enjoy the journey☾

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Chloe Lecareux

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[dappledwithshadow]

“I should like to paint portraits which would appear after a century to people living then as apparitions. By which I mean that I do not endeavour to achieve this by a photographic resemblance, but by means of our impassioned expressions – that is to say, using our knowledge of and our modern taste for colour as a means of arriving at the expression and the intensification of the character.” - VAN GOGH

[vajeentambourine]

Your mixed feelings about your parents are valid.

Shout out to people like me who have parents who are loving but are black holes of emotional labor… It took me a long time to realize that it’s okay to have mixed feelings about your parents, about your relationship with them.

Sometimes parents can love you but be somewhat toxic to you and your growth, and that’s a very hard realization to come to if you, like me, grew up extremely close to them.

Sometimes parents can love you genuinely but lack emotional maturity, forcing you to perform disproportionate amounts of emotional labor. Some parents manifest symptoms of their mental illness in ways that are toxic to your mental illness.

Some parents, like mine, try so hard to be good parents but fall back on habits of emotional manipulation because they haven’t processed their own traumas and are modeling behavior they grew up with. That doesn’t make their behavior acceptable, and it’s okay to feel exhausted and hurt when they betray you. You don’t have to forgive every mistake.

I want you to know that it’s okay to protect yourself, to need some space apart from them. The love you have for your parents is still valid, and you are making the right decision.

Placing a safe emotional distance between myself and my parents has been one of the most difficult, heartbreaking processes I’ve ever gone through… it hurts to try to curb the strength of your own natural empathy around people you love. It feels disingenuous to your heart’s natural state.

But I promise you, you are not hard-hearted or ungrateful, and you are not abandoning them. You are making a decision about your own emotional, mental, and spiritual health.

I know what it’s like in that confusing grey area of love mixed with guilt and anxiety, of exhaustion and quasi-manipulation and unreciprocated emotional labor, and I promise you, you are not alone.

Your mixed feelings about your parents are valid.

[thescreechingheathen]

Needed this today.

[marieborealis-deactivated202011]

Thank you!

[xxvllison]

1. love has no face. no religion. no color. no gender. no conditions. no attachment. no requirements. love will come, however shall come. 2. your heart is your heart. don't allow anyone to limit, discourage, embarrass, or belittle you for feeling how you do. express yourself. 3. nothing is permanent. everything is temporary. letting go and moving on will become a routine. and eventually, you'll be okay with that. 4. real love will find a way to you when you are ready to become love. when you are ready to let your guard down. when you are open hearted. 🌹

[xxvllison]

enjoy being, what some people call lost. It's where I get to wander and wonder, do whatever I want. The mystery is the best part.

[themotivationjournals]

Don’t ask yourself what the world needs, ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who are alive.

Howard Thurman  (via wordsnquotes)

[xxvllison]

when you have friends who has the same passion and the same mindset as you. I am grateful.

[wordsnquotes]

Write her a letter, send her a flower, love only gets old if you let it.

William Chapman (via wordsnquotes)

[xxvllison]

sweet tooth

[xxvllison]

forever cozy

[xxvllison]

it's fun with down to earth friends ❄️

[xxvllison]

What else are you suppose to do during a snowstorm? It's the largest snow fall of the year says the weather man @cnbc; Sometimes you just have to go into the storm❄️