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bunniboiz

me being generally bad at existing: why am i like this

me later reading about a disorder that i literally Have: aw fuck thats right i got symptoms syndrome

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borderlinexcat

I can’t stand this ‘it’ll get better’ bullshit anymore

Everyone’s always like ‘with therapy you’ll be able to learn how to handle your illness and you’ll get better’ but I’m living this nightmare for 10 years with multiple therapies and hospitalizations now so pls understand that this has some kind of impact on my hope and faith

Because It’s hard to believe when you have the feeling that it only gets worse, from depression and social anxiety to borderline personality disorder. It’s some scary serious shit I have to deal with and sometimes more and sometimes less I’m unable to have hope because I just suffer. Because it’s unfair that I have to deal with this. Because I feel so lonely and lost that the wish to end it all completely overtakes me. I crave calmness so much, I can’t rest my head like you can rest your leg when it’s injured. I can’t make the pain and emotional roller coaster stop.

And, sorry if I’m inpatient but i just want it to stop or at least to be better so I don’t feel like only surviving and not living anymore. It’s too much.