Endlessly Experiencing

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[y-ouri]

why do you always break my heart during my favorite season

[y-ouri]

idk why we continuously bother trying to see each other it never works out it is an endless emotionally traumatizing cycle and all we do is hurt each other i loved you so much but you are the most toxic thing in my life my heart can not take anymore pain i am so drained and numb 

you made me feel worthless and small and naive and stupid you tore me to shreds and i recklessly gave you that very power

you were my best friend

i miss you all time

but i am filled with way too much life and purity and love to be half-loved

[danielodowd-deactivated20170124]

//Taylor Matthews//

[adrixu]

[y-ouri]

FAVS

[stillnothingmovesu-deactivated2]

[danielodowd-deactivated20170124]

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[y-ouri]

How cliché of me is it to believe that I will not one day come across someone more suitable for me?

They could seem so right for me but are they you? No.

Do they tell me things I need to hear instead of feeding me fake advice to make me feel better? Do they help me grow as a person? Do they snap me back to reality? Do they have the ability to put me in my place? Do they make me laugh like you do? Do they make me feel like you do? Do they motivate me? Do they know me as well as you do? Do they sex like you? The amount of times where you’ve told me how thankful you are to have met me, how I’ve changed your life so much.. And I’ve only opened up once but months later. I acknowledged everything you’ve done for me and continue to do for me too late.. If I wasn’t as naive and stubborn back then, would we have worked out better? Might I have accidentally neglected you? I am so sorry.

You make me better everyday.

[y-ouri]

I guess I am pathetically clinging onto those words that I’ve read only once but once was enough for me to stay around months later

Strange yet painfully refreshing to reminisce and compare how we are now to how we were before

Before when I was naive and blinded before when we would go on dates and brag about how we were such a power couple before when your snapchat stories consisted of candids of me along with cute captions but that was before the unexpected yet expected pain that I still til this day have trouble shaking off

Now here we are almost a year later as best friends who talk 24/7 and argue like an old married couple now as best friends who still see each other romantically and can comfortably drop the infamous L word but will not touch those times again at least not now

Now here I am hoping deep down that you meant what you said that along the road maybe we can try again

But along the road with new faces and new experiences I deeply fear that it is indefinite

[wwworldandwords]

[madame-jules]

[fovity]

- F O V I T Y -

[danielodowd-deactivated20170124]

blakelybrowne

[awelltraveledwoman]

He probably was your soul mate. Your problem is you don’t understand what that word means. People think a soul mate is your perfect fit and that’s what everyone wants but a true soul mate is a mirror. The person who shows you everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet cause they tear down your walls and smack you awake but to live with a soul mate forever? Nah, it’s too painful. Soul mates they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you and then they leave and thank god for it.

Eat Pray Love (via awelltraveledwoman)

[tallblondecoffee]

[y-ouri]

Mental notes: Accept it, make it peace with it, and grow from it.

[y-ouri]

The pain increases everyday but I have to remind myself that this is all a part of the healing process and I must not stray away from my priorities.

[y-ouri]

faded under (not so) gold skies.

[y-ouri]

How do you deal with feelings of self hate and insecurity? I'm dealing with that myself and I read your post

i am constantly improving myself and trying to become better. growth is very important to me and when i look back at how i treated myself a few years ago.. it reminds me to only give myself love & acceptance. i do have random days where i relapse slightly into negative thoughts but i immediately remind myself of my accomplishments and great qualities. i treat me how i'd treat my best friend. with full support. love u. embrace u. u know u the best and u can love yourself the best.