wyrden's blog, that's me :) @wyrdenbeinweird404 - Tumblr Blog

hello everyone...

i guess this is my introduction-al post? i may as well introduce myself on here...

my name is wyrden, and i have finally gotten to the decision to make my tumblr account. on here (whenever i do upload anything), i'll mainly reblog posts about writing, and literature. i'm a huge fan of those kind of things, so i would usually bring up those subjects on here. i also like liminal spaces, as they can be really pretty to look at at times.

however, i can also be a bit silly at times! :P expect those moments to also appear every now, and then.

other than that, i'm an octopus blogger from the sea in the middle of nowhere. i usually live life in a 50/50 kinda way. 50% quiet, and peaceful, and 50% chaotic, and fun.

i'm also in a relationship with someone <3

@syll1gooze

and i'm friends with @epic-candi

feel free to check them out sometime, if you have the time :)

enjoy your stay

#intro post #pinned intro #hello tumblr #new to tumblr #i might be huge on writblr personally #or is it writeblr #i don't know #names here are weird but then again my name exists #7/3/xx #ooc: ooc posts are not canon however they are just as important #go to @sandcheeze13 for important links #ooc: ooc message is done

Stagnant

Here she was, again. Look at her, ruining everything once again. She knew not to upset them, and so she went still.

What did she do this time? No one has a clue on that, but she couldn't say anything. Stay silent, she could only repeat to herself. She knew not to bring attention to herself, and so she went still.

How is she doing? They wanted to check up on her, after months of silence. After all those months, not a peep would be heard. Suddenly, they began to get frustrated. She knew not to upset them, but she ended doing exactly that. To avoid further trouble, she went still.

And so, here she is again. What else can she do? She stayed quiet. She stood still. She never bothered anyone. She was the perfect version she thought everyone would've wanted.

But instead, it was met with more frustration from the inside, and outside. Nothing was enough. And she knew that. But she couldn't say anything. All she wanted was to run. But she couldn't.

To pretend that she was happy with her life, she kept quiet, and stood still.

In order to not ruin things further, in order to not make them angry, she stood still.

And that's all she ever did.

Because that's all she could do.

#creative writing #writblr #3/6/xx

syll1gooze

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!!!!!!! :3

wyrdenbeinweird404

the same to you :)...

#2/xx/xx

There was this child, walking in a forest all alone.

She had no direction to speak of; Only going with what felt right at that moment.

The night was piercing her. The night was cold, and she could only shiver at the breeze. The world around her was dark, and uninviting. She could only feel scared.

All she could do is walk. And so, she did. She walked for miles, and miles. Every branch that snapped, every leaf that fell around here, every ripple the water makes when a pebble makes a splash. All the sounds that she heard accompanied her as she went forward into whatever she was bringing herself to.

Soon, she came across a lamppost. It's light glowing harshly into the night. Throughout her journey, she felt warmth for the first time. She stood next to the lamppost, bringing in more warmth to her after everything she wanted through.

The light only glowed.

And she could only stand there, silently.

#writing #creative writing #23/3/xx

i love my partner so much. he really makes me feel so much better about myself. and i hope that i'm also doing something similar to him in return.

sometimes i wonder how i even have someone like xem in my life. i wonder if i'm even a good partner, let alone a friend to anyone, especially xem. but xe are happy with me being with them, and we can do fun stuff together. i picked up baking for the first time in years. he has more experience than me, so you can imagine how freaked out i was. X)

but i've also been thinking about our future. how it feels so uncertain, and terrifying. i'm not sure if i have even written about my fears about the future in detail, but i'm really scared of what the future might bring. i'm not afraid to the point where i wouldn't stare at it in the eye. i think the best word for it would be intimidated? i'm pretty sure it's that.

i wonder how long we would be partners for. relationships, as powerful as they can be, can age just as much as everything else. there will come a day where it'll rot, and be completely unrecognizable than what it used to be. when that day comes, i'm sure that it would feel like the end of the world. but it has to happen at some point, right? not that i want it to happen right now (of course NOT), but i can't fight those future events, if they do come, that is.

that's another obstacle that you eventually will have to face, and so will i. something that all of us have to face at one point, actually. until that moment comes at our doorstep, i will enjoy everything. every single moment that will happen. i want to feel happy for those i love, because that means that i meant something to them. it means that i won't be forgotten, and thrown away.

sorry for all the rambling. i've been wondering about it since valentine's day (which i believe was yesterday??), and i had a lot to think about. i'm thinking about getting some candy today. should be pretty cheap, so i shouldn't be too worried over how much i spend. el oh el

#my thoughts #15/2/xx

syll1gooze

HAPPY VALETINES DAY

@wyrdenbeinweird404 <3

wyrdenbeinweird404

:3

#14/2/xx

bhloomest

kundalini33-deactivated20260510

If someone told me this, I’d prob cry

wyrdenbeinweird404

i would too.

#poem #not mine #1/2/xx

it's so PEAK DUDE HOLY SHIT

#and a team's gonna animate the full first episode #i can't wait to see that in the future :DDDDDD #idwtbamg #31/1/xx #Youtube

we so are back!!! :DDDDD

#idwtbamg #23/1/xx

carols

the cold winter days creeped up on us again, it seems. the days of cozying up in warm clothing, and the sales of those pricy chocolates increase.

i know what a lot of you are thinking: "what do you do during these days?" well, i'll be glad to tell you...

other than reading the same books, indulging in new ones, or even looking up xnline recipes to surprise my partner, and friends, i think about some songs that fit with the theme of the season.

of course, this is the time where random people go to your door, and sing a song to you. i have no idea why that became tradition. i guess that's just something that you guys ended up doing, but i'm not entirely sure.

either way, carols are a huge part of this celebration, leading us to the next year onward. it's fun to join in, but really, you don't know any of the words. that was until yesterday. i came up with my own carol. i mean, it was all improv, so it took some effort to come up with a melody that was memorable. granted, it still might not be memorable, but i memorized it enough for me to never forget it. i made that carol up for myself.

frankly because of the fact that i'm scared. i've always been scared. fear, as they say, have hands, for sure. like these days, fear creeps up on my conscious, uninvited. i don't like fear, but i've grown accustomed to it at this point. my family's words still stab through my heart when i came out to them. i can't never let go of that, and it's been that way for a long while. much more longer than i would like to admit.

it's weird, having to come out about my life like this. none of you really know me, but i'm letting you in that part of my life. there might not be anyone behind that screen, and maybe i am going crazy. but i have a space where i'm comfortable. i'm happy with the people i'm with. i'm happy with the clothes i wear. i'm happy that i even get this chance to type this out right now. while i'm also aware that not everyone are as privileged as i am, i want to, at least, help those who are just as struggling.

i might not be able to help those outside of here. hell, i don't know if i can even truly leave this place, but you all are always in my heart.

the main reason for this post: i just want to move on. i want to write more. i want to spend more time with friends. eventually, i want to make amends with them. hopefully to reconcile what we've lost. maybe we might bring back the times where we were close. however, that's only considered a thought, and nothing more.

i made that melody to remind me that i'm responsible for things, and how it'll turn out. i know people will say that "things will get better," and while i agree with that, i feel that nothing will get better, if i don't do something about it, y'know?

for the time being, i want to move on from the pain. it made a couple poems from me, but it's about time to make a new one from scratch.

just now, i looked out the window as i typed all of that, and it brought a tear to my eye. is it weird to think that it looked beautiful, despite the fact that neighborhood looked a bit rundown?

maybe it's just me, but who knows honestly...

thanks for reading. i've never liked talking about my life, and being really open about stuff, but that hasn't really stopped me before. however, i feel strangely calm now, having said all that. i wanted it to be a poem at first, but it transpired to this. hopefully, you'll still be fine with this post existing. hopefully, i'll get around to making more poems. maybe some short stories, too, if i feel up to it. :P

here's what that looks like, by the way. :)