A Beautiful Disgrace

Hello Jell-O; I'm Amanda. (: 25. Tumblr/Twitter Addict. Fangirl. Avid pizza consumer. Ovarian cancer survivor. #Stage2C. Synesthete. #TeamTargaryen! #TeamDixon! #TeamRafael Oddball. Art Enthusiast. "It doesn't matter how slow you go as long as you don't stop."

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when you unpause a game and forget you’re fighting a bunch of enemies

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Walking in the Rain Sounds

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The aesthetic

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Thank

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what a blessing

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i want rain

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Heaven….

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🥺🥺

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ten minutes into “conspiracy theories & chill” and we start gettin illuminaughty

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So excited to try out @meltcosmetics #SmokeSessions palette, grinder, and #Santeria lip liner. Thank you beautiful souls. 💚🖤 My attempt at a look with it coming soon. 😘 . . . #makeup #mua #palette #MeltCosmetics #SmokeSessions #makeupartist #inthemaking #punintended #marijuana #cannabis #weed #grinder #lip #liquidlip #liner #cannabiscommunity #female #blogger #bloggerstyle #linkinbio https://www.instagram.com/p/CB660Vjg_FV/?igshid=7xwsmxrhrp4w

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Soulmates I tell ya! 📷: @marriageandmartinis . . #blogger #bloggerstyle #wine #wino #hotmess #hotmessblogger #woman #AmandasHotMessLife #LinkInBio https://www.instagram.com/p/B6R5bQtAJUX/?igshid=14zed25eiaddd

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Ready for chapter 27 in this book of life. 🖤😊🎂 Couldn't be more greatful for everyone who's been by my side old and new during this intense year. I love you all and am so thankful! . . #birthday #27 #Sagittarius #blogger #blog #bloggerstyle #torrid #torridfashion #straighthair #naturalcurls #sorrynotsorrycurlfam #itshottoday https://www.instagram.com/p/B5MgU6-gNU0/?igshid=3ej30sp0yi0f

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I don't want to talk too much in details about my personal struggles and I'll probably delete this later but...depression and anxiety are real bitches. That feeling of loneliness and desperation that never leave you, when you'd rather go to bed to go through your day than going for a walk and enjoying the beautiful sun. When everything and everyone annoys you. Or worse, you think youre annoying everyone. You think you'll never find real happiness again and good moments in the past are definitely in the past. You put a mask on every day, a full face of makeup to hide your pain and stay strong for your loved ones because they need you and you have to. That's what its like for me at this moment. Seeing my therapist today and she helps me on some aspects, but still. The overwhelming feeling of sadness will be there for a majority of my day I imagine. World Mental Health Day. Take it for yourselves people. 🖤 How are YOU doing? #WorldMentalHealthDay #MentalHealthAwareness #Anxiety https://www.instagram.com/p/B3cjAbcgFG3/?igshid=z4wjf11kyd7j

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Quick Sharpie sketch. 🖤 https://www.instagram.com/p/BxtsU1tHfQz/?igshid=12djf9f8xthjk

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Spring vibes. 🦋🖤 https://www.instagram.com/p/Bxi93G2A7Bs/?igshid=8ur1942zlytk

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Haven't posted a selfie in a minute. Happy Valentine's Day. 🙃❤️ . . . #selfie #makeup #naturallook #valentinesday https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt5bt6QhCvV/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=2spc07g07sbk

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Start of my post-birthday spa treatment 😊 Nails, hair and massage. 🖤 . . #Nails #Hair #Massage #SpaDay #Birthday (at Tracy Nails) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqkZM2ghEor/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1517ikhlvmjp4

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Watching @makingamurderer on #Netflix got me feeling likeeee.... . . #mood #truecrime #makingamurderer #part2 https://www.instagram.com/p/BphuyUhFo17/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=zfkuzz2prxcn

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J.K Rowling said. "Is fat really the worst thing a human being can be? Is fat worse than vindictive, shallow, vain, boring, evil or cruel? Not to me." I wasn't going to write anything about this but I need this as a message to all the ladies out there after what I've gone through in the past couple of days. Women (lmao and men) often see unrealistic images on the daily of what an "ideal" woman looks like. The unfortunate message is that women need to be thin to have the greatest value in society. ...... Guess what. That's bullshit. Shut down the voice that makes you second guess yourself. Whether it's your own or some asshole telling you. Overpower negative thoughts by choosing positive ones. Most importantly. You are beautiful. No matter what you're going through. No matter what that dickhead told you through the computer. No matter how messy your hair is or how little sleep you got. No matter how you're feeling, do yourself one favor today - Remind yourself: You're beautiful. You're strong. You're capable of doing amazing things. . . #Inktober #Day24 #BodyImageMovememt #BodyPositivity #FatShaming #LoveYourself #SelfLove #YoureMoreThanYourBody #MoreThanANumber https://www.instagram.com/p/BpUcG7XFhRd/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1a6k9r81yyt1n

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Me too Ursula.

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Fuck them all tbh. I've been hella patient. 🤷‍♀️🖤 https://www.instagram.com/p/BpNMjVjFzov/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1621t2jv5rs43