written.rebellion

[writtenwar]

Pangako

kapag may natutunan kang bago,

pag may natuklasan kang kakaiba,

malamang nasabi mong “kaya pala”

para mong sinalubong ang bagong kaalaman

parang unang beses mong pinatuloy sa iyong

tahanan ang isang bagong kaibigan.

ang saya diba? “kaya pala”

may natuklasan ka

pero masaya pa ba kung sabihin kong

sa natuklasan mo, wala ka nang magagawa?

kasi nangyari na

“kaya pala”

tangina kanina lang ang saya ngayon ang sakit na

“kaya pala”

kasi nangyari na, wala na akong magagawa

at wala akong gagawin kasi dyan ka

naman masaya diba?

naaalala ko ang sinabi mo sakin noon

noong unang sinaktan mo ang damdamin ko

“patawad mahal ko, kung iiwan mo na ako, tatanggapin ko”

at ako naman tong gago na hinayaan ka pa,

pinagbigyan kita dahil umasa akong magbabago ka na

pero tangina

magaling ka lang sa simula

habang unti unti kong binabalik ang tiwala ko

unti unti mo ulit inuubos

pwede ba akong humiling sayo?

kahit ngayon lang at pangako huli na to

hayaan mo naman akong maging masaya

tangina nakakainggit ka na

ang saya mo

dahil ba nagdurusa ako?

hayaan mo lang akong maging masaya

pangako wala kang makikitang luha na tutulo sa aking mga mata

hindi na luluha ang mga matang ito

pangako

kahit sobrang sakit na

kahit hindi ko na kaya

hayaan mo lang akong maging masaya

at pangako

walang luha kang makikitang papatak sa mga matang ito

naaalala mo pa ba ang mga panahon

na ako ang nagkasala sayo?

halos maubos ko ang luha ko kakaiyak para sayo

di ako tumigil kakasuyo, kakaiyak, at kakahabol sayo

nagsisi ako, nagbago at lumapit sayo

pero tangina ngayon na ikaw ang nagkasala

di ka manlang nagdalawang isip na iwan ako?

“kaya pala”

tangina pangako

hayaan mo lang akong maging masaya,

wala kang makikitang luha na papatak

sa mga matang ito

dahil said na said na ako

[writtenwar]

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Mahal, sana alam mo, na lahat ng pagdurusa ko, ay dahil din sayo.

wala akong balak makipagsisihan, di din kita gustong masaktan

pero mahal, sana alam mo, na lahat ng pagdurusa ko, ay dahil din sayo.

wala akong balak makipagtalo, di naman ako mananalo sayo.

dahil sa tuwing nagaaway tayo kahit kasalanan mo,

basta pumatak luha mo, nadudurog puso ko at kahit ayaw ko

aakuhin ko pero ngayon mahal, sana alam mo,

na lahat ng pagdurusa ko ay dahil din sayo.

pero gaya ng sabi ko, ayokong makipagsisihan

dahil alam kong meron din akong mga kasalanan, 

sa mga araw, linggo, at buwan na ako ay nagkulang

lahat ng yan pinagsisisihan ko na at hindi ko yan makakalimutan.

wala kang magagawa, ako ay magkukumpara,

dahil nung ako ay nagdudusa ikaw ay nagsasaya

humingi ka ng tawad sakin umiiyak ka pa sabi mo

“patawad mahal ko, babawi ako sayo”

pinatawad naman kita, at kung kelan ayos na, may napatunayan ka na ba?

ang masakit lang, mahal parin kita.

wala tayong kadala dala, away bati nakakasawa,

pero naaalala mo pa ba nung sinabi mong kaibigan lang siya?

pinagkatiwalaan kita pero nagpadala ka sa motibo niya.

ang masakit lang, mahal parin kita.

at kung kelan ok na, saka ko lang nalaman, ang maharot na parte

ng inyong nakaraan kung saan mayroong nangyari sa isang sinehan.

Ngayon itong bobong lalaki na nasayong harapan, wag ka mag alala

mahal ka parin niyan.

humingi ka ng tawad diba? gaya ng dati lumuluha ka pa

ang pinagkaiba lang ngayon may pagyakap ka pa. sabay sabing

“patawad mahal ko, babawi ako sayo” gaya ng dati.

ang pinagkaiba lang may sagot akong sinabi

“tahan na mahal ko, ayos lang sanay na ako”

at sa kalagitnaan ng sandali, akoy umalis sa harap mo,

kinimkim lahat ng poot at galit sa loob ko

pero kahit mabigat sa loob ko, pinatawad parin kita.

alam mo kung bakit? nakakatawa.

kasi mahal parin kita.

ngayon sabihin mo sakin kung sinong nagmamahal talaga

ung tipong sinasaktan mo na pero papatawarin ka pa

kasi nga mahal ka

ung kasalanan mong sinisisi mo sa kanya tinatanggap na lang niya

kasi nga mahal ka

ung habang nagsasaya ka siya nagluluksa sa sariling lamay niya

kasi pinapatay mo siya pero ayos lang sa kanya

kasi nga mahal ka

at ngayong punong puno na siya magingat ka,

pero wag kang magtataka kung biglang iwan ka na niya

at kung mangyayari yun mahal sana mapatawad mo ako

dahil ngayon mahal alam mo na, na lahat ng pagdurusa ko,

ay dahil din sa iyo.

[writtenwar]

footsteps (right)

in constant string of questions in our current state what is our relation it seems you have moved on or not, i see you smile alot when we're together you, let me hug you, you let me kiss your forehead or maybe its just me you wrecked my confidence my self-esteem broken i did not stab you with knives you had the handles i held the shiv so technically i gave you the knives, to stab me "im not blaming anything on you its just that in this void i filled it with everything in me yet when you see space you blame me and when i ask an ounce from you you take it as a beating what path should we take if everytime i draw it you make me feel that what i did was a mistake"

[writtenwar]

footsteps (left)

in constant string of questions in our current state what is our relation it seems you have moved on or not, i see you smile alot when we're together you, let me hug you, you let me kiss your forehead or maybe its just me you wrecked my confidence my self-esteem broken i did not stab you with knives you had the handles i held the shiv so technically i gave you the knives, to stab me "the knives are with me, to stab myself within. im still on my knees, do you think im fine with this? confusion in my mind our label still unknown. theres one thing i know youre still my favorite guy above them all."

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this is me

i am who i am not someone you wanted me to be not someone even i wanted to be i was born like this i was born with a need to write poems i wanted this even though its beyond norms why try hard to fit in when you were born to stand out go ahead change me i tell you, you wont make it

i was born in a world of “change-it” well guess who, will change it i once wanted to be someone else but then i realized it doesnt make sense those people never wanted to be anybody else then why would i want to be exactly like them i realized that i knew better if i just make myself my own teacher and being a teacher means i have my followers and i want them to be exactly like me not that i want them to write poems too but because i chose to be me, then you must choose to be you i tell this to my generation the ones who wanted to achieve their dreams without talking about the pay they will receive check your instagram you capture your dreams with every single pic refresh your twitter you mention your dreams with every single tweet check your newsfeed on facebook how you wish your notifs, requests, and messages were about your dreams because you want to be who you were born to be if you see the change in me youre wrong you saw “me” if you choose to change for your happiness look into the mirror see that? thats who youre supposed to be

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Stage Play

i scream yet no words can be heard like im fighting in a war and i drop dead with no ally to pick up my corpse like ive fallen into a dried well i can see the light of hope but no one is there im trying to do everything yet nothing seems to work i promised my love for you wont perish maybe this time it failed to work these verses these lines are nothing i just want you to stay when everything else fails when everyone says we cant when anger sees no love its simple, i just want you to stay i cant say anything but SHIT i lost the one i love i cant think of anything but SHIT my love was not enough i cant feel anything but SHIT how useless have i been but after all the frustrations, re-creations, confessions, reconcilations, and devastating strings of tension my proposition, its simple i just want you to stay after all the pain i caused you all the things you lost all the heartaches i gave you you took all the cost that sounded a bit selfish but please hear me out this sonder i felt i thought, i saw maybe i am just an extra to other peoples lives and wouldnt matter even if i die i wish i am not just a background in your life because even though i caused you so much pain you are the main character in this play i call it "my life" yeap thats your name everything else is blur when you are in the spotlight i told you, you are the main character in my life what good is a play if the main character is away thats why i just want you to stay

[writtenwar]

sciamachy

like a roll of toilet paper the closer you are to the end the faster it spins maybe thats why after all these years it ended up like this well i guess aphorisms were wrong no one broke the thread cause both of us let go not because were done fighting but because we needed to fix something something in ourselves under our own sciamachy fighting against our worst enemy love is a battle that two people must face together well how could we fight together if the greatest enemy is inside our armor retreating doesnt mean youre giving up it just mean you calculated the capabilities of your enemy reassesed yourselves ran away ran away saying "just wait ill beat the shit out of you next time" retreating doest mean quitting sometimes you want to ensure victory you retreat when you want to win over an opponent you retreat but my love where do i retreat where do we retreat how can we win when our greatest enemy is within

[writtenwar]

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Here am i again in this four-cornered room, sitting wondering is it really worth the gain sitting. dreaming. pleading. and in that dream i could see i walk alone unhappily as of now i can not tell if this is a dream or a nightmare i work with sheets, numbers, and money they dont matter at all people, words, and wisdom is pretty yet it isnt there

luxury and royalty we can not bring to grave yet money and power is everything we crave seek for it until finally you regret everything when your eyes rest eternally so why am i here? seeking for money yet wanting to be happy is it worth the tear? why not end the agony the noise is back again am i really listening? as the words were written im sitting, dreaming, pleading.