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What happens to a soul when he's trapped inside his e m o t i o n s? And all of these words he's spoken that bind him to the life he left behind? And every new step he takes he knows that he might not make it to all of these dreams he has yet to find? indie multimuse feat. Noé Archiviste of the case study of vanitas written by shadow

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independent selective roleplay canon and oc multimuse blog; including muses from vanitas no carte, final fantasy 7, my hero academia, genshin impact, and many more. canon divergent, headcanon heavy, and canon compliant depending on muse. multiverse & multiship friendly. oc friendly. slow activity; due to work and mental illness. am also running a couple of other blogs, so activity will also be shaky due to that. not necessarily affiliated with the specific fandoms. 

dark content will be featured, explored, and written on this blog; all generally tagged accordingly. if there is a specific thing that might be lesser known that you would liked tagged to cover bases or if you would rather have your own specific tag for me to add, please do not hesitate at all to reach out in dms or inbox.

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cared for by shadow ( mun is 30+; 18/20+ blog ) other blogs: Sasuke Uchiha - naruto - xuchiwa Shaw - mr love queen's choice - xuntamed Vanitas - the case study of vanitas - xsalvaticn Dominique De Sade - the case study of vanitas - xgildedmask Jack Frost - rise of the guardians - personifiedchaosx affiliated with: @etaliia / @towercursed , @rotinthedark, @hinodae / @innategrief, @innocence-impulse, @theircurse / @indeliblepromise, @allnostalgic, @starbloomed

Current Primary Muses: - under construction <3 -

Newest Muses:

Mel Madara ( Arcane ) Sky Young ( Arcane ) Vi ( Arcane ) Lynette ( Genshin Impact ) *Request Sigewinne ( Genshin Impact ) Alice Chen ( Legendborn Cycle ) Elijah & Zoelle ( Legendborn Cycle ) Nicholas "Nick" Davis ( Legendborn Cycle ) Selwyn "Sel" Kane ( Legendborn Cycle ) Valechaz "Valec" ( Legendborn Cycle ) Amaru ( Naruto / Naruto Shippuden the movie: Bonds ) Ino Yamanaka ( Naruto ) *Request Karin Uzumaki ( Naruto ) *Request Yukie Fujikaze / Princess Kyouki ( Naruto / Naruto the movie: Ninja Clash in the Land of Snow ) Annabeth Chase ( Percy Jackson ) *Request Hazel Levesque ( Percy Jackson ) *Request Rachel Elizabeth Dare ( Percy Jackson ) *Request

Hayate Takami ( oc; ship child of Keigo Takami/Hawks & Rapunzel/towercursed ) Reizo Orihara ( oc; ship child between Kaneko Akatsuki(oc) and Izaya Orihara ) -

[xuchiwa]

Final day of 2025 !

It was a rough year, my first full year of firsts without my fur baby. But it was also a year of many milestones that i'm proud of: Finding a full time job for myself alongside my per diem, getting my driving license, and getting a full ass car!

I also came back to tumblr like i've been meaning to, even though my activity has been stagnant with this new season. ( Trying to change that! ) I've also made some new friends here despite me feeling like my social skills have been declining jogkfog.

For next year, I want to try harder. I'm hoping it'll be the year me and my fiancee are no longer long distance and i'm hoping to be better at keeping my relationships and maintaining them with conversation.

I'm not really one for New Year's wishes because they haven't done much, but -- Why not?

I love you guys and here's to another year <3

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I go through life day by day and whenever I'm randomly reminded of Simeon from Ob.ey Me it's like being hit by a truck, cause like --

the reaction is always v i s c e r a l; like jUST ONE CHANCE --

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Life has been a bit rough. Half sure it's seasonal depression / autistic burnout because I've been feeling really just ... 'off'. Like i'm parading a human being kind of off, and i hate it.

I don't know how to fix it, but I want to. Thank you for being patient across all blogs while I work on my brain <3

[xuntamed]

Apologizing despite knowing that there's no real reason to apologize, buuutt -- I'm sorry. I've wanted to be everywhere, but I've been running myself near ragged with work and my sleep has been suffering greatly; which is a huge no-no when you're working overnight shifts for your main job. Trying to do some car searching, and also just generally trying not to loose my mind in general leaves little time for writing on here, and i'm sorry for people waiting on me, whether it be here ic or ooc.

Today would of been a good day to be active since i actually slept, but errands -- and tomorrow i'm going to the Big E for a few hours, and knowing me and my chronic pain, it'll be disastrous when i get home.

I'm hoping soonish I'll be able to poke at things really, but I can't really say the when on it happening. But I love you guys, and I promise, I want to interact with you guys! If i'm following I want to interact -- it's just been a bit difficult lately.

[xheartpages]

anon asked: Does the mun believe in second chances?

Depends. And HEAVY on the depends.

I've been burned a lot over the years, especially from ignoring my own instincts and leaning into just wanting to be liked / accepted / thinking i'm overreacting from things when they hurt me. I factor in the way things ended, the number of slights over the course of that relationship i've noticed due to hindsight, and just where i am currently.

I'll be so for real, i'm very tired. I'm tired a lot, and since losing my best friend - dog - last year, my moods have still to fully recover. If you asked me from a few years ago it would of leaned more towards a 'Yes', but where I am right now?

... I don't want to outright say "no" because it wouldn't be fully truthful. It just depends.

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Shipping Call!

Like this if you're interested in plotting a ship with my muses! ( romantic / sexual in nature; any kind, from toxic to healthy and everything in between. ) I will eventually hope into your IMs for plotting!

My interest checker for shipping is right here! : x

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Dynamics Call!

Like this if you're interested in plotting a non-romantic kind of dynamic between your muse(s) and mine! ( think found family, enemies, rivals, begrudging friends, friends, all of that good stuff. ) I will eventually hop into your IMs for plotting!

Interest checker is here! : x

[xheartpages]

Permanent Starter / Interaction call!

Like this if you are always down / do not mind if I basically annoy you with general interactions. This includes starters, asks ( both for memes and unprompted asks ), and anything else that can count for IC interactions. ( And even ooc interaction, so long as you're okay with my slowness / tenacity to disappear at times. ) This is to give me peace of mind of who I can randomly bother when I see memes reblogged on the dash and when i get randomly bursts of inspiration for asks. This is also a two way street -- you're 100% free to do all of the above for me and any muse as well. ( Including continuing asks and all of that, but that's more of a general thing. )

This will be easier if you know who you would like to bother you as well! Here's my interest checker that I'm pretty sure is up to date: Here

[redstonedust]

big fan of characters who look cool and tough and stoic but only because theyre internally thinking "fuckkk what do i say. how do i make friends. they didnt teach me how to do that in sword school."

[supremelordoffish]

dare i say, this fucker?

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@repetiita asked: ew

bruh, can i fucking help u -

[pallorpyrearch]

His  expression  doesn't  change  much,  eyes  sliding  away  as  he  tilted  his  head    to  glance  over  his  shoulder  again  at  the  smoldering  remains  of  the  old  convenience  store.  If  you  wanted  his  opinion,  he'd  say  he'd  done  the  city  a  favor,  given  the  place  was  just  a  squalled  den  for  rats  and  roaches  as  it  stood  before  his  flames  devoured  it.

Though finding a new place to train was going to be a pain in the ass, it was  nothing  that  hadn't  happened  hundreds  of  times  before.  That  was  a  problem  for  later.  For  now,  he  had  a  bird  to  watch ━  his  attention  slides  back  to  Hawks  just  as  nonchalantly  as  it  had  left  him  in  the  first  place.

A  little  huff  escapes  him,  not  quite  a  laugh,  not  quite  a  snort,  just  a  short  puff  of  air  exhaled  through  his  nose  in  amused  indifference.  ❝ I  was  practisin' and my  flames  got  a  little  outta  hand, ❞  as  if  for  emphasis,  he  raises  a  hand,  lighting  a  pale  blue  flame  in  his  palm,  its  spectral  light  mesmerizing  against  the  inky  black  backdrop  of  the  night.  ❝ Just  happens  sometimes. ❞ With  the  flame  dispelling,  he  then  slips  his  hand  back  into  his  pocket,  a  slightly  mischievous  smirk  tugging tightly  against  the  corners  of  his stapled mouth.  ❝ You're  not  gonna go  tell  on  me,  are ya,  hero ? ❞

There's  something  undoubtably  bitter  in  the  way  he  says  the  word  "hero".  It's  not  quite  a  sneer,  but  it's  close  ━  suspicion  wrapped  in  coy  candor.

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"Give me some credit -- if I was going to go snitchin' on you, I would of been done with it and not bother to show up."

It was always toeing a line when it came to him -- don't care too much. Don't come off as too nonchalant. Don't challenge or push too hard. A delicate balance that Hawks knew he could master, but it didn't make the dance any less difficult all the while as he tried to sell himself past the suspicion so he could get a bit closer to the League beyond surface level 'tests' and separated meetings on darkened streets with the scent of burning tickling at him. Nothing that he hasn't done or prepared for already, but it still bothers him all the while that he never feels like he's getting any closer; that he's one slightly wrong move away from the door being slammed in his face and loosing access forever.

Hawks releases a breath, brushing a hand over the back of his neck as he turns his face towards the direction that the sound of blaring sirens came from, noting that they were getting closer with every passing minute. They'd be upon them soon enough.

" -- But thanks to that, we might have to relocate our meeting -- as much as it tears me up inside." There's only the fainest hint of an easy going smirk on his features, the corner of his lips curling just barely as he settles golden eyes back onto his 'companion'; as though there wasn't a sliver of anxiety in the base of his stomach. " You got a plan b location in mind?"

[irenkharab]

Sweet birdie 🪶

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Back in the country! Unfortunately

I'm hoping to get back to poking on my blogs soon now that I'm home, so fingers crossed that we do. <3 Still ... readjusting to US time and I have work tonight --

[xuchiwa]

Semi-Hiatus!

Mostly for this weekend -- I made it to the UK in one piece and me and my fiancee have a wedding to attend this weekend and will also be sticking around the location we're at until we head back to her place later on.

So this weekend is busy as fuck --- and i'll be mostly with her. But when we get back to her apartment and we settle in for two weeks, it should get better! Just to give a heads up <3

[xuchiwa]

Semi-Hiatus!

Mostly for this weekend -- I made it to the UK in one piece and me and my fiancee have a wedding to attend this weekend and will also be sticking around the location we're at until we head back to her place later on.

So this weekend is busy as fuck --- and i'll be mostly with her. But when we get back to her apartment and we settle in for two weeks, it should get better! Just to give a heads up <3

[xheartpages]

Genshin email; Hey! We're doing voice interviews and will select people to participate!

Me, with built up resentment towards Genshin, Hoyoverse, and their blatant colorism and racism; is this my opportunity -