Shit. Eddie didn’t think the accident was that bad as his gaze flickered from the doctor’s hands pressed flush against the whiskey glass. Clearing his throat at the doctor’s jab at his current state “Always been rough around the edges Stephen, you know that..” Gesturing to the dark bags under his eyes as his voice grumbled “You know how I get when I find myself in a writing funk, I don’t sleep well. I get too anxious about deadlines..and question my work”. There was an edge of heat to his voice as he spoke “From what I recall you didn’t mind when I was in that restless state…I believe I broke your bed after my second book went on the market..and I was actually able to pay for it..”. It had been the first time that he seen a check with that many zeros as a low chuckle escaped him at that memory.
Shaking his head as Stephen warned him off going back to old habits of looking for a muse. Shuffling his fingers around his own glass as Eddie smirked “Strange, you really think I am not going to ignore the stories that people could tell here. We all know the rumors that spiral around small little towns like this have an edge of truth to them..If people want to talk to charming old me..I am not going to stop them..”. Eddie finished with a flourish taking a sip from his glass. His expression turned serious as his gaze flickered to the doctor’s hands “I wouldn’t call what I am seeing now..justice. Unless justice is a cruel mistress trying to punish even the innocent. You were a huge asshole..self-absorbed..I-..but you didn’t deserve this. I didn’t think your accident was that bad from the few rumors I heard after your departure..I’m sorry”. Clearing his throat and returning his gaze to the amber liquid “But your statement is right about my situation..the Green Fairy finally decided to play a trick on me..and I went along with it..too far..”.
Finishing off the amber liquid in the bottom of the glass as Eddie shifted against the overstuffed couch “So..you get to play with animals all day. Must be a nice change after dealing with human assholes all day. Any favorite clients of yours?”. His tone was curious, but cautious hoping this was a smooth transition of subjects. Who knew how wounded the doctor still felt about his accident, had he pushed him too far? It was really a shame that doctor’s career had ended how it did. Yet, he seemed to be doing alright with a clinic of his own.
There was a lot in Eddie’s words that was making Stephen feel uncomfortable, but it was those two words he hated hearing most of all – I’m sorry – that made him want to crawl right out of his skin. He wanted to bite back, say he’d deserved what he’d gotten, that it was years of consequence and letting people down that had delivered him to exactly where he was. Stephen managed to restrain himself from the majority of that even as he clearly bristled, his fingers tightening even slightly around the glass to try and mask the trembling, particularly when he could see Eddie’s eyes flicker to his hands. “Don’t pretend like you know the first thing about what happened to me or what I deserve,” Stephen countered, his tone deceptively even despite the low warning in his words.
To say that he regretted what he said as soon as it left his lips would be inaccurate, but Stephen did soon regret the way he said it. As ill-prepared as he was to deal with Eddie’s abrupt resurfacing in his life, Stephen also recognized that it did neither of them any good for him to kick Eddie while he was down. They’d provided an unconventional, twisted sort of support to each other in the past; Stephen had to wonder that if they could work through the baggage of a complicated more-than-friendship less-than-relationship, maybe they could arrive at some middle ground and just be… friends.
“What happened to you, I…” Stephen hesitated, his tone evening out, and then started again. “I may not have been the most supportive of your alternative means of inspiration seeking,” he tried diplomatically, though it was something of an understatement. “But I don’t think you deserved it, either. I hope that being here can help you recover from all that, because your talent in writing is… something the world needs.”
Pausing to down the last of his own glass in one deft movement, Stephen let out a breath and his eyes flickered to the side at the mention of his new practice, the topic being a far safer one for him to return to. “You know, I think I started the clinic and the shelter as a sort of penance for the miserable person I’d become. But the more time I spend there, I do genuinely enjoy it,” he had to admit, a faint flicker of a smile across his features. “I’ve, uh. I’ve adopted a dog.” Stephen felt almost silly bringing it up, but he figured that if there was any one small thing that could show he wasn’t the thoroughly selfish individual he used to be, it was that.