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[x0rebecca]

2023 goal: mastering detachment

[x0rebecca]

After 2 years… I said goodbye to someone who I was head over heels for. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

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We are in our own place 💜 it’s starting to feel like home. I’m solely dying bc it’s on the 4th floor and we have to walk up 6 flights of stairs 😅😅.

My kids are playing outside & im lying on the couch and not having to talk to anybody & it feels amazing.

I still have a bunch of shit to do but my feet & arms are absolutely killing me from all the walking & standing I’ve done for 2 days. I have more than enough time to make this place feel completely like home.

[x0rebecca]

😅😅 I will never learn.

[x0rebecca]

Sad over one boy but still proceeded to fuck my old friend with benefits.

[x0rebecca]

You. Should. Have. Left. Me. Alone. From. The. Very. Beginning.

[x0rebecca]

And like always… as fast as it starts is as fast as it ends 🥲

[x0rebecca]

The joys of being hungover & not having to parent 😌😌 but my son still calls me to tell me he misses me 🥰🥰

[x0rebecca]

Life.

We are moving into our own place in a month & 15 days.

I have finally gotten to the point of being sick of my old fwb coming in & out of my life. Nothing is ever going to come out of it. So I blocked him.

I hooked up with a guy from tinder for the first time & realized I really cannot do the whole hooking up thing. So I deleted tinder.

My job got rid of the coworker I worked beside & now I have become the main person for that department. It’s kinda nice. For the mean time I have my own little office and they’re building an additional office to bring all the other people from different places to my location.

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I lied. This new job was the perfect move.

Everybody is so welcoming. The president of the company even told my mom that he told everyone if I was anything like my mom then hiring me was a good investment. The general manager is even happy with me here.

😇😇😊😊

[x0rebecca]

I’m never going to be satisfied with my job 🙃🙃

[x0rebecca]

I swear if I never had to deal with or see this man for the rest of my life I would be the happiest person on the face of this earth.

[x0rebecca]

I am stuck. Like I’m in the constant state of not knowing what to do with my life but also wanting so much more for me and my children.

I have taken so much shit for granted. Like the fact that I was in nursing school & I fucking failed out.

I could have been so much farther in life if I actually applied myself.

Now I’m almost 30 years old and have no idea how to unfuck myself. & I’m realizing my coping mechanism is drinking & going out. That’s not getting me anyfuckingwhere.

[x0rebecca]

I had a job interview on Saturday for just a tag & title clerk. Same pay that I’m making now. I’m just waiting for my background check & drug test to come back.

I had a job interview today for an Office Manager position that comes with a raise. I just don’t know how much of a raise. I have to wait for the controller to email me the pay plan and then decide.

[x0rebecca]

I haven’t ate in almost 24 hours. I was at the hospital for 6 hours last night because my daughter was crying because her stomach hurt so bad & she kept throwing up. It wasn’t her appendix so we got sent home.

Now my son woke up throwing up & complaining about his stomach hurting.

I want sleep & foodddd.