Through my eyes

Old soul with a young heart

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You have ripped me open and poured acid down my lungs a thousand times. But once you've closed me up with the same duct tape that you tore off, all is forgiven. I cannot seem to walk away from the boy who has shattered my bones He is reckless with my heart but I keep trusting him to hold it in the hopes that he is a little more careful this time. You told me to be selfish, to prevent myself from being cracked and bruised again after finally healing But he knows where my wounds are still open, where my bones are still brittle, where my heart still lies.

I can’t seem to leave him; CS(writtenvoid)

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Your words have resinated within the darkest corners of my soul lighting up even the blackest holes.

I have found the light inside me again; CS(written void)

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In physics you learn that everything has angular momentum with respect to another object. You were the sun in my universe and I was pulled to rotate around you. If the sun was to just disappear in space the earth would still have angular momentum with respect to the sun. One day you walked out my life and I was left with this feeling of still being attached to you. In physics you learn that a law is a great law and that it will stick around if you can give it the most unlikely circumstances and it still holds true. Angular momentum has passed the circumstances of love, of earth and of space.

The laws of love, of physics; CS(writtenvoid)

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In the last four months I met my best friend fell in love, fell out Watched my world crumble built it back up Quit my job that I've hated for years found a new job, that still isn't that great. In the next four months I don't know who I will meet who I will love, or hate what choices I will make. But I promise to keep you as an option my doors will always be left open for any day, any time.

We aren’t over yet; CS(writtenvoid)

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I've known that pills don't mix well with alcohol  almost like water and oil just like you and me. We should have said our goodbyes  before we started to fall for each other before we tried so hard to mesh our two worlds when they clearly didn't combine. Saying goodbye is never easy but it is usually right, you don't belong in my bed, in my head, in my life. But humans are selfish by nature, from the day we are born so I kept you, hid what I knew all along you and me were never meant to be.

I was fire, you were ice; CS(writtenvoid)

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The devil asked her to come and play He had eyelashes longer than the waves, and a smile that was bigger than the world, and hands that felt so right in yours so when he asked, she said yes.

The devil is a boy with golden eyes; CS(writtenvoid)

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I had my first shot of whiskey with you, that night we talked on the beach until 5 a.m.  You swore that it would burn down my throat but leave me warm and wanting more I had rolled my first joint with you, and it was so terrible that we switched to a bong. You swore that the coughing was worth the high, and ten minutes later we were laughing at the possibilities of forever. I had my first love with you, you swore it was all-consuming, taking over your thoughts and body, you swore there was no one else you were meant to be with, you swore that you would love me until the day I decide to leave.  I had my first ending with you, you swore it wouldn't hurt this much.

You lied when you said it wouldn’t hurt; CS(writtenvoid)

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I loved you like it was necessary, with no regards to the pain it could cause me. They warned me that depending on someone was deadly. But my love, the regards to my own happiness was based solely on the moment, and for the time being I was on cloud nine in your arms.

Other people are not medicine; CS(writtenvoid)

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Somehow my life keeps leading back to you. I don't know if it's because we are meant to be, or that I'm stupid for thinking it could work out this time. I will always leave my heart open for you.

I’d regret not trying more; CS(writtenvoid)

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You promised a forever forever of fights, of empty bottles, of pain. I promised a forever forever of forgiveness, wiped tears, a hand to hold. We promised a forever forever of trying, of I love you's, of never letting it go. I'm tired tired of breathing, of standing next to you. Watching you down a bottle of patron like it's water. Of laughing, acting like it's okay, like we are okay. tired of holding you up, I don't think I can carry your world plus mine on my shoulders anymore. tired of falling in love with your smile every morning, with the way you laugh, with your hand brushing my lips before you kiss me as an apology.

I’m tired of forever; CS(writtenvoid)

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I hate the way the world expects me to have my life figured out at 18. I feel the pressure to make sure every decision is the right one with everything directly affecting the next stage of my life. The universe doesn't understand that I'm a complex set of cells who doesn't even know what boy to crush on, or what to eat for dinner. The galaxy doesn't understand that I want to drink too much coffee, hang out with my friends and dance with strangers.

I need a break from life; CS(writtenvoid)

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I drink coffee like it's blood running through my veins. My nights are sleepless, filled with nightmares of you. My mother thinks drinking 140 oz of caffeine a day can't be good for you, yet she allowed me to drown in your pain saying it can only get better. You think my hands shake because I overdosed yet I believe it's because the thought of you causes me to tremble.

The problem is not coffee, it’s you; CS(writtenvoid)

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great poems, keep up the great job! xx

Thanks so much! You too.

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I told you I was a thunderstorm not to be reckoned with. You claimed that rain doesn't bother you, but don't say I didn't warn you of my 110 mph winds.

I am a storm; CS(writtenvoid)

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I have always hated the moon for it's brightness always out shined the stars. On nights when the moon is full, it takes the attention away from the fireballs up in space,  that remind me of just how small we are. You use to tell me it was selfish to love one and not the other that two things of beauty both deserved attention. but I've always believed only one can truly hold your heart.

Monogamous Relationships; CS(writtenvoid)

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I didn't want you to love me like the winds howling breeze. I wanted rain, hail, sleet and snow. Powerful forces that I can see and others can run.

Your love just isn’t enough; CS(writtenvoid)

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We've been down the road with sex, drinking until we can't think anymore, hands that can't keep off each other and we've made it to the other side. We claim to be friends, and we always start off that way. But if you keep stating that this just feels so right, I can't help but fall back in to deadly patterns.

Bad habits are hard to break; CS(writtenvoid)