- o u b l i e t t e -

drenched, down to the rusted stains of his nails; dried maroon paint, he claims it to be; hurried whispers - a final breath apart - the moon knows what murder is. ◯ ◯ ◯

[xnoctuary]

lithified​:

[`treads the sidewalk at an easy, ambling pace, observing the bustling crowds and traffic around them with a detached sense of calm; it hardly would occur to him the other would find his demeanor unfamiliar, even suspect – blood too saturated with chemical numbness to be bothered by much of anything. At least, nothing that’s transpired yet.] Mm, ‘course. [` Think I got a head start though. He stops rather abruptly, blinking up at a sign overhead as if surprised they’ve arrived already.] Here we go. [`swings open the door and heads inside.]

{ `ducks in with a thin hand hovering above his head, eyes quickly sweeping through the small, dim restaurant Sungjoon had led them to — a few notches above any recommendation Soohyuk could’ve offered —; a fleeting smile perches on the corner of his mouth as his gaze darts back to Sungjoon and drinks in the man’s expression, the glaze in his reflection, a silence in the pause and a lapse in their rhythm that Soohyuk snags into his throat and clears it out with a snicker } Mmmmm, ‘course. { `brow flickers upwards momentarily as he follows the other, navigating to a table tucked in the restaurant’s corners }

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[xnoctuary]

HEY is anyone still around?

[xnoctuary]

HEY is anyone still around?

[0300hr-blog]

so, this post is more of a reflective means for me than not, apart from relishing in the festivities that they’re supposed to. this year has been challenging, and while i’ve only returned here for barely a week, some things have happened and it brought some perspectives in me. it’s also been a while that i’ve done something like this, and people who was on my last one aren’t the same as the ones on here, but i’m thankful regardless. people come and go, and i’m grateful for both. for those who are here, thank you for staying. for those who have left, thank you for having stayed. there are lessons learned from this year alone, and i hope that i can only get better from here onwards, even with the personal struggles. just yesterday, life seemed bleak, but today, it’s a better one. so thank you for your existence, and may your christmas be merry and your new year happy. this post is to wish you the merriment, and i hope that i haven’t missed anyone.

old friends; the ones who have been sticking with me through so many different accounts, the ones who have been conversing with me a lot, ensuring that i’m afloat. i’m sorry if any of my words and actions have hurt you, and i hope our relationships will be even better in this next year: @jongdangel , @calier , @luxinexitium , @hyejvng , @subjectism , @wistfulreality , @lonelyeternities , @glitseun , @stellarade , @ghostchases , @7vth

we’re new friends, but your words truly mean a lot. you were there when i was down, and i truly hope we can spend more time talking as well, to know each other better and be even closer friends, for both the good and bad times: @aleastories , @dvntgo , @cityafterdark , @mybenot , @consilian , @phyrrickid , @spellbks

this part is the whole “where are you guys???? where have you been???? i hope you been all right!” because i haven’t either roleplayed with you or you haven’t been around for a long while, but i hope you’re reading this and your holiday is jolly: @ksung , @lithified , @illota , @ofkngs , @xnoctuary , @existheory , @warsk , @chaoticer

also, those who have roleplayed, are roleplaying, and will be roleplaying with me, even if now we’re just mutuals. i’m so grateful for all of you! thank you for helping both iseul and i develop, both as a roleplayer and a person. you truly mean a lot, and i hope we can talk more in the future: @cvnefin , @softbci , @eterneli , @350mm , @invained , @artificvr , @sinficer , @zureo , @delightfour , @lesivres , @yeonhas , @pecvlarity , @pullstrings , @onthisbluemoon , @revenantics , @bachye , @sangoit , @oitxra , @moonsflcwer , @fluorvte , @iiraeth , @ofabsolux , @pseudonyist , @moonchd , @dotwon , @cchilyoja , @antimoir , @ciindered , @cespires , @wiltedpetal , @stilledsouls , @deperle , @theseelenine , @mxrtifero , @90yoda , @invained , @garciti , @603k , @flvwersng , @synrgetic , @kiceun , @sarcemia , @solarade , @ofmontagues

merry christmas 2017 and happy new year 2018, everyone! hope this next year will be better for all of us, filled with joy and good news. <3 i hope you’re enjoying your holiday, too, and if you want to talk i’m always a tumblr im / discord away!

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Tumblr RP 2012: He grabbed a carton of milk and drank it.

Tumblr RP 2014+: Slender digits might curve delicately——&& OPAQUE biodegradable material would find a long-lost home snugly ‘neath gangly sticks of bone and sinew. A cow’s utter hath provided CREAMY substance now floating on white clouds of honeydew in said CARTON—— and as butterfly petals part to receive the rich nectar, a feather-like sigh finds it’s way into the Autumn air.

[xnoctuary]

lithified:

Sleep hadn’t come easily. He doesn’t know how long he’d laid there, trying to will himself into unconsciousness, before his body finally burned itself out and obeyed. But once it did, he’d fallen into a sleep so deep and dreamless that his awakening is like being revived from the dead.

It’s a hand on his face that yanks him out of nothingness and into his body again. He draws in a breath, sharp and startled – his heart stops beating altogether until recognition places the figure (so, terrifyingly close) as one he knows. It’s nearly pitch-dark in the room, the only light from a single streetlamp across the street filtered through his blinds, but he’d know the sight of Soohyuk anywhere. He breathes out a sigh, and sits up, rubbing at his eyes. He must not have slept long. He somehow feels more tired than when he’d fallen asleep.

He’s too tired for this. Might as well get it over with.

“So I guess you saw.”

There’s no way he couldn’t have. Sungjoon didn’t even bother to clean up. He’d been so overcome with bitter disappointment he didn’t have it in him to do anything more than drag his sorry ass to bed. He didn’t expect anyone would drop by, especially without notice.

Some fucking timing. He laughs, an incredibly weary sound. He hasn’t looked up – doesn’t want to see Soohyuk’s reaction to him admitting defeat.

“Laugh it up, man. You always said I’d fuck up again. Never believed I could do it. Guess you were right after all, huh?”

The beat of silence stretches on too long. Something isn’t right. Slowly, he lifts his head, lets the hand fall.

He’s deathly quiet. Utterly still.

And Sungjoon doesn’t understand it, why looking at Soohyuk now turns his stomach. He’s confused by his body’s instinctual reaction. So he’s quiet, where he’d normally be a constant stream of chatter, loud and irreverent. So he’s still where he should be restless, a mess of tics and twitches and fidgets.

Why does it feel so wrong?

( – a hand like a vice around his arm, cutting off blood supply, holding him absolutely still – eyes like bottomless pits, absolutely riveted by the symbol marring his flesh – )

An involuntary chill passes through him. His voice is quiet, but it still sounds too loud in the deafening silence.

“What’s with you tonight?”

A dim, blue glow cast against his face. In this room, something is colliding: Soohyuk, legs bent, head cocked, eyes sitting low as he watches Sungjoon’s gradual awakening.

( they’re alone. )

All is quiet, all is still.

(IT) doesn’t respond. Taps Sungjoon’s cheek, mouth stretched into a crude smile. ( there’s a monster in the corner, breathing in his ears ) And when the man sits up, there they are - watching each other, as they’ve always been. Gaze locked, eyes searing through the lilted darkness.

“What’s with you tonight?”

Silence. ( yet, roaring by their necks, a hurricane comes rushing down. the sounds of screaming tear right past their throats, cutting through the thin atmosphere; an explosion swallowing their hearts whole; water filling in their ballooned lungs, heavy and swollen with nicotine; arms perforated with regret - with trauma - with obsession; punctuated with sharp breaths of air )

Vaguely, Soohyuk is thinkin’: “He’s dead. He’s dead. He’s dead.”  

Someone is speaking. The voice crawls past his ears and talks to Sungjoon, but why the fuck is it talkin’ to Sungjoon? Who the fuck is talkin’ to Sungjoon? Is it that fuckin’ bastard?

“Nothing. Do I seem different to you?”

Someone is moving. A body made of bone, unfolding itself as it stands. And there, (IT) sees Sungjoon below, but who the fuck is movin’? Who else is lookin’?

( the letters start to fade. the name buries itself, deeper and deeper, until the tongue is once again foreign, and reduced to hushed static. the words knock their teeth in with each spit syllable )

“Ha. You’ve really come undone, haven’t you.” It’s spoken more as a declaration than a question. There’s amusement sprawled on his face, an expression of triumph. And while Soohyuk is jus’ itchin’ and itchin’ to laugh, he says nothing. And while Soohyuk is jus’ achin’ and achin’ to punch that motherfucker in the throat, he does nothing. And while Sungjoon is sitting there, vulnerable as a bird, and Soohyuk is just beggin’ and beggin’ to scoop his eyes out, drink his cheeks in ‘til they’re hollowed to the marrow, he feels nothing.

“You were never going to get out, Sungjoon. I don’t know why you keep trying.”

Soohyuk tilts his head back and a sharp bark of laughter pulls, hard, from his throat, as though someone had ripped it out with a string. And rather than the stream of giggles that usually finds itself bubbling past his lips, he looks down at Sungjoon and keeps the shitty grin on his face. His eyes are black. Predatory. He moves in, a leg kneeling on the bed and the rest of his body leaning forward. His hair brushes past his cheekbones, stark and stricken with light, as he once again reaches for Sungjoon’s face and holds his palm flush against his neck.

( the smell of pine; a wooden, musky scent, tangled with murmuring: these are the things he’s always been too afraid to say )

Under the hazy glow of the early morning light, (IT) rests on Sungjoon’s ridden body, mouth numb against his temple, and whispers: “You were never going to get away. Not from this. Not from me.”

And (IT) keeps moving, hand tracing Sungjoon’s taut skin; fingers tugging at the drooping shirt until the ink is angled where the light hits; lips slanted, breath hot. “Did you miss it? Did it feel good? Or did you realize it wasn’t enough?”

And, in a flash of anger, Soohyuk digs, and digs, and digs, nails thrust into the branded symbol; the raised flesh where the bullet had pierced into Sungjoon’s (no, that belongs to me) shoulder; eyes narrowed, teeth bared and grit.

But (IT) pulls back. Keeps some distance from the body. And Soohyuk wants to pull in closer, needs the warmth tight against his body. He’s blinded, stupid, desperate, always needing more - more - more -

But (IT) pulls back.

A lazy grin on his face. His weight dips into the bed, and his hands are cold as they return, controlled, to grip at Sungjoon’s collar, and press closer. This time, his eyes are gleaming.

( the smell of oak; a fallen tree in the woods, a house come crashing down: these are the things he’s never wanted to admit )

“You need me.”

[xnoctuary]

lithified:

It started before he even woke up.

The dream felt real. The level of detail was uncanny, from the buildings lining the streets to the wind biting into his skin. He was walking somewhere, somewhere he hadn’t been in close to six years but that he still remembered exactly how to find. His old dealer lived in Daerim-dong, a short walk from the nearest subway station. A twenty minute ride from his old apartment. An agonizingly long time, to someone in full-blown withdrawals. And he could feel it in the dream. The cold sweat. The ache that reached down into his bones. By the time he climbed the staircase leading up to Taehwan’s apartment, his legs felt almost too weak to carry him. His hands wouldn’t stop shaking. Even inside, with Taehwan retreated into the next room to give him privacy, he couldn’t calm down enough to steady them.

He woke up the second the needle pierced his skin.

And it haunted him all day. Being denied that high – even just an echo of one, even just a memory. It would have been more than he’s had in months. It’s maddening, the slow trickle of chemicals he’s allowed. Methadone is fucking useless. He wants a high that will hit him like a tidal wave. He wants it to wreck him. He’s seething with it, and at the clinic he stares them all down, daring them to pick up on it. How close he is to disaster. But they only smile at him as they hand him his dose, vacant and impersonal, and send him on his way.

He doesn’t need a dealer anymore. He is the dealer. (And Taehwan is a corpse rotting somewhere, unidentified.) He has more than enough. Enough to kill him ten times over. No one would notice a little missing.

Only one thing standing in the way of his plan. Because it’s a plan now, one that began in the vapors of a dispelled dream and solidified into concrete steps by the tenth time that image intruded into his mind (Taehwan dead, unrecognizable). Because if he’s doing this, there’s only one way to do this.

Ten o'clock finds him breaking into a nervous sweat under the fluorescent lights of the pharmacy down the street. He’ll never be able to show his face in here again. He wants to tell the pharmacist he’s a diabetic, just to throw the accusation in his stare into doubt, but he can’t bring himself to speak. He checks out without a word.

Ten-thirty finds him in the midst of an old familiar ritual. He’s taken his time getting prepared. Dragging his feet. Summoning the nerve. He starts with a quarter-gram – conservative if he were still using, but now, he’s not so sure. He doesn’t know how high his tolerance is anymore. He doesn’t know enough about methadone to estimate the equivalent of his daily dose. But he’s come too far to back out now.

His heart is beating out of his chest. He can see his pulse through the skin, in the vein he zeroes in on. Even under the overhead light, he can barely see the old marks. They’ve almost disappeared and here he is making new ones. It doesn’t matter. Nothing matters but the slow push of the plunger, slow and steady so it doesn’t hit him too hard. He waits. And waits.

Nothing.

It’s something very close to panic making his hands fumble to cook up more. Filling the same needle over again, because it doesn’t matter if it hurts going in. All that matters is the rush he’s been dwelling on all day.

He’s slammed an entire gram by the time he decides it’s a lost cause.

Fucking methadone.

He could go look it up, but he doesn’t bother. It’s the only thing that makes sense. He remembers what they told him, before officially registering him as a patient at the clinic. About using while in the program. Don’t even try. He’d taken it for a general warning against relapse, a threat it’d get him kicked out. He never would have thought they meant It’s a waste of heroin.

Eleven o'clock finds him retreating to bed, completely defeated. He’s failed twice – failed in his sobriety, and failed to make it worth it. Start to finish, this day has been Hell. He’s done.

2014.

his lips are stained with blood.

SOOHYUK: ( silence )

SOOHYUK: Oh my God. Oh my God. Oh my God oh my God oh my God oh my God oh my fucking Jesus fucking CHRIST

SOOHYUK: Heroin overdose. Overdose. Cocaine overdose, opium, charcoal, ipecac, narcan, naloxone…naloxone. That’s narcan. Narcan. Narcan.

SOOHYUK: Please work oh my God oh my God you can’t die Sungjoon you can’t fucking die -

his ribcage is clattering. he shakes, he trembles, his whole body is clumsy as he scrambles to the sprawled body on the floor. that’s Sungjoon. that’s Sungjoon. that’s SUNGJOON, for FUCK’S sake, wake the FUCK UP, please, please, please... - please, please, please... -

he watches the needle plunge through cold, pallid flesh. watches the blued veins rush eagerly to the surface, the subtle twitch of his pulse, counting down to the last goddamn millisecond for Sungjoon to open his eyes. please, please, please…- please… his breath hitches and he jerks back when the body doesn’t move. that’s just a body. it’s just a body. no, that’s SUNGJOON. that’s SUNGJOON, you FUCK, you crawling piece of SHIT, he’s DYING and you can’t even HELP him - please, please, please…- please… please, please…-

he folds into himself, small, terrified, looking wide-eyed at the man: he’s still. so, so still. and he’s so scared, he’s so scared. Sungjoon can’t die. Sungjoon can’t die. Sungjoon can’t die. not him, not him - fuck - not him. anyone but him. the apologies run through his lips like a babbling stream as he rocks back and forth, fingers tight against his skin, seized by such pure, unadulterated terror. cries falling from his open mouth.

SOOHYUK: Please, please, please, please, please…- please… please…- please… -

[ you just let him die, man! he’s dead! he’s dead! dead! dead! dead! dead! dead! dead! dEAD! DEAD! DEAD! DEAD! HE’S DEAD! SUNGJOON IS DEAD! SUNGJOON IS DEAD! SUNGJOON IS DEAD! that’s just a body, that’s just a BODY! a BODY! HE’S DEAD! SUNGJOON, OH MAN! HE’S FINALLY FUCKIN’ DEAD, BABY! ]

SOOHYUK: Please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please, please - please -

END

.

a curtain drops.

10:36am.

A good hour for mischief.

2017.

(IT) knows where to go. These footsteps are automatic, but they’re not his. With his hands in his pockets, a cheerful tune drawling through his parted lips, Soohyuk (but it’s not him. it’s not. it’s - ) takes casual strolls towards the apartment his body is most familiar with. A building he’s kept watch of for so, so long, that even its address is an old nursery rhyme he’s repeated to himself at night to help him sleep. A mantra, a spell for comfort. Watching for that motherfucker -

He (IT) clears his throat. Among all things, it’s most important to stay calm. To stay steady. To stay stable. Otherwise he’ll find himself trying to drag out that bastard’s vocal chords with his own bloody fuckin’ teeth - the anger, oh it burns so, so slowly. His name sears in his throat, imprinting itself in bold, thick strokes: a brand -

KIM

[ i’m going to fucking KILL that bastard. i’m going to rip out his eyes by their sockets, make him choke on them, piss all over his GODDAMN face and slash his gut fuckin’ wide OPEN, i’m going to chew him up and spit him out. he’s going to KNOW my name, KNOW who the FUCK he should never have crossed, know that Sungjoon is MINE - he’s MINE - he’s MINE - ]

Among all things, it’s most important to stay calm. To stay steady. To stay stable.

There’s new shoes on his feet. He walks with patterned taps - up the stairs, hand trailing along the railing - turn left at this corridor. A few stories up. The echoes bounce around the walls and spiral downwards as he’s ascending, the ring on his fourth finger rough against the rotting wood. Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap. Clink, slide, tap. Tap. Tap. Clink, slide. Tap. Tap. Tap.

The door. It’s locked, but he knows the way in. He brushes the debris from his fingers, clinging to each line on his palm as he steps into the room.

There’s a part of him that panics, instantly - spilled traces of powder on the floor, a lighter - a spoon, liquid on the floor - a syringe, pulled half-way. Bubbling. A ripped bag.

[ he’s dead, isn’t he - he’s dead, isn’t he - he’s dead, dead, dead, - DEAD, - oh my GOD he’s DEAD isn’t he he’s DEAD, he’s DEAD, he’s DEAD, ISN’T HE? ]

Among all things, it’s most important to stay calm. To stay steady. To stay stable.

Something in him (not him - just, this weak, quivering body) aches. It’s begging him, screaming for him to - to what? Check up on him? Make sure he’s not - DEAD? And if he’s dead, whose fault would it be?

[ it’s YOUR fault, it’s YOURS, he is YOUR responsibility - ]

SUNG

[ that FUCKER is DEAD ]

Soohyuk bends down and wipes some of the powder with his fingertips. He rubs it against his thumb, lips slightly pursed. His heart is beating quickly, and somewhere in his mind there’s shrieking - but he’s calm. He’s steady. He’s stable. (Not him, IT.) He puts his hands back into his pockets as he walks past the hallway, to a door he’s thrown open before. A room he’s torn apart in a frenzy, looking for -

Heroin overdose. Overdose. Cocaine overdose, opium, charcoal, ipecac, narcan, naloxone…naloxone. That’s narcan. Narcan. Narcan.

oh my God you can’t die Sungjoon you can’t fucking die

And there he is, face white as snow. Pale as it’s ever been, slight beads of sweat drawn against his hollow cheeks. His eyes are sunken in. It’s been so long, but his lips ajar and the clothes he’s wearing are loose. And -

[ that FUCKING BRAND - the FUCKING BULLET]

“Sungjoon,” Soohyuk (no. it’s not him. it’s not him.) says. His voice is low, drawled, ghostly. He crouches next to the bed, mouth half-cocked, a few inches from his face.

“Sungjoon,” he repeats. A hand reaches out to gently touch the man’s face, fingers pressed against gaunt bone. “You look like absolute shit.”

[ that FUCKER is DEAD ]

[xnoctuary]

anger type

PSYCHOTIC

100% fully fledged pedigree nutcase. The impulses you get are tainted and need to be controlled. Professional help is what you need!

tagged by: @lithified

[lithified]

seventeen.

he’s getting better at lying. he barely has to talk to anyone, anymore. he breezes in and out the halls of his school, not leaving any trace he’d been there. teachers don’t know what to make of him. smart but he doesn’t try. socially avoided but he doesn’t seem lonely. he skips out early. he haunts libraries. he leaves with books hidden under his clothes.

in his home he’s under siege. door closed against a hostile environment. they’ll starve him out if he doesn’t show his face. he can barely be in the same room with his father these days. it always turns ugly.

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[xnoctuary]

hi

i exist 

pls write with me 

pls

[ksung]

10:36am.

A good hour for mischief.

He’s a rat crawling through rusted pipelines and pebbles kicking in the dust – swallowing mouthfuls of dirt at a time. If you filter through the shit in his lungs, you’ll find shriveled bodies of rotting ants. And there’s a slow hum of an incinerator grinding at the back of his mind. And there’s the incessant groan of teeth gnashing near the nape of his neck. And if you look carefully enough, someone is burning their hands on a radiator.

Soohyuk knows the sound of his name, and that alone is enough.

He says it often. Not like a mantra – instead, a nursery rhyme. Words mentioned so dutifully of diseases which wrought on pain and suffering in old history: children’s play. The syllables taste good on his tongue.

cut scene: tossing around in bed. hands placed religiously against warm cheeks, eyes closed. a gentle mutter in the background.

                                            OUT 

Sinchon-dong.

It’s dim.

The stairs welcome his feet begrudgingly. Though his shoes make not a sound, his breathing is oddly loud to his ears. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. A rhythmic obsession. The walls are painted an ashy white: never retouched. The ceilings cave in. Soohyuk keeps walking.

Odd-ly perfect. Nothing has ever been touched. When he inhales again, he breathes in symmetry. It reeks of a familiar addiction – a striking resemblance to a man of his past.

His shoes always have to be aligned just right.

Soohyuk tips the left one a slight centimeter up. A chuckle.

He puts his fingers on things that scream of virginity, lingering for split-seconds longer until the papers shift. Books open, close, and are put back inside with the titles upside-down. Small droplets of water drip from the tap every 6 seconds, and the clock reads the time to the previous minute. The knob tilts 23 degrees off-center. A pen on the table, unexplained.

Every single picture frame is crooked by 4 millimeters.

Odd-ly precise.

Soohyuk walks out, humming.

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[pigmenting]

january stands on the sidewalk watching a streak of cars and buses chase each other down the street. his heart is racing with them. his palms sweat; he panics. when did life get so fast? when did living start feeling so blurry?

[xnoctuary]

❛  Repost & BOLD which lines of famous poetry apply to your muse.

i saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked. // tyger tyger, burning bright // i have done it again. // do not go gentle into that good night. // the sea is calm to-night. // let us go then, you and i, // april is the cruelest month. // pretty women wonder where my secret lies. // there is a place where the sidewalk ends. // i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) // two roads diverged in a yellow wood. // whose woods these are i think i know, // let us twain walk aside from the rest. // once upon a midnight dreary, while i pondered, weak and weary, // i taught myself to live simply and wisely. // it so happens i am sick of being a man // i wandered lonely as a cloud // does it dry up like a raisin in the sun? // o my love is like a red, red rose. // o captain! my captain! our fearful trip is done; // out of the night that covers me // it was many and many a year ago // you may write me down in history // do not stand at my grave and weep // some say the world will end in fire // some say in ice. // hope is the thing with feathers // the wind was a torrent of darkness among the gusty trees, // no man is an island, // remember me when i am gone away, // i met a traveler from an antique land // ‘twas brillig, and the slithy toves // this is thy hour o soul, // when we wear the mask that grins and lies, // death be not proud, // and death shall have no dominion. // laugh, and the world laughs with you; // the art of losing isn’t hard to master; // to see a world in a grain of sand // is there anybody there? said the traveller // nobody heard him, the dead man, // that crazed girl improvising her music.// come to me in the silence of the night; //where the mind is without fear and the head is held high // when you are old and grey and full of sleep, // in flanders’ fields the poppies blow // i thought of you and how you love this beauty // life, believe, is not a dream // it may be misery not to sing at all, // if tarry space no limit knows // come live with me and be my love, //had we but world enough and time, // my heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains my sense // bright star, would i were stedfast as thou art- // thou still unravish’d bride of quietness // how do i love thee? let me count the ways. //heaven is what i cannot reach! // my dear, my dear, i know // in visions of the dark night // shall i compare thee to a summers day? // break, break, break // she walks in beauty, // i had a dream, which was not at all a dream. // he clasps the ring with crooked hands.

tagged by: @lithified ily <3 

tagging: no clue tbh 

[cvltchld-a-blog]

A snort on the face of VENOM’s precious child, not even hidden despite the intricate lines of the mask he’d wear when it was time for him to get the job done –pushing the delicate giglietto aside to slide away from his head and fall somewhere on the dusty floor of that abandoned place they sook as refuge, revealing even more the dim profile of a stained youth filled with scars represented by his face, the lower lip being bitten mercilessly in what seemed to be a stunt perpetrated by rising panic.

There had to be something like a medikit, anything containing bandage of the sort –those hands of his rummaging in drawers and closets in such a hurried attempt at searching ( and he wished to have hyeonju’s skills, in that moment, to be able to be calm and perform medical arts so sweetly ), rummaging and cussing under his breath when naught was the result of his efforts.

« The bleeding must be stopped, or you’ll die– » He was impatient. He’s a child, the angel named Oh Shixun by the highest Heavens of VENOM –bringing his fingers to hold his blade and rip even more tattered clothing found around instead, rushing to press them against the bleeding gash ( focus, focus, he can’t die, he’s innocent, he wasn’t supposed to be involved to begin with ) on the older’s gash. « It will be fine, I did this lots of time on myself. »

[xnoctuary]

Ah. 

He (IT) watches, unfocused. Around him, are only colors -- and an occasional flicker of warmth taking root in his veins. 

It’s calm. 

The boy frantically presses fabric against the wound in an attempt to apply enough pressure that the blood stops flowing in thick, viscous droplets; that his heart itself may stop pumping with vicious ardor. 

Everything moves slowly. Soohyuk leans forward and grabs the boy by the jaw, fingers dimpling his taut, drawn skin. The boy starts quickly, hands jerking back in an instinctive reaction of defense, and drops both the blade & the scrapped shirt as Soohyuk’s thigh bleeds freely -- a silent ringing of golden bells. 

Somewhere in a land far too distant to recall its name, a murder of crows land on a telephone wire. 

“I won’t die,” he says, and tightens his grip. His eyes flash. “So just leave it.” 

[xnoctuary]

Tag a quality blog, You’re it! Quality doesn’t mean that you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you’re nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don’t care how many followers you have. Send this to 10 blogs who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But it’s just good to let someone know that you love them! ❤

THIS IS THE CUTEST 

[other-wordly]

pronunciation | ‘noc-tU-er-E