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height 5'5" hw: 151 sw: 142 cw: ??? lw: 133 🔒gw1: 135🔒gw2: 115🔒gw3: 100 🔒ugw:98

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Just stop lying to my face and admit that your sick of me

Its okay though

Im sick of me too.

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My ED is ruining holidays

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I wish i could suck in my thighs

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My eating disorder is ruining everything

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Why i can't do a planned diet

When i see the calorie limit i cant go over, and see how much i have left, for some reason is pressures me so much to binge every time. I just want to eat low calorie and calculate it through out the day or eat one small meal a day.

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Why am i so fucking disgusting?

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I just love when my friends can loose weight without trying but i can't with an eating disorder lmao

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You know you in a real bad mood when you look up bonespo instead of thinspo

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Why the fuck do i get like so inspired for like a minute to do better but then the next day im just like lMaO wHaT diD pAst mE sAy?

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When i think of recovery its cool and all untill i remember the whole gaining weight part

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Its funny how nobody questions why i know information as if im a damn dietition lmfaooo

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Ana diet plan: eAt a gOOd bReAKfaST sO yOu wiLL bE fuLL aNd nOt biNge lATeR

Me: bitch do you really think being full ever stopped me from binging?

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Yall ever just wanna break your jaw so you can go on a liquid diet

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Im literally about to cry because ive been binging for like a month and it was right after i hit my first goal weight after 3 years on and off and i really just want to starve becuase i was doing so well but at school during lunch im surrounded by friends who might get suspisious and at home theres a bunch of binge food or people offer me stuff ugh i cant get away from food, i only binge binge binge or starve, i dont know why i cant just restrict and starve. I just want the calories to stop.

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Sorry this is kinda long

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A message if you are new to this

Please get off tumblr. Please. I know its enticing and i sound hypicritical or maybe youll just skip this but im telling you, you don't want this. I was just like you at one point and i still remember how it feels to be on your side of the screen. You dont want breaking down over eating normally, or the countless side effects that come with this or the possible death. I know you probably think it wont get that bad but if you keep going like this i promise you, it will. Just think about it, thanks for reading.

- i know its not much but please repost to possibly save a life