Sci

19 yr old transmasc, Pre-T & just started my transition. He/Him only

[ximptzzz]

Got a hair cut, wanted it to be more of a mullet but my hairstylist was too scared to fuck up my shit :/ whatever everyone else likes it ig , its cute

[ximptzzz]

I think im the scariest person i know because the only thing i consume is myself

[ximptzzz]

Kinda wishing i was dead all the time im so sick of screaming from within myself

[syseekssanity]

telling ppl i’m a boy but i have a rack and a high pitched voice so i js die

[fabledtruths]

pride month came and went and instead of getting to be horny on tumblr instead i got to like. face the horrors. wth

[ximptzzz]

Can the trans guilt of being pre transition and not being able to date without feeling like a liar either way i play it out with someone pls go away i would like to have meaningful connection again

[ximptzzz]

waiting this afterlife out, buried deep in the backseat of conformity, i need this to be over, death hunts me down with a shotgun and i embrace him because he is me and I have been him in every eternity, all i can do is wish i wouldnt stop myself from becoming

[ximptzzz]

Im just so tired of it all

[ximptzzz]

I dont miss the stares of what i was i just miss the truth of being it

[ximptzzz]

Life is crazy because i feel like i am at the crossroads between death and life. If i die tomorrow i have already mourned the corpse and the image of her in preparation to transition, if tomorrow comes and i live i get the beauty of becoming, and thats a whole other death in itself, i will not miss being a girl but i will miss the gaze of acceptance for a very long time, i am merely moving through this space a ghost stuck in the overworld, there is no life left for me here but i still have eternity left to exist in

[ceruleanheaven]

brought nothing to the gun fight. whatever man

[ximptzzz]

It feels like there is something awful and weird constantly buzzing under my skin, and i have to try so hard to keep it under wraps, to prove the hands that strangled my throat when i was a little kid wrong

[ximptzzz]

I think my mom not loving me has made me it easier to accept myself as a trans guy, she wouldnt have loved me even if i was the perfect daughter who did it all right, whether im a homeless teen pregnancy or the valedictorian heading for presidency she wouldnt have loved me either way

[l1fe1sp0ppli0]

i get very #insufferable when I get comfortable with people

[ximptzzz]

Getting chickens soon be aware (i stardew valleyed so hard i became shane)

[get-more-transmasc]

To the trans boy reading this who feels like he has no hope: you're stronger than whatever you're going through.

I promise you it will get better, it does get better.

Life can be so beautiful, the world can be such a kind and loving place, the struggle is a passing thing and when you come out the other end, and believe me, you WILL, you will find yourself marvelling at the joy you once thought you'd never get to have.

Listen to me. You are going to be okay. Better than okay, you are going to survive this and you are going to THRIVE.

We're all in this together. I love you.

[genesisthreetwenty]

the sky, an ocean // may 2026