now I blaze wild and free

Ches Elswood ♥ literally a hot mess

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oh-no-luca‌:

“i know.” he breathed out a bit nervously with a soft smile on his lips before he pulled away from her and pushed the door open. “you’re right. i did.” he said finally as he took off his sweater and hung it up on the coat rack and took off his shoes and put them to the side. he grabbed his glasses that were resting on the counter and put them on and walked over to the kitchen. his home looked completely different without all the bottles of alcohol on the floor. luca was always too embarrassed to bring people over when it was in that state which was practically all the time. but now? now you could actually tell what the colors on the walls were which was a faint burnt orange color and it wasn’t constantly dark when you walked in. he made the house his own almost. “just take your shoes off, yeah? i spent so long making everything spotless.” he said laughing a bit as he awkwardly ran his fingers through his hair. 

“you want marshmallows or anything like that in your cocoa? i have the little tiny ones. they might be a little stale though.” he said simply with a shrug. he personally didn’t mind stale marshmallows but he wasn’t sure about other people. besides, they were all he had right now. he opened his fridge for the milk revealing how empty his fridge actually was and closed it before grabbing the cocoa from the top shelf. “you can pick something to watch too if you want to. the movies are in the basket under the table by the tv.” he said humming softly as he grabbed a pot and turned on the stove getting ready to prepare the hot cocoa. “i can also get a few blankets too if you want those as well. i just went through all of them and washed them so they should actually be clean, unlike last time.” he said laughing a bit as he poured the last of the milk in the pot. 

Ches smiles as she walks through the front door, almost having to take a step back when she realizes just how much his home had changed since the last time she had been in it. It felt more like Luca’s home now that there weren’t beer bottles everywhere, now that the traces of his father’s presence were fading away. “It looks great, Luca.” She tells him as she slips her shoes off, placing them neatly against the wall before she shuts his front door. “Feels more like a home now even, you know I never realized your walls are that color?” She smiles as she goes to join him in the kitchen, leaning against a counter as she watches him get to work on the hot cocoa.

“Stale mini marshmallows are fine by me, we all know they melt in any way,” Ches assures him, raising an eyebrow when she sees just how empty his fridge actually is. She doesn’t comment on it, just makes a mental note that she would be bringing him food as soon as she could get it through his door. Even if she had to sneak it in his fridge to get it in there. She pulls away from his counter at the mentions of movies, making her way over to the table to sort through them. “I’m not stressing blankets too much personally, but if you want the I never object to them either.” She admits as she looks through the movies, setting the ones that actually might be worth watching gently on the table. 

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corihans·:

          it’s  only  a  matter  of  seconds  before  corinna’s  hoisting  herself  into  the  roof  of  an  old  sub  shop  ,  broken  ladder  barely  even  usable  without  the  slightest  bit  of  help  .  still  ,  she’s  done  this  so  many  times  that  she’s  learned  to  get  around  the  hurdles  .  standing  up  as  she  glances  down  at  the  other  ,  eyebrows  lift  and  she  offers  a  hand  down  towards  them  .      ❛    come  on  ,  it’s  not  that  bad  !  just  look  at  the  view  ,  it’s  amazing  .    ❜      there’s  no  teasing  undertone  .  in  fact  ,  her  words  are  soft  and  reassuring  .  the  hand  lingers  for  a  moment  as  her  head  cants  .      ❛    please  ?  i  won’t  let  you  fall  .  i  swear  .    ❜

“I still think we should be breaking into the hardware store to get you a better ladder,” Ches admits as she takes Corinna’s hand. “Cori, this thing shouldn’t be used - it’s awful.” She gets up onto the roof of the old sub shop easily enough however, taking a deep breath as she looks around at the view. “You’re right about the view though, it’s incredible.” She sits down on the roof quickly, looking up at the stars with a smile on her face. It was clear she never realized there was a spot in West Ham that could be this beautiful, her own backyard’s view of the stars felt like nothing in comparison at the moment.

Perhaps she should have tried scaling rooftops to see them a long time ago.

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dcvilqueen‌:

⟩  ⟩  ALIX  ⋆  OPEN

  +  the wheels of the skateboard skidded on the pavement of the roads  ,  her run down vans pushing against the pavement in fury as she picked up the speed  .  it was an easier way of travelling than in a goddamn car  ,  especially if it was for a quick and agile escape  .  this time it wasn’t because she did something to spite the other factions; a sharp turn and she sees another person in her way  .  the other is too close to react  ,  unfortunately bringing the other down with them and she sneered  ,  “  ever heard of fuckin’ getting out of the way  ?  ”  .

Ches raises an eyebrow, rolling her eyes at Alix as the woman sneers. “Ever heard of looking before you lash out.” She snaps back, getting up and offering the leader of her faction a hand to get up. “Guess I don’t have to track you down now though, but for fuck's sake - do that to someone actually stepping out of line next time. You’re lucky I’m just coming back from dropping more seeds over at Luca’s. Otherwise this would have been unintentional self-sabotage.”

She didn’t even want to think what that crash could have done to the seeds she was bringing over to help the process of expanding the garden Luca was trying to start. She was certain the answer was anything good though and she rather liked the idea of ensuring they grew food this year, honestly.

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oh-no-luca‌:

“or a very cringy pun.” he said as a laugh formed on his lips and he looked over at her. “ches elswood; the wildcard, never knowing what you’re going to get.” he said teasingly as he nudged her shoulder playfully still letting their hands mindlessly swing by the side as they walked. it was calming to be with her sometimes and suddenly he felt safer knowing that she might be staying with him oddly enough. even if the house was small that he lived in, it was comfy enough to have at least three people plus a rabbit living in it if someone else had decided to join them in the future. “i think i planted them wrong or something. i don’t know, i’m still trying to figure it out but i’m hoping to make it bigger, maybe try to even trade some of it for other things to other factions. who knows. i don’t know. it sounded like a good idea in my head.” he said simply with a shrug as he could feel his hands nervously sweating as he held onto hers, always a bad habit of his. he truly did hate how sweaty his palms were and how easily nervous he got. 

“i- i- i-i…” he supposed that she was right. they can’t have good food go to waste especially right now. he used his free hand to run his fingers through his hair and sighed. “i guess you’re right.” he said sighing looking a bit defeated. it was a good thing that she did have a large family though because he basically did have nothing. he had to start from scratch and the lonely two bedroom home was finally starting to look well put together after the state it was in that his father left it in. he couldn’t remember the last time that he could see the floors clearly. 

a small smile formed on his lips. was that even blush on his cheeks? possibly. he cleared his throat as gave her hand a tight squeeze as well. “i love animals. maybe we can even clear out space just for the rabbit where he can see the both of us when he pees.” he said teasingly as he finally pulled out the keys to his home once they got to the doorsteps. his gaze wandered down to where he thought her eyes were. “hey.” he said softly before opening the door to his home and let his hand rest on her cheek gently. “i need you too.” 

“Oh, it was definitely a very cringy pun. Hallmark isn’t capable of anything better than that.” Ches grins at him, the joy on her face growing when he teases her about being a wildcard. “Yup, and don’t you ever forget it.” She winks at him as they walk, her voice playful as she teases him back. It was a joke truly, she highly doubted she was close to unforgettable personally - she was just Ches - but spending time with Luca was always enough for her to feel warm inside. She was just glad she was allowed to have a good relationship with him again. “We’ll go through it together later, see what we can figure out. I think it’s a great idea though. You’re thinking ahead, it’s smart.”

Her smile fades when she sees how defeated he looks when he realizes she’s right. “Think of it as my rent, if it’ll help. Okay? You’re letting me invade your home and steal your company so I’m not lonely, and allowing a massive rabbit. Gotta be honest, landlord of the year right there.” 

She smiles again when he blushes, her face softening even more at the sight of his cheeks changing tiny. “Maybe we can do that if it’ll tickle your fancy. I’m sure Jerome will love you, he likes to cuddle and he kinda can’t cuddle Buttercup right now so he’s a little needy. That’s Ella’s cat.” She explains, she still can’t figure out how she had one animal but not the other - she wasn’t sure she wanted to run through the options in her head for that matter.

She stands on his doorstep patiently as he pulls out his keys to open the door, leaning into his touch when he reaches out to rest his hand on her cheek. She can feel her face getting warmer as the blood rushes to her cheeks, and she gently puts a hand on top of his. “I’m not going anywhere, I promise. Okay?” She drops her hand back to her side before she continues to speak. “Now if I remember right, you promised me hot cocoa and I promised you anything you want. Shall we head inside?”

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wxrrcn‌:

this was considered him letting loose. would he ever waste the time of the day or energy to letting out all of his anger and frustration on a gnome sober? hell no. he preferred to do that in non-violent ways on other people, but he was giving himself a break. the duration of it was still unspecified. “it looked like it was staring at us,” he added onto her words as he walked back towards the female and took a hit. “lets hope we don’t have to hold another funeral for that thing.” ches was probably used to his lack of compassion and empathy by now. just like his liking for dark humor. “well, i’m not going to say thanks for you not being a leech for once in your life,” he responded with his brows raised at her for a second. “i’d say make me a fan account if we had fucking internet, ches, but at this point i think i’d prefer a shrine. seems more TASTEFUL too, don’t you think?” he smirked.

“I’m not sure I’d blame it if it was. We are a much better view than it’s used to.” Ches teases him, raising an eyebrow when he mentions a funeral. “Bold of you to assume people will even notice the garden gnome’s disappearance. There’s a reason a good chunk of serial killers started off with sex workers, when nobody cares - nobody gives a shit when they die.”  It’s a casual statement, in all honesty, a basic fact. When there was no one to mourn, a funeral was the least likely thing they’d ever have to deal with here. She grins when he tells her he won’t say thank you, “I didn’t want you to. Stop giving me that look, after all this time I say I have the right to care about you so we can both laugh at my shit taste in judgment.” It’s not that big of a deal to her, she knew what Warren was and she didn’t care. He was her first friend in West Ham for fuck's sake, she’d dealt with more than enough shit over the years from him. “I’m offended you’re aiming so low, Warren you ought to know better than that. If we’re doing anything of the like for you, we’re starting a cult. I’ve seen the way girls toss their panties at you, it wouldn’t be hard to change that levels of interest into a devotion where they’d be willing to do anything for you at the snap of your fingers. That might actually be more fun to watch than seeing how many notches your bedpost actually has at this point.” 

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A Bad Idea Text

[ Sent -> Isabel ] So I have the best idea, and hear me out on this one - I think we should eventually work on the whole.. IV thing.  I’m not saying now - I have way more to learn about veins and all before I attempt it - but it just sounds like something that would be useful.

[ Sent -> Isabel ] Also, I haven’t slept in like 24 hours because I’ve been studying - but that doesn’t make my idea any less valid. Okay??

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BEEP

A Concerned Text [Randomized]

[ Sent -> Lane ] Hey, quick question - WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?

[ Sent -> Lane ] Are you trying to get hurt? Because that’s what it looks like and you need to fucking stop.

[ Sent -> Lane ] I’d have to find someone else to fight with.

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wxrrcn‌:

“HOLD THIS,” he spoke suddenly, pushing a joint in someone else’s hand right the second those words escaped his mouth. the male took a few steps towards the porch, grabbing the medium sized garden gnome from it before throwing it right against the fence farther away, making the thing shatter into bits with a loud noise. was it his garden gnome? no. and did he felt like he owed anyone an explanation? also no. “fucking hated that thing,” he muttered to himself before coming back to take his joint. 

“That fucking thing creeps me out-” Ches was still chattering his ear off when he shoves his joint into her hand and goes into the yard they were passing. She can’t help the grin when she watches him smash the very thing she was discussing, she already knew it had nothing to do with what she said - Warren never reacted because of people other than himself. She never held that against him, she didn’t hold much of anything against him at this point.

He had put up with her shit since they were children, things with him was were so simple for her at this point.

“You killed it.” She’s clearly pleased when he comes back, offering him back his joint. “I’m not even charging you my usual holding tax on that and stealing a puff.” She doesn’t even acknowledge the fact she didn’t tend to charge him that tax unless she was mad at him, he was just exempt from the thing she did to literally anyone else who handed her their stuff. “You did that yard a massive favor.”

Sure, Ches was biased towards this action but that didn’t matter. The gnome was gone and that was the most important part.

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oh-no-luca‌:

a laugh escaped his lips as he shook his head. “yes, cheesy horrible hallmark movies. sure some of them are okay but other times it sounds almost cringy.” he says teasingly as he poked the side of her arm. it almost felt normal for them to be doing this and being here with each other. it was like they never even dated and things were never awkward between them. he was glad that they got over it. they got over it quickly too oddly enough and he was glad to still have her as a friend. maybe living with her wouldn’t be such a bad idea. he hated being home anyway but these nights it felt like he was alone a lot more frequently. it was sad almost. it made him realize how he didn’t really have that many friends before this trip even though it may have seemed like he did. “right, yeah probably. i just overwatered it. i used to think i was good with gardens but maybe i just don’t have a green thumb.” he said laughing slightly though he shifted in his spot at the mention of sharing food. it would feel weird. 

“ches…” he said his brows furrowing slightly as he held onto her hand and they started to walk down the sidewalk. the feeling of the chilly summer weather felt good after being inside all day. “i realize how many siblings that you had… but you don’t understand. we could be here for a while.” luca said swallowing slightly. it almost sounded weird for luca to be saying that considering he had very little food in his place. eventually he will have to raid a grocery store but that’s stealing and it feels weird to him even though people have been doing it since day one. “i mean, yeah i guess. but if you stay at my place and we share food we have to keep inventory. go on trips eventually to get more.” he said awkwardly rubbing the back of his neck. he was now trying to think ahead. he was trying to make sure that everyone was okay for the most part even if everything was going to shit. 

“well perfect, if he’s litterbox trained then we have nothing to worry about.” he said until he thought about what would happen if they were to run out of food for the poor rabbit. he bit the bottom of his lip as he shook his head at the thought. “hopefully someday you’ll get to see her again.” he said giving her a soft smile. she had people to go back to if they got out of here. he didn’t but he’d try to be hopeful for her even if he didn’t one hundred percent believe his own words. but she needed to hear them it seemed like. “yeah of course. i can help you move out either really tonight or tomorrow even i don’t have plans unless someone needs me which is a rare occasion these days….” he said his voice trailing off as he spoke and he mindlessly stared in front of him. 

“Hey at least they follow a formula - the guy gets what he’s after. Ever see the one where the guy is just trying to adopt a dog? Don’t ask me what it’s called - hell if I know, it only stood out because of the end goal. Knowing Hallmark though It likely has something to do with a pun.” Ches smiles, “I guess there’s the fun perk of never knowing what you’re going to get with me. Other than now, you still haven’t officially named your price yet.” It wasn’t hard to be less predictable than a Hallmark movie though, in all honesty, those movies pretty much followed the same points every time without fail. She raises an eyebrow at him when he says he doesn’t have a green thumb. “I wouldn’t say that; it’s probably something you overlooked without realizing it. Some plants don’t like being watered every day, some plants run into issues with pests easily. We’ll figure it out, Luca - don’t write off a green thumb yet.”

“And refrigerated food expires, Luca. It’d do more good in your stomach than it would be having to be tossed because I couldn’t get through it in time. You act as if I’m not already trying to stash up arrows for hunting later. I don’t want us to be here alone for that long but I know I don’t always get what I want. We’ll keep inventory and check on it - but I’m sharing my food with you.”

"We just have to ensure he can get to his litterbox.” Ches reminds him, closing the rabbit out of the room with the litterbox would be a disaster. She cracks a smile when he mentions he hopes she gets to see her family again someday, “hopefully, it’ll be hard to introduce you to her someday if I don’t.”  She nudges his shoulder as she says the words, holding onto his hand tighter as they walk. “Let’s do it tomorrow although I’m offended you think people needing you is a rare occurrence. I need you, and I know I’m not the only one who does.”

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baynotbayley‌:

Bay’s likes her new digs, for the most part.

The company could be better – most of them seem to be keeping to themselves at this point, and Bay’s already missing Ches and Isabel and Sammy more than she thought she would – but the mansion is HUGE, the room she’s claimed is nice, and Lucky seems to be enjoying the extra space, so Bay hasn’t found much of a reason to complain.

And she doesn’t really mind the quiet, especially this morning, when all she really wants is to be curled up with Harry Potter.

And cake.

Why does she smell cake?

Bay looks up from her book and is surprised to see that Lucky is not beside her anymore, and the door to her room is further open than before. She makes her way out of bed, heading out into the lavish hallway, following the aroma but also calling Lucky’s name simultaneously.

But when she hears that familiar voice, Bay can’t help but walk a little quicker in that direction.

“Well, well, well, look who finally decided to stop in.”

“It took you way longer than I thought you would take to show up.” Ches points out, standing up and forcing herself to stop petting Lucky before she tries to go searching for candles for the cake. “You guys haven’t figured out the alarm system yet, have you? It didn’t even make a peep when I broke in. Not that anyone will actually respond to it but the noise, babe. It’d work to alarm you.” She continues to try to search for candles. Surely the elderly still kept candles, she hadn’t thought of snagging a thing from her house before she came over.

“I baked it from scratch, it’s not your present but it’s not a birthday without me trying to shove cake in your direction. Where are the new roommates? They can’t all be anti-social, right? There should be enough to share if you deem them worthy.”  She already knew if Bay wasn’t friends with her new housemates it wasn’t the girl’s fault.

Her friend could probably flirt the pants off of anyone, it sure used to work on her at least.

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QUESTION: why do we mortals love icarus so?   ANSWER: because he flew, darling. he fell, yes, but first he dared to soar. we are all trying to learn from him.

sunlight & other impossible things | myths reimagined #6 | inkmagician (via inkmagician)

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Bay ( @baynotbayley )

Ches didn’t really think it should technically count as breaking and entering, the lock on Bay’s front door was pitifully easy to pick and she had a cake. If anyone broke in her home with cake and didn’t do anything bad, Ches wouldn’t be mad herself. Plus it was Bay, her favorite girl and the owner of the true love of her life - Lucky. “Anybody home? Come on, you have to be home. I didn’t break in with cake just for you to not be home.” She hollers as she sets the cake on the kitchen counter. “Bay.” She whines as if it would just make her friend appear.

The familiar clink of a collar meets her ears and she quickly kneels down to pet the golden retriever who came to greet her. “Well if it isn’t the love of my life, my Lucky boy. You’re not working, right? Because as much as I love you, you better not have left my favorite girl while on duty.” She kisses the top of the dogs head as she showers him with affection, glancing up occasionally in hopes of seeing Bay herself.

After all, she was truly here for the birthday girl.

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oh-no-luca‌:

“yes, you do sound that cheesy.” he said arching a brow up at her with an amused smile on his lips. usually it’s something that he’s used to because he’s the one to sounds that cheesy. really, he’s always the one to be there for other people but no one is usually there for him. it almost felt odd having ches be there for him through whatever. it was like he knew that he needed to make sure that she was okay through all of this. she’d still be around even if for some odd reason… he wasn’t. though he wasn’t going to think about that outcome yet even though eh was thinking about all the worse possibilities. “i didn’t do anything to it!” he said defensively. “it just looks like it got ran over or something. or maybe i killed a lot of the plants. the weather hasn’t been that good lately. it’s so gloomy outside but if i don’t really get this garden to uh…. start growing i don’t know what i’m going to do for food.” he said his brows furrowing slightly. he hates having to depend on the generosity of other people. it was always something that he hated. it was something that he saw a lot especially after his mother passed. there would be a new casserole in the fridge every week that was left untouched and to spoil because neither he or his dad wanted to touch the ‘apology food’ as they liked to call it. but now he somewhat wished that luca had kept the fridge socked even when he wasn’t there. he was kind of regretting it at this point. “i uh— ches you don’t need to bring anything. they’re your groceries.” he said awkwardly rubbing the back of his neck. “i have stuff that will get me through.” he said with a shrug. was it the best stuff? not really. but it was there and he wasn’t going to let it go to waste. he’d raid a grocery store soon if he had to. jerome, right the rabbit. he almost forgot about it. but of course, he was fine with it. “i mean, i guess i would usually say no, but seeing as there’s no one around but you and me, i don’t mind as long as jerome doesn’t go to the bathroom on the floor.” he said laughing a bit as finally felt at calm when he felt her skin against his own. 

“Fuck, guess I’m going to have to have to think of a different way to make sure you don’t forget I love you.” Ches grins back at him, not even realizing where his thoughts were going as they talked. “I can’t be Hallmark levels of cheesy, that’s not the endearing kind at that point.” She’s not sure if she actually minds the comparison too much - they did make the best cliche Christmas movies out of the inevitable mass produced made for tv films that plagued the season. Sure, they weren’t good, but they weren’t the worst, either. She shakes her head no when he tries to proclaim innocence with his garden. “Relax, Luca -  we all make mistakes with our first gardens. If it didn’t look like hell, I’d beg you to share some of that luck with me.” She assures him gently. “Odds are you accidentally overwatered it, and if we’re careful, it’ll perk right up. We can go through it in depth later, okay? Fix it right up.” She squeezes his hand again, hoping he understood she wasn’t holding anything he might have done to the garden against him in the slightest.

She shakes her head no when he tells her she doesn’t have to bring anything. “You have to remember how many siblings I have, Luca. If I try to eat all the food in my house right now, I’d gain weight, and you wouldn’t want to hang out with me anymore. If your fridge is mostly beer and I have food to the point I don’t think I’ll be able to get through everything in time, it’s not hurting me to share in the slightest. It’d technically benefit both of us, especially if you’re letting me crash at yours for a while.” It was the truth, even if she’s avoiding the fact that even if that wasn’t the case, she’d still try to share with him. Luca was important to her; if she had something he could benefit from she wanted to make sure he had access to it.

“He’s litterbox trained, plus he has a pretty big dog kennel for when he’s not supervised by a human. I promise you won’t have to worry about your floors, I think Effie loves Jerome more than she loves the rest of us. He’s probably the best birthday present I ever gave somebody.” She can’t help but smile when she talks about her younger sister’s love of the massive rabbit. He was well worth the price in her eyes, even if people tended to give her strange looks whenever she confessed she spent around a hundred dollars for the beast without batting an eye at the price. “I”m going to need your help moving it though, there’s no way one person can reconstruct his kennel by themselves - it’s physically impossible.”

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oh-no-luca‌:

luca rolled his eyes slightly as he couldn’t help but laugh a bit. “people have tons of other friends around here. i’m probably the last person they think about when they’re going through a midlife crisis and need someone to call.” he said shaking his head and he knew that much. people barely knew that he existed before all this happened. he was nothing to a lot of people and he thought that he was nothing to ches for a while but he supposed that part was wrong. “you have been sounding an awful lot like one of those hallmark commercials or something if you keep telling me how much i matter.” he said laughing slightly as he awkwardly rubbed the back of his neck. “i mean, i have a garden out in front but it’s kind of looking like a car ran over it or something, it’s not doing so hot. i’m trying to live off of that for a while because i don’t want to get in the way of other people. the old man never had anything decent in the fridge but i have a lot of alcohol.” he said simply with a shrug which was something that he didn’t even drink though he supposed that maybe he could use it for other uses? he wasn’t sure. “i feel like my place is deathly quiet. i’ve been starting to lock my doors at night because it’s kind of creepy being there alone.” he said a bit truthfully with a shrug and that’s when the idea hit him. “what if you come and stay with me for a bit? we can work on the garden and try to get it going. maybe we can get our members to try and grow a garden in front of their place? with fresh herbs and veggies. we gotta do something, right?” he asked his brows furrowing slightly. taking his plate he put it away before his hand grabbed hers and he already started leading his way down the familiar path to his small home. “i miss home. not my dad. but i miss having more people around.” he muttered as he let his gaze look at up at the starts mindlessly. at least he could still see those for now. 

“That doesn’t mean you’re not important to people, I don’t call everyone I love when I have a midlife crisis, doesn’t mean I love them any less.” Ches points out, if she was having a crisis she always wanted to call Emmett. He was the only person she thought fighting with time zone differences was always worth, no matter how tired she was. “I’m sounding that cheesy?” She pauses for a moment at his words, if it was sounding that bad - she’d have to figure out a different way to remind him he actually mattered to her. Her concern doesn’t last long though as he mentions his garden and her eyes go wide. “What did you do to it?” She asks him, concerned that he could get a garden to the point it looked like it was literally run over. “I’ll bring some decent stuff over later, and depending on the booze - we could cook with that. It’s not exactly the best medical wise, it can affect your blood clotting which isn’t always something you want but you could probably trade anything you can’t find a use for.” She really didn’t mind sharing what she had with him; if he could use it - he could have it.  “I know what you mean, Jerome makes some noise but it’s not the same.” She tilts her head when he suggests she moves in for a bit, was that actually a good idea? “Gardens could become vital at some point. You’ve convinced me, but before we make this an actual plan - the rabbit and I are currently a package deal until my sister comes back. He’s well behaved but he’s also 18 pounds so I’m well aware he could be a deal-breaker.” She squeezes his hand gently as he leads her back to his place. “If you ever need a person, you can always call me you know. I’m lonely too.” Sure, she could call Leo but she was already aware that he’d come in the door, they’d fuck, and he’d just leave again.

It helped at the moment but it didn’t truly solve the issue.

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                       –        “  the  difference  ches  ?  is  that  i  don’t  CARE  if  i’m  as  bad  as  my  enemies  ,  i  don’t  care  if  i’m  WORSE.  ”  her  words  shock  herself  ,  slipping  out  of  her  lips  without  warning.  but  the  decision’s  made  ,  there’s  no  going  back.          “  i’ve  tried  taking  the  high  road  and  clearly  that  doesn’t  pay  off  too  well  so  if  everyone  else  wants  to  stoop  ,  i  can  stoop.  ”  her  comments  about  second  place  are  like  a  slap  in  the  face  ,  but  all  lane  can  muster  is  a  faltering  laugh.          “  if  you  want  to  go  talk  to  odelia  ,  then  go  talk  to  odelia.  you  won’t  be  hurting  my  feelings  ,  i  promise.  ”

“  power  WILL  come  ,  but  i’m  telling  you  it’s  not  what  we  WANT.  your  little  gang  of  misfits  ?  you’re  throwing  a  childish  fit  over  LEADERSHIP  ,  over  POWER.  you  don’t  want  to  follow  someone  with  actual  logic  ,  you  guys  would  just  rather  secede  because  you  all  have  way  too  much  pride  to  follow  an  eighteen  year  old  that’s  smarter  than  you.  ”  her  shoulders  move  nonchalantly.          “  i  promise  you  ,  none  of  us  care  if  you  don’t  take  us  seriously.  NOBODY  takes  eighteen  year  olds  seriously  but  face  it  –  we’re  the  only  ones  here  with  our  heads  on  straight.  if  your  group  came  up  with  the  same  options  as  odelia  ,  we’d  follow.  ”

ches’s  admittance  calms  lane  down  –  a  fraction.  lane’s  always  riled  up  ,  always  ready  for  a  debate  ,  always  ready  for  an  argument.  she’s  spent  her  whole  life  nitpicking  at  the  details  and  having  fake  conversations  in  her  head  where  she  says  what  she  really  wants  to  say.  west  ham  now  is  bringing  it  all  out.            “  you’re  right  ,  i  didn’t  ask  for  your  opinion.  it’s  hard  to  stay  partial  to  all  the  insults  ,  you  know.  ”  her  last  words  are  laced  with  attitude  ,  sarcasm  that  likely  won’t  help  her  case.

“  but  thanks  ,  for  worrying  about  me.  i’ll  tread  however  i  want  to  ,  i’m  not  scared  of  anyone.  ”

Ches raises an eyebrow at Lane, “that’s an idea that has been proven disastrous throughout history. If you lay down with the dogs, you will get fleas and do things you never thought you were capable of. Don’t stoop lower than your morals, trust me. It’s a very slippery slope.” She doesn’t want to get into her own experiences and she already knew Lane could hardly care.

She shrugs, “I didn’t elect Odelia, I’m sorry I don’t want a queen who hasn’t even graduated high school yet. You know her brain isn’t developed fully yet? Not that mine is either but the closest to actually being fully developed adults are Luca, Bay, and Mickey. Strange, none of them agreed with you either.” She shakes her head, “there’s reasons why if you look through history inexperienced rulers just get executed. Young with no political experience being a big one. If you’re very serious about this, look through the mistakes of the people who came before you and do not repeat them. This isn’t debate club, there are lives on the line and decisions can be costly.”

She shrugs, “if I remember right, you literally came up to me while I was minding my own business and started with an insult. I just tried to move them in a way to get your brain actually moving. Who will I bash heads with if you end up getting yourself murdered? We might not get along but I happen to like having you around. It’s strange. You kinda remind me of Jamie, the fucker.” She shakes her head when she mentions her brother. He was off at Yale, studying law, being a massive dick as always. “Capable of greatness but with a tongue that could be your downfall. His has gotten better, thankfully. Hopefully, yours will too.”

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How to Be Single (2016), dir. Christian Ditter

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