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wanted to tell you guys i love you all <3 so happy i got to start rping after a hiatus with this group and i am so sad to see if gone. if anyone wants to keep in contact, hmu at my main @vngel. i promise you i won’t bite ;)

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#( mirror )

jaidxn:

god he wanted to believe the girl so badly. he wanted to think he was the strongest one of all, knowing he could push past any obstacles, any temptations that came knocking at his door. maybe since he was drunk, he could do that. now having a taste of misuk sober, he was terrified she would keep coming after him, and he would keep falling for games. but the way jihee was staring him down, how clearly he could see the passion in her expressions, it almost gave him the confidence he needed to push past it all. maybe if he simply kept this secret to himself, no one would have to get hurt. ignorance is bliss, right? he listened to each of her words, felt every touch of her skin, her lips melting onto his in the most gentle ways possible. he smiled, he chuckled, he pulled the other as close as he could and rested his forehead back on hers. “i want you too, jihee. i never stopped, not for a second. i just wanted to come back a better man for you, and i was…afraid. i was afraid i could never be a better man for you.” his fingers tangled with hers, bringing them up to his lips for him to gently kiss. “i love you, jihee. i wanna make things work again between us. i’m sorry, for any pain i’ve caused you.” his last sentence hit deep, knowing he was apologizing for something she would never know about. “will you take me back?”

if she couldn’t get jaiden to believe her words now, jihee would spend months - no, years - to convince him. without having him in her life for so long, she wasn’t going to waste any time. every ounce of love that she could muster would be focused onto him whenever they are together. jaiden was the sun and jihee basked in his warmth. life seemed boring and almost empty without his laughter to fill her heart. now that she’s got a glimpse of what it’s like having him back, there was no way in hell she was letting go. she just couldn’t stop kissing him, as if her words couldn’t deliver her message. when she felt his warm grasp pull her closer, jihee was practically sitting in his lap with her legs tangled with his own and their bodies so close. “i never wanted to let you go, but i understood why you needed time. though... you were always an amazing man in my eyes.” she gave him such a warm smile filled with love that couldn’t be expressed. watching him as he kissed her palms, jihee’s eyes suddenly widened in shock just from three words. in pure happiness, tears built up in her eyes and she suddenly wrapped her arms around jaiden’s neck - causing him to fall down onto her couch. “of course i’ll take you back you big dummy! i love you, so much. i really love you.” with her head stuffed into the crane of his neck, she tears followed down her cheeks. the overwhelming love and happiness rushing through was just bursting out in a giant mess of tears. after the tears calmed a bit, jihee raised her head to gaze down at jaiden. “you have to be sure. cause this time i’m not letting you go.”

#( interactions )#( jaiden )#( ooc: omg so much love right now I'M DYING )

lccgun:

gun and jihee had not spent too much time together out of the bedroom or even the bed, usually spending time together for the sex not because they wanted to learn about each other though he found himself interested in wanting to find out more about jihee as a person. he had explored her body multiple times and each time he loved it more, but he knew there was more to learn about the woman. he let out a silent sigh of relief at her thank you, confirming that she heard him clearly so he didn’t have to repeat himself. he noticed the blush creeping up her cheeks and he found her even more beautiful then. ‘i’ve had a lot of practice, my grandma thought it’d be useful for me to know how to cook well so she made me cook often.’ the details about his grandma left his lips without him thinking but he was too focused to realise he was sharing more about himself. 'i guess it’s good that you’re not helping me then huh? you’d end up with no finger if you were, that wouldn’t be any good.’ gun happened to be fine with her observing him, even though he would usually tense and lose concentration, causing him to mess up but with her he was different. ‘uh no, no i don’t think uh, don’t think you’ve ever told me that.’ his eyes flickered over to look at her smile and it caused a crimson blush to form on his cheeks. he had finished cutting the radish and put it in the pot, filling it with water so he could boil the vegetable. he began cutting the beef afterwards, then moving to prepare the rice after he had finished.

with a softened expression, jihee’s light brown eyes glistened as gun spoke more about his personal life. he was like a puzzle yet to be figured out, she was just lucky enough to be finding all the pieces and slowly figuring out who gun was as a person. sex was amazing, but simply talking to gun excited her the same way he would kiss her. “well your grandma seems to have taught you well. i can’t remember my grandma much since she died when i was pretty young.” she wasn’t sadden by that fact, her grandparents simply weren’t alive when jihee was old enough to remember. “my dad is the only one in my family that can cook. mom actually cut her finger once. so i guess i take after her.” she laughed at the memory. it was odd to speak of her family so much with gun, but it seemed fitting. especially how comfortable she felt at the moment. seeing that her comment got gun all flustered, jihee bit her lip to hold in her laughter. “i do like men that cook. it’s kinda sexy.” her hunger must of got her delirious cause she was slightly turned on just by gun cooking for her. though the grumbling in her stomach hinted now was not a good time to be thinking such thoughts. “i can’t wait to eat your food. it smells amazing.” when it seemed he was just waiting for the soup, she came towards him and wrapped her arms around him from behind. “thank you for cooking.”

#( interactions )#( gun )

idkjunko-blog

so work has drained me for most of the weekend, but i’ll try to get to all replies tonight! finals is next week and i have one the monday after as well so I’ll be a bit stressed and might not be on frequently during that period. replies and plotting might be slow, so super sorry :( but you can always im me!

#( ooc )#( reblogging cause i didn't finish replies cause i am so exhausted )#( i don't even have that much i'm just so tired )

imessage: sunny 😎

sunny: RUDE. YOU KNOW YOU'RE THE BESTEREST!!

sunny: aww that's sounds lovely!! we should go there then. when are you free?

sunny: you'd look so stunning in a backless gown!! 😍

sunny: then again you look stunning in everything 😊❤️

jihee: EXCUSE YOU. YOU'RE THE ONE WITH THE TOP FASHION BLOG

jihee: i'm free in like 2 hours if you want to meet up.

jihee: awww thank you! you would look beautiful in a short dress! show off those legs of yours 😉😉

jihee: oh shut up. you make me look like a potato ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

#( text )#( sunny )#( she is just showering sunny with compliments till she gives up )

jaidxn:

all jaiden could do was close his eyes, trying to concentrate on the warmth from her hands. he placed on hand on her knee, gripping it just slightly as if he’d float away if he let go. he wanted to believe her words more than anything. he wanted to believe he wasn’t a mistake, that life was simply unfair in separating two twins from each other. but instead, jaiden just shook his head slightly, the harsh voices from his father playing over and over again like a broken record. “i’m not strong…” he mumbled, his heart pounding as misuk slithered into his mind like the snake he knew she could be. it was fair for jaiden to bring jihee down like this. sure, they’ve had their fair share of ups and downs when dating, as every couple does, but now he just felt like a burden to everyone. a small smirk did grace his lips as she placed her sweet kisses all along his face, his head leaning into her as they rested their foreheads with the other. “thank you,” he whispered, his breathing slowly down a bit, though it was hard when his mind kept tracing back to all his past mistakes. he knew this would haunt him the longer he kept it bottled up. why couldn’t he just confess the truth? jihee didn’t deserve to be lead on like this. taking ahold of her small hands in his, his thumb caressing the back of her hand, jaiden let out a deep sigh. “i don’t deserve you though. i’m sorry, i didn’t mean to come over here and just…make a fool of myself. i just didn’t know who to turn to. you’ve always been there at my worsts but…i think i’ve gone too far this time, jihee…”

“you are strong.” jihee gazed straight on into jaiden’s eyes, indicating how serious her comment meant. his dazzling eyes reflected so many emotions that she couldn’t get a good read on him. her stare was so intense, breaking away seemed impossible. if it was possible, she would stare at jaiden’s eyes for days. there was this fierce connection with jaiden that jihee couldn’t tear apart. when their were dating it was light-hearted and fun, but now. everything felt like it was on fire. her feelings, only subsided after their break-up, flared throughout her body. every touch, every word, everything - it all seemed so intense then before. one move could change everything. of course, she had her questions about the true nature of their break up - but none of that matter. all she wanted was him back into her life.“jai...” jihee leaned closer, “i’ll do this over and over again if you need me.” noses gently touching and lips barely apart, her hot breath met onto his skin. “don’t say that. i’m not somebody you have to prove yourself too.” her hands tightened around jaiden’s hold, not wanting to let him go. “i don’t care. i want you.” she couldn’t contain it anymore but she didn’t explode like their night at the cafe. instead, she placed a gentle kiss onto jaiden’s lips over and over.

#( interactions )#( jaiden )#( DON'T KILL ME )

lccgun:

he averted his head to look over at her from where he stood and smiled brightly as he watched her expressions change at the grumble of her stomach. he was about to comment saying how cute she was but bit his tongue and instead chose to not say anything, the grin however not disappearing from his features. ‘i’ll try be quick since you’re hungry, the soup might take a bit longer though.’ he took out all the ingredients he needed for the meal, placing them on the counter top next to the stove, on the opposite side that jihee was sat on. ‘you look fine as you are, you’re beautiful,’ he purposely mumbled the last part, though hoping she would catch it anyway without him having to repeat himself. he quickly pressed his lips to the corner of her’s before going to wash his hands and grabbing a pot for the soup, then getting a board out as well as a knife, gun began skillfully cutting the radish for the soup. he followed the recipe as he remembered it, his jaw set as he focused on the job in front of him. he didn’t want to keep jihee waiting too long, since her stomach had already demonstrated it’s hunger.

she observed him with attentive eyes as he began to start cooking. the morning, technically afternoon, was a new experience for the two of them. jihee never knew that gun could cook, much less had actual proper ingredients to make a meal. their time together was always in the confides of gun’s bed so seeing gun cooking was a refreshing sight. not going to lie, jihee was slightly turned on. a wide smile once again took over her face, hearing his sentence perfectly. she was gleaming and at this point her jaw was hurting from the constant smiling. “thank you.” she whispered softly before kissing him back quickly. a small blush invaded the high points of her cheeks but she didn’t mind. “you’re really good at this.” she complimented him as gun remained focused on cutting the food. “if i cut that radish like the way you’re doing now, i would cut my finger off. literally.” standing up from the counter, she stood right next to gun but just enough to give him space as he worked. “did i ever tell you that i like a man that can cook?” jihee titled her head upwards with an alluring smile towards gun. she liked teasing him, whenever she had the chance. though gun was quite passionate in bed, he was a bit more shy when they weren’t.

#( interactions )#( gun )#( she can't stop flirting for like 3 seconds )

fckxbaekhyun:

a look of confusion crossed his face for a few seconds before he forced it away as he followed her. “still? i thought you’d already found a winter coat!” actually, baekhyun had no idea what she’d managed to buy in the stores, he was just there to hold her bags. “dinner sounds great, i actually want some bulgogi. i need meat to be able to become stronger,” he grinned slightly. who needed to go to the gym when you were juggling several heavy bags? “what’s on your mind?” the lifeguard asked, letting his long legs fall into step beside her as he looked over at jihee in worry. baek cared about the model, he didn’t like the idea that she was upset or troubled. and while he knew he couldn’t exactly do much, he knew that listening would still help.

out of slight embarrassment, jihee bit her lip. she felt dragging baekhyun around without necessarily getting the one item she was meant to retrieve in the first place. “i’m sorry! you know how i get,” gesturing the the stores around her, “they’re my weakness.” it was becoming a bad habit of her’s, buying new clothing from all sorts of brands. “bulgogi it is. i’ll get you the best meat, i promise.” with a mission to find a new winter coat, they both walked into another store. “just,” she didn’t really want to talk about her issues, but baek was willing to listen, “relationship stuff. i’m trying to figure out my feelings for a certain ex of mine. plus i’m dealing with susu being distant...” the memory of misuk’s cold face looking back at her only was repressed to avoid any more pain. “you know, i like talking with you.” she admitted though not looking at baek to avoid any awkwardness. “you always listen to my shit, i appreciate it.”

#( interactions )#( baekhyun )

mixji:

minji’s gaze shot straight to the girl’s as she spoke her name, almost flinching at the way it was spoken. it wasn’t jihee’s fault the girl feared such a sound now, her mind tracing back to the man who would speak much more harshly to her. but a smile made it’s way back to her features, her body moving closer to jihee to seek comfort. “thank you. i’m not sure how i got so lucky to find a friend like you, but i’m going to make it up to you still. i’ll even cook you some dinner! your favorite meal, my treat. and some delicious dessert too.” letting her fingers play with the ends of her dark locks, minji listened to her friends words, nodding along to indicate she was paying attention. “oh yes, jaiden, i remember him. he’s doing better, i hope? are you two still distant or are things getting better?” she remembered how close jihee was to the boy, almost jealous in a silly sense, but as long as jihee was happy, then minji was happy for her. squeezing her friends hand, she giggled at the statement jihee made. “and the relief is very much real, thank you. i hope everyone is as understanding as you. i’m sure i’ll be able to transition well. i got a small job to kind of help me mingle with society once more. not a glamours one, but it works. but hey, how about that dinner, hm?”

jihee’s eyes softened watching minji, “sorry. i didn’t mean to sound so stern.” her hand never let go of minji and she didn’t want to release her grip. never did she want to hurt minji in anyway, after all the other girl was too important to jihee. that bastard that took minji away and was the sole reason for her lock-up, pissed the model off to know end. she was almost considering buying steel boots so she could kick that guy’s ass. “dinner sounds great! plus, i love your cooking.” though as a model she stayed to a strict diet, jihee loved it when minji cooked her a turkey panini. “jaiden is still healing after you know...” she bit her lip, not knowing how to answer the question. “i like to think things are getting better, but that’s still in up in the air.” her relationships were significantly getting more complex and everything was getting a bit too much for jihee. though with minji, it was always so easy. “if anyone gives you a bad time you let me know. that’s awesome you got a job!” in excitement she lifted the other’s hand and shook it. “dinner sounds awesome. i can try to help you cook, but you know i suck at anything else besides salad.”

#( interactions )#( minji )

st4ke0ut

#( we're not something but we're not nothing | gun )

jaidxn:

jaiden was pacing pretty quickly to the girl’s house, not even thinking about driving in that he would most likely crash from losing focus. he even had to stop himself from running into a damn lamp post. the day was shitty from the start, seeing as his dad was in another one of his moods. he was admiring a picture of his brother, and his brother only. tears stained the mans face, and he could barely look jaiden in the eyes as he asked him why he lived and his brother didn’t. alcohol stained his breathe, and all jaiden could do was reply with a ‘i dunno’, always asking himself the same question. as he tried to sleep, the nightmares of that event came crashing into him, pun not intended and his whole body was shaking when he gasp for air, waking up in a pool of sweat. jihee was the first person he thought to text, thankful that she agreed to letting him come over. as she answered the door, he quickly made his way inside, his body close to her’s as his body was still shaking. “i just…i keep having that same damn nightmare. it doesn’t help when my dad just fucking triggers me, y’know? always asking why i lived and not my brother. i just…i fucking hate feeling like this jihee, and i shouldn’t be feeling like this after all this time has passed…”

if jihee could, she would run up to jaiden’s father and knock some sense into that man. literally. she would go right up to the man and punch him right down south, knowing it will hurt. jaiden didn’t deserve the cruel treatment and it pained her so much to see him in this state. her body boiled in anger but she contained it. her focus was on jaiden. “jai,” she scooted closer so that their knees were touching and facing him straight on, “no matter what your father says, you living is not a mistake.” jihee placed both her hands onto jaiden’s cheeks, cradling his hand within her gentle hold. “you deserve to be in this world and be loved, no one can take that from you.” her thumb rubbed against his cheek, hoping to soothe his shaking body. “i’m so sorry that you feel this way. things like this...” she couldn’t relate to jaiden’s struggle as she never lost a loved one, but her heart ached seeing him like this. “it takes time. you are strong,” she pressed her lips onto the cheek where her thumb previously was, “you deserve to be here,” another kiss, this time on his forehead. jihee continued to place tender kisses all over jaiden’s face as her hands held onto his forearm. “and if you need it, you have me.” resting her forehead against his own, she waited till his shaking subsided and breathing evened out.

#( interactions )#( jaiden )#( she calls him jai to calm him down plus she's trying so hard ;;; )

closed starter | @jaidxn

jihee scurried around her apartment, each small step indicated how nervous she was. for the past twenty minutes she’s been cleaning ever since she got jaiden’s text. his text was a bit vague, but she gathered that something bad occurred. so, he was currently on his way. it’s been years since jaiden was over and jihee was anxious for some odd reason. a mixture of worry and nervousness stormed through her mind. she still wore her maroon backless sweater from going out earlier that day and hair tied high up. it’s been a long day. the doorbell ring knocked jihee out of her cleaning spring and so she quickly walked to the door. opening the door wide opened, there stood jaiden. “hey,” her voice was tender as she closely approached him, “come on in.” taking hold of his hand, she gently pulled him forward to enter and set both of them onto the couch. she never let go of his hand. “what’s going on?”

#( interactions )#( jaiden )

vngel-deactivated20180223

xjihee-blog

vngel:

we ended things, but who were we kidding. just one look and we’re sucked back in. though the feelings are the same, past mistakes haunt us. despite the pain, i can’t let go of this.

#( my dreams are nothing compared to our memories | jaiden )#( moldboard )#( i tried to combine how they normally are and how angsty they get )#( i have too many feels for these two )