lullabies.

❝ Our wounds are often the openings into the best and most beautiful part of us. nephilim / 21 / student / library assistant / redhead / queer

[xcelmark]

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well this was.. idk

haha..

It’s sad to see celestial go :(

This was my first RP after like 293i4209345i093450230430952 ages (theres an i there I knoW) and glad to have become a part of it! I can’t even think how long I’ve been here like aksdfklasdfa idk There was this point even where I was searching for RPs but I couldn’t because I only wanted to focus on celx hahahaha #goodjobmefornotbeingtempted

Anywayyy rambling..

I know I wasn’t the fastest replier but  I did mahh best! hahaha Sorry TnT

I don’t even know what to say! I’ll miss the rp though and errthang about it! Jackson Mun you hella better reply on skype :( we need to keep intouch haha The others aswell! :( PM me if you want to exchange skype users!

asdfl;asdfl;asd;lfds;lfa;sdfsasdklfslkfdmskfaskldfskdfsa this is bad I can’t even type properly! I’d love to stay and continue everything but with knowing celestial is closed it kinda brings my muse for Mark :( But if anyone wants to continue just tell me! :D I SHALL DO MAAH BESTEU <3 I’ve loved this Mark and how he’s grown since the beggining It’s probably my best chara for like all time hahahaha

Hope to RP with everyone else! <3 <3 <3

[xcelmark]

☼✖

Something that/Someone who makes them happy.

Mark is a person who enjoys thelittle things and something as little as food could get his happiness going. Ifyou're in a hitch and can't figure out what he'd like, get ice cream it's asure win.

As for someone that could make himhappy. That person would have to be his bestfriend Jackson. That demon justgets him and everything about him. If Mark needs some cheering up, or it's 2AM he'dwoken from a bad dream – he'll call Jackson and everything would be betteragain.

How do they handle rejection?

Mark has only experienced rejectiononce, however, in the worst possible way. His mother shunned him after hisfather left them; it was never the same after that.

It's a horrible feeling; how theperson you're most certain that loves you – even if everyone else didn't – couldeasily think so less of you, could easily forget all about you.

It was nights of crying himself tosleep, it shattered him, it broke him. To this day the idea of rejection issomething Mark tries to avoid, because all the memories of being blamed, spatat and unloved rush back to him.

He fears that those that wouldreject him thought the same way his mom did about him – a useless monsterwho brought misfortune and harm; someone who did not deserve love.

[xcelmark]

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Do they have an idol or someonethey look up to?

This person he looks up to wouldprobably be his stepfather, the man who took him in after escaping themalevolent grasp of the Organization.

He looks up to him because afterlosing his family through a terrible accident and losing his real son, he wasstill able to stand and get back on his feet. Mark wants to be like him, Markwants to be able to stand on his feet whenever darkness came – whenever the badcame.

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[xcelmark]

Before retiring back to bed when he’d placed Yoongi down on the couch, he made sure to get some aspirin and place it on the stand beside the sofa. He was pretty sure the latter would have a pretty bad hangover, so it was better safe than sorry. He made a post-it on a glass of water, with a cute note on it.

“Drink this! It should help! I’ll be in my room if you need anything! :D”

Mark kept his door open for Yoongi, his father did not own a huge house but the boy loved it nonetheless. The last thing the boy could remember doing before drifting to sleep was taking his shirt of and lying down; telling himself he’ll get a shirt in a moment.

However, as soon as he flopped down and his back has met the soft covers, his eyes slid shut passing out completely. The nice breeze from his window lulling him to sleep.

He was tired but his heart felt no regret, helping people out is something Mark lived by.

[xcelmark]

admiration | mrk&jjng

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[xcelmark]

Mark pretty much wanted to bury himself alive after one embarrassment to another. Why did his body have react this way? Couldn’t he be like one of those badass protagonists in dramas? Looking all cool and unaffected by a gorgeous human being? But no, he had to be a nervous wreck who couldn’t stand perfectly still and fumble with his fingers while stuttering every single word out. 

“Great job, Mark you’ve really outdone yourself this time,” Even his inner self and thoughts working against him.

“O-oh... Hmm..” The assistant took a light huff of air to pull himself together, hoping it would work.

“Online... Marketing...” Mark made his little thinking face -- his face all crunched up, an eye closed, with his lips pursed out.

“I’m pretty sure there could be books about that over at Shelf 12,” Mark gave a light smile and gestured for the latter to come with him, “Come, I can show you.”

As soon as he had his back turned and clearly away from the latter to take the lead, he heaved another breath.

“Keep it together, he’s just like any other person you’ve helped,” He thought to himself, “Except that tiny little, not so little detail that he is beautiful -- Ugh, brain you need to stop.”

[celestial-memes]

questions about your muse.

♥ - What does ‘love’ mean to them? ♠ - What are they afraid of? ♦ - What is one thing about them that they are most proud of? ♣ - What is one thing that they find embarrassing? (About them, others, things in general) ★ - Do they prefer daytime or nighttime and why? ☾- Are they prone to nightmares or dreamless sleep? ☼ - Something that/Someone who makes them happy. ☁ - If they’re caught out in the rain how do they react? ♪ - Are they musically inclined? ♫ - What kind of music do they enjoy? ✓ - How do they react to praise? ✕ - How do they handle rejection? ☺ - Do they prefer sour or sweet treats? ❄ -  Favorite season and why? ☮ - Do they have an idol or someone they look up to? ❤ - Do they have a love interest? ✖ - Who is someone they just cannot stand? ♔ - Do they value loyalty? ♕ - Do they trust easily?

Please don’t answer your old meme requests anymore. Thank you.

[jonginxcel-blog]

— kji ❈ mt — ❝appetite

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[xcelmark]

Mark was never a morning person, waking up and begging at his phone's alarm for a few more minutes was the usual lineup. 

This morning was no different; however, much to his dismay, after he got ready for class, he received a text from a classmate full of emoji's and exclamation points that said classes were canceled. With an ugly frown on his face the student could only heave a sigh and run his hand through his red hair.

What was he going to do now? That feeling of returning to bed and slacking of was long gone, sleep was not an option.

There's a single thing that Mark loves in the morning and he was pretty sure this would turn his day around – it was the smell of coffee in the morning. So there he found himself at one of his favorite cafés ordering an iced caramel macchiato with a good English book in hand.

He sat by the window as he read, taking light sips of his ice cold beverage – something people might deem as weird but Mark loved his coffee cold even at the colder seasons, he never really figured out why, he just really does.

A few chapters in he could've sworn he saw someone sat next to him from his peripheral view but Mark couldn't care less because he didn't own the café nor did he mind. The café was usually packed, so maybe that's why he's earned himself a ‘buddy’ beside him.

[xcelmark]

admiration | mrk&jjng

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[xcelmark]

Mark had stayed up all night yesterday, with only a few hours of rest. He’s glad he’s able to take breaks like this in the library without his colleagues talking bad about him, since most of them work part-time they understood how difficult it had to juggle school and work.

Amidst the calm darkness as he took his nap, Mark was usually a light sleeper so something as small as a creaking door could get him up. With that said, the moment he heard a voice he immediately looked up to the owner so startled that he got the back of his head hit the shelf.

“Ahck!” Mark winced, and rubbed the heaven sent accident with light hopes that it would not get swollen.

Mark stood up, clearing his throat, “Sorry,” and brushed his pants like he would always does. It has still not gotten to the boy that this man in front of him was the same man that had his thoughts jumbled earlier on.

“What do you need? Let me help~” Mark smiled as his eyes squinted down to where he was taking his nap, while he scratched his head -- another little thing he does quite often when he wakes up.

“I’m the Library Ass-” The moment his eyes made their way to a familiar figure and a set of magnificent eyes, his train of thought decided to get lost and made himself get cut off with a bad case of butterflies -- he has finally recognized the owner of the voice and boy was he not prepared.

Mark cleared his throat again when reality came rushing back, “A-Assistant, Library Assistant.”

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[xcelmark]

Mark couldn’t help but just feel worried about the latter, the older looked like a mess. He was not used to seeing Yoongi like this, not at all. All he could ask himself was where the sleepy, squinty-eyed, playful student from the librarian was.

“I’m here, I’m here.” Mark repeated his words with care and soft touches. He 

Shook his head as the latter apologizes, “Don’t be, you must have had a great night though, hmm?” Mark smiled a bit trying to lighten the mood.

“Hey, it’s okay, just tell me where I can take you, your hou-” Mark was cut short when the male stumbles down to the floor. He tried his best to catch the latter and break a harsh fall. 

Fortunately he caught him just in time, with a faint, “Oh my God.”

The Nephilim ran his hands through his hair and tried to figure out where to take the passed out man on the floor. He never really knew where the other lived, so it was not a surprise that the conscious male decided to take Yoongi to his house.

With a few stretching -- probably just bad arm stretches and back bending -- Mark lifted the boy up and onto his back and carried his passed out friend ‘til he could find a taxi.

Alas, after about two blocks and a panting Mark Kim, he was able to hail a cab. With great caution so he would not drop Yoongi, he opened the door and sat the male comfortably at the back and squeezed himself in beside the older. He instructed the driver directions to his humble abode before taking a glimpse of the male beside him, as he reaches to fix older’s messed locks.

[xcelmark]

Cat Ears and Huge Bows | MRK&JCKSN

[celxjackson]

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[xcelmark]

Mark laughed at his success of annoying his best friend, it was all too easy.

"What? Why is it banned now?" Mark raised a brow at the other playfully. However, with all these talk about dates, the half-ling was never fond of them either. Given the he sucked at talking, how worse would it have been if he was to talk to someone he potentially have feelings with. So long story short, Mark was not much of a fan of the dating scene.

Mark's face lit up immediately at Jackson's idea for his birthday, "What?! Really?!" The Nephilim was ecstatic, "That'd be awesome! Promise?!" He held his pinky up for a cute pinky promise, because why not.

"You sure your friends wouldn't mind me kidnapping you on your birthday?" Mark stuck his tongue out, thinking birthday's required more than 2 people for it to be a party. Being around Jackson's friends isn't much of a big deal but he's certain he doesn't fit in, but Jackson will be there and he's even more certain that his bestfriend won't let him be out of place. Jackson's always like that, always.

"Yes! French fries here I come!" Mark dramitically fisted the air with a bright grin, all too excited for the food.

Mark's face shifted from excite to pure disgust at the mention of pickles, "Ew, pickles." The boy shook his head one of the ingredients of burgers he usually takes out because he disliked them, having thought that it ruins his burger.

"Hey what does that supposed to mean?!" Mark crunched his brows down and pushed the latter, he claims he is just as cool as Jackson -- his bestfriend is just to shy to admit it.

Mark hopped into the restaurant with a nice sniff of the air, loving the smell of burgers, "Yum."

"So you're a rapper now too?" The boy laughed as most eyes were on Jackson, sometimes he  just has to get used to attention, specially when he's with his best friend .

[markjin]

GOT7 - “니가 하면(If You Do)” Teaser Vid ➜ Mark

[xcelmark]

admiration | mrk&jjng

Mark is quite observant, he likes to keep himself curious about the things going on around him. However, there's a fine line between observing and staring like a fifteen year old girl with a crush -- a really fine line.

Having to catch the boy's attention is not the hardest thing to do, he can be very approachable. To catch the butterflies in his stomach, well, that's something else -- a whole different kind of something else.

Mark usually is a sucker for gorgeous eyes and great hair. If you've got that ticked off, you might as well be prepared for a more sufficiently awkward conversation with a half-ling trying to contain his feelings. The boy is very aware of this which is probably why he tries his best not to get too into anyone. 

This then brings him back to where the assistant was, sitting on the floor leaning back against the shelf at the business section. Just as he was returning the last book he had on his trolley, it had to be in that very section. Here was where he found himself ogling an attractive stranger from a week ago. Much to his dismay, his  bashful side had to act up and speaking did not seem like an option; whereas speed walking away like a penguin was.

Mark seriously wonders if he'll be able to see him again, or at least speak normally around strangers like that. The boy rests his head back against the shelf and closes his eyes letting himself take a well deserved nap.

[xcelmark]

trckr;

[xcelmark]

writing

starter  –  jaejoong

greyhound  – yoongi

cat ears and huge bows  – jackson

a/n sorry guys have been doing alot of things lately will reply asap! TnT

waiting

do you believe in miracles – barom (hiatus)

plotting

sunggyu

you, maybe?

plot call! :D mark is in need of threads so if you’re interested you can check out his plot page or if you don’t fancy any of those we can go brainstorm! >3<

Here’s some other links to help you get to know mark! History // Personality // Power

dropped

do you mind – ravi

chance – jinyoung

not blackmail – l.joe

book theif – amber

late night book thief -- hyosung

cricricri pls plot widme

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[xcelmark]

celxyoongi:

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Mark kept his phone on his ear as he figured out the fastest way to get to Yoongi. By then, he decided hailing a cab would be much better compared to having to wait for the bus. After finally grabbing a taxi, Mark tell the driver the directions to where the caller on the other line was.

“Look hyung, just -- just focus on my voice, okay? Don’t hang up and just listen to me, okay?” Mark ran his hand through his hair, worried about what exactly is happening to the older. The half-ling ordered the driver to speed up a bit, saying it was quite an emergency and that he needed to be there as soon as possible.

“I’m almost there okay? Just a few more minutes -- 5 minutes tops, ” Mark informed the other as he gazed outside the window as familiar buildings pass.

Mark hums a quite song to remind Yoongi that he’s still there but he’s taken in by surprise when he hears the latter curse loudly into the phone, “Hyung? What happened?” Mark’s voice was a little louder, still full of worry.

When the sounds of puking can be heard from the other line, Mark gets his answer -- sort of. And by the time the throwing up has subsided, the male has arrived. He pays the driver quick, not waiting for change and hops out immediately to search for Yoongi.

“Hy-hyung? Where are you?” Mark looked around searching for a familiar pale face with small eyes. 

Before a reply came he sees a male stumbling away, near the underground circuit. Mark felt like a heavy load of worry has been lifted off from his shoulders as he threads his way to the other. 

“Gotcha,” Mark says as he holds onto Yoongi’s arm, “You okay?”

[marktuat]

89/ ∞ Mark Yi-En Tuan

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[xcelmark]

celxyoongi:

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Every ounce of sleep Mark had in him practically left his body when he hears Yoongi from the other line, confused and cursing. What was happening? Even he had no idea. Mark ran his hands through his hair trying to figure out what the intoxicated man was trying to say.

"D-drugged?!" Mark's voice got a little louder than expected and next thing he knew he was up and off his bed, getting a pair of skinny jeans, and an oversized top on.

"Hyung, where are you?" Mark was already grabbing his wallet and his keys, making his way out of the door, shivering when the cold midnight breeze blew onto his pale skin.

Yoongi was calling out for him, "What? Yeah? I'm here," He doesn't get an answer back from the other, what he got was a lound honk  from the other line and a rude man cursing; trying to get Yoongi out of the road.

Mark was walking fast even if he didn't know where Yoongi was, he was genuinely worried for the latter. They weren't much friends to begin with but the male sounded like he really did need help and Mark knew how these things should not be taken lightly. It's not the first time he's had to take an intoxicated friend home.

"Yoongi Hyung, listen-- " There was a slight pause as he looked left and right before crossing the road, "It's Me, Mark, Where are you? Can you tell me a landmark atleast? What's the club nearest to you? Do you know what street you're in?"

Mark was never fond of going to places like this, the only person that could drag him to clubs were none other than Jackson Wang himself, Mark's bestfriend. He was sure he could find Yoongi, as long as he gets an answer. The half-ling has had himself familar with the usual clubbing places that Jackson has countlessly forceably gotten him into.

With a heavy sigh, filled with worry, "Hyung, listen can you do me a favor? Okay? Can you find a spot you can sit on near the club? A wall you can sit by and lean front of? Stay there okay? Stay put? Don't walk around, please? I promise I'll come and get you." Mark's voice was clear and assertive. The less Yoongi, walked and moved around the less likely he was to get into trouble.

"Can you do that for me?" Mark smiled a happy tone in his voice,

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[xcelmark]

celxyoongi:

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Why are dreams dark and malevolent? Why do dreams make you feel hurt and torment? Weren't dreams supposed to be  sweet and full of cute puppies? Why weren't Mark's filled with those?

With sweat trickling down his forehead while he runs for his dear life,  Mark was in deep trouble. Hunters we're chasing him, did they finally find him? What is it that blew his cover? Should he have been more careful? Mark was out of breath but stopping was not an option, they were just right by his tail and taking a break would certainly get him back in their evil hands -- and that was not something he wants .

So he keeps his feet moving, not even sure where they may take him. He looks back and it seems as though these hunters' numbers doubled. Mark's eyes widen, but he was not going down without a fight. He tries to blast out force fields to push them of but it did not work, it only went through them. What sorcery was this? It looked as if they did not budge at all, this has never happened before.

Mark could hear their footsteps growing louder and louder and at the moment he feels he could get out he arrives at a dead end. Taking a turn at that alleyway was a mistake, this was a mistake, everything felt wrong. By the time his back hit the wall, he had no where else to go -- this was the end.

The hunters have gotten him cornered and the last thing he saw was their guns pointed at him, Mark closed his eyes and took cover.

RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRING RRIIIIIIIIIIING!

"Those weren't gunshots," Mark's voice played in his head. With heavy eyes, Mark opened them and noticed his back in his room. It was just another nightmare, why isn't he surprised?

The ringing continued and he figured out it was his cellphone ringing. He checked his clock and it was way past midnight, who in the right mind calls at this hour?

"I swear Jackson, this better be important." Mark says grogilly as he shuffled around the bed searching for his phone.

The soonest he finds his phone he noticed it was not his weird best friend calling him, 'twas Yoongi. A student he'd sort of met at the library, they weren't that close and only have talked a few times in the library when the latter was awake and coherent -- but what boggles his mind is why was he calling at this hour?

"H-hello? Yoongi H-hyung? What's going on?" His voice was groggy, it always was when he woke up -- a horrid sound even he, himself disliked.