t h u n d e r

'too many questions. just follow me.'

[xuntamed]

‘ To me, e v e r y t h i n g is personal. Remember that. ‘

independent selective roleplay blog for Shaw; of the otome game Mr. Love: Queen’s Choice. canon compliant, but also headcanon heavy. multiverse & multiship friendly. oc friendly. slow activity; due to work and mental illness. am also running a couple of other blogs, so activity will also be shaky due to that. 

dark content will be featured, explored, and written on this blog; all generally tagged accordingly. if there is a specific thing that might be lesser known that you would liked tagged to cover bases or if you would rather have your own specific tag for me to add, please do not hesitate at all to reach out in dms or inbox.

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xsalvaticn - vanitas- the case study of vanitas

xgildedmask - dominique de sade - the case study of vanitas

personifiedchaosx - jack frost - rise of the guardians

[ninety-nite-99]

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With MLQC coming to it's end of service and wiping the app eventually, Shaw is now officially my own character with the adoption papers signed and stamped -

[xuchiwa]

Final day of 2025 !

It was a rough year, my first full year of firsts without my fur baby. But it was also a year of many milestones that i'm proud of: Finding a full time job for myself alongside my per diem, getting my driving license, and getting a full ass car!

I also came back to tumblr like i've been meaning to, even though my activity has been stagnant with this new season. ( Trying to change that! ) I've also made some new friends here despite me feeling like my social skills have been declining jogkfog.

For next year, I want to try harder. I'm hoping it'll be the year me and my fiancee are no longer long distance and i'm hoping to be better at keeping my relationships and maintaining them with conversation.

I'm not really one for New Year's wishes because they haven't done much, but -- Why not?

I love you guys and here's to another year <3

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I am indeed still alive, just taking things one day at a time; it's rough out on these streets.

But!! I went to a concert last Sunday night, and oh my god, it was so much fun. I saw VOILÀ and their opener was a band called 'Not A Toy', and their lead singer's performance gave me so much Shaw vibes -

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@mangher | x

There was something seriously wrong ... Of course, Shaw had known that moments ago, but the longer he stood there; staring down ... whatever this was, the sinking in his stomach became more and more apparent. More ominous. The darkness surrounding them on all sides, trying to seep in from the corners of the street light felt like a trap -- like it was preventing him from seeking escape.

And he couldn't move. Shaw prided on being slippery, from finding ways to get out of any situation in which he felt threatened; an important skill to nurture when you were wanted by shady ass organizations. But ... he couldn't fucking move. It was Gavin, but it such as fuck wasn't Gavin, and seeing the shadows of other faces twist and shift just barely ...

He took a small step back, breath catching in his throat as he schooled his expression slowly to hide his discomfort; to hide the way scraps of fear that itched at him.

" -- You're not my fucking brother." It's been awhile since Shaw had willingly referred to Gavin as such, but he still knew him. Knew how he presented, how he came off and how he talked, and whoever -- whatever - this thing, person, monster was, it was not his older brother.

He swallows thickly, his body going still as amber eyes never removed themselves from the figure slowly circling him; like a predator closing in on the prey. " ... I'm not going to ask you again." His voice was more composed than he felt internally; steel despite his skittishness as static zipped down his body in preparation. " -- What the fuck are you?"

[heartscripted]

the flicker of the television bathed the room in soft, shifting light. callum sat cross - legged on the floor, remote in one hand, his jacket tossed somewhere behind him. " don't judge me, " he said, already anticipating it. " i needed something mindless. " he glanced up at them, deadpan. " & yes, i'm aware this is a dating show. " \ @xuntamed.

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"Too late."

Shaw's eyebrow remained quirked, thumb caught casually in his pocket as he remained where he had paused a few feet behind Callum, watching the flickering pictures for a couple of long moments; as though in confirmation of what it was. Amber eyes flickered down to his face for a moment, huffing a laugh as he went to drap his own jacket over the back of the nearby chair. " Well --- you found something mindless, alright."

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"You made it early tonight --- here to watch me go on later?" There's a curl on his lips, tilting his head just so to wait for the answer; the red panda ears affixed on top of his head with the help of a headband shifting with the motion. "I can make sure you have the best view on the floor ... but that's only if you can manage to convince me."

Don't worry, it's easy -- given what day it was, candy would do perfectly.

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"You made it early tonight --- here to watch me go on later?" There's a curl on his lips, tilting his head just so to wait for the answer; the red panda ears affixed on top of his head with the help of a headband shifting with the motion. "I can make sure you have the best view on the floor ... but that's only if you can manage to convince me."

Don't worry, it's easy -- given what day it was, candy would do perfectly.

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I logged into Mr. Love for the first time in over a month and got the 'your boys missed you!!!' entry screen where you can choose one and see their reaction to you being 'back'.

Shaw was basically just 'bitch if you ever fucking just up and leave me like that again i WILL cry, don't test me -- but yeah welcome back.'

and then flicked my forehead.

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@theircurse asked: They're giving Shaw a rock from their Halloween cauldron. Just because they can. But ok, he gets one piece of candy on the side too.

halloween 2025!

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"A rock?? Come on, do I look like I really deserve a rock?"

There's a pointed frown - if one looked a bit longer they might even label it as a pout - as he held the stone in the palm of his hand. Sure, the whole point was a 'trick or treat' but, come on?? Even if the cauldron looked a bit questionable, and if the expression on their face looked just a little too happy with themselves, he could of gotten something a bit better than that ! It was the season, wasn't it?

... But then barely a moment later he's given a wrapped piece of candy, and any disapproval on his face melts into a pleased smile.

" There -- now that's better."

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@sunscoped asked: “ so . . . “ since asking his favourite colour was met with such disdain last time, maybe he’ll try a different approach. and maybe he’s trying to act smooth, leaning against the wall, but it just looks out of place on someone like him. he’s not built for smooth talk - but it’s endearing at least, he’s sure. “ the weather is uh . . . weathering. “ no, damn it! that sounds stupid, god! why can’t he just talk like a normal person? “ listen, i’m good at small talk i swear you’re just — “ a grown, defeated and absolutely at it’s limits. “ i’m doing my best here, work with me a little! “

unprompted ask

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Oh ... This is adorable.

Shaw has dealt with people coming up to him with flushed faces and words twisting into themselves until the sounds leaving their lips seemed less and less like words the more time went on. It ranged from flattering to irritating, depending on the intensity and his own mood for that day. But Dae-Ho - despite his upsetting-ly boring question the last time they had interacted - was ... cute. The kind of guy whose emotions played plainly on his face, and as gold eyes flickered to said face to give him his full attention, he had to purse his lips to hide the grin that wanted to bloom over his lips. He almost succeeded.

" ... 'Weathering', huh?" He teases, voice dripping in his own amusement. Shaw wasn't on Live House's schedule this evening, neither was Isolated set to perform, so he had all the time in the world to entertain this conversation, arms crossing over his chest as he leans back against the bar; letting the edge dig into the small of his back.

The bassist brushes his thumb over his bottom lip, the smirk on his face widening as he offered him a once over. " ... No, No, go on. I'm listening." A tilt of his head, lavender hair falling into his eyes. " -- 'You're just'? ... I'm just what?"

[lamentborne]

* . ⊹  ꜱᴇᴏʟ ᴊɪɴᴜ   › ❝ IF YOU'RE INTERESTED , we're always looking for new members to JOIN THE PRIDE ... ❞

starter w/ @xuntamed !

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"Oh yeah --- that is what you guys are calling your 'fans', huh?" The 'Pride' -- if Shaw was honest, he couldn't understand the whole 'giving your fan base a name' trend. What would it even be for his band? The 'Isolationists' or some shit?

Gold eyes glanced over towards the other, away from the screen of his phone; pretending to contemplate it with a low drawn out hum. " ... Yeah. Think I might pass. From the sounds of it, you have more than enough to not feel my absence too much."

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Leaving you guys with Shaw during the mini 2025 halloween card event in the US server ( left ) and in the chinese server ( right ).

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Okay, things are normal ... must just be firefox being a dick or something. Gods ---

Since I'm here, a small update -- I got really sick Monday and am now just slowly starting to feel better! I'm hoping with me going back to feeling like myself it'll inspire some energy to put down into Shaw and just writing in general, but we'll see -- gotta regulate the change of seasons too tbh.

I'm still around, though!! Being nosy and watching you on the dash and might throw some asks in your inbox if I see any memes - if ya'll are cool with that - too. But I love ya'll and Happy Halloween eve!!

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Can ... people see this?

[starsbleed]

@xuntamed ⟡˖ ࣪ for a starter !

"have  you  gotten  yourself  into  trouble  again?"  nicolás  asks,  raising  a  brow  over  in  shaw's  direction.  they  don't  have  frequent  contact,  but  if  shaw  is  coming  to  him  directly,  he  must  need  something.  "i  can  only  pay  people  off  so  many  times,  shaw."