Inevitably, yo han returns to Korea. Ga on is in love with him and suspects the attraction is mutual but decides not to rush things - yo han is difficult to pin down, even more so when he feels cornered. Ga on wants him to come willingly. So ga on spends time with yo han that's both platonic and brimming with tension, the both of them circling each other with lingering gazes and touches longer than normal.
But of course ga on needs to dial down his sexual longing lest he act rashly and push yo han. So he picks people up for mutual one night flings, just sex, no feelings. The third time he does this he meets an older woman with dark hair and darker eyes. She's inscrutable. She makes his heart squeeze. Ga on's been avoiding sexual partners who remind him of yohan in an effort to compartmentalize, but this woman has an aura that draws him in.
He goes home with her. Maybe it's ga on's first time being pegged? Which...is a revelation. She's emotionally aloof but so, so gentle when she slides into him as he clutches a pillow. He enjoys it so much that he breaks his rule of one night stands and reaches out to her again.
Her name is jin hwa young. She's full of contradictions and in love from afar with a young woman from work. They understand each other and fall into a routine of sorts.
Meanwhile yo han is coming to terms with his undeniable attraction for ga on. One evening, he visits ga on's place without calling ahead. Ga on, is of course delighted to see him. But when yo han enters the apartment, jin hwa young is there. She knows who yo han is, knows ga on is long gone for him, knows that she fills a role for ga on with no expectation for more. But she's come to care for his well being, this man who reminds her of in joo. So she decides to help move things along in her own way.
Ga on prepares dinner while yo han and jin hwa young stare each other down. Just who is this woman, talking comfortably with his former associate judge and looking at ga on like that? A look that's proprietary; a kiss that's not a kiss. But yo han can't agonize over it too long because it's obvious ga on only has eyes for him, reserving soft laughs and softer touches for yo han, pressing their bodies together in quick flashes before pulling away, all under jin hwa young's watchful gaze.
The next time ga on leans into yo han while reaching for plates in the cupboard, yo han snakes a hand around his hip and keeps him there for a long moment. Ga on doesn't miss a beat while talking.
Satisfied, jin hwa young excuses herself from dinner. Yo han and ga on eat together. It's both the same and it's not. It's exciting but also natural, easy like things are between them these days. The underlying tension is building to a crescendo.
They clear away the table. Ga on carries the conversation even as he hyperfixates on every movement yo han makes. Yo han, who from the corner of his eye, is looking at ga on unabashedly with an all-encompassing heat. Ga on's skin tingles.
When ga on hands him the final dish to dry, yo han puts it down and pulls ga on into him. Just a kiss, ga on promises to himself, as yo han gets his hands in ga on's hair and their lips move together. Just one kiss, as yo han licks deeply into his mouth, crowding ga on up against the counter. When their lower bodies touch, ga on makes a sound yo han's never heard from him before. Any notion of waiting goes down the drain. Does he/can he/please jagi and ga on is saying yes, yes, yes.
In the bedroom, when yo han peels off ga on's clothes and flips him onto his stomach, he finds ga on already used there, loose and wet. Jin hwa young's doing. Yo han breathes through the jealousy but then ga on is turning back to reach up and kiss him, breathing assurances and promises between kisses. It's enough. It's not enough. It will be. Wrapped around ga on's body tightly, yo han takes him apart the way ga on needs.
The next morning, ga on slips out of bed quietly, careful not to disturb a sleeping yo han. In the bathroom's soft dawn light, he takes in his swollen lips, mussed hair, and eyes crinkled with elation. Idly, he traces a hickey forming at the bottom of his neck. Yo han had sucked there last night, before turning ga on's face for a hot open-mouthed kiss.
On an impulse, ga on turns to follow the bruise with his back facing the mirror and gasps. He's covered in them, yo han having thoroughly marked him. Soft bites and kisses with teeth following ga on's spine and the back of his shoulders as ga on was being railed.
Standing behind him, no one could miss them. Anyone taking ga on from the back would know he belonged to someone else. A kiss that was a kiss.
This ficlet was brought to you by my brain finding jin hwa young from tvn's little women incredibly alluring [that scene where she looks at in joo wearing her clothes was just] and wondering how she'd look pegging someone. Ofc ga on volunteered to find out.
