Very good female friend of mine, always platonic, tried to jump my bones years ago while we were both drinking at a party. Zero chance my dick is going to actually achieve any type of erection with the prescription meds I'm prescribed. And I sure as fuck don't want to explain that shit to anyone. And I didn't want to hook up. She's gorgeous and cool, smart, funny.... but over a decade younger, and other reasons I didn't want to hook up. Without making a huge awkward thing, somehow, I got out of things with our friendship unscathed. Probably in better shape. I'm older, like I said, and easily the smartest person* in our field so I've mentored her for a long time — it's a wrong thing for a mentor to become intimately involved with the people they mentor, even if just impromptu. It's illegal to do in many schools, and that's because it's immoral — an opportunity to do the moral thing without the law forcing you to take the action regardless of your own convictions.
*maaaaaaybe I'm only just a little bit good at what I do, but it pays to talk big because you'll have to make yourself capable of backing it up.
I was a little petrified she'd realize I'm limp as fuck with my meds, plus having a couple drinks wouldn't exactly help get rigid. The negativities of the limpness tradeoff for good mental & physical health can be reconfigured into an asset via eating a Viagra. I get hard as ffff, and definitely no chance of cumming without explicit desire to nut....... the cutoff point of not being able to get hard shifts down stream to almost being unable to orgasm. I like not cumming pretty often. "Semen Retention" has a lot of physical benefits. It's a Tantra, Kama Sutra, or whatever, thing. Gooning does the same thing. I don't like the way I feel after I cum during sex..... biologically there is a little caveman inside that says, "Ok, we bred with her. We're done. Time to find a different woman. It's the truly beast side of Man (Women have their own thing.) The cozy snuggle satisfaction with two bioelectrical bodies harmonizing their voltages to unify?? Oh, that's gone. Nice while it was there.
Isn't it weird how sex feels SO GOOD? Shouldn't spawning children be enough to want to do the act without being "bribed" with feelings of ecstatic and bliss? Yaaaaaah. Whoever created humans installed a trick that associates reproduction with the most intense physical euphoria we can experience. That's quite strange thing to go out of your way to do.
I'm too tired to proofread. My dog is getting old, and he's kind of in a bad way now. So a heavy heart & mind. Mom has been hospitalized again too. Heavy heart & mind, again.
Actually, gooning my brains out for a couple hours would be smashing. HOW THE FUCK did every part of the Internet become so entirely filled with unlimited, highquality, instantly accessible, pornography for FREE to anyone?? For me it's great — Mandingo; Dredd; Julio Gomez; Brickzilla; and a TON of amateur other guys with BBC the size of a loaf of bread here I come. Got my high powered Hitachi magic wand ready. I hope amazing porn is always available free like this.
