ipaampon. sana matuto ka na gumamit ng memes, magpapagcash ako pag nagtag ka na ng crack officially 🤝 all the best, f(r)iend. sana mapanindigan ko (ulit???) 'to.

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notes *ੈ✩‧₊˚

filo/english ✨

notes = appreciated ✨

poor attempt at crack, smuttish fluff; bastos ang bibig ng character(s) pero no actual bastos content except momol 😆

TW/CW: implications/mentions of sex, making out, momol, innuendos, profanities

additional tags: non-top🧡 enjoyers, DNI please; non-bot💚 enjoyers, DNI please

not your jam? scroll. for your sanity and mine both.

lastly, sana maenjoy natin 🫰😆

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special album thanks to: —z. na lagi akong hinahayinan ng brainrots para ipaampon. sana matuto ka na gumamit ng memes, magpapagcash ako pag nagtag ka na ng crack officially 🤝 all the best, f(r)iend. sana mapanindigan ko (ulit???) 'to.

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questions, reactions, requests? you're free to drop by here! ⁀➷ ⋆·˚ ༘

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please do not repost, crosspost, recreate, or plagiarize any part of this work in any way. thank you. ☁ミ✲

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