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redhaireddancer:

“I havea trust fund set to open to me at 18 from a great aunt. And I plan on getting scholarships to dancing schools.” She smiled. “Plus I managed to save all the babysitting money I earned since I was 12. True. I’m not rich, but I’ll have enough to survive until I get a job going. And scholarships usually involve a dorm. Or at least cheaper housing.”

He nodded, “understandable, I like your plan,” he told her. “Do you think your mom will stay in contact with you and stuff? Or do you think you’re going to lose your entire family?”

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redhaireddancer:

“Dooooon’t” she whined, laughing. “And I’m going to find my own wway. I made sure and packed my papers and the things I wanted to keep. I refuse to go back. Luckily I turn 18 right before Camp lets out.”

“But what about money? Pretty sure you’re not working a part time job over the summer so how are yu going to afford rent and stuff?”

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redhaireddancer:

“Anna’s life is very nature filled lately.” She grinned. “at least you went the Anna route rather than Bethy like my mom did.” She shuddered, wrinkling her nose.

“Bethy makes you sound like a housewife from like the 1940s.” He shook his head, “although now I want to call you Bethy to bug you.” He chuckled as they walked, “Anna, at the end of the summer what are you gonna do? Go home? Your dad will hurt you again.”

fire for a heart

“We need to talk.”

He says it calmly that Xander almost, almost, forgets he just told him to go away. Almost. He looked over at the man walking towards him and rolls his eyes, “I already put the tracker back on, what else do you want from me, huh? You told me to go away, I’m trying, but you hunting me down doesn’t make it any easier.”

He sighed, “I shouldn’t have said it, Xan, I’m sorry. There’s no excuse for how I did you back there.” He took a seat next to him staring out at the lake from the pier. “You didn’t have to put the tracker back on, I didn’t tell your mom you were trying to run away.”

“Only to save your ass from having to tell her what you told me.”

“No, because I know you and if you were going to run you would’ve before you fell out of that tree. You would’ve been long gone. You stuck around almost forty eight hours past when I told you off, that’s not you. It’s like you didn’t really want to leave.” He looked over at the teen curiously as he spoke.

He shrugged trying not to falter as Griffon looked at him. “Just because I didn’t get the hell out of dodge doesn’t mean I didn’t want to leave. Just means I wasn’t smart enough to get out earlier.” He rolled his eyes pointedly, “why do you care, anyway? S’not like it makes any difference to you. I killed her, remember, I’m the reason she’s dead. Go back to hating me, it’s easier.”

Griffon sighed again, “She’s the reason I really chose counseling. Even when I was dating her she really made me want to be a counselor and help others who were going through what she was. She hid it well beneath her smile and helpful personality but there was a lot more going on than what you or I would ever have been able to help her with. She made her choice, Xan, and regardless of if you had run off or not that night she wouldn’t be with us today. It’s just been hard for me to really realize that until now. I shouldn’t have said those things because they’re not true. We’d all miss you if you actually disappeared. I know I would. Who else would I annihilate in basketball?”

He scoffed, “please, I let you win.”

He chuckled with a nod of his head before looking over at the boy, “so you stayed for him? Dimitri?” Xander froze, how did Griffon know? How much did he know? When did he find out and what was he going to do about it? Questions raced through his head as he stared out into the water like that would make it all go away. Griffon seemed to sense it was right though and adds, “he do anything with you?”

He shook his head slowly, “doesn’t matter if he did or not, I’m seventeen, legally able to consent and shit.”

He sighed and hung his head a little, “doesn’t matter if you’re legal to consent, Xan, he shouldn’t be taking advantage of you like that. You’re seventeen you don’t know what you want, not really, and he’s my age and a counselor here. It’s inappropriate and he should know that.” He looked at him just to see what he was thinking, “so you’ve like kissed? Anything else?” He paused like he didn’t want to ask but pressed on, “Xan, did you two have sex?”

He stayed silent for a moment and looked over at Griffon, “I ended it so you don’t have to worry about it. You can go back counseling people and shit like that. And don’t worry, I’ve got my trusty little tracker on so I won’t go missing anytime soon.”

“He shouldn’t have let it start, Xan.”

“It’s fine. He was better than most of my previous endeavors. Felt like he actually cared or something. I’m not traumatized or anything like that.”

He chuckled and messed his hair up, “look, I’m not saying not to have a good summer, just maybe have a good summer with someone your age? And be nice to people. I heard about your welcome to Liam. Not everyone enjoys your bitter greetings, be aware of that, okay?”

He scoffed, “I totally called his daddy issues, he’ll survive some sour lemon to his sweet sugar. Besides, he’s totally traumatized by his dad doing shit to him so a little real life attitude could do him well. Toughen him up a little.”

He smacked his shoulder, “dude, not cool. You were the new kid last year. Actually you’re like the only returner, so why don’t you stop acting like some kind of spoiled brat and actually try to make friends? And if you can’t do that, don’t go near Fletcher or Jeremiah, okay? I would like them to start talking and you being so acerbic will not help the cause.”

“Relax, I’ll be good to the sweet little lambs, Liam included. I’ll go in soon, just doing last minute thinking.”

He nodded, “fine, I’ll leave you to it. Come find me when you’re done, I’ll take your tracker back off.”

“Trusting you are.”

“Don’t make me regret it.”

“You know I will.”

“Yea, I know.” Then he stood to leave he teen alone as he’d asked.

“Don’t hurt him.”

“Who?”

He can tell Griffon turned back to look at him even though he doesn’t turn his head from looking at the water. “Don’t hurt him. It was my choice to engage in stuff. I know you and I’m asking you not to hurt him.”

He was quiet and Xander wondered if he was going to say anything else when he spoke again, “I’ll do my best.”

“Liar.”

“Yea, I know.”

#hc #self para #self.p #griffon's there too #run dimitri

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redhaireddancer:

Her eyes lit up. “I love cookies” she laughed, hooking their arms

He shook his head and rolled his eyes, “why am I not surprised by that? You seem the type to like cookies.” He chuckled, “so what goes on in Anna’s life?”

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redhaireddancer:

“I’m glad you’re OK” she breathed. “And see. That’s time to save up for your travels. Get a part time job and save everything you can. ”

He nodded, “s’pose this is time to save money and shit.” He looked at her, “come on, let’s get back to camp. Have some fun and steal tons of cookies from the dining hall.”

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redhaireddancer:

“How long until your birthday? Then no one can tell you know. You can always start saving for tickets and such now” she smiled

He sighed, “next year.” He shrugged lightly, “maybe it’s better that I have a microchip on me. Save me from getting in trouble, I guess. And, I mean that branch did fall on me, I could have been stuck there for days if they hadn’t already been looking for me.”

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redhaireddancer:

Annabeth hummed softly. “You can do it without running away ya know? It’s called travelling” she teased gently

He laughed, “I know, but seventeen year olds can’t travel the world without their parent’s consent. I mean I can travel without them, but they wouldn’t let me just wander the world.” He shrugged, “running is just easier.”

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redhaireddancer:

Annabeth sighed. “Why were you running? Why won’t you stay ?”

He shrugged, “because staying is so boring. Seeing the same stuff day in and day out, I mean I’ve seen all of this camp before. It’s dull. I want to travel the world and see what’s out there. Wanderlust I think they call it?”

#anna #see told you i'd cut them :)

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redhaireddancer:

“Just because you were up a tree, doesn’t mean you were running away. And touch, you love my hugs, admit it.” She teased, hugging him

He sighed and shook his head, “I was.” He looked at her when he leaned back from the hung. “Running away. As for hugs, I can live without them. I let you get away with it because you’re basically a five year old height wise.”

redhaireddancer-blog

“Lies” she smiled up at him. “And where you really?” She frowned, hugging him again

He looked at her and nodded. "Yea. Really. Long story. I just know the counselors called my mom and told her what happened and that means I have to have the tracker."

#Anna #Will cut posts later when I get on a comp haha

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redhaireddancer:

“Just because you were up a tree, doesn’t mean you were running away. And touch, you love my hugs, admit it.” She teased, hugging him

He sighed and shook his head, “I was.” He looked at her when he leaned back from the hung. “Running away. As for hugs, I can live without them. I let you get away with it because you’re basically a five year old height wise.”

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redhaireddancer-blog

“What? Why? I thought you had said you didn’t have to wear it as long as you didn’t run away?” She looked concerned, standing and holding her arms open in an invitation for a hug.

“How do you think I fell out of a tree?” He looked at her and moved in for a hug, “you’re not helping my tough guy facade.”

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redhaireddancer-blog

Annabeth sighed. “Xander, just ignore him then. That’s the easiest thing to do. You want him, I can tell, but I know you’re worried. It’s not like he’s going to crowd you in the middle of the messhall or something. Just ignore him.”

“I can do that, but I need them to move on too. That’s the only way it’ll work.” He sighed and shook his head, “never mind. I’ll figure it out later. Come on, I’ve gotta go get my tracker back on.”

miss me when i’m gone

thelostromanov-blog

“Xander!” He called, reaching out a hand to catch Xander’s. “Listen. I’m not trying to make you feel like you should be thankful to me. I just wanted to show you that I cared. That you mean a lot to me. Even….even if you want to ignore me the rest of our lives, at least I know you’re safe. At least I know no one will hurt you. You are worth it. You are worth everything I can ever do and give.” He sighed softly, stroking a finger along Xander’s hand. “I’m sorry I’m obviously not what you wanted.” he murmured, letting the hand go and staying where he was.

He looks back at him and listens to him word vomit, basically, and it sets his teeth on edge as he hears everything. He narrows his eyes and steps back, “no, you’re not. You were just sex and I don’t need or want you.” He knew it was mean and completely un-true, but he said it anyway before turning on his heel to leave him.

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redhaireddancer-blog

“Sometimes the things that end poorly, also do the most good.” She murmured. “I don’t know how much I can help, but I want to.” She gave him a small smile. “I want to help you feel safe, help you realize that some things are worth the odd endings.” She sighed. “Even if that means you’re avoiding someone that makes you feel safe. And that look on your face suggests it’s more than you want to tell me. I may be wrong, but that’s what I see.”

He shook his head, “not this. Nothing good will come from this,” he told her solemnly. “I just can’t see him anymore. It’ll do me more harm than good and despite what he thinks that’s the truth. So will you help me?”

miss me when i’m gone

thelostromanov-blog

“How did Imess with your head?” he asked, incredulously. “How? Because I care? Because I worked my ass off to make sure that fucker in the jail can’t do ANYTHING that might hurt you or yours? Yes, I did it, I did what I promised you. You’re not going to get hurt by him anymore, neither is your family.”

“I never asked you to do that!” He hung his head slowly. He groaned, “you do things like that! You make me feel like I should be just thankful to you for everything! Like I don’t want this but you drop a bombshell like that and how am I supposed to feel? Huh? You mess with my head you make me think things can be better and I know they can’t! I’m not worth it, I’m just not. Just stop trying to fix me.” He huffed and kicked his door open getting out so he could just be away from him.

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redhaireddancer-blog

“Then what’s the harm in going with it for now? If it ends up badly, it does, but it could be the best thing ever.” Annabeth pulled her knees to her chest. “He makes you feel safe. Cling to that for as long as you can.”

He shook his head, “you know how when you do something and you know it’s going to end poorly? That’s how this is. It’s going to end badly and I get caught up in the middle. I don’t need that in my life, Anna. I don’t.”

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