Not All Those Who Wander Are Lost

Dani: (Six Word Story Meme) “ Don’t you dare lie to me. ”

“I’m not lying!” He huffed. He was aware of his slip ups lately, he wasn’t doing that great with responsibilities or remembering things, for instance, last week he forgot to pay a speeding ticket. As well as his cell phone bill. Dani confronted him about it before but he had lacked the ears to listen to her because he was tired. Now she was bringing it up again and he had to some how convince her of not using his money on other things. He was guilty of it, but his experimental side had one night slipped far enough to take ecstasy.

A month ago he quit every thing else or had come damn near close to. Smoking, excessive drinking, cocaine, etc. Even heroine, and that was the worst one to overcome. He worked at it a lot for Dani’s sake, one because he loved her, and two, he wanted a real future with her, like a house and all that shit. It wasn’t him though, it wasn’t who he was or had planned to be so he hit a wall and kinda got stuck there. He felt a new different and didn’t like it so the only thing he could do was fall back to a bad habit to get out of his mind.

He stood here presently in front of his girlfriend and it wasn’t looking that great.

Her anger only fueled him, he wanted to get things heated now, he purposely wanted to throw a fit for sake of getting everything out. The hot coals turned into burning blue flames in his head and he could see nothing but the actions he would regret doing after this storm passed. “I know I’m not clean swept with the law! But I can’t live–” He bit his tongue to just think about what he was going to say next, running both hands through his hair, walking in a circle, bottom lip between his teeth. Suddenly his tongue spit out the worst rant in the world about his life. Deme received much of his mother’s traits, he got his uncommunicative skills from her, and he didn’t often realize when he was speaking in Spanish or not. He applied it now when everything was so messy and burdening.

Deme was going off about a lot of things and the occasional English slipped in. The overall rant was about his past with addictions, he’d kicked the wall a few times and threw his own cell across the room where it landed somewhere with a thud.

“I’m a fuck up Dani, I messed up again and I’m never going to get out of my own goddamn messes! God, you should’ve reevaluated everything about me when you started to love me– I clearly can’t do anything good for you even when I see you as my fucking everything. Your love doesn’t seem to be doing anything to help even when I cry out for it in my weakness! I can’t– I can’t be fixed when I’ve fallen apart this many times, I fucking went behind your back with so many things and there should be something telling me to stop doing that but I hear no voice in my goddamn head! I should feel bad about this but I can’t!”

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She stood there through the beginning of his rant and listened, even when it turned into Spanish... since she could now understand it at least partially from him. It was when he started kicking walls and throwing stuff that she really go upset, not to mention the subject he was yelling about. “So you spent the money that we needed on drugs?” She yelled. Tears welled in her eyes. “I thought you got over it! I thought you were done! You have to fix this, Deme. You have to fucking fix this.” She added on, yelling at him in a cracking voice as she attempted to hold back tears. But when he said all of that other stuff was when the tears came down, a deadly combination of sadness and rage... though they were mostly just rage.

“Reevaluated? What the fuck was I supposed to do, Deme? Think about the ways you fucked up and never give you a chance? I couldn’t have even if I wanted to! I fell in love with you almost instantly! I didn’t have time to think it through and ‘reevaluate’. I loved you and I still love you, more than I can even put into words! Do you know how much this hurts me? Knowing I can’t fucking fix you. I try so hard to make things good for you. I work so that we don’t have to manage money so tightly to where we can’t enjoy ourselves. Not that that really counts because you are always the one who enjoys yourself with our money while I sit around here like a lost puppy, waiting for you to return to me and give me love.” She rambled loudly, pacing a bit back and forth. But as she thought through all that he had said, one of the last things he said really hit her.

She looked at him and stomped up closer a bit. “What else have you went behind my back about, Deme? Huh? What other secrets are you hiding from me? More drugs? Another girl? Something else I’d be pissed about? Come on, tell me!” She almost screamed, tears rushing down her face in a constant stream as she ventured to get right up in his face without even really thinking about it first. She was just so angry she wasn’t thinking straight. She wished she knew exactly why she loved him. There were a million reasons given to her as to why she shouldn’t but despite all of that he had her entire heart and no way of giving it back.

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Dani: (Six Word Story Meme) “ Don’t you dare lie to me. ”

“I’m not lying!” He huffed. He was aware of his slip ups lately, he wasn’t doing that great with responsibilities or remembering things, for instance, last week he forgot to pay a speeding ticket. As well as his cell phone bill. Dani confronted him about it before but he had lacked the ears to listen to her because he was tired. Now she was bringing it up again and he had to some how convince her of not using his money on other things. He was guilty of it, but his experimental side had one night slipped far enough to take ecstasy.

A month ago he quit every thing else or had come damn near close to. Smoking, excessive drinking, cocaine, etc. Even heroine, and that was the worst one to overcome. He worked at it a lot for Dani’s sake, one because he loved her, and two, he wanted a real future with her, like a house and all that shit. It wasn’t him though, it wasn’t who he was or had planned to be so he hit a wall and kinda got stuck there. He felt a new different and didn’t like it so the only thing he could do was fall back to a bad habit to get out of his mind.

He stood here presently in front of his girlfriend and it wasn’t looking that great.

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Dani stood there in front of him with her arms crossed and her hip jutting out slightly. As short as she was, she figured, at least right now, that she looked intimidating. “You’re lying, Deme. Stop it.” She said shortly. She was honestly filled with rage right now. Not so much that he was being irresponsible, though that definitely ticked her off, but he was lying to her.

“Just tell me what you spent that money on instead of paying for your phone bill, which is also my phone bill if I may add. Plus, that speeding ticket... which you’re going to go to court for if you don’t pay. Do you really want to get involved with the law right now? Bc you don’t have the cleanest record by any means.” She ranted. Her hands were clenched into fists that she was about ready to hit him with... but she knew she wouldn’t go that far. She couldn’t.. but oh boy did she want to.

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He stopped, his head lowered. “No I didn’t, do y'know where they are?” He could find some in his stuff but he wanted to know if there were any closer. This wasn’t a normal thing for them to be doing so it was uncertain if there were even condoms near them. He didn’t want to go very far to get some if he had to, anyways.

Dani sighed softly. She had figured he’d, at least, be a bit more responsible about this. She laid her head back and pointed over at her dresser, only a few steps away from the bed. “In my underwear drawer, in the back. Probably buried. There’s a box of them..” She replied. She’d bought them a couple weeks ago, hoping that maybe she could use sex as an incentive for him to be home a little bit more.. but then she thought better of the idea and hid the box. She really didn’t regret her purchase now, though.

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He bit his lip aligning himself up to her, it sent some nerves into his stomach from remembering how much he thought of doing this before. He didn’t know if it’d be like what he imagined but there was no time to recall any of his former fantasies. It would get in the way of now. Deme entered her, pressing his hips into her’s, then felt nothing but her. He released his lip from between his teeth and let a shallow breath escape him at the sensation. It was already a different sensation than the other sex he had had before, it felt so much better.

Dani wrapped her arms around him, digging her fingers into his back gently as he entered her. She buried her face in his neck and let out a soft moan. “Oh god, Deme..” She whispered, kissing his neck after she spoke. It felt so much different. So much better. She couldn’t even believe it. One thing gnawed a bit at her mind, though. “You didn’t put on a condom before, did you?” She asked. Of course, this wasn’t a great time to ask but she didn’t want it to go farther without it.

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Lips moved gingerly over hers for a moment of the kiss, his hand roughly undoing the button on his pants then shifting to slip out of them. He had to pull away to get them off fully, and he simply pushed them away after he did. His underwear followed but it wasn’t hard compared to his pants.

“I know you’ve done this before,” his amber gaze lifted to her. “We’re going at your pace, though, for a change. If I’m doing anything too fast,” He shifted so he was more on top and spoke closer to her mouth, his lips brushing against hers softly. “Just tell me.” Deme kissed her sweetly and pulled away.

Dani laid there sort of awkwardly as she waited for him to remove his pants since she was already without clothes. She listened to him as he spoke, nodding a bit. She looked into his eyes as he hovered over her and spoke, closing her eyes for a moment to kiss him back before he pulled away. “I will, Deme... but I think I can handle it. It’s different with you... I don’t even have to experience it to know that it will be so much better with you.” She replied. Her blue eyes glanced him over if you could even venture to call it a glance. She was basically just gawking at him. He looked incredible. She already knew he did, they’d been together for so long she’d seen him a few times before.. but never like this. Never for this long. She took it in and smiled, a blush coming to her cheeks.

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Looking into her eyes he could see she had, or at the least was starting to get, that daze-of-pleasure glint. His hand between her thighs pulled away. “Are you ready to go further?” With his fingers now ready to undo his pants, he indicated what he was asking, even if there wasn’t anything else he could be asking at this moment.

Dani looked at him, knowing without looking at his hand what he was indicating. She took a deep breath and tried to hide that as well as she could. “I’m ready,” She whispered. Before he could do anything else, though, she pulled him in for a kiss. She pressed her lips softly against his, closing her eyes, and trying to prepare herself for what she was about to do. She wasn’t scared, which was surprising. She was nervous, though. She knew she couldn’t compare to other girls he had been with no matter how hard she tried. She just wanted to make sure he enjoyed this as much as he possibly could.

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Her moan was exactly what he wanted to hear. He pulled from the kiss, pressing his lips against her cheek then further down to her jawline, then neck, then collarbone. He peppered kisses all along that part of her but soon moved on, his progression continuing until he was at her chest, then nipple. He flicked his tongue over that, sucked, but came back up to her eye level in a matter of seconds. All this while still keeping his fingers moving at the gentle speed they were going at.

She tilted her head back as he peppered kisses down to her chest. Her back arched a bit and another soft moan escaped her mouth as he teased her nipple with his mouth. She looked him in the eyes as he came back up, her breaths now audible and filled with pleasure. He was pretty good at this, not that she expected him not to be. She knew he’d been with plenty of girls before her and he knew how this all worked. Dani, however, knew she was pretty terrible at it all.

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He pressed his body against her’s while their kiss was warm and sweet. His hand shifted again to her thigh but refused to settle there as he spread her legs apart slowly. His fingertips caressed her inner thigh. He knew what he was doing but it would still take a little longer to get to know her body well enough to know the difference between what felt good, and what felt great.

Her eyes shut a bit tighter as she felt him spreading her legs, his fingertips brushing her skin and leaving a small spark in their place. She would hum softly against his lips, placing one hand on his back and the other on the back of his

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He interlocked lips with hers, cupping her cheek with his hand. He loved her too. He always hoped she knew that and never doubted it. His hand moved from her cheek down her body and to her hip and he brushed his thumb over her hip bone, then pulled her closer.

She kissed him back, feeling goose bumps raise on her skin as his hand moved down her body. Her foot slid up a bit, pushing her knee up so her leg was slightly bent. She kept her eyes closed and tried to anticipate exactly what this would be like with him.