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you cannot ever run from your own ghosts

i fled this country to escape, and exiling for 3 months only brought me closer to my demons. you cannot heal without pain.

after loneliness and being in company only with own evil thoughts, i went into a great manic episode which persisted for quite some time. only after getting to know the true me, being isolated, almost going crazy, etc; i realized everything i was doing wrong with my life, and the path i'd have to choose if i really wanted to heal myself.

this proccess was painful, not only to me, but to everyone around me at the time. it was expensive. but to me, it was the only way i found to fix myself. dwelling with your bad side.

firstly you need to identify everything that's wrong within you. then, with all these dark thoughts and feeling surfacing, you'll probably go crazy for some time... but then you will be pushed to an extreme, that, if you don't get your shit together, act immediately, it will be BAD. so that's the time when the healing and the purging comes.

and then.... you will be fine. it's almost like the abramelin ritual, lol. but that's what worked for me.