Lilith conjunct Ascendant/Lilith in the 1st house
Hi everyone! My name is Amber, I’m 22 & this is my first astrology post. I’ve been studying astrology for 7 years now and I’m excited to share my knowledge and experience with astrology with you. This is a long one, so get ready.
I have this placement myself in the sign of Pisces conjunct my Pisces Asc in the 1st house with my modern chart ruler Neptune heavily aspected. (I study sidereal astrology with whole sign houses) so writing it was pretty interesting. If you would like to know about my personal experience with this placement, let me know and I’ll create a separate post about it.
Disclaimer: Any other aspects to your Lilith as well as your ascendant & your chart ruler(s) will affect how this aspect will show up. It’s also important to know that the tighter the orb/degree, the more prominent it will be. If you get triggered easily, please take care of yourself and read another time. Trigger warning is put before sensitive subjects.
Alright, enough rambling. Let’s get into it!
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❥ Who is Lilith?
❧ She was Adam’s first wife, she was casted out of the Garden of Eden by God for defying Adam.
❧ She was shamed, ridiculed & rejected for her strong will, rebellion/defiance & liberal attitude towards sex, independence & wanted more than anything to be treated as an equal to Adam.
❧ After being casted out of Heaven, she went on to have an affair with Satan and was crowned the Queen of Hell.
❥ What does Black Moon Lilith represent?
❧ BML is not a celestial body or an object, it is a mathematical point but its energy is still very much prominent.
❧ It represents either/or the fascination/obsession, denial/rejection of whatever topics that are associated with the sign and house it is in.
❥ What is the ascendant?
❧ The ascendant sign, also known as the rising sign is the critical, angular point of the 1st house.
❧ This represents your physical body, appearance, 1st impression, innate nature & mannerisms.
❧ In the Placidus house system, it is the beginning of the 1st house. In the Whole Sign house system it can vary in degree and very rarely land in the 12th or 2nd house.
❧ The ascendant sets up the rest of your chart. If you have BML in the 1st house without the conjunction to the Asc, this energy will still manifest. It just won’t be as prominent.
❥ What is a conjunction?
❧ A conjunction is an aspect. Aspects are used to show the relationship and dynamic between planets/objects in a chart.
❧ Conjunctions are when two or more planets/celestial bodies/angles are right next to each other in the birth chart, blending and empowering the energies associated with them together.
❧ Angles are the Ascendant (ASC), Descendant (DSC), Imum Coeli (IC) & Midheaven (MC).
❥ I like to think BML as a mix between the outer planets: Neptune, Uranus & Pluto. Especially, Pluto.
❥ When someone has BML conjunct the Asc/in the 1st house this gives the native a mysterious, captivating, alluring, darker aura & presence.
❥ If the BML is conjunct the Asc in the 12th house (usually the case in the Placidus house system) the energy will be there as well but it will be deeper in the subconscious and may be harder to harness this energy in a productive way.
❥ The 12th house is the house of confinement, suppression, hidden enemies, the subconscious & self undoing (addictions for example).
❥ However, the 12th house also rules dreams, spirituality & the unseen realms as it is is ruled by Neptune and naturally is governed by Pisces. Therefore this may manifest similarly to Pisces Asc in certain ways.
❦ Physical Appearance ❦
❥ BML hardens energy & adds a darker, more intense energy. Especially when it comes to the softer ascendant signs such as Taurus, Libra, Cancer, Virgo & Pisces as a few examples.
❥ Some astrologers say that BML does not affect physical appearance but in my experience, I have noticed a few common denominators which are listed below:
❥ Those with this placement usually have a darker appearance, even those with a lighter complexion/light colored eyes. The eyes may be darker in appearance due to the energy that BML exudes.
❥ May give a little bit of Neptunian energy if it’s conjunct in the 12th house (dreamy, ethereal. think siren energy).
❥ They may have darker colored hair & sometimes thicker hair (not always ofc, genetics matter).
❥ Regardless, they may have a darker aesthetic, wear black or darker colored clothes.
❥ If not the case, they are just attracted to styles & aesthetics that bring a sense of empowerment, liberation & control. Whether that’s dressing unconventionally, modestly or revealing. It can go either way.
❥ They may decide to dye their hair a darker color if their natural hair color is lighter. Also, those with the placement may even decide to dye their an unnatural color.
⚠️‼️TW: Mentions of sexual trauma/SA, depression, self-harm, ED’s. Please, take of yourself.‼️⚠️
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❦ Personality & Struggles ❦
❥ If you have this placement you may have struggled with bullying, rejection, being overly sexualized or ridiculed and projected onto by others. People may view you as bitchy, arrogant & ruthless.
❥ You also naturally exude sex appeal regardless if you are trying to present yourself as such. This is especially tough if you have trauma surrounding sex & sexuality.
❥ This placement at its worst manifestation is in line with SA, coercion and manipulation by others or even towards others. Although, the native is usually on the receiving end of this.
❥ May also struggle with su!c!dal thoughts/ideation, addictions among other forms of self destruction.
❥ They also struggle with asserting themselves and setting boundaries due to fear of rejection, ridicule & hostility. People project a lot of their fears and anger onto to them.
❥ They also have a tendency to attract possessive, obsessive and controlling friends & partners that want to put them in a box.
❥ The more these people try to tame & control them, the more the people with this placement will want/feel the need to rebel.
❥ May have problems with women/feminine figures in their life.
❧ If they are a woman/feminine, other women/feminines may be envious/jealous of them and their captivating energy.
❧ Regardless of their sexual orientation they will most likely struggle with men/masculine figures over-sexualizing them, degrading them, disrespecting them, overstepping their boundaries & projecting their fantasies onto them.
❥ Especially if they have a Venus or Neptune ruled ascendant or if Venus and/or Neptune is prominent in their chart.
❥ Examples:
❧ Taurus/Libra Asc (Venus). Pisces Asc (modern ruler is Neptune, traditional ruler is Jupiter).
❧ Heavily aspected, on an angle (Asc, Dsc, IC, MC) or in an angular house (1st, 4th, 7th or 10th house). Especially Neptune as Neptune is the higher octave of Venus and it rules dreams & fantasies.
❧ Also, Mars & Pluto prominence: Scorpio Asc, Mars (traditional ruler) & Pluto heavily aspected, on an angle/in an angular house for control, manipulation, hostility and/or violence.
❥ These energies also apply to men/masculines as well but it may manifest a bit differently as stated below:
❧ If they are a straight man/masculine they may struggle with expectations and demands towards women. Especially in a partner.
❧ They may even have the tendency to be misogynistic. Alternatively, they may seek out feminine partners that defy traditional roles in relationships as they respect and admire that.
❥ Daddy issues are usually a thing with this placement, both in feminines and masculines. They struggle with expressing their feminine energy.
❥ As the ascendant/1st house deals with the physical body, they may have struggles with self image issues such as an eating disorder/ or general insecurities surrounding their appearance and body. Sometimes, this can manifest as physical health issues/disorders as well.
❥ Alternatively, the most positive manifestation of this placement is being obsessed with themselves and their appearance, in a positive way. Although, that too can turn toxic.
❥ Being a leader and paving the way for liberation & justice especially when it comes to femininity and sexuality.
❥ Not only that, they pave the way for others to express their authenticity and challenging social norms and what is deemed acceptable by society.
❥ In general, the native may become obsessed with cultivating a persona that they deem powerful & influential even though it may not fully align with who they actually are and what they want.
❥ They may even become obsessed with negative attention just as much as positive attention.
❥ “Haters make me famous.” “All press is good press.” & “The end justifies the means.” are mottos they may live by or at least inspires them.
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❦ If you have this placement, a great way to harness this energy is following your authenticity. Standing up for yourself and what you believe in.
❦ Forms of self expression such as fashion, music, drawing or other forms of artistic expression will help to release any negative emotions and struggles you may be dealing with.
❦ Acceptance of one’s authenticity & facing your fears and inner demons is essential. The more you try to suppress who you really are, the more Lilith will challenge you.
❦ Don’t be afraid to seek therapy or talk to a loved one if that’s an option for you.
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