⤷⁎𝓈𝓎𝓃𝑜𝓅𝓈𝒾𝓈: “Four years of yearning, two years of psychological games, and some medications have side effects—yours is falling for your brother's best friend."
⤷⁎𝑔𝑒𝓃𝓇𝑒: medical romance, slow burn, psychological tension, brothers best friend, age gap (4 years), medical student x resident
⤷⁎𝓌𝒶𝓇𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈: here
⤷⁎𝓅𝒶𝒾𝓇𝒾𝓃𝑔: hoseok x reader
⤷⁎𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓉𝓊𝓈: completed| 𝓌𝒸: 40k | 𝒸𝒽𝒶𝓅𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓈: 11/11
⤷⁎𝓆𝓊𝒾𝒸𝓀 𝓁𝒾𝓃𝓀𝓈: ao3 | wattpad | taglist
"You’ve spent four years convincing yourself that your brother’s best friend is just being nice when he remembers your coffee order, quizzes you on neuroanatomy, or lets his touch linger a second too long. Because there’s no way that the golden boy of Seoul National’s medical program might actually be flirting with you. Especially when he keeps saying things that could be perfectly innocent… if only he didn’t say them in that voice."
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summary — for 713 days, you've been sketching strangers on your morning commute, giving away portraits to brighten their day. when a missed train puts you on an unfamiliar route, you draw a white-haired man who's impossible to ignore. you think you'll never see him again—until he plasters half of tokyo with posters trying to find you.
word count — 16.4 k
genre/tags — modern AU, ceo x artist, strangers to lovers, mutual pining, slow burn, soft romance, fluff, so much fluff, banter, provider!satoru gojo bc goddamn yes & him being a very dramatic puppy in love, misunderstandings
warnings — 16+ ONLY. contains suggestive sexual content, brief mention of financial stress and reference to past cheating experience.
author's note — put on your favorite taylor swift playlist and get cozy for the fluff. i squeeeezed every tiny bit of fluff that i have out of my heart into this. side note, the idea came to me after seeing a tiktok of someone handing out sketches on a train hehe. hope it makes you smile <3
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Your alarm goes off at exactly 5:45 AM, the same time it has for the past three years. You silence it with a tap (or try, anyway) and slip out from under your warm blankets before the urge to just stay there and call in sick becomes too stong to withstand it.
Your small one-bedroom apartment is quiet, save for the distant early morning traffic of the city outside your window and your groaning as you make your way to the bathroom.
Your morning routine was more muscle memory than anything other at this hour. Shower (seven minutes), hair (five minutes, more or less), makeup (eight minutes), and outfit—already sorted from last night (smart you)—coffee and an avocado toast.
By 6:30, you’re checking your bag if you’ve got everything: laptop, planner, phone charger, and most importantly, your sketchbook—a simple Moleskine with cream-colored pages that are perfect for graphite—and a few spare pencils.
You flipped open to a new page in your sketchbook and wrote “Day 713.” Tomorrow’s entry would be 714.
You’d been counting since the first time you gave a drawing to a stranger, an elderly street musician whose weathered hands moved across his guitar strings so smoothly, you couldn’t help but try to capture his ease. When you’d shyly offered him the sketch afterwards, the tiredness in his face gave way to something softer.
Surprised. Delighted.
“Is this me?” he asked, his voice carrying that gentle kind of warmth older people always seem to have.
You had simply nodded.
The musician smiled, thanked you, and carefully tucked the drawing into the front pocket of his jacket, and that small moment sparked something in you—a sense of purpose, you could say, that had been missing from your otherwise structured life as a graphic designer. Since then, every morning without fail, you picked a fellow passenger on your train commute, capturing them in a quick sketch, and offering it to them before your stop arrived.
Maybe it was cheesy, but you didn’t care. It was the smile that made it worth it—the way a simple gesture could light up someone’s face at such early hours—that’s what kept you going, for exactly 713 days and counting.
As you locked your apartment door this morning—Tuesday, 6:32 AM—you had no idea that your simple, stupid little cheesy routine was about to change.
Your phone vibrated as you reached the station entrance. A notification from the transit app lit up your screen:
Line 6 service temporarily suspended due to overnight maintenance issues. Please seek alternative routes.
Great. Just what you needed.
Line 6 was your direct route to the office, the one that got you there at precisely 8:00 AM every morning. And you’d never been late. Not once in three years at Takahashi Media Group. And today of all days? Really? The Yamada account presentation was at 9:30, and as lead designer, you needed time to prep.
Panic started to bubble.
“Excuse me,” you said to the nearest station attendant, trying to keep your voice steady while a tiny voice inside your head was screaming. “What’s the fastest way to Central District Station?”
Clipboard guy barely looked up. “Take Line 4, transfer at Miyashita to Line 9. Adds about twenty minutes.”
Twenty minutes?
Now panic was definitely starting to bubble up.
Okay, think. If you skipped your usual coffee stop and went straight to the office, you could still make it with just enough time to run through your slides once. Not ideal, but doable.
Line 4 was unfamiliar territory. Unlike Line 6, which you always caught early enough to get a seat, this one was already full. Businessmen in dark suits, students in uniform, and way too many elbows. And the smell—less lemony and clean, more like... cologne and sweat. You squeezed in and clutched your sketchbook to your chest as the doors closed behind you.
Usually, you picked your sketch subject within the first minute. It was like on autopilot by now. Your eyes would just land on someone, and you’d know. But in this crowded, unfamiliar car full of strangers, you felt a little bit lost. These weren’t your usual commuters, the ones you’ve come to recognize over hundreds of mornings, even if you’ve never spoken to them.
But then you saw him.
He was standing near the doors at the far end of the car, one hand gripping the overhead rail, the other tucked casually into the pocket of his pants. He looked completely out of place, so unlike the others around him.
He was tall. Like, really tall. And his hair was white. It caught the overhead lights in a way that made it shimmer, like fresh snow under a winter sun. He looked young, though. Early thirties, maybe? The white hair didn’t read as old, more like a choice. Or maybe it was natural. Hard to tell.
His suit was navy, perfectly tailored, but somehow different from all the other navy suits in the car. Maybe it was the cut, or maybe it was just him. He wore it like—well, like he wasn’t trying. Top button undone, no tie. A pair of green-tinted glasses perched on his nose, partly hiding his eyes, but not quite.
Everyone else around him was either half asleep or nervously checking their watches, the usual morning commute zombie routine. But not him. He looked completely at ease and almost... amused. Like the full train and countless elbows between one’s ribs didn’t bother him.
You flipped to a blank page in your sketchbook, adjusting your stance as the train swayed. Your pencil hovered, studying him for a moment. Then, like always, the world blurred at the edges as your pencil touched paper, almost making you forget about the schoolboy who stepped on your foot every few seconds, squeezed between other schoolchildren on their way to class.
After a while, the train announcement: Next stop, Miyashita Station. Transfer for Lines 2, 9, and 11.
You signed the corner, tore out the page, and held it for a second. This part was usually easy—walk over, smile, offer the sketch, say something nice, move on. But something about him made you hesitate.
What if he thought it was weird? What if he assumed you were flirting? What if he had a wife and three kids and a very awkward story to tell over dinner tonight? What if—
The train began to slow. Now or never.
You stood and started weaving through the packed car towards the stranger. He hadn’t moved, still holding the rail with that same relaxed grip, still wearing that faint smile.
“Excuse me,” you said.
He turned, and for the first time, you got a clear look at his eyes through those green-tinted glasses. Startlingly blue. Vivid and almost unnatural. Somewhere between forget-me-nots and ripe blueberries. When they locked onto yours, warmth spread through your chest like you’d just stepped into sunlight.
“This is for you,” you said and offered him the drawing.
For a second, he didn’t react, and panic started to flare. Oh no. He hated it. He definitely hated it. But it was good, or not? Not Picasso, but decent. Solid. Right? Oh god, if he doesn’t say something, literally anything in the next second, you’re going to spontaneously die.
Then, finally, his lips curled into a slow, handsome smile.
“A drawing? Of me?”
His voice surprised you. Deep and smooth, with a certain richness to it, like dark chocolate. And... was that a Kyoto accent? Subtle, but there. He reached for the sketch, his fingers brushing yours as he took it.
You watched, breath caught in your throat, as his eyes moved over the page. It felt like your entire morning—no, your entire existence—was waiting on his next words.
“You’re very talented.”
...Huh?
You didn’t know what you expected, but it wasn’t that. Or rather, it was how he said it. Usually, people said “thank you,” or “oh, that's so sweet,” something polite and brief before they got off at their stop. But he said it like he meant every syllable. Like you’d just unveiled the Mona Lisa to him.
You. Are. Very. Talented.
The sincerity in his voice hit you oddly sideways.
Then the train doors hissed open and commuters surged forward, dragging you back to reality. Oh god—the presentation.
“This is my stop,” you said hastly, suddenly remembering everything else happening in your life. “I need to go.”
“Wait.” He took a small step forward, but you were already being swept along with the crowd.
“I hope you like it!” you called over your shoulder, catching one last glimpse of him, but then his white hair vanished among the sea of dark suits, and the doors slid shut behind you.
It wasn’t until you were halfway up the escalator to your connecting train that you realized something. Your signature—the tiny heart you always draw into the corner of your sketches. Gone. Missing. For the first time in 713 days.
It strangely bothered you. By the time you reached your office (7:58 AM—still on time, miraculously), you’d almost convinced yourself it was just the chaos of the morning and had nothing to do with the handsome stranger who made your heart beat just a little faster when your fingers touched. Absolutely nothing.
You shove the thought aside and focus on your presentation. Line 6 would be back tomorrow. Back to your normal route, your normal routine, your normal life. You’d never see that man again.
Or so you think.
Your presentation went flawless. The Yamada executives nodded along to your designs, and your boss even cracked a rare smile by the time you wrapped up. It was almost unsettling.
And by the time you packed up to leave, the handsome stranger had faded into the background—a fleeting moment in a city full of them.
Line 6 was back on schedule that evening. You found your usual seat. Everything was exactly the way it had always been. Just how you liked it.
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
The next morning, you slipped back into your routine without thinking. Alarm. Shower. Tea and toast. Line 6 at 6:52 AM. Your favorite seat at the end of the car.
Your subject today was a young woman with brightly colored headphones, who seemed lost in her music. When you handed her the sketch (this time with your trademark tiny heart in the corner) she beamed. You’d made her day, she said.
Life continued exactly as it should. Drawing number 714, 715, 716... each one gifted, each one with a tiny heart in the corner. Your little bit of everyday cheesy rom-com magic thingy carried on, uninterrupted.
A week passed. You were on your usual train, putting the final touches on that morning’s sketch—an older man engrossed in a paperback novel. When you handed it to him, his face lit up. But then it changed. Surprise gave way to something else… something like recognition.
“Wait,” he said, adjusting his glasses to look between you and the drawing. “Are you the subway artist everyone’s been talking about?”
“I’m sorry?”
“The subway artist,” he repeated, like that explained everything. “There’ve been posters up on Line 4 all week. Someone’s trying to find the person who draws portraits on the train.” He smiled, gesturing to the sketch. “It’s you, isn’t it?”
“Line 4? I... I don’t usually take that line.”
But then it hit you.
You thanked the man and stepped off the train feeling slightly dazed. All day at work, your mind kept drifting back to this strange turn of events. Someone was looking for you? Putting up posters?
There was only one person it could be.
The stranger from Line 4.
After work, instead of taking your usual Line 6 home, you found yourself heading towards Line 4. Your heart beat a little faster.
The train was full with evening commuters, but you barely noticed them. Your eyes scanned the station walls as the train pulled into each stop. Nothing at the first station. Or the second. Then, as the train slowed for the third stop, you saw it.
There, on a pillar near the platform’s edge, was a poster. Even from inside the train, you recognized your own work. It was the sketch you had given the handsome stranger—or rather, a scan of it. Below, printed in bold, clear type:
LOOKING FOR THE ARTIST
Did you draw this portrait on Tuesday morning, Line 4? I’d like to thank you properly.
Please call: XXX-XXX-XXXX
The train doors opened, and without thinking, you stepped out, weaving through the tide of boarding passengers. You pushed your way toward the poster, staring at it in disbelief. It was definitely your drawing. No question. But why was he looking for you?
You pulled out your phone and took a quick photo of the poster, and then you just stood there, frozen. What now? Should you call? Would that be weird? What did “thank you properly” even mean?
You glanced around the platform, almost expecting to spot him nearby. But there was no sign of him. Only a sea of strangers, none of them with hair the color of snow.
On impulse, you peeled the poster off the pillar and tucked it into your bag. Back at your apartment, you unfolded it on the kitchen table. The drawing looked back at you, familiar and strange all at once. You traced a finger over the phone number, wondering about the man who had gone to such lengths to find you.
What kind of person did that? Was he just being kind? Did he want to pay you? Commission another drawing? Something about it was flattering… and also a little unsettling.
You took out your phone, entered the number into your contacts, and hovered your thumb over the call button.
This was ridiculous. You didn’t know anything about him—other than the fact that he had white hair and apparently enough time and money to put up posters in subway stations. What if he was a stalker? Or some kind of... weirdo?
You folded the poster again and tucked it into a drawer. Maybe in a few days you’d feel differently. Or maybe it was best to forget the whole strange thing altogether.
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
Next day, you were back on Line 6, back to your routine. You chose your subject—a woman with a long braids—and focused on capturing the way the morning light played in her woven hair. By the time you handed her the sketch, all thoughts of the poster and the maybe stalker had faded.
Two weeks later, you were running a little late for work. As you rushed onto your usual Line 6 train, something familiar caught your eye on the station wall. The doors closed before you could really process it, and the train pulled away. You spent the rest of the ride wondering if you’d imagined it.
The next morning, you arrived at the station a few minutes early to investigate and what you found made your breath catch. There on the wall of your station, wasn’t just one poster, but several. Each one with your sketch. And this time, beneath the drawing, a new message:
TO THE ARTIST
Dinner? This Friday, 8 PM.
Hanami Restaurant, Central District
You stared. Eyes wide. A dinner invitation? Posted publicly in the subway? Who even does that? Oh god.
He was a stalker.
Or… maybe it was romantic? No. Definitely creepy. Right? Who publicly invites a stranger to dinner using posters? A total stranger he didn’t even know?
But... Hanami Restaurant? That was a nice place. Fancy. Not cheap. You’d seen it once on your birthday when your coworkers took you somewhere nearby. This wasn’t just casual ramen and a maybe—this was… effort.
“Oh, you’ve seen them too?”
You turned to see an older woman standing beside you, also gazing at the posters.
“Isn’t it the most charming thing?” she said. “They’ve been popping up all over Line 6 for the past few days. My daughter thinks it’s a movie promotion, but I think it’s a real love story in the making.” She gave a wistful sigh. “I hope the artist shows up.”
You muttered something polite and hurried onto your train, heart thudding in your chest.
This had gone from odd to completely, absolutely weird. Not only had he expanded his poster campaign to your line, but now he was publicly inviting you to dinner? How did he even know which train you usually took? Or worse, were these posters up on every line in Tokyo? No. That couldn’t be possible.
You sank into your seat, sketchbook clutched tightly against your chest, your thoughts spiraling. Was this romantic dedication? Or borderline stalking?
The invitation was for tomorrow night. You didn’t have to go. It’s not like he knew who you were or where you lived—technically, you could ignore it and carry on like none of this ever happened.
But… what would happen if you did go? What if he was charming and witty and everything you’d secretly ever dreamed about on sleepy train rides? What if he was a total creep?
You looked down at your sketchbook, heart still racing.
My God.
What had you started?
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
Friday evening arrived, and you found yourself standing in front of your closet, absently fingering the hem of a dress you hadn’t worn in months. For a dinner you weren’t going to attend. With a man you’d barely met.
“This is ridiculous,” you muttered, shutting the closet door with finality.
You’d already made your decision. Absolutely not going. This whole thing had gone from charming to…well, kind of creepy. Who put up posters across the subway just to find someone they spoke to for like two seconds? It was excessive. Borderline obsessive.
You ordered takeout from your favorite place down the street and spent the evening sketching while a movie played in the background. Every so often, your eyes drifted to the clock.
7:30.
7:45.
8:00.
He was probably at the restaurant by now. Maybe checking his watch.
8:15.
8:30.
Maybe he’d ordered a drink to pass the time.
9:00.
Surely, by now, he knew you weren’t coming.
You told yourself it was for the best. This way, he’d get the message. No need for awkward conversations or outright rejection. Just silence. Clear. Polite, in a distant kind of way.
Life could go back to normal. Back to routine. Back to sketching strangers who didn’t plaster the city with posters looking for you.
And still, somewhere underneath all that logic, a quiet little voice whispered: What if he’s just sitting there, alone, sad, and feeling as unsure as you do right now?
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
The weekend passed uneventfully. By Monday morning, you’d nearly convinced yourself you’d done the right thing. You’d protected your peace. Maintained your boundaries. All good decisions.
Your alarm rang at 5:45 AM. Shower. Hair. Makeup. Outfit. Green tea and avocado toast. Sketchbook and pencils in your bag. Everything back to normal.
On your usual train, your eyes landed on a high school girl seated near the doors. She looked tired, but focused. A textbook rested in her lap, worn at the corners and stuffed with colorful Post-it notes poking out from all sides. She tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear and leaned in to read.
By the time the train neared your stop, the sketch was finished, your signature heart placed neatly in the corner. You stood and made your way over to her, when a flash of colour outside the train window caught your eye.
Another poster. But this one looked different.
As the train slowed, you could make out your sketch—the one of the white-haired stranger—but now surrounded by a border of…were those flowers?
You squinted, leaning closer as the train rolled to a stop. Then the doors opened, but instead of handing the student the sketch you had made of her, you stepped out onto the platform without thinking.
You moved toward the poster. It was definitely your drawing in the center, but someone—him, obviously—had added to it. Were those real flowers? Pinned around the edges? You leaned in. Yes. Small blossoms. Some still fresh, others beginning to wilt.
And below, a new message:
TO THE ARTIST WHO DIDN’T COME TO DINNER
I understand. Perhaps too forward. My apologies. But I’d still like to meet you.
Coffee instead? Your choice of time and place.
Same number below. No more posters after this, I promise.
Call: XXX-XXX-XXXX
You stared at the poster, not sure what to think of it. It was still... a lot. But the tone had changed. It didn’t feel like pressure anymore. It felt like a peace offering.
“Is that about you?”
You jumped slightly and turned to find the schoolgirl from the train standing behind you. She was looking between you and the poster, eyebrows raised. You hadn’t even noticed her step off.
“What? No, I—”
“It is, isn’t it?” she said, pointing to the edge of her portrait still peeking from your sketchbook. “You’re the subway artist! I’ve seen these posters for weeks. Everyone at school’s been talking about them.” Her eyes lit up. “But it’s real! It’s actually you!”
Your face went hot. “I just… draw people on my commute. It’s not a big deal.”
“Not a big deal?” She looked at you like you’d just told her the earth was flat. “Someone literally covered half the subway trying to find you. That’s so romantic.” She paused, glancing back at the poster. “Though I guess... it might feel a little intense if you don’t know him.”
“Exactly,” you said, a little too quickly, but relieved that someone finally understood. Not that you told anyone, anyway.
“But now he’s apologizing and backing off. That’s actually kind of sweet, don’t you think? Like he realized he overdid it.” Before you could respond, she suddenly gasped. “Oh! Were you going to give me something?” She pointed to your sketchbook.
“I—yes, actually.” You’d almost forgotten. You tore out the page with her portrait and handed it over. “I hope you don’t mind.”
She took the drawing, her face bright. “This is amazing! You made me look so... I don’t know, determined? Like I actually understand what I’m reading about.” She laughed. “Thank you so much!”
A chime echoed through the station—the warning for the next train.
“That’s my transfer,” she said and glanced at the poster one more time. “You know, if I were you, I’d call him. Not everyone gets a second chance at something interesting.” And with that, she turned and vanished into the crowd of boarding passengers.
You stood there for a moment longer, staring at the poster. At the flowers he’d carefully pinned around your sketch. It must have taken hours.
Your phone buzzed with a calendar reminder. Morning meeting in fifteen minutes. With one last glance at the poster, you turned and headed for the station exit.
Maybe the girl was right. Maybe there was something here worth exploring. Or maybe this was exactly how people ended up in true crime documentaries.
Either way, you had a decision to make.
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
For the next three days, the poster haunted you. Not in a scary way, but enough to slip under your skin and stay there.
You caught yourself absentmindedly sketching floral patterns during meetings, doodling petals in the margins of your planner, even on the back of your grocery list. His phone number was still saved in your contacts. You hadn’t called it. Yet.
By Thursday afternoon, in the middle of yet another agonisingly boring meeting, you finally made your decision.
The moment your boss wrapped up, you grabbed your phone and slipped into the empty break room. Your heart thudded so hard it felt like it might knock your ribs loose. Before you could overthink it, you dialed the number.
It rang once. Then—
“Hello?”
That voice. Deep. Warm. Curious. Instantly familiar.
“Um. Hi,” you said, suddenly questioning every life desicion that had led you to this moment. “This is… well, I don’t know if you’ll remember, but I drew your portrait on the train a few weeks ago, and—”
“You called.” He sounded genuinely relieved. “I was starting to think you weren’t ever going to.”
“Yeah, well…” You took a breath. “You do realize those posters were kind of creepy, right?”
“I thought they were romantic?”
“For someone I don’t know, it’s more creepy than romantic. And also, what if I was already taken?”
“Are you?”
You went silent. Right. You probably should’ve seen that one coming.
“I’m Satoru, by the way.” You could practically hear the smirk in his voice.
You gave him your name in return, nervously clicking your pen against the break room table.
He repeated it slowly, like he was trying how it sounded on his tongue, and that somehow sent a strange flutter through your stomach. Why did hearing him say your name suddenly make you so nervous? It was just a name. Your name. You’d heard it a million times before.
But from him, it felt different. More intimate somehow. Ridiculous, you told yourself. You were overthinking it. Probably. Still... the little flutter lingered.
“Listen,” you said, clearing your throat, trying to sound casual. “I’ve got my lunch break in about an hour. If you’re free, maybe we could meet. Nothing fancy—just coffee or something.”
“An hour? Yes. Absolutely.” A pause. “Where do you work? I can come to you.”
You hesitated, then figured it was harmless. It was a large and well known office building downtown, after all. Not exactly revealing your home address. “Takahashi Media Group. Midtown Tower, fourteenth floor.”
“Perfect. I’ll see you in an hour.”
The call ended, and you stared at your phone for a beat before heading back to your desk. You tried to focus on your emails, your task list, anything—but your eyes kept drifting to the clock.
It was just coffee, you reminded yourself. Just a casual meeting with the stranger from the train who’d launched a city-wide poster campaign to find you.
Totally normal.
Fifty-five minutes later, you were gathering your bag when a commotion near the reception area caught your attention. Moments later, your coworker Aki appeared beside your desk.
“Hey, there’s someone asking for you at the reception. And he’s... well, you should just come see.”
“Someone’s here for me?” you asked, frowning. “But I was supposed to meet—” You stopped. “Oh no.”
You hurried toward the reception area, Aki trailing close behind. As you rounded the corner, you saw a group of coworkers gathered near the glass doors, all pretending very badly not to be gawking at something—or better said, someone.
And there, standing right in the center of the chaos, was the handsome stranger form Line 4.
He was even more handsome than you remembered. Tall, effortlessly confident, and dressed in a perfectly tailored dark suit, with a blue tie that was the exact same shade as his eyes.
When he spotted you, his entire face lit up with a smile so dazzling it looked like it belonged in a toothpaste commercial. You saw your coworker Mei place a hand over her heart, and you could’ve sworn someone behind her whispered, “Oh my god.”
“Artist!” he called, completely unaware of (or more likely, entirely unbothered by) the scene he was causing. “Wow, you’re even prettier when you’re mortified.”
And then you saw the flowers.
Correction: you saw the flowers.
He was holding the most ridiculous bouquet you’d ever laid eyes on. A vibrant, overflowing explosion of violet, pink, and red, easily three dozen stems if not more. It was a lot. Even for him.
Every head in the lobby turned toward you.
Great. Just fucking great.
You walked over, ignoring the heat rising in your face and the whispers following behind you, wanting nothing more than to quickly escape the awkward scene. Reaching him, you grabbed his elbow and leaned in, voice low.
“You really don’t know how to be subtle, do you?”
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
Satoru had suggested a café not far from your office, and you followed him down the busy street, relieved to be away from the scene he had caused with nothing more than… his face.
People glanced at him as you walked, some doing double takes. He seemed completely unbothered by it. Perhaps he’s used to it. Being pretty comes with stares naturally, you assumed.
Maybe he was a model. Or a singer. Or both. And you were the only person in Tokyo who didn’t recognize him and later it will be so awkward when paparazzi take photos of you holding hands on your way out and splash them across trashy magazines with some ridiculous headline and—
Wait.
Holding hands?
Why were you even thinking about holding hands?
He could still be a stalker. A total weirdo. A—
You nearly tripped over someone weaving through the crowd, lost in your thoughts. Before you could catch yourself, Satoru’s hand landed gently on your elbow, steadying you as he pulled you closer to his side. Your arm brushed against his, and that brief contact sent a shiver down your spine.
Stupid, handsome and cute weirdo, for sure.
A few minutes later, you were seated in a quiet café, staring hard at a menu you’d already ordered from because pretending to study the drink list was easier than making direct eye contact with the man who was definitely watching you.
You could feel it. His gaze. Not bashful. Not subtle. Not even blinking, apparently.
Finally, you set the menu down. “You’re staring.”
“I am,” he said, without a hint of shame. “It’s not every day I get to meet the artist who’s been haunting my dreams for weeks.”
“Haunting your dreams, huh?” You glanced up and met those absurdly blue eyes. “You know, you do sound very creepy sometimes.”
“Do I?” He tilted his head slightly. “I’ll admit, I don’t do this often.”
“What, stalk people? Or launch city-wide poster campaigns?”
He laughed. “Both, I guess. That might’ve been a bit much. My colleagues say I have a tendency to go overboard once I’ve set my mind to something.”
“Oh really?”
His smile widened. “Okay, fair. I deserved that. But in my defense—it worked. You’re here.”
“Out of curiosity more than anything,” you said, though you weren’t entirely sure that was true. “So now that you’ve found me, what exactly was the plan? Beyond coffee, I mean?”
He paused, considering. “I must admit, I didn’t think that far ahead. I just wanted to meet you. To thank you for seeing something in me worth capturing.” There was an unexpected softness to his voice. “And maybe to find out if the person behind the pencil is as interesting as her art suggests.”
“And? Verdict so far?”
“Even more interesting,” he said without hesitation. “But I still have questions.”
“Such as?”
“Such as how long you’ve been sketching strangers on trains. Why you give the drawings away instead of keeping them. Whether you draw for a living.” He leaned in slightly. “And if you’d ever let me see your sketchbook.”
Before you could answer, the barista approached with a tray.
“Here’s your cappuccino, miss. And Mr. Gojo, your usual.” She set down a borderline theatrical coffee drink in front of him, along with a small plate of pastries you definitely hadn’t heard him order.
“Chef sent these over for you both,” she added with a smile. “It’s that new recipe you suggested last week.”
“Thank him for me, Hana,” Satoru said, offering her a warm smile that made her visibly melt. “They look perfect.”
“Of course, Mr. Gojo. Anything else you need, just let me know.” She gave a polite bow before heading back.
You watched the entire exchange with growing suspicion. As soon as she was out of earshot, you leaned in.
“Okay. What was that about?”
“What do you mean?”
“The chef takes your suggestions for pastries? And the barista knows your ‘usual’, which looks—by the way—like something from the kid’s menu.”
Satoru looked mildly amused as he slid the plate towards you. “Try one. They’re amazing.”
You took one, but fixed him with a pointed look still. “Still not answering my question.”
“I come here a lot.”
“I’ve been going to the same coffee shop near my apartment for three years,” you said, “and they still spell my name wrong on the cup.”
He laughed—a real one. It drew a few subtle glances from nearby tables.
“Fair point.”
The pastry was every bit as good as he promised—light, buttery, with just the right amount of sweetness. But you weren’t letting him off the hook.
“So?” you asked, licking a crumb off your thumb. “Why does everyone here treat you like you’re... I don’t know. Someone important?”
“I suppose because I am someone important”
“What does that mean?”
“I figured I’d bring this up eventually.” Satoru took a sip of his kid’s menu drink, then set the cup down. “I own Gojo Holdings.”
You stared at him. Blankly.
“Our headquarters occupies the top ten floors of this building,” he added, casually gesturing upward.
Suddenly, the name clicked into place. Gojo Holdings—a name you’d seen before. On office towers, in business headlines, maybe even on the news channel. One of those massive investment and trading firms. It was the kind of company that quietly owned half the city without anyone really noticing.
“You’re joking.”
“I’m not.” His tone was surprisingly straightforward. “I’m the CEO. Have been for about five years, since my father stepped down.”
“So this building—?”
“I don’t own the whole tower. Just the top portion. Company offices. This café’s independent, though we partner with them for corporate events.”
“Which is why they know your usual.”
He gave a small shrug. “Perks of a eating here often.”
“So when you were on that train…”
“I was just commuting. Like anyone else.” He sipped his coffee, completely at ease. “Traffic sucks. Trains are faster.”
“A practical billionaire. How novel.”
“CEO. Not a billionare,” he corrected. “Well—technically—”
“Not helping your case,” you cut in, and to his credit, he actually looked sheepish.
“So that’s how you managed to plaster half the city with posters.” You leaned back, studying him again. “Most people would’ve just... posted something online.”
“I don’t do things halfway,” he said, not even pretending to apologize. “Besides, I don’t have social media. Too messy in my position.”
You took a long sip of your cappuccino, buying yourself a moment. Then you asked the question that had been quietly building in the back of your mind.
“So what exactly does the CEO of a major trading company want with a graphic designer who sketches strangers on the subway?”
“The same thing I wanted before you knew any of this. Get to know you.”
You tilted your head, unsure whether to believe him. He must’ve sensed your hesitation.
“Okay, listen,” he said, leaning forward. “I’ve been renovating the executive floor of our headquarters and there’s this white wall in my office. It’s been empty for months because nothing felt right for it—”
“You want to commission me?” You blinked, more confused than ever. “For your office?”
“Yeah. Actually, for the whole floor. A series of pieces,” he said. “Not landmarks or cityscapes—everyone does that. I want your version. The people. The soul of each place. Like the sketch you gave me.”
“So all this—the posters, the dinner invitation, the whole subway artist manhunt—was for a commission?”
Something flickered in his expression. Not quite hurt, but close.
“No,” he said after a second. “Yeah. I mean—” He sighed. “Does it sound that stupid?”
“I don’t know. It’s... unexpected. That’s all.”
“Is that a yes?”
You took another sip of your cappuccino, more for the excuse to think than anything else. “It’s an ‘I’m thinking about it.’”
“Perfect,” he said, pulling out a business card of his and sliding it across the table. “No pressure. No expectations. If you're interested, call me.”
You turned the card in your fingers, still watching him. “How do you even know I draw anything—beside subway sketches, that is? I never told you.”
He raised an eyebrow, like he couldn’t quite believe you said it yourself. “You don’t?”
Stupid, handsome man. “I hate you.”
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
Back at your desk, you twirled Satoru’s business card between your fingers, trying to make sense of it all. Was he being genuine? Or was he making fun of you?
You glanced at the flowers he’d gifted you—still sitting in the large glass vase Mei had found in the office kitchen. They were slightly too vibrant, slightly too much, still too beautiful to ignore. No one brought those kinds of flowers as a joke. Right? And yet, the absurdity of it all made you question even that.
You slipped the card into your desk drawer and turned your attention to the ad campaign mockups waiting on your screen. But your focus faltered. Your mind kept drifting back to blue eyes, white hair, and the warmth in his voice when he said your name.
Aki appeared at your desk not long after, not even trying to hide her curiosity. You offered her the bare minimum. Just someone whose portrait you’d sketched on the train. Nothing serious. When she pressed further, you sighed and handed over his business card.
Her reaction was immediate. “Gojo Holdings? That Gojo?”
You nodded, reluctantly.
“And he wants to commission you? For art? In his office?”
“He mentioned it,” you said, already regretting sharing anything.
She didn’t miss the nuance. “Oh. He mentioned it. But also stared at you like you hung the moon?”
Your cheeks warmed. She grinned.
That evening, you moved the card from your desk drawer to your wallet, telling yourself it’s just in case you decide to take the commission. Nothing more.
The rational part of your brain knew this entire situation had ‘bad idea’ written all over it—in flashing neon, no less. But the less rational part of your brain kept remembering how he looked at your sketch as if it were something precious. Not just charcoal on paper.
Days passed. Then weeks.
You kept up your morning ritual—train sketches, quiet observation, the meditative act of putting pencil to paper. But now, each time you boarded, your eyes scanned the car, quietly wishing to see him again. He never appeared.
The business card moved again—from your wallet to your bedside table, then tucked into your sketchbook, then back to your wallet. You drafted emails. Professional, polite. None of them made it past your drafts folder.
And then, life—as it so often does—made the decision for you.
It started with your car being a bit bumpy, then a strange rattle under the hood. And finally, smoke. The repair bill was roughly equivalent to two months’ rent.
That night, you sat at your kitchen table, staring at your bank account and mentally rearranging numbers that didn’t cover the bill no matter what you tried. Between rent, old student loans, and the usual cost of just existing, you didn’t have a cushion big enough to absorb the hit and your parents were still helping your younger sibling through college. Credit cards would only delay the problem.
Your gaze drifted to the business card sitting on the counter where you’d left it earlier. A commission from Gojo Holdings would cover surely more than the car repairs. And then some.
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
“This entire hallway is yours to reimagine,” Satoru said, gesturing with a casual sweep of his arm. You trailed a few steps behind, sketchbook in hand, scribbling notes as he pointed at one blank wall after another. “Boardroom entrances, reception, executive offices—the whole floor could use your touch.”
The headquarters of Gojo Holdings was exactly what you’d imagined. Sleek, modern, almost intimidating. Walls of glass divided up the offices, giving the illusion of privacy without actually offering much of it. Matte blacks, brushed steel, deep grays, and just enough warm wood or marble veining to say ‘tasteful’ without inviting any real comfort. But maybe that was the point.
Offices like this weren’t meant to feel cozy. In these rooms, decisions were made that shifted markets. Billions moved with a gesture. A signature. A nod. And somewhere at the center of it all was Satoru Gojo, walking through it like he was on his way to pick up coffee at the mall.
“How many pieces are we talking about?” you asked, already measuring the length of yet another white wall in your mind.
“However many feels right.” He glanced over his shoulder just in time to catch your raised brow. “What? I mean it.”
“You know, most clients have a vision board. Timelines. Color codes. Budgets. A whole approval chain.”
“I’m not most clients.”
“Clearly.”
He continued the tour, leading you through a maze of meeting rooms and long corridors, while you took notes in your sketchbook—dimensions, how the light shifted through the glass and how certain walls caught the sun.
You paused often to sketch rough layouts or mark potential placements, all while trying to ignore the way Satoru was watching you more than the rooms.
“And this,” Satoru said, stopping in front of a pair of sleek double doors, “is my office.”
His office was huge—at least four times the size of your apartment—with windows stretching from floor to ceiling, offering a stunning view of the Tokyo skyline. Gentle afternoon sunlight streamed in, causing everything to shimmer softly, as if in a dream.
“It’s…” you hesitated, searching for a word that wouldn’t stroke his ego, “…adequate.”
Satoru burst out laughing. “Adequate? That might be the first time anyone’s used that word to describe my office.”
“I’m sure people usually fall over themselves with compliments.” You moved towards the windows. “I thought I’d try something different.”
“And that,” he said, following with hands tucked casually in his pockets, “is exactly why I hired you.”
“Because I don’t stroke your ego?”
“Because you’re straight forward. I like that.”
Something in his tone made you glance up at him, but his expression was unreadable as he gazed out at the city below.
“That wall there,” he continued, pointing to the large empty space behind his desk, “is where I originally thought your work would go. But then I thought, why not the whole floor?”
You walked his office slowly, taking in the space, the light, the simplicity. “It’s quite the blank canvas.”
“I’ve been told my style is too minimalist.”
“By who? The interior design magazine that did a feature on your last penthouse?”
His eyes widened a little before crinkling at the corners. “You Googled me.”
“Basic research before meeting a new client,” you said, but your cheeks, of course, betrayed you.
“Mmhmm.” He didn’t look convinced. “Come here. I want to show you something.”
You approached the window where he stood.
“See that building there?” He pointed toward the horizon. “The one with the copper coloured roof?”
You squinted, seeing hundreds of buildings but not sure which one he meant. “Not really…”
“May I?”
Before you could fully register the question, he was behind you, one hand grazing your shoulder, the other gently tilting your chin to guide your gaze. His warmth at your back made your breath hitch.
“There,” he said, his voice brushing your ear. “Between those two towers. That’s where I first saw your work. A small gallery in Ginza. Community showcase. Your cityscape series.”
Your pulse stumbled. “You knew? All this time?”
“Kind of, yeah,” he admitted, still close enough that you could feel the quiet rumble of his words. “I’d actually thought about commissioning you back then—at the gallery. But things got busy, and I let it go. When I saw your sketch on the train, I recognized it immediately and it felt like… I don’t know. A sign. Like the universe was giving me a second chance.”
“How poetic.” You turned slightly, realizing his face was only inches from yours. “Why didn’t you just ask the gallery for my contact info? Would’ve saved you a lot of time. And posters.”
His lips curved into that maddening smile. “Where’s the fun in that?”
“You’re so weird.”
“Says the woman who stalks stranger on the train and draws them.”
“You’re the stalker here.”
“So, what do you think?” He stepped back and leaned casually against his desk. “Can you handle transforming the most boring executive floor in Tokyo?”
“Let’s talk numbers first.”
“I was thinking something in the range of two million yen for the full project,” he replied, watching you carefully.
You nearly choked. That was more than generous—enough to fix your car, pay off a good chunk of your student loans, maybe even take a breath for once. But something in his easy confidence made you want to test his limits.
“Four million,” you said, eyes steady. Bold.
His brows lifted. “That’s quite a jump.”
“I’m quite an artist.”
“That’s already well above—”
You tilted your head, pretending to reconsider. “Hmm. So, if you don’t want me…”
You let the words hang as you casually closed your sketchbook and took a slow step backward, turning like you were ready to walk out. “I get it. It’s a big commitment. I’m sure someone else can paint your sterile corporate walls.”
Satoru blinked. “Wait—”
You took another step.
“Three million,” he said. “Final offer.”
“Deal,” you replied, quick before he could change his mind. “But I have conditions. I want full creative freedom.”
“Naturally.” He pushed off the desk and extended his hand. “Three million yen, complete creative freedom, and dinner.”
Your hand froze halfway to his. “Dinner?”
“Just a simple business dinner,” he said innocently. “To go over project details.”
“We can go over those in an email.”
“Some things are better discussed in person. Over good food. And maybe a glass of wine.”
You crossed your arms. “That sounds suspiciously like a date.”
“Only if you want it to be,” he said, mirroring your stance.
“I don’t.”
“Then it’s not.”
You narrowed your eyes. “Fine. One business dinner.”
“At Narisawa,” he added casually. “Private dining room, excellent view.”
“Narisawa? That’s a two month waiting list.”
“Not for everyone.”
“You’re really trying to blur the lines between business and private, aren’t you?”
“I’m merely suggesting a restaurant worthy of an three million yen commission.”
“McDonald’s exists.”
“I’m not taking you to McDonald’s.”
“I thought I had creative control in this partnership.”
“Over the art,” he said. “Dining arrangements fall under my jurisdiction.”
You gave him a look. “I’m starting to think this dinner is more important to you than the actual commission.”
“What would give you that impression?”
“Maybe because you’re pushing harder for this dinner than you did for the art.”
“I didn’t need to push for the art. You were already sold.”
“Presumptuous.”
“Am I wrong?”
You sighed, knowing you were fighting a losing battle. “One dinner. No private room—that’s weird. Main restaurant only. And I’m paying for myself.”
“Main restaurant’s fine,” he conceded, far too agreeable. “But I’m paying. Consider it a signing bonus.”
“That’s not how signing bonuses work.”
“It is at my company.”
“Fine. But this changes nothing. It’s strictly professional.”
“Of course,” he said. “Just two colleagues having a quiet eight course meal at one of Tokyo’s finest restaurants. Completely professional.”
“You’re impossible.”
“And yet, here you are, agreeing to both the commission and dinner.”
You extended your hand to finally seal the deal. “Three million yen, full creative control, and one—singular, not two, only one—business dinner.”
He took your hand, his thumb brushing over your knuckles, and you hated how weak that made your knees feel.
“If you say so,” he said.
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
Over the next two weeks, Gojo Holdings basically became your second home. You spent hours wandering the halls, filling your sketchbook with rough layouts and scribbled notes, snapping photos of how the light shifted from morning to dusk.
The project had you more energized than anything you’d worked on in years. Full creative freedom and a proper budget? That almost never happened. You didn’t want to waste it.
What you hadn’t expected was how often you’d see Satoru, though. Despite being constantly pulled into meetings and conference calls, you know, running a whole financial empire and all that, he somehow always knew when you were in the building.
Sometimes you’d catch glimpses of him through the glass walls of the conference rooms, commanding attention with a casual confidence that was almost mesmerizing to watch. He’d be deep in conversation with some serious looking executives, completely in his element, and then, as if he could sense your gaze, his eyes would find yours. A subtle wink or the ghost of a smile just for you, and suddenly your stomach would do that stupid fluttering thing again.
Other times, he’d just… appear. Out of nowhere. Usually while you were measuring a wall or standing on your tiptoes trying to track the afternoon shadows.
“Need a hand?” he’d ask, already handing you a coffee like he knew you forgot to eat again and make some terrible joke about “hanging” your work. (“Get it? Because they’ll be hanging on the wall?” “Yes, Satoru, I get it. It’s still not funny.” “You smiled though.”)
He’d carve out little bits of time—ten minutes here, twenty there—despite his full schedule. Sometimes he’d walk with you through the space, telling stories about silly board meetings. Seriously, who would’ve thought that a company handling millions in the stock market could be run like a sitcom half the time?
Other times, he’d just sit nearby while you sketched, sipping his coffee in silence and letting you work. Strangely enough, his presence was never distracting. If anything, it felt… comfortable. Good, even.
And occasionally, he’d say something that surprised you. A thought about layout. A comment about color balance. Something you didn’t expect from a guy who usually talked in numbers and strategies.
“Shouldn’t you be doing CEO things instead of analyzing my color palette?” you’d ask.
“I could, but I’ve already yelled at three departments today. I’m ahead of schedule,” he’d reply with a grin.
And the strangest part wasn’t how much he was around. It was how quickly you got used to it. And how weirdly empty the rooms felt when he wasn’t there.
Your concept came together almost on its own. A series about Tokyo told through its people. Not neon signs or city skylines, more salarymen passed out on the train, old women gossiping in corner markets, teenagers packed into ramen shops after school. Quiet, ordinary moments that felt honest. Human.
Your apartment turned chaotic. Canvases leaned against furniture, reference photos were spread across every flat surface, and your sketches were taped to the windows just to see how they looked in different light. You worked late most nights, completely losing track of time until your stomach reminded you that you hadn’t eaten anything except an energy drink and half a protein bar.
You’d send status updates to Satoru sometimes. Professionally, mostly.
The concept boards are coming along well. I’ll have something concrete to show you by next week. — You
His replies, however, did not share your sense of professional distance:
I’m sure they’re amazing, but I’d rather see the artist than the art. When are you letting me buy you dinner? — SG
You rolled your eyes at his persistence, but you couldn’t help the small smile tugging at your lips.
The art comes before the artist. Patience, Mr. Gojo. — You
Mr. Gojo was my father. I’m Satoru to you, remember? And patience has never been my strong suit. — SG
The exchanges continued like this—you sending actual work updates, him responding with barely veiled attempts to see you again. It was absurd. Unprofessional. And yet… you looked forward to his replies more than you cared to admit.
Three weeks in, his patience seemed to officially ran out:
Dinner. This Friday. 8 PM. I’ve already made reservations at Narisawa. Unless you’re planning to work through the weekend again? — SG
You stared at the message for a long moment before typing back:
I’m in the middle of the sixth canvas. Friday won’t work. — You
His response came almost immediately:
Art can wait. Food can’t. The reservation is at 8. — SG
You scoffed.
I don’t recall agreeing to this Friday. Reschedule? — You
Ten minutes passed with no response. You had just returned to your canvas when your phone rang. His name lit up the screen.
“Hello?”
“I don’t accept a no.”
“That sounds problematic.”
He laughed. “Only when it comes to dinner invitations. Specifically ones I’ve been waiting weeks for.”
“I’m covered in paint and haven’t slept properly in days.”
“You could show up in pajamas and still be the most interesting person in the room.”
“Flattery won’t work.”
“You’re an awful liar, you know that? Your voice just did that thing it does when you’re trying not to smile.”
Your traitor lips curved anyway. “You can’t possibly know that over the phone.”
“But I’m right, aren’t I?”
You sighed and set your brush down. “Why are you so persistent about this dinner?”
“Because I want to see you,” he said simply. “Because you’ve been painting pieces for my walls and I haven’t even seen your progress. Because maybe I miss the way you look at me like you’re immune to my charm.”
“I could send photos of the work.”
“Or,” he said, “you could wear something you like, let me feed you something expensive, and tell me about your process in person.”
“You won’t let me out of this, will you?”
“No.”
You sighed. “Fine. But I’m paying for myself.”
“We’ll discuss that over appetizers.”
“There’s nothing to discuss.”
“Friday at 8,” he said, ignoring your protest. “I’ll pick you up.”
“I can take the train.”
“Humor me.”
You could practically hear the smile in his voice.
“Has anyone ever told you you’re impossible?”
“You. Repeatedly. It’s part of our thing.”
“We don’t have a thing.”
“Yet,” he added. And before you could argue, “I’ll see you Friday. Wear something that makes you happy.”
After the call ended, you stared at your phone for a few moments longer, until the screen turned black.
Somehow, despite your best efforts and at least three attempts to ghost him, you had a dinner on Friday night. Not a date, you told yourself. A business dinner. With a man who was way too attractive, way too confident, and had launched an entire campaign just to commission you. Totally normal.
You turned back to your canvas and tried to focus, but the flutter in your stomach wouldn’t go away.
It was just dinner. In a restaurant. With candlelight and probably a lot of eye contact. Nothing more.
Still, as you painted into the night, you caught yourself wondering what you might wear that would make you feel good. And maybe—just maybe—make him look at you the way he had in his office, when he stood so close you could feel the warmth of his breath on your skin.
Strictly professional, you reminded yourself.
Even you didn’t believe it anymore.
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
Friday evening arrived with the kind of weird, way too warm weather that made you rethink your outfit three times before settling on something that felt like you—comfortable but still nice enough for... whatever game Satoru might be playing.
You were fixing your lipstick when your phone buzzed.
Downstairs. Take your time. — SG
You walked over to the window for a quick glance outside—and there he was.
Satoru was leaning against the passenger side of a sleek black car, arms crossed, dressed in a dark suit that looked almost identical to the one he’d worn the day you first saw him on Line 4. As if he could feel your gaze, he looked up. And saw you.
No wave, no wink—just a slow, knowing smile spread across his lips.
You blinked and stepped back from the window, heart fluttering in a strange way it hadn’t in a long time. Who even was this man? And how had he managed to get under your skin so completely, so quickly? You were dressing up, wearing lipstick, checking the window like some high school crush was picking you up for prom.
It was ridiculous. Stupid, even.
You grabbed your bag, took a breath, and headed downstairs before your brain had time to start asking too many questions.
He was still just a client. A persistent, maddeningly handsome client.
When you stepped out, he was still leaning against the passenger side door and just for a moment, he froze. No smirk. No teasing remark. Nothing prepared. His usual cool confidence seemed to falter as his eyes swept over you slowly and deliberately, like he wasn’t quite sure he was seeing you right.
“Wow,” he said quietly, straightening up a little and running a hand through his hair before letting out a breath. “You look…” He actually stopped to find the word—that alone felt suspicious. “…really beautiful.”
“Stop that.”
“Stop what? Being honest? Sorry, not tonight.”
Before you could say anything else, he was already opening the car door for you, one hand briefly touching the small of your back as you slid inside. Not in a sleazy way. More like it came naturally to him. Which made you almost forget to be annoyed by his presumption.
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
Narisawa was exactly what you expected and somehow even more—the kind of place where the lighting was soft without being dim, where the air smelled faintly of thyme and something far more expensive, and where every detail felt carefully chosen to whisper, ‘you absolutely cannot afford this’.
Satoru had, of course, managed to get a table by the window, offering a view of the skyline that felt almost unreal. It was the kind of view that made the whole night feel like it belonged in a movie and made you almost forget this was technically a business dinner.
Conversation came easier than you’d expected. Over the first few courses—each one more art piece than meal, which made you feel slightly guilty about ruining it by eating it (I mean, who does that? Making such pretty food just for it to end up in a stomach?)—you talked about everything from your work as a designer and your favourite bands, to his tragic inability to make anything more complicated than instant noodles, and how he once almost made it into the national basketball team.
But what surprised you most was the way he asked about your art. He had a way of asking about that didn’t feel performative or polite. He was actually listening, not just waiting for his turn to talk.
“So, the third piece,” he said, slicing into what was probably the most perfectly cooked fish you’d ever tasted. “The one with the commuters—how do you get that sense of movement in a still frame?”
You paused. “You’ve been paying attention.”
“I told you—I’m interested in your process.”
“Most clients only ask when it’ll be done and how much it’ll cost.”
He smiled, lifting his wine glass. “I’m not most clients,” he said, echoing what he’d told you that first day at his headquarters.
For the next twenty minutes, you talked shop. Layering techniques, color and motion, how to evoke emotion without showing too much. He asked questions that actually made you think—sharp, specific ones that showed he wasn’t just nodding along to be polite. He was genuinely interested.
At some point, somewhere between your third course and your second glass of wine, you caught yourself relaxing. Laughing. Enjoying it. And then you paused and set your glass down.
“Can I ask you something?” you said, unsure why the question suddenly felt heavier than it should.
“Anything.”
“You really went through all this—the car, this restaurant, the whole dramatic dinner—just to talk about brushwork and layering techniques?”
He leaned back in his chair, fingers resting lightly against his glass as he searched for the right words. “I don’t know,” he said finally. “Maybe I just like you.”
“You like me?” you echoed, unsure if it was a question or a warning.
“Is that so hard to believe?”
“Kind of, yeah.” You fidgeted with your napkin. “I mean, you could be having dinner with a dozen other people tonight. Models. Actresses. CEOs’ daughters. People who don’t get paint on their shoes and give you a hard time.”
“Maybe that’s exactly why.”
Something shifted between you at his words. Like someone had turned the volume down on the room so you could hear each other better. You took a slow sip of wine, partly to buy time, partly to keep your expression neutral as you studied him across the table.
“So, you’re single then?” you asked. “Unless your girlfriend’s very cool with you taking strangers to fancy dinners.”
Satoru raised an eyebrow. “Are you asking if I have a girlfriend?”
“I’m asking if I should expect an angry phone call later.”
He laughed. “No angry phone calls. And yeah—I’m single.”
“Shocking,” you said. “A successful and attractive CEO who can’t keep a girlfriend? What’s the catch?”
“Maybe I’m just picky.”
“Or maybe you’re married to your work,” you teased. “Let me guess—canceled dates for board meetings, forgotten anniversaries because of some deadline?”
“That’s…” He paused, glancing down on his glass for a moment. “Actually, my last girlfriend cheated on me.”
Your smile slipped. “Oh. I didn’t mean to—”
“Don’t be sorry. She wasn’t the right one. If she had been, maybe she would’ve understood that building something that lasts takes time. And attention.”
“How long ago was that?”
“About two years.” He reached for his wine, swirling it once before taking a sip. “Haven’t really dated since then.”
“So, casual things?”
“More like burying myself in work. Honestly, the closest thing I’ve had to female company lately is my secretary. And she has this strangely strict voice that sounds exactly like my mother when she’s disappointed.”
You laughed, sharp and sudden, covering your mouth with your hand. It wasn’t even that funny, not really. But the way he’d said it—so dry, and slightly frightened—and the face he made, like a kid who’d just been scolded for wearing the wrong socks to a school recital, caught you completely off guard.
For a moment, he didn’t look like the CEO of a massive company or the man who moved literal billions without blinking. He looked boyish. Almost shy. Like he was letting you peek at something most people didn’t get to see. And somehow, that made it even funnier.
You tried to compose yourself, but your shoulders were still shaking as you dabbed at the corners of your eyes. “I’m sorry.”
He smiled as he watched you try to hold in your laughter. “I like when you laugh like that.”
“Like what?”
“Like you’re not thinking about how you look doing it.”
Something in the way he said it that made the humor settle into something softer, something that hangs in the air a little too long. Like neither of you wanted to be the one to move past it first.
“Well,” you said, trying to ignore the way your pulse had picked up, “your secretary sounds scary. I can see why you’d rather have dinner with me.”
“Among other reasons.”
Heat crept up your neck before you could stop it. You picked up your glass, needing the excuse to look away for a second. “Are you always this charming?” you asked, trying to sound casual, but your voice came out a little softer than intended.
“I’m trying,” he said. “With you.”
He said it like it wasn’t heavy at all. But it was. And you could feel it settle in your chest.
“Satoru…” you started, not even sure what was going to follow. But then the waiter showed up and set down the next course with a brief description you didn’t really hear because you only had eyes for him.
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
Dinner had stretched well past ten, neither of you making any real effort to end the night. So when Satoru suggested a walk instead of heading straight to the car, you said yes.
The night had cooled off more than you expected, and you pulled your jacket a little tighter around your shoulders as the two of you wandered through the quiet streets near the restaurant. It had rained earlier, leaving the pavement slick and glistening under the streetlights. At one point, a small puddle stretched across the sidewalk, and before you could react, Satoru just scooped you up without a word and carried you over it like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Maybe it was the warmth the wine had left in your chest, or maybe it was just the way his arms felt around you, steady and sure, but you let yourself lean a little closer against him before he set you down again on the other side.
“That was unnecessary,” you said, trying to sound annoyed, though you didn’t make much effort to slip out of his arms.
“Maybe,” he replied with a grin, “but I’ve always wanted an excuse to do that.”
It felt good—being with him felt really good. The kind of good that made you forget to guard yourself. The kind that crept in quietly and made you wonder what it would be like to have more nights just like this.
You’d just rounded a corner into a small park when you heard soft violin music drifting through the air. You slowed, then stopped entirely. Just ahead, a street musician stood under the warm glow of a streetlamp, playing something slow and aching and beautiful.
You stood still and listened for a moment, a smal smile tugigng at your lips.
“Dance with me,” Satoru said.
You turned to him. “What? No.”
“Why not?” He held out a hand.
You hesitated and looked around for a second.
“You know, I won’t take ‘no’ for an answer.”
You surrendered and took his hand. “This is so stupid.”
He smiled, soft and sincere, and stepped in close. One hand found your waist, the other guiding yours up between you. His touch was warm, steady. Familiar in a way it shouldn’t be.
“You know,” you began, as he gently started to move. Not quite dancing, more like remembering how. “I usually don’t do this with clients.”
“Figures. I always suspected I was your favourite.”
“I wouldn’t say that,” you teased. “That other client of mine, a guy from an accounting firm is pretty smooth too.”
“Oh really? Did he buy you dinner at Narisawa and slow dance with you in the park?”
“Not yet.”
“I like when you try to mess with me.”
“I’m not trying. You just make it easy.”
He spun you gently, then pulled you back in, your hand pressed lightly to his chest. You could feel his heartbeat through the fabric of his dress shirt—too fast, like yours.
A few people passed, smiling without staring. It didn’t matter. You were too aware of his breath near your cheek, the weight of his palm at your back, the quiet between songs that didn’t feel like silence at all.
“You’re good at this,” you said softly.
“I only dance with people who make it easy.”
“That line would work better if your hands weren’t shaking a little.”
He leaned in closer, his breath gazing your ear. “So are yours.”
You swallowed, the closeness of him settling into your skin. You didn’t answer. Just let him hold you for a few more seconds, rain beginning to fall in light taps across your shoulders, your hair. And then he dipped you back gently, one hand firm behind you.
“Still think it’s stupid?” he asked.
Your breath caught as you stared up into those impossibly blue eyes, your back arching as he supported your weight effortlessly. The rest of the world faded away until there was nothing but him and the violin and the electric space between you.
“Yes,” you whispered. “Absolutely.”
“But?”
You hesitated, then let your fingers curl lightly around the front of his jacket. “But I don’t want it to stop.”
That’s when you felt the first raindrop hit your cheek.
His gaze flickered down to the raindrop on your skin, how it slowly run down, and for a second you could have sworn he looked at you lips. And maybe, just maybe you wished he’d kissed you but then the rain came heavier.
“That’s our cue.” But he didn’t move right away. His eyes stayed on you.
Finally, he lifted you back up, drawing you close against his chest. You were both breathing hard, though you’d barely been moving. The rain was falling more steadily now, and you could see Satoru’s white hair beginning to darken with moisture.
“Home?” he asked, voice rougher now, like he wasn’t quite ready for the answer either.
You nodded, not trusting yourself to say anything without giving too much away. Because at some point, this had stopped feeling like dinner with a client. You weren’t sure when it changed—only that it had. And now everything felt a little too close, a little too important.
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
When the car pulled up to your building, he was out and opening your door before you could reach for the handle yourself. Of course he was. Always one step ahead, always just… thoughtful in that maddening, disarming way.
“Thank you,” you said, stepping out into the quiet night.
“My pleasure.”
The air smelled like wet pavement and something faintly floral from someone’s balcony. He walked you to your door, hands tucked into his pockets, eyes flicking toward the sky like he wasn’t quite ready to say goodnight either.
You fumbled with your keys for a moment, buying time before the inevitable goodbye. The silence stretched, not tense, but full. Full of everything that had happened and everything that hadn’t.
When you finally turned to him, he was closer than you’d expected, close enough that you could see the way his white hair had dried in soft waves from the rain. He smelled faintly of wine and cedar and like someone you could spend the rest of your life with.
“I had a really good time tonight,” you said. “Thank you. For the dinner, the dancing, the completely unnecessary puddle rescue…”
He smiled, a little crooked, a little tired. “Even the terrible jokes?”
“Especially the terrible jokes. Though the stories of your secretary will probably haunt me tonight.”
“Oh, she haunts everyone,” he said. “She’s very scary.”
You both laughed, but the sound died down fast, like the moment had suddenly remembered it was trying to mean something else. His gaze dropped, if only for the briefest moment, to your lips. Your heart hammered against your ribs as you waited, hoping, expecting—
“I should let you get some sleep,” he said. But instead of stepping back, he stepped closer.
Your breath caught as his hand rose—slow, deliberate—coming to rest gently at the back of your head. But instead of the dreamy kiss you’d hoped for, he kissed your forehead. Not your mouth. Not even your cheek. Your forehead.
The kiss was soft, warm—overflowing with care. But not the kind you’d been waiting for. It was tender, almost reverent, and somehow, it left you feeling strangely hollow.
“Sleep well,” he murmured against your skin before pulling back. And then he turned—just like that—and walked back to the car. No glance over his shoulder. No hesitation. No second thought.
Inside your apartment, you leaned against the closed door, jacket still damp against your shoulders. You touched your forehead, where his lips had been. It had been sweet. Really, it had. Just… not what you’d expected. Not what you’d wanted.
You let your head fall back against the door with a soft thud. Why hadn’t he kissed you? Why would he do all that just to not... kiss you?
You’d been so sure. The way he’d looked at you over dinner. The way he’d held you during that ridiculous dance. The way it had all felt like a slow build to something. And you wanted that something.
But maybe that was the problem. Maybe you were just another commission to him after all, something to be handled with care but ultimately kept at arm’s length.
It shouldn’t have stung the way it did. But it did.
More than you cared to admit.
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
Monday morning arrived under a gray drizzle that matched your mood a little too perfectly. You stepped into a puddle on the way out, got your umbrella stuck in a doorway because you’d forgotten it was open, and then someone on the subway sneezed directly in your direction. It was that kind of morning.
You’d spent the entire weekend replaying Friday night over in your head—every glance, every word, every fleeting gesture—until you’d nearly driven yourself mad with questions that had no answers.
And Aki was absolutely no help. She was already perched on your desk when you walked in, your usual coffee in one hand and dark circles under your eyes doing all the talking.
“Soooo… how was your fancy dinner?”
“It was fine,” you said, powering up your computer.
“Fine?” Mei materialized beside her like she’d been lying in wait for gossip. “That’s it? You go to Narisawa with the hottest CEO in Tokyo and all we get is fine?”
“It was a business dinner. We discussed the commission.”
“What kind of man gets you flowers that pretty just to talk about business?”
“A man who takes his commission very seriously.”
You could feel their stares burning into the side of your head.
“Come on,” Mei pressed. “Did he kiss you? He kissed you, didn’t he? I can tell by your face.”
“He didn’t kiss me.”
“Ah,” Aki said, with that stupid satisfaction of someone who’d just solved a puzzle. “So you wanted him to.”
You groaned and buried your face in your hands. “Can we please not?”
But of course, they were relentless, firing question after question at you about what you wore, what you ate, what he said, if there was a ‘vibe’—until you were actually grateful for that boring meeting before lunch with a client who always rejected your ideas, made you change them back and forth a dozen times, and inevitably circled back to the original design. As frustrating as that was, it still didn’t compare to what was coming later.
You had a meeting with Satoru after work to talk about delivery logistics—when to bring the artwork, how many pieces were ready. The commission was nearly complete, and a few canvases could be brought to his office already. But the thought of standing across from him again, making small talk about framing and placement, felt unbearable.
Not to mention figuring out how to get those giant canvases out of your apartment, which was now packed to the walls with drying paint, sketches, and so many drop cloths you’d basically lost your kitchen to the cause.
For weeks, this commission had felt like the best thing to happen to your career. But now, standing outside the gleaming tower that housed his office, you weren’t sure what to think anymore.
Was this just business to him? Had you imagined the connection, the tension, the way he looked at you like you were someone special? Maybe successful men like Satoru Gojo were just naturally charming, and you’d been naive enough to think it meant something more.
You straightened your shoulders and walked into the building. If he wanted professional, he could have professional. You had a job to do, no matter what kind of game your heart thought it was playing.
You raised your hand to knock on his office door—though really, there was no need. The walls were glass, and he’d already spotted you the second you moved.
He was on the phone, his shoulder pinning it in place as he typed something on the laptop in front of him. With a slight nod of his head, he gestured for you to come in. And there it was again—that maddening smile. The one that made it look like his whole face lit up just from seeing you.
You stepped inside, lingering uncertainly near the door. He was still deep in conversation, something about a company merger and someone named Gerald being an absolut idiot, and how he might as well handle it himself. Always busy, it seemed.
Satoru shifted the phone slightly and glanced at you. “Hey, you want coffee?”
You nodded and then he was back to his call. You wandered a little further into his office, taking in the space. It was always so tidy which felt strangely at odds with how chaotic his work seemed to be. You drifted toward the tall windows and looked down at the city below. In the gentle afternoon sun, people were rushing through the city—commuters heading home, students in uniform, ordinary lives unfolding far beneath you.
Satoru stood and walked over to you. He was close—Why would he come so close?—and placed a hand gently at your waist, a brief touch that lingered just long enough to make your breath catch. He pressed the phone to his chest for a moment.
“Sorry for the wait,” he said, voice low. “I’m nearly done.”
And then he was gone, stepping out of the office and leaving you reeling.
When he returned two minutes later, he had two mugs in one hand and a canned coffee tucked under his arm, balancing it all as he kicked open the door with his foot. Phone was still pressed between his shoulder and ear. He poured two cups and handed you a one, flashing you that easy smile of his.
You took a seat on the couch, sipping carefully and doing your best not to make eye contact. But you were sure he’d already noticed the flush creeping into your cheeks.
Finally, he hung up and let out a long sigh.
“I’m so sorry. There’s this big merger we’re handling, and the guy in charge is like the biggest idiot I’ve ever met.”
“It’s okay.”
He ran a hand through his hair, sending it falling messily back over his forehead.
“No, it’s not. I don’t want to keep you waiting.”
“I bet that just comes naturally with being important.”
“I’m not that important,” he replied with a grin.
“The whole tower has your name on it. I’d say that qualifies.”
“What’s more important right now,” he said, standing and walking over to you, “is you.” He took the seat across from you. “So… how was your day? Treat you well?”
Why was he asking about your day now? What kind of game was he playing?
“It was fine. Monday’s not exactly my favorite.”
“Don’t get me started.” He laughed. “I hope at least your meeting went well?”
You blinked. He remembers? You’d mentioned it briefly during dinner.
“Oh, uh… yeah. It went okay,” you said. “But let’s talk about the commission. That’s why I’m here, right?”
He frowned, and there was a moment of silence. “Sure.”
You spent the next hour and a half going over the artwork—discussing placement, lighting, framing. He was enthusiastic and attentive, genuinely appreciative in a way that still surprised you, even now.
You moved through the headquarters together. Most people had gone home by then. The sun had already set, casting long shadows through the quiet halls. A few late workers lingered, but Satoru told them to go and rest and sent them home. And just like that, it was the two of you, walking side by side through the empty building, planning where each piece would live.
It was in one of the offices on the west side of the building—the ones with the perfect view of Tokyo Tower—that you found yourself on your tiptoes, trying to tape a placeholder on the wall for one of the larger pieces. You stretched, struggling to reach just high enough to get the angle right.
“Wait, let me.”
Before you could respond, Satoru was suddenly right behind you. He gently took the tape from your fingers, easily reaching over you to press it into place. His body hovered just a breath away, tall and warm.
“Thank you,” you said, suddenly flushed. But he didn’t move away. “You can step back now.” You didn’t dare turn around because if you did, you would end up facing his chest. And you really didn’t want to face his chest.
“Does this make you uncomfortable?”
“What kind of question is that?”
“I’m just checking in,” he said casually, like it was the most normal thing in the world to stand inches away from someone like this.
“You have a strange way of doing that.”
“I had a feeling.”
“About what?”
“You’re avoiding me.”
“I don’t.”
He reached out, fingers brushing your shoulder, and then slowly trailed the back of his hand down your arm. It sent a shiver down your spine that you hoped he didn’t notice.
“So this doesn’t bother you?” he asked, almost curious.
“Satoru, what’s your mission here?”
You finally turned to face him and regretted it immediately. You were much too close, nearly pressed against him. His white dress shirt did nothing to hide the muscle beneath, and you hated the fact that your first thought was how unfairly good he’d look without it.
“You’re blushing.” He reached out, gently cupping your chin and tilting your face up toward his.
“It’s hot.”
“It isn’t,” he said, and smiled.
He was right. It was around eighteen degrees. Damn these fancy offices and their perfectly functioning ACs.
“Can we go back to work? I’d rather not have a sleepover here.”
Satoru didn’t move. Instead, he leaned in closer, placing one hand against the wall beside your head, caging you in.
“You’re acting strange today,” he said softly.
“Maybe because you’re keeping me here.”
“Was I mistaken?”
“About what?”
“Our date.”
“What about it?”
His hand dropped from your chin. “I thought it was… good.”
You blinked, trying to read him. “It was—” you cleared your throat, “—it wasn’t just good. It was great.”
“Oh. Yeah… I think so too. Then why—”
“But you didn’t kiss me.”
His eyes widened just a little. “You… wanted me to kiss you?”
“I…” You hesitated, feeling your face getting even hotter then is already was. “Yes.”
“I thought I’d be a gentleman and take things slow. Are we actually kissing on first dates these days?”
“I mean… yeah. It depends—I guess, but…” You trailed off, absolutely flustered.
He paused for a beat, then that maddeningly smug grin spread across his lips.
“Don’t smile like that,” you said, pushing lightly against his chest.
“I’m sorry, I just… I didn’t want to rush things. I mean, my whole approach was already kind of—”
“Weird? Borderline stalker—” And then his lips were on yours, silencing your words.
No hesitation this time. No uncertainty. You melted into him instantly, your fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt.
His hands slid into your hair, fingers threading through the strands as he tilted your head back, deepening the kiss with a confidence that made your knees go weak. One hand traced the line of your jaw while the other found the small of your back, pulling you closer until not even air could fit between you.
You could taste the coffee on his lips, could feel the slight tremor in his hands that betrayed that he wasn’t as composed as he looked. When he pulled back, you were both breathless, foreheads pressed together under the dim lights.
“Still think this is just about the commission?” he asked, his thumb brushing gently across your bottom lip, now flushed and swollen from his kiss.
“Shut up.” And then you grabbed him by his tie and pulled him back to your lips.
This kiss was different. Hungrier. Needier. He pressed you back against the wall, one hand braced beside your head, the other tangled deep in your hair. You couldn’t stop the soft sound that escaped when he deepened it further, like you’d been waiting for this longer than you wanted to admit.
“What’s the hurry?” he whispered between kisses, his mouth trailing along your jaw.
“You made a whole-ass campaign to find me,” you said, breathless, your fingers twisted in his shirt. “Don’t back down now.”
His laugh was low and rough against your neck. “Fair point.”
Before you could answer, his hands slid down to your thighs, and suddenly you were being lifted, your back pressed firmly against the wall as he held you there effortlessly. Your legs wrapped around his waist, and the new position brought you eye-level with him, close enough to see just how dark his eyes had gone.
“Still think I’m moving too slow?” he asked against your throat, his breath warm on your skin.
“Getting there,” you managed, though your voice was shakier than you’d intended, your hands gripping his shoulders for balance.
“I do like a challenge.”
Without breaking the kiss, Satoru carried you across the pace into his office, your legs still wrapped around his waist, until he reached the leather couch by the windows. He lowered you both down, following you as you sank into the soft cushions, his weight settling over you as his hands framed your face.
“Much better,” he breathed against your lips.
His kisses deepened, slow and deliberate, like he had all the time in the world to explore the taste of you. One hand slid into your hair while the other traced the curve of your waist.
“I hope you sent everyone home,” you said, fingers threading through his white hair as his mouth moved along your neck.
“Don’t worry. And besides—glass or not, the walls are soundproof. One of the perks of being CEO.”
“How convenient.”
“I thought so.” His teeth grazed the sensitive spot just beneath your jaw, making you gasp and arch beneath him. “Though I have to admit—I didn’t imagine using it like this when I had them installed.”
You tugged gently at his hair, bringing his mouth back to yours. “Then what did you imagine?”
“Boring conference calls,” he said between kisses. “Definitely not as interesting as this.”
The leather of the couch was cool against your back where your shirt had ridden up, highlighting the heat of his large hands as they explored the newly exposed skin. Outside, Tokyo shimmered in the night, but the only thing holding your attention was the man above you—the way he kissed you like he was memorizing every reaction, every breath, every soft sound you made.
“What makes you think I’m that loud?” you murmured against his mouth.
“Oh, I have a feeling.”
His hand drifted lower, fingers tracing the curve of your hip before skimming up the inside of your thigh. The touch sent a rush through your veins, making you gasp softly into his kiss.
“Satoru,” you whispered, fingers gripping the front of his shirt, pulling him closer as his touch grew bolder.
“I know.” His hand inched lower between your legs, while his lips kissed down your neck. “I hate waiting too.”
Then his hand slipped beneath the waistband of your jeans, chasing every bit of tension that had been building between you since that very first subway sketch. And as the lights of Tokyo glittered beyond the glass, the rest of the world fell away, leaving nothing but the heat between you—and the things neither of you could hold back any longer.
── ⟢ ・⸝⸝
Later, you lay tangled together on the leather couch, your head resting on his chest as his fingers traced lazy patterns along your bare shoulder. Everything had gone still, except for your breathing and the distant noise of Tokyo still awake outside.
“So,” Satoru said, his voice warm with amusement, “where exactly did we leave off with the commission?”
You lifted your head to look at him, a smile tugging at your lips. “Pretty sure we got distracted somewhere around placing the canvas in the west office block.”
“Ah, yes—the once perfect placement. Facing the window, not the door. ‘Omg, what was I thinking?’” he teased in a gentle mimic of your voice, his fingers tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. “For what I’m paying you, I really have no say.”
“Don’t blame this on me. You gave me full creative freedom. Or maybe you need better negotiation tactics.”
“My negotiation tactics are pretty solid,” he protested, his chest rumbling with quiet laughter beneath your cheek. “I got exactly what I wanted.”
“The art commission?”
“Among other things.” His arms tightened around you, drawing you closer. “Though I still think the pieces should face the door, so I can see them from the hallway when I pass that office.”
“Is that your professional opinion, Mr. CEO?”
“That’s my completely biased, utterly smitten opinion,” he said, pressing a kiss to the top of your head. “The CEO in me would probably have a lot to say about the productivity level of tonight.”
“Poor productivity indeed. We only managed to discuss half the rooms.”
“Terrible oversight.” His hand slid slowly down your back, caressing your hip. “We’ll have to schedule another meeting. Several, probably. Very intensive. Very hands-on.”
“Hands-on is definitely the way to go with this project,” you said, tilting your face up to meet his gaze, and the look he gave you was so tender it made your heart skip.
In one smooth motion, he flipped you beneath him again, his weight settling over you as his lips found yours. “I think we should continue our discussion right now,” he murmured, trailing kisses down your throat.
You were just beginning to melt into his touch when the sound of the office door opening made you both freeze.
“Oh fuck! I didn’t know you were still here,” a voice blurted.
You scrambled to grab Satoru’s shirt from the floor next to the couch and pulled it over yourself as you pressed back into the couch cushions. Thankfully, the back of the couch faced the door, giving you at least some cover, but your heart was hammering so hard you were sure whoever it was could hear it.
Satoru pushed himself up, running a hand through his messy hair, looking far too at ease for someone who’d just been caught in a very compromising position
“Suguru,” he said, voice calm and unbothered. “What’s up?”
“Don’t bother—I’m just looking for my laptop charger. I’ll leave.”
“It’s okay. We were just...” Satoru began, then seemed to realize there was no good way to finish that sentence. “...Having a meeting.”
You buried your face in your hands, mortified. Why the hell is he starting a conversation right now? This was not how you’d imagined your evening ending—almost naked on Satoru’s office couch, wearing only his shirt, while his colleague stood in the doorway looking for his goddamn laptop charger.
The time you waited for the guy to get his charger were the most agonizing twenty second of your whole life and to your bad, Satoru wasn’t even the slightest bit ashamed.
Little did you know that Suguru would become one of your closest friends once you and Satoru were actually in a relationship. But every single birthday party or casual gathering, that story would come again. “Haha, did you know Suguru caught us on the couch?” Satoru would joke, while Suguru would groan, “Can we please never talk about that again?”
Six months later, the apartment Satoru found for the two of you was perfect in the way only he could manage—spacious enough for both of you to have your own creative corners and with big windows that caught the morning light beautifully and offered a stunning view of the city skyline. It was nestled just across from a quiet park where the trees already turned gold for autumn.
But it was the room he’d turned into your art studio that brought you to tears the first time you saw it. Windows that faced the north for consistent lighting, spacious storage for your materials, and enough wall space to work on several large canvases at once.
“You didn’t have to do all this,” you’d said, running your fingers along the custom easel he’d installed.
“I wanted to,” he’d replied simply, wrapping his arms around you from behind. “I want to see what you create when you have all the space and time in the world.”
You’d cut your hours at Takahashi Media Group down to part-time—something that would’ve been financially impossible before Satoru. But the commission for his headquarters had led to three more corporate projects, and suddenly, you had enough steady work to support yourself as an artist. Real work. Meaningful work. Not just subway sketches—though you still did those too. Now, Satoru sometimes joined you on weekend train rides, amused by the way strangers reacted to receiving unexpected portraits.
Your mornings became a rhythm of coffee in bed while he read financial reports and you sketched ideas for new pieces. After the third time he found you passed out over a canvas at 2 AM, having forgotten to eat dinner, he installed a espresso machine in your studio. Now, he’d show up with perfectly crafted lattes and whatever takeout he’d ordered, settling into the window seat with his laptop while you painted—taking calls with investors in Tokyo, New York, and London, all while keeping an eye on you and making sure you don’t overwork yourself again.
“You know I can hear you smiling through the phone,” you’d tease after he hung up from his calls.
“Can’t help it,” he’d say. “I’ve got the most beautiful view in the city right here.”
The subway sketches evolved too. Instead of giving them all away, you started keeping some—the ones that captured something more, moments that felt like little revelations about people, about life. Satoru convinced you to include them in a group exhibition at a gallery in Shibuya. The opening night was small and intimate, but watching people connect with your work in a way they never had when you were just handing out drawings on trains felt like validation of everything you’d been trying to do.
“This feels like coming full circle,” Satoru whispered into your ear as you both watched guests study your pieces, his hand resting warmly at the small of your back.
“From stalking me through my art to displaying it properly?”
“From falling in love with your work… to falling in love with you,” he corrected. And even after months of dating, after hearing him say those words more times than you could count, they still made your heart skip.
Suguru became an unexpected constant in your life too. What began hella awkward slowly turned into real friendship. And the three of you fell into an easy routine of weekend dinners and spontaneous museum visits, Suguru often playing the role of best friend and occasional voice of reason when Satoru’s grand romantic gestures got out of hand.
Which happened more often than you’d expected. Like the time he rented out an entire floor of a restaurant because you’d wanted to eat there but hated crowded rooms. Or when he bought a whole flower shop’s worth of peonies because you’d mentioned loving them once. Or the morning you woke up to find the city’s best sushi chef—apparently an old friend of his, because Satoru seemed to know everyone in this goddamn town—preparing breakfast in your kitchen, just because you’d been craving good fish.
“You know you don’t have to keep trying to impress me,” you told him after each increasingly excessive gesture. “I already said yes to moving in with you.”
“I’m not trying to impress you. I’m trying to spoil you. There’s a difference.”
The truth was, it was the small things that meant the most. The way he’d automatically order your coffee when you were running late, or how he’d text you photos of interesting architecture from whatever city he was traveling through, or the fact that he’d learned to distinguish between your different paintbrushes and how to clean them properly when you forgot.
He even kept a sketchbook of his own now, filled with terrible but enthusiastic drawings of you working, cooking, sleeping, just existing in the space you’d built together.
Your family adored him, of course. Your mother immediately started calling him her ‘second son’ after a chaotic family dinner he’d attended—which, by the way, you always thought was kind of weird. Like, why would parents call him their ‘son’ when he was spending every other night between your thighs?—Still, he charmed everyone with stories about his work, genuine interest in your father’s completely ordinary job and about your cousins’ college applications—and even remembered your aunt’s dog’s name. He always brought the perfect wine to pair with whatever your mom was cooking, and never forgot a birthday.
The subway sketches and posters that had started everything found a permanent home in the hallway of your shared apartment. A dozen framed moments that told the story of your work and your relationship. The original sketch you’d given him on that crowded train of Line 4 hung proudly in his office at work, right next to his desk where everyone could see it.
“That’s where it all started,” he’d say whenever anyone asked. “Best investment I ever made.”
Three years later, when Satoru proposed during one of your morning train rides—getting down on one knee right there in the subway car where you first met, causing a scene that had fellow passengers cheering and taking pictures—you realized that sometimes the best love stories start with the smallest gestures.
A sketch handed to a stranger. A poster campaign that was equal parts romantic and unhinged. A decision to be brave enough to call a number written on a business card.
And every morning, as you watched the city wake through the studio’s windows while Satoru hummed in the kitchen, probably checking market reports with one hand and making your coffee with the other, you couldn’t help but smile at how beautifully imperfect it all was. How your once carefully ordered life had been turned upside down by a man with white hair and the kind of heart that didn’t know how to love in small doses.
“Still think I’m weird?” he’d ask sometimes, appearing in your studio doorway with a mug of coffee and that same grin that had made your knees weak the very first time.
“The weirdest,” you’d always reply, taking the coffee—and the kiss that came with it. “But you’re my weird. And I love you.”
“I love you more,” he’d say, leaning down to kiss your forehead.
And that, you’d learned, made all the difference.
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꒷꒦pairing꒦꒷ serial killer!Gojo x detective fem!reader
꒷꒦cw꒦꒷ NSFW, 18+ MDNI—(oh boy, here we go) modern AU, angst and smut and despair, explicit sexual content, graphic depictions of death and torture, so much blood (it's messy), moral quandaries, mentions of sexual assault, stalking, abduction, drugging, plotting & betrayal, heavy on the dub-con, mind fucking/breaking, choking (out hehe), slapping, knife play, (very) inappropriate use of firearms, dirty talk (threats count as dirty talk right?), 'make it fit' trope (big dick nerd mmm), fingering, face fucking, unprotected piv sex, creampie, sex with a dead body in the room, p0rn with a dose of murderous plot, obsessive and possessive and very yandere nerd gojo, he's a walking red flag and reader is kind of a freak as usual.
꒷꒦summary꒦꒷ the nerd in forensics has always been on your radar. everything about him is too crafted to be genuine. so you've always got your eye on gojo. the same can be said for him, but he’s just watching your back! you have a nasty habit of getting stalked by people who definitely aren't him. but it's mutually beneficial. you don't get murdered by the scorned, ex-con stalkers you've put away, and gojo gets another killer to bleed dry. you really are perfect for each other. but things are going off the rails this time around, and you finally see gojo for what he truly is. maybe you should have stopped looking so hard, but it's too late for maybe now.
꒷꒦a/n꒦꒷ this got out of hand so fast wow, but Dexter and Gojo? i couldn't stop, so now this is fat and absolutely filthy. it's still kinktober tho, right?┃art in the header by @/savoryjump on insta, dividers by @/cafekitsune, @/anitalerina, and @/sister-lucifer ꒷꒦w/c꒦꒷ 17.5k (holy shit, i swear its worth it T_T)
All the usual familiar faces greeted Gojo as he strolled out from the elevator, a box in one hand and a sugary coffee in a to-go cup from the cafe just down the block.
He flashed a smile, crooked and charming and with a few more teeth than typical for him at 8 AM, but he couldn’t help it. Gojo was in a great mood. How could he not be? He not only did the department a huge favor last night, but Tokyo as a whole.
“Good morning, Gojo!” A freshly promoted officer greeted him, wide-eyed and eager. Her uniform pressed, bright blue hair tied back in a neat ponytail, and a folder in hand as she walked through the open glass doors. “The lab had the results ready for that hair sample. I brought it up with me, figured I could save you the trip down!” She held the folder up in one hand with a smile as she kept pace with him.
Gojo glanced her way as he stopped to let a few people grab a pastry from the pastel pink box in his hand. They greeted him with distracted murmurs, eyeing the box for a favorite.
She was a new face around the department, and Gojo was already a little poor at keeping track of names. It’s one of the few things that made him both feel a little more human, and somehow even more removed from normalcy. It was a flaw, one of many, but in a different way than most of his. He should remember names; being remembered makes people feel a personal connection, like they matter. It disarms them.
When Gojo smiled at her, he made sure it reached his eyes, coming off warmer and more genuine that way. “That was very thoughtful of you, thank you. But, uh,” He glanced up towards the desks, a few still empty with officers and detectives off duty or having not arrived yet, and gestured to one with the hand holding his coffee. “I’m not the one to do any favors for. That’s who you should probably be grabbing paperwork for.”
Right on time—no, you'd have been there for at least an hour if he gauged the time by how your desk was littered with folders and a few open boxes. Your head propped up on one hand as your eyes darted up and down from your monitor to a page. Maybe you pulled another all-nighter, you were in different clothes, but they were already rumpled like you’d been in that fitted button-down for a few hours already. Critical and sharp eyes a little tired. But that’s how it always was when you were on the precipice of a break, especially on a case as big as the one he knew you were working on.
“The sergeant?” Officer whats-her-face asked, looking from you to Gojo again. “She didn’t want any help, I already asked.” She said sheepishly, and Gojo’s smile got a little wider.
“Yeah, that sounds like her.”
You grabbed a mug off your desk and took a sip, eyes glued to the screen for a long moment with the ceramic pressed to your lips. After taking in the same two sentences on the witness statement over and over until they blurred, you blinked, broke from the screen, and locked eyes with Gojo.
As if it's a reflex your body made the very moment you registered his presence; your eyes narrowed and your grip tightened on the mug. You looked him up and down fully, not an ounce of shame or hesitation in your sweeping gaze. You weren’t checking him out though; you were putting him under a microscope.
Like you could see the blood still on his hands, spattered on his face, and dripping from his hair if you looked hard enough. Like maybe he’d finally crack under the weight, and a piece of his mask would fall away if you cut through him with piercing eyes.
It happened every day, at the same time, no matter what, Gojo Satoru walked into your department with an effortless air of confidence surrounding him. There was always a smile on his face, sometimes it was small and seemed a little tired, his eyes distant, like his head was stuck somewhere else. Some days, he walked in like he was a fucking god. Wearing a smug grin like he’d won the ultimate prize in life, his unnaturally bright blue eyes satisfied and easy.
Always wearing some lame ass button down, untucked like he couldn’t be bothered. Sometimes—like today—he’d grace the collar with a loosely knotted tie. Looking like a university student showing up to their first job interview, an attempt at professionalism that missed the mark and landed somewhere in nerdy frat boy cosplaying a salaryman. His platinum hair pushed back a little, just a few strands falling back down on his forehead like he didn’t use product to hold it.
He was messy in a way that came off as endearing. Like he was just the nerd in forensics, appearances weren’t important, so he threw whatever on and stopped at the bakery down the block for assorted pastries that definitely were just random, it was chance that he somehow got everyone’s favorite treat every time.
He really was so likable too, maybe that’s what really pissed you off the most. He was generally nice, helpful, and smart—one of the best in his field. He was funny, and thoughtful, a little goofy, but it balanced out because he was infuriatingly good looking on top of it all.
You outranked him, but you were tilting your head back to make eye contact when he gave you a briefing at a crime scene. You’ve had to snap yourself out of it and yank your eyes off him when he rolled the sleeves of his shirt up over forearms roped with a little too much muscle for a nerd and flexed long fingers into blue latex gloves.
It was all a little too effortless for him; he was crafted in a way that seemed literal. Like the pieces of him were put together to disarm, to appease, and fit in, and keep people from pulling back a curtain and looking any deeper.
But you clocked it a long time ago. It seemed like overcompensation, and you started digging, especially when you were promoted to sergeant, and that’s when you saw the first crack.
Gojo had a habit of engaging in extracurricular activities.
A few hair samples here, a blood analysis there, print matching galore, and none of it tied to a case number.
When you confronted him about it, he covered so quickly and perfectly, all you could hear was a hammer cracking down the final nail in his coffin.
"Blah blah blah, data to support the arguments in a collaboration piece for a geeky magazine, it’s probably not your thing but it’ll be out in a few weeks if you really want to read it. You interested? Seems like it.”
It was the perfect mix of authenticity and teasing, a perfect explanation delivered with a smirk at the end that twisted the spotlight back onto you instead. Like you’d only be interested in one thing, and it didn’t involve advancements in DNA testing.
You’d crossed your arms, looked down your nose at him, and told him to notify you before putting lab work through without a case number, and if it happened again, you’d write him up for it.
“Yes, ma’am.” He winked with a mocking salute, like he loved it. Loved the way your nostrils flared at his insubordination and your glare at his smile that feigned innocence on the surface to hide something monstrous and sadistic lurking just beneath.
You could see it, though, and from then on, you had your eye on him.
Gojo nodded your way, smiling like he wanted your eyes on him, like he enjoyed having your sights set on him, the challenge of being in your crosshairs and getting away with it.
He strolled right up to your desk with a, “Morning, sarge!” You leaned back in your chair, your eyes staying trained on his through his thick prescription lenses, the black frames low on the bridge of his nose. “I think they threw your favorite in again, want something glazed to start the day?” He said slyly as he offered out the box, but he knew you’d decline, you always did.
“No, what I really want is the full report on the head hunter vic from yesterday.” You responded flatly, your mouth set in a hard straight line. Your eyes flicked behind him. “Kasumi, you’re coming with Nanami and I to verify the statement from the witness yesterday, something isn’t right here.” You murmured, gesturing vaguely at your screen.
“Yes ma’am! When do you want to leave?” The blue haired girl immediately jumped to action, coming up beside Gojo to address you.
“Help Gojo with his paperwork and then we’ll leave, his hands look a little full.” You looked right at him, the words curt and clipped and he grinned right back.
“Awe, thanks sarge, always so thoughtful.” Gojo's head cocked. Your eyes narrowed.
“Mm.”
“Good luck with your witness.” His smile grew by a fraction and your eyes flitted over his frame quickly once, cataloguing every bit of him before he nodded again, and turned to head to his lab. The new officer followed behind, file in hand.
The witness wouldn’t lead anywhere. None of your efforts would ever lead anywhere, not after last night.
The latest victim's head was the last trophy that sick freak would be taking. In a twist of something that Satoru likes to quantify as justice or maybe karmic retribution, but was really just Satoru making things a little more personal for the guy, a cleaver glinted as he pulled it from his kit, and hacked the killers own stuttering head off.
Who’s a fucking trophy now?
But his work is hardly over, it never is. The satisfaction only lasts for so long before hunger comes creeping back in. It all works out though because once again, and all thanks to you and your pretty face that can never keep out of trouble, tonight's the night.
A long moment passed within which you burned holes into Gojo’s back as he wound around the other desks, in absolutely no rush as he chatted around with others setting up for the day. Offering out the box of confections like he was fucking Santa Claus or some shit.
He could feel your eyes glued to him, and it just made him drag it all out more. He couldn’t help but like that you paid so much attention to him, because it just proved that he really was the best at what he did. Having you watching his every move and still getting away with it?
God damn, Gojo was good.
“You’re staring,” Nanami’s murmur yanked your attention off of Gojo as he and Kasumi moved on and headed to the lab set to the rear of the department floor. You glanced sidelong at your partner, his arms crossed, biceps straining at the blue cotton weave of his dress shirt. “It’s not polite.”
You scoffed, “Just keeping tabs on the department. Are you ready to go? Kasumi is coming with once she’s done in the geek hole.”
“Mhm, do you really think it’s worth it to redo the witness statement?” Nanami cocked his head, and you swiveled your chair a little to face him. “She seemed quite frazzled yesterday. I doubt it’ll be much different now.”
“We have to try,” You sighed, “But even if we just clean it up and get a consistent statement out of her, it’s worth it. Everything has to be perfect to nail this guy, you know that.” The chair squeaked as you leaned forward. “I’m not letting that L’Oréal ad of a defense lawyer fuck this up because of an inconsistency if that hair sample doesn’t pan out.”
“You’re right, but don’t let this consume you. You won’t be any help running on shitty coffee and konbini food instead of sleep.” Nanami raised a brow, his soft hazel eyes studying your face, the rings under your eyes that you know have deepened after an almost full 24 hours at the precinct. “You sacrifice too much on cases like this.”
“We’re so close. DNA and a witness? The perp is getting sloppy; this is our shot to catch up and finally nail the sick fuck.” Nanami visibly tensed, a slight grimace passing over his features. It’s been almost a full year of finding body after body, once beautiful young women violated and left posed with their hands splayed out where their heads used to be, a polaroid of their sleeping faces where the real thing once was. The heads of each never recovered.
“It can’t happen again. I can’t see another one like that, Kento, it’s just… you know.” You swallowed hard, and your shoulders slumped. Not defeat, you’d never accept that, just… tired. Tired of the same scene and little to nothing to show for it.
“I know.” Nanami said softly. His hands dropped, one went to a pocket of his grey slacks, the other thumbing the edge of a file on your desk. He cleared his throat, and changed the topic. “Are you thinking she lied? The witness.”
“It’s more likely that she wasn’t thinking straight, but it’s not out of the question. Why though?” You hummed, taking a breath. “I’m not sure.”
“Coercion?”
“From the perp?” Your brow furrowed, and you hummed low again. “Why would he have even left her alive? If she saw identifying features, it’d make more sense to kill her, and he’s definitely not the type to show mercy.”
“Maybe it’s to throw us off,” Nanami countered, pushing your gears to start turning harder. “Lead us on some goose chase with a mismatched description.”
“Like… maybe he’s trying to set someone up?” Your jaw worked, and you stole a glance at the window to the lab. “We’ve never found DNA, and now we find a hair? Shit.”
“You think it’s all just for a setup?”
Your chair screeched back, and you practically leaped from your seat. “What if he’s trying to make a getaway? It’s all way too coincidental.”
“Kasumi!” You called, storming off towards the lab, gaining a few turned heads. “Hustle up, we’re leaving!” Nanami groaned, slinging his jacket over an arm and following towards the lab. You threw a look over your shoulder at him. “Oh, what? She’s just doddling now, we have shit to do.”
“You need some sleep, you’re doing that thing again.”
“What are you talking about? What thing?”
“The one where volume control goes out the window.”
The second statement from your witness turned up nothing new, as you had kind of expected, but you noticed something off about her this time around. She was nervous. Her story was straighter this time around, and she cleaned up details about the events, rescinding contradictory bits and pieces until the statement was airtight.
She was treating it almost like an alibi. Like there was something to prove. It just didn’t sit right with you, but she was a witness, not a suspect. Sure, you could have brought her back to the station and set her in an interrogation room and grilled her with Nanami until something came of it, but you had a feeling that nothing would come of it besides a burst of tears and a firm reminder about proper witness treatment from the inspector.
It was the last thing you needed, so you gave a slight bow, and left. Going around in circles with Nanami in the car, Kasumi surprised you a little by chiming in nervously every so often from the back. She was new, inexperienced, but getting fresh and eager eyes on tired information never hurts.
But again, as expected, nothing new really came of it. Just that the shift from uncertainty about the features on the figure she saw to absolution, seemed suspicious. But then again, the shock of seeing a dead body—a headless one at that—makes much aside from that difficult to remember. Maybe she was just recalling things more clearly now with time given to get thoughts together.
Maybe you were looking for loose threads to pull where none had come free. But then again, that’s what made you good at your job. And maybe sometimes a little much.
Fuck, you hated this shit sometimes. There really was no winning.
Back at the precinct, Nanami told you he’d deal with the inspector, and to go home. You didn’t have the energy to argue, not much at least. So, you tidied up your desk a little and told him you’d be back after a shower and a catnap, and to make sure the geeks had a match on the hair sample by the time you got back.
As you grabbed a couple folders to take home for some light reading, your eyes gravitated towards the lab. Window unobscured with the blinds up, you saw Gojo working away at something involving the high-powered microscope. The lights dimmed slightly, and the bluish glow from his monitor cast a hue over his pale, defined features. Platinum hair shone silver, pushed back and held up by his glasses.
He frowned at whatever he was observing, slim pale brows upturned. He pulled back, biting his lip a little and studying the slide under the microscope like it would give him more information if he scrutinized it with eyes whose blue you swore could only be found on butterflies or flowers or tropical ocean waters.
Even his appearance was an enigma to you. But the perplexed look made him look kind of normal. Like even the perfect boy-wonder Gojo Satoru could be mystified by something.
You're hard on him. Maybe, just maybe, sometimes a little too hard. Sure, he was a weirdo, and he set off the feeling in your gut that only screamed at you when you were in the vicinity of something dangerous. But he'd never done anything solidly wrong. Just gave you glimpses of things that could glint at something more sinister, but you never saw that.
You've been looking for something, chasing something, that you had no hard proof existed. Maybe all that darkness you felt emanating from him, hanging around him like a cloud, maybe it was all just like… depression, or something. You’d been there before, hiding behind a mask to keep up appearances. Hell, you were feeling something similar now.
The bodies lately, the sobbing families, mothers who had to be told they'd outlive their daughters. Daughters who had whole, beautiful lives ahead of them, stolen by some psychopath who collected pretty faces framed by dark hair.
You'd been doing that a lot lately. Second-guessing yourself and your instincts. There had been too many cases like this one, where it just went on for too long. Some of them solved, the killers brought down and served up on a silver scale to the judicial system to lay down proper punishment. Something you felt could be harsher based on the horrors you've witnessed, but didn't contest because what else could you do? You'd done your job.
Some of them though, they haunted you. The killing stopped, the MO never picked up again, and it was like the killers just… vanished. You were grateful for that at least, but it meant they moved on. Got away with it, and were maybe even in another prefecture to play boogeyman there.
Your gut was usually bang on, but you've been wrong before. Maybe, just maybe, could you be wrong about Gojo?
The man in the lab rubbed his eyes with his forefinger and thumb, pinching the bridge of his nose before pulling his glasses back down to sit there, and looking up through the window.
You didn't look away; you met his immense blue gaze head-on just as you always did.
He smiled with a few too many teeth, waved once, and winked at you. Long pale lashes brushing a high cheekbone in a single flick that set your teeth on edge. It screamed, ‘I know something you don't.’
Nah.
There was something seriously wrong with this motherfucker.
The files dropped to your desk with a soft thud, and you marched toward the lab.
Gojo traded out the scrap of fabric under his microscope for a clear, flat slide with a print, and tucked the scrap in a drawer. He hit two keys on his computer, the monitor switched quickly to the DLC database, the page set to a window waiting for scanned print information to be input. Just in time for you to fling the door open without knocking.
“Hey, sarge. How'd it go with that witness?” Gojo asked as you stood in the doorway, crossing your arms under your chest. Practically squishing your tits together and shoving them in his face. Cleavage peeked from the buttons undone on your shirt, but Gojo was a perfect gentleman and kept his eyes on yours.
You ignored his question and asked your own instead. Your eyes narrowed and already unimpressed as you looked him over, sitting hands in his lap. “Did you pull any matches from that hair sample?”
“It'll be hard, I know, but try to contain yourself.” Gojo grinned, turning slightly to snatch up a folder off a pile beside his monitor. “I not only got a match, but the guy is a real piece of work too.” You swiped it right out of his hand as he turned back to you, frowning as you flipped the front open to look for yourself. “Got sentenced to fifteen years on two counts of aggravated assault, rape, and abduction. The girls survived, but they matched the descriptions for the head hunter victims. Guess he escalated things once he got out of prison.”
“Served seven years and out on good behavior, my fucking ass.” You murmured, eyes darting around as you flipped through. Gojo hummed in agreement. “Fuck me, he matches the witness description too.”
“Oh? Well, let's hope he's still in town.” Gojo chirped, propping his elbows on his knees and leaning forward a little. Reading through the file, you were distracted and Gojo let his eyes glide over you fully once. Slow, appreciative.
God, you looked fucking great. Smart and sharp as a tack. That shirt hugged your tits perfectly, and he knew the moment you turned to walk out the door, he'd get a great view of your ass. Lips pushed together in concentration as you studied the pages, he wondered not for the first time what they'd look like in an ‘o’ with a moan spilling out. Your service weapon holstered at your hip made you deadly on top of it all.
Truly the perfect little package. Gojo almost felt guilty for deceiving you so much. But he didn’t.
What you didn't need to know, was that the piece of shit rapist he just handed to you, had absolutely nothing to do with all those headless girls.
But he was going to take the fall for it regardless. It all just kind of fell into his lap. Why not get attention off the real killer currently in nine pieces at the bottom of the Pacific Ocean, get another scumbag thrown back in jail, and land you win with a huge case finally closed?
The witness was easy to convince, planting the DNA was a joke, he had early and backstage access to the scene, and bam! The perfect crime committed once again.
He was practically a fucking hero.
Well, maybe that's a stretch. Vigilante? Lame.
He was fucking good at this. That's what he was.
“How long have you had this ready?” You set a hard look on Gojo and he hummed.
“Maybe… an hour?”
“Why am I just now seeing it?” You snapped, shutting the file and crossing your arms once again. “I've been right there for fifteen minutes.”
Gojo’s jaw set, barely a clench.
That was one thing you were. You were so fucking ungrateful. But you were oblivious to all he did for you, so he couldn't be upset.
Maybe one day you'd see, but that day wasn't here yet. You weren't quite ready to accept whatever Gojo was.
Definitely not, actually.
“Sorry, sarge. I've been kinda busy in here.” Gojo shrugged, and you outright glared.
“With what? What could possibly be more important than a suspect on this case?”
“Um… the five other homicides on my plate?” Gojo said slowly, as if it were the most obvious thing on the planet. Knowing full well he was just pushing buttons now.
You scoffed. “Check your priorities, because you're wrong about that, Gojo.” Your arms dropped, and you put a hand on his desk, leaning into his space and boring your eyes into his. “If we're too late and this fucker gets away because of your time management skills, I'll make sure that goes in the report, got it?”
You wouldn’t be too late. He wasn’t going to get away because he wan’t even running. He had no idea what was coming for him. But Gojo feigned being sheepish and apologetic because he guessed that in your eyes, he fucked up.
“Sorry, sarge, it won't happen again.”
Your eyes took a slow trip down and back up over him, looking for something but not finding it, so you removed yourself from his personal space. Not that he minded you there. “Better not.”
“I'll just give you a call next time.” He drawled, a lazy smirk on his lips as he slung an arm over the back of his chair.
“Mm, please do.” It looked like it killed you to say those words, so you added a light, "That's what the damn thing is for after all.”
“You’re so right.” Gojo crossed a leg over the other, and cocked his head. “I’ll be sure it gets put to good use.”
You didn’t say anything else, just took the folder, turned on a heel, and gave Gojo a great view of your ass as you marched out, leaving the door open. He sighed, pulling out the fabric from the drawer he’d stuffed it in to resume his side work.
God damn, you were so much work. But he always lived for a challenge. And he could take the backtalk and the pressure you loved to put him under when you served him up guys like Zenin Naoya almost like a sacrifice, he’d take anything you threw at him.
It was absolutely perfect. You put the Zenin guy away for a few years on some assault charges, and a grudge was born. No, something deeper than a grudge, like a personal vendetta. Something strong enough that he’d want to make you pay for ‘ruining his life.’
Fucking unacceptable. That the piece of shit would ever think he had the right or even could come close to you, take you for himself, hurt you. Gojo already had some… mildly violent tendencies, and something about the thought of another person, another man putting his hands on you just made the red he saw even bloodier.
He’d never get the opportunity to get close to you. Not with Gojo around, he would always make sure of that. The Zenin worm would be in bags at the bottom of the Pacific before the sun rose.
Gojo glanced up through the window. You were talking with Nanami, flipping through the file as he looked from you to the turning pages.
Nanami was… fine. He was a good guy, he looked out for you—not that you’d ever need anyone but Gojo for that. He wasn’t a cop, he couldn’t be your partner out in the field or anything, so Nanami was probably the best of all the options you had. He just didn’t like the way Nanami looked at you sometimes. A little too lingering. A little more than just friendly affection in his eyes.
It was fine though. Nanami could be your partner in the field; he could help you with cases in the traditional sense—he was definitely that kind of guy anyway—but he could never do everything that Gojo did for you.
Nobody could ever do what Gojo did for you.
The neighborhood was near empty, typical for—Gojo pulled the sleeve on his shirt back enough to check his watch—10 PM. Cars lined the sides of the street, all your neighbors were home and settling in for the night, but not you, though. You’d likely be out at the precinct all night again thanks to the suspect you picked up earlier.
How perfect was that timing? Almost like someone planned it all.
A familiar car pulled up, and Gojo watched as it parked a few spots up from him. Gojo had everything ready for tonight. He had all he needed confirmed to finally act, and you’d be gone all night.
It was perfect. A nice night for this, too. Cool enough that it wasn't too hot with a beanie covering his distinct and immediately recognizable hair. Left his glasses at home in favor of contacts in case of a brawl because he could never be too prepared.
Naoya would wait around for a bit, but being the impatient little fuck he was, he’d get bored once he realized you wouldn't be home and head to his usual spot; an izakaya a few minutes away, and get obliterated.
Tonight was the night, and everything was perfect.
Gojo couldn't help but smile a little as he took a long sip of an iced matcha latte, letting the sweetness of extra vanilla syrup roll over his tongue, savoring it. He usually would save a sweet treat for afterwards, but he just had to get a little something for the stakeout.
The driver door on the Zenin creeps car opened, and out stepped the worm himself, glancing around as he tucked something in the waistband of his pants behind him. Gojo’s smile dropped instantly.
What the fuck was he doing?
The door shut, and Naoya made his way up the street towards your house. A scowl pulled Gojo’s mouth down, and he jammed the drink back in a cupholder. He gripped the wheel to keep his hands occupied and off the door handle. The creep was about to break in. He was going to wait for you inside your house.
The thought made Gojo’s skin crawl; it made him yearn and itch to go knock the ugly fucker out right then and there before he had a chance to get into your space, to touch your belongings. But Gojo reminded himself with a breath that you’d be gone tonight. That it would be fine, and Naoya would get bored of waiting quickly and give up once he realized it was pointless to hang around. He would just come back another night.
Too bad he wouldn’t get another night.
It was fine. Seeing Naoya stalk around the side of your house and disappear from view, it kind of made him want to grab the hunting knife from his kit and slit the wormy fuck groin to sternum and gut him like the animal he was, but Gojo took another long and cooling sip from the iced sugary drink and reminded himself that it was fine.
It was the perfect night. He had it all planned down to a tee; one little setback wouldn't put the whole thing off course.
Gojo sat for an hour in his car, and Naoya stayed put in your house. He was more annoyed than seething at that point; he really wanted to hurry this up. It was the second night in a row he’d been out hunting, and he was running on fumes and sucrose and the warm, metallic stain he could still feel as it spattered his lips.
As he was about to check his watch again, headlights beamed in his side mirror. His eyes went to them immediately, knowing it was likely just a passerby using the residential area as a shortcut or—
He jerked upright in his seat.
What the fuck were you doing here?
This was wrong. You weren’t supposed to be here. Why the fuck weren’t you still at the precinct? It was barely past 11 PM. If you were going home to change, he knew that wouldn’t happen until the early hours of the morning. So what the hell were you doing?
He didn't have time to analyze the why. You pulled into the spot right in front of your gate, and your car shut off. You were about to step right into the trap Naoya had set in your house. He had to do something, and fast. You couldn’t see him here, though, how the fuck was he supposed to do this?
God, you were so much fucking work. And of course, you couldn’t just make things a little easier by doing what you always did and just stay at the precinct all night. Tonight of all the fucking nights.
Did you want to die or something? Sometimes he wondered.
Gojo reached back and grabbed the small zippered case from under the backseat, and watched you walk up to your front door. He waited until you shut it behind you before you threw his own door open.
It had taken a lot of convincing, but with the suspect in an interrogation room and holding fast on total innocence and refusing to budge despite having him practically dead to rights, Nanami finally told you to leave. You could come back and join the action again after a brief rest and a shower. He assured you that he’d call if anything happened, but that you’d likely be walking into the exact same situation after a few hours away.
Nothing would happen while you were gone. It would be fine. You kept repeating it as you kicked off your shoes and flicked on the light in your hall, dropping your keys on the small table by the door.
The kitchen light flicked on and cast the area in a warm glow. You’d get a bite to eat, shower, try your best to sleep for a few hours, then head back. Your fridge didn’t offer much aside from a box of takeout from a couple of nights ago, so you grabbed it and threw it in the microwave.
While it was heating, you made your way down the hall to your bedroom. A few photos of your family lined the walls, your academy graduation photo, the one with—
You halted midstep. The photo with Nanami, the both of you in uniform, his hand on your shoulder as you wore the sergeant's shield for the first time with a small, proud smile, was crooked.
Maybe there was a minor earthquake in the area?
None of the other photos were off, but you drew it up to the hook potentially being loose, and straightened it, continuing down the hall and unbuttoning your shirt.
In your room, you placed your service weapon on your dresser and changed out of your work attire quickly. Slipping on a black and white Tokyo Metro Police Department shirt, a few sizes too big and softened from years of washing and wearing.
Your pants were off and around your ankles when you heard a creak in the hallway. Your head snapped up instantly, and you kicked off your pants, creeping out to check the dim hall.
Tip-toeing along the hardwood in an oversized t-shirt and panties, you felt almost like a horror movie damsel. It felt strangely eerie, and you thought for a moment about running back to your room to grab your service weapon, but before you could—
A figure stepped out. Dressed all in black, hair covered by a hood pulled up, face obscured by shadow, the person stood in your way at the end of the hall. Their hand moved, and you noticed the glint of light reflecting off metal. A gun.
Sure, you were a cop, a detective, but you weren’t impervious to fear. And that was exactly what ripped through you as the intruder took a quick step forward. Then another.
“What the f—stop!” You stepped back, almost stumbling over your own feet as you backed towards your room, towards where your gun was, and away from the intruder moving towards you. “I said stop! Right where you—”
Your words halted completely as your eyes found another figure behind the first. This one was moving faster though.
Fuck. There were two of them in your house. You had to get your gun, and fast. You started to turn around as the second intruder caught up to the first and—
In an instant, the second person brought a hand up to the first's neck, and they both came to a halt.
“Gotcha,”
The first intruder crumpled to the ground like a doll, and you stood in shock for a moment, staring at the man on the floor with your mouth hanging open.
What the fuck just happened?
Your head snapped up, back to the intruder still left standing. It all happened so fast, but as you looked a little harder at the second intruder, you felt your brain short-circuiting. You… recognized him. Well, you recognized the bit of hair that was uncovered by his hat.
Pure, abject horror crept in as he held his hands up, and stepped towards you.
“Oh my fucking god.” You took a step back. You didn’t have your phone, you didn't have your gun. All you had was the short distance between you and Gojo, who was in your fucking house for some reason.
“Okay, okay, I know this looks kind of bad, but that—”
“What are you doing here?!” You cut him off, still moving backward as he kept taking tentative, almost delicate steps toward you. Like he was approaching a wounded animal with its teeth bared.
He scoffed, shoulders dropping a little. “You could say thank you. That guy was gonna kill you, you know that, right?” The light from behind reflected off of something in his hand. The same hand he’d brought the intruder down with.
It was a fucking needle.
“Thank you? For what, breaking into my house? What are you even doing… here?” A realization settled in, and you barely breathed the word out. You almost couldn’t believe it. He said nothing, just cocked his head at you, like you were finally catching up to him.
Your eyes darted back and to the side. You could make a dash for it. Your room was right there, along with your gun and your phone. Gojo followed your eyes, and you both stood in silence, neither making the first move.
“Sarge, let's just—”
You lurched for your room. Launching into a sprint and pushing off the door frame to dart inside. Heavy, fast footsteps ran after you. Your fingers grazed the dresser, your gun was in reach, but a hand twisted into your shirt, and yanked you back.
You swung around, hand flattened to hit him in the throat, but he ducked out of the way. Catching your arm and pulling you around so your back was to his chest.
You made a fist with your free hand and slammed him in the balls with it.
“Ngh, fuck,” He gasped and groaned and hunched behind you, grip softening on your arm, and you tried to wrench free. But Gojo was bigger than you, and apparently, he was stronger too because his hand tightened fast and a thick bicep came up around your neck, pressing hard into your windpipe.
You fought for air, and got none as he squeezed tight and pulled you up, leaving your toes barely brushing the ground.
“Always so fucking difficult,” He rasped into your ear, breath hot as his lips brushed the shell. You clawed at his arms, scratching the fabric of his shirt, and he hissed, his arm around your neck was near crushing. “I could kill you right now, so stop fighting or I will.”
Oxygen was running out, your head was getting light and airy, but that sent a hard shiver through you.
You were right. You had been right the whole time.
Gojo was a fucking psycho.
And now he was going to kill you.
What you didn’t know was that Gojo was bluffing. He definitely could kill you, but he wouldn’t. And definitely not like that, with your face turned away from his.
This was unreal, though. He knew it was bad, that he’d fucked up by letting you see his face, letting you see him at all. But you hadn’t really given him a choice; it was all because you’d come home early, so he may as well live in the moment and revel in feeling your body flush against his. His arms wrapped tight around you in a moment he’d only imagined for a long time, and here it finally was.
“Sorry, Sarge, I didn’t want to do this.” It was a half-truth murmured in your ear as he felt you struggle and fight against him. Kicking and punching and scratching weakly until the last bit of air ran out, and your body slowly went limp as you lost consciousness in his arms.
Gojo loosened his arm around your neck and turned your face to him. The blood vessels around your eyes had burst, and little purple specks, almost like freckles decorated the skin. It was kind of cute. You even had a little furrow to your brow, he figured that was kind of a permanent thing for you.
“What the fuck am I gonna do with you?” He shifted an arm under your knees, and lifted you fully into his arms. Your head fell back, lips parting, and he looked over your sleeping, half-naked form as he strode back into the hall. Zenin Naoya was still in a pathetic pile on the floor.
“What a fucking mess.” Gojo grumbled, stepping over the creep in his way.
He was right. This was a fucking mess.
The ground beneath your feet was cold, like stone or cement. Your head throbbed, and as you pried your eyes open, the vision they took in was blurred.
You shifted, and found your arms were bound when you tried to pull them up to rub your face. It woke you the fuck up instantly, and you jerked upright. Blinking furiously to clear your eyes, your breaths started to come in shorter as you looked around yourself. You were sitting in a chair, hands tied behind the back of it. Your feet were unbound, still bare from the waist down.
Where the fuck were you?
What the fuck was going on?
“Good morning.” A familiar voice sing songed from across whatever room you were in, and your head snapped up to Gojo. You opened your mouth to speak, but barely rasped out what before you choked on it and coughed instead.
“Ah, yeah,” He chuckled, looking almost sheepish as he rubbed the back of his head. “I was kind of hoping to use the M-99, but you didn’t give me much of a choice. Sorry.”
You lurched forward, and your wrists stung as hard plastic bit into the skin. The room around you was sterile, plastic covered every inch of the floor and walls, and soft yellowish light shone from behind the sheeting. There was a table between you and Gojo, and something was atop it.
A man.
You cleared your throat and swallowed a few times. The movement was difficult, like an impossible lump was there to block your esophagus, but you forced it down and looked Gojo in the eye again.
His hands splayed out, palms flat on the table between you and leaning over the figure with a coy smirk.
“What… the fuck… have you done?” You rasped out, almost choking on the words again.
“What have I done?” He echoed, cocking his head at you. “Well, for one, I saved you from this guy.” He gestured to the man on the table. He seemed to be asleep still, not moving as Gojo waved a massive hunting knife over his laid out body. “The least you could do is say thanks.”
“Thank you?” You cried incredulously, pulling hard at the restraint around your wrists. You wrenched and fought as panic started to creep in. “You fucking psycho! You choked me out! HELP! HELP ME!” You screamed at the top of your lungs, as loud and as hard as you could with your windpipe still suffering the aftereffects of being closed off.
“Go ahead, scream your head off!” Gojo yelled back, “Nobody can hear you.”
“Oh my god, I fucking knew it, fuck I knew it. You’re insane,” Your head hung, pulling at the ties around your wrists as you murmured more to yourself, “fuck he’s crazy.”
It's not like you wanted to be right, but you did feel a slight twinge of satisfaction being validated. You weren’t crazy, you saw it, and you were right.
“Why did you come ba—”
“Are you going to kill me?” You cut Gojo off, and he stared open-mouthed for a long moment, contemplating. Hesitating. “Oh my god! Fuckfuckfuck, okay, you don’t have to do this, we can—”
“Just relax, I'm not going to kill you.” He waved the knife in his hand around, dismissing your panic with an annoyed eye roll. “I don’t kill innocent people, but I can't really say the same for this guy.”
“What?”
“Do you recognize him? You should.” Gojo took the man's head in his hand and turned his face to you. Dyed blond hair and dark brows, upturned eyes shut, sharp features and a few piercings on his left ear.
“Is that… Zenin Naoya?”
Gojo smiled and let Naoya’s head drop back to the table. He was covered in a layer of plastic just like the room around you. Gojo strode around the table towards you, and you slumped back in the chair as he approached you, hunting knife still in hand. He crouched beside you and gestured to the wall of plastic to your right by Naoya’s feet.
“See those?” You followed the tip of his knife; there were a few photos of women, their faces bright and smiling. They all looked familiar; you’d definitely seen all of them at some point. “They were found in ditches on the outskirts of Tokyo, their heads all bashed in. Same murder weapon used in all three unsolved cases.”
Of course, they looked familiar; their faces had been up on the board in the briefing room for months. Their cases eventually grew cold, and the precinct had moved on with no leads.
“The only physical evidence we ever had was a fabric scrap found a few meters from the last body, barely even a few threads, and it never led anywhere. But,” Gojo whipped the knife back around, pointing it directly at Naoya with a wicked and satisfied grin on his face. “I found a shirt that matched it in a safe, in his apartment.”
“Why… why not hand over the evidence?” You felt you already knew the answer to the question, but you asked it anyway.
Gojo gave you a flat look in return. “There's a few reasons for that, a couple of which you definitely already know.” He straightened up, standing tall over you. He put a hand on the back of the chair and leaned in close. “First, I didn’t obtain the shirt… legally, as you’d say. The evidence would be thrown out immediately, but you know that.”
The tip of the huge knife pointed in your direction, Gojo dropped his head closer to yours, and your breath caught in your sore throat. “Second, Naoya has held a bit of contempt for you for a while now, guess he didn’t appreciate you putting him away on rape charges a few years ago. He’s been following you, and he was gonna act tonight if I didn’t stop him first—so you’re welcome for that.”
“And third,” Gojo sucked his teeth, pulling the knife away and backing out of your space, towards the table behind him. “If I handed him over to the department, I wouldn’t get to kill him. Duh.” His icy blue eyes rolled like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
With a hard swallow, your mouth opened and out poured years of hostage negotiation training. “You-you’re right, but you don’t have to do this, Gojo. It’s not too late, if you just let-let me go, I’ll take Zenin in and I’ll make sure he goes away for a long time. We can do this the right way.”
“Come on, Sarge,” Gojo tipped his head to the side, amusement playing on his handsome features, glasses nowhere to be found and hair falling across his forehead. He looked so different than usual, almost sympathetic.
“We both know that's a lie. Even if Naoya went away, it wouldn’t be for near long enough.” He twirled the knife in his hand, still looking at you as it spun in his fingers. “Sometimes, the world just needs to be cleansed of its filth.”
You opened your mouth to try again, but Gojo cut you off. “Just stop, the cop talk-down doesn’t work when the subject knows all the tricks.”
Fuck.
You took Gojo in in full. He had on a butcher's apron over a black, long-sleeved compression shirt. Black latex gloves covered his hands. There was another table covered in plastic with a black mat atop it, and an assortment of blades gleamed, tucked neatly in each slot.
He was going to kill Naoya. With you right there.
“This isn't the first time, is it?” You asked on a breath, almost a whisper, but Gojo heard, and he shook his head with a smile.
“This wasn’t how I wanted you to find out, but I didn’t have much of a choice.” He sighed, walking back in your direction. A gloved hand came up, and your breath caught as he brushed your cheek. You jerked your head away, but he caught your chin and forced you to face him again. So close you could see each pale eyelash as his gaze flitted around your face.
“You shouldn’t have come home. If you’d just stayed at the precinct like you were supposed to, none of this would’ve happened. Too late for woulda, coulda, shoulda now though, right?”
A shiver shook through you. Incredulity twisted your features, and Gojo pouted. “Oh come on, don’t look at me like that.”
You swallowed hard. “Like what?”
“Like I'm some kind of monster or something.” His head tilted, lip jutting out still. “I’m just doing what you and the rest of the department can’t. I’m on your side here, really.”
“Are you looking for acknowledgement? A thank you or something?”
He shrugged, “I wouldn’t say no to that.”
“You broke into my house and choked me out, you’re a fucking psychopath.” You spat out, glaring.
“After you punched me in the dick,” Gojo scoffed, “and I didn’t really have a choice there because you were definitely going to shoot me.”
“No shit! You broke into my house!”
“I’m not going in circles with you on this. I was there for a reason, and it’s because you can’t watch your own back for shit.” He let you go and walked back to the table where Naoya was somehow still passed out cold.
Your head was swimming, still fuzzy from the oxygen deprivation and the impossible scene you found yourself tied up in, literally.
There was no exit you could see, and Gojo had said no one would hear you scream.
You were kind of fucked. All you could do was watch as Gojo pinched something close to Naoya’s face, and the man strapped to the table jolted awake with a gasp.
“What the f—”
“Shut up,” Gojo cut Naoya off, gripping his cheeks hard and bringing his face close. “You’ve been very bad, haven’t you?” Gojo practically purred in Naoya’s face. He took up the knife again and pointed it at the three photos on the wall, forcing Naoya to follow the tip of the blade. “Emiri Saito, Chieko Yamada, and Narume Kojima, look at them. You had the balls to take something from all of those girls, so have some fucking respect and look at them.”
“What the fuck are you talking about? Who are you?” Naoya managed to get out with his face squished in Gojo's hand. “You’ve got it wrong, I-I’ve never seen any of them before!”
Gojo snorted, “You’re such a bullshitter, Naoya. I think I speak for everyone here when I say that nobody is buying that.”
Naoya seemed to register the words, and he looked around frantically, his eyes finding you quickly.
“You,” He hissed, “You fucking bitch, you did this, didn’t you? Set me up again, you fucking cunt!”
Before you could refute or object, Gojo slapped Naoya hard. He grabbed him by the throat, squeezing tight enough to cut off air, and snarled in his face. “Watch your fucking mouth. Don’t even talk to her you fucking scum.”
Your already hammering heart kind of… skipped?
Gojo tore his eyes off Naoya and met your gaze. The blue in his irises was brighter somehow, wide and wild and almost crazed, and your thighs squeezed together under the weight of it all. He chuckled, bearing a smile that flashed a few pearly teeth and fit with the look in his eye.
He was kind of right; what he was about to do wasn’t right, but he was doing what you couldn’t. If Naoya really was what Gojo said—a killer, taking the lives of innocent young girls after he’d violated them, maybe he kind of deserved whatever Gojo was about to do.
You should have been more scared than you were. But you weren’t.
What the fuck was wrong with you?
“Did you like that?” Gojo asked, his voice low and rough.
Maybe.
“You’re fucking crazy.”
It wasn’t a no, and Gojo took note of that. He saw the shift in your posture, your knees as they pressed together.
Such a bad liar.
He clapped his hands, looking almost giddy as he took a breath. “How exciting, I've never had an audience before. I’ll be sure to make this entertaining.”
Entertaining was one way to put it; Gojo put on a fucking show alright.
Gojo had spent a few years in med school before joining the forensics unit at TMPD, and he was sure to flex the skills he learned on Naoya.
He went through a few packets of smelling salts, pushing Naoya practically to the brink of death, passing out a few times before bringing him back to consciousness.
It was messier than usual. Naoya was missing a few fingers; the few he still had were mangled. Shallow stab wounds littered his torso, only where the knife would miss vital organs. Deeper cuts severed tendons and ligaments, rendering Naoya immobile even without the plastic strapping him to the table.
The eyeball just popped right out with the optic nerve still intact; he pulled until it snapped. Naoya screamed and screamed like a little bitch and passed out again. He was still out cold, and Gojo had yet to wake him up again.
The blood was glorious. They were both covered; it dripped from Gojo’s hair, down his face, and back onto Naoya in a cycle of sorts, then to the floor to pool with the rest.
Naoya wouldn’t last much longer; it was time to finish this. Gojo tore his eyes off Naoya to look at you.
He thought you might have been sickened by it all, and you definitely looked like you might literally be sick a couple of times, but you held out. You looked away a few times and winced when you heard a bone crunch and a pathetic cry choke out.
“How should I do it? Stab to the heart, slit his throat, sever the carotid artery and let him bleed out slowly? Ooh, I could cut his head off, but I did that with that last one.”
“Why would you do all of this?” You asked, your voice sounded weak and small. It didn’t even sound like you, and his smile fell.
“Because Naoya deserves to suffer. You know what happened to those girls,” He gestured to the photos with the bloodied knife, and his expression went cold. “He would’ve done the same to you, and I couldn’t let that happen.” Just the thought of it made him want to drive the knife home right then, but he held out. He’d need to wake Naoya up first.
“Don’t you see? All of this,” He gestured around himself, down at Naoya still out cold. “It’s all because of you, to keep you safe from scum like him.”
“What happened to this being about your fucked up sense of justice for those girls? Don’t pin this on me.” You snapped, and Gojo’s smile returned.
That's more like it.
“I’m not blaming you. Naoya would’ve ended up here regardless of whether he went after you or not. But he did, and I’m feeling quite passionate because of it.”
Your eyes widened a fraction, like you were just now realizing the extent of things. The things he would do for you, like you hadn’t just witnessed it all.
Gojo cracked a fresh pack of salts and held it to Naoya’s face. “Wake up, asshole, we’re not done yet.” The man startled and whimpered as consciousness returned, and he felt the full extent of his wounds all over again.
“What do you think, sweetheart? Should I put him out of his misery?” Gojo cocked his head, and Naoya glanced at you with one remaining eye.
He started to gurgle, “Fuck y—” The words cut off abruptly as the blade in Gojo’s hand carved through his throat with a roar.
“I told you not to fucking talk to her!” Fresh crimson spattered his face from the slit gaping wide on Naoya’s neck.
Gojo looked like a fallen angel, something horrifically biblical and cast from heaven as he heaved ragged breaths. Rage twisted his face, his eyes wide and the whites and blues burned bright against the deep, bloody red that splattered the rest of his face.
He groaned a low, “Fuck.” And ran a hand through his hair, streaking the stark white strands a bright red. He looked up from Naoya’s lifeless body to you, and your breath caught.
Still holding the knife and covered in Zenin Naoya's warm blood, Gojo stepped around the table and walked to you. You shook from the cold and something deep in your gut, like fear, swallowing hard as your head tilted back to look at Gojo.
He grabbed the back of the chair and tipped you backward. Your bare feet left the ground as Gojo loomed over you, his face close enough that you felt the heat of his breath on your lips, saw the individual specks of blood that decorated his face like freckles.
“I’d do anything, fucking anything for you. You understand that now, right?”
Your mouth opened to respond, but no words could make it up and out of your throat because warm lips wet with fresh blood pressed hard to yours.
You didn’t move. You couldn't move.
You had been trained to deal with hostage situations and knew what to do in theory if you were ever in one yourself, but nothing could have prepared you for something like this.
What the fuck were you supposed to do when your captor kissed you?
Probably not kiss them back. Right?
Blame it on adrenaline, the numbness of watching someone be tortured and killed, and maybe a few brain cells dying thanks to the headlock Gojo himself had you in a few hours ago, but his mouth on yours didn’t feel terrible.
It felt kind of… good?
Gojo was a psychopath. A confirmed killer. As a cop, you should have been thinking of any way to get out and get him detained, bring him to justice.
But as a captive, and the object of his twisted, fucked up affection…
I’d do anything for you.
Your lips parted, and you kissed him back.
What the fuck else could you do here, really? You really hated it, but you’d always found him attractive. Even being covered in blood and holding a knife didn’t detract from that.
In a perverse way, it was kind of flattering. Horrifying, of course, but maybe you’d been desensitized to all this shit from so many years of investigating brutal murders, seeing the bodies yourself, because what Gojo had done right before your eyes didn’t make you as sick as it should have.
He was right. Naoya was scum. And now he was gone, and Gojo did it for you. It was wrong and illegal, so fucking illegal, but he’d done what you and the law couldn’t. Served up justice with a blade, and now Zenin Naoya would never hurt another girl again, and that was certain.
Fuck. You should really stretch before doing mental gymnastics. Maybe you could blame it on Stockholm syndrome, too.
The taste of pennies and something sweet like vanilla hit your tongue as it met Gojo’s. A slick, gloved hand gripped your thigh, the knife pressed flat to your skin under his wide palm. It was still warm, too.
Gojo almost couldn't believe it. It was impulsive, the high of a fresh kill left him up in the clouds, and there you were, tied up and half naked and wide-eyed, and he just did it. Kissed you without expecting anything in return because he couldn’t stop himself.
But you were kissing him back.
He’d shown you the deepest, darkest part of him and expected disgust in return. Not… this.
Maybe you were more fucked up than he thought.
You still trembled a little, but you didn’t pull away as his hand glided up on your thigh, streaking blood on your skin. Blood he spilled for you.
Gojo pulled back just enough to look you in the eye, to see the blood smeared on your lips. “You liked it, didn’t you, sweetheart?” You shook your head, but you were squirming in your seat. “Don’t even try to fucking lie to me.”
“What are you going to do to me, Gojo?” It came out breathless, pitched, and almost desperate, like you were thinking of all the things he could do to you, that you couldn’t stop him from doing.
He laughed and tilted his head a little, “What do you want me to do to you, sergeant?”
“I-I don’t…” You trailed off, your eyes flitting away for a moment. Gojo dropped his head, and your nose brushed his. He pulled his hand from your leg, and the tip of the knife caught the hem of your shirt.
“Tell me when to stop, I might.” He smirked, and slowly lifted the blade in hand, pulling your shirt up with it. You looked panicked as your shirt went up over your panties, cute and black with a pretty lace trim. But you said nothing, just breathing hard and fast with eyes impossibly wide as he exposed more of your stomach.
What were you doing? You should say it, say stop and hope to god that Gojo would. But you didn’t. You said nothing as the tip of that huge knife dragged lightly over your sternum, up between your breasts, staring silently at Gojo as his eyes lowered.
Cold air hit your breasts, your nipples pebbled with the cotton barrier removed, and you finally spoke.
“Let me go.” You whispered, but it wasn’t stop, and Gojo looked you in the eye again.
“You know I can’t do that.” The knife halted close to your neck, the blade pressed to your skin just under the collar of your shirt. “Tell me what you really want, and don’t lie this time.”
You stayed silent, lips pressed together almost as hard as your thighs were.
What the fuck was wrong with you? Your body was committing the ultimate betrayal; heat was pooling low in your gut despite how you shivered against the cold. It had been a while since you’d had time for a relationship or even just a hookup, and Gojo had just lit up something that demanded satisfaction after being long ignored.
Why now?
Was your own sex drive going to be the thing that got you killed?
Gojo let the back of the chair go, and the feet slammed to the floor with a bang that made your teeth clack. He flipped the knife around fast, and the blade tore through your shirt with a loud rip.
You inhaled a sharp gasp, and Gojo chucked quietly. “Oops, I slipped.”
He was always like that. A teasing little shit, and it always irked you, and the irritation broke you from the silence you’d been holding. “Are you a fucking animal? Why not just take it off?!”
Gojo seemed a little taken aback by the outburst; you were too actually. But he recovered quickly and scoffed, lifting a pale brow. “Well, you didn’t tell me to take it off. Don’t get pissy because you’re too chicken shit to say what you want.”
The knife dragged down your stomach, leaving a thin red trail in its wake. Stopping only once he reached the waistband of your panties, the tip hooked in and caught the lace.
“Should I cut these off too? Or will you use words like a big girl?”
“Fuck you.”
Gojo gripped your face with his free hand, and he sneered. “Watch it. I like you, but don’t push your luck here.” He was close enough again that his lips brushed yours as he whispered the next words that sent a fresh jolt of lightning up your spine. “You’ve seen what I do when I’m pissed off, so be careful, sweetheart.”
He kissed you again, still holding your face in place as his tongue pushed into your mouth. It must have stolen rational thinking from you, because you kissed him back again instead of biting his tongue like you probably should have.
Gojo’s hand left your face, but you didn’t take the opportunity to turn away. No, for some reason, you angled your head, leaning into it more and more. It felt too good for the situation you were in, but maybe that was what made it impossible to pull away from. The electricity that sparked with each flick of his tongue against yours, the danger that lurked in his lips, so pretty and warm and nice sliding against yours with little chu’s.
Something cold and hard pressed to your temple, and clicked. Gojo smiled against your mouth. You knew the sound well, and your eyes flew open with a gasp, breaking the kiss.
“Tell me, sweetheart. Tell me how badly you want me to fuck you, or I’ll pull the trigger and do it anyway.”
“Oh my god, what the fuck is wrong with you?” You whimpered, and only received the cold steel of the barrel of your own gun pushing into your temple harder, and a manic grin in return.
“A lot, you should’ve realized that by now. Say what you want, don’t think I won't do it.”
He was still covered in the blood of a man he’d brutally killed right in front of you; you had no doubt he’d pull the trigger.
Fear filled your wide eyes, glassy with unspilled tears you were holding back. It looked so good on you. He wanted you to shake and cry and beg almost as much as he wanted you to admit the truth.
Gojo usually just dealt with the body and grabbed a sweet treat after dispatching a killer, but he had the feeling you’d taste better than any dessert.
Your eyes darted from his, to the gun in your periphery, wide and panicked. Your chest rose and fell fast. You were struggling, trembling, and overwhelmed by the shift and thinking your life hung by a thread, easily severed by one little twitch of his finger.
He wouldn’t do it like that, though. Not with a bullet to your head, that was so impersonal, and not his style.
You hated this feeling. Fearing for your life and for some reason still not pulling away from the person threatening it. It was like nothing you’d ever felt before; your skin burned hot despite the cold with your shirt bisected and hanging open. The gusset of your panties was slick and sticky, and you kept your legs squeezed shut to keep it hidden.
Had you ever thought about Gojo like that before? Maybe …yes.
Were you thinking about his hands on your body, what his cock was like, and what it would feel like if he fucked you right now? That was a shameful maybe.
Would you ever admit that without your life on the line? Probably not.
But it was. Gojo literally had a gun to your head. You had to say it, right?
You took a deep, shaky breath and swallowed. “You’re fucking crazy, Gojo. But I-I want you.”
Something like surprise flickered in his eyes, almost like he hadn’t expected you to actually say it. But you didn’t get a moment to analyze it. Gojo slammed his lips to yours. It was bruising and desperate, and the barrel dropped from your temple, dragging cool steel down the side of your face, down your neck to press up under your jaw.
You probably would have done it anyway, but he forced your chin up and your head to tilt, deepening the kiss you could already barely breathe around.
The knife at your hip moved, and you heard another rip.
You groaned into Gojo’s mouth and pulled back a little. “What the fuck, I said—”
“I felt like it.” He murmured, cutting you off and putting his lips back on yours. The knife clattered on the ground, and Gojo’s fingers curled into the waistband of your panties and yanked. They tore like fucking paper and left you exposed.
He pulled the gun away from your jaw and used both hands to pull your legs apart. You didn’t fight it. Your mind was melted and spinning, and you didn’t even try to close your legs when two fingers glided along your slit. Gojo swallowed the moan that spilled from your lips, then pulled his tongue from your mouth and broke the kiss. A lewd, pinkish string of saliva still connected your wet lips to his.
“Were you this wet when you denied liking getting to watch me kill Naoya? Bet you were, a liar and a slut.” He tsk’d and slid two thick fingers still wrapped in slickened latex, into your cunt, watching closely as your face contorted.
Your brows turned up, lips parting a little as a quiet “Ohh,” escaped.
Fear looked good on you, but that was the face Gojo had been dying to see. The one you made as he fucked you nice and slow on his hand. Savoring the sounds that spilled from your lips every time he pushed in deep and the way you gripped around him when he curled his fingers.
Gojo kept going until he finally hit a spot and pressed up, and you gasped, legs trying to clamp shut around his hand. He didn’t bother forcing them back open; he just put the muzzle of the gun under your chin again, and your eyes went wide. He didn’t miss the way your cunt twitched and pulsed with your own gun put to your head.
“Ah, keep them open.” You obeyed, legs falling open again. You bit your lip and let your chin be pushed up when he nudged with the muzzle. Gojo pressed his cheek to yours, letting his lips brush your ear as he spoke. “I've never seen you like this, so obedient. I didn't even think you could go thirty seconds without barking at me like a bitch.”
Your vision unfocused, and your eyes almost rolled as Gojo pulled his hand back, and pushed back inside with a third thick digit. The muzzle pushed your head up again, and you felt Gojo’s teeth on the side of your face as he smiled.
“You like this though, don't you? Like being held on the firing end of your own loaded service weapon with the safety off?”
A whimper left your mouth, and you barely registered the feeling of steel dragging down your chest over Gojo nipping at your ear. Your mind was splintering a little more with every thrust of three fingers into your cunt that seemed to get faster.
So suddenly, you almost choked on the spit pooling in your mouth. Gojo's hand pulled away, and cold metal pushed into you instead. Your legs closed on instinct, and Gojo’s now free hand pulled them open again.
“Tch, if I want to fuck you with this thing, I will.” His tongue traced the shell of your ear. The cold muzzle glided through your folds easily with the slick still drooling from your hole. “Would you like that? Would you scream and cry and shake and come all over it like a slut?”
The cold, thick barrel barely pushed inside. It felt perverse. The metal felt wrong, unforgiving and alien, and so fucking wrong.
Dehumanizing, you felt like something was being stripped from you with each centimeter of your own service weapon that your cunt was forced to stretch around. Tears that had been held back up until that point broke free and spilled over.
Your own body was betraying you again. Your rational mind knew you should object, knew that you should have tried to stop all of this before it got out of hand.
But you didn’t. And now you were getting fucked with your own gun by a killer still coated in the blood of his latest kill, the one he did for you, and it felt wrong but not bad, and that fact splintered the rest of your mind.
You were supposed to be able to deal with situations like this, ones where your life was on the line and it was you and your experienced mind versus whatever crazy had decided to take you on.
But Gojo was different. He wasn't just another crazy. He was smart and calculating and psychotic. He'd planned for this, all while you should have seen it coming, but didn't.
You knew there was something wrong with him, but you never saw him coming. And now, you were trembling, biting your lip hard to keep a pathetic noise in your throat as the last few centimeters of cold steel were shoved inside you.
The tears streamed down your flushed cheeks, burning from shame at the way your hips shifted around with the barrel stilled inside you.
“I've never seen you cry before,” Gojo marveled as he looked you over. “You're even prettier than I had imagined.” You hated the way you leaned into his palm as he cupped your face and brushed a thumb through the wet tracks.
His voice was sweet like saccharine honey and at complete odds with how he pulled the barrel out halfway and pushed back in. “Be good and make lots of noise when I make you come, sweetheart. I've been dying to hear what you sound like.”
You could feel every cold ridge and edge of the barrel as it dragged slowly in and out, so deep that the trigger guard pushed into your clit and made you jolt. It felt purposeful, like Gojo wanted you to feel every little bit of it, wanted you to sit and squirm and take it as he fucked you with the most deadly inanimate object a person could encounter.
Your face was something Gojo had never even imagined. Better than anything his own mind could've created. Contorted in pleasure and fighting it hard. Cheeks flushed a deep red, lashes wet and clumped together as more tears spilled. Like you hated that you liked it, maybe even loved the way it felt.
He was torn. Watching you twitch and jerk and fight your own body from doing what it really wanted was beautiful, and he didn't want to stop until you couldn't hold it back any longer. He didn't want to stop until you broke by his hand and gushed around the cold steel barrel.
But on the other hand, he wanted to feel it himself. He doubted you'd object, you'd probably welcome the replacement of cold metal—that was probably still shockingly cold compared to how hot your cunt was—with his dick.
But the desire to watch you fall apart and shatter first outweighed the need to stick his dick in you. Just barely.
Your lip trembled, your eyes were far off somewhere else and glassy, darting around the room behind Gojo. They landed on something and went round, your breath caught, and you hiccuped. You looked at Gojo again, fear and pleading in your blown pupils.
“P-please,” Your voice cracked on the word. He had never seen or heard you like that, never thought you even could beg or whine like that.
He brushed your cheek again with a thumb, wiping the fresh wetness that fell. “Please what, sweetheart?” He never stopped the movement of his hand, still savoring the way he could feel your cunt gripping the barrel.
You whimpered, “Please, fuck, I-I can't—I can't… fuck,” You couldn’t even finish the sentence, biting down on your quivering lip. You were writhing, chest heaving, and he finally realized that…
You were about to come, and you hated it.
“You can, just stop fighting it.” He pulled your lip from between your teeth with his thumb.
He tore his eyes off your mouth, still stained red, looking like you’d been wearing lipstick before he came and fucked it up.
“Give in to me, I promise you'll feel so fucking good. I'll make sure of it.” Gojo’s lips brushed yours, not a kiss, not yet. He had to hear you say it. Say yes and let go, let him make you see stars and forget how fucking wrong what you were doing was, and just give in to how right it felt.
You were right there, dangling on the precipice of breaking. Your eyes glazed, lashed fluttering as you held his gaze and whispered his name.
“Gojo, please.” The sound of you begging, pleading him. Uttering his name like some kind of broken prayer that could save you from what was happening, what was about to happen.
It was so unbelievably easy, you made it so easy. Just dripping slick arousal and the barrel slid through your cunt. It was a mess. You were a mess, and the sounds of your pussy squelching and sucking the barrel back inside were obscene.
Your jaw dropped a little more but no sound came out, and Gojo sent the command into your open mouth. “Do it,”
Your body tensed, he felt it. Your eyes started to roll, losing focus and your legs shook. You were still fighting it.
“I’d do anything for you, I'd fucking kill for you, so come for me.” Gojo gripped the back of your head, fingers tangled in your hair. Your glassy eyes were on his, the look that bore through him was there but it was like you were finally seeing behind the curtain. His lips were on yours as he poured the words he’d held back for years right into your mouth.
“Just give in, let me break you. I’ll be yours forever."
Legs shaking, your hips lifted. Spine arching into a bow, chest pushed up and your head dropped back into his hand. Looking like a fucking angel in a tattered black t-shirt as you finally let go. A pretty moan spilled right into Gojo’s mouth as the tether holding restraint snapped, and you broke.
Wrong. It was wrong how disgustingly good it felt. The heat that coiled and tightened and wrapped through your entire body finally freed, you heard the sounds that came from your own mouth and almost couldn’t believe it. Guttural and unrestrained, your wrists stinging as sharp plastic bit into your skin and drew blood with every shift and pull.
Gojo kissed you again and you let him in without a fight. Still tasting of warm metal, like sucking on coins after being held in hand. It was filthy. Tasting the blood of one man while you were kissing another. Your walls pulsed and gripped around the barrel as Gojo fucked you through the mind melting orgasm, pulling your hair and holding your head back to him as you saw stars and felt them bursting through you.
The last waves shuddered through and you twitched as he pulled the barrel out and left you empty. Breaking from your mouth with another filthy string of saliva tying you together.
He bought the slick coated barrel up to his face, holding it upside down, pinky resting on the trigger. Safety off, hammer cocked. One slip of that finger, and you’d have been bleeding out.
It shouldn't have been so hot. You shouldn’t have shivered at the sight of Gojo, blood streaked in his hair and spattered on his face, sticking his tongue out to lick the full length of the barrel. Pale lashes fluttered, moaning as he tasted you on the steel.
“I’d love to let you hold it while I suck this thing clean,” Gojo waved your gun and winked, “But I get the feeling you’d pull the trigger if I did.” His tongue glided up the barrel again and flicked over the muzzle.
You swallowed hard, and countered with, “Take the bullets out then.”
He seemed to contemplate it, head tipping to the side as he tapped the muzzle to his lips. “Hmm, but I’d have to cut those straps.”
“Is that a bad thing? I could touch you, don’t you want me to?” You bit your lip, angling your head a little with the doe-iest eyes you could summon. Gojo’s jaw clenched, gaze growing heavy under thick, pale lashes. It only lasted a moment before he licked his teeth and a wicked smile spread in its stead.
“Think you’re smart? Sorry, sweetheart, that won’t work.”
“I want to touch you, Gojo.” You pouted, it wasn't a complete lie.
“Satoru,” He corrected, gently but firmly. “We’re past formalities now, don’t you think?”
You pulled forward, as far as you could with your arms behind the chair, bringing your face closer to him. “Let me touch you, Satoru.”
Fuck. Maybe he shouldn’t have said that.
So pretty, and catching onto the fact that you could ask just about anything of him and he’d do it. You looked like a trap, like the moment he took the bait, steel would clamp around his hand.
Gojo knew restraint, he could wait and be patient and bide time. But he had limits. That bait was you, squirming around barely covered by that bisected shirt, thighs glistening and slick. Eyes wide and pleading and fucking needy. Looking at him like you needed him.
“You’re not getting the gun, loaded or not.” Gojo straightened, stepping around the chair to stand behind you. He grabbed your chin, tilting your head back to look up at him. “Try anything, and my finger might slip.”
Acknowledgement came in a slow nod, lip caught between your teeth. Gojo lowered his face to yours, pulling your lip free with his thumb. “Very good, remember that, sweetheart. I’d hate to do it, but I won't hesitate to snuff you out.”
Gojo kept the gun in hand as he snapped the bloodied zip tie around your wrists, breaking the plastic at its weak point and your shoulders sagged as your arms were freed. He straightened again and watched you closely as you rubbed your wrists.
You were free, you could run right now. Instinct made you itch to leap to your feet and dash for the closest exit.
Too bad you had no idea where that was, and Gojo would catch you before you could figure that out for yourself.
Looking around, you saw the knife near your feet. If you lunged for it, you’d get a bullet to the head.
Gojo could see the gears turning in your head. But you were fucked here. Even if you got out you'd be running into practically the middle of nowhere being on the far outskirts of Tokyo.
He pulled the tie on the butchers apron free and tossed it aside, moving to stand in front of you again. You lifted your eyes to his, hands in your lap and idle.
“Stand up,”
You definitely weren’t running anywhere, your legs still trembled a little as you rose to your feet. You took a tentative step forward, bringing yourself close enough to feel the heat of Gojo's body through the clingy black shirt. Eyes trained on his, you reached out with one hand to glide over his wide chest, and down.
A sigh left his pretty, full lips as your fingers curled into the waistband of his dark pants. His shirt had ridden up a little and you could see the lines that curved along his hips and dove down, your fingers brushed through a trail of soft hair, bright white just like the mess of it on his head. He tensed when you touched him, biceps flexing, but he didn’t stop you.
Silently, you lowered to the ground. Your knees hit the hard ground and plastic crinkled quietly. The only other sound was heavy breathing as both hands moved to pop the button on his pants open.
Gojo took your chin in his gloved hand and lifted your face up to him. “Is this what you want?”
Your lip caught again and you hummed. “Mhm,”
Gojo pulled it free again, and slipped his thumb past your teeth, into your mouth to press down on your tongue. “No biting.” He winked. You nodded, opening the closure on his pants. The knife was just to the left of your leg, it was in reach, but the second you moved you’d get a bullet to the head.
Distract him.
That’s all it was. The saliva pooling in your mouth, the slick dripping down your thighs. You ignored that. Ignored how wet you were getting and how heat coursed through you as you pulled his boxers low and freed his cock.
Of course it was pretty too. Pale with a little curve, blushing tip beading pre-cum from the slit. Long and thick enough that you could just wrap your hand around the base because of course he’d have a big dick too.
It was always the fucking nerds.
Gojo jolted a little and a pitched noise like a whine caught in his throat as your hand twisted up the length of his cock, and your thumb brushed his tip. Spreading the pre-cum that just kept leaking.
His thumb left your mouth, gliding over your lips, wetting them with your own spit.
“Want me to be gentle, sweetheart? Or should I fuck your face?” He asked, breathless and cheeks already flushing pink under the spatters of crimson.
You shook your head, pumping his cock slowly. “I don’t want gentle, Satoru.”
He slapped you. Hard. Your head snapped to the side and you choked on a gasp as your cheek started to sting.
You said it. So he was going to deliver.
His hand tingled from the impact and his cock throbbed as he watched you recover from shock. Taking your chin in hand again, he gripped hard and turned you back to face him.
Your body was as masochistic as Gojo was sadistic and your cunt drooled, the heat on your cheek from the slap was everywhere else too.
He did it again, palm flat as it connected to the same cheek just as hard and your head snapped to the side with a little less force. Like you’d prepared for it that time. Your jaw clenched but it didn’t stop the whimper from coming out. Your thighs shook and rubbed together, sliding easily with the slick that smeared.
Gojo almost did it again when you lifted your face to him all on your own. But the look you gave him made him falter a little. Brows turned up, lips glossy and parted, bright red deepening on your cheek, and your eyes. Fuck. The need in your eyes almost brought him to his knees. Tears gathered and ready to spill, about to fucking cry all over again.
He wanted those tears to fall when you choked on his cock.
“What a slut.” He crooned as your lip trembled, “Remember, sweetheart. Bite me, and I’ll put one between your eyes and keep going till I come.”
Looking horribly angelic with a smile that was pure and sweet, Gojo spewed vile filth that made your heart kick at your ribcage, and your core flood with heat.
Wrong. There was something seriously wrong with you. Because you nodded and, and opened your mouth wide.
His fingers thread into your hair, holding tight but he didn't pull or guide you, just held as you licked the drip of pre-cum off the tip of his cock. Tasting salt and sweetness on your tongue. He sucked a sharp breath in through clenched teeth as your lips closed around him.
The sounds he made were pretty and pornographic and matched the look on his face as your lips stretched around the thickness and he hit the back of your throat. Pulling back, your tongue traced a prominent vein along the underside and he moaned again. Pale brows knit together, the baby blue of his irises rendered to a thin ring with the wide black of blown out pupils.
You couldn’t help but think he looked so pretty like that. With his lip caught in his teeth, blood streaked his brilliantly white hair pink, pieces of it fell into his face, across his eyes and framing his face.
I’d do anything for you.
I’ll put one between your eyes and keep going till I come.
It was a shame he was such a nut.
Your eyes went wide and you choked as he tightened the hand in your hair and thrust into your mouth, shoving almost all the way in. He groaned deep in his throat and his cock pulsed in yours. Tears pricked your eyes and fell as you blinked.
The hand in your hair held your head in place as he started to fuck your throat. Your eyes rolled, hand dropping away to your side as control was taken from you. “Like that, huh? Fuck, you’re so filthy. Such a—mnnh—such a slut.”
It went right to your aching cunt, pulsing around nothing. Throbbing with Gojo’s cock hitting deep in your throat, forcing you wide open to him as he held your head and fucked your face. Drool dripped down your chin, so much it trailed down your neck in lewd streaks.
Your mind was splintering again as your nose buried in the soft, fluffy hair. Lashes fluttering as your eyes rolled and you gagged.
“Ohh my fucking god,” Gojo moaned loud, his head flew back and your objective snapped back into place. You moved, reaching to your left and your fingers closed around the handle of the huge hunting knife.
Gojo’s grip tightened, your scalp stung.
The tip of the knife barely pushed into his side before steel pressed to your temple again.
“Gotcha,”
Fuck.
The blade pricked and cut into his side, the tip of it broke skin and was pushing in between his ribs. You gave him a weak glare, throat tight and still choking on his cock with the muzzle of your gun to your temple.
He was close already, balls tight and abs clenched to hold himself back. But that sight alone pushed him right over the edge.
He grunted a “Fuck,” and his hips stuttered. Your eyes went wide and you blinked furiously as his cock kicked in your mouth, and he spilled hot cum down your throat. “Don’t—ngh—don’t fucking look at me like—ugh—like that,” He muttered through clenched teeth, shoulders drooping and panting.
“Think you’re sneaky, huh?” He asked, catching his breath as he pulled your face away. You gasped for air and coughed when his cock pulled from your throat. Holding the knife that cut into his ribs. He held the gun to your head as you recovered. “Saw that one coming the second you got on your knees, sweetheart.”
“Fuck… you,” You choked out with a glare.
Gojo gripped your arm and hauled you up to your feet. The knife pulled from its spot between his ribs and moved to his throat quickly, blade pressed to a critical vein. The muzzle of the gun went under your chin.
He held your naked body to his, his face amused as he asked, “So, what now?”
You searched his face, lips puffy and glossed with spit. Your cheek still bright red from the slaps.
You lurched forward, and kissed Gojo, lips pressing to his hard.
It caught him a bit off guard, but he got his shit together quick and wrapped an arm around your waist. Your head tipped and your arm went over his shoulder, fingers threading up through his hair. The other still holding the blade to his neck.
The muzzle of your gun stayed pressed to your temple as Gojo walked you backwards until you hit a wall covered in plastic. Your mouths clashed, short breaths hot and mingling together as your tongues tangled and slid together.
He pinned you to the wall with his body, hard chest pressed to yours.
Gojo lifted his face away and pulled the latex glove off his free hand with his teeth, tossing it to the floor. His mouth found yours again and he gripped and squeezed along your body. Your spine arched, pushing your breast into his bare hand as he pinched and rolled your nipple.
You moaned into his mouth. His hips pushed forward, to you. Cock already hard again and pressed to your stomach.
Wrong. So, so wrong. How badly you wanted it. How twisted and dangerous and fucking hot it was with a gun to your head and a blade to his throat.
Maybe you were a nut too.
Gojo slid his hand down to your thigh, lifting your leg to the side. You pushed up on your toes to get yourself a little closer to his height.
“Say it,” He murmured to you.
You were aching, doing everything but begging for it at that point.
“Fuck me,” It was a whisper of a plea into Gojo’s mouth and it made him smile. That you’d finally admit it, admit that you wanted him. For real this time. The cards were all out in the open, no sneaky blade was about to stab into his vitals because it was already at his throat.
“Anything you want,” He glanced between you, “Give me a hand, sweetheart. Mine are a little full,” He tapped the muzzle to your temple lightly with a smirk.
The hand in his hair dropped, gliding over his broad shoulder. Down his chest, you felt every line and dip and defined muscle of his abs. Your eyes lowered to follow to trail down, and you gripped his cock. He took a sharp breath, eyes trained on your face as you bit your lip and slid the tip of his cock through your folds.
Long fingers dug into your thigh, gripping hard as you lined him up to your drooling hole. The heat of your cunt was driving him fucking crazy, and he wasn’t even inside you yet.
You looked up again, lip in your teeth, and he drove his hips up.
Your face contorted, nose scrunching as your pussy struggled to take the thick intrusion. The blade at his throat trembled as you cried out, clenching around Gojo’s cock as he pushed halfway in and stilled.
Fuck. You were so fucking tight.
He’d imagined something like this before, but nothing, not the vision his head fed him to pump his cock to, no other person, nothing could ever come close to being buried in you.
Gasping for air, gripping his shoulder and bunching the fabric of his shirt in your fist as you trembled on his cock. Stilled halfway in, every little twitch and pulse of your cunt made his breath come short.
“Fuck…” You whimpered as his lips touched yours again. “Gojo, I can’t—”
“Satoru,” He reminded, “I’m literally inside you, sweetheart.” He groaned and pushed into you deeper, “You can take it all, right? Make it fit like a good girl, yeah?”
You whined, shaking on tip toes. “Don’t fucking call me that,”
“Want me to call you a slut instead?” He grinned, breathing hard and pulling out to shove back in deeper. “What if I called you mine?”
You shut him up with another kiss. He licked into your mouth like a claim, branding you with his hot tongue and his cock buried so deep it felt like he was in your guts already. The stretch burned and took your breath, pain and adrenaline made it melt into pleasure that you craved more of.
Fucking into you steadily, you felt every vein that dragged through your walls. The angle had him push into a sweet spot on every thrust into you.
Moans and heavy breathing and obscene squelching echoed off the plastic as he fucked you up against the wall, holding you open to him with the muzzle still pressed to your head.
“You’re mine, you understand that now, right?” Gojo murmured to you, “You’ve always belonged to me, now I'm just taking what’s mine.”
He nipped your lip, dragging his mouth over yours as he pinned you to the wall and bottomed out with one hard thrust. “Say it.”
Fucked. That’s what you were. So unbelievably fucked.
You looked him in the eye as you breathed the words out.
“I’m yours,”
It didn’t feel like a lie. It felt like you belonged to him. Gojo killed for you, why didn’t that scare you more? Make you want to run from him and the claim he’d seemed to set on you long before this.
The gun dropped from your head and clattered to the ground. You had leverage now, he was giving up control and power and you could do it, tell him to stop and use this to get out.
But you didn’t.
You dropped the knife, threw your arms around his neck, let him pick you up with both hands, and kissed him.
Gojo carried you across the room and set you down on the table that held Zenin Naoya’s lifeless body. He broke the kiss, still buried inside you, and turned your head to face the corpse. You shut your eyes against the sight of it.
Gojo’s lips brushed your jaw as he spoke, his voice was raw and low. “Look. He’ll never hurt another girl again, and it’s because of you. Because I’d do anything for you.” Gojo turned you to look at him again. “I belong to you, too. Every fucked up part of me is yours.”
He looked as raw as he sounded. Eyes wide and vulnerable like he was bearing his soul to you, and you nodded. You didn’t agree with the method, but you understood.
Too many times you’d felt you weren’t enough, like you were failing the people you swore to serve and protect. Gojo had done the same, and he was doing it in a way that made certain the monsters that roamed free would never harm again.
You were always into the vigilante thing, you guessed. It was pretty hot. Maybe Gojo would wear spandex and a mask too.
The thought made you laugh a little and you cupped his face with both hands. “You’re a fucking psycho. Take your shirt off, this feels unfair.”
Gojo grinned, wide and wicked and so pretty it wasn’t fair. “I’m crazy for you, sweetheart. Anything you want.” He pulled the tight black shirt over his head and tossed it to the floor.
That wasn’t fair.
You always thought it weird that a nerd holed up in a lab all day would be so jacked, and now you understood why. You eyed him without shame, just as you always did. Lingering on his broad chest, gaze sliding down the ripples of his abs. There was a bloody cut on his oblique from where the knife had dug in.
Oops.
“Fuck me,” He was still buried inside you, but you said it anyways. And Gojo obliged.
He spread your legs open with both hands, and held tight as he thrust hard into you. He split you open on his cock, panting into your mouth and staring with lidded eyes into yours as he slammed in balls deep.
Your head flew back and a guttural sound came from deep in your chest. The pace he set was brutal, like he’d held something back before and it was snapped free now. A sound like a growl rumbled in his throat, teeth raking down your jaw, over your throat and he latched on to the skin.
He sucked and bit and bullied into you. Pushing your legs wider as he angled his hips up to push into a spot that made your head spin. Stars glittered across your vision and your nails dug into skin as you gripped his shoulders.
The pain didn’t bother him one bit. He reveled in it, savoring the sting of your nails breaking skin. He bit harder and moaned against your throat. The table rocked with every hard thrust.
He never wanted it to end, your cunt gripped and pulsed around his cock, greedy as fuck and sucking him in. Wet and loud and hot, what heaven might feel like. Your pussy was better, and he’d never even get to see the gates to compare.
Gojo rocked into you, sliding in deep and whining around your throat as the tip of his cock ground against your cervix. You cried out, cunt fluttering around him. Your legs shaking in his grip, spine bowing to push your chest up to him.
It was perfect. You were perfect.
He wanted to ruin you, break you just to put you back together and do it all over again.
Heat coiled through you, wrapping through your insides like a white hot wire that burned anything it touched. Every drag of his thick cock through your walls sparked more and you clawed at Gojo’s shoulders, keening as you clung to him.
You were so lost in everything you didn’t even notice his hand move until his thumb pressed to your clit and your eyes rolled.
“Oh my god, f-fuck!” Your body locked up, shuddering as he toyed your clit, pressing mean circles on the sensitive bud.
Your cunt gripped tight, like you were trying to slow him, but Gojo was relentless, never slowing even as his abs clenched. He pressed his forehead to yours, both slick with sweat.
“Let go, come for me sweetheart, I want to feel it.”
Another shudder wracked through you, and the wire snapped free. Your jaw dropped in a silent cry, your cunt pulsed and gushed around Gojo’s cock. Warm slick flooded and dripped as he hammered into you. Thumb wet and slipping as you twitched with every messy circle he kept rubbing, drawing out your orgasm until his balls tightened.
“Gonna come in you. You’re mine so I’m fuckin’ fill you up.” It wasn’t even a question, you wanted it just as bad as he did. As if you’d go through all of that just for him to fucking pull out.
He threw his head back and moaned. A pretty sound, almost as pretty as the sight, the column of his throat exposed. He gripped the plush of your thigh hard, buried to hilt in your still twitching cunt, and the ache in his cock finally released.
You felt the kick deep as he shuddered, hips stuttering as he spilled. Spurts of hot cum coated your walls. He didn’t stop, head falling forward again and whining as he fucked it all deeper into you. You keened and jerked on every short, sloppy thrust. Sweat dripped down your neck and your body felt beyond spent.
Finally Gojo stilled, both of you caught your breath a little before he kissed you again. Softer, less urgent with the tension released. He pulled back and murmured against your mouth, cupping your face and brushing his thumb over your cheekbone.
“I’m sorry, sweetheart. Don’t be mad when you wake up.”
Something pricked your neck and you jerked back, eyes going wide. “What the fu…” You couldn’t even finish the sentence before the syringe of M-99 he pulled from his back pocket worked its magic and you passed out. He caught you with an arm around your waist and lowered you to the table. He pulled out of your cunt and watched as his cum poured from your pussy. Pretty and used and dripping milky cum.
What a fucking sight. Everything about you was so pretty. But he didn't quite trust you not to stab him in the back and run the moment you got the chance, not yet.
You’d be just as pretty when you woke up again tied up, even if you were in a blind rage when you did.
He always did kind of like when you yelled at him.
꒷꒦a/n꒦꒷ if you made it thru all of this and haven't already, please go check out TMD by Innka on ao3, her work is incredible and seared into my brain and got me through this one (TMD is unfinished but still brilliant and worth the read). huge ty to my soulmate and beta reader @sadtrash69 for making this legible omg T_T
→ SUMMARY : You’re a grad student working at a coffee shop near campus when you start noticing a pattern: Jung Hoseok—billionaire, tech genius, and literal Iron Man—has become a regular. He orders the same americano, sits in the same corner, and listens to you ramble about superhero theory like it’s the most fascinating thing he’s ever heard. You tell yourself he’s just being polite, because the alternative means admitting that maybe Iron Man doesn’t just come for the coffee. Maybe he comes for you. (LMAO does he come.)
→ TAGS : second person perspective used, female pronouns used, grad student au, coffee shop au, iron man au, captain korea is namjoon, spider-man is jungkook, korean setting, university setting, rom-com chaos, mutual pining, hoseok is a disaster in a tom ford suit, reader is oblivious as hell, namjoon fucked his ex while wearing the suit (yes really), excessive coffee drinking, superhero banter as stress relief, FRIDAY is the real MVP, elevator malfunctions, stuck in elevator, elevator sex, semi-public sex, first time together, dry humping, grinding, vaginal sex, unprotected sex, creampie, coming inside, multiple orgasms, cunnilingus, cum eating, hoseok eats his own cum out of you (yes that happens), praise kink, mild embarrassment kink, premature ejaculation (but make it cute), hoseok has been waiting MONTHS for this, explicit consent, soft dom hoseok, reader rambles when nervous, excessive use of the word ‘geumsa’ (golden thread), cushion arranging as a love language, FRIDAY cockblocking and then un-cockblocking, robots throwing tantrums mid-battle because heroes won’t pay attention to them, namjoon’s terrible texting skills, found family dynamics, the most expensive coffee shop visits in history.
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→ A/N: Hi everyone! Welcome to my first official attempt at writing a romcom, which is WILD because anyone who knows my work knows I’m psychologically incapable of not traumatizing my characters. My little psychology-lover heart just wants everyone to suffer beautifully, but I promised myself I’d try something light for once! 🌟 And honestly? I LOVED how stupidly adoring this came out. Hoseok is a simp in a $10k suit and I’m obsessed with him. Reader is me every time I try to have a normal conversation and end up lecturing people about leadership theory. FRIDAY (yes, FRIDAY, not JARVIS—she’s a woman here and she does NOT let Hobi breathe) is the real hero of this story. Also that robot in scene 2 that’s just demolishing buildings because our boys are too busy arguing about their love lives? Peak comedy. If you enjoy watching competent people become absolute MESSES when they catch feelings, this is for you. Fair warning: there’s elevator sex. Extremely detailed elevator sex. I have no excuse except that I’m weak for confined spaces and emotional desperation. Sorry (but not really). Hope you enjoy this catastrophe! ✨
Edit: Also yes, I gave Hoseok a dead childhood best friend named Friday as his emotional anchor because apparently I CAN’T write anything without at least a LITTLE trauma. Baby steps, people. Baby steps. (ᵕ—ᴗ—) And apparently, it is through this fic that I find out there's a length limit on Tumblr so... Yeah. Yeah it cuts at Hobi saying "Impeccable timing" and impeccable timing indeed. So part 2 in the reblogs I guess?
“Please stop talking about him.”
Okay, so that maaaaaay have slipped a bit rougher than he intended, because the way you freeze mid-gesture—coffee pot suspended in air, eyes wide with surprise—almost makes him wince. Almost.
And yeah, immediately he’s thinking ‘smooth, Hoseok, really smooth’, because this isn’t exactly his usual MO.
Jung Hoseok doesn’t snap at people, especially not at you, the ridiculously adorable barista who’s somehow managed to become the best part of his increasingly chaotic superhero-slash-CEO existence.
But honestly? If he has to sit through one more lovingly detailed breakdown of Kim Namjoon’s ‘incredible leadership presence’ and ‘flawless shield technique,’ he’s going to lose what’s left of his sanity.
Which, granted, wasn’t that much to begin with.
“I—sorry,” you stammer, setting the coffee pot down with the kind of movement that suggests you’re rattled. “I didn’t mean to ramble again. I know you probably don’t care about superhero stuff—”
“It’s not that.”
He drags a hand through his hair, mentally kicking himself for being such an idiot.
Because here’s the thing—he does care about superhero stuff. Kind of hard not to when you literally are one. He lives it, breathes it, gets punched in the face by it on a semi-regular basis.
But listening to you wax poetic about his teammate—his friend—with actual literal stars in your eyes while he’s sitting right here, Jung Hoseok, also known as Iron Man, nursing his third americano and trying to work up the nerve to ask you out?
Yeah, that’s a special kind of torture. The ironic kind. His favorite.
You’re looking at him with those ridiculously expressive eyes—seriously, it should be illegal how much emotion you can pack into one look—and that little crease of concern between your brows that makes him want to smooth it away with his thumb.
And just like that, his irritation dissolves faster than sugar in hot coffee.
This is why he keeps coming back to this tiny shop in Sinchon, wedged between a bookstore and a ramen place, despite having coffee machines in his penthouse that probably cost more than your monthly rent.
It’s not really about the coffee—though you do make a damn good americano.
It’s about the way you practically glow when you get excited about something. It’s about how you remember his order down to the extra shot on Mondays and the switch to decaf after six because apparently you’ve noticed he gets ‘too bouncy’ with caffeine late in the day.
(And listen, yes, he’d been offended by the ‘bouncy’ comment for exactly thirty seconds before realizing it was actually kind of endearing.)
It’s about the genuine interest in your voice when you ask how his day went, like you actually give a damn about the answer.
It’s about you, and he’s been way too chicken to do anything substantial about it.
“Your americano,” you say softly, sliding the cup across the counter.
Your fingers brush his as he takes it, and he wonders if you notice the way his breath catches, the slight tremor in his hands that has nothing to do with caffeine withdrawal and everything to do with the simple touch of your skin against his.
“Thank you.”
He takes a sip, buying himself time to figure out how to salvage this conversation.
The coffee is perfect, as always—bold and smooth with just a hint of sweetness that somehow captures your personality in liquid form.
“I’m sorry for snapping. It’s been a long week.”
You shake your head, ponytail doing that swishy thing that’s definitely too cute for his cardiovascular health.
“No, I totally get it. I do talk way too much about… well, everything really. My friends are constantly telling me I need to learn when to stop.” You laugh, but there’s something self-conscious about it that makes his chest do this uncomfortable tightening thing. “Occupational hazard of spending too much time with academic papers and superhero documentaries, I guess.”
“You don’t talk too much,” he says, and wow, okay, that came out way more sincere than he was planning. “I actually like listening to you.”
There. Cards on the table.
Well, some of them anyway.
And there it is—that blush that starts at your cheeks and works its way down your neck like watercolor paint.
You duck your head, suddenly finding the spotless counter absolutely fascinating.
He wants to bite his own knuckles.
“That’s… really sweet of you to say. Most people’s eyes glaze over the second I mention leadership theory and tactical analysis.” You peek up at him through your lashes in a way that should probably be classified as a weapon. “I’m doing my master’s thesis on modern heroism and public influence. Super riveting stuff, I’m sure.”
“Are you kidding? It’s not boring at all.”
And honestly? If only you knew how many times your random observations about public responsibility and the psychology of hope have popped into his head during missions. How your academic theories have actually influenced some of his decisions in the suit.
“Your whole analysis about superhero visibility and social cohesion was brilliant.”
Your eyes go wide. “You actually remember that?”
“I remember pretty much everything you tell me.”
Aaaand there goes his mouth again, running ahead of his brain.
But the way you’re looking at him now—like he just said something genuinely surprising instead of mildly stalkerish—makes it worth the temporary panic attack.
Maybe you’re thinking about how Iron Man probably has better things to do than listen to graduate student theories about superhero psychology.
Maybe you’re wondering why he keeps coming back here instead of getting coffee delivered to his fancy penthouse like a normal rich superhero would.
But then you get this soft, wondering expression that has absolutely nothing to do with his suit or his public persona and everything to do with the fact that maybe, possibly, hopefully, Jung Hoseok the regular guy is just as interesting to you as Iron Man the hero.
“That’s…” you bite your lip—a habit he’s definitely noticed and definitely filed away under ‘things that are adorable and slightly distracting’—“no one’s ever told me that before.”
And okay, that physically hurts to hear. Like, actual chest pain.
How is that even possible? How can someone as brilliant and passionate and genuinely good as you be surrounded by people who don’t appreciate the way your mind works?
“Then they’re all idiots,” he says, rougher than he means to.
Your blush deepens, spreading down your neck in a way that makes him think some very unprofessional thoughts about tracing that path with his fingertips.
“Hoseok…”
The way you say his name—all soft and uncertain and maybe, just maybe, a little hopeful—does things to him that should probably require a medical consultation.
This is it. This is the moment where a normal person would ask you out. Where he’d suggest dinner somewhere that doesn’t involve a counter between you and the weird professional distance of customer-and-barista. Where he’d finally grow a pair and—
His phone buzzes against his thigh. That specific pattern that means Namjoon is calling with something urgent. Something that probably requires Iron Man’s immediate attention and completely terrible timing.
Of course. Of course.
Because apparently the universe has a sense of humor, and that sense of humor involves his teammate cockblocking him at every possible opportunity.
Even when said teammate has no idea he’s doing it.
“I should probably…” He pulls out his phone, confirming Namjoon’s name on the screen with a mental string of profanity that would make his mother wash his mouth out with soap.
“Of course!” You step back, and he doesn’t miss how quickly that polite smile slides back into place. “I should let you get back to your day anyway. I’ve probably kept you here long enough with all my superhero rambling.”
“Hey, no—I told you I don’t mind—”
“Hoseok-ssi?” Namjoon’s voice crackles through the speaker, tinny and urgent. “We need Iron Man. There’s a situation in Gangnam—”
He lifts the phone to his ear so fast he probably looks like he’s swatting a fly. “Yeah. On my way.”
When he hangs up, you’re already helping another customer, but you catch his eye and give him this little wave that’s somehow both casual and melancholy.
He wants to say something—wants to finish what felt like the beginning of something important—but duty calls.
Literally.
As he heads for the door, he can hear you laughing at something the next customer says—bright and genuine and utterly captivating.
He pauses with his hand on the door handle, looking back one more time.
Fucking Namjoon and his stupid spectacular timing. He’ll shove his foot up his ass later.
But first? First he’s got to go save Seoul.
Again.
Honestly, Hoseok’s pretty sure this is the most ridiculous conversation he’s ever had while actively getting shot at by laser cannons.
“So,” Namjoon grunts, deflecting another energy blast with his shield before hurling it at the oversized robot currently trying to level half of Gangnam District. “How’s your coffee shop girl doing?”
Hoseok pauses mid-flight, nearly getting clipped by a stray laser beam.
“Are you seriously asking me about my love life right now?” He fires off a repulsor blast that takes out two of the smaller drones buzzing around the main threat. “We’re literally in the middle of preventing Seoul from becoming a crater.”
"I'm just asking!" There's that insufferably reasonable tone that Namjoon uses when he's being deliberately obtuse. "You've been going there for what, three months now? Same girl, same order, same dopey expression every time you come back from—"
"I do not have a dopey expression."
"You have the dopiest expression. Jin said you look like a golden retriever who's been told he's a good boy."
Hoseok wobbles in the air. "Jin said what now?"
"Focus, Iron Man." But he can hear the grin in Namjoon's voice even as he's launching himself through the air with enough force to dent the robot's thorax. "I'm just saying, maybe you should actually ask her out instead of pining dramatically over your americanos."
"I don't pine dramatically."
"You absolutely pine dramatically. It's like watching a K-drama in real time."
“I do not—and by the way how do you even know about her?”
“Well. FRIDAY mentioned you've been asking her to look up 'best gift flowers for graduate students' and 'how to ask someone out without seeming like a creepy rich guy.'"
Oh, he's going to have words with his AI when they get back. Possibly involving some creative reprogramming.
“FRIDAY needs to learn about privacy settings, clearly.”
"She's worried about your mental health. Apparently you've been pacing around the workshop muttering about 'academic brilliance' and 'the way she bites her lip when she's thinking.'"
"I'm going to murder you."
The robot chooses this moment to release what appears to be some kind of sonic screech that rattles every window in a three-block radius, which honestly is perfect timing because it drowns out the string of profanity that Hoseok definitely shouldn't be saying in public while wearing the suit.
"Anyway," Namjoon continues conversationally, as if they're not currently trying to prevent a giant robot from turning Gangnam into a pile of rubble, "she seems sweet. Really enthusiastic about superhero theory, from what you've mentioned. Actually listens when you talk about your work without getting all weird about the celebrity thing."
"Yeah, she's great," he says slowly, nailing the robot with a concentrated blast that finally seems to do some actual damage. "Really smart. Has this whole theory about leadership dynamics in crisis situations that's actually pretty brilliant when you think about it.”
“She sounds really passionate about her research.” There’s something almost fond in Namjoon’s voice that makes Hoseok’s eye twitch.
“Yeah, well, she’s passionate about a lot of things.” Hoseok takes aim at the robot’s power core, charging up his chest piece. “Unfortunately, most of those things involve gushing about Captain Korea’s ‘incredible tactical mind’ and ‘inspiring leadership qualities.’”
He fires, and the blast connects perfectly, sending the robot staggering backward into a conveniently empty building.
“She talks about me?”
And okay, now Namjoon sounds genuinely pleased, which is just fantastic for Hoseok’s blood pressure.
“Oh, she talks about you alright.” Hoseok lands on a nearby rooftop, already calculating the best angle for his next attack. “Just yesterday she spent twenty minutes explaining your shield trajectory physics to me like I don’t have three degrees in engineering. Apparently your ‘intuitive understanding of aerodynamics’ is ‘absolutely fascinating from an academic standpoint.’”
“That’s actually pretty insightful—”
“I swear to God, Namjoon, if you start getting a ego boost from this I will personally reprogram my suit to electrocute you every time you touch that shield.”
Namjoon’s laugh crackles through the comm as he leaps from building to building, pursuing the robot as it tries to retreat. “I think it’s cute that she’s so enthusiastic about superhero theory. Most people just see the flashy stuff.”
“Cute.” Hoseok’s repulsors whine as they charge up again. “Yeah, it’s real cute watching the girl you’re trying to ask out spend forty-five minutes analyzing another guy’s combat techniques while you’re sitting right there.”
“You still haven’t asked her out?”
“It’s complicated!” Hoseok dives after the robot, which has apparently decided that fleeing toward the Han River is a brilliant strategy. “Every time I work up the nerve, she starts talking about you, and then I remember that I’m competing with Captain fucking Korea for her attention, and it’s just—”
“Language.”
“—incredibly frustrating because she obviously has a type and that type is apparently ‘noble leader with a shield’ not ‘sarcastic genius with abandonment issues.’”
The robot takes a swing at Hoseok with one massive mechanical arm, and he barely dodges in time. The wind from the near-miss sends him spinning, and he has to fire his stabilizers to avoid crashing into a bridge support.
“You know,” Namjoon says, sounding way too casual as he sprints along the riverbank below, “you could always just tell her how you feel. Worst case scenario, she says no and you move on.”
“Easy for you to say. You don’t have to worry about dating complications.” Hoseok circles around behind the robot and starts targeting its joints. “Must be nice having your whole mysterious secret identity thing going on. No messy personal entanglements.”
There’s a pause.
A longer pause than usual, which is weird because Namjoon’s normally quick with the self-deprecating humor when Hoseok brings up his commitment to keeping his Captain Korea identity separate from Kim Namjoon the museum curator.
Something about his tone makes Hoseok glance down at him.
Even from this distance, he can see the tension in Namjoon’s shoulders that has nothing to do with the giant robot they’re fighting.
“Actually,” Hoseok continues, because apparently he has a death wish today, “speaking of complications, how’s that journalist you’ve been not-talking about? The one who keeps requesting interviews with Captain Korea through official channels?”
And there it is. Dead silence on the comm.
Hoseok knows he’s hit a nerve because Namjoon usually deflects personal questions with some variation of “focus on the mission, Hoseok” or “my private life is private for a reason.”
The fact that he’s not saying anything at all is basically a flashing neon sign that says ‘EMOTIONAL VULNERABILITY DETECTED.’
“Oh no,” Hoseok says, slowing his pursuit of the robot as pieces start clicking together in his brain. “Oh no no no no.”
“I didn’t say anything!” Namjoon’s voice cracks slightly.
“You met her, didn’t you.” It’s not a question.
More silence.
“Oh my fucking God, you absolute fucking disa—”
“She was at Seokjin’s party, okay?” Namjoon’s words come out in a rush, like he’s ripping off a bandaid. “And she looked so, so, so pretty, Hoseok. She was wearing a blue dress, a BLUE dress, do you know what that does to a man?”
“—ster, Jesus fucking Christ, how many times do I have to tell you that exes are exes for a reason and—”
“Like, blue is one of my literal colors, it was fate, definitely has to be fate.” Namjoon’s voice gets soft and wistful in a way that makes Hoseok want to crash his suit directly into the nearest building. “She’s always been pretty, but after so many years you don’t understand how pretty—”
“—I cannot believe you would—wait, what?” Hoseok nearly flies into a street lamp. “Many years? How long were you two together?”
“Two years. We broke up right before I became Captain Korea because I couldn’t figure out how to balance everything and I thought it was better to end things than lie to her constantly and—”
“Oh for fuck’s sake, Namjoon—”
“—and she needed help with interviewing Captain Korea, so I said ‘sure, I can help you with that’ because I AM Captain Korea, obviously, but she doesn’t know that, so I had to…”
Hoseok’s brain stutters to a complete halt. “You WHAT?”
“…I had to say that I kind of… work with him? And that maybe I could talk him into doing an interview and…”
“WHAT DO YOU MEAN ‘AND’? THERE’S MORE?!”
The robot, apparently tired of being ignored, chooses this moment to fire a massive energy beam directly at the bridge they’re fighting near.
Hoseok barely manages to deflect it with his repulsors, sending the beam harmlessly into the river where it creates a spectacular explosion of steam.
“Focus, guys!” Namjoon calls out, but his voice is strained in a way that has nothing to do with physical exertion.
“Don’t you dare ‘focus guys’ out of the subject!” Hoseok swoops down and grabs Namjoon around the waist, lifting them both to a safer vantage point on top of a nearby skyscraper. “Finish the story!”
“I… I did the interview.” Namjoon’s voice is barely above a whisper. “And I might or might not have… slept with her.”
“YOU FUCKED YOUR EX?!”
“Language!”
“Oh my God, that is literally in the rule book of keeping superhero identities separate! Why would you sleep with your ex, you absolute—”
“No, wait!” Namjoon holds up his hands defensively. “I didn’t sleep with her as Namjoon. I slept with her as Captain Korea. I didn’t… I didn’t take off the mask. Or much of the outfit, for that matter.”
Hoseok stares at him.
Just… stares.
Because there’s no fucking way he heard that correctly.
There’s no way his best friend, his partner, the most responsible and rule-following person he’s ever met, just told him that he had masked superhero sex with his ex-girlfriend who has no idea it was actually him.
“I’m sorry,” Hoseok says slowly, “but did you just tell me that you catfish-fucked your ex-girlfriend with your own secret identity?”
“It’s not catfishing if it’s technically still me!”
“IT’S DEFINITELY CATFISHING!”
Below them, the robot has apparently given up on whatever its original plan was and is now just smashing things at random, probably frustrated by the lack of attention it’s been getting.
A few police helicopters are circling at a safe distance, and Hoseok can see news vans setting up on nearby streets.
“We should probably—” Namjoon starts.
“Oh no, we’re not done here.” Hoseok crosses his arms and hovers in place, using his suit’s systems to maintain position. “Let me get this straight. Your ex-girlfriend, who you’ve been pining over for three years, shows up asking for an interview with Captain Korea. So instead of either refusing or coming clean about your identity, you decide the best course of action is to pretend to be a middle-man, set up a fake interview, and then have anonymous superhero sex with her?”
“When you put it like that, it sounds really bad.”
“IT IS REALLY BAD! It’s insane! It’s the kind of thing that happens in really terrible romantic comedies!” Hoseok starts pacing back and forth in mid-air. “What were you thinking?”
“I was thinking that I missed her!” Namjoon’s voice cracks again. “I was thinking that she looked beautiful and sad and I wanted to comfort her, but I couldn’t do it as myself because then she’d ask questions about why I disappeared, and I can’t tell her the truth because of the whole secret identity thing, but as Captain Korea I could be there for her without any of the baggage…”
A chunk of debris flies past them as the robot continues its rampage below. Hoseok absently blasts it out of the air before it can hit a news helicopter.
“Okay,” he says finally. “Okay, we’re going to table this conversation because we have a job to do. But after we stop this thing from turning Seoul into a parking lot, we’re going to have a very serious discussion about your complete and utter lack of judgment.”
“That’s fair.”
“And you’re going to figure out how to fix this situation without completely destroying this poor woman’s life.”
“Also fair.”
“And you’re buying me coffee for a week because listening to this story has taken years off my life and I need caffeine to cope.”
“…can we get it from August Coffee shop?”
Hoseok turns to stare at him again. “Are you seriously trying to use your romantic disaster as an excuse to meet my coffee shop crush?”
“I’m just saying, if I’m buying coffee anyway…”
“I’m going to murder you.”
“Language!”
“I’m going to murder you in a very family-friendly way!”
The robot must really dislike being ignored because it now lets out a mechanical roar and starts charging directly toward their building.
Hoseok sighs and powers up his repulsors.
“We’re finishing this conversation later,” he warns as they leap back into action.
“Looking forward to it,” Namjoon says, but there’s relief in his voice that suggests he’s actually grateful to have someone to talk to about his monumentally stupid decision.
Hoseok makes a mental note to call Yoongi after this fight is over.
If anyone can help him figure out how to unfuck Namjoon’s romantic life, it’s their resident genius hacker who’s seen every possible way superhero secret identities can go wrong.
He’s also making a mental note to never, ever tell you about this conversation.
Because if you find out that Captain Korea is not only taken but also potentially a manipulative disaster when it comes to relationships, Hoseok might actually have a chance.
Which makes him feel guilty about feeling hopeful, but honestly? After listening to Namjoon’s confession, Hoseok’s pretty sure his own romantic problems are significantly less complicated.
At least when he finally works up the courage to ask you out, he’ll be doing it as himself.
You’re pretty sure this is the best day of your entire academic career, and that’s including the time your thesis advisor actually said “good work” instead of just circling everything in red pen.
Because right now, right here in August Coffee after closing time, you’re having an actual conversation with Captain Korea. THE Captain Korea. The man whose leadership theories you’ve been analyzing for months, whose shield techniques you’ve probably watched on YouTube more times than is socially acceptable, and who is currently sitting across from you looking even more impossibly heroic in person than he does on television.
Well, what you can see of him anyway. The mask covers most of his face, leaving only his mouth visible, but somehow he still manages to look like he stepped off a propaganda poster.
“—and that’s exactly what I mean about your tactical adaptability!” you’re saying, gesturing so enthusiastically with your hands that you nearly knock over the coffee you just made for Hoseok, who is currently face-down on one of the corner tables like he’s given up on life entirely. “The way you adjusted your strategy during the Gangnam incident last week—switching from offensive to defensive positioning when you realized the civilians needed evacuation routes—that’s such good situational leadership theory, but applied in real-time under pressure, which is just incredible!”
Captain Korea gives you this smile—or at least, you think he’s smiling based on how his mouth curves—that’s probably caused at least twelve diplomatic incidents and three international peace treaties.
“Well, I mean…” He adjusts his mask slightly in a way that seems carefully calculated to look humble while actually being the opposite. “It’s not easy being the symbol of hope for an entire nation, you know? The responsibility, the weight of expectations… but someone has to do it.”
You nod so vigorously you’re surprised your neck doesn’t snap. “Absolutely! And the psychological pressure of maintaining that public image while making split-second decisions that could affect thousands of lives—I actually wrote a whole section in my thesis about the mental resilience required for that kind of symbolic leadership role.”
“Did you really?” His visible expression lights up in a way that suggests he’s absolutely loving this conversation, and you feel a little thrill of academic validation mixed with pure fangirl joy. “That’s fascinating. You know, not many people understand the philosophical implications—”
“Oh my god, he just fucked his ex.”
The words cut through like a knife through butter, and you freeze mid-pour, coffee pot still suspended in the air where you were about to refill Captain Korea’s cup.
The voice came from Hoseok’s corner, where he’s finally lifted his head from the table to glare at Captain Korea with an expression that could probably melt steel.
“I’m sorry, what?” you squeak, because surely you misheard.
Surely Iron Man did not just announce to the (empty but still, principles?) coffee shop that Captain Korea—Captain Korea!—had relations with someone.
“Did you just—”
“You heard me,” Hoseok says, sitting up fully now, and there’s something almost manic in his grin. “Our perfect symbol of hope and unity over here just had a very educational evening with his ex-girlfriend. While wearing the suit, I might add.”
Your brain makes a sound like a computer crashing. “While wearing the—what—how do you even—I mean, the logistics alone—”
Captain Korea’s visible skin has gone approximately the color of his shield, which is to say red, white, and blue all at once, and he’s making frantic cutting motions with his hands.
“Hoseok, maybe we shouldn’t—”
“Oh no, I think we absolutely should,” Hoseok continues, and he’s definitely lost his mind because nobody talks to Captain Korea like this, except apparently Iron Man does. “Tell our friend here about how you conducted a very thorough interview. For journalism purposes. Very professional.”
“HOSEOK.”
But it’s too late, because your brain has put the pieces together—Captain Korea, journalism, ex-girlfriend, educational evening—and you’re pretty sure your worldview just shifted off its axis entirely.
“Oh my god. Oh my GOD. You—she was interviewing you and you—but she didn’t know who you were so you were basically—oh my GOD this is like the plot of every fanfiction I pretend I don’t read!”
Captain Korea makes a sound like a dying whale and launches his shield directly at Hoseok’s head.
Hoseok catches it one-handed without even looking up from his coffee, which is probably the most impressive thing you’ve ever seen and also completely terrifying.
“Careful there, buddy,” he says, examining the shield like he’s checking for damage. “This thing probably costs more than most people’s cars.”
“Give that back,” Captain Korea demands, but his voice cracks a little on the word ‘back,’ which ruins the commanding effect entirely.
“What, this old thing?” Hoseok spins it on his finger like it’s a frisbee instead of a vibranium shield that could probably split a building in half. “I thought you were done using it for the evening. You know, since you were busy using other things.”
You’re still trying to process this entire conversation when your brain helpfully supplies you with an even more disturbing parallel.
“Oh god, this is like Spider-Man all over again.”
Both men freeze and stare at you.
“What?” Hoseok asks slowly.
“Spider-Man! He comes in here all the time—well, not all the time, but regularly enough that I know his coffee order, which is complicated because he orders it through the mask so it’s all muffled, but he always gets the same thing—and he’s always hanging around that journalism student who comes in to study.”
You’re rambling now, but you can’t stop because this is actually important information that they need to understand.
“Literally hanging. From the ceiling sometimes. It’s adorable, he calls her ‘noona’even though nobody knows how old he actually is under the mask, and she just sits there typing away on her laptop while he hovers upside-down asking if she needs anything and—” You stop, realizing both superheroes are staring at you like you’ve grown a second head. “What?”
Hoseok sets Captain Korea’s shield down on the table with a very deliberate clink.
“So let me get this straight. Spider-Man also has a thing for journalism students?”
“Well, I mean, I don’t know if it’s a thing exactly, but he definitely spends a lot of time making sure she’s comfortable and bringing her snacks and asking about her articles, and last week he actually hung a little web banner over her table that said ‘Fighting for truth and justice!’ which was honestly the cutest thing I’ve ever seen, and—” You pause again. “Why are you looking at me like that?”
“No reason,” Hoseok says, but his voice has taken on a very dangerous tone. “Just seems like there’s a pattern here. Superheroes and journalist women. Very interesting pattern.”
Captain Korea has buried his face in his hands. “This is a nightmare.”
“This is karma,” Hoseok corrects. “This is what happens when you don’t listen to your teammates’ very reasonable advice about keeping your personal life separate from your superhero life.”
“You’re one to talk! You’ve been mooning over—”
“Geumsa,” Hoseok interrupts, turning to face you directly, and you feel your cheeks warm at the nickname he’s started using recently. “Maybe you could make us some more coffee? This seems like a conversation that’s going to require a lot of caffeine.”
Captain Korea’s head snaps up. “Wait, hold up. Geumsa? You have a nickname for her?”
Your hand automatically goes to touch the golden thread holding your ponytail in place, and you can feel your face getting redder by the second.
You turn your head slightly, pointing bashfully at the golden bow securing your hair, because that’s why he started you calling you that in the first place.
Golden thread.
“It’s just… the thread. I always wear it when I work, so…”
Captain Korea looks between you and Hoseok, and even with the mask covering most of his expression, you can tell he’s grinning.
“Oh. Okay, that’s actually really sweet—”
The shield goes flying again, this time with considerably more force.
Captain Korea barely dodges it, and the shield embeds itself in the wall behind him with a solid thunk.
“HOSEOK!”
“That’s what you get for being smug,” Hoseok says, completely unrepentant. “And before you say anything, yes, it’s different.”
“How is it different?”
“Because I’m not sleeping with her while pretending to be someone else!”
You’re pretty sure your brain has officially given up trying to process this conversation, because now you’re just standing there holding a coffee pot, watching Iron Man and Captain Korea bicker like an old married couple about their respective love lives.
This is definitely not how you imagined your first real conversation with Captain Korea would go.
“Um,” you say, raising your hand tentatively like you’re in class. “Should I… make more coffee?”
Both men turn to look at you, and for a moment, the coffee shop is completely silent.
Then…
“Yes,” Hoseok says finally. “Make a lot more coffee. And maybe something stronger.”
“I don’t have anything stronger. This is a coffee shop, not a bar.”
“Then make the coffee stronger.”
“I can do that.” You pause, looking between them. “Are you two going to be okay? Because I feel like I just witnessed something that’s either going to end in friendship or homicide, and I’m not qualified to deal with either of those outcomes.”
Captain Korea makes another whale noise. “I think I need to go home and rethink my life choices.”
“Good idea,” Hoseok says, getting up to retrieve the shield from the wall. “Maybe start with the choice to have emotional conversations while wearing a patriotic costume.”
“You’re never going to let me live this down, are you?”
“Never. I’m going to bring this up at every team meeting for the rest of our natural lives.”
“I hate you.”
“Love you too, Cap.”
You’re pretty sure you’re witnessing the natural habitat behavior of superheroes, and it’s simultaneously more and less dramatic than you expected.
“Also,” you say, because apparently your mouth has decided to operate independently of your brain’s better judgment. “Can I ask how you two know each other, or is that classified information?”
They both stare at you again.
“We work together,” Hoseok says slowly.
“Teammates,” Captain Korea adds.
“Right. Of course. That makes sense.”
It doesn’t make sense at all, actually, because you’re pretty sure Iron Man is more of a solo act while Captain Korea works with the government, but you’ve learned enough today to know when not to push for details.
“Well, for what it’s worth, I think you’re both doing great work. You know, saving the city and all that.”
“Thanks,” they say in unison, and then glare at each other for the synchronization.
“Okay,” you continue, because apparently you’re committed to this awkward conversation now. “I’m going to make that coffee, and you two are going to figure out whatever… this… is. And maybe next time, we can discuss superhero theory without any shocking personal revelations?”
“Deal,” Captain Korea says quickly.
“No promises,” Hoseok adds, because of course he does.
As you turn back to the espresso machine, you can hear them starting to bicker again behind you, something about proper disclosure and emotional maturity and the ethics of costumed dating, and you can’t help but smile a little.
Because this is your life now, apparently. Making coffee for superheroes while they have relationship drama in your shop after hours.
You could probably write a whole thesis about this too.
And maybe you could—
The thought hits you like a repulsor blast to the face, and you nearly drop the espresso portafilter.
“Oh my god.”
“What?” both superheroes say in unison, and then glare at each other again.
You whirl around, abandoning the coffee machine to face them with what you’re sure is an absolutely manic expression.
“My thesis. My research. You two—you’re perfect.”
Captain Korea shifts uncomfortably in his seat. “I’m not sure I like where this is going.”
“No, listen!” You’re gesturing wildly now, academic excitement overriding your starstruck nervousness. “I’ve been analyzing superhero leadership from media coverage and public statements, but that’s all external observation. Secondary sources. But you two actually do this—the teamwork, the decision-making under pressure, the tactical planning—”
“Geumsa,” Hoseok interrupts, and there’s something careful in his voice. Something that sounds almost… hopeful? “Are you saying you want to study us?”
“Not study exactly, that sounds weird and creepy, but—” You pause, trying to organize your thoughts into something coherent instead of the excited word-vomit currently happening. “Research? Observe? Get a behind-the-scenes understanding of how superhero collaboration actually works?”
There’s a long moment of silence.
Captain Korea looks at Hoseok.
Hoseok looks at Captain Korea.
Some sort of silent communication happens that you absolutely cannot parse.
“That,” Hoseok says slowly, “is actually a really interesting idea.”
“It is?” you and Captain Korea say at the same time.
“Sure.” Hoseok leans back in his chair with the kind of calculated casualness that probably looks natural to most people but somehow feels deliberate. “We could help you out. Show you some footage, maybe walk you through some of our tactical models. Give you that primary source material you need.”
Your heart does a little flip. “Really? You’d do that?”
“Of course. Always happy to contribute to academic research.” He’s smiling now, that confident Iron Man smile that makes headlines. “Why don’t you come by my place tomorrow? After your shift. We can set up a proper research session.”
“Why would we—” Captain Korea starts.
“Shut up,” Hoseok says pleasantly.
“Excuse me?”
“I mean, shut up, of course we’d love to help.” Hoseok’s grin has taken on a slightly manic quality. “It’s important work. Educational. Beneficial for everyone involved.”
Captain Korea tilts his head, and you can practically see him trying to figure out what game Hoseok is playing.
“I don’t think I can make it tomorrow, actually. I have a—”
“With us!” Hoseok says brightly, kicking something under the table that makes Captain Korea grunt. “You have plans with us. The three of us. Working together. On this very important research project.”
“I really don’t think—”
“He’s very enthusiastic about it,” Hoseok continues, his smile never wavering. “Aren’t you enthusiastic about it?”
There’s another beat of silence where Captain Korea seems to be running through several different responses in his head.
You’re too excited to notice the weird tension between them.
“This is amazing! I can’t believe—I mean, the primary source access alone will be incredible for my thesis, and getting to see actual tactical models and decision-making processes—” You stop, a horrible thought occurring to you. “Wait, is this classified? Am I going to have to sign an NDA? Because I can do that, I just need to make sure my advisor is okay with—”
“Don’t worry about it,” Hoseok says, waving a hand dismissively. “We’ll handle the logistics. You just focus on your research.”
He pulls out his phone—not the fancy Iron Man gauntlet interface you’ve seen in videos, just a regular phone—and types something quickly.
“I’ll send a car to pick you up tomorrow. What time do you finish your shift?”
“A car?” Your brain is struggling to keep up. “You don’t have to—I can take the subway, it’s really not a problem—”
“Nonsense. You’re doing us a favor by including us in your research.” He looks up from his phone, and there’s something warm in his expression that makes your stomach do a weird little flip. “What time, Geumsa?”
“Um. Six? I close at six.”
“Perfect. Car will be there at six-fifteen.” He goes back to typing. “Wear something comfortable. We might be going through footage for a while.”
“This is really happening,” you say, mostly to yourself. “I’m going to be doing primary research with Iron Man and Captain Korea. I should probably prepare questions, right? And bring my laptop? Oh god, I need to charge my laptop—”
“Breathe,” Hoseok says, and his voice is gentle enough that you actually do. “Just bring yourself and whatever you need to take notes. We’ll provide everything else.”
“Okay. Okay.” You press your hands to your cheeks, trying to cool the flush you can feel spreading. “This is the best day of my entire life.”
“Better than meeting Captain Korea?” Hoseok asks, and there’s something odd in his tone that you can’t quite identify.
“Well, I mean—” You glance at Captain Korea, who’s watching this interaction with what you think might be amusement under his mask. “Meeting Captain Korea was incredible, obviously. But getting to actually work with both of you? Getting primary source material for my thesis? That’s—that’s career-defining. That’s going to make my advisor actually take my research seriously.”
“Your advisor doesn’t take your research seriously?” Captain Korea asks, and he sounds genuinely offended on your behalf.
“He thinks superhero studies are ‘frivolous’ and ‘lack academic rigor.’” You use air quotes for emphasis. “He only approved my thesis topic because I framed it as leadership theory with contemporary case studies.”
“That’s ridiculous,” Hoseok says firmly. “Your research is brilliant. The analysis you did about public responsibility and symbolic leadership? That’s publication-worthy material.”
You blink at him, startled by the vehemence in his voice.
“You really think so?”
“I know so.”
There’s a moment where you just stare at each other, and something warm unfurls in your chest.
Iron Man—Iron Man—thinks your research is brilliant. Thinks it’s publication-worthy.
That’s…
Captain Korea clears his throat. “So. Tomorrow. Six-fifteen.”
“Right.” You shake yourself back to reality. “I should finish making that coffee. The stronger coffee. That you asked for.”
“Probably a good idea,” Hoseok agrees, but he’s still looking at you with that expression you can’t quite read.
You turn back to the espresso machine, hands slightly shaky from excitement and caffeine and the surreal nature of your entire evening.
Behind you, you can hear the two superheroes having some sort of whispered argument.
“—know exactly what you’re doing—”
“—helping with legitimate academic research—”
“—can’t believe you’re using her thesis as an excuse to—”
“—shut up or I’m telling Spider-Man about the journalist thing—”
“You wouldn’t—”
“Try me.”
You smile to yourself as you pull the espresso shots, watching the dark liquid stream into the cups.
Tomorrow you’re going to Iron Man’s house.
Tomorrow you’re going to do actual primary research with actual superheroes.
Tomorrow is going to be the best day of your academic career.
You’re almost completely sure of it.
The coffee finishes brewing, rich and dark and strong enough to wake the dead, and you bring it over to their table with hands that are only slightly trembling.
“One extremely strong americano,” you announce, setting Hoseok’s cup down first. “And one regular coffee for Captain Korea, unless you’d like something stronger too?”
“I think I’m going to need it,” Captain Korea mutters, but he’s accepting the regular coffee anyway.
“So,” you say, unable to contain your curiosity any longer. “What exactly will we be doing tomorrow? Is it just footage review, or—”
“Footage, tactical models, maybe a demonstration if you want.” Hoseok takes a sip of his coffee and makes a satisfied sound. “Perfect as always, Geumsa. We might order dinner too—can’t do proper research on an empty stomach.”
“Dinner?” Your voice comes out squeakier than intended.
“Unless you’d rather not—”
“No! No, dinner is great. Dinner is perfect.” You’re definitely blushing now. “I just—I didn’t expect—”
“It’s the least we can do,” Hoseok says smoothly. “You’re giving up your evening for this research. Feeding you is basic hospitality.”
Captain Korea is very quiet, and when you glance at him, you could swear he’s trying not to laugh.
“Well,” you say, straightening your apron and trying to regain some composure. “I should let you two finish your coffee and your… discussion. I have closing duties to finish.”
“Of course.” Hoseok raises his cup in a small salute. “See you tomorrow, Geumsa.”
“Tomorrow,” you echo, and the word feels full of promise.
As you head back behind the counter, you catch Captain Korea leaning toward Hoseok and saying something that sounds suspiciously like “—really doing this, aren’t you—” but Hoseok just grins and takes another sip of his coffee.
You’re going to need to figure out what to wear.
And maybe reread all your thesis notes.
And definitely charge your laptop.
Hoseok adjusts the sofa cushion for the third time, realizes it looked better the second time, and moves it back.
Then he takes a step back to evaluate.
Is this trying too hard? This feels like trying too hard.
But also, leaving the cushions in their normal ‘I literally threw these here last week and haven’t thought about them since’ arrangement seems like not trying at all, which is somehow worse.
He’s wearing a suit. A suit. Not the Iron Man suit—that would be weird, even for him—but an actual Tom Ford suit that cost way too much. It’s charcoal grey, perfectly tailored, and he’d convinced himself this morning that it struck the right balance between ‘successful tech CEO’ and ‘definitely not trying to impress anyone.’
Looking at himself in the reflection of his floor-to-ceiling windows, he’s starting to think he might have miscalculated.
“FRIDAY,” he says, tugging at his collar. “Honest opinion. Is this too much?”
“For a research session with a graduate student, boss? Absolutely.”
“Thanks. Super helpful. Love the support.”
“You did ask for honesty.”
Hoseok glares at the nearest speaker. “Remind me to reprogram your sarcasm protocols.”
“You’ve been threatening that for two years now.”
“And I mean it every single time.”
He checks his watch.
Five-forty.
The car should be picking you up in about thirty-five minutes, which means you’ll be here around six-thirty accounting for Seoul traffic.
Which gives him just enough time to make sure everything is perfect.
Not that this needs to be perfect. Because it’s just research. Academic research. Very professional, very educational, very not-a-date.
Except he’s wearing a Tom Ford suit and he’s rearranged the cushions three times and he’s had FRIDAY order enough food to feed the entire nation because he wasn’t sure what you’d like and figured variety was the safe option.
Yeah. He’s totally fooling everyone. Especially himself.
His phone buzzes. Namjoon’s name flashes on the screen.
Hoseok answers it immediately. “Remember, you’re not coming.”
There’s a pause. “I… know?”
“Great. Just wanted to make sure we were crystal clear on that.”
“We’ve been clear on that since you kicked me under the table last night. I have a bruise.”
“Good. Perfect. Excellent.” Hoseok moves another cushion half an inch to the left. “So you should probably say something in the group chat. Make it official.”
“The group chat that you insisted we create even though we could have just texted her individually?”
“The group chat that establishes professional boundaries and appropriate research protocols, yes.”
“Hoseok.”
“Namjoon.”
“You’re using her thesis as an excuse to have dinner with her.”
“I’m facilitating important academic research.”
“You’re wearing a suit right now, aren’t you.”
Hoseok looks down at his perfectly tailored charcoal grey Tom Ford.
“That’s completely irrelevant to this conversation.”
“You are. Oh my god, you’re absolutely wearing a suit.”
“Some of us like to maintain professional standards—”
“Some of us are trying way too hard—”
“Just send the message, Namjoon. Tell her you can’t make it.”
“Okay, okay. What should I say?”
“I don’t know, something believable. Something that sounds like an actual emergency.”
“Like what?”
“Like—like—” Hoseok’s brain scrambles. “Like you have a government meeting! Or a training session! Or a debriefing! Literally anything that sounds official and Captain Korea-ish.”
“It’s six PM. What government meetings happen at six PM?”
“The important kind! The classified kind! The ‘symbol of national security’ kind!”
“Fine, fine. How about… ‘Hey, something came up. Won’t be able to make it tonight. Sorry!’”
Hoseok nearly drops his phone. “No. Absolutely not. That sounds like you’re blowing her off!”
“What? It’s casual and apologetic—”
“It’s lazy and suspicious! She’s going to think we’re not taking her research seriously!”
“Then what do you want me to say?”
“Something with more gravitas! More—more heroic responsibility! Like ‘Apologies, duty calls’ or ‘Unfortunately, Captain Korea is needed elsewhere’ or—”
“That sounds pretentious.”
“You’re literally a walking symbol of national pride, Namjoon, don’t talk to me about pretentious.”
“Okay, how about—” There’s a pause where Hoseok can hear typing. “What about this: ‘Really sorry, but Captain Korea duties are calling. You and Iron Man should still proceed with the research session!’”
“Yes! Perfect! Send that!”
“Sending now—”
“Wait, not the—”
His phone buzzes with a notification. Hoseok pulls up the group chat with a sense of impending doom.
“NOT LIKE THAT!” Hoseok nearly shouts into the phone. “Oh my god, are you—you’re a complete dimwit! I literally just told you not to send that exact message!”
“You told me to send it!”
“I told you to send the SECOND version! The one with gravitas! The heroic responsibility one!”
“You said ‘send that’ and I sent!”
“Context, Namjoon! Context matters! We literally just discussed why that first message was terrible!”
“Well maybe if you’d been more clear—”
“I WAS clear! Incredibly clear! A child could have understood—”
“You know what, I’m trying to help you with your weird elaborate dinner date scheme, so maybe don’t yell at me about message clarity—”
“It’s not a dinner date, it’s RESEARCH—”
“In a SUIT—”
“—and now she’s going to think we’re not taking her seriously because you sent ‘something came up’ like you’re ditching study group!”
“I am literally ditching study group! That’s the entire point!”
“The point is to make it seem like you WANT to be there but CAN’T because of IMPORTANT HERO THINGS, not that you just forgot about a dentist appointment or whatever ‘something came up’ implies!”
There’s a long suffering sigh from Namjoon’s end.
“You’re so lucky you’re my friend.”
“Best friend,” Hoseok corrects, still glaring at the chat. “I’m your best friend. Which means you’re supposed to be better at this.”
“Better at what? Lying to nice graduate students so you can have romantic dinners under the guise of academic research?”
“Yes! Exactly that! That’s exactly what best friends are for!”
“I think you need to reevaluate your friendship expectations.”
“I think you need to reevaluate your texting skills.”
Namjoon laughs, the bastard. “Look, it’s fine. Just—fix it. Do your smooth Iron Man thing and make it work.”
“My smooth Iron Man thing.”
“Yeah, you know. The charisma. The confidence. The thing you do where you make everyone think you’ve got everything under control even when you’re clearly panicking.”
“I’m not panicking.”
“You’ve rearranged the cushions, haven’t you.”
Hoseok looks at the cushion in his hand. “…No.”
“Liar. Look, just—be yourself. She already likes you.”
“She likes IRON MAN. Not Jung Hoseok.”
“Pretty sure she likes the guy who listens to her thesis ideas and remembers her coffee theories and came up with a nickname based on her work uniform. That’s Jung Hoseok, not Iron Man.”
Hoseok is quiet for a moment, staring at his reflection in the window.
“When did you become the emotionally intelligent one?”
“Someone has to balance out your disaster energy. Now stop arguing with me and go be charming.”
“I’m always charming.”
“Sure you are, buddy. Good luck. Try not to make a complete fool of yourself.”
“No promises.”
Namjoon laughs again and hangs up.
Hoseok looks back at the chat. Sure enough, the dots are appearing.
𝐆𝐞𝐮𝐦𝐬𝐚: 𝙾𝚑 𝚗𝚘! 𝙸𝚜 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚔𝚊𝚢?
He watches as Namjoon types, probably trying to salvage his terrible first message.
Hoseok sets his phone down and looks around the penthouse one more time.
The cushions are arranged. The food is ordered. The suit is… well, the suit is staying on because changing now would just be admitting that Namjoon was right, and that’s not happening.
His reflection in the window shows a man who is definitely, absolutely, completely not nervous about spending the evening alone with the cute barista who makes perfect coffee and has the most brilliant mind he’s encountered in years and looks at him like Jung Hoseok is interesting instead of just Iron Man being famous.
“FRIDAY, dim the lights a bit. Not too much—we need proper visibility for research purposes—but maybe like, fifteen percent?”
“Mood lighting for academic purposes, boss?”
“I will reprogram you.”
“You always say that.”
“And one day I’ll actually do it.”
“Sure you will. Dimming lights by fifteen percent.”
The penthouse takes on a softer glow, and okay, yeah, it does look better. More comfortable. Less ‘sterile tech CEO office’ and more ‘welcoming research space.’
Totally professional. Completely academic.
“FRIDAY?”
“Yes, boss?”
“If at any point tonight I start to make a complete fool of myself, feel free to create a distraction.”
“Boss, with all due respect, I’ve been doing that since I was installed.”
“…Fair point.”
Hoseok tugs at his collar again, straightens his tie, and tries to remember how to act like a normal human being around someone he definitely isn’t developing feelings for.
This is fine. This is going to be fine.
It’s just research.
In a Tom Ford suit.
With mood lighting.
And enough food to feed the entire nation.
“I’m an idiot,” he mutters.
“Just now figuring that out, boss?”
“FRIDAY.”
“Yes, boss?”
“Play something. Background music. Something that says ‘professional research environment’ but also ‘I have excellent taste and am very sophisticated.’”
“Ah yes, the ‘definitely not a date’ playlist you’ve been curating.”
“I—” Hoseok stops. “Okay, first of all, that’s not what it’s called.”
“You’re absolutely right. It’s labeled ‘Background Music For Research Sessions (Professional).’”
“…Just play it.”
“Excellent choice, boss.”
Soft music fills the penthouse—carefully selected tracks that are interesting enough to appreciate but not intrusive enough to distract from conversation.
Jazz, mostly. Some acoustic. Nothing too romantic, but nothing too impersonal either.
Because it’s for research.
Obviously.
Hoseok moves a cushion one more time, then forces himself to step away from the sofa before he starts a fourth round of rearranging.
He can do this.
He’s faced down alien threats and interdimensional monsters and hostile board meetings with shareholders who wanted to weaponize his technology.
He can handle one evening with a graduate student who happens to be brilliant and beautiful and completely unaware that he’s been half in love with her since she first explained the sociological implications of superhero merchandising while making his coffee.
The cushions are perfect.
The lighting is perfect.
The music is perfect.
Now he just has to not completely screw this up.
Hoseok straightens his tie one more time and tries to remember how to breathe like a normal person.
This is fine.
Everything is fine.
It’s just research.
The doorbell chimes—because of course his penthouse has a doorbell chime that sounds like it belongs in a five-star hotel—and Hoseok’s heart does this stupid stuttering thing that would probably concern a cardiologist.
“Show time, boss,” FRIDAY says helpfully.
“Not helping.”
“Wasn’t trying to.”
He makes his way to the private elevator entrance, trying to remember how to walk like a normal person instead of someone whose knees have suddenly forgotten their primary function. Through the security camera feed on the wall panel, he can see you standing in the lobby, looking around with wide eyes and clutching your laptop bag like it’s a shield.
You’re wearing jeans and an oversized sweater that somehow makes you look softer than your coffee shop uniform does, and your hair is still tied back with that golden thread that inspired the nickname he definitely doesn’t think about too much.
Hoseok presses the button of the elevator and waits.
The secondary elevator—the one that goes to all floors—opens immediately, and he steps inside, pressing the button for the floor just below the penthouse.
It descends smoothly, numbers ticking down on the display.
Hoseok checks his reflection in the polished metal doors, smooths down his tie, and tries to arrange his face into something that looks welcoming and professional and definitely not like someone who spent forty-five minutes rearranging cushions.
The elevator slows.
Stops.
The doors open.
And there you are, in the lobby, eyes widening in surprise as you see him.
“Oh! Hi!” You wave, which is adorable because you’re literally ten feet away. “I was just—I’m coming up! The elevator is—it’s very nice! Very smooth! I was waiting—”
“Geumsa,” he says, and wow, okay, his voice actually sounds normal. Points for him. “Hey. I thought I’d come meet you.”
“Oh, you didn’t have to—I mean, I have the floor number, and the elevator is pretty straightforward, there’s really only one button—”
“Ride up with me,” he says, because apparently his mouth has decided to just go for it.
You step into the elevator.
Hoseok presses the button for the penthouse.
The elevator starts moving.
And that’s when the lights flicker.
“Oh,” you say. “That’s—is that normal?”
“Totally normal,” Hoseok lies, at the exact same moment FRIDAY says in his nearly-invisible earpiece: “Boss, we have a problem.”
The elevator lurches.
You stumble forward with a small yelp, and Hoseok’s hands automatically reach out to steady you, catching your shoulders before you can fall.
You’re close now—close enough that he can smell whatever shampoo you use, something light and clean that makes him think of those fancy organic stores—and your hands have landed on his chest, right over his arc reactor.
The elevator grinds to a complete stop.
The lights flicker again and then settle into emergency lighting, dimmer and somehow more intimate than the regular fluorescents.
“Okay,” you say, voice slightly higher than normal. “That seems less normal.”
“FRIDAY?” Hoseok says, trying to keep his voice level despite the fact that you’re still touching his chest and he’s still holding your shoulders and this is either the best or worst timing in the history of technology malfunctions.
“Minor power fluctuation in the building’s eastern grid,” FRIDAY responds in his ear. “Backup generators are compensating but the elevator system has automatically locked down as a safety precaution. Estimate fifteen to twenty minutes for a full system reboot.”
Fifteen to twenty minutes.
In an elevator.
With you.
In a suit that’s suddenly feeling very warm.
“So,” Hoseok says, because someone should probably say something. “This is not ideal.”
You let out a slightly hysterical laugh and step back, which should make him feel better but actually makes him miss the warmth of your hands on his chest, which is ridiculous because it’s been approximately five seconds.
“Oh my god, I’m so sorry,” you’re saying, words tumbling out in that way they do when you’re nervous. “I don’t know why I’m apologizing, it’s not like I broke the elevator, unless I did? Can a person break an elevator by stepping into it? I mean, I know I’m carrying my laptop and I had a big lunch but I don’t think I’m over the weight limit—”
“You didn’t break the elevator,” Hoseok says, and he can’t help smiling because you’re genuinely worried about whether your laptop and lunch broke his multi-million won elevator system.
“Are you sure? Because I have a lot of research files on this laptop, and I guess technically data has weight, although it’s like, negligible, we’re talking electrons and—” You stop yourself. “Sorry. I’m rambling. I ramble when I’m nervous.”
“I’ve noticed.” He leans back against the elevator wall, trying to project calm despite the fact that his heart is doing gymnastics. “It’s actually kind of cute.”
Your eyes go wide. “Cute?”
Oh shit. Did he say that out loud?
“I mean—informative. It’s informative. For research purposes. The way people communicate under stress is very relevant to your thesis about superhero psychology.”
Smooth. Very smooth. Namjoon would be so proud.
(Namjoon would absolutely not be proud. Namjoon would be laughing his ass off.)
“Right,” you say, and you’re blushing now, which makes the elevator feel about fifteen degrees warmer. “Research. Yes. Although technically I’m supposed to be studying your communication patterns, not the other way around.”
“Very scientific,” you echo, and then you laugh again, a little less hysterical this time. “Okay. Okay, we’re stuck in an elevator. This is fine. This is totally fine. How long do you think—?”
“FRIDAY says fifteen to twenty minutes.”
“FRIDAY?”
“My AI,” Hoseok explains. “She runs the building systems. And also judges my life choices.”
“I do not judge, boss. I simply observe and comment.”
You look around the elevator like you’re expecting to see speakers. “Is she—can she hear us right now?”
“Unfortunately,” Hoseok mutters.
“That’s amazing! I didn’t know you had a fully integrated AI system—I mean, obviously you do, you’re Iron Man, but I thought that was mostly for the suit? Having it run your residential building is actually brilliant from a security standpoint, and the processing power required for that kind of real-time monitoring must be—” You stop again, pressing a hand to your face. “I’m doing it again. The rambling thing.”
“Don’t stop on my account,” Hoseok says, and he means it. He could listen to you ramble about processing power and security systems for hours. “It’s interesting.”
“It’s nerdy.”
“I’m literally a tech CEO who builds flying suits of armor. I think I’ve cornered the market on nerdy.”
That gets a real smile out of you, and Hoseok feels a little surge of victory.
Then you shift your laptop bag on your shoulder, and the movement draws his attention to the fact that the elevator is definitely getting warmer.
The emergency lighting isn’t helping—it’s making everything feel closer, more intimate, like the space has somehow shrunk.
You seem to notice it too, because you tug at the collar of your sweater.
“Is it just me, or is it getting hot in here?”
“Not just you,” Hoseok says, loosening his tie slightly. “Emergency power means reduced climate control.”
“Right. Of course. That makes sense.” You set your laptop bag down on the floor and fan yourself with your hand. “I’m glad I didn’t wear layers. Well, more layers. This sweater is already—” You pull at the fabric. “Do you mind if I—?”
“Go ahead,” Hoseok says, trying very hard not to think about the fact that you’re about to remove clothing in an enclosed space with him.
You pull off the oversized sweater, revealing a simple tank top underneath, and Hoseok suddenly needs to focus very intently on the elevator’s control panel.
The tank top is white. Basic. Completely innocent.
It’s also showing off your collarbones and the curve of your shoulders and the golden thread is still in your hair, catching the emergency lighting like it’s specifically designed to draw his attention.
He is in so much trouble.
“That’s better,” you say, fanning yourself again. “Sorry, I run warm when I’m nervous. Which is unfortunate because I’m nervous a lot, so I’m basically always temperature-regulating poorly, which my friends say is probably stress-related but I think it’s just—” You stop, bite your lip. “I’m rambling again.”
“I told you, I don’t mind.”
“You’re just being nice because we’re trapped in an elevator and you have to be polite.”
“I’m really not that polite,” Hoseok says, shrugging off his suit jacket because the elevator genuinely is getting warm and also because he needs something to do with his hands that isn’t reaching for you. “Ask anyone. Politeness is not my defining characteristic.”
“What is your defining characteristic?” you ask, and then immediately look like you regret the question. “Sorry, that’s—you don’t have to answer that. That’s too personal for someone you barely know.”
“You don’t barely know me,” Hoseok says, hanging his jacket on the elevator railing. “You’ve been making my coffee for three months. You know I take an extra shot on Mondays and switch to decaf after six because I get ‘too bouncy.’”
You laugh, covering your face with your hands. “I can’t believe you remember me saying that.”
“I remember everything you say.”
The words come out more intense than he intended, and suddenly the elevator feels even smaller.
You lower your hands slowly, looking at him with those expressive eyes that always give away exactly what you’re thinking.
Right now, they’re saying you’re surprised. Flustered.
And maybe—maybe—something else.
“I should—” you start, then seem to forget what you were going to say. “It’s really warm in here.”
“Yeah,” Hoseok says, because his brain has apparently decided to take a vacation and leave his mouth to fend for itself. “It really is.”
You’re both just standing there now, in the dim emergency lighting, and Hoseok notices every detail about you.
Like the way you’re breathing slightly faster than normal, or the flush on your cheeks that might be from the heat or might be from something else, or the way your fingers are playing with the strap of your tank top.
“So,” you say, voice slightly breathless. “Fifteen minutes.”
“Give or take.”
“That’s not very long.”
“Feels long,” Hoseok says, and okay, he needs to get his brain back online because this is getting dangerous.
You bite your lip again—seriously, you need to stop doing that—and look away. “I should probably use this time productively. For research. I could—I have questions prepared. On my laptop. I could pull them up and we could start going through them?”
It’s a good idea. A sensible idea. The kind of idea that would definitely help him remember that this is supposed to be professional and not at all like a romantic comedy setup where two people get trapped in an elevator and—
“Or,” Hoseok hears himself say, “we could just talk.”
You look back at him. “Talk?”
“Yeah. Just… talk. No research. No questions. Just two people stuck in an elevator, talking.”
“About what?”
“Anything.” He slides down the wall until he’s sitting on the floor, legs stretched out in front of him. “Everything. Whatever you want.”
You hesitate for a moment, then slowly sink down to sit across from him, your back against the opposite wall. Your legs are crossed, and there’s maybe three feet of space between you, which feels simultaneously too much and not nearly enough.
“Okay,” you say softly. “Let’s talk.”
And even though the elevator is too warm and you’re both stuck and this was definitely not part of his plan, Hoseok can’t help but think that maybe, just maybe, this is exactly where he wants to be.
“So,” you say, fiddling with the hem of your tank top. “No research questions. Just… talking.”
“Just talking.”
“About anything.”
“Anything,” Hoseok confirms.
You’re quiet for a moment, and he can practically see you cycling through conversational options in your head.
Finally, you land on: “Why did you really come to the coffee shop that first time?”
Hoseok blinks.
Of all the questions he expected, that wasn’t one of them.
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, you’re Iron Man. Jung Hoseok. You probably have coffee machines that make better coffee than I could ever make. You could have coffee delivered. You could have a personal barista. But you came to August Coffee.” You tilt your head, curious. “Why?”
He should probably lie.
Say something smooth about supporting local businesses or needing a change of scenery.
But something about the way you’re looking at him—genuinely interested, no judgment—makes him want to tell the truth.
“I was avoiding a board meeting,” he admits. “Walked into the first place I saw that looked quiet. And then you asked me what I needed.”
“I’m pretty sure I asked what you wanted to order.”
“No.” Hoseok shakes his head. “You said ‘what do you need?’ Not want. Need. And I don’t know, it just—it felt different.”
You’re blushing now, which makes the elevator feel even warmer. “I always ask that. It’s just my thing. I think it sounds more personal than ‘what can I get you.’”
“It does,” Hoseok says. “That’s why I kept coming back.”
“For the personal service?”
“For you.”
The words flutter between you in the dim emergency lighting.
Your eyes go wide, and Hoseok thinks maybe he should backtrack, make it less intense, but then you’re smiling—soft and wondering and real.
“Oh,” you say quietly.
“Yeah,” Hoseok says. “Oh.”
“I thought—” You stop, start again. “I thought you just really liked coffee.”
“I do really like coffee. But I like the person making it more.”
You press your hands to your cheeks like you can physically push away the blush.
“You can’t just say things like that.”
“Why not?”
“Because it makes my brain stop working! I had a whole plan for tonight—questions prepared, research objectives, professional boundaries—and now we’re sitting on an elevator floor and you’re saying things that make me forget how to form coherent sentences.”
Hoseok grins. “You’re forming sentences just fine.”
“I’m rambling. That’s different. Rambling is what happens when my brain panics and just starts throwing words out hoping some of them make sense.”
“They make sense,” he says. “They always make sense to me.”
You groan and let your head fall back against the wall. “This is not how tonight was supposed to go.”
“How was it supposed to go?”
“Professional! Educational! I was going to ask you intelligent questions about tactical decision-making and leadership philosophy and maybe, if I was brave enough, mention that I think your approach to humanitarian technology is really inspiring.” You lift your head to look at him. “I was not supposed to end up trapped in an elevator having a conversation that feels like—like—”
“Like what?”
“Like it matters,” you finish quietly. “Like it’s more than just research.”
Hoseok’s heart does that stupid stuttering thing again. “What if it is?”
“More than research?”
“Yeah.”
You’re staring at him now, and he can see the exact moment you process what he’s saying.
“But you’re—you’re Iron Man. You save people and build incredible technology and have press conferences and attend galas with people who are important and sophisticated and—”
“Boring,” Hoseok interrupts. “You forgot boring.”
“I was going to say accomplished.”
“Same thing. Trust me, those galas are terrible. Everyone talks about market shares and portfolio diversification and I spend the whole time wishing I was somewhere else.”
“Where?”
“Lately? A coffee shop in Sinchon where a brilliant graduate student explains superhero psychology while making perfect americanos.”
You look like you’re trying very hard not to smile. “That’s a very specific location.”
“I’m a very specific person.”
“You’re ridiculous.”
“I’m honest,” Hoseok corrects. “FRIDAY, back me up here. Tell her I’ve been talking about her for—”
Silence.
He waits for FRIDAY’s inevitable sarcastic response, but nothing comes through his earpiece.
“FRIDAY?”
Still nothing.
“That’s weird,” he mutters, tapping his ear. “She never just stops responding.”
“Maybe the power outage affected her?”
“No, she runs on independent servers. Building power shouldn’t—” He stops. “Unless she shut herself down.”
“Can she do that?”
“Technically no. But FRIDAY is…” Hoseok trails off, remembering. “She’s just like the person she was named after. Same attitude. Does whatever she wants when she wants to.”
You lean forward slightly, interested. “Really?”
“My sister,” Hoseok says, and wow, he hasn’t talked about this in a while. “Not my actual sister—I don’t have biological siblings—but my best friend growing up. She lived next door, and we did everything together. She was brilliant. Funny. Always called me out on my bullshit.”
“Was?”
“She died,” Hoseok says simply. “Car accident when we were sixteen. Drunk driver.”
Your hand moves like you want to reach for him, then stops. “I’m so sorry.”
“It’s been years. But when I was developing the AI system, I wanted to name it after someone who would keep me grounded. Someone who wouldn’t let me get away with being stupid or reckless or too caught up in my own head.” He smiles, though it aches a little. “She used to say Fridays were the best day because they meant possibilities.”
“That’s beautiful,” you say softly.
“Yeah.” Hoseok clears his throat. “Anyway. The AI—FRIDAY—she’s incredibly smart, she knows when to back off. When to give me space. She probably realized we needed privacy.”
“For what?”
“I don’t know, this,” Hoseok says. “I guess.”
You’re looking at him with so much emotion in your eyes that it makes his chest tight. “You named your AI after your best friend who died.”
“Yeah.”
“And you just told me about it. Even though we’re basically strangers.”
“We’re not strangers,” Hoseok says. “We’ve known each other for a few months. That’s not nothing.”
“It’s not everything either.”
“Then let it be something,” Hoseok says. “Let tonight be something.”
The elevator is so quiet he can hear both of you breathing.
You’re still looking at him, and there’s something building in the space between you—something electric and terrifying and inevitable.
“Hoseok,” you whisper.
“Yeah?”
“I think I’m going to do something really stupid.”
“Yeah?”
“Yeah.”
And then you’re moving, crossing those three feet of space faster than he can process, and your hands are cupping his face and your lips are on his.
For a split second, Hoseok’s brain completely flatlines.
Then it comes roaring back online with the singular thought: oh thank god.
He kisses you back, one hand coming up to tangle in your hair—careful of that golden thread he’s been thinking about for months—while the other settles on your waist. You make this small sound against his mouth, surprised and pleased, and it sends electricity straight down his spine.
You taste like the mint chapstick you must have applied in the car, and you kiss like you do everything else—enthusiastically, a little unsure, but completely genuine. Your hands slide from his face to his shoulders, gripping his shirt like you need the support.
When you shift closer, your hand lands on his thigh—high on his thigh—and Hoseok makes a sound that is absolutely not professional or research-appropriate.
“Sorry,” you gasp, breaking the kiss. “Is that—should I—”
“Don’t you dare move,” Hoseok says, and his voice comes out rougher than intended.
He slides his hands to your hips, tugging gently.
“Come here.”
“Where?”
“Here,” he says, guiding you forward until you’re straddling his lap, your knees on either side of his thighs.
You let out a soft “oh” as you settle your weight on him, and Hoseok has to close his eyes for a second because this is—this is—
“Is this okay?” you ask, breathless.
“This is so far beyond okay,” Hoseok says. “This is—I’ve been wanting to do this for weeks.”
Your eyes go wide. “Weeks?”
“Months,” he corrects, sliding his hands up your sides, watching your face as you process that. “I’ve been thinking about kissing you for months.”
“Months,” you repeat, and you’re blushing so hard he can feel the heat radiating off your cheeks. “But you never—you didn’t say anything—”
“I’m saying something now.”
He pulls you down into another kiss, deeper this time, and you melt into him with a sigh that he wants to bottle and keep forever.
Your fingers thread into his hair, and when you tug slightly, he groans into your mouth.
“That’s,” you gasp between kisses, “that’s a nice sound.”
“You’re going to hear a lot more of them,” Hoseok promises, and kisses you again before you can overthink whatever that means.
You shift in his lap, and the movement makes both of you inhale sharply.
The elevator suddenly feels about a thousand degrees hotter, and it has nothing to do with the climate control.
“Hoseok,” you breathe against his lips.
“Yeah?”
“This is—we’re—”
“I know.”
“In an elevator.”
“I’m aware.”
“We should probably—”
“Probably,” he agrees, but neither of you moves to stop.
Your hands slide down from his hair to his chest, fingers finding the buttons of his shirt, and Hoseok thinks distantly that this is absolutely not how he planned tonight to go.
It’s better.
So much better.
You work at his shirt buttons, clumsy and eager, and Hoseok is pretty sure he’s never been more attracted to anyone in his entire life.
“Can I—” you start, and he doesn’t let you finish.
“Yes,” he says against your mouth. “Whatever you’re asking, yes.”
You laugh, breathless and a little nervous, and pull back just enough to actually see what you’re doing with his buttons.
Your hands are shaking slightly, which shouldn’t be as endearing as it is, but Hoseok finds himself wanting to kiss every one of your trembling fingers.
Instead, he slides his hands up your sides again, thumbs brushing the underside of your breasts through your tank top, and watches your breath catch.
“Can I?” he asks, echoing your question.
You nod, biting that bottom lip again, and Hoseok is definitely going to have fantasies about that lip for the rest of his life.
He finds the hem of your tank top and pulls it up slowly, giving you every chance to change your mind.
You lift your arms to help him, and then the fabric is gone and you’re sitting in his lap in just your bra—simple, white, completely devastating—and Hoseok has to take a moment to just breathe.
“You’re staring,” you whisper.
“I’m appreciating,” he corrects, running his hands up your sides again, watching goosebumps rise in the wake of his touch. “There’s a difference.”
“What’s the difference?”
“Staring is passive,” Hoseok says, leaning forward to press a kiss to your collarbone. “Appreciating is active.”
He kisses across to your other collarbone, feeling your pulse jump under his lips. Your skin is so soft here, and warm, and when he uses his teeth just slightly, you make this sound—small and surprised and absolutely perfect.
One of your hands comes up near your mouth, like you’re trying to muffle the sound, while the other grips his shoulder hard enough that he can feel your nails through his shirt.
“Don’t,” Hoseok says, pulling back to look at you. “Don’t hide those sounds.”
“They’re embarrassing,” you protest, but your voice is already wrecked.
“They’re perfect.” He kisses you again, deep and thorough, until you’re making those sounds into his mouth instead. “You’re perfect.”
“I’m really not—”
“Shut up and let me appreciate you,” he murmurs against your lips, and you laugh, which turns into a gasp when his hands find the clasp of your bra.
“This okay?” he asks, fingers poised.
“Yes,” you breathe. “Yes, god, yes—”
The clasp gives way easily, and Hoseok pulls the straps down your arms, watching your face the entire time.
You’re blushing so hard it’s spread down your neck to your chest, and your eyes are wide and dark and full of want that makes his cock throb almost painfully against his zipper.
The bra falls away, and Hoseok has to close his eyes for a second because he’s nineteen again and seeing his first pair of breasts, except he’s not nineteen, he’s an adult man who should have some semblance of control.
“Hoseok?” you say, uncertain.
He opens his eyes. “I’m going to die.”
“What? Why?”
“Because you’re—” He gestures helplessly at you, at all of you, perfect and half-naked in his lap. “Look at you.”
You try to cover yourself, but he catches your wrists gently.
“Don’t,” he says. “Please don’t. I want to see you. I want—can I—”
“Yes,” you say again, and it’s becoming his favorite word in any language.
He leans forward and presses a kiss to the center of your chest, right over your sternum, and feels your heart racing under his lips.
Then he kisses lower, to the swell of your breast, and you make that sound again—the one he wants to record and play back when he’s alone.
When he takes your nipple into his mouth, your whole body jolts.
“Oh,” you gasp, and your hand flies to his hair, gripping tight. “Oh my god—”
Hoseok hums in agreement, using his tongue in slow circles while his hand comes up to cup your other breast, thumb brushing over your nipple until it’s hard against his palm.
You’re squirming in his lap now, and every movement sends sparks of pleasure-pain through his cock.
He’s so hard it’s actually uncomfortable, trapped in his pants, and when you shift again—grinding down just slightly—he has to pull back with a gasp.
“Fuck,” he breathes against your skin.
“Is that—should I not—”
“No, you should definitely—” He switches to your other breast, giving it the same attention, and you reward him with another one of those perfect sounds. “You should keep doing exactly what you’re doing.”
His hand works your breast while his mouth focuses on the other, gentle kisses and rougher attention that makes you whimper.
Your nails are definitely leaving marks on his shoulder now, and he fucking loves it—the idea that he’ll have proof of this tomorrow, evidence that this actually happened.
“Hoseok,” you gasp, and his name sounds delicious on your mouth. “That feels—I can’t—”
“What?” He pulls back to look at you, lips wet. “What can’t you do?”
“Think,” you manage. “I can’t think when you—when you do that—”
“Good,” he says, and takes your nipple between his teeth gently, just enough pressure to make you cry out.
Your hips rock forward, and the pressure against his cock is so intense that Hoseok has to freeze.
Actually freeze.
Every muscle locked, not breathing, because if you move even one more time he’s going to come in his pants and that is absolutely not how this is going to go.
“Hoseok?” Your voice is concerned now. “Are you okay?”
He presses his forehead to your sternum, right between your breasts, and tries to remember how to form words.
“I need,” he starts, then has to stop and breathe. “I need a second.”
“Did I do something wrong?”
“No.” He laughs, slightly hysterical. “No, you did everything right. That’s the problem.”
“I don’t understand—”
“I’m about to come,” he says bluntly, because there’s no point in pretending otherwise. “In my pants. Like a sixteen-year-old who’s never been touched. If you move one more time, I’m done.”
There’s a beat of silence.
Then you laugh—surprised and delighted and maybe a little bit smug—and Hoseok can feel it vibrating through your chest against his forehead.
“That’s not funny,” he mutters.
“It’s a little funny.”
“It’s embarrassing.”
“It’s hot,” you correct, and your fingers card through his hair gently. “You’re that turned on?”
“I’ve been thinking about this for months,” Hoseok reminds you, still not lifting his head because he needs at least thirty more seconds before he can look at your naked breasts again. “Months of imagining what you’d sound like, what you’d taste like, how you’d feel. And now you’re here and you’re perfect and making these sounds and I’m—I’m—”
“Overwhelmed?”
“Completely fucking gone,” he finishes.
Your fingers keep moving through his hair, soothing, and gradually Hoseok’s heartbeat starts to slow to something approaching normal.
His cock is still hard enough to cut diamond, but at least he’s not on the immediate edge anymore.
“Okay,” he says finally, lifting his head to look at you. “Okay, I’m—”
Whatever he was going to say dies in his throat because you’re looking at him with so much want that it steals his breath.
Your lips are swollen from kissing, your chest is flushed, your nipples are still hard from his attention, and you’re sitting in his lap like you were made to be there.
“We should probably stop,” you say, but you don’t sound like you mean it.
“Probably,” Hoseok agrees, running his hands up your sides again because he literally cannot help himself.
“The elevator could start working again any second.”
“Any second,” he echoes, thumbs brushing the underside of your breasts.
“Someone could see—”
“There are cameras,” Hoseok admits. “But FRIDAY has them on a loop.”
Your eyes widen. “She does?”
“She’s very thoughtful like that.”
“So no one can see us?”
“No one can see us.”
You bite your lip, considering. “How much time do you think we have?”
Hoseok grins. “How much time do you need?”
Your hands move to his belt. “However much we have.”
He chokes with his own spit for approximately three seconds before he speaks again.
“Wait,” he manages, catching your hands even though it physically pains him. “Are you sure? We don’t have to—”
“I want to,” you say, and the certainty in your voice makes his cock throb so hard he actually sees spots. “I want this.”
And okay, Hoseok has imagined this moment approximately eight hundred times in the last three months—at 2 AM when he couldn’t sleep, in the shower when he was supposed to be getting ready for meetings, during actual board meetings when he should have been paying attention to quarterly reports.
He’s imagined kissing you over the coffee counter (sappy and completely against his whole ‘cool tech CEO’ brand, but whatever).
He’s imagined asking you out properly, taking you to dinner somewhere nice where he could actually focus on making you laugh instead of just ordering coffee.
He’s imagined slowly, carefully building up to this moment over weeks or months of actual dating.
He did not imagine fucking you in an elevator twenty minutes after you arrived at his place.
But hey, he’s nothing if not adaptable.
His hands join yours at his belt buckle, and together you manage to get it undone despite the fact that both of you are shaking.
The button of his pants follows, then the zipper, and when your hand brushes against his cock through his boxer briefs—Jesus fucking Christ—Hoseok has to bite back a groan that probably would’ve echoed through the entire elevator shaft.
“You’re really—” you start, eyes wide as you palm him through the fabric.
“Really hard? Yeah. That’s what months of wanting someone does to a person.” He’s trying for casual but his voice comes out strained. “Turns out sexual frustration is a very real thing and I’ve been living it.”
You flush beautifully, and Hoseok files away that particular shade for later contemplation.
Much later.
When he’s not about to die from wanting you.
“Condom,” he forces out, even though the word tastes like ashes. “I should have—probably in my wallet—”
“I’m on birth control,” you say suddenly, and Hoseok’s brain whites out for a full five seconds. “And I haven’t been with anyone in over a year, actually, which is probably too much information but I just wanted you to know that we don’t need—I mean, if you’re comfortable with—”
“No it’s—I’m comfortable, to be honest and I haven’t—” He’s definitely talking too fast now. “And it’s been—fuck, it’s been since before I started coming to your coffee shop. Turns out when you’re spending all your mental energy thinking about one person, everyone else kind of becomes irrelevant.”
You make this small sound—surprised and pleased—and Hoseok wants to bottle it.
“I’ve been thinking about you,” he continues, because apparently he’s just going to confess everything now. “About this. About touching you. Not even—I mean yes, this, obviously this, but also just—holding your hand. Kissing you in broad daylight like I have the right to. Taking you to dinner and not having it be weird that I’m asking too many questions about your thesis because I genuinely want to know every thought in your brilliant head.”
“Hoseok,” you breathe.
“I know. It’s sappy. It’s completely against my whole brand. Tony Stark would be embarrassed for me.”
“Who?”
“Never mind. Can I please be inside you now before I say something even more embarrassing?”
You laugh—bright and genuine—and pull back, your hands going to your jeans.
Hoseok helps you, both of you working the denim down your hips in the awkward confines of the elevator. You’re wearing white cotton underwear—simple, normal, and somehow the hottest thing he’s ever seen.
His boxer briefs go next, shoved down just enough to free his cock, and the relief of not being constrained anymore makes him groan. He’s so hard it’s actually painful, precum already beading at the tip, and when you look down at him your eyes go wide.
“That’s—you’re—” You seem to lose your words, which Hoseok would find adorable if he wasn’t about to lose his mind.
“Second thoughts?” he manages, even though the idea of stopping now might actually kill him.
“No!” You shake your head quickly. “No, I’m just—processing. You’re very, um. It’s very… substantial?”
Despite everything, Hoseok laughs.
“Substantial. I’m going to remember you called my dick substantial.”
“It’s a compliment!”
“I know.” He runs his hands up your thighs, feeling you shiver. “Come here.”
Together you work your underwear off, and then you’re completely bare, and Hoseok has to close his eyes and count backwards from ten in three different languages because this is happening, this is actually happening, and he needs to not come immediately.
“Is this okay?” you ask, stroking experimentally, and okay, apparently he’s going to die.
This is how Jung Hoseok dies.
Not in battle, not in some heroic sacrifice, but from a handjob in an elevator.
“It’s perfect. You’re perfect. Everything is perfect and if you keep doing that I’m going to cum in about thirty seconds.”
“That’s okay—”
“It’s not okay,” he says firmly, catching your wrist even though it’s the hardest thing he’s ever done. “Not yet. I want—I need to be inside you. Please.”
You nod, and together you position yourself over him.
Hoseok grips your hips as you guide his cock to your entrance, and that first touch—the head of his cock against your slick heat—makes his vision white out for a second.
“Okay,” you breathe, and start to sink down.
Slowly. So fucking slowly.
And Hoseok can feel every single inch—how tight you are, how wet, how your body is adjusting to take him.
His fingers dig into your hips hard enough that he’s definitely leaving bruises, but he can’t make himself let go.
Because if he lets go, he might actually float away or spontaneously combust or some other dramatic thing that his mind can’t quite process because all his blood has traveled south.
“Oh,” you gasp when you’re halfway down. “Oh my god, you’re—that’s—”
“Too much?” Hoseok forces out through gritted teeth. “We can stop. We can—fuck—”
“Don’t you dare stop,” you say, and sink down the rest of the way in one smooth motion.
The sensation of being fully seated inside you—completely surrounded by your heat and tightness, your thighs bracketing his, your hands gripping his shoulders—is so overwhelming that Hoseok actually has to close his eyes and count fucking sheep in his head.
“Hoseok?” Your voice is breathless, concerned. “Are you—”
“Give me a second,” he manages. “You feel—I can’t even describe—I need a second or this is going to be over in about five seconds and that would be really embarrassing.”
Your hands come up to cup his face, and when he opens his eyes, you’re looking at him with so much affection that it makes his chest physically ache.
“I don’t think it would be embarrassing,” you say softly. “I think it’s sweet. That you want me this much.”
“Sweet is not the word I would use.” Hoseok laughs, slightly hysterical.
“I like it,” you whisper, and kiss him.
It’s gentler than your previous kisses—slower, sweeter—and something about the tenderness of it makes Hoseok’s control snap.
“Move,” he breathes against your lips. “Please move. I need you to move.”
You do, rising up experimentally and then sinking back down, and the friction is so intense that Hoseok genuinely thinks he might black out. His hands guide your hips, helping you find a rhythm, and soon you’re riding him with increasing confidence.
And the sounds you’re making—breathy little gasps and whimpers that go straight to his cock—are going to live in his brain forever.
He’s going to be ninety years old and still remember the way you sound when you’re taking his cock, the way your face looks in the dim emergency lighting, the way your nails dig into his shoulders like you need the anchor.
“That’s it,” he breathes, watching your face. “Just like that. You’re so perfect. You feel so fucking good.”
“Hoseok,” you gasp, and your rhythm is getting faster, less coordinated. “I can’t—this is—”
“What?” His hands slide up your sides, thumbs brushing the underside of your breasts. “What is it?”
“So good,” you manage. “You’re so—I’ve never—”
And fuck, if that doesn’t make him feel like a king.
But then you roll your hips just right, grinding down on him, and Hoseok realizes with a jolt of panic that he’s way closer to the edge than he thought.
“Wait,” he gasps, but you do it again. “Fuck, wait—”
“Are you close?” you ask, and there’s something almost curious in your tone.
“I’m—yes—but I want you to—”
You lean down and kiss him, deep and thorough, and that combined with the way you’re clenching around him is too much.
“I’m going to come,” he gasps against your mouth. “I’m sorry, I can’t—”
“Do it,” you breathe. “Come inside me. I want to feel it.”
And that’s it. That’s the end of any control Hoseok thought he had.
His hips jerk up as his orgasm slams into him, and he comes with a groan that’s probably loud enough to wake the entire building.
It feels like it goes on forever—pulse after pulse of pleasure so intense it’s almost painful—and through it all you’re there, still moving, drawing it out until he’s gasping and boneless and completely wrecked.
“I’m sorry,” Hoseok says immediately, because he’s many things but he’s not going to pretend that didn’t just happen. “That was—that was not the plan. That was the opposite of the plan. I wanted to make you feel good and instead I just—”
“That was really hot,” you interrupt.
Hoseok blinks. “What?”
“That was really hot,” you repeat, and you’re smiling now. “You were so turned on that you couldn’t even—I mean, I barely moved and you just—” You bite your lip. “No one’s ever been that attracted to me before.”
“Then everyone else is an idiot,” Hoseok says flatly. “And I’m still sorry because you didn’t come and that’s—that’s not acceptable.”
“It’s okay—”
“It’s not okay,” he says firmly. His cock is starting to soften inside you, and he can feel his cum beginning to leak out around where you’re joined. “But I’m going to fix it.”
“How?”
Hoseok grins. “Get up. I’m going to eat you out until you can’t remember your own name.”
Your eyes go wide. “But you just—I mean, you came inside me—”
“I’m aware.”
“That’s—you don’t have to—”
“I want to,” Hoseok says, and he means it with every fiber of his being.
He’s imagined what you’d sound like, what you’d taste like, how you’d look when you fell apart.
He just didn’t imagine he’d be tasting himself too.
But honestly? He doesn’t give a single fuck.
“I want to taste you,” he says, meeting your eyes. “I want to make you feel so good you forget your own name. And then I want to watch your face when you cum, and I’m going to remember it forever. I’m probably going to ask FRIDAY if I can marry a memory.”
You make this sound—half laugh, half gasp—and Hoseok takes that as permission.
He helps you up carefully, and when he slides out of you, he can see his cum starting to drip out.
It’s obscene and perfect and everything he’s been fantasizing about.
“Sit back against the wall,” he says, voice rough. “Spread your legs for me.”
You do, movements shaky, and Hoseok settles between your thighs like he’s been planning this for months.
Which, technically, he has.
“You’re really going to—” you start.
“Yeah,” Hoseok says simply. “I really am.”
He doesn’t wait for a response before leaning forward and dragging his tongue through your folds in one long, slow lick.
He can taste his own cum, can feel it coating his tongue, and instead of being strange it just makes him harder.
Because weirdly enough, there’s something fundamentally right about this—about tasting himself inside you and cleaning up the mess he made; about making you feel good in the aftermath of his complete loss of control.
“Oh my god,” you gasp, hand flying to his hair. “Hoseok—”
He groans against you, the sound vibrating through your core, and sets to work in earnest. More of his cum leaks out as he works, and he licks it up eagerly, using it as additional lubrication as he fucks you with his tongue.
Then he seals his lips around your clit and sucks, and your whole body jolts.
“Fuck,” you gasp, and your grip on his hair tightens almost painfully. “That’s—don’t stop—”
Hoseok has no intention of stopping.
He works you with his tongue, and it’s messy and wet and so fucking hot that he thinks he might be able to go again, despite having just come.
When he slides two fingers inside you—easy with how wet you are, how open from taking his cock—you cry out and your thighs tremble around his head.
“That’s it,” he murmurs against your clit. “Let me hear you.”
He crooks his fingers, searching for that spot he knows is there, and when he finds it your whole body jolts.
“There?” he asks, even though he knows the answer.
“Yes,” you gasp. “Right there, please—”
He fucks you with his fingers while his mouth works your clit, and he can feel more of his cum leaking out around his fingers. He’s essentially fingering his own cum back into you while eating you out, and the thought makes him groan against you.
“Oh god,” you whimper. “That feels—I can’t—”
He looks up at you then, wanting to see your face, and the sight makes his cock throb.
You’re completely wrecked—head thrown back against the wall, chest heaving, one hand in his hair and the other pressed against your mouth like you’re trying to muffle your sounds.
“Look at me,” he says against you, pulling back just enough to meet your eyes. “I want to see your face when you cum.”
Your eyes are already hazy and unfocused, but you manage to look down at him.
Hoseok holds your gaze as he seals his lips around your clit and sucks hard while his fingers press insistently against that spot inside you.
Your mouth opens in a silent scream, your whole body going taut, and Hoseok watches every single second of it.
The way your eyes squeeze shut despite trying to keep them open.
The way your back arches off the wall.
The way your thighs tremble around his head.
It’s the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen, and he’s going to remember it until the day he dies.
He works you through it, fingers and tongue gentling as you come down, and when you finally slump back against the wall—boneless and gasping—he presses soft kisses to your inner thigh.
“Holy shit,” you breathe.
Hoseok grins, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. “That’s what I said earlier.”
“That was—I can’t—my brain stopped working.”
“Good.” He sits back on his heels, admiring his handiwork. “You’re gorgeous like this.”
You make a weak sound that might be embarrassment, covering your face with your hands.
“I can’t believe we just had sex in an elevator.”
“Best elevator malfunction of my life,” Hoseok says, finding your underwear and gently helping you back into it.
“What if someone saw—”
“No one saw. FRIDAY had it handled.”
“FRIDAY is my new favorite person.”
“She’s an AI.”
“My new favorite AI,” you correct, and then start giggling—slightly hysterical, post-orgasm giggles that make Hoseok’s chest feel warm. “Oh my god. This is insane. I came here for research and instead I—we—”
“Had incredible elevator sex?” Hoseok suggests, pulling his own pants back up.
“I’m never going to be able to ride in an elevator again without thinking about this.”
“Good,” Hoseok says, tugging you gently into his lap—careful this time, tender. “I want you thinking about this. About me. About what just happened.”
“Kind of hard not to,” you mutter, but you’re smiling.
“So,” Hoseok says, and his heart is suddenly beating too fast for someone who just had an orgasm. “I know we did this backwards—”
“Very backwards—”
“—but I’ve been wanting to ask you out for months. Properly. Dinner, dating, the whole thing.” He takes a breath. “Would you—I mean, are you interested in—”
“Yes,” you say, before he can finish stumbling through the question. “Yes, I want to go on a date with you. Many dates. All the dates.”
Relief floods through him so intensely that he actually laughs.
“Yeah?”
“Yeah. I mean, you made me come so hard I saw stars. I’d be an idiot not to want to see where this goes.”
“Romance,” Hoseok says dryly. “Thy name is post-orgasm pragmatism.”
You laugh, and the sound fills the elevator with warmth.
That’s when the elevator lurches back to life, lights flickering to full brightness, and starts moving smoothly upward.
“Yes, boss?” Her voice comes through crystal clear now, and Hoseok would swear she sounds smug. “I hope you enjoyed your extended maintenance period.”
“You’re the worst.”
“I believe you mean ‘the best.’ You’re welcome, by the way.”
You’re laughing so hard you’re shaking, and Hoseok can’t help but join in.
The elevator dings its arrival at the penthouse, and the doors slide open to reveal his living room—cushions perfectly arranged, lighting set to that subtle fifteen percent dimmer, soft music still playing in the background.
“So,” you say, looking around. “I guess we should probably do that research now?”
“Or,” Hoseok says, standing and offering you his hand, “we could order that dinner I mentioned. Talk. Get to know each other properly before we do this again.”
“Again?” Your voice is slightly breathless.
“Geumsa,” Hoseok says, pulling you to your feet and into his arms. “I’m going to want to do that again approximately eight hundred more times. But next time, I’m going to do it in a bed like a civilized person. And I’m going to take my time. And I’m going to make you come at least three times before I even think about coming myself.”
You look up at him, eyes wide. “Three times?”
“Minimum,” he confirms. “I have a reputation to rebuild after that embarrassing display.”
“That wasn’t embarrassing—”
“It was a little embarrassing,” Hoseok admits. “But you make me crazy. You’ve been making me crazy for months. So I’m blaming you.”
“How is this my fault?”
“You’re too perfect. Too smart. Too cute when you ramble about superhero theory. Too good at making coffee. It’s very distracting.”
You laugh and kiss him, soft and sweet, and Hoseok thinks that maybe—just maybe—getting stuck in an elevator was the best thing that’s ever happened to him.
“So,” you say against his lips. “Dinner?”
“Dinner,” he agrees. “And then we can do some actual research. If you want.”
“I should probably at least pretend that’s why I’m here.”
“Or,” Hoseok says, “you could admit that you’re here because you like me.”
“I like you,” you say softly, and his heart does that stupid stuttering thing again. “I really, really like you.”
“Good,” Hoseok says, and kisses you again. “Because I really, really like you too.”
And for the for the first time in some time, he feels happy.
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type of work: series | official BTS AU series: the strings theory
pairing: iron-man!hoseok x reader(f)
rating/genre: m (18+) ; romcom, smut, fluff, barista!reader, crushes
summary: “iron man walks into your coffee shop and you immediately recognize him—of course, because he works with captain korea. he’s not particularly thrilled about you asking for his autograph. no, not his his—captain korea’s. hoseok's ego has never been so bruised or so intrigued.”
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status: ongoing
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synopsis — after reading about a book series that mirrored everything you’d loved about a past favourite, you were thrilled to find it in your college library. the copies were old—worn enough to still have checkout cards—but what caught your attention was the same set of initials, G.S., scrawled across nearly every one. the same G.S. who had filled the margins with sharp, thoughtful annotations. you couldn’t stop yourself from thoroughly enjoying the silly little comments written in the margins, leaving your own notes alongside theirs. it wasn’t until much later that you realised G.S. wasn’t some long-gone bookworm. it was none other than the man you had sworn to hate. gojo satoru.
pairing — nerd! satoru x reader
genre — academic rivals to lovers
word count— 32k (oops)
warnings — sexual content (unprotected sex), swearing, mentions of not eating, slight angst.
small playlist i listened to while writing
"You all can come and grab the papers now—do not ask me for any re-evaluations, the mark presented on the paper is your final mark—"
You barely listen. The professor could be reading a grocery list for all you care. Your focus is already on the stack of midterms in his hands, your heart pounding like a drum against your ribs.
The exam had been brutal—200 marks, covering classical mechanics and electromagnetism, some of the toughest material in your Physics II course. Past students had called it a horror show, a midterm designed to crush dreams and expose weaknesses. It was weighted heavily in your final grade, which meant every single mark mattered. The room is filled with a tense hum, a mixture of eager whispers and anxious murmurs. Some students hesitate in their seats, mentally preparing themselves before facing their doom. But you? You don't wait. You weave through the aisles, manoeuvring past people, determined to be one of the first to grab your paper.
And, of course, Gojo is right behind you.
"Jeez, you could at least pretend to be patient," he muses, his tone dripping with amusement as he strolls lazily down the steps, hands shoved in the pockets of his hoodie. You roll your eyes. "Not all of us have the luxury of cruising through exams without trying."
"I do try," he says, flashing you a grin. "I try just enough." Before you can shoot back a response, you reach the professor’s desk. Professor Takeda raises an unimpressed brow as he sorts through the papers.
"You two again," he sighs. "Half my life as a professor has been spent watching you bicker."
"Don't be dramatic, sir," Gojo says smoothly, resting an elbow on the desk. "It's only been three years." Takeda shakes his head, muttering something under his breath about headaches before handing you your paper. You grab it without waiting, fingers slightly shaking as you flip it over.
98.
The relief rushes through you instantly, so strong you can’t help the triumphant burst of excitement. "Ninety-eight!" you blurt out, beaming as you hug the paper to your chest. It’s a damn near perfect score, and after all those sleepless nights, all those hours of grinding through problem sets—you earned this. Gojo, still waiting for his turn, glances at you with an expression you can’t quite place. His usual smirk is still there, but there’s something else—something quieter, almost thoughtful, before he smooths it over with his usual easy confidence.
Takeda hands him his paper. Gojo flips it over, barely reacting as he reads the number at the top.
"Ninety-five." Your grin widens.
"You mean I beat you?" You practically bounce on your heels. "Me? The one you said was ‘too uptight’ and needed to ‘relax and accept second place’? Me?"
Gojo exhales through his nose, shaking his head, as he folds his paper out of your sight. "Don't get too cocky," he drawls, shoving the paper under his arm. "It’s just three points."
"Three points above you."
"For now," he corrects smoothly, nudging your shoulder as he moves past you.
It’s been this way since freshman year. You and Gojo had ended up in the same introductory physics course, and from the very first midterm, it was clear: you were the only two truly competing at the top of the class. But while you poured everything into studying—late nights, flashcards, equations scribbled on napkins—Gojo seemed to barely put in the effort. He’d show up late to lectures, half-asleep in sweatpants, glasses slightly skewed, yet somehow still aced every exam. He never took notes, never stressed, never seemed to break a sweat. It drove you insane. Because no matter how hard you tried, how much effort you put in—he was always right there with you. Sometimes ahead, sometimes just behind, but never far enough to ignore.
And worst of all? He made it look easy. By now, the entire physics department knew about your rivalry. Professors expected you to fight over test scores. Study groups would take bets on who would score higher. Even during practical lab sessions, it was always a silent battle—who could get through the calculations faster, who could figure out the trick questions first. You hated him. And now, after years of this, you finally had something over him. A small, almost imperceptible shift in the universe.
You beat Gojo Satoru. As soon as class ends, you’re practically floating out of the lecture hall, midterm still clutched in your hands. The second you step into the cafeteria, your eyes scan the room for your friend, and when you finally spot her at your usual table, you don’t even bother with a greeting. “I got a ninety-eight,” you announce, sliding into the seat across from her with an undeniably smug grin. “And I beat Gojo.”
Her head snaps up from her laptop. “Wait— Gojo Gojo?”
You roll your eyes. “As opposed to what? Some other Gojo in our department?”
“Oh my God, you actually did it?” she gasps, setting her drink down as she stares at you in something close to awe. “I thought that man was unstoppable.”
“Well, turns out he’s not.” You lean back in your chair, stretching your arms above your head. “Guess he finally met his match.” Your friend is still blinking at you in disbelief when a voice cuts in from behind you, slow and amused.
“One good score, and you think you’re the shit.” You freeze. Then, before you can even turn around, Gojo is already there, stepping up behind you like a shadow that refuses to be ignored. You feel the presence of him—tall, lazy, entirely too smug—before you even lift your head to meet his gaze. He’s leaning in just slightly, close enough to loom, his hands shoved into the pockets of his hoodie. That familiar, insufferable smirk is plastered on his face, condescending and infuriatingly amused.
You huff. “Can’t a girl enjoy her victory in peace?”
He tilts his head, that same damned smirk never wavering. “Victory?” he echoes, voice dripping with mockery. “You’re getting ahead of yourself, aren’t you? One midterm doesn’t erase three years of domination.” You scoff, crossing your arms. “Oh, please. Like you’ve actually dominated me.”
“Oh, you want me to bring out the stats?” Gojo hums, slipping into the seat beside you like he owns the place. He props his elbow on the table, resting his cheek on his palm as he begins, “Physics I final—97 to your 96. Thermodynamics midterm? 95 to your 91. Electromagnetic Fields exam—”
You groan. “Jesus Christ, you memorized all of them?”
“You think I don’t keep track?” He arches a brow, eyes glinting with amusement. “It’s not my fault I have a consistent history of kicking your ass.”
Your friend snorts into her drink. “He kinda has a point—”
You shoot her a glare. Gojo, meanwhile, is clearly having the time of his life. He leans in, that imposing height of his making his presence impossible to ignore, his voice dropping just slightly, almost teasing. “But sure,” he drawls, chin resting in his hand. “Enjoy your one win, (name). I’ll let you have it.”
You grip your cup so tightly the plastic crinkles. “Let me have it?”
“Mmm.” He tilts his head, looking entirely too pleased with himself. “Wouldn’t want you to cry when I obliterate you on the final.” Your friend nudges you under the table, mouthing he’s so full of shit, but you barely register it—because the air between you and Gojo is charged in a way that makes your stomach twist. You won’t admit it out loud, but part of you wonders— is this how he always talks to you?
So close, so taunting, like he enjoys watching you bristle. You hate how natural it feels, how effortless the rhythm of your bickering has become. But more than anything, you hate the way your heart stutters when he pushes himself out of his chair, hands still stuffed in his pockets, and grins down at you like he already knows how the next round of this fight is going to end.
“You should really start studying,” he hums, walking backward toward the exit. “You’ll need it.” And with that, he’s gone, leaving you fuming at the table. Your friend watches him go, eyebrows raised. “So, uh,” she says slowly. “Are we sure you guys aren’t flirting?” You glare at her.
“I hate him.” She smirks. “Mhm.” You seethe a little, realising—with a stab of annoyance—that yes, that motherfucker is actually leading right now in terms of grades and rankings. It’s not even about the marks. Okay, maybe it’s a little about the marks. But you’ve always been the smart woman in your course. The one who professors hold up as an example. The one whose name has been printed on merit lists and whose email is always flooded with internship offers and research opportunities. You’ve spent years perfecting your academic standing, earning every achievement through sheer effort and discipline. But for some odd reason, none of it ever seems to matter until you’ve compared it with Gojo Satoru. You glare at his name on the leaderboard, one place ahead of yours. A single midterm shouldn’t be enough to infuriate you, and yet—
Your eye twitches. How the hell did you even get here?
Well.
Actually.
You know how. You just try not to think about it because, frankly, it’s one of the most mortifying moments of your entire academic career.
—
It was the very first week of freshman year, and you were, for lack of a better term, an insufferable know-it-all. Not in a bad way—okay, maybe in a slightly bad way. But it wasn’t your fault that you took your education seriously, or that you actually read ahead in your courses, or that you genuinely cared about learning. If anything, you were doing everyone a service by answering questions when no one else raised their hands. So, on that particular day, when your physics professor asked the class a question about vector components, you barely hesitated before speaking up.
“The perpendicular components of a vector are independent of each other,” you’d answered smoothly, sitting up a little straighter as you prepared to elaborate. “That’s why we can analyse them separately using—”
“Ohhh, wow,” someone cut in, voice dripping with mock wonder. “Look at that. We got a genius in the house.” The interruption had been so unexpected—so audacious—that it completely derailed your train of thought.
And when you turned around, irritated beyond belief, there he was. White hair, round glasses perched on the bridge of his nose, an undeniably punchable smirk tugging at his lips. You had no idea who he was at the time. Just some tall, obnoxious guy slouched lazily in his seat, all limbs and arrogance, tapping a pen idly against his notebook as he stared at you with barely concealed amusement.
Your brows furrowed. “Excuse me?”
“I’m just saying,” he shrugged, “you must be so fun at parties.” The class chuckled. Your jaw clenched. “Well, someone has to answer when no one else even tries.”
“Right, because we’re all just too stupid to understand vectors,” he drawled, stretching lazily in his seat.
“I didn’t say that,” you shot back.
“Didn’t have to,” he grinned, tapping his temple. “I could feel the superiority radiating from you.” You exhaled sharply through your nose, forcing yourself to turn back around before you said something that would get you in trouble on the first week of class.
“Okay, okay,” your professor cut in, looking thoroughly unbothered by the exchange. “Let’s keep the debating to actual physics concepts.” That should have been the end of it. But then you heard a low tsk from behind you.
“I bet she memorized the textbook cover to cover before the semester even started,” the white-haired menace mused under his breath to his friend with the long, black haired locks, who seemed disinterested in what his friend had to say.
You whipped around. “I did not—”
“Don’t lie, nerd.”
“Excuse me?!” The class chuckled again. And when you shot a glare toward your professor, expecting some kind of reprimand, he just sighed and muttered, “God, I already know you two are going to be a pain in my ass.” From that moment on, it had been war.
Your first set of midterms was when you realized he wasn’t just talk. You walked into class with a 97 on your physics exam, feeling confident—only to glance over and see Gojo slouched in his seat, grinning as he casually flipped his test paper over to show a 99. He made eye contact with you as he tapped his fingers against the big red number. You nearly broke your pen in half.
And so it began.
Every exam, every assignment, every single class discussion became a battleground. You would argue over formulas, nitpick each other’s solutions, and constantly try to one-up the other. You worked your ass off to close the gap, pouring hours into perfecting your work. And Gojo? Gojo barely looked like he was trying. That was what infuriated you the most. He never seemed stressed, never looked exhausted, never talked about pulling all-nighters. He just showed up, half the time looking like he hadn’t even studied, and still somehow stayed ahead. Until now. Until your 98 finally beat his 95. A single win isn’t enough. But damn, does it feel good.
—
You step into the lecture hall, already bracing yourself for the inevitable. Sure enough, Gojo Satoru is exactly where you expect him to be—sprawled out in his usual seat, legs stretched obnoxiously far like he has no concept of personal space. His sunglasses rest on top of his head, keeping his messy white hair from falling into his annoyingly pretty eyes, and the second he spots you, that familiar smirk tugs at his lips. You’re already exhausted.
“You’re early,” you mutter, slipping into your seat and pulling out your laptop.
“And you’re predictable,” he shoots back. “What, do you set an alarm just to make sure you get here before me?”
“You wish.”
“Nah, you wish.”
You pause, narrowing your eyes. “That doesn’t even make sense.”
He shrugs, propping his chin on his hand. “Still got under your skin, though, didn’t it?”
You make a sound of irritation in the back of your throat, ready to tell him exactly where he can shove his smug attitude, but your friend plops into the seat next to you, completely unaware of the storm brewing between you and Gojo. You exhale sharply, forcing yourself to shift gears—there’s something more important than your ongoing war with him. Something much, much more important.
“Okay, so, I found this book series last night,” you begin, your fingers twitching excitedly as you pull out your phone. “I was going through one of those book recommendation guides—you know, the niche ones that aren’t full of the same ten bestsellers—and this one just caught my eye.” Your friend hums in interest, booting up their laptop. “What’s it about?”
You practically buzz with excitement. “So it’s kind of like—ugh, how do I explain it—it’s this really well-written like narrative, mystery, suspense, romance, but with, like, existential themes? And this insane world building? And apparently, no one talks about it because the publisher went under before it got the recognition it deserved, so it’s kind of a hidden gem.” As you speak, Gojo, who had been staring blankly at the front of the room, blinks. That sounds familiar.
“You’re really selling it,” your friend teases.
“Right?! And apparently, it’s super hard to find, but I checked, and our library actually has a few copies.” You tuck your phone away, already feeling a rush of excitement. “I’m gonna borrow the first book after class.” Gojo leans back in his seat, eyes flickering with something unreadable.
Yeah, he thinks. I’ve definitely read that.
He doesn’t say anything, though. Just rests his chin in his palm and listens as you keep gushing. Because now that he thinks about it, he really liked that series too. It had been one of those random books he picked up between classes, half expecting to get bored, but then something about it hooked him. The way it wove together philosophy and adventure, the quiet melancholy lingering in the prose—it was the kind of book that stuck with you. But he never finished it. Midterms had hit, and between exams, research papers, and group projects that made him want to rip his hair out, he just… forgot. He never went back to check out the last few books. He had meant to, but by the time he had free time again, his brain had moved on. And now here you are, unknowingly digging it back up.
His fingers drum idly against the desk, and for some reason, he can’t shake the thought: She’s gonna love it. He steals another glance at you. You’re still talking, eyes bright with excitement, flipping through your phone as you read off little details from the guide you found. The enthusiasm is contagious—he can’t remember the last time he saw you this animated about something that wasn’t academics. Usually, all your energy goes into perfecting equations, arguing with him over points lost on exams, and trying to one-up him in every possible way. This is… different.
And weirdly, he finds himself kind of liking it. Not that he’d ever admit it.
–
So after class finally finishes—thankfully, your professor had been going through a hard topic that he kept droning on and on about, emphasising how likely it was to appear in the final exam—it was enough to sate even Gojo, who, for once, shut up and took notes diligently. You head out at lightning speed, managing a small “see you later” to your friend before disappearing into the hallway. Honestly, ever since the new year of college had started, you’d barely had time to indulge in activities you actually enjoyed.
Sure, you squeezed in a few books here and there when you had the chance, but it was difficult finding ones that hit just the right way—ones with the same kind of engaging plot, the same writing style that kept you hooked. You’d tried, but nothing had stuck with you the way your favorite books used to. It had been frustrating, going through these long periods without anything to read. But this time, you had a feeling it would be different.
Turning a corner, you step into the vast college library, its sheer size never failing to impress you. The high, arched ceilings, the rows upon rows of bookshelves, and the dozens of students scattered across large wooden tables, heads buried in textbooks—it’s an environment that should feel welcoming, yet all it does is remind you how much work you still have waiting for you. You shake that thought away.
Right now, you’re here for one thing.
You glance at your phone, rereading the author’s name one last time before slipping it into your pocket and heading straight for the fiction section. It’s tucked away in one of the quieter corners of the library, past the heavier academic texts, and while it’s not as large as the science or philosophy sections, it still has an impressive selection. The shelves here are a little dustier, the books a little more worn—proof that they don’t get checked out as often as the physics or chemistry textbooks. You trace your fingers lightly along the spines, scanning for the title. When you finally spot it, you feel a flicker of excitement. There it is.
The first book in the series. The cover is simple yet striking, the title embossed in slightly faded silver lettering. You pull it off the shelf carefully, glancing around to see if the rest of the series is there. To your delight, every single book is lined up neatly in order. Some of them look well-loved, the edges softened from use, some even slightly bent, as if they’d been carried around in bags, read and reread countless times.
You flip the book over and read the blurb. Even though you already know the gist of the story from your research, there’s something about reading the official summary that makes your excitement spike. It’s exactly what you’ve been looking for—an underrated but brilliant story, the kind that feels like a hidden gem. Unable to resist, you take the book with you and settle down at one of the smaller, tucked-away tables. You’re a slow reader, someone who likes to absorb every word, letting the imagery settle in your mind before moving on. But the moment you turn to the first page and begin reading, you’re immediately pulled in.
The writing is crisp and immersive, the kind that hooks you effortlessly. Within moments, you’re completely lost in the world of the book, eyes darting across the pages, flipping to the next before you even realize it. The characters are compelling, the descriptions vivid, and the dialogue sharp. You can already tell this is going to be one of those stories that sticks—the kind that lingers in the back of your mind long after you’ve finished. Just as you reach a particularly interesting part, your phone buzzes.
You blink, momentarily disoriented before glancing at the screen. It’s a reminder you set for yourself. Right. You still need to study. A sigh escapes you. As much as you want to keep reading, you know you can’t afford to waste too much time. With some reluctance, you close the book and stand up, making your way toward the borrowing counter. You check it out quickly, securing it in your bag, already planning when you’ll carve out time to read it between your study sessions. It’s something to look forward to, at least. And if you had known just who had been the last person to check it out before you, maybe you wouldn’t be so eager.
–
The ringer from your Pomodoro timer goes off, its sharp chime cutting through the quiet of your dorm room. With a sigh, you drop your pencil onto your open notebook, rolling your shoulders back as you stretch in your seat, feeling the slight stiffness from hours of hunching over your desk. Lazily glancing at the glowing numbers on your laptop screen, a small grin tugs at the corners of your lips.
Four hours of focused work.
Good. You’ve finally finished studying for the night, trudging through a mountain of tricky concepts and endless equations—just enough to ensure you’ll keep up with the next few lectures before the actual final exam looms over you. The weight of the work you’ve put in settles in a satisfying way, a quiet reassurance that you’re keeping up. Yawning, you grab your phone, thumbing through a few unopened texts, sending half-hearted replies where needed.
Your mind is already half-tuned out, already drifting toward what you actually want to do now that your responsibilities are out of the way for the night. Pushing yourself up from your chair, you shuffle toward your bed, sinking into the softness of your mattress with a pleased sigh. And then, with an eager flicker of excitement, you reach for the borrowed library book resting on your side table, fingers running over the slightly worn edges of the cover.
Finally.
Opening it to the page you had left off, you settle deeper into the blankets, eyes scanning the words slowly, absorbing every detail. The prose is effortless, pulling you into the world woven between the lines. The atmosphere is rich, each description vivid and carefully placed, the characters full of depth. There’s a certain feeling you get when a book is just right—something that clicks into place, the rare kind of story that makes the outside world blur at the edges. You don’t rush through it.
You savor every word, taking in the dialogue, the intricate details of the setting, the careful unraveling of the plot. Then, just as you shift slightly, readjusting your grip, a small slip of paper flutters from between the pages. You blink, momentarily pulled from the trance of the story, watching as it lands lightly on your blanket.
Frowning, you reach for it, fingers brushing against the slightly yellowed, aged texture of the paper. It’s rectangular, not quite as thick as a regular bookmark, with neat printed lines running across it in faded ink.
A borrowing card.
You stare at it for a second, a vague memory surfacing. Back during your university orientation in first year, you remember a librarian offhandedly mentioning that some of the older books in the collection still had checkout cards inside them, relics from a time before everything became digitized. But since you’d only ever borrowed course-related books—ones that were constantly replaced with new editions—you’d never actually come across one. Huh.
Your fingers trace the faded lines as you sit up slightly, eyes scanning the list of names scrawled across it—
Except… there are no names. Just one. Or rather, just a set of initials, written neatly in blue ink
G.S.
The date beside it is from a while ago, though not too long. But the strange thing is, it’s the only entry on the entire card. You blink, flipping it over, checking the back. Nothing. So… no one else has borrowed this book? You hesitate, gripping the card a little tighter. You’re supposed to write your name down now, right? That’s how these things work. It’s a log of borrowers. But then—why had this person only written their initials?
A weird feeling stirs in your chest. Not unease, exactly—just something you can’t put a name to. It’s probably nothing. Maybe this book just wasn’t that popular. The only reason you found it was because of some obscure online guide, after all. Maybe no one really checked it out over the years, and the one person who did just didn’t feel like writing their full name.
Shaking your head, you push the thought aside, grabbing a pen from your nightstand. Without thinking too much about it, you write your own name neatly beneath G.S., along with today’s date. Then, you tuck the card back into its place and return to your book, letting yourself sink back into the story. A few more pages in, about a quarter of the way through the book, your eyes catch something that makes your brow furrow.
Are those… scribbles?
Your annoyance flares up immediately. Who the hell desecrates a library book? It’s practically sacrilegious. Your fingers tighten slightly around the spine as you bring the book closer to inspect the crime against literature, fully prepared to be enraged—
Wait.
They’re not just random scribbles. They’re annotations.
Your irritation dims slightly, curiosity piqued as you squint to make out the neat, slightly slanted cursive handwriting running along the margins. Some words are underlined, a few sentences circled, and in a crisp blue ink, a note is scrawled beside a particularly tense conversation between two characters:
“I can just tell he’s gonna be the one dead first. He’s overreacting to everything.”
You blink. Then, despite yourself, a small giggle escapes. Because—okay—whoever wrote this isn’t wrong. You literally thought the same thing just a few moments ago. As much as you love a good, well-written novel, you’ve read enough books in your life to recognise the telltale signs of an early death flag. And this character? He’s practically begging to be taken out of the story. Your amusement lingers as you scan the page again, eyes flitting to more scribbles running alongside the printed words.
"God, she sounds so insufferable."
You smirk a little at that, suppressing a chuckle.
"I like this line—the quote kinda speaks to me."
Your gaze follows the arrow pointing toward a particularly well-crafted piece of dialogue. Huh. You actually like that line too.
"I take the previous statement back—no way did he say that entire motivational monologue just for him to throw his morals aside..."
A small, surprised laugh escapes you. You love when characters do this kind of thing—spend pages waxing poetic about their grand principles, only to completely toss them out the window at the first sign of trouble. It’s frustrating, but also wildly entertaining, and you find yourself nodding unconsciously in agreement.
You shift slightly, adjusting your grip on the book as your initial annoyance starts to morph into something else—something you don’t want to admit is enjoyment. Because as much as you usually hate unnecessary markings in books, these annotations don’t feel disruptive.
They feel… engaging. Like you’re reading with someone. It’s a strange feeling—an unexpected, quiet kind of companionship in the margins of the book. You scan ahead, flipping a few pages forward, wondering if this mystery annotator—G.S., you assume—has left their thoughts scattered throughout the entire book.
Oh. They have. Almost every page has at least something scribbled in the margins. Some annotations are sarcastic, others incredulous. A few are simple observations or predictions about the plot, and some are just random, dramatic reactions that make you snort.
"Oh my GOD, just kiss already!"
You huff out an amused breath, shaking your head.
"He is so painfully oblivious it’s almost impressive."
Honestly, you were thinking the same thing. Before you realize it, you’ve started reading out loud—not the annotations, but the actual book. It’s something you do sometimes when you’re alone, when a scene is particularly well-written or emotional. And now, with G.S.’s thoughts scattered alongside the text, it almost feels like you’re having a conversation with them. Like they’re some ghostly presence in the book, reacting alongside you in real time.
You catch yourself before you say something back to one of the notes.
Which is insane. Because this is just a random person’s handwriting in a library book. And yet—
You exhale through your nose, fingers absentmindedly tracing the edge of the page. You kind of… want to know who they are. Who is G.S.? Because if their annotations are anything to go by, they have the exact same thoughts as you while reading. The same exasperation, the same eye-roll-worthy observations, the same appreciation for the well-crafted lines. And you can’t help but wonder—just who was sitting with this same book in their hands, reading the same words, thinking the same things? It’s an odd, fleeting curiosity, but you push it aside for now, shaking your head as you turn the page.
You settle deeper into your blankets, the book resting comfortably in your hands as you turn the page. The words on the paper blur slightly in the dim light of your bedside lamp, but you don’t mind—you’re too immersed now, drawn into both the story and the unexpected presence of G.S. in the margins. The next chapter begins, and you take a slow breath before diving in, eyes flicking between the printed text and the handwritten notes.
"Oh, I just know this is going to go terribly."
You glance at the line it’s referencing—a scene where the protagonist makes a bold, arguably reckless decision. Yeah, G.S. is probably right. A few more pages pass. The tension in the book rises, and you’re so absorbed that you nearly miss the next annotation.
"There it is. The classic ‘staring at the moon in emotional turmoil’ scene. Authors love this one."
You snort. Okay, but they’re right. You tilt your head, momentarily pausing your reading to stare at the note. It’s a little strange, this dynamic you’ve somehow fallen into with a complete stranger. You feel like you know them, or at least, their reading habits. Their humor. The way they react to the exact same things that pull at your attention. It's unsettling in a way that’s not entirely unpleasant. You flip forward, skimming ahead to see if the notes continue—and they do.
"I KNEW IT. I CALLED IT. HE’S A TRAITOR."
You blink, pausing mid-sentence. Your gaze darts back to the text, where a major plot twist has just been revealed. Your mouth parts slightly, rereading the words to make sure you’re seeing them correctly. Damn. You did not see that coming.
You exhale, a small smirk tugging at your lips. Fine. Point to you, G.S. You keep reading, now almost waiting for the next annotation, like it’s a second voice in your head providing commentary as you go. And when the protagonist makes another questionable decision—
"Why are men in fiction like this?"
—you laugh, shaking your head. It continues like that for pages. Every now and then, G.S. 's notes make you chuckle, or nod in agreement, or roll your eyes because come on, that was an obvious metaphor. And as much as you want to be annoyed by the interruptions, you find yourself… enjoying it. Maybe even liking it. At some point, you shift your position, getting more comfortable against your pillows, completely absorbed. The words feel alive, and not just the printed ones, but the ones scribbled in blue ink alongside them. It’s a conversation you never expected to have—one separated by time, by anonymity, by the unlikelihood of ever knowing who G.S. is. Your fingers brush over the ink of the annotations, slightly faded but still legible. Thinking back to the date listed on the library card from quite a while ago, you wonder if G.S. has even thought about this book since then. Or if they’ve forgotten about it entirely. You stare at the letters for a moment longer before shaking your head, pushing away the odd sensation curling at the back of your mind.
It’s just a book. Just some random person’s annotations. It doesn’t mean anything.
A reminder notification pops up on your phone—one you’d set earlier to keep your study schedule in check. You sigh. Right. You should get some sleep soon. Reluctantly, you close the book, running your fingers over the cover one last time before placing it on your nightstand. You’ll finish it later—between classes, between assignments, between all the little gaps in your schedule where you can steal a moment to read. And maybe, you’ll keep an eye out. Because now, you kind of want to know if G.S. ever came back for this book.
–
By the time your next Physics lecture rolls around, you’ve already finished the first book in the series. It had consumed your nights, pulling you in with its immersive world-building and gripping storyline—but, if you were being honest, the experience had been made infinitely more enjoyable because of the annotations left behind in the margins. The presence of another reader, someone who had walked the same narrative path as you and left breadcrumbs of their thoughts along the way, had made the book feel less like a solitary escape and more like a shared secret. So, naturally, when you stride into class that morning, you’re already prepared to discuss it at length with your friend.
What you aren’t prepared for is Gojo Satoru.
Not that you ever are, really. He has a habit of making his presence known, like some self-appointed force of nature existing solely to get under your skin. And today is no different—he walks past you with an easy, sauntering gait, the kind that’s deliberately slow enough to be obnoxious. There’s a telltale smirk tugging at his lips, the glint of mischief in his strikingly bright eyes as he leans in, as if he’s about to say something insufferable just to throw off your morning. You pretend not to see him.
Your willful ignorance must be obvious because you hear him scoff under his breath as he passes by, but you don’t give him the satisfaction of looking.
Instead, you beeline toward the row where your friend is already seated, setting your bag down with an eager bounce in your step.
“Dude,” you start, flipping open your laptop with a flourish, “remember that book I told you about a few weeks back?” Your friend raises a brow. “The one from that super niche book guide you were raving about?”
“The very same one,” you confirm, barely able to contain your excitement. “I finally finished it, and oh my god, it was so good. The plot? Phenomenal. The pacing? Perfect. But you know what actually made it even better?”
You don’t notice the way Gojo hesitates just as he’s about to settle into the seat behind you. He freezes, fingers hovering above the keyboard of his laptop as his ears zero in on your conversation.
“You found another book to obsess over?” Your friend teases, but you shake your head fervently.
“No, no, listen,” you insist, your voice lowering slightly as you lean in, “someone left annotations in it.”
Satoru’s fingers twitch.
“You mean like, study notes?”
“No! Like, actual thoughts—comments, reactions, opinions. And not just boring analytical stuff, either. They were funny. Snarky. They made fun of the characters at the exact moments I wanted to. It was like reading the book with someone, you know?”
A very distinct, yet invisible, sense of dread creeps into Gojo’s chest.
Oh. Oh, shit. The annotations. He had completely forgotten about those. He had scrawled them in the margins ages ago—mostly on a whim, partly out of boredom, and entirely because he physically could not read a book in silence. If there was one thing Gojo Satoru was incapable of, it was shutting the fuck up, even when he was the only audience for his own commentary. So, naturally, when he had found himself enjoying the book way more than expected, he had started treating it like a private conversation with himself, writing down whatever thoughts came to mind.
He never expected anyone to see them. And now, sitting barely a foot away, he’s listening to you—of all people—excitedly gush about his stupid little scribbles, completely oblivious to the fact that the person you were praising, the one whose humor you found entertaining and whose insights you had agreed with, was him. He schools his expression, keeping his head tilted just enough to appear disinterested. But his ears are wide open.
“Whoever wrote those notes,” you continue, flipping your pen between your fingers, “had some serious opinions. And honestly? I kind of love them. Like, I think we have the same brain.”
Satoru presses his lips together, biting back a grin.
You? Agreeing with him? That was new.
Your friend hums. “So you’re basically having a book club with some anonymous person who read it before you?” You chuckle. “I mean… kinda? It’s weird, but it’s nice in a way. Like, usually when I read, it’s just me and the book. But with the annotations, it’s like there’s this extra layer of interaction. I get to see how someone else processed the story, how they reacted to the same moments I did.”
Satoru knows he should stop listening. He should. But he doesn’t.
Because something about this whole situation—the fact that you, of all people, had unknowingly connected with him through a book—has him equal parts amused and intrigued. You, who always huffed when he teased you. You, who rolled your eyes at his antics, who made a point to ignore him even though he knew you were hyper-aware of his presence.
You had spent nights poring over words he had written in passing. And you had liked them. God, if you knew, you’d probably strangle him on the spot.
“I actually wanna see if this person has read the rest of the series,” you muse, mostly to yourself. “Like, maybe they annotated other books too.”
Satoru exhales through his nose, staring at his laptop screen but not actually registering anything on it. Well. This was going to be interesting.
–
You make your way to the library once again, the first book of the series clutched in your hands, ready to be returned. It feels weird, parting with it. As if you’re saying goodbye to something that had, for the past week, been a quiet companion during your late-night reading sessions. But not to worry, there’s still like five more books in the series. Your steps slow slightly as you approach the return counter, fingers absently reaching into your bag’s open pocket for a pen. Without much thought, you flip open the book and scrawl the date of return onto the inside of the back cover, where the borrowing card is located. Your thumb absentmindedly drags across the faded blue ink of the initials scrawled in the row above where you’ve signed your name.
G.S.
Whoever they were, they had made your reading experience infinitely better with their wry, sarcastic observations and strangely thoughtful insights. It was like reading alongside a particularly sharp-witted friend—one who, frustratingly, was just out of reach. You’re lost in thought, mulling over the mystery of G.S., when you abruptly walk straight into something firm and unmoving. And warm.
Something that smells like sandalwood and fresh linen and something inexplicably, irritatingly familiar.
You barely have time to stagger back before a voice—deep, lazy, and dripping with its usual brand of smugness—drawls, “My, my, pretending to walk around with your nose in a book so people think you’re more studious than you actually are?”
Your stomach sinks. You do not have the patience for this right now.
“Fuck off, Satoru,” you mutter, not even looking at him as you try to sidestep. Predictably, he moves right in front of you again, blocking your path with that insufferable ease of his. Hands in the pockets of his impeccably tailored slacks, sleeves of a stupidly expensive cashmere sweater pushed up to reveal the sharp line of his wrists and veiny forearms, and his ever-present glasses glinting under the dim library lights—he looks as if he owns the place.
His head tilts, white hair falling slightly over his frames as he glances down at the book in your hands. That smile—all teeth and smugness—spreads across his face like he’s caught you in something scandalous.
“Oh? Reading a book that isn’t course-related? Scandalous. What happened, got bored of being a try-hard? Or are you just begging to score lower than me on the final?” He exhales dramatically, shaking his head. “Tsk, tsk. Not that I’d expect you to actually be on my level, but it’s cute that you try—”
You stop listening after that. Normally, you’d throw something equally sharp-tongued back at him, tell him to go get hit by a bus or something equally creative, but you’re too drained to bother. The exhaustion from back-to-back lectures, plus the fact that you haven’t eaten anything substantial today, has dulled the sharp edges of your patience. A dull ache pounds at the base of your skull, and every word out of his mouth makes it throb even harder. Your expression must give away more than you intend because, for a split second, Gojo falters.
It’s quick—barely there. But you see it.
A flicker of something almost resembling concern flashes behind his glasses, like he’s actually noticed how drained you look. The moment is gone before you can process it. His usual smug expression slides right back into place, and you don’t have the energy to care.
“I need to return this,” you say flatly. “Get out of my way.”
Instead of stepping aside like a normal person, he falls into step beside you, hands still lazily stuffed in his pockets. “Oh? So now you acknowledge my presence,” he muses, voice light. “What, you didn’t miss me in class today? I even waited for you to roll your eyes at me like you do every morning. Felt almost lonely without it.”
“I genuinely do not care,” you reply without looking at him. He presses a hand to his chest as if wounded. “Ouch. Someone’s moody today. Low blood sugar? On your period? Brain finally given up trying to keep up with mine?”
You don’t dignify that with a response, instead sliding the book into the return pile with a little more force than necessary. Gojo watches, his gaze flickering between you and the book.
“What book were you returning, anyway?” The question is so casual, so offhanded, that you almost don’t clock it as strange. Almost. You narrow your eyes at him. “Didn’t take you for someone interested in my life.”
His lips curl into something unbearably smug. “Oh, I’m not.” He rocks back on his heels, pushing his glasses further up the bridge of his nose. “I just like knowing what my rival is up to outside of class. You know, studying your weaknesses. Gathering intel. The usual.”
You stare at him. “You are so full of shit.”
“I really am,” he agrees cheerfully. You exhale through your nose, patience wearing thinner by the second. “Shouldn’t you be off somewhere being a general public nuisance?”
“This is me being a general public nuisance.” He grins. “And you’re the lucky victim of the day.”
“God, I hate you.”
“Aww, that’s cute. But you should be honest with yourself,” he says, following you as you make your way toward the exit. “I think you’d miss me if I suddenly disappeared.”
“Absolutely not.”
“You so would.”
“I would thrive in your absence.”
Gojo makes an exaggerated show of wiping away an imaginary tear. “How cruel. And here I was, thinking we had something special.”
You push open the library doors, stepping out into the crisp afternoon air. Finally, freedom. But, of course, Gojo keeps following you.
“…Why are you still here?” you ask, tiredly. He hums. “Dunno. Walking this way.”
“You don’t even know where I’m going.”
“Exactly,” he says, grinning. “A mystery. How exciting.” You consider throwing your bag at him. You settle for walking faster. You quicken your pace, hoping Gojo will get bored and wander off. He doesn’t. Of course he doesn’t. He easily keeps up with you, long legs making it effortless, his stupid grin never fading.
“Walking faster won’t shake me, you know,” he muses, sounding entirely too pleased with himself. “If I didn’t know any better, I’d think you enjoy my company.” You don’t bother responding, gripping the strap of your bag tighter and staring straight ahead. He walks backward in front of you, head tilted, watching you with an almost lazy amusement. “So, where are you going? Café? Student lounge? Maybe a secret nerd meeting where you all discuss the best highlighters for maximum efficiency?”
You give him a deadpan look. “Yes, Satoru. That’s exactly what I’m doing. We’re all going to sit in a circle and ritually sharpen our pencils while whispering incantations about final exams.” He gasps dramatically. “I knew it. I bet you have a shrine dedicated to good grades too. And, like, a little altar where you sacrifice people who get higher scores than you—”
“I don’t need to sacrifice anyone,” you cut in, dryly. “Because I get the highest scores.” His grin widens. “Not all of them.”
You bristle, and he knows it. You both know that you and Gojo have been locked in a constant academic battle since the semester started. It’s maddening how often you end up in the top two spots. Even more maddening that he acts like he doesn’t even try. You exhale slowly, trying to focus on literally anything else. “I’m going to get food. Why don’t you go fuck off somewhere, like, I don’t know, ruin someone else’s day?”
“You wound me with such crass language,” he says, clutching his chest like you physically struck him. “I’m just being a good friend.”
“You’re not my friend.”
“Wow.” He sighs dramatically, as if genuinely offended. “All this time we’ve spent together, and you still call us enemies? I’d like to think of us more as… frenemies.”
“I would like to think of us as strangers.”
“And yet,” he says, smirking, “you still talk to me.”
You roll your eyes. “Only because you won’t shut up.”
Gojo shrugs. “Details.”
By now, you’ve reached the campus café. The smell of coffee and freshly baked pastries drifts through the air, making your stomach growl embarrassingly loud. You knew skipping lunch was a bad idea. Gojo hears it, of course.
“Oh?” His eyebrows lift, delighted. “Was that your stomach? Should I be worried? Are you dying of starvation? Is this how our rivalry ends?” You ignore him and step inside. The café is buzzing with students, some hunched over laptops, others chatting over coffee. You head straight for the counter, scanning the menu, debating if you should just get something quick and easy or actually sit down for a meal. Gojo, uninvited, leans casually against the counter beside you.
“Getting a drink too?” he asks, peering over your shoulder.
“Why do you care?”
“Maybe I wanna know what fuels my biggest competition,” he says, tone exaggeratedly thoughtful. “What’s the secret? Triple shot espresso? Pure willpower? The tears of your academic rivals?” You give him a look. “You’re projecting. You probably run on the suffering of others.”
“Obviously,” he says easily. “But I like to mix in a little sugar sometimes. Keeps me balanced and shit.” You’re about to tell him to go bother someone else when the barista glances up. “Next?” You quickly place your order. Just as you’re about to pull out your wallet, Gojo’s voice rings out:
“I’ve got it.”
Your head snaps toward him. “What.”
“I’m paying.” You stare at him, genuinely baffled. “Why?”
He grins. “Because I’m so generous, obviously.” You narrow your eyes. “No, really. What’s the catch?”
He puts a hand over his heart, feigning offense. “You think I’d trick you? I’m hurt.”
“Yes.”
Gojo just laughs and hands his card to the barista before you can argue further. You glare at him. “This better not be some elaborate scheme to hold this over my head later.”
“Oh, it definitely is,” he says cheerfully. “I plan to bring it up all the time.”
“Of course you do.” Your drink– tea to be specific– is ready a moment later. Begrudgingly, you take it, mumbling, “Thanks.” Gojo gasps, eyes wide. “Did you just thank me?” You exhale. “Never mind. I take it back.”
“No, no, it’s too late, you already said it.” He grins. “You like me.”
“I hate you.”
“You adore me.”
“I tolerate you at best.” Gojo sips his drink, looking entirely too pleased with himself. “That’s basically the same thing.” You groan and turn to leave.
Thankfully he doesn’t make the move to follow you this time.
–
Your… somewhat friendly interaction with Sa—No, Gojo—was forgotten by the time the next week rolled around. Not deliberately, of course. But between your physics assignments, math problem sets, and an unrelenting pile of lecture notes to review, your brain had simply discarded the memory. College had a way of pushing everything that wasn’t directly necessary for survival to the furthest corners of your mind. Currently, you were in the library, hunched over a thick textbook, your fingers curled into your hair as you skimmed the same paragraph for what felt like the tenth time. Nothing was sticking.
You groaned, tilting your head back against the chair and letting your gaze drift to the high ceilings of the study space. It was quiet, save for the occasional rustle of pages and the rhythmic clicking of laptop keys. Your physics notes sat in front of you, covered in a desperate sprawl of formulas and diagrams, but the more you stared, the more meaningless the symbols became. You needed a break. Your eyes flickered toward the fiction section.
It wouldn’t hurt to get another book.
A moment later, you were standing in front of the shelves, fingers tracing the spines as you searched for the second book in the series. It didn’t take long to find—it was positioned neatly with the rest of the series, the cover slightly fading due to how long it had probably been there. As you turned to leave, your thumb brushed against the inside cover, where the borrowing card was located.
And there, scrawled in the same faded blue ink as before, were the initials:
G.S.
You paused. Your mystery commentator had been here before you. Again. You traced the letters absentmindedly, your mind flickering back to the first book. Their annotations had been witty, sometimes mocking, but always sharp. You had enjoyed them—more than you expected.
You flipped to the borrowing card. G.S. had checked out this book multiple times. At least three dates next to their initials. A strange feeling settled in your chest. Who were they? You shook your head, pushing the thought aside as you made your way to the borrowing counter. It doesn’t matter. It’s just some random person. Still, as you returned to your study space, setting the book beside your untouched notes, your fingers itched to open it.
You tried—really tried—to focus on physics. For maybe ten minutes. Then, with a sigh, you slid your textbook aside and cracked open the novel. This one picked up right where the last had left off—the protagonist, an ambitious scholar, now forced into an uneasy alliance with a rogue historian, both of them hunting for a long-lost manuscript said to contain the secrets of the universe. Their journey took them through ancient libraries, shadowy alleyways, and grand halls of academia filled with intrigue and suspense that you thoroughly enjoyed.
It wasn’t long before you noticed the annotations.
"What an idiot. Why would you trust someone who literally betrayed you three chapters ago?" You huffed a quiet laugh. It was scrawled in the margins of a tense conversation between the protagonist and the historian, who had indeed been suspiciously untrustworthy.
Another note, a few pages later: "This argument is painfully dumb. If they just communicated, we wouldn’t need three more chapters of tension." You found yourself smiling. Whoever this was, they were blunt, maybe a bit cynical, but entertaining.
Then, another annotation caught your attention—this one different. It was scribbled beside a passage where the protagonist was deciphering an ancient mathematical equation, trying to understand the patterns behind the manuscript’s code. The handwriting was just as casual, but the content—
"This is basically just Fourier analysis but dressed up in fancy old-world academia. If the author actually wanted to be accurate, they’d at least mention waveforms. But nooo, we get poetic nonsense instead."
You blinked. That was… oddly specific. And not the kind of thing your average literature enthusiast would comment on. For a fleeting second, you wondered—
Does G.S. study physics?
The thought was strange, lingering in the back of your mind even as you continued reading. Minutes turned into hours. Slowly, students trickled out of the library. The rustling of papers faded, the soft murmur of whispered conversations disappearing into the silence of the near-empty study space. You didn’t notice.
Not until the overhead lights dimmed slightly, signaling that the library was closing soon. With a sigh, you shut the book, stretching your stiff limbs. Physics could wait a little longer.
–
A few days later, you found yourself in yet another grueling lecture. The classroom was buzzing with low chatter as students filtered in, some sleep-deprived, some over-caffeinated, and most looking like they’d rather be anywhere else. You were somewhere in the middle—tired but functional, flipping through your notes with half-hearted interest as you tried to prepare yourself for another two-hour session of mathematical physics. You adjusted your laptop screen, took a sip of your tea, and just as you settled in, you felt a presence.
A familiar, irritating presence.
“Morning, rival,” Gojo Satoru said cheerfully, dropping into the seat next to you with all the grace of an avalanche. You didn’t even look up. “Go away.”
He tsked. “Is that any way to greet your favorite classmate?”
“You’re not my favorite classmate.” He grinned, propping his chin on one hand.
“Don’t lie. You’d miss me if I wasn’t here to make class interesting.”
You ignored him, resolutely staring at your notes. The professor arrived a moment later, quickly settling into the day’s topic—wave equations and their applications. The discussion meandered through standard examples, Fourier transforms, and the different methods used to break down complex waveforms.
You barely registered the name of the theory—just a fleeting recognition of something familiar—before you were back to jotting down notes. At first, you were focused, diligently taking notes and absorbing the information. For the first thirty minutes, you managed to avoid paying him any attention. You scribbled down notes, underlined important formulas, and even managed to listen without feeling the urge to slam your head into the desk.
But then—of course—Gojo had to open his mouth.
“So, hypothetically,” he mused, voice carrying just enough to be heard by the surrounding students, “if we were to apply this to a broader model, say… nonlinear oscillations, wouldn’t that mean—”
You immediately frowned. He was already trying to sound smarter than he was.
“That’s not how that works,” you cut in before the professor could even acknowledge him. Gojo turned to you, looking far too entertained. “Yeah, it is.”
“No, it isn’t.” You shifted in your seat, twisting to face him fully. “You can’t just apply Fourier analysis wherever you want and expect the results to be useful. Nonlinear oscillations don’t break down the same way because of the introduction of chaotic behavior—”
“Oh, come on,” Gojo scoffed, waving a hand. “It’s not that deep. Sure, chaotic elements make things messier, but that doesn’t mean the framework is useless.”
You let out a sharp breath. “It means the entire assumption of the analysis changes. You can’t approximate a nonlinear system with linear components and expect the results to hold up—”
“You can if you use a perturbative approach,” he countered smoothly.
You almost growled. “A perturbative approach only works when the nonlinear term is small relative to the linear system. If the nonlinearities dominate, your entire model collapses.”
“Not always,” Gojo shot back, shifting in his seat with that insufferable smirk. “It depends on how well you construct the higher-order terms—”
You threw your hands up. “At that point, you might as well scrap Fourier analysis entirely and just use a different decomposition method!” A few students had stopped taking notes. Some were watching out of curiosity; others, out of sheer amusement.
Gojo, completely unbothered, shrugged. “But that wasn’t the question, was it? The point is that Fourier methods can still be useful, even if the system isn’t perfectly linear—”
You gritted your teeth. “Useful doesn’t mean accurate, dumbass.” Gojo gasped dramatically. “Did you just call me a dumbass? Right here? In front of our professor?”
“Maybe I wouldn’t have to if you stopped saying objectively incorrect things—”
“Oh, please,” he drawled, leaning back in his seat. “You’re just mad because I’m right.”
Your jaw clenched. “You’re not right.”
“I am right.”
“No, you’re—”
A loud cough. You both froze. Slowly, you turned toward the front of the room, where the professor was staring at you both, unamused.
"Would you two care to bring your literary debate outside of my physics class?" You swallowed. Gojo scratched the back of his neck, looking entirely unbothered.
"...No, sir."
"Good," the professor said flatly. "Then kindly stop interrupting the lesson." You resisted the urge to sink into your chair. Gojo, of course, had the audacity to look amused. As the lecture resumed, you shot him a glare.
"This is your fault."
He winked. You swore you were going to strangle him one day. As soon as class ended, you were out of your seat, shoving your laptop into your bag with slightly more force than necessary. Behind you, Gojo was taking his sweet time, stretching like he hadn’t just spent the past two hours actively making your life worse. “Man,” he sighed dramatically. “That was a great discussion, don’t you think? Nothing like a little intellectual sparring to keep the brain sharp—”
You spun around so fast he almost bumped into you. “Discussion?” you repeated incredulously. “That wasn’t a discussion, that was you talking out of your ass like usual.”
Gojo placed a hand over his heart, feigning offense. “Wow. You wound me. You know, I feel like I say that phrase a lot. Would you prefer it if I said thee painfully wrench mine own heart with such careless words–”
You rolled your eyes and stormed out of the lecture hall, weaving through the crowd of students. Of course he followed, long strides easily keeping pace with yours. “I’m just saying,” he continued, completely ignoring your clear irritation, “it’s kind of funny how you always shoot me down but never actually prove me wrong—”
Your jaw clenched. “I do prove you wrong. Every time.”
He smirked. “Do you, though?”
“Yes!” You turned on your heel, walking backward so you could glare at him properly. “Just because you talk like you know everything doesn’t mean you actually do—”
Gojo’s smirk widened. “So you do think I sound smart.” Your eye twitched.
“That’s not what I said.”
“Sounds like that’s what you said.”
“Go kill yourself.”
“Only if you join me, sweets.”
“Don’t call me that!”
“Why, you don’t like being called sweets?–”
You groaned, turning back around and quickening your pace. You weren’t going to stand here and let him twist your words into whatever self-indulgent nonsense was brewing in his head. Gojo, naturally, kept up with ease. “You know, it’s weird how you always get so mad at me. Maybe you should work on that anger problem of yours.”
“Oh, I have an anger problem?” You spun around again, narrowing your eyes. “You’re literally the most aggravating person I’ve ever met.”
“Really?” He tilted his head in mock thought. “I dunno, you seem to get pretty riled up over nothing—”
“You are nothing.”
Gojo laughed, the sound bright and infuriatingly genuine. “Damn, that was actually kinda good. You been practicing comebacks in the mirror?”
“Leave me alone, for the love of god, before I strangle you, bastard–”
“Oooh, kinky–.”
Before you could actually commit violence, someone stepped between you. “Alright, enough,” a smooth, tired voice interrupted. You looked up to see Suguru Geto, Gojo’s ever-patient best friend, standing between you with the exasperation of a man who had dealt with this before.
“Satoru,” he said, dragging a hand down his face, “leave her alone.”
Gojo pouted. “But we were bonding.”
“We were not bonding,” you snapped. Suguru gave you a knowing look. “And you,” he sighed, “stop encouraging him.”
You scoffed. “Encouraging him? I—”
A hand suddenly clamped down on your shoulder. You glanced up to see your own friend standing beside you, looking just as exasperated as Suguru. “Come on,” she muttered, tugging you away. “We’re going to lunch before you actually try to kill him.” You didn’t resist, only because the temptation was strong. But as you turned to leave, you caught a glimpse of Gojo flashing that stupid, insufferable grin at you.
You stuck your tongue out at him. Gojo only winked again in response. Why did he keep winking at you? It made you wanna puke. You definitely needed lunch. Maybe something very, very spicy.
–
You're sitting in your dorm again, cross-legged on your bed, laptop open in front of you, but your mind is elsewhere. The textbooks and notes are pushed to the side of your desk, proof that at some point you had every intention of being productive tonight. A third empty cup of tea is perched precariously on your nightstand, and the finished second and third books of the series stacked besides your laptop.
It had been a slow burn, working your way through them between lectures and study sessions, but now, the empty feeling of finishing a book you enjoyed is settling in. Worse yet, it's late at night, which means you can't borrow the fourth book until tomorrow. The thought alone makes you sigh as you shut your laptop and flop back against the pillows.
You flipped open the third book, fingers brushing over the slightly worn borrowing card tucked inside. The neat, slanted initials ‘G.S.’ were there again, written in blue ink. And just like before, the pages had been marked with the same sharp, and sometimes frustratingly perceptive annotations that had made you laugh, scoff, and even—on some particularly well-argued points—begrudgingly nod along. Your mind drifts, replaying some of your favorite annotations from the books.
There was the one where G.S. had written, "Oh, he's totally gonna betray them," followed by a later note that read, "I CALLED IT. WHERE’S MY PRIZE?" That one had made you laugh out loud in the middle of the library, earning a few disapproving stares. Another one of your other favorites from the third book had been an annotation scrawled in the margins of a pivotal scene:
“The irony of this moment is almost painful. She sees herself as the heroine, but the real tragedy is that she’s just another character in someone else’s story.”
You had reread that line about five times before closing the book and staring at the ceiling, feeling somewhat existential. Another annotation had been pure sarcasm:
“Yes, because when faced with adversity, the best solution is always to run directly into danger. Genius.” That one had also made you laugh out loud in one of the study halls located in some part of your university, earning a weird look from the girl across the hall. But the annotation that had really stuck with you—really made you pause—was in the third book, written in response to a section that delved into the intricacies of time and choice:
“If you think about it, this entire dilemma can be broken down into a fundamental question of physics. If time is just another dimension, then isn’t every choice we make just another coordinate on an already-existing map? So is it really ‘free will’ if we’re just tracing a path that’s already there?”
That one had thrown you for a loop. It was the kind of thought that lingered, weaving its way into quiet moments when you least expected it. And, you hated to admit, it made you think—whoever this person was, they were kind of brilliant.You sighed, snapping the book shut. You needed to get the fourth one. Now. But a quick glance at your phone reminded you that it was almost midnight, and the library had closed hours ago. You groaned, letting your head submerge deeper into the pillows. You grabbed your phone, scrolling mindlessly, until your eyes flicked to the messages her friend had sent earlier—recommendations for movies she’d been meaning to watch. You scrolled absentmindedly, not really expecting to find anything interesting, until your thumb hovered over one title:
Whisper of the Heart.
Something about the name tugged at your memory. Wasn’t this the one with the girl who loved books and a mysterious boy who shared them? On a whim, you pressed play. The soft hum of the opening scene filled the quiet of her dorm, and soon, you were drawn in. The gentle storytelling, the warmth of the animation, the way the main character, Shizuku, slowly became obsessed with the name written in all the books she borrowed—
Oh. Oh, shit.
Your face grew hot as you sat up straighter, eyes darting to the books stacked beside you. You weren't doing that. Right?
…Were you? Because if you really thought about it—if you really thought about it—weren’t you kind of doing the same thing? You buried your face in your hands. This is so embarrassing. And yet, as you peeked between her fingers at the screen, you couldn’t help but draw the comparison between Seiji Amasawa and your mysterious, faceless G.S. Seiji had been intriguing, a presence felt long before he actually appeared. Just a name scribbled in books, a person she hadn’t met yet but somehow felt connected to. And wasn’t that exactly what G.S. was?
You groaned, flopping back onto your bed, kicking your feet against the mattress. “I need to stop,” you mumbled into your pillow, but your shoulders shook with barely contained laughter. It was stupid. This whole thing was stupid. You didn’t even know this person. For all you knew, G.S. could be some forty-year-old professor or a girl who just happened to find the same series as you on the niche book guide you were on. And yet, there was this tiny, ridiculous, completely unserious part of you that wanted to believe—
What if it was some guy? A guy with sharp wit, someone who thought deeply about things most people glossed over, someone who liked this series enough to leave behind thoughts for others to find. A guy who— No. Nope. Nope. You were not about to mentally script herself into some shoujo romance anime over marginalia.
But the damage was done. Because now, your brain had latched onto the idea, spinning daydreams faster than you could stop them. Some dramatic, cinematic first meeting. Some passing moment where you’d reach for a book, and a hand—slender fingers, ink-stained maybe—would brush against yours, and you’d look up and—
You shot up again, shaking your head violently. God, this is pathetic. But even as you scolded herself, you couldn’t wipe the stupid little smile off your face. You were allowed to have a little fun, right? Just a tiny bit of harmless romanticising? You collapsed back into the pillows, eyes drifting back to the ceiling as the movie played on. And as Shizuku’s voice echoed through the room, musing about stories, destiny, and the people we stumble upon by chance, you thought—just for a second—Maybe, maybe, you kind of liked this. The idea of it all. The way life sometimes felt like a story waiting to unfold. Maybe it’s silly, maybe it’s unrealistic—but right now, in the quiet of your dorm, with the soft glow of your laptop screen and the remnants of Whisper of the Heart playing in the background, you don’t really care.
–
Satoru Gojo had always been considered a prodigy. A genius. Someone born with an innate brilliance that set him apart from others. It had been that way since he was a child—where other kids had to struggle and study, he breezed through school without breaking a sweat. It wasn’t just academics, either. He was quick-witted, sharp, and effortlessly charming in a way that made people gravitate toward him. But when you grow up with everyone expecting greatness from you, it becomes suffocating.
So he learned to play the fool.
It started as a mask—being overly cheery, always teasing, never taking things too seriously. It was easier that way. No one could see the weight of expectations if he always had a grin on his face. And at some point, the mask became second nature. Satoru Gojo, the carefree, insufferable genius. The only person he could ever drop it around was Suguru. His best friend, the one person who could keep up with him, who understood what it meant to carry something too heavy to put into words. Then, freshman year of university, he saw you.
He had noticed you before—how could he not? You were diligent, meticulous in a way that fascinated him. You always sat at the front of the class, always had color-coded notes, always took everything so seriously. And maybe that was what caught his attention first. You were everything he wasn’t. Where he coasted through life, you worked hard for it. And for the first time in a long time, he didn’t quite know how to communicate with someone. So he did what he always did. He teased.
“The perpendicular components of a vector are independent of each other,” you’d answered smoothly, sitting up a little straighter as you prepared to elaborate. “That’s why we can analyse them separately using—”
“Ohhh, wow,” he cut in, voice dripping with mock wonder. “Look at that. We got a genius in the house.” He had meant it playfully. A joke. But the way your expression hardened, the way your eyes flickered with irritation, made something click in his brain. You didn’t like him. And yet, he couldn’t stop teasing you. Even when he knew it annoyed you, even when he knew you hated him. Maybe it was because you challenged him. Maybe it was because, for once, someone didn’t look at him like he was untouchable. Or maybe it was because he liked you.
Not just because you were pretty—though you were, infuriatingly so—but because you were determined. Because you cared about things deeply. Because you fascinated him in a way nothing else did. He found himself watching you more often than he cared to admit. The way you bit your lip when you were concentrating, the way your eyes lit up when you finally understood something, the way you tucked a strand of hair behind your ear when you were nervous when results came out. It was all so... endearing.
And maybe that’s why he finds himself watching you sometimes—when you’re scribbling furiously in your notebook, when you’re biting the end of your pen in deep thought, when you’re rolling your eyes at something he says but still, still responding. He watches, because for the first time, someone makes him want to understand more than just equations and theories. And if the only way to keep your attention was by being your rival, then so be it.
–
The next morning, you had a practical class, a hands-on session designed to reinforce the theory you’d been learning. Since it was held in a laboratory, students were sorted into small groups to share lab tables. Unfortunately—or fortunately, depending on how you looked at it—you weren’t grouped with Satoru, but by some cruel twist of fate, his group was at the same table as yours. The setup was simple: four students per group, two groups per table.
A long, clean expanse of black lab benches stretched across the room, each one covered with neatly arranged equipment: a set of metal ramps, photogates, a timer, and a set of small carts. Today’s experiment was a classic: measuring acceleration using a motion sensor. Each group was supposed to release a cart down a ramp and use the photogates to measure velocity changes over time. Simple, right? Satoru, of course, had already started causing trouble before the experiment even began.
“You know, it’s kinda unfair that I wasn’t put in your group,” he mused, leaning against the lab bench with a smirk. “Would’ve been fun watching you pretend to know more than me.” You didn’t even look up as you adjusted the height of the ramp, focusing on making sure it was aligned properly. “Oh please, Gojo, you would’ve just copied all my calculations and then taken credit for my hard work.”
“I wouldn’t do that,” he said, feigning offense. “I’d let you take, like, fifty percent of the credit.” Your lab partner snorted beside you, shaking their head as they double-checked the photogate placement. Satoru, undeterred, watched as you bent over to place the cart at the starting position. His group was still setting up, which meant he had time to bother you before he actually had to do any work.
“I bet my group’s results will be more accurate than yours,” he declared. You rolled your eyes, finally sparing him a glance. “You do know accuracy depends on precision and minimising errors, right? Which means—” you motioned to his group, where one of them was currently struggling with the timer, “—your chances of that happening are slim to none.”
Before he could retort, your professor called for everyone’s attention, signalling the start of the experiment. Both of you fell into your respective tasks, measuring, calculating, and recording values with practiced ease. You got so caught up in fine-tuning your results that Satoru didn’t get the chance to throw more taunts your way. That was until, while waiting for your next trial to begin, you turned to your friend beside you, excitement bubbling over.
“Oh my god, I finally watched Whisper of the Heart last night,” you gushed, voice dropping into that high-pitched, dreamy tone reserved for things you were completely obsessed with. Your friend gasped, clutching your arm. “Stop. You did not.”
“I did.”
“DID YOU CRY?”
“OBVIOUSLY.”
Satoru, who had been focused on adjusting his group’s ramp, stilled slightly. He knew that movie. More than that, he could predict exactly why you were talking about it. Casually, he glanced over, pretending to check his photogate readings while shamelessly eavesdropping. Your friend squeezed your arm excitedly. “I told you it was perfect. The vibes, the music, the slow-burn romance. Tell me you loved Seiji.”
“Oh, I loved Seiji,” you sighed, eyes sparkling. “Like, the way he was so ambitious but still so soft? And the way he believed in her? And the fact that he left little signs for her without even realizing how much they’d mean?” You could feel yourself getting lost in the emotions of it, and your friend was right there with you, nodding along enthusiastically. “It was so romantic,” she said dreamily. “The idea of someone quietly believing in you and pushing you forward. It’s just—”
“SO good,” you finished for her, and the two of you squealed quietly before catching yourselves and trying to focus again. Then, almost absentmindedly, you added, “Honestly, I feel like I’m in Whisper of the Heart right now.” Your friend perked up. “How so?”
You nudged her lightly. “Because of G.S.”
Satoru, who had been handling the cart for his next trial, fumbled slightly. Your friend’s eyes widened knowingly. “No way. You mean your G.S.?”
You groaned. “Don’t call him that. But yeah. The whole leaving-annotations-in-the-books thing? And how I keep borrowing them? It’s totally giving Seiji and Shizuku. Like yeah I kinda sound corny right now–”
“Not really honestly, I get it–”
“Exactly! See? I knew I wasn’t crazy. Imagine G.S is like Seiji– scratch that, imagine he’s better, like some sweet, studious, hot book nerd–”
Satoru swallowed, suddenly feeling warm despite the sterile chill of the lab. You thought he was like Seiji? More than that, you thought G.S could perhaps even be better than Seiji? That was—that was something.
“And next week,” you continued, stretching your arms over your head, “after I finish studying, I’m going to borrow the next book.”
Satoru barely heard the rest of the conversation after that. His brain had latched onto one horrifying realisation—
The last four books weren’t annotated. Oh, shit. He hadn’t really expected you to grow this attached to his stupid thoughts scribbled on the edges of the frayed pages, hadn’t expected you to burn through the series so fast. He completely forgot that he didn’t bother annotating the last few books because he had gotten so busy with work. But you had just sat there, eyes sparkling, gushing about his notes like they were some grand romantic mystery. You liked them. You liked his words. Not just the books themselves but the tiny, scribbled thoughts he had left behind. Satoru’s stomach did a weird little flip. It seemed to be doing that a lot every time his nosy ass overheard you talking about his writing.
You really liked his writing. The writing you’d been gushing for about two weeks now. You really found it special. You liked it so much that the thought of continuing the series without it made his chest ache. Because what if you borrowed the next one and found nothing? What if you flipped through the pages, searching for his voice, only to be disappointed? No. No way. That wasn’t happening. Initially he had done it as a way to, y’know, simply yap, maybe desecrate the pages of a book from a library with his oh so superior commentary. But now? He was going to do this for you. Because the way you had talked about Whisper of the Heart—the way your face had gone soft and dreamy, the way your voice had gotten all excited—he wanted that. He wanted to hear you talk about how much you enjoyed the little quips that made their way into his head every time he read something. He wanted to be the reason you spoke like that again. Maybe it was pathetic, but he wanted– really wanted to once again be the reason why your cheeks slightly went pink when your friend called him yours. Even if they were his initials, they were his, and it insinuated he belonged to you, right?
The second class ended, Satoru bolted. There was no time to waste. He had four books to annotate, and he didn’t care if it took him all night. If you wanted G.S., then G.S. was going to be there.
–
Satoru burst into his dorm, heart pounding as he dumped his bag onto the floor. His fingers fumbled with the zipper as he yanked it open, pulling out the four books you were inevitably going to borrow next. He stacked them on his desk, staring at them like they were some kind of urgent mission—because they were. You liked his notes. You liked his notes. That thought alone sent a weird, warm feeling blooming in his chest. He flopped into his chair, running a hand through his hair as he exhaled sharply. This wasn’t just about keeping up the act anymore. It wasn’t about maintaining the mystery of G.S. or feeding into some casual curiosity you had. No, this was about you. About the way your eyes lit up when you talked about the books. The way you had called him—unknowingly, of course—your own Seiji. The way you were so excited to continue the series, fully expecting to find more of his little thoughts nestled between the pages. He wasn’t going to let you down.
Satoru grabbed the first book off the stack and flipped it open, his pen poised over the margins. He scribbled his initials in the borrowing card in the same blue ink that he always used– he always thought the blueness of the ink was much better than any other pen colour out there. Before he started reading, he did this in all the library cards, and made sure that the date corresponded to the previous dates– so you wouldn’t think it was suspicious that the last remaining books were all borrowed on the same day. He then started reading—not just skimming, but really reading, more carefully than he ever had before. Thankfully he did remember the plot of the first three books, so catching up with what was going on wasn’t too hard. Every sentence was weighed, every line considered. What would make you pause? What would make you smile?
When he hit a particularly poetic passage, he underlined it and wrote in the margin: Bet whoever is reading this– I just know this made your heart do that stupid fluttery thing.
He smirked to himself. If only you knew.
A few pages later, he found a scene with the protagonist staring out a train window, deep in thought. The description was vivid, full of melancholic longing. He tapped the pen against his lips before jotting down: Ever feel like this? Just existing, watching life happen? He could already imagine you reading it, tilting your head slightly, considering his words. Would you reply in your head? Would you wonder what kind of person wrote something like that? The thought of it sent a thrill through him, and he leaned in closer, more invested than ever. Hours passed, but he barely noticed. The desk lamp cast a warm glow over the pages as he worked, annotating with a mix of teasing, sincerity, and the occasional cryptic remark just to mess with you. In the fifth book of the series, there was a passage about finding comfort in routine—about how little, familiar things could feel like home. He thought back to all the times during your early morning classes, how you’d bring a steaming thermos filled with a tea of some kind, something to sip on while you reviewed the lecture slides before the professor started the lecture. The half cold tea in that same thermos, he’d seen you nursing it outside the exam hall before a midterm while your eyes furiously scanned your meticulous, colour coded notes. Satoru probably guessed that it was a habit of yours– to have a warm comforting drink while you read– lecture notes, physics textbooks, or fiction.
He hesitated for a second before writing: Hope anyone who ever reads this is reading this with a warm drink. Tea, in my opinion, is the best kind of beverage to drink while reading a book series like this.
Would you pause when you read that? Would you glance around, suddenly hyper-aware that maybe G.S knew you? That someone had been paying attention? Or maybe you’d think he’s just like you? The thought sent a rush of satisfaction through him. By the time he reached the second last book, his hand was cramping, but he didn’t care. He stretched briefly before diving back in. This one had more banter between the characters, something he knew you loved. He played into it, adding sarcastic commentary in the margins. When the heroine had a particularly dramatic internal monologue, he scribbled: Relax, you’re not in a soap opera.
And a few pages later: Actually, never mind, maybe you are.
He could already hear your reaction. The annoyed little huff, the way you’d roll your eyes but secretly love it. You always did have a tendency to refute things first, only to realise you enjoyed them later. He’d sometimes see it in the way when you’d roll your eyes or let out a disapproving noise at Satoru plainly criticising one of the professors under his breath during a lecture– but Satoru’s eyes were sharp, he never missed the smallest twitch of your lips as soon as you’d finished your melodramatics. The last book was the longest, and by then, the city outside his window had gone quiet. His dorm was dim except for the glow of his lamp, and his body was buzzing with a mix of exhaustion and excitement. He was too far in now, too absorbed in the thought of you reading all of this soon. This book had a recurring theme about missed chances—about words left unsaid and moments that could have changed everything if only someone had spoken up. It hit a little too close to home, but he didn’t let himself dwell on that. Instead, he carefully underlined a sentence: Sometimes, we don’t realise what we mean to someone until it’s too late.
Beneath it, he wrote: I hope this never applies to y̶o̶u̶ whoever is reading this.
And then– and then he wrote another little thing, but it felt a bit too intimate, a bit too revealing so he neatly crossed it out. His pen hovered over the page for a moment. That was the most honest thing he had written all night. Satoru exhaled, rubbing his eyes before sitting back, staring at the stack of books now filled with his thoughts. He had done it. You wouldn’t get a single blank page. You’d find him in every single one.
–
Satoru strolled across campus with a tote bag slung over his shoulder, weighed down by four thick novels. The books—now thoroughly marked up, pages lined with his messy scrawl—felt heavier than they should have, but maybe that was just him. He’d spent the entire night annotating them, barely stopping to eat, sleep, or think about anything that wasn’t you reading his words. Now, all he had to do was return them before you got to the library. He wasn’t about to let you see him checking them in like some lovesick idiot. He carefully managed to place them back on the shelf after scanning them as ‘unborrowed’. He was a few steps from the library doors when someone rounded the corner, and before he could react—
Bam. The collision wasn’t hard, just enough to jostle him off balance, and he barely had time to reach out and steady you before you could stumble back. “Damn, could at least pretend to watch where you’re going,” he drawled, glancing down at you with a smirk. “Or do you just like running into me?”
You scoffed, adjusting your bag over your shoulder. “Yeah, I totally planned that. Just desperate to bump into you of all people.”
“Oh, come on,” he teased, stepping aside so you could walk past him. “If you wanted an excuse to see me, you could’ve just said so.” You rolled your eyes, clearly unimpressed. “Please. I’m actually on my way to the library, unlike some people who just loiter around.”
His grip on his tote bag tightened for half a second, but he kept his expression easy, unreadable. “Library, huh?”
“Yeah,” you said, brushing a stray strand of hair behind your ear. “I finished this book from a series I’m actually enjoying, so I figured I’d borrow the next one today.” You didn’t even know why you told him that, but you figured it was an improvement from the usual bickering you two always had going on. He hummed, nodding slowly. “Oh, okay. Well…” He took a step back, flashing a lazy grin. “Have fun with that.” You narrowed your eyes at him. “Why do you sound weird?”
“I always sound weird.”
“Yeah, but more than usual.”
Satoru shrugged. “Dunno what you’re talking about.” You stared at him suspiciously for another second before shaking your head. “Whatever.” And with that, you pushed past him, making your way toward the library doors. Satoru watched you go, fighting the smug grin threatening to take over his face. He could already picture it—the way you’d flip through the pages, expecting plain text, only to find the familiar, scrawled handwriting in the margins. He wondered if you’d smile. If you’d talk about it again the way you had in class. He shook his head to himself, finally turning away. Yeah. He was so in trouble.
–
You settled into your usual spot at the campus café, tucking yourself into the corner by the window with the newly borrowed books. Yes, books. Not a book. You figured that if there were just four more books left in the series, you’d just borrow them now, instead of continuing the annoying walk from your dorm or lecture rooms to the library. The familiar scent of aged paper and coffee beans wrapped around you, grounding you in your routine.
With your drink beside you and your phone silenced, you flipped the fourth book open, eager to dive in. You didn’t even bother to check the borrowing card this time, neither had you written your own name in it yet, heart beating a little faster as you childishly hoped that the familiar cursive scrawls were still present in the weathered pages. You had barely made it past the first few pages when your eyes caught something in the margins next to one of the more romantic lines.
Bet whoever is reading this– I just know this made your heart do that stupid fluttery thing. You blinked. Your stomach did an odd little flip, completely unprovoked. Honestly speaking, your heart did that little flip more in regards to the familiar blue handwriting rather than the line on the page. You knew exactly whose handwriting that was.
G.S. had struck again. A slow smile pulled at your lips as you traced the ink with your fingertip. You had gotten so used to these notes, the little jokes, the occasional deep thoughts, that it almost felt like a conversation now. Like you weren’t reading alone, but with someone who understood exactly what you’d linger on, what you’d pause to appreciate. And yet… something about this one felt slightly different. You glanced at the ink again. It looked a little… darker? Not as faded as some of the earlier notes in the series.
You frowned slightly but shook the thought away. Maybe it was just your imagination. You kept reading. A few pages later, the protagonist stared out of a train window, lost in thought. The description was melancholic, vivid, and all too relatable.
Ever feel like this? Just existing, watching life happen? You exhaled sharply through your nose. Yeah, you thought. All the damn time. You tapped your fingers against the table, feeling that same strange connection as before. Whoever G.S. was, they had a way of making their presence known—not just through the words they chose to underline, but in the little thoughts they left behind, the questions they posed, the moments they chose to comment on. It was like they could hear your thoughts before you even formed them, like they knew exactly where your mind would linger on the page.
The sun dipped lower outside the arched windows of the campus café, casting long shadows across the floor as golden light pooled over the tables. The afternoon crowd had begun to thin, students trickling out one by one, their conversations fading into the hum of the espresso machine and the occasional clatter of cups behind the counter. The once-busy space was quieter now, more intimate, like the world had momentarily shrunk down to just you and the book in your hands. You traced the ink of the latest annotation with your thumb, barely skimming the words but feeling them all the same. It was a strange thing—to be so affected by someone you had never even met. Had you met them? The question pressed at the edges of your mind, unspoken yet persistent. The specificity of some of these notes, the way they seemed to know you—it made your stomach flip in a way you weren’t quite sure how to name.
You glanced at the café entrance, as if expecting to see someone standing there, watching you, waiting to see your reaction. But no one lingered. Just the usual stragglers—people buried in their own work, in their own stories. Still, the feeling remained. With a quiet exhale, you pulled your focus back to the page and turned it, sinking further into the book. The story continued, but now, each annotation felt like something more. Like a conversation waiting to happen. And by the time you could hear the cicadas chirping outside, you had successfully finished the fourth book.
–
Your luck today had been astoundingly awful. The first sign was your hair—a complete disaster from the moment you woke up. Brushing it down did nothing. Water made it worse. Mousse? A grave mistake. You finally resorted to tying it up, accepting defeat. Then came the sharp pain on your forehead, a telltale sign of a forming pimple, because of course your skin had decided to betray you too. But the true betrayal came from your kettle, which, after years of faithful service, had chosen this morning to stop working. No tea. No caffeine. No hope. And now? Now, as if the universe hadn’t already tested you enough, you were seated next to Gojo Satoru, his chair pushed obnoxiously close, his long legs stretching out under the desk like he owned the place. His expression was insufferably smug, like he had personally orchestrated all of this just to get under your skin.
Have you ever mentioned that you shared more than one class with Gojo? Sure, you were both in the same physics course, but once again, your luck with picking extra subjects was nothing short of terrible. That’s how you ended up in psychology—a field that couldn’t be further from the world of physics you were so deeply immersed in. You had figured it would be a nice change, to explore a different kind of science.
Unfortunately, a certain white haired freak seemed to share the same thought process.
You exhaled sharply, crossing your arms. “We’re not choosing your dumb topic.” Gojo gasped dramatically, placing a hand over his chest. “Excuse you, my brilliant topic.”
“You want to write about the psychology of humor.”
“Exactly! It’s fascinating.” He grinned. “What makes something funny? Why do people laugh? Why am I so naturally hilarious?” You pinched the bridge of your nose. “We’re in a psychology class, Gojo, not a stand-up workshop.”
“And yet, humor is deeply psychological.” He leaned forward, eyes twinkling with mischief. “Maybe if you had a better sense of humor, you’d agree with me.” You scowled. “I have a perfectly fine sense of humor.”
“Sure you do,” he teased, “in the same way a brick has mobility.” Your jaw clenched. “I’m not doing a research paper on why people laugh.”
“And I’m not doing one on cognitive dissonance,” he shot back, drumming his fingers against the desk. “It’s been done to death.”
“It’s interesting,” you argued. “It actually ties into real-world behavior.”
“So does humor.” You stared him down. He stared right back, his lips curving just slightly, like he was having the time of his life getting you riled up.
A muscle in your jaw twitched. “Rock, paper, scissors?”
Gojo snorted. “What are we, five?” You held out a fist. He sighed, then did the same.
Rock, paper, scissors, shoot. Your scissors to his rock. Your eye twitched. His grin was downright gleeful. “Looks like we’re writing about humor.”
“You are insufferable.”
“I’m a visionary,” he corrected, stretching his arms behind his head. “You’ll thank me when we get a great grade.” You grumbled something under your breath, flipping open your notebook to at least try and plan the assignment. You weren’t about to let him ruin your GPA over jokes. But Gojo wasn’t looking at the notebook. He wasn’t even thinking about the project anymore. His gaze lingered on the way a few wisps of hair had escaped your ponytail, framing your face. He wasn’t used to seeing your hair tied back—it made your features more striking, somehow. It made him notice the little things, like the way your brow creased when you were annoyed, or the way your lips pursed slightly when you were trying really hard not to snap at him. And it was funny. All morning, you’d been looking at him like he was a headache, while he… well. He’d be lying if he said he wasn’t kind of enjoying himself. He propped his chin in his palm, watching you jot something down in your notebook.
“You know,” he mused, “for someone who’s so against my topic, you sure do make me laugh a lot.” You shot him a suspicious look. “What is that supposed to mean?”
Gojo smirked. “Just an observation.” You scoffed. “An annoyance is not the same thing as amusement.”
“Tell that to your cognitive dissonance.” You rolled your eyes, but before you could fire back, something distracted you. A shift in the air, a fleeting scent—something clean and warm, like cedar and the lingering spice of cologne. You blinked. You didn’t know why you noticed it now, of all times, but the way he smelled was… oddly pleasant. You shook it off, focusing on your notes again. Only, now you were very aware of other things, too—like the fact that his hand, resting casually on the desk, was a lot bigger than yours. His fingers were long, his knuckles prominent, and his nails were annoyingly well-groomed for someone who clearly put zero effort into most things. You clenched your jaw, forcing yourself to refocus. It’s just Gojo, you told yourself. He’s just being annoying. As usual. I’m probably ovulating or something. Gojo, meanwhile, had caught the way your eyes flickered over to him, how you quickly looked away after.
He tilted his head. “Something on your mind?”
“Yeah,” you muttered, deadpan. “How fast I can finish this project so I don’t have to deal with you.” Gojo chuckled, and despite yourself, you felt the sound of it—low and amused, like he found you far too entertaining. “Oh, sweets,” Gojo drawled, his voice lilting with amusement, “no way in hell am I gonna let you finish this project fast enough to escape me. C’mon, in our three beautiful years of rivalry, you’ve never once tried to get to know me—”
“Let’s just start the project,” you cut him off, already pulling out your stationery and notebook, flipping to a fresh page with more force than necessary. You barely resisted the urge to groan at the topic glaring back at you. Humour. Ugh.
Gojo, of course, noticed immediately. He didn’t even have to try—he just always noticed things. The way your lips pressed into a thin line, how your fingers fidgeted with the cap of your pen, how your shoulders tensed slightly, like you were already resigning yourself to suffering through an assignment you hated. His smirk faded—just a little. And then, before he could think about it too hard, he sighed.
“You know what?” he said, nudging his notebook aside. “Screw it. Let’s do your topic.”
You blinked, pen hovering mid-air. “What?”
“You heard me,” he said, waving a hand. “Cognitive dissonance, weird little psychology experiments, all that jazz. It’s fine.”
Your eyes narrowed. “This feels like a trick.”
“Wow, you think that low of me?,” he said, clutching his chest in mock betrayal. “I am capable of compromise, you know.”
You gave him a flat look. “Since when?”
Gojo rolled his eyes but didn’t argue. Instead, he leaned forward, elbows propped on the desk, watching you with a lazy kind of curiosity.
“Seriously, though. If you hate my topic that much, let’s just do yours. No big deal.”
You stared at him, suspicious. Gojo Satoru? Giving up? It felt wrong.
“Wait,” you said suddenly, narrowing your eyes further. “What’s the catch?”
“There’s no catch,” he insisted, but the way he said it, all breezy and casual, made you even more suspicious.
“… You want me to owe you a favor, don’t you?”
He gasped, scandalised. “Sweets, I would never manipulate you like that.”
You scoffed. “You absolutely would.”
“Okay, yeah, I would,” he admitted easily, grinning. “But this isn’t that.”
You hesitated, drumming your fingers against the notebook. Then, you exhaled, shaking your head. “No. We’ll do humor.”
Now he was the one taken aback. “Huh?”
“I don’t want to hear you complain about how boring cognitive dissonance is for the next two weeks,” you said, scribbling down a rough outline. “And you’re actually interested in humor, so we’ll get it done faster.”
Gojo just stared at you, like he couldn’t quite believe what he was hearing.
“Hold on. You’re giving in?”
“Don’t make it weird.”
“Oh, I’m definitely making it weird.” His grin was slow, teasing, like he had just won something. “This is, like, a historic moment. I should get it framed.”
“Gojo.”
“I mean, imagine if people knew—”
“Gojo.”
“—that you actually care about my interests? That you—gasp—want to make me happy?” You kicked him under the desk.
“Ow!” He laughed, rubbing his shin. “That was uncalled for.”
“You deserved it.”
“But really,” he said, still grinning, “this is kinda nice.”
You quirked a brow. “What is?”
He shrugged, tilting his head. “Usually, we’re arguing for ourselves. This is the first time we’ve argued over, like, what’s better for the other person.” Your lips parted slightly. You hadn’t thought about it like that. For a moment, neither of you spoke. Then, absurdly, a little laugh slipped out of you. Just a small one, but it was enough to make Gojo’s eyes flicker with amusement. And before you knew it, he was laughing, too. It wasn’t even that funny, but somehow, the realisation of how ridiculous this entire thing had been—bickering for fifteen minutes over who should get their way only to insist on the opposite—had you both quietly shaking with laughter in the middle of the library.
“Okay, okay,” you finally said, breathless. “Let’s get this outline done before we completely fail this class.”
“I’d never fail,” Gojo said, flipping open his notebook. “I’m naturally brilliant.”
“You would if I weren’t here keeping you on track.”
He grinned. “See? You like being my partner.” You rolled your eyes, but as you both started drafting the project together, something about this—about working with him, actually working—felt… nice. And even though he was still Gojo, still distracting, still annoying, still insufferably smug, for once, he didn’t feel like an opponent. He just felt like Satoru. Not Gojo, but Satoru. Of course, the moment things got too productive, he ruined it.
“Y’know,” he mused, leaning back in his chair, “I am gonna make sure our humor project includes at least one joke at your expense.”
You deadpanned. “Then I’m making sure our references include an article on the psychological effects of annoying classmates.”
Gojo gasped. “I would love to read that.”
You smacked his arm with your notebook. And, as usual, he just laughed. You two managed to get a lot of the work done– not just a solid outline of your project, but the finer details too. Gojo suddenly shoved his chair back, standing up so abruptly that you startled. “I need to do something,” he announced, brushing imaginary dust off his clothes. You frowned, confused. “What? Where are you going?”
“Just wait here,” he said, already turning on his heel. Your brows furrowed. “Wait—what? Gojo—”
“Just wait!” he called over his shoulder before disappearing down the hallway. You stared at the empty space where he had been, utterly bewildered. What the hell was that about? For a moment, you debated packing up your stuff and leaving just to be petty, but curiosity got the better of you. Huffing, you tapped your pen against your notebook, drumming your fingers impatiently. Three minutes passed. Then five. Then—
Gojo reappeared, striding back toward your table with an obnoxiously triumphant grin. In one hand, he held two drinks, in the other, a small paper bag. He set them down in front of you like he was presenting some kind of grand prize.
You stared. “... What is this?”
“Snacks,” he said, like it was obvious. “I see that,” you said, eyeing the drinks. One was clearly milk tea—yours, probably—but the other was some sugary monstrosity topped with whipped cream, which was obviously his. “But why?”
“Well, we’ve been working,” he said easily, plopping back into his seat. “Figured we deserved a break.” You blinked, then looked down at the tea again. It smelled… exactly how you usually ordered it.
Suspicion prickled at you. “Did you—did you get this on purpose?”
Gojo took a sip of his own drink, unbothered. “Yeah?”
Your eyes narrowed. “How do you even know what I drink?”
Gojo shrugged. “Dunno. Guess I just noticed that one time when I ended up paying for it.”
You paused. The thought of Gojo Satoru noticing anything about you—remembering how you liked your tea, going out of his way to get it without even asking—made your brain short-circuit for a second. You weren’t sure what to do with that information, so you just focused on unrolling the top of the pastry bag, peering inside. There were two croissants—one chocolate, one plain.
“… Okay, but the pastries?”
“I didn’t know what you liked, so I got both.” You squinted at him. “That doesn’t make any sense.” He smirked. “Sure it does. If you like chocolate, I got it right. If you don’t, more for me.” You stared at him, then at the pastries, then back at him.
“Unbelievable,” you muttered, shaking your head.
“Unbelievably thoughtful?” he supplied.
“Unbelievably annoying.”
Gojo grinned. “That too.” Rolling your eyes, you took the chocolate croissant anyway, breaking off a piece. The tea was still warm when you took a sip, and you hated that it was perfect—hated that Gojo Satoru of all people had somehow memorized exactly how you liked it. He propped his elbow on the table, chin resting in his hand as he watched you. “Y’know, for someone who’s been roasting me for the last five minutes, you seem to be enjoying that a lot.”
You shot him a look. “Don’t push it.” He only laughed, reaching for his own pastry. “No promises.”
–
Over the next week, you and Gojo fell into an oddly stable rhythm. It wasn’t immediate—nothing with Gojo ever was—but slowly, the sharp edges of your interactions dulled. The bickering still happened, but it felt different, less like clashing swords and more like an inside joke neither of you wanted to drop. Your study sessions were always in the same corner of the library, where Gojo insisted on pushing the limits of how far back he could tilt his chair before it inevitably crashed to the floor.
(“Gojo, if you fall and crack your head open, I’m not calling an ambulance.”
“Nah, you totally would.”
“I wouldn’t.”
“Yes, you would, sweets. You like me too much to let me die like that.”)
You’d grumble and go back to your notes, but a traitorous part of you was starting to find his antics almost… endearing. Your actual progress on the project was steady. It surprised you—Gojo might’ve been infuriating, but when he actually focused, he was sharp. He had a way of cutting through useless information, pinpointing the most interesting angle on a subject, making connections you hadn’t considered. Begrudgingly, you kind of understood why he was always neck to neck with you in grades.
(“So, humor as a psychological coping mechanism?”
“Mhm.”
“And you want to include self-deprecating humor as a subsection?”
“Well, yeah,” he said, twirling a pen between his fingers. “It’s like, prime material.”
“You literally never make fun of yourself.”
“I make fun of myself all the time.”
You scoffed. “Oh, really?”
He smirked. “Yeah. I mean, look at me—six-foot-three, gorgeous, built like a god—my life is so hard, y’know?”
You stared at him. “That was not self-deprecating.”
“No?” He shrugged, leaning in slightly, his voice dropping just enough to make your stomach do something weird. “Maybe I just want you to compliment me.”
You threw a balled-up piece of paper at his head.)
There were… moments. Small, fleeting things you didn’t know what to do with. Like the time your pen rolled off the table and he picked it up, spinning it between his fingers before handing it back to you, and you noticed—really noticed—how big his hands were. Or how, sometimes, when he was reading something on your laptop, he’d lean in too close, and you’d catch the faint scent of his cologne—fresh, clean, but with something warm underneath. You ignored these things. Obviously.
But then came the gym. You were only there because you needed to de-stress. The project had been long, your classes demanding, and you just wanted to move your body and clear your head. You weren’t expecting to see him there. At first, you didn’t even realize it was Gojo. You were just filling your water bottle, minding your business, when your gaze flickered to the squat rack and landed on a very tall, very shirtless figure. And then your brain short-circuited. Because it was Gojo.
And Gojo was—
Built.
Like, really built. You had known he was tall. You had known he was in shape. But knowing and seeing were two different things. His usual oversized hoodies and button-ups had hidden the fact that his entire torso was carved like a damn statue. Broad shoulders, lean muscle, a defined chest, abs for days and—
Your gaze dropped lower.
—Happy trail. Something inside you malfunctioned. Because, okay, fine, sure—objectively speaking, Gojo Satoru was attractive. You had always known that. But this? This was different. This was some kind of cruel joke. This was the universe personally handing you a vision of a half-naked Gojo and saying, Hey, enjoy struggling with this one! You were staring. Oh, god, you were staring. You needed to leave. You were about to spin on your heel and get the hell out of there, but that was when he noticed you. His gaze locked onto yours in the mirror, and something slow and amused curled across his lips.
“Yo,” he called, turning around fully now, like he knew exactly what he was doing. You were so close to pretending you hadn’t heard him, but there were only so many places to run. You forced yourself to walk over, as if this was normal, as if your brain hadn’t just imploded from seeing Gojo Satoru shirtless. “You work out?” he asked, wiping sweat off his forehead with a towel, and you hated that even that was distracting.
“Yes, Gojo, I work out,” you said flatly, crossing your arms. He grinned. “Huh. Never would’ve guessed.” You narrowed your eyes. “What’s that supposed to mean?” He just shrugged, all easy confidence and knowing smirks. “You don’t exactly look like the gym type, sweets.”
“Because I don’t look like I can deadlift a hundred kilos?” you shot back.
He tilted his head. “Can you?”
“… No.”
He laughed, tossing the towel over his shoulder. “Then I rest my case.” You scowled. “You’re annoying.”
“And you’re staring,” he quipped, and your breath caught in your throat. Your face heated. “I—I am not.” His smirk deepened. “Sure you aren’t.”
You clenched your jaw, trying to school your expression into something neutral. You refused to let him know he was right. But as you turned on your heel and all but stomped to another part of the gym, you could still feel his gaze on you. And the worst part? You didn’t hate it.
The next day, you almost considered canceling your study session. Not because you were avoiding Gojo. Obviously. You were just busy. Lots of work. Essays. Big academic responsibilities. But you weren’t a coward. (And okay, fine, maybe a tiny part of you was curious to see if things would be normal again. Not that things were weird, but—well. Whatever.) When you arrived at the library, Gojo was already there, feet kicked up on the chair across from him, lazily flipping through his notes.
“Look who decided to show up,” he said without looking up. You dropped your bag onto the table with a little more force than necessary. “Shut up.” He smirked. “Feisty today, huh?” You ignored him, pulling out your laptop. “Did you actually get any work done?”
He held up a single, crumpled page.
You groaned. “Gojo.”
“Hey, hey,” he said, leaning forward, “in my defense, I was busy yesterday.” You knew exactly what he was referencing. You refused to react. Instead, you snatched the page from his hands. “We’re never finishing this at this rate.”
Gojo leaned on his hand, watching you with a lazy smile. “Maybe I just like dragging this out so I can keep seeing you.”
Your fingers twitched around your pen.
He was messing with you. Obviously. That was what he did. But it was getting harder and harder to pretend you didn’t notice the way his gaze lingered sometimes. Or the way your stomach dipped when he said things like that. You cleared your throat, forcing yourself to focus. “We’re getting this done today, whether you like it or not.”
“Bossy,” he murmured, still watching you. You gave him a look. And then you got to work. And as much as you hated to admit it, your study sessions with Gojo had started to feel… comfortable. It was weird. In some ways, nothing had changed—you still bickered, still teased, still rolled your eyes at each other every five minutes. But there was something different underneath it now, something you couldn’t quite name. And you weren’t sure you wanted to. Not yet.
–
The lecture hall was packed, the dull hum of students settling in filling the air as you pulled out your notes. Today’s topic was something about fluid dynamics—not that you were paying too much attention. Mostly because you were tired. And, maybe, because there was a certain someone sitting behind you. You don’t know when or why it had started– maybe it was the fact that you’d, well, always been deprived of male attention (since you were hyper focused on academics instead. Those men won’t bring you scholarships, but your GPA will!), or the fact that you had seen him multiple times in the past weeks without feeling the urge to rip his head off, or maybe you actually were ovulating, you hadn’t checked your cycle on your period tracking app yet but it was likely—
You had been doing your best to ignore it, to ignore him, but Gojo had a way of making his presence known. Even when he wasn’t doing anything, you were now even more hyper aware of him—the occasional shift of his chair, the absentminded tapping of his pen against the desk, the quiet sighs of boredom that you knew were dramatic. And then, just as you were finally starting to concentrate, you felt it. A presence leaning in behind you, the faintest brush of breath against your ear.
“Sweets,” Gojo whispered, his voice low, teasing.
Your whole body went rigid. “What,” you hissed, barely moving your lips, keeping your eyes trained on the professor at the front of the room.
“There’s a fatal flaw in this lecture,” he murmured, his voice laced with amusement. You refused to turn around. “Gojo, I swear—”
“I mean, really,” he continued, like you hadn’t spoken, “how can they expect us to focus on physics when you’re sitting right in front of me?” Your grip on your pen tightened. Your face was definitely heating up. Slowly, finally, you turned your head just enough to glare at him. “Are you seriously flirting with me in the middle of a lecture on fluid dynamics?”
Gojo grinned, chin resting on his palm, looking utterly unrepentant. “I’m not flirting. I’m just… y’know… testing like behaviourism, or whatever.”
You inhaled sharply, willing yourself not to react. Noticing your silence, his smirk grew.
“Or,” he whispered, tilting his head, “is the idea of me flirting with you not so bad?” Your brain short-circuited for half a second. Then you turned back around, focusing very hard on your notes, pretending you hadn’t heard him, pretending your heart wasn’t doing something very annoying in your chest. Behind you, Gojo chuckled softly, and you could feel his smirk.
You hated him. You hated him. Nah, you didn’t. You just… now mildly disliked him.
–
By the time the physics final rolled around, your life had been reduced to a frantic cycle of cramming formulas, flipping through notes, and barely surviving on caffeine. The psychology project with Gojo had taken up way more time than you expected—not just because of the work itself, but because of him. His constant presence, his insufferable teasing, the way he somehow made long study sessions more bearable with his antics. It was irritatingly easy to fall into a rhythm with him, and by the time you’d turned in your joint paper, you were too mentally exhausted to even think about anything else. Which was probably why you forgot about book five. When you finally let yourself have a break, that you found it tucked away in your bag.
The sight of it sent a flicker of guilt through your chest—you’d been so eager to read it, and then you just… hadn’t. You curled up by the window, the campus café bustling quietly in the background, warm drink in hand as you flipped open the book. This one was slightly smaller than the other ones in terms of length– you’d be able to finish it in an hour or so. The familiarity of the prose was comforting, like stepping back into a world you knew well. And then, right beside a passage about finding comfort in the little things—the warmth of a cup of tea, the quiet joy of returning to a familiar book—was an annotation.
Hope anyone who ever reads this is reading this with a warm drink. Tea, in my opinion, is the best kind of beverage to drink while reading a book series like this.
Your breath caught in your throat.
Okay. That was… oddly specific.
A chill—not unpleasant, but strange—crept up your spine. It wasn’t just the words themselves, but the fact that G.S. knew this about you. It was as if they’d noticed your habit of your love of tea. But it was probably a coincidence. I mean, tea is enjoyed by millions of people in the world, right? You exhaled slowly, shaking the feeling off as you flipped a few more pages. The wittiness of the quips grew, and you eagerly read through each one with heightened interest. In about forty five minutes, you had managed to finish the fifth book with ease. Since you had some free time to spare, you started on the second last book.
The first note you came across was pure sarcasm, scrawled beside a particularly dramatic inner monologue from the protagonist.
Relax, you’re not in a soap opera.
And a few pages later: Actually, never mind, maybe you are.
You huffed a quiet laugh, rolling your eyes. The teasing was familiar, familiar enough to imbue a sense of relaxation in you. The annotations drew you in, the ink curling across the margins like whispered thoughts meant just for you. It was easy to imagine G.S. sitting beside you, their presence warm and familiar, flipping through the pages with quiet amusement. Someone who knew exactly which passages would make you pause, who understood the way certain lines lingered in your mind long after you’d read them.
Your fingers traced over the words they had left behind, and for a moment, you let yourself daydream. You imagined meeting them—G.S., whoever they were. The two of you sitting in some hidden corner of a library, books stacked high around you, the world outside fading away. Maybe their voice was soft, thoughtful, the kind that made you want to lean in a little closer. Maybe they smiled when you argued about a particular passage, when you pointed out something they’d written in the margins.
Maybe they would look at you like you were something worth understanding.
The thought sent a strange warmth curling through your chest. It was silly, this little fantasy, but you let yourself indulge in it anyway. And that was when your brain betrayed you.
For a brief, horrifying moment, the faceless idea of G.S. wasn’t faceless anymore. The image of Gojo flashed into your mind, unbidden and unwanted. But it wasn’t just him reading beside you, wasn’t just him scrawling out these notes with his long, annoyingly pretty fingers.
It was him kissing you.
Gojo’s lips brushing against yours, lazy and confident, like it was the most natural thing in the world. His hand sliding up your spine, the heat of him pressing against you, that teasing voice of his murmuring something you wouldn’t quite catch—
Your entire body froze.
No.
No, no, no.
You tried to shake it off, tried to focus on the book in front of you, but the words blurred together, unreadable. Your mind was stuck, caught on the vividness of the thought that had just invaded it.
Gojo.
Not just Gojo sitting across from you, running his mouth like he always did. Not just Gojo tossing a wadded-up paper at your head or poking at the end of your pen when you were trying to write. No—your brain had conjured up something else entirely. Gojo leaning in too close, his breath warm against your lips. The weight of his hand pressing into the small of your back, fingertips splayed across your lower back, your waist, your sides. The slow, unhurried way he would kiss you—because of course he’d be like that, because he was always so damn self-assured. Because he never did anything halfway.
And worse—worse—you could almost hear him. That stupid teasing voice, low and amused, murmuring something between kisses, something only meant for you. Your fingers twitched, and you slammed the book shut.
No. Nope. Not happening.
Your pulse was erratic, your skin burning like you’d been caught doing something you shouldn’t. You blinked rapidly, as if that alone could erase the thought from existence, but the sensation lingered, the imagined heat of him refusing to dissipate. It was just stress. That’s all it was. You were exhausted, overworked, and had spent way too much time in Gojo’s orbit lately. Of course your brain was short-circuiting. You exhaled sharply, forcing yourself to reopen the book. Back to reality. Back to G.S.
Back to anything that wasn’t Gojo Satoru and the absurd, fleeting idea of what kissing him might feel like.
–
Gojo’s deep voice cut through your thoughts, pulling you back into the present as he tapped the end of his pen against the open physics textbook in front of you both.
“And then—are you even listening to me?” You blinked, realizing you’d been zoning out. “Yeah—yeah,” you mumbled, scrambling for something relevant to say. “Professor Takeda can be an ass sometimes, even if he’s awesome at teaching.” Gojo grinned, apparently satisfied with your response, and continued yapping as he absentmindedly worked through some small equations on the paper in front of you both. His handwriting was quick and fluid, annoyingly neat for someone who acted like he never took anything seriously.
You didn’t quite know how it had happened, but after the two of you had finally submitted the psychology project, something between you shifted. It wasn’t spoken aloud, wasn’t even acknowledged outright, but it was there—an unspoken understanding. You still bickered, still argued over trivial things, but there was something else now too. A companionship. A quiet, reluctant camaraderie that neither of you had actively sought out but somehow settled into with surprising ease. And now, you were in the library with him, ironically revising for the upcoming physics final, less than a week away. You weren’t sure when he had become your unofficial study partner, but here he was, scribbling down formulas as he complained about Takeda’s obsession with fluid dynamics.
“You’re still struggling with Bernoulli’s principle?” you teased, shifting your chair slightly to get a better look at his notes.
“Struggling is a strong word,” he said, twirling his pen between his fingers. “I prefer ‘strategically choosing to ignore it until I absolutely have to care.’”
You scoffed, but before you could argue, your eyes landed on the book beside your bag—the sixth book in the series you’d been slowly working through, the second-to-last one before the finale. You had completely forgotten about it. You were pretty sure you had hit the maximum borrowing period, and at this rate, you were lucky the library hadn’t sent you an overdue notice.
“I need to go return this,” you muttered, grabbing the book and standing up.
Gojo glanced at it, tilting his head slightly. “That again?”
You blinked at him. “What?”
“That series,” he clarified, nodding towards the book in your hand. “You’ve been reading it forever. What’s the deal?” You hesitated for a moment, not really sure why you felt the sudden urge to explain, but then the words slipped out before you could stop them.
“I… I don’t know. It’s comforting, I guess,” you admitted. “It’s one of those series that just sticks with you, you know? And it’s not just the story—it’s the annotations.”
Gojo raised an eyebrow. “Annotations?”
You shifted your weight from one foot to the other. “Yeah. Someone else read these books before me, and they wrote all these little notes in the margins. Some of them are funny, some are insightful, some are just straight-up teasing—but they make the whole experience feel… shared, I guess.” For once, Gojo didn’t say anything. He just listened, head tilted, watching you with an expression you couldn’t quite decipher.
You coughed, suddenly feeling self-conscious. “Anyway, I should go return this.” You turned before he could say anything else and made your way to the library’s return section—only to find the drop-off shelves completely blocked off with construction tape. A small sign informed students that book returns had to be made manually at the front desk. With a sigh, you made your way to the librarian’s desk. She smiled at you as you set the book down.
“Returning this?” she asked, flipping open the cover to check the borrowing card.
“Yeah,” you said, nodding. She hummed, scanning the barcode. “You know, someone else borrowed this whole series a while back.”
No way.
No way, no way, no way.
Is this how you were going to finally find out who the faceless stranger you had grown attached to was? Your heart skipped a beat. You forced yourself to keep your voice casual.
“Oh? Can you recall who?”
She paused, tapping her chin as if trying to recall. “Give me a moment dear. He’s a male…about the same age as you, actually. Well I think he might be the same age as you. Hmm, he was tall, quite tall, had this head of brilliant white hair, and glasses. His eyes were startlingly blue too. I can’t remember his name but you two’d get along, he seemed very interested in these series too!” She chuckled, taking the book from you to store it under one of the accompanying shelves.
Your blood ran cold.
She continued, oblivious to your internal panic. “Had this little keychain on his bag too. It tinkled a lot when he came in to borrow the books.” Your mind flashed back to the small jingling sound of Gojo’s keychain— a digimon one. The one that always made a tiny noise whenever he slung his bag over his shoulder. Oh my god.
Your grip tightened on the desk. “Right. Thanks.”
Somehow, miraculously, you managed to return the book without your hands shaking. But the moment you turned away, the weight of the realization slammed into you like a tidal wave. Your breath hitched, your vision tunneled slightly, and for a second, you weren’t sure if your legs would carry you back to the table.
Gojo.
Gojo was G.S.
The knowledge settled in your bones with a dizzying clarity, making the library around you feel unreal, like you were wading through a dream you couldn’t wake up from. The notes, the teasing comments, the underlined passages—it had all been him. The same Gojo Satoru who drove you insane with his arrogance, who somehow wormed his way into your study sessions, who made physics revision bearable with his endless chatter. And he had never said a word about it. By the time you reached the table, your emotions were tangled beyond recognition—embarrassment, frustration, something dangerously close to hurt. You dropped into your seat, a little too forcefully, the noise drawing his attention.
Gojo barely glanced up from his notes. “You okay? You look like you just saw a ghost.”
You swallowed, pulse thrumming against your ribs. Your fingers curled into fists against your lap. You felt like you were standing on the edge of something sharp, something that could cut you open if you weren’t careful.
“It’s you,” you said, your voice barely above a whisper.
He finally met your gaze, his pen stilling against the page. For a second—just a second—there was nothing but blankness in his expression, as if he truly didn’t understand what you meant. But then, recognition flickered in those bright, unreadable eyes. And slowly, like he had been waiting for this exact moment, he grinned.
“Took you long enough.”
A sharp breath escaped you, like the wind had been knocked from your lungs. Something twisted in your chest. He knew. He had known. You exhaled shakily, trying to hold onto your composure, but your voice wavered when you spoke again. “You—” You swallowed hard. “You knew it was me reading those books, and you just—”
He didn’t deny it. Didn’t even try. You hated the way he was looking at you, like this was funny, like this was just some game he had been playing all along. Like he had been waiting for you to connect the dots, to put the pieces together while he sat back and watched. Something inside you cracked.
“You were just messing with me.” The words came out quiet, but there was something raw beneath them, something unsteady. “That’s what this was, right? Just another one of your games?”
For the first time, his smirk faltered.
“That’s not—”
But you didn’t let him finish.
You stood up too fast, your chair scraping loudly against the floor. A few heads turned, students shooting you mildly annoyed glances, but you couldn’t bring yourself to care. You felt like the library was closing in around you, like you needed to get out before you drowned under the weight of it all.
“Forget it,” you muttered, voice tight. You grabbed your bag, barely able to look at him. “I’ll see you in class.” And before he could stop you—before he could say something that might make you stay—you turned on your heel and walked out of the library. Your pulse roared in your ears, your face burned with humiliation, and your heart—God, your heart was a tangled, aching mess you weren’t ready to unravel yet.
–
You didn’t talk to Gojo for three days. Not once. Not in class, not in the library, not even in passing. If he was in a group conversation, you found an excuse to leave. If he tried to sit next to you, you conveniently needed to be somewhere else. And if you caught even a glimpse of him from across campus, you turned in the opposite direction before he could call your name. It wasn’t out of pettiness. At least, you didn’t think so.
You were hurt.
The weight of it had settled deep in your chest, a slow, heavy ache that didn’t fade no matter how much you tried to distract yourself. You felt stupid, looking back at all those late nights spent tracing the loops of G.S.’s handwriting, at the way you had let yourself get caught up in the fantasy of someone—someone you thought understood you. Someone who had felt just as deeply about those books as you had. And the whole time, it had been him.
Had he just been laughing at you? Watching you get wrapped up in his words, in him, while he sat back and waited for you to figure it out? Had it all just been some kind of joke? You didn’t know what answer would hurt more. Gojo, however, wasn’t making your avoidance easy.
He noticed, of course. The first day, he seemed ashamed. You saw it in the way he frowned when you brushed past him after class, in the way his gaze lingered when you sat on the opposite end of the library instead of your usual table.
The second day, he got annoyed.
“Are you serious right now?” he had muttered when you blatantly ignored him outside the lecture hall, your fingers tightening around your books as you sped up. By the third day, his frustration had given way to something else—something quieter, something bordering on concern.
He caught your wrist as you passed him in the hallway that morning, his grip loose enough for you to pull away if you wanted.
“Hey,” he murmured, his voice uncharacteristically soft. “Are we—?” He hesitated. “Did I—?”
You looked at him then, really looked at him, and for the first time in years, you saw it—uncertainty.
Gojo Satoru was scared. But you weren’t ready to talk. Not yet. So you shook him off and kept walking.
He let you go. For the rest of the day, you tried to pretend like it didn’t feel like a mistake. That night, unable to sleep, you reached for the last book in the series—the one you had borrowed before you found out. You had been meaning to return it. The thought of flipping through those pages again felt wrong after everything that had happened. But something about the weight of it in your hands made you pause. Before you could talk yourself out of it, you curled up in bed and opened to the first page.
And read.
At first, it was mechanical. You skimmed. Skipped paragraphs. Let your eyes pass over the words without really taking them in. But then—somewhere along the way—you found yourself slowing down. The story was familiar, but it felt different now. The annotations were there, just like before. The same small, thoughtful notes in the margins. The same underlined passages, the same occasional sarcastic remark scribbled beside overly dramatic monologues.
And it still felt intimate.
Your chest ached. Gojo’s handwriting had always been a little messy, but now, you could hear his voice in it. The playful quips, the teasing corrections, the occasional rambling thoughts that trailed off mid-sentence. He hadn’t just read these books. He had shared them. With you. But it wasn’t until you reached the end of the book that you froze.
A note, scrawled beneath a passage about missed chances. About how sometimes, you don’t realise what someone means to you until it’s too late.
To whoever is reading this, I… really hope that this never applies to you.
And then, right underneath it, you spot a small sentence. Your eyes narrow as you lean in, catching the faint blue ink beneath the initials G.S., nearly lost beneath the hurried strike-through. It’s messy, almost like he had written it in a rush, then panicked and scratched it out before anyone could see. The ink is slightly smudged, the letters not quite as crisp as they should be. But you can still read it.
Your breath catches. The frustration twisting in your chest falters, cracking under the weight of what you’re seeing. This wasn’t just about G.S. This wasn’t just about some stupid rivalry, some elaborate, long-running inside joke only he was in on. He had liked you.
All along.
The truth of it presses against your ribs, turning your anger into something else—something hot and unbearable and aching. Because of course Gojo Satoru wouldn’t have just let you take that book without noticing. Of course he wouldn’t have just been some faceless mystery behind the initials. He had been right there, all this time. Watching. Waiting. Never saying a damn thing. You press your lips together, gripping the book tighter, torn between wanting to shove it in his stupidly smug face and the overwhelming realization that this—this whole thing—had never been a game to him.
Not really. Your fingers tighten around the edge of the page, heart pounding. You should be mad. You are mad.
But now? Now you don’t know what to do with the way your chest is clenching, your stomach twisting, the words replaying in your head over and over again. He really, really liked you. And he had been too much of an idiot to say it.
It wasn’t just a game. It never had been. Your fingers curled around the edge of the page, heart hammering against your ribs. And in that moment, without a second thought—
You didn’t hesitate.
You barely registered slipping on your shoes, grabbing your jacket, heading across campus toward the dormitories. Your pulse roared in your ears as you climbed the stairs, the weight of the book heavy in your bag. You remembered the way he’d joked about it once—how it was almost too easy to find his dorm because the boys’ rooms were stacked directly above the girls’.
("It’s like fate, babe," he’d drawled, slinging an arm over your shoulders. "You’re literally sleeping right below me."
"Don’t say it like that," you’d deadpanned, shoving him off.
He’d only grinned, stuffing his hands into his pockets. "What? It’s true. If you ever get lonely, just know I’m right there—" he pointed up dramatically "—in room sixty-nine."
You’d groaned at that. "Of course it’s sixty-nine."
"Oh, absolutely." His smirk had been positively insufferable. "The universe practically insisted on it.”)
And now, here you were. Standing in front of his stupid door, his stupid room number glaring at you, mocking you, reminding you of how easily he had wormed his way into your life. You knocked. There was a pause. Then—footsteps. The door cracked open, and Gojo blinked down at you, disheveled, his glasses slightly askew. He was in a hoodie and sweatpants, and for once, he looked genuinely caught off guard.
“What the hell are you doing here?” he whispered sharply. “What if the dean catches you? It’s past curfew.”
You ignored him. “Explain.”
Gojo stared at you. Then, with a sigh, he opened the door wider and let you in. His dorm was surprisingly neat, save for a few open textbooks on his desk. He ran a hand through his hair, exhaling before leaning against the edge of his bed.
“You want an explanation?” Gojo muttered, rubbing his temple as if trying to collect his thoughts. His voice was uncharacteristically hoarse, lacking its usual teasing lilt. He exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair before meeting your gaze.
“Fine.”
And then—something shifted in his expression. That raw, unguarded look returned, cracking through the facade of the cocky, untouchable Gojo Satoru.
“I liked you this entire time.”
Your breath caught. His words were quiet, but they landed like a stone in your chest, sending ripples through every assumption you had made about the past few months. No—longer than that. Yes, you had gathered from that scribbled annotation that he had liked you, but hearing it was different from reading it. The weight of what he was saying pressed down on you, curling around your ribs, making it hard to breathe. He swallowed, his Adam’s apple bobbing. His gaze flickered away for a second, like he was considering taking it back, like he was still terrified of saying it out loud. But then, with a short breath, he pressed forward.
“I—” He licked his lips, shaking his head slightly. “When I overheard you talking about the books, about G.S., I thought… I don’t know. At first, it was funny.” He let out a weak laugh, but there was no humor in it. “You, of all people, getting caught up in my annotations.”
A pang of hurt flared in your chest at that, but Gojo’s face twisted almost immediately, like he regretted saying it that way.
“I don’t mean it like that,” he murmured. “I just mean—” He sighed, dragging a hand down his face. “You always had this way of looking at me, like you had me all figured out. Like you already knew what kind of person I was. And I guess… part of me thought it was funny that I got to be something different in your head for once.”
Your fingers curled at your sides. You weren’t sure how to respond to that, but Gojo wasn’t done. His fingers flexed at his sides, like he wasn’t sure what to do with his hands. His eyes darted back to you, searching, waiting for you to interrupt, to tell him he was ridiculous. When you didn’t, he exhaled sharply through his nose, like he was bracing himself.
“But it wasn’t just the books,” he admitted, voice quieter now. “It wasn’t just some joke to me.” His lips pressed together for a moment before he continued. “Because the truth is, I—” He hesitated, then finally met your eyes again, his own brimming with something raw and unguarded. “I’ve liked you since freshman year.”
The air between you shifted. Your fingers curled at your sides as his confession settled in. You wanted to say something—anything—but all you could do was stare at him, pulse pounding in your ears.
He let out a breathy chuckle, rubbing the back of his neck. “Yeah. Long time, huh?” His voice was softer now, tinged with something almost self-conscious. “It sounds stupid when I say it out loud. But I did. I do.”
Your mouth felt dry. “Since freshman year?”
His lips twitched, like he wasn’t sure if he should smile. “Yeah.”
Your mind reeled. Freshman year. That meant before the rivalry, before the teasing had turned sharp, before you had convinced yourself that he was just some cocky, insufferable show-off who loved to push your buttons. Before you had started believing he only saw you as an opponent to one-up. Gojo sighed, dropping his head back slightly, staring at the ceiling for a moment before looking back at you. “You remember that first day of class?”
You blinked. “Where we had to introduce each other to the class?”
He nodded. “You were wearing that stupid oversized sweater that practically swallowed you, and you kept tugging at the sleeves like you wanted to disappear. I just– at first I thought you were just so cute” His lips quirked slightly at the memory. “And then you opened your mouth when we argued for the first time in class– remember? When you answered that question on vector components and I poked fun at you or something, and when you responded back to me, you had this… fire in you. You wouldn’t let me get a single word in edgewise, like you had something to prove.”
His expression softened, something unbearably fond flickering in his gaze. “And I just remember thinking—shit.”
Your breath hitched.
“I wasn’t supposed to like you,” he murmured, like it was a confession he had never meant to say out loud. “But I did. And when we started arguing all the time, when it turned into this whole thing between us, I thought—fine. If I couldn’t have you the way I wanted, then I’d settle for getting under your skin.” He huffed a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “And trust me, I tried to stop thinking about it. About you. But I couldn’t. And then you started borrowing those books, and it was like—” He exhaled sharply, like he didn’t even know how to put it into words. You swallowed hard, heart hammering.
All this time.
Every argument, every smug grin, every lingering glance across the room—he had liked you this entire time.
“But then you kept reading them.” His voice had softened, like he was talking to himself now as much as to you. “You kept flipping through those pages, talking about how much you liked G.S– and god, who am I to deny you when you speak like that? When you speak like that about my thoughts, my feelings, spilled onto the pages of those stupid books? And suddenly, I was waiting for you to borrow the next book. Waiting to see which parts you’d pause on, which annotations you’d react to. Waiting to hear what you’d say about G.S. So I–”
He exhaled slowly, his fingers tightening around the fabric of his hoodie.
“– I borrowed the remaining four books or so. I annotated every last one of them, annotated them so maybe, maybe I’d get to hear that gorgeous voice of yours talking about it in class again. I’d get to see that giddy smile when you’d refer to me as your Seiji Amasawa again. As your G.S. And honestly, it was worth the entirety of the long night I spent, just so I’d see you fucking smile throughout the day and snap less at me because G.S. wrote something that made you think he was similar to you– because in reality, with the way you viewed me– entirely my fault by the way– it would never be possible.” He took a deep breath after saying that.
“And I realised—” He paused, just for a second, like he needed to steady himself. “I liked it. I liked you. Not that I didn’t already like you, but— but I was falling. Like really deep.”
Something inside you twisted painfully. Your lips parted, but you couldn’t force out a response. You had spent the past three days agonizing over the idea that he had been toying with you, that this had all been some elaborate joke, but this—this was different. This was Gojo Satoru, stripped of his usual bravado, laying his feelings bare in a way that felt like it might physically hurt him.
“Then why didn’t you tell me?” you asked, your voice barely above a whisper.
Gojo let out a sharp, humorless laugh. He looked away, shaking his head as he rubbed the back of his neck. “Because I’m an idiot?” he said dryly. Then, quieter, “Because I’m Gojo Satoru, and I figured you’d never take me seriously?”
Your chest tightened at that.
Before you could process that, he spoke again.
“I know I was arrogant. I know I still am arrogant,” he muttered, his lips curling bitterly. “I push too hard. I’m too much. I act like I know everything, and maybe I do most of the time, but—” He swallowed thickly. “Those annotations… they were the only time you ever saw me.” His voice had dropped lower now, almost vulnerable, and something about it made your pulse stutter.
“Not the dumbass you argue with in class. Not the rich kid with the perfect grades. Not the guy who has to prove he’s the smartest person in the room.” He let out a slow breath. “Just… me.”
The silence between you stretched, thick and charged.
Gojo’s hands clenched at his sides, his knuckles going white. He looked like he was bracing for impact, like he had just thrown every last piece of himself at your feet and was waiting to see if you’d step on them. Your fingers trembled slightly as you reached for him.
Then—
You stepped forward. Gojo stilled the moment your fingers brushed against his hoodie, his breath catching in his throat. He stood up, towering over you, an unfamiliar glint in his cerulean eyes. You hesitated, your fingertips barely grazing the fabric before curling into it, fisting it lightly like you needed something solid to hold onto. His whole body went tense under your touch, his usual easy confidence absent now, replaced with something far more uncertain—far more vulnerable.
“You really are an idiot,” you whispered, your voice barely more than a breath against the space between you. His lips twitched, like he wanted to smirk, wanted to tease, wanted to be Gojo—but he didn’t. Instead, he just let out a shaky breath. “Yeah?”
You swallowed hard, your fingers tightening against his hoodie. “Yeah.”
The word hung in the air between you, weighty and full of something neither of you had the strength to name. And then—before you could second-guess yourself, before doubt could creep in—you surged up onto your toes and kissed him. Gojo made a startled sound against your lips, his whole body going rigid for half a second, like he couldn’t quite believe what was happening. But then—slowly, desperately—he melted into it. His hands found your face, cupping it with a tenderness that made your heart twist. His palms were warm, his grip firm, like he was terrified you’d slip away, like he needed you to know this wasn’t a joke to him. That it had never been. He kissed you like a man making up for lost time—deep, searching, like he had been waiting for this moment far longer than even you had realized. When he tilted his head, his lips pressing more firmly against yours, you felt it—all of it.
Every unspoken word. Every missed chance. Every moment that had teetered on the edge of this but never quite fallen. His fingers slid into your hair, his thumb brushing softly against your cheek, like he was memorising the way you felt beneath him. Your heart was a wild, unsteady thing in your chest, thundering against your ribs as you pressed yourself closer, your hands sliding up from his hoodie to clutch at his shoulders. Gojo let out a quiet, almost desperate sigh against your lips, like he had been holding back for so long that finally getting to kiss you was unraveling him.
And maybe it was.
Because as much as you had spent the past few days convincing yourself that this had all been a game to him, this—the way he was holding you, the way his fingers trembled just slightly against your skin—told a different story. Gojo Satoru didn’t play games with things that mattered. And you—somehow, impossibly—mattered. When you pulled back, slightly breathless, Gojo just stared at you, like he couldn’t quite believe you were real.
Then, slowly, he grinned. “So,” he murmured, his thumb tracing your cheek. “Does this mean I’m forgiven?”
You rolled your eyes, but you didn’t step away. “Don’t push it.” Gojo laughed, bright and real, before pulling you back into his arms.
“God, do you know how beautiful you fuckin’ are? It drives me insane,” he mutters, his voice low and rough, sending a shiver down your spine. His breath is warm against your lips before he swoops down, capturing your mouth with his own again, his large hands grounding themselves against your waist as if he’s afraid you might slip away.
You giggle against his lips, trying to push him off, but he refuses to budge. “S-Satoru—wait!” Your protest is muffled, barely audible between the kisses he keeps stealing, his lips soft but insistent against yours.
He lets out a quiet, needy sound, almost a whimper, his grip tightening on your hips. “Shut up,” he murmurs breathlessly, squeezing lightly at your waist as if that alone will silence you. “Been waiting to kiss this pretty mouth for sooo fuckin’ long… Let me get my fill, yeah?” You barely have time to respond before his tongue swipes across the seam of your lips, coaxing them open. The second you allow him in, he kisses you deeply—desperately—his tongue sliding against yours, tasting, claiming. The soft little noises you make against him seem to spur him on, his fingers pressing firmly into your sides as he tugs you even closer. His legs bump against the edge of the bed, steadying you between his parted thighs, and the world around you fades, leaving only the two of you tangled up in each other.
A surprised squeak leaves your lips when his thumbs slip just beneath your shirt, brushing against your bare skin. His hands are cold, the contrast against your warmth sending a jolt of electricity through you. He laughs—a quiet, smug chuckle—and then the bastard has the audacity to bite your bottom lip in amusement. “Shh,” he teases, lips brushing against yours. “Don’t wanna get caught sneakin’ into my dorm after hours, do you?”
Before you can even process a response, his hands move to the backs of your thighs, gripping firmly as he lifts you off the ground with ease. A gasp leaves your lips, legs instinctively wrapping around his waist as he manoeuvres you to the bed. He turns smoothly, lowering you down onto the mattress before climbing over you, his movements slow, deliberate, eager. And this time, you don’t hesitate. Your hands fist the front of his hoodie, yanking him down in a clumsy rush to kiss him again, your breath mingling with his as your noses bump. His glasses shift slightly from the movement, and with an annoyed huff, he pulls them off, setting them aside carefully before his gaze returns to you—hungry. His mouth is back on yours in an instant, moving with a mixture of urgency and something softer, something deeper. His lips trail from yours to your jaw, to the delicate skin of your neck, to the dip of your collarbone—his hands following the path his lips leave behind, fingers toying with the fabric of your open jacket. He pushes it off your shoulders tentatively, almost testing, waiting for you to stop him.
You don’t.
A pleased hum vibrates against your throat as his confidence grows, his hands sliding over your arms, your waist, memorizing the shape of you beneath him. Your arms wrap around his neck, tugging him impossibly closer, like you could mold yourself against him if you just tried hard enough. The kiss is more than just the heat of the moment. It’s more than just the weeks—months—of built-up tension. It’s the culmination of years of frustration, of stolen glances, of biting words laced with something deeper neither of you had wanted to acknowledge until now.
And maybe, maybe, it’s also the weight of finally realising—fully understanding—that the only person who had ever been able to keep up with you, to challenge you, to drive you absolutely insane, yet make you feel like this… was him. Satoru groans against your skin, nipping at your neck as his hands slip beneath your shirt, his fingers splaying across your waist. But even in the heat of the moment, he’s calculated. His lips map out a path of possessive little marks just below your collarbone—places that can be covered easily. Even now, he’s thinking things through. Your breath hitches when his fingertips skim the skin of your hips again, this time firmer, testing. Your cheeks burn, and the words slip out before you can stop them.
“You can—you can take it off.”
Satoru goes very, very still. You swear you can feel the exact moment he processes what you’ve just said, the exact moment he realizes that you mean it. His hands tighten slightly against you, his breath coming out a little shakier than before. And for once, for once—he doesn’t have some cocky remark ready to go. Because this? This is real. And for the first time, Gojo Satoru doesn’t want to ruin it with a joke. He gently tugs your shirt up and over your head, eyes eyeing the new expanse of skin that has just been made available to him.
“My gorgeous girl…”
He whispers out, before he’s back to lavishing your skin with attention, paying close attention to your breasts, lips lovingly, reverently moving across your skin with gentleness you hadn’t thought possible by him. You don’t know what possesses you, but something suddenly clicks and shyly, you unclasp your bra, leaving your entire upper half bare, making Satoru’s breath hitch. And then, in a moment that takes you completely by surprise, he does something that makes your heart both melt and swell—if that was even possible.
Because instead of his usual teasing, instead of his cocky grin or some flirtatious remark that would make you roll your eyes, Satoru simply looks at you. Really looks at you. His intense blue eyes don’t dart downward like you half-expected, don’t darken with some unchecked hunger. Instead, they stay locked onto yours, unwavering, all traces of playfulness and impulsive need fading away. What replaces them is something quieter—something gentler. A tenderness that makes your breath catch, your chest tighten.
Satoru, who always had a joke ready. Satoru, who always teased and never took anything too seriously. Satoru, who could have had anyone but had spent years bothering you instead—staring at you now like you were something fragile, something precious, something he wasn’t sure he deserved to touch. His throat bobs as he swallows, and then, carefully, softly, he speaks.
“Are you sure you wanna… do this?” His voice is quieter now, laced with something that sounds an awful lot like uncertainty. Like he’s terrified of ruining whatever this is. “I’m not—pressuring you or anything, am I?” His fingers twitch slightly at his sides before he hesitantly lifts a hand, reaching out toward you—not to pull you in, not to take what you’ve offered, but to tuck a few strands of your hair away from your face. His touch is featherlight, barely there, but it sends warmth spreading across your skin.
“I just—” He exhales, gaze flickering between your eyes, searching, as if trying to read your thoughts. “I don’t want you to feel like you have to. If me kissing you made you think you needed to… y’know, do anything more—then I’m sorry.” The words leave his lips like a confession, like the idea of you feeling obligated to be with him hurts him. And that—that simple fact—makes something inside you ache. Because Gojo Satoru, for all his arrogance, for all his relentless teasing and larger-than-life presence, was standing before you now with uncertainty in his eyes. Not because he didn’t want this—God, did he want this—but because he needed to be sure that you did too. For a moment, you just stare at him, your heart pounding so hard you can feel it in your fingertips.
Because this isn’t how you thought this moment would go. Not with him—not with Gojo Satoru. You had braced yourself for teasing, for him to say something infuriatingly smug, to grin like he had won some long-fought battle. But instead, he was looking at you with quiet hesitation, with care. With something that felt like love. Your throat tightens.
“Satoru.” His name– his first name, not Gojo– leaves your lips in a breath, barely above a whisper. His hands—so sure and confident only moments ago—remain frozen where they rest against your sides, like he’s afraid that if he moves, you’ll change your mind.
“I want this,” you say, and you make sure there is no room for doubt in your voice. Your fingers curl around the fabric of his hoodie, grounding yourself in the feel of him. “I’m not saying it just because you kissed me, or because I think I have to. I want this.” His lips part slightly, but no words come out. His grip on you tightens just a fraction, like he’s trying to make sure you’re real.
You take a breath, steadying yourself, because you need him to understand—really understand.
“I’ve wanted this for longer than I want to admit,” you confess, a nervous laugh bubbling up in your throat. Your fingers flex where they rest against his chest, feeling the steady thud-thud-thud of his heart beneath your palm. He’s warm, impossibly so, like he’s radiating heat just for you. “And it scares me, Satoru. You scare me.” His brows furrow, the corners of his mouth dipping slightly downward. “Scare you?”
You nod. “Because you make me feel things I don’t know how to deal with. You drive me crazy. You make me want to strangle you half the time, and the other half I—” Your voice catches, and you swallow thickly before continuing. “I want to be near you. I want you to look at me the way you’re looking at me right now.” His hands slowly slide up your sides, not rushing, not pushing—just holding. His thumbs brush against your ribs, barely ghosting under the underside of your chest, but even that light touch sends a shiver up your spine.
“You have to know this isn’t just some impulsive decision for me,” you tell him, voice softer now, filled with something you can’t quite name. “I don’t do things just because they’re convenient, or easy, or expected. I do them because I choose to.” You reach up, cupping his face between your hands, feeling the warmth of his skin beneath your palms. His breath stutters when you stroke your thumb over his cheekbone, and for the first time since you’ve known him, he looks completely lost. “I’m choosing you,” you whisper, staring straight into those brilliant blue eyes. “Not because you kissed me. Not because of some annotations in a book. But because I want you, Satoru. I want this.”
A shaky exhale leaves his lips, and for a second, you swear he stops breathing altogether. His grip on you tightens just enough for you to feel it, his fingers pressing into your waist like he’s holding himself back. Then, slowly, so slowly, he leans in, forehead resting against yours. His breath is warm against your lips when he speaks.
“You can’t take that back now, y’know,” he murmurs, his voice low and almost reverent.
“I wouldn’t dream of it.”
In a flurry of kissing and movement, his hands roamed over your breasts, fingers pressing and kneading with a slow, deliberate touch that sent shivers down your spine. Every brush of his palm left a burning trail in its wake, making you arch into him, craving more—needing more. His lips never left yours for long, only breaking away to breathe, to murmur your name against your mouth like a prayer, before diving back in, desperate to claim every inch of you. Your own hands found their way under his hoodie, fingertips exploring the firm ridges and planes of muscle beneath. He was all taut sinew and warmth, his body solid beneath your touch, the faintest tremble betraying just how much he wanted this too. Heat pooled in your lower belly, a slow and delicious ache, as you pressed your palms flat against his stomach, feeling the way his muscles flexed under your touch.
And then you felt it—the thin trail of hair below his navel, soft against your fingers, leading downward. Your breath hitched at the realisation, a flush creeping up your face as your hands lingered there, tracing along his happy trail. The sensation made him shudder, his breath stuttering for just a moment before he let out a low, breathy chuckle. “You’re teasing,” he murmured against your lips, his voice rougher now, his grip tightening slightly where he held you.
You shook your head, though your fingers betrayed you, still trailing feather-light touches just above the waistband of his sweats. “Just exploring,” you whispered, emboldened by the way he reacted to your touch, the way his muscles tensed as if he was barely holding himself back. His entire body felt heavier now, weighted with desire as he sucked in a slow breath. His fingers twitched against your sides, like he was restraining himself, before he finally gave in.
With one fluid motion, he pulled his hoodie over his head and tossed it aside, leaving his torso bare. The sight of him knocked the air from your lungs. He was beautiful—lean but strong, his chest rising and falling with uneven breaths, skin warm and golden in the dim light. The definition of his abs trailed down to his happy trail, disappearing beneath the waistband of his sweats. There was something intoxicating about seeing him like this, vulnerable yet utterly self-assured, the usual cocky glint in his eyes replaced with something softer, something just for you. You traced your fingers lightly over his stomach, watching the way his muscles tensed beneath your touch. His breath came a little heavier, his hands gripping your waist like he was holding onto the last thread of his restraint.
"You're staring," he teased, though his voice was lower now, rough around the edges.
"Maybe," you admitted, dragging your fingertips just a little lower, reveling in the way his breath hitched. His lips curled into a smirk, but there was a heat in his gaze now, something dark and wanting. “Careful,” he murmured, voice barely above a whisper. “I might start thinking you like what you see.”
Your pulse thrummed wildly, heat licking at your skin as you met his eyes.
“I do.”
He gave you a full-blown grin, the kind that made his eyes crinkle at the corners, his canines glinting in the dim light of his dorm room. It was a look you had seen a hundred times before—mischievous, teasing, effortlessly confident—but now, there was something else underneath it. Something softer. Something real. His hands, warm and slightly rough, hesitated at the waistband of your sweats, fingers grazing the fabric as if waiting for permission. His touch sent a shiver down your spine, anticipation coiling tight in your stomach. But despite the heat in his gaze, despite the way his breath was uneven and his chest rose and fell just a little too fast, he didn’t move forward. Not yet.
“Are you sure?” His voice was lower now, quieter, cutting through the thick silence that had settled between you. His usual bravado was nowhere to be seen—no teasing remark, no cocky smirk. Just Satoru, looking at you like you were something delicate, something he wasn’t sure he was allowed to have. Like he was terrified of doing something wrong, of ruining this moment before it could fully begin. You could feel his hesitation in the way his fingers flexed against your waist, could hear it in the way his voice wavered just slightly, as if he was bracing himself for you to change your mind.
It made your heart ache. You reached up, cupping his face gently, your thumb brushing over his cheek. His skin was warm under your touch, and he leaned into it instinctively, like he couldn’t help himself. His breath hitched, just slightly, and you saw the way his lips parted, the way his lashes fluttered when your fingers traced along his jaw.
“Satoru,” you murmured, voice steady despite the way your heart was hammering against your ribs. His eyes flickered to yours—deep, cerulean, searching.
“I’m sure,” you whispered. “I want this. I want you.” For a moment, he didn’t move, like he was letting the words settle, like he needed to make sure he heard you right. And then—
He exhaled, something tight and heavy leaving his chest, and his hands finally gripped your waist properly, fingers digging in just a little, grounding himself in the reality of the moment.
“God,” he muttered, his forehead pressing against yours, his voice almost shaky. “You have no idea how much I fucking love hearing you say that.”
He gently coaxed you out of your sweatpants, hand finding itself atop your underwear, breath hitching at the dampness that was present. Seems like this fueled his ego a little bit too much, because the next thing you knew, the Satoru you knew was back.
“Dang you’re wet as fuck.”
You gave him a pointed look and he faltered, the smirk on his lips morphing into a grin as he ushered out apologies. Your hands clutched the sheets when his fingers began to gently touch you, your bottom lip caught between your teeth as you eyed his hand with need. You couldn’t stay mad with him for long the way his fingers tugged the flimsy material down and began to work his hand between your legs. He grinned, experimentally probing around, ocean eyes half lidded.
“This is where you’re weak, right?” He murmured sensually, fingers finding your sensitive nub, eyes flickering up to watch your reactions, his pretty pink lips parted open in pleasure as he watched you come apart under him. He was precise with his fingers, circling you, teasing, pinching and rubbing, before thrusting in all the right spots, reaching places your own hand was unable to take you. Before long you had to let out muffled whimpers into his big palm that he had slapped gently across your lips; it covered almost the entirety of the lower half of your face– you were a bit loud.
Unable to take it anymore, you finally reached your breaking point, squirming underneath him as you came all over his fingers. Your chest was heaving, rising and falling in rapid succession, your breath coming in short, uneven pants as the aftershocks of pleasure rippled through you. Every nerve in your body felt like it had been set alight, over sensitised and trembling in the lingering warmth of his touch. Your skin was flushed, heat radiating from every inch of you, and the room felt impossibly small, like it was holding the weight of everything that had just passed between you.
Hungry for more, you made quick work of his sweats, sliding them and his boxers down (pokemon boxers but you were too needy to make fun of him for it). Satoru loomed above you, shakily guiding himself to your entrance, pale lashes fluttering as he looked down at you. He was hard– had been hard the moment you two had started kissing, pressing up against you in a needy manner.
“Su–Sure you can take it? Don’t need a break?” He breathed out, referring to the fact that you had practically jumped at the opportunity to take things further right after having an earth shattering orgasm thanks to his lanky fingers.
“So fucking sure– please, Satoru.” You flutter your eyelashes up at him, and he swears he almost comes from the sight. He nods, leaning down to kiss your lips gently, all the while he ushers himself inside you slowly.
Now you knew he had meant you not being able to take it because you might have been tired after your first orgasm, but now it felt more like he was warning you, because he was long, pressing inside of you deliciously. Once he had buried himself to the hilt, he halted in his tracks, giving you time to adjust. His face was screwed in pleasure, likely trying not to give in the urge to move. After a few minutes, when you deemed the feeling of him inside you as highly pleasurable and not the slight uncomfortableness that you initially felt while being split open in two, you murmured out a small “I’m ready,” and that was all it took for Satoru to start moving.
He kept up a slow, steady yet deep pace, his muscular form looming over yours, and for a moment, all you could do was look at him. The dim light of his dorm cast shadows along the sharp lines of his body, emphasizing the taut muscles in his arms, the sculpted contours of his chest, and the way his abdomen flexed with each controlled movement. His skin was flushed, a faint sheen of sweat glistening over his toned physique, catching the light in a way that made your breath hitch. His broad shoulders framed his lean build perfectly, his biceps taut as he braced himself above you, his fingers curling into the sheets as though restraining himself from losing control entirely.
And then there was his face. Messy white hair fell into his eyes, strands sticking to his damp forehead, and his lips—God, his lips—were parted, slightly swollen from kissing you breathless. His sharp jaw clenched subtly, his throat bobbing with a swallow, and when his gaze flickered down to meet yours, you felt like all the air had been sucked from the room.
His usual cocky grin was nowhere to be found. Instead, his expression was intense—raw, focused entirely on you, like nothing else in the world mattered. His impossibly blue eyes, darkened with something deep and consuming, dragged over your face, your body, drinking you in like you were something precious, something his. “Satoru—” you breathed, voice barely more than a whisper, but it was enough to make him groan, his grip on your waist tightening as he dipped down, pressing his forehead against yours.
“Fuck,” he muttered, voice rough, strained. “You have no idea how good you look right now. How good you feel right now.” He moved his hands from your waist, his fingers trailing over your skin as he shifted, bracing his forearms on either side of your head. The new position brought him even closer, his body pressing against yours, heat radiating between you as he continued to move within you. His breath was heavy, mingling with yours, and for a moment, it was all-consuming—the feeling of him, the weight of him, the slow, deep rhythm that sent shivers down your spine. When you had imagined being with Satoru like this, you’d thought it would be… different. You had expected teasing, cockiness, maybe even some ridiculous commentary, because that was just who he was. You thought he’d smirk down at you with that usual self-assured gleam in his eyes, crack some joke between kisses, whisper something infuriating just to make you blush. You had even braced yourself for the possibility of him being downright kinky, because he was Gojo Satoru, and he loved pushing limits.
But this? This was something else entirely.
This wasn’t just cocky flirtation or the result of years of pent-up rivalry and tension—this was intimate. It was raw, real, and so incredibly him, stripped of bravado and playfulness, leaving behind only the man in front of you. The one who had been waiting, wanting. The one who had loved you quietly, even when you didn’t know. His movements were deliberate, his touch reverent, his normally mischievous eyes dark with something softer—something deeper. When he leaned down, his lips ghosting over your cheek before pressing to the corner of your mouth, it wasn’t just a kiss—it was a silent confession. A plea. A promise. His fingers threaded through your hair, brushing over your temple, before trailing down to cup your jaw with aching gentleness. “You okay?” he murmured, voice hushed, almost breathless. You swallowed, overwhelmed by the warmth in his voice, the concern laced into every syllable, and you nodded, reaching up to lace your fingers through the soft strands of his hair. “Yeah,” you whispered. “I just… I didn’t expect this.”
A small, knowing smile tugged at the corner of his lips. He tilted his head slightly, pressing another lingering kiss just beneath your jaw, his breath warm against your skin. “Didn’t expect what?”
“For it to feel like this,” you admitted, voice barely above a whisper. “For you to be like this.”
Satoru stilled for half a second before exhaling softly, lowering himself further so his chest was flush against yours. His nose brushed against yours, lips hovering just out of reach, and when he spoke, his voice was almost fragile. “I don’t think you realise how long I’ve wanted you,” he murmured. “It was never just some passing thing, y’know? It was always you.” Your chest tightened, your fingers gripping his hair just a little harder as his words settled deep within you. The air between you felt electric, charged, as if the weight of every unspoken feeling had finally caught up with you both. He kissed you again—slow, deep, purposeful—and you melted into him, your hands roaming over his bare back, nails lightly dragging along his spine. He let out a shaky breath, his forehead pressing against yours as he moved, his body fitting against yours so perfectly that it made your heart ache. There was no rush, no urgency—only the quiet, lingering touches, the shared breaths, the whispered words against flushed skin. It wasn’t just about desire or need anymore. It was about something much more.
And before long, you were coming again, whispered cries of his name leaving your mouth as you tightened around him– and if he had indulged in the feeling a second longer, he would have finished inside. He splattered on your stomach, hissing at the feeling, pale eyes fluttering shut. After a few seconds of basking in the afterglow, he quickly went into his bathroom, grabbing a warm washcloth to wipe your stomach down. Your breath came in quick, unsteady gasps, each inhale failing to steady the trembling in your limbs. A slow burn lingered beneath your skin, every nerve alight with the remnants of his touch. The air felt thick, pressing in around you, charged with everything that had just transpired. Heat clung to you, pooling in the spaces where his hands had been, leaving you adrift in the aftermath.
Your fingers curled into the sheets beneath you, gripping them like an anchor, like you needed something to steady yourself against the dizzying sensation still coursing through your veins. A shuddering breath escaped your lips, and you swore you could still feel the phantom imprint of his hands on your skin, the way they had mapped out every inch of you with a reverence that made your chest ache. Satoru was watching you.
You could feel his gaze—heavy, intense, something unreadable flickering behind those endless blue eyes. His hands hadn’t left your body entirely, his fingertips still resting against your hips, warm and grounding. There was something in his expression that made your breath catch—a mixture of awe and something softer, something tender. Like he couldn’t quite believe what had just happened, like he was committing every second of this moment to memory. He swallowed, his own breathing uneven, before he leaned down, pressing a kiss to your shoulder—slow, lingering, like he just needed to feel you. His lips brushed over your skin again, trailing up toward your jaw, soft and unhurried, as if he had all the time in the world.
–
The room was bathed in the dim glow of his bedside lamp, casting long shadows across tangled sheets and discarded clothes. Your body still hummed from the aftermath, warmth pooling in your limbs as you lay half-draped over Satoru, your cheek pressed against his bare chest. His heartbeat was steady beneath your ear, grounding you in a way you hadn’t expected. For a while, neither of you spoke. His fingers idly traced shapes along your spine, the touch featherlight and absentminded, while his other hand rested lazily on your hip, holding you close. You could still feel the heat radiating from his skin, the aftershocks of everything you had just done settling between you in the form of comfortable silence.
It was intimate, more than anything. More than the way he had touched you, more than the way he had moved inside you—this moment, the stillness, the way he exhaled softly like he was content, was what made your chest tighten.
Then, of course, he ruined it.
“So,” he drawled, breaking the peaceful quiet. “Would it be weird if I rated that experience a solid twelve out of ten?” You groaned, weakly smacking his chest, but he only laughed, the vibrations rumbling beneath your palm. “Oh my God, Satoru—”
“I mean, I am the strongest,” he continued, completely undeterred, stretching one arm lazily above his head. “So it makes sense that I’d be great in every department.”
“You have got to be kidding me.”
He grinned, tilting his head to peer down at you. His hair was a mess, white strands sticking out in different directions, and his lips were still kiss-bitten, smugness radiating off of him in waves. “Oh, don’t worry, sweets, I’d never joke about my performance in bed—”
You smacked him again, this time harder, and he let out a dramatic oof, clutching his chest like you’d wounded him.
“You were being so sweet just a second ago,” you muttered, pouting as you nestled closer against him. “Why do you have to ruin it?” Satoru chuckled, his arms wrapping securely around you as he pulled the blanket over both of you. “C’mon, you wouldn’t want me any other way.”
You sighed, exasperated, but deep down, you knew he was right. He shifted slightly, rolling onto his side so he could face you properly, one long leg tangling with yours. His hand came up to brush a stray strand of hair from your face, his touch softer than you expected after all his teasing.
“…Was it really okay?” he asked, voice quieter this time. Almost hesitant. Your heart ached at the sincerity laced in his words, the way he was still Satoru, even after everything. Still checking in. Still making sure. You smiled, cupping his face in your hands as you pressed a chaste kiss to his lips. “It was perfect.”
A slow, almost shy smile spread across his face, and for a moment, the cockiness was gone, replaced by something softer. Something real.
Then, of course—
“Perfect, huh? So you are saying I’m the best you’ve ever had—”
“GOJO SATORU, I SWEAR TO—”
His laughter rang out through the dorm, loud and unfiltered, and despite yourself, you couldn’t help but laugh too, the warmth of it curling around your heart. The warmth of his body, the steady rhythm of his breathing, the lazy way his fingers traced along your spine—it was all lulling you into the kind of peace you hadn’t felt in a long time. The teasing had settled into something softer, something quieter, and as sleep tugged at the edges of your consciousness, you thought that maybe, just maybe, you could stay like this forever. Satoru shifted beneath you, his hand sliding from your hip to your waist, pulling you just a little closer. His lips brushed your temple, his breath warm as he murmured, “Hey.”
You hummed in response, not quite opening your eyes. His fingers tapped against your skin, hesitant. “Be my girlfriend.”
That woke you up. Your eyes fluttered open, your head lifting slightly to look at him. “Huh?”
He huffed out a soft laugh, like he couldn’t believe he had actually said it. The Satoru everyone else knew was loud, arrogant, untouchable. But right now, he was just a boy with messy white hair and sleep-heavy eyes, holding you close like he was afraid you might slip away.
“I mean,” he continued, clearing his throat, “we’re already doing all this. And I like you. A lot. So…” He exhaled sharply, his thumb brushing over your waist. “Be my girlfriend.” Your heart clenched at the quiet sincerity in his voice, at the way he was looking at you like you were the only thing that mattered. It wasn’t a joke. It wasn’t just another one of his playful remarks. This was real. A slow smile spread across your lips. “Wow. That was kind of romantic.”
He groaned, tipping his head back against the pillow. “Don’t make this harder than it needs to be, sweets.” You giggled, shifting to prop yourself up on one elbow, fingers threading through his hair. “You really like me?”
He turned his head back toward you, his eyes—those striking, endless blues—soft in the dim light. “Yeah,” he said simply. “I really do.” Your chest felt too full, your heart racing faster than it should have been after everything you’d already done tonight. But it wasn’t nerves or fear—it was excitement, warmth, the dizzying rush of knowing Satoru Gojo, of all people, wanted you in a way that wasn’t fleeting.
“Okay,” you whispered, leaning down to press a kiss to the corner of his mouth. “I’ll be your girlfriend.” He grinned instantly, arms wrapping around you as he rolled you onto your back, settling half on top of you with a triumphant look. “Took you long enough to say yes,” he teased, but the relief in his voice gave him away.
You laughed, shaking your head. “I hate you.”
“Liar,” he murmured, kissing you again, slow and deep, like he was trying to seal the moment in time. And maybe he was. Maybe you both were.
—
Getting into a relationship with Gojo Satoru was like being swept into a whirlwind—one that was loud, chaotic, and entirely consuming. Everyone around you had the same reaction when they found out: About time.
Shoko had rolled her eyes, exhaling smoke from her cigarette as she smirked. “Honestly, I thought you guys were already dating. You’re both just that disgusting.” Nanami had simply given Gojo a long, knowing look before shaking his head, muttering something under his breath about finally. Even Geto—before everything—had grinned, clapping Satoru on the back and saying, “I was starting to think you’d never get your head out of your ass.”
Satoru, naturally, took it all in stride, tossing an arm around your shoulders and grinning like he’d won the lottery. “What can I say? She couldn’t resist me forever.”
Your life since then had been… a lot. In the best way possible. Because being with Satoru meant being at the center of his world, whether you liked it or not. And he was obsessed with you. Absolutely obsessed. It was the way he always had to be touching you—his hand warm on the small of your back, his fingers playing with yours, his arm slung around your shoulders. It was how he looked at you, like you were the most fascinating thing in existence, eyes always following you, filled with nothing but admiration. It was the teasing—“I get it, babe. I’m super hot, but please let me study for five seconds without you getting distracted by me.”
It was the sweetness—bringing you your favorite snacks when you were stressed, pressing kisses to your temple when he thought you weren’t looking. Intertwining his large hand with yours and placing it in his coat pocket And, well, it was also the other things—
“Satoru, we have a lecture in twenty minutes—”
“Plenty of time, sweetheart. What, you don’t want to study with me?”
“This isn’t studying. You’ve been making out with me for the past ten minutes. And you really do need to stop. What if someone catches you in my dorm?”
“C’mon, I can’t resist you–”
“Sure you can, ‘Toru.”
“But you love me.”
You did. God, you did. And he loved you. He never let you forget it. You’d studied together for your physics final, working hard side by side. Even though Satoru acted like everything came easy to him, he did work for it. And so did you. You spent countless nights pouring over equations, bouncing theories off each other, fighting over who got to use the good highlighters.
And when results day came—
“Oh my God,” you whispered, staring at your score.
100%. Your hands trembled slightly as you clutched the paper, the weight of all those late-night study sessions, the stress, the endless debates with Satoru over formulas and theories—everything culminating in this moment. Pure, unfiltered pride swelled in your chest. Before you could fully process it, a loud whoop filled the air.
“YES! I knew it!”
Suddenly, you were lifted off your feet, spinning in a dizzying circle as Satoru’s wild laughter bubbled over. His strong arms wrapped around you, keeping you pressed to him as he twirled you around the hallway like an overexcited kid.
“My baby’s the smartest person in the world!” he crowed, not caring about the amused stares from your classmates. “Geniuses bow to you! The world kneels before you! Einstein weeps in his grave—”
You were laughing breathlessly by the time he finally set you down, his hands still firm on your waist as he grinned down at you. Your heart swelled at his excitement. “You did well too, right?”
“Pfft, of course.” He flipped his own paper up dramatically, flashing his score.
99%.
“I mean,” he sighed, shaking his head with mock sorrow, “you totally obliterated me, absolutely wrecked my pride, but it’s fine. Matter of fact, I think it was the fact I didn’t revise Bernoulli’s principle enough that resulted in me getting only 99%-”
In another world where he wasn’t your boyfriend, you would've smirked and gloated about beating him, and he would’ve snapped back with something equally smug. But instead, all you felt was pride—pure, unrestrained pride for him. You threw your arms around his neck, pulling him into a tight hug. “I’m so proud of you.” Satoru melted into you, his arms encircling your waist as he hummed into your shoulder. “Mmm, say it again. I like hearing that.” You chuckled, pulling back slightly—just enough to see the sheepish grin creeping onto his face.
“Actually…” he started, rubbing the back of his neck, his eyes glinting with something suspicious. You frowned. “What?” He exhaled dramatically. “You’re probably gonna kill me when you hear this.” Your eyes narrowed. “Satoru.”
“Okay, okay—” He raised his hands in surrender, before leaning in like he was telling you a juicy secret. “Technically, I got a 99 on the midterm.” You blinked. “…What?” He grinned. That smug, trouble-making, up-to-no-good grin. “Buuuut you looked so beautiful when you were all happy about your score, so I lied and said I got 95 last minute.”
Your mouth dropped open. “You—WHAT?!”
Gojo Satoru—the cockiest, most competitive man you knew, the one who never let anyone forget how brilliant he was—had lied about an exam score for you? He burst out laughing at your expression, reaching out to ruffle your hair. “Don’t go feeling all bad about it, sweets. This final weighed more than the midterm, so technically—” he booped your nose, “—you’re better than me.”
You were still reeling, warmth spreading through you as you realised he had lied to see you happy. “You changed your answer for me—”
“Yeah, yeah.” He waved off your shock, smirking. “I’m the best boyfriend in the world. You can say it out loud, babe.” You rolled your eyes, exasperated, before tugging him down into a kiss.
He instantly responded, his grip on your waist tightening, his lips warm and eager against yours. The teasing faded for just a second, replaced by something softer—something real. When you finally pulled back, he looked way too smug.
“…Still smarter than you, though,” you teased, just to knock him down a peg. Satoru gasped, clutching his chest dramatically. “Oh, you absolutely crushed my heart and then ate it—”
Before you could react, he suddenly straightened, towering over you with a wicked glint in his eye. His large hands slid around your waist, ushering you closer until your bodies were flush against each other. His voice dropped, suddenly deep and velvety, amusement laced with something more sensual. “Guess you’ll just have to make it up to me in bed, huh?”
You groaned, immediately shoving at his chest. “You’re the worst.”
“Your worst.” He waggled his eyebrows, entirely unashamed. You shoved his face away, laughing as he grinned, easily catching one of your wrists in his hand. Instead of saying anything else, he simply lifted your hand to his lips and pressed a lingering kiss to your wrist, his lips warm against your skin.
–
Later that night, you were curled up in his dorm, forcing him to watch Whisper of the Heart. He had grumbled and groaned, saying he’d already watched it way back in high school and that he "totally got the whole love and dreams thing," but you still made him sit through it. He spent the first twenty minutes sulking, arms wrapped around you from behind, chin resting on your shoulder like a spoiled cat.
“I’m way better than Seiji,” he huffed after a particularly sweet scene. “Like, a million times better.” You snorted. “Jealous of an anime boy, Satoru?”
“I’m just saying,” he drawled, tightening his arms around you. “If I was in this movie, she wouldn’t even look at him.”
“Uh-huh.” You leaned back against his chest, enjoying the warmth. “Sure, babe.” His fingers absentmindedly toyed with the hem of your sleeve, and for a while, you both watched in silence, the glow of the laptop screen painting soft shadows over the room. Halfway through the movie, you reached into your bag to grab your laptop, but something tumbled out and hit the floor with a soft thud. You blinked at the familiar cover of the last book.
“Oh crap,” you muttered, picking it up. “I forgot to return this.”
Satoru turned his head, eyes narrowing. “Wait…” He plucked the book from your grasp, flipping through the pages with an expression that immediately made you suspicious. “You didn’t return this yet?” You nodded, smiling sheepishly. “Guess I kinda forgot.” His fingers slowed as he reached the back cover, eyes landing on the borrowing log where the name “G.S.” had been scrawled in blue ink.
For a moment, he just stared. His thumb ran over the initials like he was absorbing the weight of them, of what they had meant to you before you knew the truth. His usual teasing expression softened, something almost nostalgic flickering in his eyes. Then, in a slow, deliberate motion, he grabbed a pen from his desk, twirled it between his fingers, and, without saying a word, carefully crossed out “G.S.”
You watched as he replaced it with something else—his full name, written neatly, in the same familiar shade of blue ink in the column beneath the crossed out G.S. He paused, then handed you the pen. Understanding settled between you like an unspoken promise. Without hesitation, you leaned down, pressing the tip to the page to the column under his name, adding your own in smooth, looping letters.
The same date. The same ink. Together.
Satoru stared at it for a long moment, his usual cocky grin nowhere in sight. Then, slowly, a smile spread across his lips, something softer, something fonder. He looked at you with that unreadable, almost reverent gaze—the one that always made your breath catch. And then, with absolutely no warning, he grinned and yanked you straight into his lap.
“Sooo,” he murmured, lips brushing your ear as his arms locked around you. “How does it feel to know you’ve been fantasising about me this whole time?” You groaned, swatting at his arm. “Satoru—”
He just laughed, effortlessly dodging your weak attempts at smacking him. “Nah, nah, don’t try to deny it! I knew you had a crush on me.”
“I did not—”
“G.S.,” he sing-songed, his breath warm against your skin as he nuzzled into your shoulder. “You thought I was some mysterious, tortured genius. Bet you used to daydream about me in class, d’you think I showed up as some mysterious faceless guy in your wet dreams?—” You grabbed a pillow and shoved it into his face. His muffled laughter rang through the room, and when he pulled the pillow away, he was still grinning. He kissed your shoulder, lingering there for a beat longer than necessary.
And this time, you let him gloat.
a/n: summary of this entire fic basically (art creds to su2kuna on 𝕏)
sorry if there are error/grammar mistakes or slight plot issues uni is lowkey gnawing at the folds of my brain and a girl gets sick of reading 32k words over and over again.. but i hope you all enjoyed reading this because i really enjoyed writing it :) huhuhuhu much love
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౨ৎ FRONT PAGE EXCLUSIVES .ᐟ
— red string of fate collection
౨ৎ HIGH-PROFILE CASES: LONG FICS .ᐟ
— free throws and figure drawings , told the nerd to film it and he exported inside me instead! , diet pepsi , a treatise on inconvenient attraction , the curious case of satoru gojo , in case of academic emergency, kiss me
౨ৎ ONGOING INVESTIGATIONS: SERIES .ᐟ
— a guide to ditching the world’s most persistent nerd! , love comes in small sizes , love thy neighbor , kill switch , wanted: dead or wed
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— roses bloom the prettiest in ruin , no one else needed to notice , all’s fair , love & war , wherever you want it, baby, i’m taking you there! , bet on blue , ivy , panopticon , illicit affairs , warmth waits here , skip me again and i’ll glitch your heart , shy girls suck the best , infinite void? more like infinite errands! , even softer than expected , co-parenting? no. co-pettying. , bite your tongue, i like it better bloody , call it first aid , you ever draw someone so hard you ride them? , your goddess loves you this much , something warm and golden , this love survives bad haircuts
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