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c'mere. I blog about people with disabilities/special needs, the struggles of a mid-twenties nomad, farming, loving, equality, fierce women, great writing, a handful of only the most excellent movies & tv shows and occasionally ghosts. welcome. I already love you.

[yadiddle]

Also this app update is terrible and I quit tumblr 5ever

[yadiddle]

I want to follow-up every factual, constructive, respectful comment I make on Internet things with "ya dum dum," but that'd defeat the purpose I guess?

[yadiddle]

A friend called tonight to tell me someone she loves is dying. Starving to death, even. In a hospital. Because her foster parent didn't get her treatment for pneumonia in time. She had only just learned to communicate via a speech generating device. Now she'll never speak again. I am so angry. I am so sad. I am so scared. And she wasn't even mine.

[sweetgum-tree]

Dear November, I want to be the kind of poet that sets people’s bones on fire, keep thinking maybe if I smoke a pack of cigarettes my words will speak instead of scream.  Dear November, I’ve never been in love, but sometimes I’ve been so high that everyone tastes good.  Dear November, I’ve been thinking about giving up or trying harder; I don’t know which one’s worse. Dear November, I’m a wreck, better off yours, better off yours.

on surrender, on forfeit, on white-flag encounters C.Y.H.  (via littlenothingsmysomethings)

[bostonpoetryslam]

I don’t understand where on my body to keep these feelings I might grow a new tooth for each of them and then afterwards tie them to the doorknob with red string and have someone pull the door closed

Kimmy Walters, “Tiny Nature,” from Uptalk (via bostonpoetryslam)

[transyouthequality]

At first we thought this might be too harsh to send to parents of trans youth as they are first becoming educated. Then we thought that this is EXACTLY what our children tell us they feel and experience when family does not use the right pronoun.

[hyperbolate-this]

FUCKING THIS MAN

[anorakbaby]

honestly why have so many of my fb friends got the french flag on their profile picture

[euphemystic]

Because European tragedies will always trump those in the Middle East, Asia, or Mexico. Because Paris is the city of lights and romance and a lot of people could care less about visiting Beirut or Baghdad, so they have less emotional investment for those places and their people. Because the news probably will spend two seconds on the violence that happened in the Middle East or the earthquake in Mexico and the huge devastating earthquake in Japan that will probably follow with more natural devastation, and spend the remaining 23 hours 59 minutes and 58 seconds on Paris coverage. Because the Western world is very blatant about their disregard for our neighbors in the East and South.

[iran-daily]

Religious scholar Reza Aslan answers CNN’s question, “Does Islam promote violence?”

[nevver]

Cheryl Weaver

[obviousplant]

[etiquette-etc-deactivated201409]

A long time ago, when you were a wee thing, you learned something, some way to cope, something that, if you did it, would help you survive. It wasn’t the healthiest thing, it wasn’t gonna get you free, but it was gonna keep you alive. You learned it, at five or six, and it worked, it *did* help you survive. You carried it with you all your life, used it whenever you needed it. It got you out—out of your assbackwards town, away from an abuser, out of range of your mother’s un-love. Or whatever. It worked for you. You’re still here now partly because of this thing that you learned. The thing is, though, at some point you stopped needing it. At some point, you got far enough away, surrounded yourself with people who love you. You survived. And because you survived, you now had a shot at more than just staying alive. You had a shot now at getting free. But that thing that you learned when you were five was not then and is not now designed to help you be free. It is designed only to help you survive. And, in fact, it keeps you from being free. You need to figure out what this thing is and work your ass off to un-learn it. Because the things we learn to do to survive at all costs are not the things that will help us get FREE. Getting free is a whole different journey altogether.

Mia McKenzie, creator of Black Girl Dangerous, author of The Summer We Got Free (via etiquette-etc)

i think i gasped a little when i read this because it’s almost word-for-word my therapist’s explanation of why i learned to be anxious as a child (“if your dad might blow up at any minute then your anxiety protects you”) and why it’s not helping me now (“he’s not here anymore”). 

(via dorightwoman)

Ooh my therapist talked about talking about my life as exploitation and I went bone silent

The things we we learn to survive don’t always make us thrive

(via guyanapeace)

this is exactly what my therapist says, with the addition that the path to healing does not involve telling this part of you that acted as a survival strategy to fuck off and quit complicating your life; it involves acknowledging it, thanking it for its work in keeping you alive, and then working on reassuring it and the rest of yourself that you no longer need that protection. 

(via songscloset)

[fvvck--it]

let's play a game called reblog if you're a lesbian

[autisticlifehack]

I've been thinking about getting some kind of oral stim toy but a vast majority of the ones I've encountered have been too hard and end up hurting my jaw after just a few bites. Do you know of any that are soft, or even hollow?

Any chew toys aimed at parents for babies can work as adult stim toys too! They can be better for lighter chewers; where adult-designed toys are often designed to stand up to heavy chewers instead and can hurt.

Mombelle octopus 

Sophie the Giraffe 

Silicone Cookies

Here’s a couple that look pretty soft. -Mod Nova

[faggotisaacfloofs]

I have TMJ and have the same problem with toys being too hard. the softest one I’ve found is @stimtastic‘s trapezoid.  (plus they’re 2 for $5, so even if they aren’t your thing, it’s not a huge fiscal investment)

also, they definitely break in a little, so even though they feel pretty stiff at first, if you can chew it a little or even just bend it around a lot, it will loosen up and be more flexible and less strenuous on the jaw! 

[yadiddle]

sentio chews are very soft, like solid chewing gum. http://www.sentiolifesolutions.com/sentio-chews/

[simply-quotes-deactivated202002]

It would be a terrible mistake to go through life thinking that people are the sum total of what you see.

Jonathan Tropper, This Is Where I Leave You  (via h-o-r-n-g-r-y)

[wordsnquotes]

I will love myself despite the ease with which I lean towards the opposite.

Shane Koyczan  (via wordsnquotes)

[nevver]

The New Yorker

[yadiddle]

me in a professional setting: haha yes it is I a fellow mentally healthy. so chums how do you enjoy always feeling the correct emotions at the appropriate times? personally I like how said emotions are always a reasonable intensity!