Amatsuki’s 6th Anniversary Blog Entry (05062015)
Translation collaboration with milsteegun6615 !
This is the blog post that Amatsuki wrote in celebration of his 6th anniversary as an utaite, and I would highly recommend you to read it if you’re a fan of his as it’s filled with both joyful & painful memories of his journey up until now. Amatsuki really opened his heart for this, & it really shows!
Thanks again to Mi for translating & proofreading with me!
Blog link: http://ameblo.jp/amatsuki2525/entry-12023035563.html
(P.S. I deeply apologize for the shoddy tumblr format this post has, tumblr just hates me like that)
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“The Time Called the 6th Year”
While receiving replies from my listeners just earlier, I’ve realized!!
(Establishment date: May 6th, 2009
It seems that it has been exactly 6 years since I established my community!
In that time an elementary first grader becomes a first year in middle school you know!?!? (T/N: In Japan elementary school is 6 years)
When thinking back, 6 years have passed by in a blink of an eye like a dream
I liked listening to music
I liked anime & games
During that time when comments couldn’t flow on videos, when there wasn’t a place called Nico Nico Douga
I encountered a new genre on the Internet
Going to school wasn’t really my thing
I was also not good at making friends
I would turn my eyes away from the real world and submerge myself in the online world. That was my everyday
In the midst of all that
Vocaloids
Utaites
Those kinds of things became popular
Whooa! There are things like that!
Everyone’s so amazing…
But someone like me can’t really do anything…
And with those feelings, I only clicked on videos
But there came a day, when one could do live broadcasts on niconico
Noo, it wasn’t like I had anything interesting to say but
If it’s just chatting for a bit, perhaps even I might be able to it?
With such a small feeling, I tried my hand at live broadcasts
Of course, in the beginning no one would possibly come
In the frame of 30 minutes
Under 10 attendees
The comments that were left were
“What kind of live broadcast is this?”
“Wakotsu”
“wwww”
Having always been unable to properly raise my voice or talk continuously,
With the Skype mic that I bought using 1000 yen,
While battling against the PC I bought with my part-time job money,
I tried doing gameplays,
I tried doing karaoke broadcasts,
I tried doing voice imitations,
I tried singing covers by myself,
I challenged myself with a variety of things.
When I realized, around me little by little, internet friends and listeners (T/N: Referring to his fans), people like that who listened to me increased.
I also want to try challenging the Utattemita (song covers) that I adored…!
Through those sort of feelings, I started out as a (small) bud.
Of course, if you look at when I just started uploading videos
It wasn’t like I had been singing usually, so on my videos
“This guy’s level is sh*t”
“Gross”
“Go die”
“Why are you uploading these videos?”
It was filled with those comments w
“I like it quite a bit”
“Isn’t his voice good?”
Things like this might not be considered praise but
Here and there, comments cheering me on also appeared
Ahh, video uploads
They are super fun to make
Like live broadcasts, having someone that recognizes and reacts to me
That might be what I find fun? I have come to realize that.
As I wrote above,
I didn’t do well in school and I had few friends.
For me who had been bullied on top of that,
I was really, really happy to be recognized
More than anything, because listening to songs and singing were both favorite things of mine.
From there, I continued uploading lots and lots of both live broadcasts & videos.
While bit by bit the people who watched increased
People who disliked me also increased.
As I progressed with videos,
From the friends that I thought I was close to, I have ended up being slandered in the shadows.
Even though I never said that, and I didn’t do those sort of things either!
Why won’t you believe me!?
When I say, someone is spreading rumors, it’s really that you know?
Even when I objected, everyone around me wouldn’t listen to me.
Through the internet,
As a result of turning down a confession from a person of the opposite sex that liked me,
“He’s devouring (T/N: Has sexual implications) his listeners, his playing around with women is terrible”
There have even been times when baseless rumors were constructed against me.
Hurt by the heartless comments,
It was painful, painful, there were countless times when I was wavering on quitting.
But even in the middle of that, there were people who always cheered me on and
There were friends that always treated me well.
As the seasons change, I became busy and there are now friends that I have ended up contacting less.
There are also friends that I have been unable to meet again after moving.
From the days of being holed up my room alone,
I started live broadcasts speaking in front of 10 people,
I became capable of connecting through the Internet & singing songs in front of 100 people
I did one-man live in front of 1000 people
10000 people picked up my CD into their hands
I have become such that over 100000 people recognize me now.
Always, always day to day I’ve felt like I’ve been in a dream
During these six years,
I don’t know how many times I’ve cried from happiness and sadness.
I don’t know how many times I’ve laughed from the fun and happy times.
The me right now is happy
The me from the past, it’s really great that you continued the things you liked
I feel like I can say that to my former self now.
I wasn’t planning on discussing anything seriously but
Somehow I remembered a variety of things! w
I’m not putting on airs,
I’m not creating a character (facade) of any kind
I am really thinking this way from the bottom of my heart.
That’s why I think I can form the words in my mouth immediately at any time.
You’ve changed my world,
