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20 . CW: 61.2kg

[xiaow3ii]

〈she/he , 20〉＊．

『 CW: 61.2kg

GW: 50kg 』

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⚠︎ᴘʀᴏ ᴏɴʟʏ ᴛᴏ ᴍʏsᴇʟғ. ɪ ᴇɴᴄᴏᴜʀᴀɢᴇ ʀᴇᴄᴏᴠᴇʀʏ⚠︎

[marrleenstves]

i miss 14 year old me she was locked the fuck in

[xiaow3ii]

i'm such a failure at this disorder it's lowkey embarrassing

[xiaow3ii]

i'm currently at my parents' for the summer holidays but it's genuinely a snacks kingdom... snack everywhere... and they love to host family/friends dinners too

i feel so trapped i don't even know how to avoid food...

i miss my apartment 💔

[xiaow3ii]

y'all istg i've been plateauing for MONTHS now i'm genuinely crashing out i gotta go extreme atp bc wtf

[gett14gsmalllerrr]

how tf do i think im gonna lose weight if i keep eating sm hello?😂😂

[xiaow3ii]

computah, how to be aespa skinny ? 🫩

[xiaow3ii]

so ... back to school happened .. 😀😀😀😀

[xiaow3ii]

okay so two weeks ago i weighed myself and was like above 60kg. really depressing 😍 i started eating tons of food bc i felt like i was doing all those efforts for nothing and that i'm not even worthy of having my dream weight.

rn i'm at my uncle's and needed to weigh a luggage for a trip i'm having in a few days and out of ✨curiosity✨ i decided to weigh myself again anddd it said i was like 10kg lighter ????? LIKE THE SCALE SAID I WAS 50 SOMETHING KILOGRAMS ????

idek what to believe so i'll update you guys when i get back home in a week and a half 💀 i really want to be all delulu and believe that i actually lost 10kg by eating "unhealthy" amounts of food but if it ends up being false and when i weigh myself at home i might just km$ 👤...

but now WHAT IF it's actually the scale i have at home that has been LYING to me all this time ??? bc it is old asf like it's probably my age (18) so i don't know...

STAY TUNED Y'ALL 😭😭😭

[xiaow3ii]

update the scale at home still says i'm 60+ kg so ig imma just cry in bed all day 😻😻😻😻😻

[xiaow3ii]

okay so two weeks ago i weighed myself and was like above 60kg. really depressing 😍 i started eating tons of food bc i felt like i was doing all those efforts for nothing and that i'm not even worthy of having my dream weight.

rn i'm at my uncle's and needed to weigh a luggage for a trip i'm having in a few days and out of ✨curiosity✨ i decided to weigh myself again anddd it said i was like 10kg lighter ????? LIKE THE SCALE SAID I WAS 50 SOMETHING KILOGRAMS ????

idek what to believe so i'll update you guys when i get back home in a week and a half 💀 i really want to be all delulu and believe that i actually lost 10kg by eating "unhealthy" amounts of food but if it ends up being false and when i weigh myself at home i might just km$ 👤...

but now WHAT IF it's actually the scale i have at home that has been LYING to me all this time ??? bc it is old asf like it's probably my age (18) so i don't know...

STAY TUNED Y'ALL 😭😭😭

[xiaow3ii]

i'm such a failure at this disorder it's lowkey embarrassing

[xiaow3ii]

results of two weeks of restriction + final exams:

i'm severely constipated 💀

[xiaow3ii]

tmi my stomach can't stop gurgling SO LOUD during exams it's so embarrassing istg ... like the room is silent and my stomach is like let's show everyone how starved you are 👤...

[xiaow3ii]

results of two weeks of restriction + final exams:

i'm severely constipated 💀

[xiaow3ii]

why am i so fat

why am i still eating so much

why am i so lazy

[xiaow3ii]

omg my tumblr glitched and i thought my blog got deleted...

[nona-butterfly]

Things im doing from now on when im cr@ving

brush teeth/oil pulling

skincare

nailcare

drink water

shave/wax hair

exercise

read

clean/declutter

scrapbooking

any productivity

make a post

chores

tape measure/b0dy ch3ck1ng

[edluv-skinandbones]

so real

[xiaow3ii]

istg 😭