Just a healthcare blog of an exhausted girl

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Here we go again!

Finally, I decided to write to my supervisor… after almost a year? I know... I'm nuts... I don't even know how it happened...

It hurts, so fuqin bad...

"It's hard for me to write about it, but I have mental health problems, and they are the sole reason of..." of what? My madness? Of my fuckin inability to live like normal people do...??

Searching for my anxiety pills I have left...

This is fuqin madness... how long am I supposed to take it?

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21.01.26

Today came my Joalis products and was my first day of taking them.

Joalis Streson® - with vitamins B6 and B1 contributes to the reduction of fatigue and exhaustion as well as to normal mental activity.

Joalis NeuroDrenn® - with the content of garden marjoram extract contributes to normal activity of the nervous system, to the transmission of nerve impulses and to stimulation of the muscle contraction.

I also ordered the Bacopa Monnieri I mentioned previous post. Took the pill today as well.

I just believe in those Joalis products, the alternative medicine. There's a stoy with some of those which might have "cleared" my spine from the cancer, also a lady, who examined me then, with some sort of device that "read" my body with "Salvia" device, told there was some kind of a tissue in my brain.

A year later, I was diagnosed with a brain tumor, which later appear to be a cancer. And when I had my spine biopsy, it appeared to be clear from the cancer.

So I decided I could try it, without a consultation, but just with my knowledge about my afflictions.

note: took: *before breakfast J. Streson ✓ J. NeuroDrenn ✓ Thyroid hormon ✓

after breakfast: Bacopa Monnieri ✓

in the evening: Ashwagandha ✓

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20.01.26

I know I wasn't here, sometimes I just detach. Detach from everything, from my own decisions, resolution...

My mental health isn't stable...

Yesterday, I went out for a walk, walked 8,224 steps, more than 100 the day before yesterday. Went earlier to bed, also fell asleep earlier than usual, and... I woke up exactly at 6.50am 🤣 didn't stand up anyway. I usually wake up with no energy x_x...

I also stopped with my supplements 'routine', but I'm back on track. I hope.

My mood is... kinda not good the recent days, and I blame PMS mostly.

I wish it wasn't a part of my life, but welp... what can I do haha... I read a legit article, where an author explains how and when the levels of hormones change. I'm closer to my bloody days, that's why I feel like... not right in the head...🤣

Menstruation:

At the first day of the cycle, the progesterone and estradiol levels fall significantly, which causes the desquamating of the mucosa, which leads to the bleeding.

During those days we feel tired and are not quite in a good mood, (should provide the maximum comfort for yourself and avoid stressful situation at any cost ^^'')

Follicular Phase:

-> About a week since the start of the menstruation the estrogen level rises - the hormone responsible for our better mood and the desire for sex. -> We feel more energy, our skin looks better. We just feel prettier haha and the task seems easier to be accomplished than a few days earlier. -> We want to hug, cuddle, to be close to our partner. -> Our skin is more sensitive, and orgasms are easier to reach.

Ovulation (or more known as fertile days):

We feel the best during those days, and our libidos reach maximum level.

Though little bleedings can happen - due to periovulatory ("around ovulation") - it is connected to the fall of the estrogen level.

Due to the produced corpus luteum in an ovary, which produces progesteron, our bodies acumulate water in the bodies, so we can "gain weight" even to 3kg / 6.61 lbs (it's just water, so no worries, you didn't get any weight 😅)

Luteal Phase:

The earlier mentioned symptoms can (but not necessarily have to) escalate and cause PMS:

The pimples appear

Weight changes

Not having the willingness to do anything

The nervousness

Sex drive equal zero (even if we happen to be in bed, the experience is hurtful, because our bodies don't produce enough of the cervical mucus during this phase)

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15.01.2026

I woke up today without an alarm lock... you'd think that's a yay for me, but! because I don't necessarily have the energy in the morning, and don't have a special motivation to get up, I dozed off... -.-''' So what is it really about, I checked what can be the causes, and one of the possibilities is my thyroid insufficiency. I will try again go earlier to bed, yesterday I had difficulty with falling asleep, because it wasn't my usual hour obviously... haha... but I'll try :D

note: took: thyroid hormon ✓ berberys ✓

after dinner: niacin ✓ B vitramins ✓ selenium ✓ coenzyme Q ✓ thyroset #1 after a meal ✓ [thyro. #1: fish oil (65% omega-3); includinng: 33% of eicosapentaenoic acid (EPA) 22% of docosahexaenoic acid (DHA) 10% other omega-3 acids) vit. D, E, K {K2 MK-7}

*what else to take: rhodiola Fe and vit. C - 2h after a meal *in the evening: Mg, ashwagndha, thyroset #3 after a meal

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14.01.2026

It's 00:11 and I'm already in bed not like the recent days, going to bed at 2 or 3am, sometimes even 4... I just decided to write this blog as I'm going back to regain the control over my life. And no, it's not a "New Year's resolution", it's the decision I should've made so long ago. I already ordered the supplements that should help me with the cognitive problems and the stress that blocks me. Also just remembered that I wanted to count the pages that I already wrote so I can have the idea how much more I need to write, I'll do that when I wake up. Supplements I took today: mg, B vitamins, guess the rest I forgot.