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This is my master list of all of the works I have written! It will be organized by each member!
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User Not Found - Complete Series (Currently transferring each chapter from Wattpad)
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User Not Found - 40 (Jungkook)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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I looked over towards her as we bolted through the doors of the dorm building. I had already taken my suit jacket off as the sun caused me to break out into a sweat.
We ran past the person at the front office and headed straight into the elevator. She walked before me and I turned around clicking the button to go the fifth floor.
I had only had one chance, and I was going to take it. I pulled the button that stopped the elevator in case of an emergency. Luckily it wasn't the fire button so it wasn't going to inform the authorities.
"Why did the elevator stop?" I turned towards her and walked slowly over to her.
"Jungkook?" Her eyes widened and I could only smile further. My eyes traced her from head to toe. She was drop dead gorgeous.
"Y/N, I can't get enough of you." I watched as her expression changed to pure shock. I guess she never expected this side of me, and honestly I didn't expect it either. She's always caused this reaction in me but seeing her in person made it ten times worse.
I backed her against the wall and held her head gently. I brushed pieces of her hair behind her ear. I was as close as I could be right now. I needed to know if she was okay before doing anything else.
My breath hitched against hers and I smiled wider than ever.
"Is this okay Y/N? If you don't want me to go further please let me know." I watched her brown eyes as they sparkled while looking into mine. She nodded but that wasn't enough for me.
"I need you to say it my love." I brushed my nose against her quietly as my hands dropped to my side.
"Yes, of course it's okay." I looked back at her and I felt her hands wrap around my wrists before they were at her waist. I kept one hand there before the other slowly slid up to the side of her jaw. I leaned into her and tilted her head to look up at me before sliding that same hand up the back of her head so she wouldn't hit her head.
"I love you Y/N." I looked into those same eyes and before she could speak. I crashed my lips onto her. Her sweet scent of vanilla filled my nose as I worked my lips against hers.
I pulled away for two seconds to catch my breath, but that didn't last long as her hands grabbed at my shirt to bring me back to her. I did just that. She was right here in front of me, I'll do whatever she wants me to do. Anything for her.
I grabbed at her waist pulling her even closer to me as we continued the kiss. I used my teeth to give her bottom lip a small nudge for her to open her mouth up more. She did just that and my tongue glided in and met hers in the middle. She wrapped her hands around my neck and buried them in my hair. She nudged me to take lead and I listened to her happily.
We broke off the kiss to catch our breath but I couldn't step away from her. I didn't want to. I lifted my head up and looked into her eyes. I leaned in one more time to give her a kiss on the forehead before clicking the button on the elevator again.
It was now moving and we didn't speak a word. All I heard for the whole two minutes of us in silence was her breathing along with mine and my heart beating so fast throughout my ears.
The elevator came to a halt and the doors opened. We had made it to my floor. I took her hand and brought her down the hall.
Once we had made it up to my door. I took the keycard out of my pocket and opened it up letting her walk in first. I followed slowly behind her closing the door, listening to the click signifying that the door was now locked.
I watched her as she looked around before I gestured her to take a seat in my bed. Both Taehyung and I decided to go with a cohesive matching theme with our dorm room. The room was filled with the colors black, navy and blue. It almost looked like a deep ocean as our decor and art in the walls matched the dark beds.
I turned towards the closet door opening it slowly. I rummaged through a couple things before finally finding the royal blue backpack that held so many memories all those years ago.
I grabbed it setting it aside my legs so I could close the closet door. I picked it up and brought it over, placing the bag onto my bed next to Y/N.
"What's in it?" I looked at her before unzipping the bag showing her what was inside.
"Memories. Ones that I held onto for so long. I've been keeping it for the day I met you. So here, it's yours beautiful." I watched a small gasp escape her lips as she pulled out one of my old hoodies from high school.
"Was this the bag that you were going to bring that day?" She continued looking through it pulling out the two plushies I had planned to give her that day.
"Yeah" I had finally felt complete. All of those memories, feelings and thoughts happened for a reason.
"It's so cute!" I laughed as she smiled and laughed with me.
She then pulled out the last few things in there. The painting and drawings. I watched her face change and I knew exactly what she was thinking.
"You've been painting me as the woman in the red dress with the sun as her head since the beginning?!" I nodded softly as I took a seat next to her.
"I've been in love with you since the beginning, and I still am."
"Jungkook I-" She blinked slowly as I held onto her hand.
"Should we try again Y/N?" I looked at her as anticipation took over me.
"Yes." Once she said that, I truly was complete. I took her into an embrace holding onto her like my life depended on it.
The emotions were coming back again and I felt the tears fall from my eyes just like they were for her as well. This was it. I wouldn't fuck up this time. It'll work, it always does.
- The End -
Authors Note: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING THIS! It's been a couple years since I stopped writing or would write without completing anything. And I have finally finished a book. I hope you guys enjoyed it as much as I did while writing it! Another story will be in the works soon! I will eventually self publish this book with the original characters names. 🦭😝🩷🩷
User Not Found - 39 (You)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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I never thought I would be here right now with Jungkook. This was something I had dreamed about when I was sixteen.
It was all I could think about back then. I couldn't focus on school because I had to know what he was doing as well or I was worrying about him.
This was different. I hadn't talked to him since then and I somehow made it to his art show, stopped in front of his art piece and found him inside there. We just had a snack while talking about the past and we both admitted to still loving each other.
He was right in front of me now as we walked away from campus and decided to walk around the block.
"I'm glad have met you Y/N." I looked at him as he stopped in his tracks. I smiled softy and felt an ache writhin my heart. It wasn't devastation this time. It was a happy ache.
"You were the best thing to happen to me Jungkook and I thank you for that." He pulled me into an embrace and it felt so weird but comforting to be this close. Something I had always wanted to do, just to hug him. He was right in my arms and I still couldn't wrap my head around it.
"I love you Y/N." I looked up at him as I smiled back. I melted into his embrace.
"I love you too Jungkook." We broke apart and that was when it had finally hit me. What I thought was my whole life was just a chapter in my book and I was finally okay with that. I couldn't have been more than happier to close that chapter and start a new one.
"Thank you Jungkook, thank you for helping me learn and become who I am, thank you for everything." I looked at him as I bid him goodbye. I turned away finally feeling free from all that my mind had trapped me from. This was it. I was so grateful he walked into my life and walked out without any complications. He would always have a place in my heart and nothing could change that. Jungkook was my first love and always will be and I wouldn't change it for a thing.
So thank you. Thank you for being apart of this, apart of my life and showing me what feeling loved truly was.
"Wait! Y/N'" I stopped in my tracks, shaking away all of the thoughts in my head as I turned back around to him. He jogged over to me before stopping right in front of me.
"I have something for you that I think you should have." I watched him brush his hair back as it fell back into place. He smiled so wide it almost reminded me of a rabbit. I couldn't help but smile back.
I looked down at his hand that was waiting for me as I took it. We started running back to the dorms happily. I couldn't help but think what he could have possibly had for me.
User Not Found - 38 (Jungkook)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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I looked at her brown eyes that were sparkling as the sun hit her. She was so beautiful, and this close was way different compared to being over the phone.
I kept staring at her frozen in time as I slowly sipped from my drink until she brought me back to reality.
"Where do you think we went wrong Jungkook?" I looked back at the table as I set my drink down.
"Do you mean where I went wrong?"
"No, both of us." She gave me a serious look and I knew she didn't want me to put it all on myself.
'"We can start with me completely lying to you about how I looked." She tilted her head as she took another bite.
"Why did you lie? I knew what you had told me but there's only room for truth here, it's been a while." A wave of nervousness crashed through me but I preserved through it.
"I was really insecure back then to the point that I thought if I used Yoongi's face to show you, everything would be fine. I regretted it a lot and I wish I just told you the truth."
She nodded her head before continuing on.
"Why'd you have me wait all of those months?" I looked up to her with a half smile before answering.
"I wanted to get through all of my therapy sessions before coming back to you. In my mind I thought that I would be better mentally to soon date you but I was wrong." I took the last sip of my water before ordering more as I waited for her response.
I had a question of my own for her.
"May I ask, sorry for bringing this up but why did you start dating him? I know you were waiting for me but I just would like to know." I looked at her expression as she looked sort of upset.
"It's okay I've healed from it now but I thought it would've been different with him, I believed since it was in person at school it was better than us meeting online." I nodded in agreement.
"I understand." That was all I could say as I kept the real words in my mouth.
Her head picked up as she ate the last bit of her cake smiling happily.
"I still love you Jungkook. That never went away." I looked at her in shock, before I added on.
"I dont think it'll ever go away Y/N." She gave me a half smile back.
"Do you think we'll ever get back together?" I looked at her before shrugging.
"Probably not, and I've accepted it. It's for the best isn't it?"
"Yeah, we had a chaotic run didn't we?" I nodded as well. Before handing the waiter the cash for our bill.
"I could've paid for that you know." I laughed in response as I helped her out of her seat before we began to take a walk.
"I know, but I didn't want you to."
"Don't you have to be back at the showcase?" I looked towards the white brick building we were now walking away from.
"I nly had to be there to talk to the director, which I had already done so I'm technically free!" I spun around happily as I heard her laugh. A smile crept onto my face as my eyes were captivated by her beauty.
"Are you planning on becoming an artist once you graduate?" I nodded as I skipped forward with her following behind me. I stopped in my track and watched her catch up.
"What about you Y/N? What will you do once you graduate?" I held my hand out as she happily took it. I twirled her around almost too fast, she almost fell but I caught her. She was in my arms and I couldn't have been happier.
"I'm not so sure, but I know I'll figure it out eventually." She held onto my arms as we looked into each other's eyes. Wow, I really did love this girl. That was all that replayed throughout my head as I looked at her. She was the one.
User Not Found - 37 (You)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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I couldn't believe the sight before my eyes. Jungkook was right in front of me for the first time in my life. He's seen me in person before but I have never seen him.
He looked just like he had on the last day I saw his face over the phone except being older just like I was. I wiped the few tears that fell as the rush of emotions flooded through me.
"Hi Jungkook." That was all I could get out of me as I locked eyes with him. He looked like an art piece himself.
I couldn't help but soak in every detail about him. He had a new haircut just like I had. He was in a suit that had fit him perfectly. I watched as he began to speak before getting interupted by the waiter.
"Hello! Welcome to Sweet Meadow Cafe, what could I get you both today?!" It felt like I was frozen in time as I watched him turn towards the waiter before ordering the drinks for us.
"I'll take a water and she'll have a strawberry smoothie."
He remembered. He remembered my favorite drink after all these years.
"You remembered?" I looked at him with confusion and happiness written all over my face.
"Of course I did, how could I forget you or anything that had to do with you." I wiped another tear from my cheek as I chuckled.
I sipped on the smoothie that was just handed over to me.
"I tried my hardest to forget you." I couldn't lie to him especially when he was right in front of me.
"I figured you would. I tried to as well but it never worked clearly." He spoke gesturing to the building across from us that held the painting about us.
"Was your art work about us?" It was dumb of me to ask that as it clearly showed when I looked at it but I couldn't help but wonder. I watched as he nodded in agreement to the question I had asked.
"It's beautiful." It really was. He took another sip of his water before he began to speak.
"I tried my best capture all of your beauty in it but there was no way I could capture it to its fullest potential." I looked at him and smiled as I sipped on my drink. It felt different to be with him. I should be upset at him, I should be yelling at him but that was me three years ago not right now.
"How'd you find me Y/N?" I looked up at him in confusion.
"I go to Atelier University, the regular school and my roommate dragged me to the art show. I had no clue you got into the art school at Atelier too. It was your dream. I'm happy for you Jungkook."
He looked up at me after taking another sip and smiled, his eyes closing when he did. My heart warmed at the sight and I felt the pit in my stomach warm up too.
"Yeah, guess we'll be seeing each other often. I'm sorry Y/N. I truly am, I was such an asshole back then and I've beat myself up for it ever since. You never deserved what I said to you. I don't even know why I said that to you. You're the strongest girl I know and that'll never change. I'm so sorry."
I watched in shock as his head dropped down to the table before he picked it back up again and I saw the skin around his eyes redden and a couple tears slide down his face.
"I'm sorry too Jungkook." It looked like I exploded a bomb in his head with how shocked he got.
"What? What are you sorry for, you don't have to be sorry for anything Y/N."
"No, no I do. I was a lot back then. I'm sorry for pushing you so hard when you clearly couldn't handle it." I gave him a small smile as another tear slid down my face but also his. It felt like an instinct as the first thing I did was wipe the tear off his face with my thumb.
I watched as his ears heated up as they turned into a light pink tint. My heart was beating so fast I could hear it in my ears. We smiled at each other as our small cafe items were set at the table. I ordered a small cake and he got a a croissant. I took a couple bites of the chocolate cake as he began to speak.
"How have you been Y/N?" I thought about what to say for a minute before speaking.
"I've been good, I went to therapy after what had happened with Jaebeom and it has really helped. I also got the job at the schools library to help pay off debt. How have you been? I know it's been a while since we last talked. Three years even."
I wiped my mouth with the napkin as I waited for him to speak.
"I've been good as well. My mom and I have a better relationship and I still go back to visit on the weekends especially with Kai. I also got a new puppy. I named her (Your Nickname)."
I almost choked on my drink when he said that. There was no way he named his puppy after me.
"Did you actually?" I felt a wave of happiness flow through me.
"Of course I did, she reminded me of you with how much of a happy pup she is."
"Thank you Kook." He nodded back in agreement as we continued on. There was still a couple things on my mind that I've been waiting to ask, but I couldn't ruin the moment now. I wish I could stay here like this for a lifetime.
User Not Found - 36 (Jungkook)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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"Are you sure this looks good enough Taehyung?"
I looked over to him as I fixed the buttons on my shirt. I didn't know why I was so nervous but it felt like what I would think was going on your first date would've been.
I was freaking out, almost hyperventilating. Taehyung was helping me calm down as this was his second showcase, since he was in his second year here at Atelier.
I threw on the black suit jacket that went with my pants before deciding to leave two buttons open as Taehyung had suggested. He himself was dressed in an olive green suit to go with his art piece titled Wander. He worked on a bunch of pieces but decided to go with that one last minute as it came out of the kiln in time for submissions.
I fixed my freshly cut hair. Instead of having it grown out like I did years ago, I decided to go with a low fade just around the edges as i still loved having the layers throughout my hair. I fixed it into a middle part with some hairs hanging just above my brows. Taehyung dragged me out as we headed to the showcase just in time for it to start.
Once we were there I decided to take a couple photos with my piece along with some photos with Taehyung and his piece before we were set out straight for the appetizers and drinks.
After I stressed all morning I forgot to eat breakfast in the cafeteria. I set my heart on the cheese and crackers that were waiting for me.
Taehyung followed along with me before he was pulled away by students asking about his art work. I knew that was going to happen eventually as the pool of people that were lined up outside began to settle in.
I sipped the sparkling water slowly as the bubbles rolled through my stomach here Mr. Kim walked over to me with who I believed to be, Min Francesco, the best art director here in Busan.
My heart sunk into my stomach as they both walked over to me. There was no possible way this was about to happen. I swallowed the last of my sparkling water before setting down the glass as they walked over to me.
"Jungkook, this is Francesco, the head of all art directors in the city, he adored your artwork so much he asked me to introduce him to you."
I took his hand and bowed my head quickly as I shook his hand. This felt like a fever dream and I needed someone to pinch me quick.
"Amazing artwork out there, what inspired you?"
I look towards my art work and saw a young woman who seemed like a student admiring my piece before turning back to him.
"A girl who crashed into my life during high school but helped shape who I am now." I looked at both of them as I saw their facial expressions change. They looked impressed.
"Impeccable." I nodded in agreement as I thanked them and couldn't help but watch as my eyes traveled back to that girl, something about her presence seemed so familiar even from across the room.
Mr. Kim and Francesco were talking amongst themselves now, as all of my attention went to her.
Her hair was short with a couple waves making her hair come to almost past her shoulders. She wore a yellow babydoll top with a dark denim skirt. Why did she seem so familiar? I stared further as I watched her expression change the second she read the card. Did my piece scare her in some way?
Thoughts were flying through my mind as I watched her look around frantically before locking her eyes on me. Y/N. It was Y/N. She was here at my art showcase.
She, the one who had inspired me to paint that piece was standing right in front of it. She looked so different but still the same as the last day I had FaceTimed her the last day we spoke.
I excused myself before walking over to her, I watched her freeze and I couldn't help but walk faster. This was my second time seeing her in person but the first time I would be this close. I made my way over and stood right next to her as she was turned back to looking at the painting.
"It's about you Y/N, the painting. You're the sun." I watched as her body shook at my words before she looked up at me. I was a lot taller than her in person.
"Jungkook." I smiled down at her as I watched her eyes follow mine. I couldn't help it. I grabbed onto her arm and had her follow me.
"Where are you taking me?"
I don't nderstand what went through me to impulsively take her with me but I had to.
"We need to talk."
I took her through the back door and towards the cafe across the street that had small tables and chairs outside.
I opened the chair for her and sat her down as I too sat myself down across from her. I watched as she looked up at me and I felt the rush of emotions hit me.
It seemed like the same thing happened to her as I watched her eyes began to tear up after wiping my own.
She was here, face to face. Right in front of me, this would be something I would remember for the rest of my life.
User Not Found - 35 (You)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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"You have to come Y/N! I promise you it'll be fun!" I looked up at her from my bed as she sat at hers across the room begging me to go to the art show today.
"I don't feel like going Yuna!" I turned back around in bed but I knew that would only have made it worse as the blinds were now open, shining brightly into the room blinding me from my vision. Next thing I knew, I was now cold as the blanket was gone and I felt her sit onto my bed.
"I don't want to go alone, you have to come." I thought about it for the past week, he crossed my mind a couple of times but I had decided to fully keep him out of my mind.
"Fine I'll go." I sat up in my bed as I flattened my now frizzy hair out with my hands before passing by her as I made my way to the corner grabbing my toiletries. I headed out the door down the hall into the bathroom. We shared the bathrooms on the same floor. It took some getting used to but gladly we kept it clean.
I looked over at my bed where Yuna had already picked out an outfit for me. She was dressed in a cream long skirt with a olive green top. On my bed, there was a light yellow babydoll top with a dark denim skirt and black Maryjane shoes to go with them. I couldn't lie she had impeccable taste in fashion. I got dressed quickly and grabbed my bag before we headed out. Luckily the showcase was a building over at the art schools showcase room where they held all of the events.
We were in line and all of a sudden my nerves it me. It felt like I was about to enter the jaws of a shark.
"Why're you nervous?" She asked.
"I don't even know." I shook it off and laughed as we got our wristbands to go in.
As I walked in I immediately got the smell of woody scents hitting my nose. It smelled like a wonderful forest, with all white walls towering over you. We walked over to the first piece of art we saw towards the left. It was a beautifully crafted vase. The title of it was, Wander. I admired it as I looked at the beautiful greens and browns that tinged on the vase.
We moved on to the next piece before Yuna was whisked away from me by one of her friends that was in her art minor as well, Seokjin. She apologized before heading over to where the drinks of sparkling water were held along with the appetizers.
I continued my way around the showcase landing and turning towards the wall behind me across the room from where Yuna was. I instantly felt connected to the piece. It was a pretty large painting. It hung on the wall with the small pedestal in front of it showcasing the title and artists name like the rest of them.
This painting had engulfed me in emotion, it was what looked like to be a couple holding hands while running except their heads were the sun and moon. The sun was the girl who looked to be wearing a red dress, and the guy, was the moon wearing a suit as they ran away together. The only bright light in this piece was the girl, the sun. There were hints of blue, black, and even some burgundy in the background, and I couldn't help but feel the sorrow go through me from the painting.
What happened to this person to have painted such a beautiful but depressing painting? I wondered to myself as I decided to read the card.
'To my light, my sun, my everything.
- Jeon Jungkook , J.JK'
My heart had skipped a beat. There was no way. It couldn't be. He goes to school here? Jungkook? My mind began to race as much as my heart was beating. I looked down at the card again then back up to the painting to make sure I was looking at and reading the same thing. He was here. He painted this.
Where was Jungkook? I began to look around the room to find him looking back at me. Jungkook.
User Not Found - 34 (Jungkook)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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“Hurry up Jungkook!” Taehyung yelled from across the hall. I grabbed my backpack off of my bed in our dorm hall and followed after him in a hurry. We had to be in the art studio in a couple minutes and I had accidentally overslept.
I had made it into the school of my dreams, Atelier Collective of the Arts. I majored in painting and design and minored in sketching. It has been a month since move in day and I still remember my mom's reaction. She shed tears for the first time in a while. I visited her on the weekends as we still lived here in Busan and I couldn't have just left Kai. I loved to come back home still and visit the old skate park along with Jimin who would also visit on the weekends from law school a couple of hours away.
I still thought about her. Every single day since what had happened. I went back into therapy and learned to stop beating myself up for it and hoped she was doing better. I knew she had unblocked me the day she did but I couldn't bring myself to say anything to her.
It was best that I had left her alone and watched from a distance. I checked on her through her account every once in a while and I could tell she was happy. It made me feel better to know she was doing great.
"Snap out of it dude." I shook my head and looked up at Taehyung who was next to me on the stool painting onto his canvas. We had a week left before we were presenting our work at the art show and I still had to finish my piece and find an outfit to wear.
I took the bright yellow paint and added it in a circle on top of the woman's body. Shading it throughly and adding highlights I switched over to the guy. Painting the moon onto his body to act as their heads. If you looked at the piece and didn't know who I was, you would think it was a beautiful balance of the sun and moon in the dark. If you knew who I was, you knew it was deeper than that.
My painting was a composition of Y/N, the sun and I the moon. It showcases the push and pull of our relationship followed by the background full of all the pain and emotional distraught. The only bright light you see within the painting is her.
She was my light, my sun, my everything. I decided to dedicate my art work to her. I knew she was never going to see it but it deserved to be dedicated to her. I added the finishing touches, the last bit of highlighting before taking a step back to admire it. My used to be white apron now covered in colors that were filled with emotions.
Taehyung stood next to me admiring it as much as I had.
"It looks amazing dude." I nodded in agreement as I gestured for Mr. Kim the art director to come over as he was overlooking all of our pieces for the show.
"Absolutely magnificent. I can feel all the emotion flowing through it. Fill out the card of what you're titling the piece along with your name as a signature."
I nodded as I took the card from him and began to write down the title.
'To my light, my sun, my everything.'
- Jeon Jungkook, J.JK'
User Not Found - 33 (You)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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I walked past the ivory and blue hallways as I fastened my steps. My backpack weighed me down as I lugged the boxes in my arms. I just had to find my room with my name on it and I would be all good. I took a break in the elevator, leaving the boxes on the floor as I clipped my freshly chopped hair into a clip.
It was a fresh start that was needed, and the fresh cut helped me believe it even more. My hair was in between above and below the shoulders now and I loved it so much. The elevator dinged and I was now on the fourth floor. I grabbed the boxes and headed down the right hall.
I stopped in front of the door that had my name along with someone else's, Yuna, it read. I twisted the doorknob and instantly got met with the smell of floral and wood. I opened the door to find the right side empty with the left already decorated. There was a beautiful tapestry hanging above her bed with a woven bed set. My eyes traveled to where the desks were, and there she was. Her blonde hair in a bun as she sketched onto a canvas.
I set my boxes down on the empty mattress along with my backpack and watched as she turned around to greet me. Her smiled widened and she instantly went in for a hug.
"Hey! I'm Yuna, it's so nice to meet you Y/N!" I hugged her back and couldn't wait for what was ahead of us. I knew we would become close.
"Would you like help unpacking?" I looked at her a gave her a quick nod. She walked over to my side of the room and helped me gather all of my things.
My side of the room was finally finished and I got to learn more about Yuna. She came down to Busan from Incheon. She was thinking of becoming an art major but switched to financial literacy with an art minor.
Atelier University was something I kind of dreamed of, especially during sophomore year when we had to look into colleges. I wanted to get into Psychology. And I chose that as my major as soon as I moved from Seoul a couple weeks ago.
The craziest thing about Atelier was that it was connected to one of the best art schools in the state. Atelier Collective of the Arts. Anytime I thought of the art part of Atelier I got a slight memory of Jungkook telling me it was his dream school.
And everytime that thought came up I shook it off. It's been three years since I've last talked to him. I unblocked him after couple weeks after what had happened but I guess he didn't care enough to try and contact me too. I decided to let it go and move on and that was exactly what I was doing now.
Yuna and I made our way to the cafeteria to grab a quick lunch before heading down to the foyer.
The school was huge and beautiful, each student was minding their own business as everyone had their own shit to do.
I followed her outside to where the main area was. A bunch of students were all in their own groups. Everyone seemed to be studying or on their laptops. We walked past the board that held all the events happening within the school. I wasn't paying attention until I heard paper rip.
I wastched as Yuna stuck the colorful paper into my face.
"We're going! It's next week and I know you have nothing to do!" I looked at her as my eyes bugged out of my head.
"An art show?" She nodded her head quickly.
I shrugged my shoulders as she shoved the paper into my pocket. Anytime I thought about art he floated back into my mind. I needed to push him as far away in my mind as I could.
There was no way I was going to that art show but I couldn't hurt her feelings.
We found a spot in the grass and that was when I took out a book to read as we sipped on our drinks.
"I know you don't want to go. You've already told me about everything but it would be nice!" I looked over and gave her an apologetic look as I went back into reading.
"I don't know, I'll think about it." I spoke softly.
User Not Found - 32 (Jungkook)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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I took a deep breath after what had just happened. I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't.
I hit the big red x in the corner. I couldn't listen to her cry, I couldn't listen to her talk anymore.
Everytime something like this happened she would just beg. When we broke up she begged to stay together. I feel like I'm drowning anytime something happens. It's not supposed to be like this.
I took a deep breath as I picked up my phone hearing the last ding. I opened to her message and I felt my heart break.
I don't want to hear from you ever again.
I had only one chance to make it right. I texted her right away apologizing. I shouldn't have said it. My head began to spiral as I realized what I had done.
No
No
No this wasn't right. Fuck, what have I done?
I began trying to call her again as quick as I could. Every time I called I ended up with a voicemail or no answer.
This was bad.
I texted her again. I apologized. I ruined her all because I was stupid. I looked around my room in a panic. Why? Why did I have to be so insensitive to her.
She literally had hands put on her and I told her she's fragile? What was wrong with me?
She finally picked up on the last ring and I saw her face. I broke her.
She sat there, her hair looked disheveled and her face was red and puffy, I listened as I heard her speak in a tone I've never heard before.
"What do you want? Are you happy now? You asshole."
"I'm sorry Y/N. I didn't mean it. I swear." I looked at her but I knew nothing could've changed what I had done.
"Are you serious Jungkook? You didn't mean it when you said it then decided to add on and hang up on me?! Yeah you fucking meant it. I'm done."
I looked at her as I tried to apologize again.
"That's not going to help. I don't want to speak to you anymore."
"I'm sorry Y/N. I really do love you."
She looked at me as she scoffed softly while sniffling.
"You don't love me. You never did, you proved that to me today. And I'm glad I know now. This is the last you'll hear from me, enjoy your life Jungkook. Goodbye."
I watched as her face disappeared in a heartbeat. Silence filled the room. Darkness pooled in through the windows with the moonlight illuminating a corner of my room. I looked over and found Kai. He was sitting with a sad expression on him.
"What's wrong boy." He looked up at me and jumped into my lap. I cuddled him as a few tears escaped me eyes. I fucked up and lost the girl of my dreams forever.
There was nothing I could do now. I looked at her accounts on the apps but they all disappeared showcasing the words 'User Not Found'
She had blocked me and there was nothing I could do but accept it. I lost her. I did this. It was my fault, and I broke her. I let them fall. All the tears fell and I didn't care how loud I was. My mom wasn't home but I knew she would catch me like this as I didn't plan on moving for a while.
I took a deep breath and held Kai tighter. I'm so sorry Y/N. I love you with all my heart, I hope you heal. Goodbye.
That was when I forced my eyes to close and my heart to stop aching as that was the last time I had heard from her.
User Not Found - 31 (You)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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I kept hitting ignore until I finally answered him. It felt like I was slowly going insane. I couldn't wrap my head around everything that had happened. Why would he come back if he didn't want to be with me. The whole point of breaking up was to get back together.
I hit answer on the last ring and watched as his face popped up on the screen. All I felt was anger sadness and betrayal. Too much was going on and my emotions were all over the place.
"Why Jungkook?" I looked at him and all I could feel was my heart break. I wanted to be with him. Why did I have to wait longer I've already waited enough.
He looked through the camera and before he spoke I stopped him.
"Haven't I waited enough?"
"I'm sorry Y/N. It's not that I don't want to be with you I do."
"So what is it Jungkook."
"I just can't." I watched as he looked everywhere but the camera.
"Why can't you?" I looked at him with my head tilted.
"Do you really want to know? I don't want to hurt you from my words Y/N."
"Just tell me already. I don't understand why it's so hard to speak to me. Just speak Jungkook." I was fuming. A tear was flowing down my face out of frustration.
He looked around the room as I heard a large sigh. Was he tired of me? Was I being too much? I didn't know what else to do but push him more.
"Just tell me Jungkook."
"Ive been waiting for you this whole time and I still chose you after everything!"
"Tell me!"
"Y/N... I can't be the person you run to every time something reminds you of how fragile you are." I looked up at the phone after hearing his words.
I was furious and he wasn't even looking directly at me. All the resentment shifted through me.
"I'm not fragile." How could he say something like that? Why is he trying to hurt me?
I watched as he shook his head while looking down at his desk.
"And I never asked you to wait for me." I looked up this time and what felt like ten years was only a couple seconds of my heart shattering within my chest.
What could I have possibly done wrong to change his mind. I wiped the tears that were nonstop falling down as I looked up to find him staring right at me. Then he was gone.
I looked down at my hands as if I was the one to have hung up on him but I wasn't. And that made it worse. He hung up on me after looking at me.
What was wrong with me?
I looked everywhere I could before crashing down and there was nothing I could do but let it out.
User Not Found - 30 (Jungkook)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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My heart shattered after I read her message. She hasn't repsonded so I knew she was busy. I could feel myself spiraling. Every single emotion was pushing through. He put his hands on her?! He put his hands on Y/N. How could someone do that?! Was it because of me? Was it because I texted her?
I was now the one to send the 50 messages. I sat there anxiously. I was in my room at my desk. Kai was on my bed and the sunset rays were now shining through the room. I had my laptop opened to where t would have Spotify open. It was the one thing I've been making for her. A playlist. I had just added the last song to it and I couldn't wait to give it to her. I've been building it for the past couple of months. Every song in there has reminded me of her.
I took a deep breath and did the one thing I never thought I'd do. The one thing I'd never thought I would type.
Y/N, when you're home, I know this sounds crazy, and I want to be there for you. I want to hear your voice, do you want to call?
I can't believe I just sent that. I can't believe I even typed it. Out of all of these months that would've never happened. Months ago that would've been that last thing on my mind. Therapy had really paid off. I smiled to myself as I turned my phone off and continued working on the last bit of her playlist. I needed a title an subtitle. After brainstorming for a few minutes I came up with
"To My Heart"
"It'll always be you" 39 songs in this playlist
After typing that out I added the last song, the one song that antime I would hear it I instantly thought of her and us together. Just One Day.
I had finally completed the playlist and I decided to listen to it. I was anxious to what had happened to her. I heard my ringtone go off and looked at my screen. It was her, and she was facetiming me. I gathered all my nerves and answered it quickly as I set up my phone against my desk lowering the volume on my laptop next to me.
It answered and there she was. I looked at her through the screen nervously before my eyes caught the makeup smudges on her neck. You could easily tell my face had switched. I became stiff an unknown feeling of anger came through me. She mustered a small hi before all I could say was.
"What did he do to you?" I watched her as she looked directly at me and saw as her tears flowed from her eyes. I wanted to be right there with her. I wanted to hold her.
"I'm so sorry Y/N it was because I texted you right?" I couldn't help but feel guiltier than ever.
I watched as she tied her hair up and wiped the makeup off with a wipe.
"We won our match at least." She laughed through the tears and I chuckled with her.
"Congrats gorgeous." She smiled and I felt my heart warm up. There was a hint of the red finger prints on the sides of her neck and it broke my heart.
"I'm sorry my love, I wish I could be there with you right now I really do." It looked like she was doing some homework as she wiped her face and smiled at me.
"I know, I wish you were here too. I wish I never met him too. I'm sorry for moving on that quick. I was waiting for you but I don't know."
She looked around before picking her phone up. I watched as she was now laying on her bed. She held the phone up so I could see her face. The small lamp on her nightstand brightening my vision to see her features.
"Don't worry about it, I took too long, I wanted to finish therapy before finding you again but I should've come back sooner."
"It's okay." We smiled at each other and I found the courage to tell her about the playlist.
"Y/N-" I watched as a small kitten walked up onto her chest. It's was black and white and made biscuits on her yellow tank top before laying down.
"This is Kookie, he's a tuxedo kitten, I got him a couple weeks after we broke up." My heart warmed at the sight. I took a FaceTime photo and I knew this would be my favorite one.
"Why'd you take a photo." She said as she looked up smiling.
"Because you look gorgeous and I want to keep that forever." I couldn't help but smile at her. I felt so emotional just now, my mind was circulating through all the hurt and the happy and I couldn't help but release a few tears of my own. I loved this girl so much and I would do anything to be with her right then and there.
"I made this for you my love." I looked at the screen as I grasped her attention and I sent the link of the playlist over to her. I watched as her eyes sparkled.
"Thank you so much Jungkook, I love you so much, you're the best boyfriend." I looked at her as I gulped back.
"Boyfriend?" I looked at her and blinked in confusion.
"Are we not dating again?"
"Y/N, everything happened today, I think we should still wait." She looked at me differently, I knew it hurt her but what could I do.
"I've waited for months Kook. Months! And you still don't want to get back together??" I looked at her and bit back my tongue.
"You just broke up with Jae-"
*beep*
She had hung up on me. I clicked on her contact and began to call her back. I loved her so much but we couldn't rush into a relationship especially after what happened between her and Jaebeom today. I'm worried about her.
User Not Found - 29 (You)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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It was October 12th the day of our big game. We were going to a different school today and it was pretty nerve wracking. Camille saved a spot for me on the bus as I bid goodbye to Jaebeom in the front. He was driving to come see me at the game and I couldn't be more thankful. I bid him goodbye with a kiss and then I walked onto the bus looking through the window as I sat down with Camille watching him drive off.
The bus ride to the venue was fun. There was music being played on a speaker. Our coach passed out some energy snacks and candy. I took one into my mouth and I immediately felt the burst of flavors. there was strawberry, pineapple, orange, and many more than I can think of.
Once we had gotten to the school, the bus parked in our Coach stood up to make an announcement or so give us a peptalk. She started off with mentioning how the other school played. And continued on with how we should play today and where we were going to set up and stretch.
I looked over to Camille and gave her a nervous look, and she did the same as she looked at me. We both burst out into a nervous laughter, and we were set to get up and grab our stuff from the back of the bus.
Once we gathered our bags, we stepped off of the bus and all lined up 2 x 2. It was finally time to head into the school and this was our regionals match so there was a bunch of other schools and we were all going against each other with a bracket system. Once I was lining up, I looked over to my left and I saw getting out of his car, Jaebeom. I quickly waved over to him in which he responded with a wave back and then I heard my name being called.
I turned back to look at Camille, who is ushering me to walk with the rest of the team. I caught up with them and we walked into the school, which was way more fancier than ours. They had a swimming pool to the left and a big area for the lobby in the middle. We had to stretch in one of the empty classrooms, but that classroom had no desks in it. It was a dance room. I've never seen a dance room before. They probably had one in Blackwood Prep, but we definitely didn't have one at SunRidge.
We passed by the gym and I could see all the families in the bleachers already with snacks. I saw the net in the middle of the gym surrounded by the bleachers and I watched as there was a match going on.
The nerves started to get to me and I could feel myself breaking out into a sweat. I looked around, trying to get a hold of myself and taking deep breaths as I watch the match before me. She hit me on the shoulder and grabbed me by the wrist as we had to go back to the make shift locker room.
I stretched out and put on my new uniform as I freshened up in the mirror. Today was the day that mattered the most. This is everything that I have worked for so far everything that we have all worked for so far and the nerves were getting to me bad. I shook it off as I did one more stretch before heading to the middle of the room for a pep talk with the coach.
"Alright, you've all been training for this. I know you all can do it. You guys will be split into teams of four going against the others within the bracket." We all nodded in unison as she announced our teams of four. Luckily Camille and I were on the same team and weren't going on for an hour so the coach had us stay in the locker room as she took the first group out. We wished them luck and I sat down on the bench. I looked on my phone as it got a notification from him. I read his message before bidding Camille goodbye.
He wanted me to come outside and meet him. He knew where we were. I walked out of the Locker room, and walked over to where the snacks were in a little cafeteria area. Once I made it there I saw him standing there with a fresh slice of pizza and a Gatorade well two of them. I waved over to him and watched his eyes glisten underneath the bright lights. We sat down on one of the cafeteria tables and I had my phone down with the lock screen set up.
We decided to share the two slices of pizza. We both ate happily. Both of our phones are on the table and I heard a notification. I didn't want to believe my ears but I knew it was his ringtone. Jaebeom knew my password, and he knew that was a random ringtone so he took my phone and I watched with the nerves creeping up my skin through my spine. My heart started bursting. I watched him slowly as my body started panicking and I didn't know what to do.
He looked up at me with a confused look as he tilted his head to the side.
"That's a different ringtone." I laughed nervously, but I could tell his whole demeanor changed. He seemed more stiff, more closed off, like he knew something that I didn't know. I kept chewing on my pizza slice as I stared at him.
"What was your exes name again beautiful?" I looked up at him in confusion and responded.
"Jungkook, how come?" This time I was the one confused.
He asked another question.
"And he's your ex right?"
I nodded back to him as I got up and threw out my trash. He also got up, still having my phone in his hand, as well as holding onto his as well, and we both decided to walk into the hallway. I was walking over to where the vending machines were in the empty hallway. I wanted to grab Camille a quick snack.
He was being silent and it was weird that he was. It felt like the air around thickened and it was so dense you could cut it with a knife. I put the dollars into the machine. As the machine was spiraling out a can of chips, I heard a phone fall, and I heard a thump behind me. I went to turn around, but all of a sudden I was slammed against the vending machine.
There was a ringing sound going through my head and my eyes. My mind and body were processing things at a different time, and my heart had started racing. What was going on? I was looking around towards the floor to figure out what fell but when I looked up and figured who actually slammed me into the vending machine. I found him, Jaebeom. I looked into his eyes, and all I saw was rage and anger, and all I felt was fear.
"What are you doing?!" I looked at him, anger now sparking through me. I tried to move out of his grasp but he wouldn't budge. His grip tightened around me. I heard the bag of chips fall to the bottom.
"Camille needs a snack Jaebeom, let go." I pushed through his arms and broke free. I went to pick my phone off of the floor, flipping to the other side that's when I saw Jungkook's message.
Dear Y/N, I told you I would come ba-
A loud thump sounded in my ears and all of a sudden I couldn't breathe. Was this my body's reaction to all the stress right now? It felt like something was stopping my breathing. I had a second to read as I froze before I was now against the wall across from the vending machine. I looked at the vending machine and reached out to grab the chips that were now on the floor.
I then looked down at what I could tell was my neck. My head was unmovable, I could only use my eyes as I gasped for air. His hand. His hand was holding my neck. So tightly to the point I was starting to see stars. My body was in fight or flight mode and I had feared for my life for the first time ever.
"I knew you were cheating on me." I looked up at him in horror. My voice wasn't working anymore. I couldn't even speak to him because all I could think about was trying to catch a couple breaths. His fingers were tightening around my neck.
Only thing I could do was nod a no, and that didn't work for him. He got even more angry, but it wasn't like I could speak back.
I mustered out a simple no with the few breaths that I had. I begin to see stars forming around his head and my vision was going in and out. I would see black and then I'll see him and then my vision will go out. My hearing was going in and out, and I felt like he was almost 10 miles away. There's nothing I could do, I could've screamed. I couldn't do anything because my vocal cords were closing up on me.
I felt his grip loosened, and I used the chance to speak.
"I'm not cheating on you Jaebeom. Now let go!" I looked at him dead in the eyes.
"I don't believe you. You were waiting for him this whole time weren't you?!" His grip tightened and I could feel the blood rushing to my head. My eyes felt like they wanted to pop out as a few tears escaped. I used my nails to scratch at his hands but they didn't budge.
I can't breathe.
I can't breathe.
I.
Can't.
Breathe.
"Stop please." Was all I could say before I heard footsteps coming closer and he released his grip on me as he leaned in and kissed me until those steps left.
I gathered all my strength and pulled him off. I grabbed my phone and the bag of chips before turning around back to him.
"We're done Jaebeom. Leave. I don't ever want to be near you or your presence ever again you asshole. You're dead to me." I wiped a tear from my eyes as I began to walk. I heard his words of begging but decided to ignore him. I was done with him. I looked down at my phone and immediately typed into the text with Jungkook.
Don't worry he's done. He put his hands on me. I broke up with him just now. I have a match to get to so I'll read what you said later on the bus. Thank you for coming back.
Before heading into the locker room I went into the bathroom to fix myself. I covered the marks on my neck and the trauma built into my eyes with some makeup. I headed out the door just in time for our match to start.
How could I have let this happen? Why did agree to dating him? Every possible question floated around in my head. I had to brush all of them away and focus on what's ahead. The match.
User Not Found - 28 (Jungkook)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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Another month has passed and it was now the month before my birthday in September. My birthday wasn't until the first of the month and I had no clue what I was going to do about it.
Jimin was over every other week for the couple classes we had together and we grew close as friends. Last time he was here I was finally able to let him know the truth about Y/N and I and our relationship.
I redownload the app last week and reread her messages. She stopped sending them back in late July. I wonder what had happened.
I couldn't get that thought out of my head. Jimin mentioned we would brainstorm once he came over today.
I gave Kai some kibble before I heard a few knocks at the door. Kai started to wag his tail happily as he ate. I unlocked the door letting Jimin in. He left his skateboard at the door, He brought it as we usually skated together on days like this.
My mom wasn't home so it was just us and Kai. We headed upstairs where my laptop was opened on an assignment I was working on earlier.
"You gotta text her dude." I looked at him with a sigh.
"I don't know. I want to know what she's up to."
"So let's look at her account."
My body instantly had a rush of emotions. My palms got sweaty. I nodded and I sat down at my desk chair as Jimin took my bed.
"What's her ig handle?" I looked over to him as he pulled up his phone and I pulled it up on my laptop.
"It's @xoxoy/n" I felt my heart drop and a tinge of guilt appear as I typed her accounts name into the blocked users section. I clicked unblock then clicked on her account.
"Dude." I looked up at the computer screen as it loaded.
Once I saw her account I didn't know what to do or what to think. There was a new highlight, one where mine used to be and instead of the letters JK it was JB. The picture on the cover of the highlight showed a guy, with dark brown waves. I couldn't see his face but that would change when I clicked on it. The first story to pop up was from August 9th. It was a collage of multiple photos, showcasing the date in the bottom corner along with a red heart. I saw that same brown hair now with a face, that face was leaning against hers as if he had taken the picture. Another photo near the middle showed both of them holding hands with a popcorn bucket next to them. Another pic showed the movie credits.
It was safe to say that my heart had shattered. Have I taken too long? I was planning on coming back once I was finished with therapy. I was going to come back and I am. My last therapy session was on October 12th.
"I'm coming back." Jimin looked at me like had just seen a ghost.
"You can't do that now." I looked at him.
"He can't know as much as I know about her in a couple weeks. On the day of my last session I'm coming back to her and you can't stop me. She can't either, I love her too much, and I know she still loves me too. "
I didn't bother to look at the rest of the highlight and logged out of instagram before I closed my laptop. I took a deep breath and couldn't help but feel jealousy and anger. Why? Why would she move on so quickly? It hasn't been that long. There's no possible way she could've forgotten about me that quickly.
I took a deep breath and brushed all the word vomit away from my brain. He left the room and waited on me downstairs. I took Kai putting on his leash and we both grabbed our skateboards heading out the door.
"I don't know Kook, I wouldn't want to get into any of that." I looked over to Jimin across the ramp. I skated down and turned around on my board to face him.
The sun was shining on us, and the breeze flew through my hair freely.
"There's no way they could be that close already, right?" Jimin attempted a kickflip on a railing before sliding down the ramp. He skated to stop and spoke some truth into me.
"If she's posted him, with that many stories already, they seem pretty close. I'm not saying don't go back but it seems too complicated for my liking." I nodded in agreement.
They do seem close. They go to SunRidge together of course they were close. Was I going to text her eventually or just give up. That dilemma stayed in my mind for the rest of the day and I couldn't help but contemplate it.
What should I do?
User Not Found - 27 (You)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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Nerves encapsulated me. The bell had already rang and I was at my locker. Jaebeom and I were going to head to the gaming club as we both didn't have practice until four and it was currently two in the afternoon. There was a Mario kart tournament today so why not then spend some time together before practice?
No one really knew about what was sparking between us besides Camille. He was a nice and genuine guy. I hadn't gotten any red flags from him whatsoever. He mentioned his ex like I had mentioned mine and we had called a couple times over the week. Was this something new? Maybe even something real? What about Jungkook? I shook off the thoughts and took a deep breath as I grabbed my duffel bag with my badminton stuff inside of it.
Camille wouldn't be with me today as she had to go home and study for a test before coming back for practice. I was startled as I closed the locker door to find him leaning against the one next to me. He smiled before saying a simple hi.
"Are you ready?" I nodded in agreement. He took both his bag and my bag in his hand as we headed up the stairs behind us to the second floor.
Once we got up to the classroom, we had found a couple of desks towards the back to set our bags down and to rest at before we would be playing.
We got the sign up sheet handed to us as we both put our names down to go against each other and we sat back and watched the current round going on.
"You're really pretty when you focus like that. I saw you doing that at try outs." I flinched in shock, this feeling was new, I felt more nervous to be around him then just talking on the phone.
I looked over towards him and smiled.
"Thank you handsome." I didn't have to add a smiley face or hit send anymore. This was real. I could feel his presence next to me. My mind and heart was racing.
"Alright, Jaebeom, Y/N, Martin, and Hoseok you're up." A rush of excitement flooded through me as we both got up to sit in front of the tv at our designated controllers. It was me, Jaebeom, and two other guys. But I was sure I could win.
Jaebeom was sat next to me with the other two guys on the side opposite from us. We each chose our characters and vehicles. I chose from my memory of a couple years back. Toadette and a red car with small wheels. We all were waiting slowly revving the engines as we waited for the countdown to start. There was 3 laps in each round and there were 3 rounds of games, each losing the weakest player.
The horn blared and it was go time. I started by using a tactic, by grabbing smaller wheels for the most speed. I collected the lucky block towards the middle of the lap releasing a green shell behind me. I passed the first lap. I felt a lift in my emotions an immediate smile crossing my face as I passed Hoseok and continued within first place.
I passed the second lap and it was now the last round. A red shell went straight for me and it was Hoseok catching up who threw it. I found another lucky block as it loaded and got a banana peel. I dropped them all in order tripping Hoseok who was coming up behind me. I made it past the finish line finishing the first round in first place.
I looked around at Jaebeom who dropped the controller on the table because he came in fourth. I chuckled to myself as his brown eyes looked up at me.
"What's so funny?" I chuckled a little more.
"Nothing I promise." I laughed a little louder.
I then said something I didn't expect myself to say.
"Don't worry, I'll win this for us." I watched his facial expression turn into a smile.
I leaned forward on the table as I was choosing the same character as before. I could feel him moving around next to me. I was leaning towards the table as I didn't notice his movement since I was focused on the round now starting. I leaned back a little and felt his arm on the back of my chair. As focused as I was I could feel the pit in my stomach starting to feel like butterflies flying around in there.
I leaned back against his embrace as I continued to play and I couldn't help but feel a small amount of guilt. I shook it off and continued playing.
I lost against Hoseok in the last round. It was me against him and I had lost. I came into second place winning a free tshirt and I couldn't have been happier. It was now time for both of us to head to practice. He took both of our bags again no matter how many times I could carry it myself. I followed him up the stairs. He stopped in his tracks in the break between the other two stairwells.
"You lost Y/N." I looked at him as he set the bags down on the floor.
"You remember our bet right?" I nodded in agreement. If I won he would have to buy me snacks for the month and if I lost, I'd have to go on a date with him.
He smiled at me and walked a little closer than before.
"I'm thinking Friday, at 6? I'll pick you up. And I'm bringing you home today. There's no point of you having your parents pick you up or go home with Camille when we share the gym and I could bring you home myself. " I looked at him in shock. My mouth was left hanging open.
He walked closer to me as I stood there frozen. I nodded to him but couldn't speak. He took me into an embrace and whispered into my ear.
"I can't wait to take you out on a date beautiful."
A rush of emotions hit me and I wrapped my arms around his neck as his were already on my waist. We stood there for a couple of minutes and I could hear our breathing and his heart beating as fast as mine. What was this feeling? I kept thinking about that in my mind.
"Thank you." I spoke to him softly. He held on but gave me a confused expression.
"For what?"
"For this, the date, everything." I looked up at him giving a small smile. He pulled me in a second time before letting go. I could feel the heat rush to my cheeks as I watched him grab both of our bags as we made it to the third floor.
On the third floor there was a long hallways that would bring you to the gym building. We walked through that hallway and down a couple stairs to split up in the locker rooms.
I walked in and sat down on the bench next to my locker, all I could think about was what had happened just then. I couldn't help but smile at it.
Today was the day. It was Friday, I was already home from school and Camille was on the phone helping me pick out an outfit. This was my first date ever and it was a big deal.
Over the summer while everything was going on, I learned and taught myself how to do makeup. Especially natural makeup, it was the best way to hide my red and puffy eyes from crying about Jungkook when it was time for dinner. I still thought about him some days. But I stopped sending messages, it seemed like it was for the best.
I had finally chosen an outfit, I chose a long sleeve black top, with straight leg lighter jeans and a pair of sneakers. My hair was down and curled and I grabbed a small purse I would use on occasion. I was talking to Camille when I saw his text message mentioning that he was here. I hurriedly hung up on her bidding goodbye and rushed down the stairs. Both of my parents were at work late tonight and I would be back before it was dark anyways.
I rushed down the stairs and out the front door, as I pulled out my house keys locking the front door. I looked forward at the white car. He was standing outside waiting for me. I walked towards him as he took me into an embrace.
"Hello beautiful, are you ready?" I nodded and stepped back as he opened the door for me. I got in and placed my purse into my lap as I buckled myself in. He closed the door and got in on the other side. He started the car and we left.
We had made it to the movie theaters and were currently in line for popcorn, snacks and drinks. The movie we wanted to watch sold out on the spot so we chose a romcom.
We got everything and we were walking to our seats. He chose seats all the way in the last row. For what felt like a two mile walk we had made it to our seats.
We settled in and watched as only a couple of other people were in the theater with us. It seemed like two other couples and they were further off to the front. I took a sip of my drink and a bite of popcorn as the movie began to start. I leaned into him as his arm circled around me pulling me as close as we could be with the separator between the chairs.
The movie was hilarious, we were laughing through it. It was probably the middle of it now. I could feel him moving closer to me. I took a bite of my popcorn and ignored it until I felt his other hand land on the side of my face as my eyes were pulled away from the screen and into his. His brown eyes were darker with this lighting. I looked into them and smiled, he did the same. He began to lean in and my heart started beating quicker.
I closed my eyes out of my body's response and felt him slowly. His lips moved onto mine and he held my head gently. I kissed back as I followed his rhythm. I could feel the thumping of my heart within my ears. Was this my first kiss? It was.
Another rush of guilt flew through me as we parted. I looked into his eyes and smiled wider than ever. He held me closer and we sat watching the rest of the movie.
The car stopped at a small halt and he turned it off after putting it in park. I looked over towards him and at the dash board, it was 8 o clock. My parents wouldn't be home till 10.
"Thank you Jaebeom." I looked at him and watched as his smile grew bigger.
"Y/N, I have a question for you." I looked back from the window into his eyes again.
"What is it?" I watched as a rush of nerves sparked in my veins and the same thing happened to his face.
"Will you let me be your boyfriend?"
My mouth widen in shock and my heart was beating in my ears again. A tinge of guilt struck through me as I remembered hearing a similar line like that before. I pondered what to say in my mind. I made the choice that would change everything.
"Yes of course!" I watched as he took me in another embrace before landing a kiss on my forehead and mouthing thank you. I smiled widely and bid him goodbye as I left the car and walked up to my door.
I opened it waving one more time before closing the door behind me and leaning against the door.
What did I just do?
User Not Found - 26 (Jungkook)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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I couldn't help but think of her every single day. As much as I wanted to change my thoughts she was always there. I had deleted the apps off of my phone. I was going to come back. But I couldn't keep reading all of her messages, it would cause me to hurt more and I seriously needed to get better.
It was a month into the new school year and being at a whole new school without any of my old friends was weird. It was hard and the only thing I could really do was stick to myself.
The new school was named East Apex Institute. Unlike Blackwood, this school was focused more on extracurriculars than the regular school work. I had a hard time choosing my classes as over here I could choose them. I looked down at my schedule one more time before getting up and heading to my next class as the bell rang.
Soren's Schedule
1. Eng Lit - R302
2. Int. Sketching - R403
3. Int. Painting - R401
4. Algebra 4 - R200
5. Int Guitar - R106
6. Int Music - R104
7. Com. Sci - R340
8. Int. Psych - R325
I couldn't help but feel a little excitement at having classes that I was interested in. This was new and nerve wracking. I broke into a sweat anytime I was asked to introduce myself within the class but I knew it would get better.
My mom had a new job at the hospital in Busan, the city we had moved to. She was happier here. She had a whole new dimeaner. She was less erratic even when she would call my dad to plan family visits.
Kai enjoyed the new space, it was larger than our last home and I enjoyed it too. It was 2 bedrooms and both were big enough. I could actually breathe now.
We both got better with the grief especially my mom. It felt like she was finally living. It felt like I could breathe around her now. I had some nights where I felt alone but it wasn't as often as before.
I loved our new life. It felt freeing, like I could leave all the bad things and thoughts in the past.
She wasn't a bad thing at all. In fact she was the best thing that has happened to me. I just needed a little more time before I came back. And I would be better than ever and ready to be her boyfriend again.
"Jungkook!" I bounced back out of my thoughts as I was elbowed in the side. I was sitting next to this student named Jimin and he was pretty cool. After the first day, we had chatted about life and what it's like here. We had a lot of things in common.
Skateboarding, music and even the arts. We grew closer but not as close to reveal the truth about my past. Maybe we would get there maybe we wouldn't. I had two years left before college and I had finally figured out where I wanted to go.
Art school, and the best one in the state. Atelier Collective of the Arts. It was a sub college of Atelier University, and it was the college of my dreams.
I looked up at my laptop screen as I typed in the schools name. It was where I wanted to go. something I could finally look forward to. My future.
"Great now, let's take a look at college applications." I switched over tabs and looked at my requirements and what I had achieved so far, and I couldn't have been happier.
User Not Found - 25 (You)
Synopsis: You fell in love with him through a phone, but he wasn't who he said he was.
Genre: Dual POV, Fluff, Angst
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That was the last I have ever heard from him.
It's been two months since we broke up and he had last texted. He told me I could check up on him, so I did. I texted him once a week for the first month. Then I spaced them out a little more until I had given up. He was never coming back.
It was a month into the new school year and it took a while for me to start adjusting to the new schedule. Camille and I shared one period now and that was lunch. I had a couple of friends in my actual classes but I chose to stick more to myself this year.
I decided I was going to join a sport this year to help distract myself from him. Luckily SunRidge had a badminton team and I couldn't be more than happy to try out later today.
I sat there in English class. I had finished my work earlier and I couldn't help but open the app on my laptop and find his account still there but offline.
If I was being honest with myself, I would've said that he had forgotten about me. My subconscious mind decided that it wasn't possible and that he was indeed going to come back to me. But every day that had passed was a day where that light in my heart would dim.
English was the last period way at the end of the day. I had already spoken to Camille and our plan to meet up in the locker rooms before try outs. I had everything packed and ready. Hopefully I could make the team, it would be a nice distraction.
I continued to stare at my unanswered texts and I couldn't help but feel sorry for myself. Why was I still waiting? It's been a while and he still hasn't come back. Will he ever come back? Maybe he's moved on? Those thoughts have replayed in my mind every single day and I couldn't help but feel like I was slowly going insane.
"You need to get your mind off of him Y/N." I looked over at Cami as she tightened her lower ponytail. We were both in the mirror, fixing our hair before going upstairs to the gym.
"I know but I just can't help it. I have so many unanswered questions and it's making me lose my mind." This time I was tightening my ponytail.
She nodded in agreement. We heard a yell from the door of the locker room on the opposite side of us.
"Let's go girls! It's time!!"
We both collectively started rushing throwing our bags to the side of the lockers and grabbing our water bottles before rushing up the stairs.
We stood in a straight line as we each said our name and grade. I looked around nervously, since when were other students allowed to watch? It was like Camille read my mind. She leaned in and whispered
"That's the boys volleyball team and the girls field hockey team, they both take the gym once we're done and split it up." I nodded with an "Oh."escaping my mouth and paid attention to the coach ahead.
We had now split up on opposite sides of the net. Camille and I were separated but that was what made us better.
I stretched onto the side and held onto my racket tighter than before. I listened closely as I heard the horn going off signaling for the opposite side to serve.
It was time. The opposite team served the birdie and it headed straight towards my direction. I ran to the side and hit it back almost instantly. I heard the cheers of the others coming from the bleachers.
We continued on and were tied in the last round. I was serving this time. I threw the birdie up along with my head as I watched it slowly come down before hitting it over the net within a second. I heard more cheers and this time my name?
"Woo! Go Y/N!" That couldn't have been real. Who else knew besides Camille. Both the volleyball and field hockey teams were varsity teams that were filled with mostly seniors. I shook it off and continued playing.
The game just ended and I was catching my breath after giving Camille a hand shake since it was a good game. The coach, coach Mills, was congratulating us and was deciding on the team by her office. We had a ten minute break before team announcements.
So Camille and I along with the other girls went straight to our water bottles that were sitting, lined up against the yellow padded walls.
My back was turned as I was facing Camille who was leaning against the wall. I couldn't see who was coming towards me until they tapped on my shoulder. I looked at Camille before turning around. Her eyes were bulging out of her eye sockets. I turned around to find one of the senior volleyball players, Jaebeom.
"You did great out there Y/N was it?" I nodded in agreement.
"Thank you Jaebeom." He looked surprised as to how I knew his name.
"You can call me JB, and since we already know each other's names, I'd like to take you out sometime Y/N." I looked at him in disbelief. He wants to take me out? On a date?!
My mind kept going back and forth as to what to do. He smiled at me his hand shaking mine slipping a piece of folded paper into my hand before walking out to the locker rooms as he moved a black wavy piece of hair out from his face.
Camille grabbed onto my shoulders startling me as she watched me open up the piece of paper to find his phone number in it.
"You have to give him a chance Y/N."
"What about him, Jungkook, he was going to come back Cami, he promised." She gave me a look that said I was insane.
'"It's been months Y/N, do what your gut tells you." I breathed in slowly before I could decide on what to do. Was Jungkook really coming back? Should I give Jaebeom a chance?
I snatched my phone from under my water bottle and typed those 10 digits in, creating a contact and naming it JB :/.