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Apothecary Diaries is pog as fuck bc serious political issues and dynamics from a woman's POV are rarely depicted in ANY form of media
It's always a man's world where women's issues surround him. Even if we get a female perspective once in awhile- it all comes back to how it facilitates his game in the end. She's a footnote in the overarching scheme of things. Misogyny exists. Back to the real plot.
Apothecary Diaries is strictly from a female perspective and how each class of woman has to act, what limits they have, what rights they have and don't have between each class, etc. These women have to behave a certain way under a patriarchy, which you would think makes it a man's story, but it never is. The women are THE focus of this show, their struggles are THE plot. The focus is about how the patriarch effects them.
Take the concubines for example. The show dives into how bearing a child affects their rank, how traumatizing it is to lose that child, the consequences of that, etc. We have barely seen the emperor who sired all these kids because this is not about him.
Jinshi's personal plot is secondary to Mao Mao's journey- he is mostly there to provide new cases for Mao Mao to solve and to learn more about the shortcomings of his class when taking care of citizens like Mao Mao.
Jinshi is not a bad person, but by virtue of his position in the higher classes, he cannot understand how harsh life as a poor WOMAN is specifically- he can only catch glimpses of it from what Mao Mao tells him and feel outrage but powerless in his wealth and luxury
Mao Mao is a fortunate commoner woman for what privileges someone in her class should and shouldn't have. She happened to be adopted by a knowledgeable man. She is allowed to read, write, learn, and has enough skill to be a poison tester and have a job EXTREMELY out of her class limit as an apothecary, also a job not traditionally meant for women
Mao Mao is not a "noT lIkE oThER gIrLs" protagonist, she is FOR THE GIRLIES. She only wants to help the women around her, and women are whom she has the closest relationships to. She sees a woman being harassed and can't let it stand. She sees a frail, traumatized woman dying from the recklessness of those who should be caring for her and spends day and night nursing her back to health, while also punishing the people who were so careless with her needs.
My girl has STUDIED UP on THE BODY to TEACH these upper class ladies on how to really HEAT things up in the BEDROOM
Sex depicted in Apothecary Diaries is both something women are not shamed to be enjoying, while at the same time being acknowledged as an unfortunately huge economic necessity to market themselves.
Like shit is just so real in this series???
Listen, I can go on and on about how GOATED the series and especially Mao Mao is but you get the picture
It’s incredibly important to me that the anime decided to include this scene that wasn’t in the manga. In the manga, Maomao does pass out in Jinshi’s lap after saving him from what was obviously an assassination attempt.
HOWEVER, the manga cuts off at this point, keeping strictly in Maomao’s perspective, and cuts straight to when she regains consciousness in bed after being treated for her injuries. The manga doesn’t show how she got back. They SAY how, and she briefly mentions, “wow that must have been embarrassing; he carried me back,” but we don’t SEE it. We don’t get to feel the true impact of what that means. But the anime DID show us, and holy shit.
They SHOW us how taboo this is. They show Jinshi carrying her out of the temple, after a public attempt on his life.
They show us the shock and horror on Lakan’s face as Jinshi silently walks past him. Horror at the state his daughter is in, horror at another man—a man with a status he could never dare to question—staking such a public claim over his child, horror at the fact that he could never have this level of closeness with her (as Maomao would never allow it).
Everyone hides their gazes, as is their custom when someone of his rank passes by, but the air is different this time. Jinshi is furious, he’s terrified, and he could not give a single shit about how inappropriate it looks to these palace officials.
The shot that slowly follows her trail of blood—even though it’s a small detail—that in particular leaves such a intense impression of how poignant this is for him.
Maomao talked about this scene in the manga like it was nothing to her. She did what she set out to do: she saved the person who was targeted by the attack. She didn’t even know the target would be someone she knew. But she has no idea that this happened afterwards as a result of her bravery. To her, it likely wasn’t even an act of bravery at all. She acted on impulse; she did what she knew was the right thing to do.
The anime didn’t need to include this, because the manga didn’t show it. But damn, I’m so glad they did.
MAOMAO THE APOTHECARY DIARIES SEASON 1
Maomao's Dislike of Jinshi
So I've been watching Apothecary Diaries and I think people are missing out on the root cause of why Maomao doesn't like Jinshi's interactions with her. It's not because he's too pretty, of high standing, or because she thinks he's annoying/etc., as they're just parts that make up the actual root cause. It's because she knows he's being fake.
Jinshi, because of who he is, where he lives, and how he was raised, covers up his true intentions almost constantly. That was how he trapped Maomao and singled her out as the one who warned Concubine Gyokuyou, after all. The premise to get all the servants in the room, the note telling her to stay put, and making her come with him without telling her where they were going? He let her worry that she was in trouble, so to keep her off-balance when he introduced her to Gyokuyou and also had kept her note to keep her pinned in a corner so she would have to comply with what he and Gyokuyou wanted.
Maomao prefers working with honest people. It's why she never wanted to ascend into the ranks where court politics were a constant presence, because in court politics, you have to assume most people are lying to you on some level. That's why she likes Gyokuyou; Gyokuyou has a similar mentality about the importance of honesty in the people around her and she reciprocates that honesty with the select people she lets her walls down around. When Jinshi is flirting or being super sweet to someone, Maomao knows he's often not being sincere, so when he flirts or acts all sweet with her, she's not going to believe in the sincerity of it because it's dangerous for her if he's not being sincere.
In Maomao's world, a man who makes false promises will not have severe consequences for his actions, unlike the women who fall for them. Growing up where she did and doing the work she did, Maomao knows exactly what kind of damage someone else's lies can bring to someone else who got caught in them. Maomao is not blind to the ugly truths of the world around her, unlike many her age, so interacting with Jinshi, someone who is usually some level of false in almost every encounter with her, is frustrating to her and he won't leave her alone. Lies are a form of poison themselves as they deteriorate a person's life and relationships and if not caught, can lead someone to their death or a fate akin to death, but unlike physical toxins, Maomao can't fix any damage from that kind of societal poison. As someone who wants a lowkey and unremarkable life because it's more peaceful, Jinshi could damage her goals with his falsehoods if she falls for any of them.
And we see that when Jinshi is actually honest about himself and his feelings with her, she treats him better. When he gives her his hairpin, when he's hugging her and crying because of what happened with Ah-Duo, and when he's at the Verdigris House, drowning his sorrows over letting Maomao go from the Rear Palace, Maomao is kinder to him and doesn't look at him with the immediate disdain and suspicion she often throws his way. Maomao even states she prefers the Jinshi, who is more childlike and bratty, which is something we see Gaoshun constantly discourage when Jinshi has those moments where his mask breaks. But in those moments, he's being honest.
For the position of Maomao's love interest, Jinshi's already got one foot ahead of any other guy around Maomao, as he is willing to let Maomao have more freedom in her special interests and gives her things and access to areas that play into her interests, like her dad does, which is more than most men in her society would ever allow. The only reason he actively goes against her toying with poison is he knows exactly what she's going to do with the poisons. But his main hinderance to getting Maomao to like him back is the training of being two-faced that's been ingrained into him for his survival in court. If he was more honest with her, rather than hiding himself under the veneer of a pretty man who is sweet, gets along with everyone, and keeps his knowledge close to the chest, he'd do so much better in earning Maomao's respect and affection.
Flowers are often used as a metaphor for the female characters in the Apothecary Diaries. And for the first time, we, the viewer, are given the direct comparison to which flower is meant to represent Maomao: wood sorrel (also known as “cat’s foot”).
It’s a flower that can treat poisons. A flower that is used to enhance the beauty of the courtesans by painting their nails. A flower with a name associated with cats. A flower that, in hanakotoba, represents maternal tenderness. It’s also one of the flowers that Lakan specifically associates with Fengxian, and by extension, Maomao herself.
In the first opening—aptly titled, “Be A Flower”—the wood sorrel is the only flower that gets special attention. The other flowers are shown together with other varieties, but only the wood sorrel is shown by itself, and more than once.
We see it again in the second opening, with an infant being held by a parent, while flitting between images of Lakan and Fengxian’s backstory.
It’s such a simple flower, too. Small, unassuming, but full of diverse uses and qualities, be they medicinal or ordinary. A very fitting flower for Maomao, and what she brings to the story.
Apothecary Diaries is pog as fuck bc serious political issues and dynamics from a woman's POV are rarely depicted in ANY form of media
It's always a man's world where women's issues surround him. Even if we get a female perspective once in awhile- it all comes back to how it facilitates his game in the end. She's a footnote in the overarching scheme of things. Misogyny exists. Back to the real plot.
Apothecary Diaries is strictly from a female perspective and how each class of woman has to act, what limits they have, what rights they have and don't have between each class, etc. These women have to behave a certain way under a patriarchy, which you would think makes it a man's story, but it never is. The women are THE focus of this show, their struggles are THE plot. The focus is about how the patriarch effects them.
Take the concubines for example. The show dives into how bearing a child affects their rank, how traumatizing it is to lose that child, the consequences of that, etc. We have barely seen the emperor who sired all these kids because this is not about him.
Jinshi's personal plot is secondary to Mao Mao's journey- he is mostly there to provide new cases for Mao Mao to solve and to learn more about the shortcomings of his class when taking care of citizens like Mao Mao.
Jinshi is not a bad person, but by virtue of his position in the higher classes, he cannot understand how harsh life as a poor WOMAN is specifically- he can only catch glimpses of it from what Mao Mao tells him and feel outrage but powerless in his wealth and luxury
Mao Mao is a fortunate commoner woman for what privileges someone in her class should and shouldn't have. She happened to be adopted by a knowledgeable man. She is allowed to read, write, learn, and has enough skill to be a poison tester and have a job EXTREMELY out of her class limit as an apothecary, also a job not traditionally meant for women
Mao Mao is not a "noT lIkE oThER gIrLs" protagonist, she is FOR THE GIRLIES. She only wants to help the women around her, and women are whom she has the closest relationships to. She sees a woman being harassed and can't let it stand. She sees a frail, traumatized woman dying from the recklessness of those who should be caring for her and spends day and night nursing her back to health, while also punishing the people who were so careless with her needs.
My girl has STUDIED UP on THE BODY to TEACH these upper class ladies on how to really HEAT things up in the BEDROOM
Sex depicted in Apothecary Diaries is both something women are not shamed to be enjoying, while at the same time being acknowledged as an unfortunately huge economic necessity to market themselves.
Like shit is just so real in this series???
Listen, I can go on and on about how GOATED the series and especially Mao Mao is but you get the picture
It’s incredibly important to me that the anime decided to include this scene that wasn’t in the manga. In the manga, Maomao does pass out in Jinshi’s lap after saving him from what was obviously an assassination attempt.
HOWEVER, the manga cuts off at this point, keeping strictly in Maomao’s perspective, and cuts straight to when she regains consciousness in bed after being treated for her injuries. The manga doesn’t show how she got back. They SAY how, and she briefly mentions, “wow that must have been embarrassing; he carried me back,” but we don’t SEE it. We don’t get to feel the true impact of what that means. But the anime DID show us, and holy shit.
They SHOW us how taboo this is. They show Jinshi carrying her out of the temple, after a public attempt on his life.
They show us the shock and horror on Lakan’s face as Jinshi silently walks past him. Horror at the state his daughter is in, horror at another man—a man with a status he could never dare to question—staking such a public claim over his child, horror at the fact that he could never have this level of closeness with her (as Maomao would never allow it).
Everyone hides their gazes, as is their custom when someone of his rank passes by, but the air is different this time. Jinshi is furious, he’s terrified, and he could not give a single shit about how inappropriate it looks to these palace officials.
The shot that slowly follows her trail of blood—even though it’s a small detail—that in particular leaves such a intense impression of how poignant this is for him.
Maomao talked about this scene in the manga like it was nothing to her. She did what she set out to do: she saved the person who was targeted by the attack. She didn’t even know the target would be someone she knew. But she has no idea that this happened afterwards as a result of her bravery. To her, it likely wasn’t even an act of bravery at all. She acted on impulse; she did what she knew was the right thing to do.
The anime didn’t need to include this, because the manga didn’t show it. But damn, I’m so glad they did.
Sky Full of Stars
I know A Sky Full of Stars in 2014, of course, when the song released.
But, I really love it since 2018 when I went to Samarinda, one of a town in East Borneo Indonesia. I lived there for less than a month after finishing my college, accompany my parents who stay there because of work.
Almost every night we went to dinner outside and when we were on our way by the car, my father always turn on the radio to be listened to. I forget the radio channel but my favorite announcer always put A Sky Full of Stars as his backsound when he was talking. And I reallyyy like it.
At that time, I directly thought 'How if I work as an Announcer?'
That's happen, a year after. In 2019, September, I worked as announcer. I resigned on January 2022 because I feel like I wanted to do something new in that industry too. I jobless for 3 months, tried to enroll on another company. Idk, am I failed? Because I don't get the information till now (it's already 3rd week), however I can passed till 2nd interview. They also already got my portofolio (which is for me, more than enough from what they need).
I really hoped they accepted me because I'm going to do the extra miles for that company. Unfortunately, I might not passed.
So... I finally met my PD from the last company. It was 3 (or 4 times?) She asked me to join the company again. Become an announcer again. And... because I don't have anything to do beside making TikTok videos (well, I gain some followers and that's motivated me to post more), I said, "Oke, Let's see."
But she took it as serious matter. She told me to starting announce again on 9 May 2022.
Well... Yeah...
I love to be announcer and I hope I can do more after this. Maybe I back to the old company but this time I'm going to do the extra miles for my projects too. I will do announcing because I love it, I'll do it seriously like usual, but this time I will do something for my own dreams too.
I hate myself actually, because of this. I kinda hate the old company because what they already gave to me (no good feedback). That's why, I will just become a night announcer, beside that I might gonna make my own media for music on Instagram and TikTok, also Youtube. I will make some podcast too.
That's my dreams for now. But I don't know later. Let's see what I've got on the preparation.
hiiii
One of my happiness now.
Dear Myself,
I know I will read this in the future, like the old post.
So, here's the song I listened to
I found the song and will watched the movie soon. Listen to this make me crying, alone, in the lonely home that I don't know that I can call it as home or not.
Sometimes, I feel like I already take the wrong path, resigned from my last job and become jobless for... more than a month?
I don't have any friend in the place where I was born. I have never stayed in this home more than 6 months, Can I say that I'm a nomadic? Since I was in elementery school I always move to the another city till I get into collage and live my life for 6 years in the city which really far from my home.
Now I'm back to home. I actually just wanted to be here for less than a month, meeting all the family (haven't met them for 4 years), meeting my old friends (5 hours from my home) and having fun but I ended up living here for more than a month and feel so lonely, jobeless, confused...
I found that I'm so scared wasting so much time that I should looking for a new job. I want to look for a job but one part of myself told me to not doing that now--it always said, wait till I back to the city where I already lived for a long time. It said, I should enjoy my time with my family now because i'ts gonna be really difficult to meet them in the future. I should've enjoyed it but I can't...
It is really stressed to not doing anything. I love working but I love my family too.
idk. idk. idk. idk. really.
Broken Heart of Gold
Hari ini sangat buruk. Aku menangis dari pagi hingga kini, siang jam 1 lewat 41 menit. Masih di kantor. Sangat tidak profesional. Tapi aku tidak bisa membendung perasaan yang lelah ini. Air mataku luruh saat mendengar lagu Seventeen yang dinyanyikan DK, Woozi, dan Seungkwan berjudul Is It Still Beautiful yang menjadi soundtrack dari Drama Hospital Playlist Season 2. Padahal lagunya tentang orang yang galau nggak bisa move on, tapi aku malah nangis karena kelelahan bekerja. Aku menangis karena aku ingin menyerah. Aku tidak sanggup bekerja setiap hari, dibayar di bawah UMR meski aku dihitung masih dalam tahap belajar untuk menjadi Asisten Produser di radio. I mean, that’s too much. I don’t even have any single day to be alone or to taking full of resting for a day. Yang tampah bikin capeknya adalah anak-anak di radio nggak paham kalau aku lelah.
Padahal aku sudah mencoba menjadi orang yang baik dan tidak penuh dengan tekanan. Mereka malah mempergunakan kebaikan itu untuk bertindak semau mereka. Dan aku tidak suka menegur orang. Aku tidak ingin memarahi orang karena itu tidak nyaman, dan di sinilah aku termakan rasa bersalah, marah, dan lelah sendiri.
Tapi aku tetap tidak bisa memarahi orang.
Jadi, masih ku pendam saja.
Sebentar malam atau besok aku mau bicara berdua sama Bapak. Beliau orang yang bijaksana karena aku frustasi, satu sisi ingin melepas kesempatan emas ini karena merasa tidak mendapat keadilan dalam bekerja. Di satu sisi aku ingin bertahan karena impianku.
Lalu, begitu lagu Is It Beautiful habis, Youtube-ku langsung memutar lagi Mido and Falasol berjudul Superstar. Lagi, lagi soundtrack dari Hospital Playlist Season 2. Saat mereka bernyanyi, ada beberapa lirik yang bisa ku artikan.
“Gwencanha~ Gwencanha~”
It’s alright, it’s alright.
Aku tambah nangis, karena merasa ditenangkan. Begitu membaca artinya aku makin nangis. Bahkan aku sampai mengulangnya berkali-kali.
Lagu itu semacam lagu penenang untukku yang sedang frustasi tentang masa depan. Liriknya menyuruhku untuk tenang, karena masa depanku cerah.
Aku lalu teringat lagu Bravo, My Life yang dinyanyikan Eric Nam, lagu soundtrack Prison Playbook. Lagu dengan tipe yang sama. Menyuruhku untuk tenang karena hidup memang buruk tapi tidak begitu buruk dan semuanya akan baik-baik saja.
Semua lagu yang ku dengar hari ini berhubungan dengan drama yang dibuat oleh PD Shin Won Ho. Salah satu PD Favoritku. Semua dramanya bertema wise-life. Tipeku karena aku punya cita-cita untuk menjadi seseorang yang bijaksana (Idk, cita-cita ini muncul sejak aku kecil). Drama-drama yang punya cerita sederhana, kisah nyata di dunia yang memang benar terjadi.
Salah satu alasan aku menangis juga karena dirinya. Aku merasa tidak ingin menyerah karena ingin sekali belajar menjadi PD sampai bisa bekerjasama dengan PD Shin Won Ho. Aku ingin menulis cerita yang bisa dijadikan drama olehnya.
Tapi sekarang aku lelah sekali. Aku tidak bisa membendung perasaan ini dan berharap apa pun yang akan ku putuskan kelak adalah putusan terbaik.
the worst Monday on March '15 (opening part)
Saya tidak peduli kenapa, tapi saya tidak pernah suka dgn yg namanya hari Senin. Dan beberapa rentetan kejadian di hari ini yg menguatkan alasanku untuk semakin tidak suka dgn yg namanya hari Senin.
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Forefathers Lyrics
look at what the forefathers left for us can you feel the spirit moving accordingly one thing I realize about this day oh, have we learn a thing more true from what our forefathers left
have we learn, have we learn have we learn, have we learn from our forefathers have we change, have we change have we learn, have we learn from the past
yesterday was that you learn tomorrow is that for us to dream and today is that for us to live our life to change for the better, to change for the better to change for the better, to change for the better to change for the better
have we learn, have we learn have we learn, have we learn from our forefathers have we change, have we change have we learn, have we learn have we learn, have we learn from our forefathers a thing more true
Jadi intinya kejar mimpi lo. Kenapa dibilang kejar? Karena lo berlari untuk mendapatkan mimpi itu, bukan jalan.
Jebraw (via fadilahdp)
Good one xD
Just trying to draw him u,u