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[wydwheniminsane]

‘ BOY WANNA- (WHAT? NO!) ’

hello everyone ! my name is birdee or ben ;p ill post mostly yandere/bpd thoughts but i also occasionally post rants or random stuffs :33333 feel free to send me asks!!!!!!

im turning 16 in august! i use he/him pronouns, and im a trans man. I speak fluent english and french as well as a tiny bit of czech.

FUN FACTS

my favorite color is orange

i can sing, play several brass instruments, paint, cook, bake, and draw

i am currently writing a book

i am single!

im diagnosed with bpd, adhd, gad, and mdd!

my favorite song is ‘don’t lose sight’ by lawrence

ASK ME ABOUT…

project hail mary! the solar system, agggtm, the hunger games, the prowler, iwtv, yellowjackets, life series, hermitcraft, d:bh, kpop, rwrb, and cooking/baking

MY TAGS

#birdeeflyaway - yan/bpd posts!

#bejaminbuttons - rants

#birdeecutee - random

credit 4 dividers: @suupersonic

‘ CAUSE I DONT FALL FOR BOYS LIKE YOU ! ’

[wydwheniminsane]

i hate my book editor. every time i send her a draft she basically tells me scrap the whole thing. i’m sitting in my bed at 1 am trying to get this draft in before the deadline and im pissed.

[wydwheniminsane]

je déteste vraiment les grands mariages et le stress qu'ils engendrent en plus, je n'aime pas les tenues habillées. je pense que le jour où je me marierai, je partirai peut-être simplement me marier en secret.

comme aller au tribunal et signer des papiers. je sais déjà quelle alliance je veux parce que je l'ai déjà, donc voilà.

[wydwheniminsane]

yes i am a jealous freak. yes i will wish that you would only talk to me. no i will not tell you about my jealousy for fear you’ll run away.

[wydwheniminsane]

i get really pathetic when i have an fp. i sit by my phone waiting for a notification hoping its them.

[wydwheniminsane]

type of shit my friend pulling when i’m already pissed off

[kawaiibugzlover]

"sorry lol was that too creepy?" oh please! you could NEVER be too creepy for me!! I would literally allow you to put cameras in my room and stalk me 24/7!!! :3

[wydwheniminsane]

i’m currently quitting smoking but i’m literally going insane. it’s been two weeks and i barely sleep because of the cravings. I have a bad oral fixation so i’ve been chewing gum religiously. i cannot stop thinking about it, no matter what im doing.

please tips :(((

[grotesquex]

hi haha are you thinking about me hahahahah am i on your mind hahahaha please tell me i’m on your mikdbhahahaha ( nonchalant )

[wydwheniminsane]

*bites* one way or another i’m gonna find ya

🚬🦌

awh! cute!

i don’t really go anywhere so that’ll probably be easy ( ｰ̀εｰ́ )

[wydwheniminsane]

i-dle just dropped crow yesterday. it’s gone platinum in my headphones

[wydwheniminsane]

i wanna start posting more in french but i also hate tagging my posts, especially in french. because im from quebec so i dont know french slang i only know french canadian slang

[wydwheniminsane]

un mec avec un fétichisme lié à la misogynie m'a envoyé un message et maintenant je suis vénère

ça m'a vraiment bouleversé. je pense qu'il est facile de voir que je ne soutiens pas cela.

ne pas interagir si vous avez un fétichisme nuisible.

[wydwheniminsane]

je viens d'acheter un café et le barista disait du mal de moi en français. écoute, on est à montréal, on parle tous français.

je ne sais pas, ça me contrarie, tout simplement.

[wydwheniminsane]

i want a relationship but also don’t. i do in the sense that i like flirting and the butterflies i get when someone flirts back, but i get scared and avoidant when actually in a relationship and i don’t wanna put someone thru that.

[wydwheniminsane]

this but in a yan way

this too

[uponyourstars]

i start to curl up into a ball after checking my phone one too many times, tightly hugging my sides as if i'm trying to hold every piece of myself together

sometimes i hate the fact you're able to affect me this much— this easily and you're so blissfully unaware of it

may the universe take me out before i take myself out first.